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  • Butch and Billlie, two straight guys, Make Steamy Gay Sex in the Store Break Room

    This story is due to ThomasC’s request for this hot story.

    As we left off the last chapter, the following Monday Butch and Billie were scheduled to work from 8 AM until 5 PM at the supermarket. At lunch time they went to the break room to prepare their noon meal. Billie had been dying all morning to learn how Butch’s Friday night had gone to satisfy his fantasy, as a straight man, to have his first man suck his cock and let Butch fuck his  first young stud’s ass. Billie had made those arrangements for his brother Mickey and cousin Hank to help out Butch in a three way.This was Billie’s way to keep his secret when he had found his brother and cousin fucking in the barn.

    When Butch began to describe the steamy sex scene from the Friday night orgy, Billie became horny as hell. He went over and locked the door. In his lust and raging hormones as a 24-year-old handsome 5-feet and 10 inches, brown eyes, light brown hair and 160 pounds, he grabbed Butch the 32-year old, 220 pound, 6-feet and some 4-inches, former semi-pro ice hockey player by the crotch. He shocked Butch when he slowly unzipped Butch’s pants, ran his hand inside the hot shorts, grabbed the growing big 10-inch cock and began to jack him off.

    This caused Butch to return the favor as he unzipped Billie’s pants, the truly straight dude with a girlfriend, located his 8-inch cock and began to pull it out to start jerking him off.

    BUTCH TELLS THE STORY OF WHAT HAPPENED THAT DAY IN THE BREAK ROOM

    I could not believe that my hot story of the fucking sex with Mickey and Hank had such an unpredictable effect on the one dude that I knew to be the most straight guy in the entire state. What had happened? Was he so excited about my sucking and fucking with his brother and cousin that caused him to loose all inhibitions regarding gay sex. He was attacking me as if he was a fucking gay sex addict. I had just turned into a gay lover on Friday night and now here was this real handsome lady’s man turning a gay trick.

    In an instant, Billie began to slowly lower my pants, knelt and took off my shoes, threw my pants off to the side, put his soft warm fingers under the waist band of my briefs and pulled them down my muscled legs and off. He stood, pulled my supermarket shirt over my head placing the front of the shirt behind my neck, leaving the shirt on my back and returning his handsome hands around the base of my cock. I was now only in my birthday suit.

    Billie’s cock was standing stiff outside his unzipped pants with a spot of pre-cum on the cock head. As he shuck off his shoes, I slowly lowered his pants, slid my hands around the back of his briefs and took them down and off. I pulled his store shirt over his head and off. He had now joined me as a naked man.

    I took his big cock in my hand. It felt so soft and velvet like. We began to jack off each other. After some 5 minutes of masturbating each other, Billie grabbed both our huge steel hard cocks and placed them together rubbing them across each other with both his hands. Hell, the feeling of the two cock sliding over one another had me about rather to shoot a load.

    We moaned, grunted and began to drip pre-cum from our cock heads. Soon we were dripping with sweat running down our rigged bodies. The lust was so powerful that Billie placed his red rose lips up to my huge thick lips while still rubbing our cocks together. I opened my mouth inviting his wet strong smelling tongue to the back of my throat. The heat from our mouths and the growing saliva spewing from our mouths caused our cocks to literally grow harder.

    The lust was now our masters. Billie let go of our cocks and we began to fiercely hump as our big cocks slid up and down our abs and lower stomach. The sweat began to run like a river down our heads, chests, stomachs and onto our crotches. The manly smell of rich odors were pure sexual gratification. No female had ever come close to making us this lustful, horny or excited. We began to scream and yell from the growing lust. We forgot about being heard or even aware of where we were. It was only Billie and I that counted.

    Soon Billie grabbed me by the back of my head and said: “Holy fuck Butch, what has happened to me and yea even you? Have I died and come back as a fucking fag? I have never been this turned on and wanted human flesh like I want you. Please suck my cock. Hell, I bet you now know how to give fucking hot blowjobs after last Friday night with my baby brother Mickey and cousin Hank. Suck my cock down that hot throat of yours. I have never wanted my cock sucked more than right now. Here get down on your knees and take my leaking fucking cock in your mouth.”

    I flopped down on my knees, grabbed the base of this huge cock shaft, placed my hot lips  stretched hard around his cock head, bore down hard and sucked the dripping pre-cum out of his cock. Man, it tasted even better than Mickey and Hank’s cum. It must be true that each man’s cum has a unique taste. At that instant I thought I’ve got to suck many cocks to find out. Oh shit, I know I’m now a fucking gay cum slut. I’ll never get enough of a variety of cum but I’ll try for a daily supply.

    But back to the cock in my mouth. I started to slowly inch his big tool deep into my throat until I had deep-throated that manly cock. This caused Billie to go into an orbit. He began to push his hips forward and drive his wet cock further into my mouth. I sucked and he thrust his hips forward as I sucked him harder and harder. I used my tongue to tease his cock head, run my tongue around his cock head, slide my tongue around his shaft and at times clamped my lips hard on his cock. I could feel ever vein in his cock pulsating while he moaned with pleasure.

    He was beyond horny when he said: “Oh holy shit, yea that is it. Suck my big manhood. Oh fucking great, you are the world’s best cock sucker. No woman could ever satisfy my cock the way you are. OH hell, oh my holy cock, it loves your mouth. My balls have never been this hot. Man, milk me dry. Milk me dry. Empty my nuts. Drink all my semen. Let me become part of you with my seed. Oh Mmmmmmmm, Ahhhhhhhh, Mmmmmmm, Ahhhhhhhh, I can’t hold back. Man, here I come. Take my cum, you slut, you whore, you fucking man eater.”

    I felt his cock stiffen and become even harder in my mouth. I actually felt the cum oozing up his cock shaft until he blasted a river of hot thick white semen deep into my throat. I pulled part way off his cock so I could taste his man seed on my tongue. Yea, it was both sweet and salty. Again it was better than that of Mickey and Hank but just another flavor of my now favorite food and protein.

    When he was spent, he pulled his still semi-hard cock out of my mouth, slapped it against the side of my face and then ran it down my chest and stomach leaving a small train of cum on my body. Oh, the smell was so great.

    Now it was time to get off my rocks.

    I ordered Billie to get down on his knees in front of my crotch and bobbing hard cock near his face. 

    “You fucking bitch, you slut, you fucking whore, suck my cock. I bet you can’t take my whole 10-inch fucking cock down that cute throat and mouth. But you’re going to try. I’m going to fuck that hot mouth until you milk me dry. Get it slut.”

    “Yea, Butch, just try me. I’m fucking going to show you that I can suck that cock of yours to the base. I’ll show you how to be a real cock sucker. You’ll cry for help when I get through sucking you so hard that you will empty ever drop of that thick white cum of yours. It will take you three days to regain a supply of man seed. Just watch me.”

    This so turned me on that my cock actually grew to a new record. I swear that I was then 11-inches. My cock had never been this stiff or long. Billie took his strong hands and gripped the base of m y cock and sucked my cock down his throat in a few seconds. Shit, he swallowed ever inch of my blood filled aching and pulsating tool. He started slowly and soon sped up as he came on and off my cock. Shit, he was incredible as a first time cock sucker. He was super great.

    He used his tongue, big lips and hands to wildly suck my cock. He ran his hands up and down my cock shaft while he came down and off my cock. The rhythm of sucking my cock and using his hands on my cock were so arousing. I could feel ever vein in my cock pulsating. No mouth had ever felt this good on my manhood. I was near coming in a short time.

    “Oh Billie, oh my god, suck my cock. Yea, Mmmmmm, Ahhhh, shit, I can’t last. I feel my cum gathering in  my balls. Oh here comes my orgasm. Please milk me dry. Eat my cum, here is your lunch. Yea, oh shit, I’m coming, I’m coming, take it all. Swallow my cum baby.”

    As I shot my load, Billie drank ever drop until I was milked dry. He came off my cock and kissed me as we shared what was left of my cum.

    We got dressed as our lunch hour was up.

    Billie said: “Hey, Butch, this has to be the best sex ever had in Tennessee. Can I come over to your apartment tonight and you fuck my ass? Are we going to tell Mickey and Hank what we did?”

    I told him we need to think about that for awhile

  • The Jungle Boy of Fairmont Forest

    Sometimes I wonder if living in Bredmire Valley my entire life has irreversibly junked up my personal reality of what the world is really like.  I mean, nearly 18 years of ‘small town’ stuff has a way of warping a guy’s perception.  

    Plenty of local guys I’ve hung out with here in town would agree, because when you miss out on things like movie theaters and shopping malls and Taco Bells, it’s almost as bad as going without porn. I have dreams about eating hot-sauce-drenched tacos for breakfast, then heading out to the mall to watch the latest horror flick or two, and finally coming home on the subway, where I’d meet a mysterious non-english speaking Russian spy, who’d use sex as a weapon to get me to give up American secrets or something.  

    That’s why Bredmire sucks.   

    The only other gay dude in this town besides me is Barry Finbaker, and he couldn’t tell you the difference between a cum shot and a flu vaccination.   

    I guess I should focus more on the things I do have, like nature and privacy and never having to worry about long lines or stop lights.  But sometimes that just doesn’t cut it.  

    Luckily, by the end of summer things will be changing dramatically.  My brother and I finally decided on a college this year, and we chose to attend California’s University in Santa Cruz, which is not only a lot bigger than our town, but also has the obvious surfing perk and all the bikinis that go along with that.  

    Not that I’m a big bikini fan, but, um… my brother doesn’t know that.  

    Going off to college together wasn’t by design.  It just happened that my brother took a year off after high school to work and save up some money.  That allowed me to ‘catch up’ to him, since I graduated this year.  Our folks insisted that we attend the same college — mostly for ease of visiting us both at the same time — and for financial reasons.  

    So to celebrate my graduation from high school, and to get away from our parents, we had planned a three day camping trip this summer with our friend Dane, who will be going his separate way for college.  It’ll be incredibly sad losing such a good friend, but the way we all figured it, we could go out with a bang by making the camping trip a crazed warm-up to what living the frat life will likely be like when we make our big move to an actual town.  

    On ‘paper’, it seemed like the perfect plan.  But God or Satan or someone decided to screw things up. The trip never got off the ground because my brother had to cancel at the last minute. Our one and only grocery store in town called him in for a summer job he’d applied for, and he couldn’t let the camping trip stand in the way of the extra money he’d be able to earn.  

    I knew I was screwed,  because Dane is more of my brother’s friend, and I’ve always been a ‘tag-along’.  No way he’d wanna go camping with just me.   Nothing wrong with dreaming about it though.  

    This is kind of weird to admit, and I’d never tell a living soul, but almost every time I jack-off, it’s because of Dane. It’s such a turn on slow-stroking to the thought of someone you can’t have.  When I’m all jacked-up like that, and I finally shoot all over the place, sometimes a stray shot will bust between my lips and detonate inside my mouth before I even have time to react. It’s because I foolishly get my face way too close to my AK47 boner — and BAM, it’s all over.   But when that happens to me I’m cool with it, because I like to imagine it’s Dane’s spermed-up spunk that’s blowing down my throat, and not my own.   

    It’s sorta awesome.  

    Anyway, this morning as I was out sitting in my usual spot under the willow, I was pretty much resolved in knowing that today would be like any other day.  But I didn’t let that stop me from daydreaming about how fun camping could have been.  Last year the three of us had a blast doing all kinds of stuff like hiking, playing cards, cooking, being arsonists with the campfire, and dancing around like idiots.  It just doesn’t get any better.  The only down-side is there’s no place to swim up there, but everything else was pretty much perfect — especially the creepy darkness of the forest when it’s time to tell horror stories at night.  

    And just as my fading daydream was slipping from my mental grasp, my return to reality was inturrpted by the sound of someone pulling up in our driveway out front.  And there was no mistaking the sound of the engine.  It was Dane’s Jeep.  

    I figured that it was a pretty safe bet that since my brother Cody was at work, Dane had dropped by to give me a ‘maybe next year’ slap on the back.   You know, like one of those hospital visits where you stop by to be polite, and stay just long enough to make it look like you care.  

    And a few minutes later, in he walks through the gate that opens to our backyard, and he heads right for me.   As he approached within around ten feet of me, I tried to summon mental powers that would allow me to freeze him in time.  But my mental powers suck, so I just tried to memorize him instead.    

    He was only wearing two things:  A pair of burnt-orange sweat pants that he’d converted to shorts, and a pair of hiking boots.  He looked like a teen G.I. Joe might have looked before he joined the military — not overly muscled, but beefy enough to make your dick fall in love with the inside of your pants pocket.  And as he came up closer to me, he flipped his dark brown hair away from his jaw-dropping green eyes, completely oblivious to how awesome that one simple movement made him look.  And as usual, his dimples — which are like weapons of mass destruction — looked like they were throwing a party for his handsome, unshaven face.  

    And I swear on a bookshelf full of bibles that I’m not a pervert for noticing this, but he was definitely going ‘commando’, and his monster dick looked like a caged animal — the kind that should be taken back to the wild, and set free.  

    I learned that from watching Animal Planet.  

    I gulped in some air, and did my best to act like seeing a half-naked teen-god  was something I do several times a day.  

    “Yo,” I said smiling, “‘sup man?”  

    He fired a smile back at me, and ran a hand through his uncombed hair — which made his ripped abs and bulging biceps look like they were challenging each other to a flexing contest.  

    “Hey bruh, you know, just checkin’ on your status.” 

    What a strange thing to say.   

    “My status?”  I asked.  “My status is non-existent.  I’m just sitting here, Forest Gumping my day away, wondering if I should go on a long-ass run or pop open a box of chocolates.”

    He laughed, and looked over towards the house.  

    “So, I take it you’re already done packin’ and shit?”  

    “Huh?  You mean for college?” I asked.  “I still got time.  But it might not be such a bad idea to get a jump on it I guess.”  

    He looked back over at me, and shook his head.  

    “Dude, I mean for the camping trip.  Did you forget about it or what?”

    I wasn’t following him at all.  

    “Um, no, of course not.  It got cancelled, remember?  Cody has to work.”

    There was a long pause before he spoke again.   And then he says:  

    “So the deal is that because your brother has to work, that you cancelled our trip?  Dude, what the fuck?  I mean, I got the Jeep packed and ready to go.”

    I think my balls heard him before my ears did, because I felt them stop whatever they were doing, and look at each other in disbelief.   

    But if you knew Dane as well as I do, you’d see that he was kinda pissed off at me.  It was like he wasn’t even going to wait for me to respond.  He looked ready to bolt — he even started turning around to leave.  

    I stopped him just in time.  

    “Fuck, Dane,”  I said, “I swear to God I didn’t know you still planned on going.  I just figured there was no way in hell you’d want to go without Cody. Me and you have never done anything together.  Not ever, right?”  

    He turned back towards me.  

    “You’re so sketchy sometimes.  What’s up with that?  We’ve been friends for fuckin’-ever.  Cody and me don’t do shit by ourselves either, because us three are always together.”  

    Of course he was right.  And I didn’t know what to say.  ‘Sorry’ would have sounded lame.   

    “I can be ready in 20 minutes.”   I heard myself say.  

    I jumped up like someone had taken a flame torch to me, and practically sprinted to the house.  Dane just shook his head at how corn-ball I must have looked.  I usually do a better job suppressing emotions than that.  But this time was an exception.     

    So by  going at warp speed, it didn’t take long to shove what little I was bringing into his Jeep. And since he had packed all of the food, it made it that much faster.   

    It almost felt like I was escaping prison; that I had to hurry before I got caught ‘busting out’. Giving my parents time to get home from work and change their minds about me leaving town — minus my brother — was not an option.  

    Anyway, the escape was a success, and I was a pretty happy convict once the penitentiary was in the rear-view mirror.   

    It was a long-ass way to Buck’s Pass from where we live, and by the time we got high enough up in the mountains to see pine trees and icy, crystal clear streams raging along the roadside, we must have listened to a million songs, singing along with them until each of us was hoarse. 

    We had the top down, letting the wind blow in our hair, and it felt like I didn’t have a worry in the world.  The further we got away from home, the more free it felt. 

    During the times when it was my turn to drive, you could see that Dane felt the same way. He’d push back his seat as far as it could go, prop up one of his size 15 feet on the dash, and let his other leg just sort of dangle up over the top of the passenger door — singing his ass off, and tapping his hands on his stomach like he was playing the drums.  Every now and then he’d smack his hand on my knee, which was apparently part of his drum set.  

    My knee’s never been that happy.  

    I guess that’s what they mean when they say ‘getting there’ can be half of the fun.  It was super chill.  But, after such a long drive, I’ll admit that it was a relief when we finally arrived at our camping spot.  If you’d heard Dane sing non-stop for three hours, you’d be relieved too, by the way.  But I will admit that when someone is that sexy, it almost doesn’t matter if they can’t carry a tune.   You just smile at the end of the song and tell them how amazing they sing — and they believe you.   

    Anyway, the campsite hadn’t changed at all since we’d visited last year, probably because so few people even know that it exists.  In fact, it doesn’t even have a name, at least not that I know of.  It’s land that’s owned by the government, and it’s pretty undeveloped except for the fire ring, a shaky picnic bench, and an out-house that must have been built back before Christ was born. The forest really closes in on you when you’re so isolated like that, and when you look out at the towering cedars and gnarled pine trees, it almost seems haunted.  

    But best the thing about the campsite is that it’s free, hardly anyone knows about it, and you don’t need to worry about neighbors ’cause there’s only one spot to camp.  So, not that it would be any less boring than Bredmire, but at least we’ll be bored on our own terms.  

    After we arrived, Dane was the first to jump out of the Jeep.  And as usual, the first thing he did was to let out one of his back-arching, arm stretching, Gozilla sounding yawns.  

    It actually echoed it was so loud.  

    He does everything in a big way like that, probably because of an excessive testosterone disorder or something.  

    I just shook my head and laughed as I took in the ridiculous over-drama of it. And looking at him standing there in his hacked off sweat-shorts, I could easily see why the girls love the fuck out of him.  I wonder how many notches he has on his bed post?  I don’t have any yet.   

    “So, Jason,” he says over to me, “let’s start this thing the right way.  There’s an ice chest buried somewhere in the back of the Jeep, and if you dig around and find me a beer, I’ll start setting up the tent and shit.”  

    Sounded good to me.  So I stepped out of the Jeep, walked around to the back, and started pulling out stuff until I found the cooler.  He took a few steps closer to me, as I opened the thing up, and grabbed him a really cold one.  

    “Coor’s talls?”  I asked, as I handed him the silver can.  

    “Yep, my Mom used to down this shit when she was preggers with me.  According to her I was born buzzed, happy and hard.  So I stuck with it, and it’s never let me down.”  He said, taking the can from me and smiling at his own lie. 

    I watched as he popped it open, took a long swig, and adjusted his over-sized manhood — all in one fluid motion — as if beer and big dicks somehow calibrate each other. 

    And after finishing off half the can, he nodded to me, then over towards the ice chest. 

    “Go for it man, I’m not your brother… you can have one.”  

    He was right about that.  He’s definitely not my brother, and nope, Cody would have never let me drink a beer.  He protects me like that even though we’re only one year apart in age.   Either that or he just wants more beer for himself.  

    I’m no fool, so I grabbed one and cracked it open just like Dane had done.  But I think he was a little more skilled at it than I was.  Especially the chugging part.   But who cares?  It tasted great after all of that driving.  

    And as if we were on auto-pilot, we automatically started unpacking all of our gear, setting up our super cool home away from home.  Since we only had a small dome style tent, I left that to him, while I brought out the folding chairs and bags of groceries.  And by the time I’d set everything out, I realized that we had enough food for at least a week.  No complaints there.  

    As the afternoon wore on, we set up a horse-shoe pit, and played a few games.  I think he won most of them, and probably let me win when I did.  And after a while when it got sort of hot out in the full sunlight,  I bravely ditched my t-shirt.  I was a little self-conscious at first, just wearing my surfer shorts in front of a guy that’s got a body like Dane has.  

    But swimmers like me have smooth, lean stomachs and broad shoulders and shit, so that should count for something, right?  And there’s nothing wrong with having an embarrassing bubble butt, or plain blond hair, or regular blue eyes — lot’s of guys do — and they get by just fine.  But I doubt they score as much as Dane does.  

    Oh well.  

    As evening approached and the sun sunk down below the tree tops, Cody made a great fire.  He had volunteered to do the first night’s cooking, which was going to consist of cooking hot dogs on a stick, and then putting them on buns and drenching ’em with chili.  Pretty easy stuff, but he acted like it took the talent of a master chef to pull it off.  It was fun watching him, actually.  And seeing him work his magic in those raggedy frayed shorts, soaked with sweat in all the right places was kind of cool too.  

    And as he cooked, he drank another beer, and even had a few shots of tequila he’d brought while we listened to tunes.   No way I could keep up with him.  But I did try one shot of the gold, and man, that stuff packs a serious punch. 

    After dinner, we ended up plopping down in our camp chairs, and just took in the fresh air as we watched the fire burn.  It had been a really good day — even without my brother — so I guess it would be fair to say that I was happy and shocked all at the same time.  

    We hadn’t done much talking up until that moment.  Until then it had just been about listening to our favorite songs.  

    “Hey Jason,” he said out of nowhere, “do you ever think about what’s gonna happen when you can Cody become members of the War Lord House?”   

    I was caught off guard by the question, and had to think about it for a second.  

    “Yeah,” I said, looking over at him, “as far as frat houses for S.C.U. go, that one has a pretty bad rap when it comes to hazing.  We’re fucked.”  

    He squirmed a little in his chair, and took a gulp of beer.  

    “Exactly.  You two should probably think about what you’d be getting yourselves into.  You gotta know they’re gonna make it hell for you.  Those dudes get off on making you do shit you’d never wanna do, just to embarrass the fuck out of you.  Add to that, that you are brothers, and I can see how it might be pretty gruesome.”  

    I Looked off into the darkening forest.  

    “Well, no one’s twisting our arms,” I said.  “we could join a different frat.  But Cody said something about War Lords getting all the hottest girls hittin’ on them.”  

    He ran his fingers through his hair, trying to put logic to it.  

    “Yeah, that’s what I’ve heard.  But I mean, would you be willing to put up with the things they’ll make you guys do? I think I’d do some of it, but not if the heavy shit would destroy me  — if  it’s too crazy.”   

    “I guess I can handle being humiliated in front of a bunch of ‘frat brothers’, but I’d rather not.  Who would?  But that’s just how it is if we want all the perks, including the dirt cheap room and board.”  I said.

    He flashed me a questioning smile.  

    “Uh huh,” he says, “Well, you can pretty much count on them making you do the easy stuff, like sucking face, but what you don’t know is how much more it could become after that.  And I’ve heard blindfolds are usually involved, so there’s no way to know your audience, or if you’re being recorded.  I’m just saying…”  

    I wasn’t sure how to respond to that one either, so I just winged it.  

    “Yeah, I guess if we’d been normal brothers, we would have already done a bunch of that shit like lots of brothers do growing up.  So we sort of fucked ourselves over in a way.  And now we’re too old for the ‘experimental phase’ of our lives.  So let’s just hope they don’t surprise us too much.”  

    I know he was just trying to look out for me and Cody.  I get that.  It’s cool to know you have a friend that cares about you like that.   

    He seemed to be thinking over my last comment, but he said nothing.  So I did something dumb, and opened my big mouth, as usual.  

    “So dude,”  I said, feeling my face redden, “you’d really do the kissing thing if you were me and Cody?”  

    He shrugged his shoulders and gave a quick smile.  

    “Last time I checked, kissin’ ain’t sex.  So sure, if it got me into my dream fraternity.”  

    I smiled back, nervously.  

    “Prove it.”  I heard myself say.

    I took a deep breath… and waited.  My heart was racing like an over-wound clock, and I’ll bet my face had gone from red to purple by then.  I was a dead man.  Or at least that’s how I felt.  He just shook his head, like he was in disbelief or something.  

    And I waited…

    And he finally says, “If that’s your way of calling me on a bluff, you obviously don’t know me very well.  I’m gonna need you to stand up and go grab our t-shirts.”  

    Huh?  

    That was supposed to be the part where he told me to go fuck myself.   And I’m not sure why, but I did as he asked, wondering what I’d gotten myself in to.  And before returning with the t-shirts, I figured it wouldn’t hurt if I turned up the music a little louder, and grab him his tequila bottle.  

    When I returned, I set everything on the picnic table, and just stood there like an idiot, not knowing what to do next.  So I watched as he got up, and came over to where I was.  

    He stood a good two inches taller than me, and must out weigh me by 40 pounds.  He seemed huge, standing that close.  And between the heat radiating off of his body, and the overwhelming scent of raw masculinity, I was —  intimiated.  

    By then, I still hadn’t ruled out the possibility that my chin would find his fist.  After all, I’d just dared him to ‘haze kiss’ me.  But instead of re-arranging my face, he took the bottle, swigged a gulp, and set it back down, all while eying the t-shirts.  

    “Here’s to finding out if you’ve got what it takes to be a frat boy.  You might wanna lose the gum, and turn your baseball cap around backwards.  And if we’re gonna do this the way they’ll make you do it in college, you’ll need to flip-roll those t-shirts up.  One for my blindfold, and the other to tie my hands behind my back.”  

    OK, so this was NOT happening.   But it didn’t stop me from doing exactly as he’d asked.  And by the time I had the blindfold on him, and his hands tied behind his back, I was starting to like this hazing thing.  A lot.  For one thing, I could take my time looking at every inch of his body without the risk of being busted.  That freeze frame of him I’d wished for earlier in the day had become a reality and more.  

    But what now, I wondered.  Was I suppose to just start kissing on the guy?  I mean, until just then it didn’t even occur to me that having him all to myself in a situation like that would get me hard — like– instantly.   So if I got super close to him he’d KNOW that I’m on the other side of the ‘playing field’.  I panicked, and I stalled as I took a step back, praying for a miracle solution to pop into my head.  

    “So,” he said in is crazy-deep voice, “this is the part that’s gonna take some balls, and this is why hazing can make you, or break you.  Ball’s in your court man.”  

    Fuck.  

    I think he was almost enjoying this.  

    My choices were:  

    A.  Kiss him and NOT make lower body contact so I could hide the fact that me and my dick are in fucking love with the dude.

    Or…

    B.  Do nothing, and prove to him that I’m not going to be able to hack hazing, and that I’m a total chicken-shit wimp.  

    And that’s about the time that my miracle happened.  

    From somewhere in the darkening forest, there was a rustling sound, followed by a fairly loud snap — like something or someone had stepped on a small fallen branch.  

    “Jason, dude, did you just hear that?  What was that?”  

    “Um, give me a sec, it’s sorta hard to see out there.”  

    And… yeah, there was something out there alright.  Deer.  Three of them.  And don’t ask what came over me next, because I’m not sure I could ever explain it.  But I did what I never do — I lied.  

    “Yeah, I see something.  Um, he’s behind some trees — like 20 feet away from us.  But yeah, there’s some young looking dude there.  He’s wearing what looks like a homemade swim suit.  Like a loin cloth.”

    Ok, so I’m a bad liar, but at least it bought me some time to figure out what I was going to do with my boner and our haze kiss.  

    “You’re fucking with me, right?” 

    “Actually, no, I’m not.  It’s just some dude that must be curious about us or something.  Or I dunno, maybe he’s lost.”

     “Nah, no shit?”  he whispered back, “did he see you looking at him?”

    “I’m not sure.  Maybe.”  

    “That’s crazy. There’s no houses around.  No other campsites.  Nothing.  Where did he come from?”   

    “Must be a runaway.”  I offered.  

    “Yeah, a runaway that knows where there’s a swimming hole around here.   That’s some pretty good incentive to find a way to talk to him and his swim suit.”  

    I couldn’t believe my ears.  He was buying it! 

    “Maybe.”  

    He simply smiled, and I wasn’t sure what that meant.  

    “Sounds like a plan.”  I replied.  

    “Um, is he still there?”  

    “Yep, “like I said, I’m guessing that he likes what he’s seeing, and wondering what the fuck me and you are doing.  But he’s keeping his distance, and I don’t think he knows we’re on to him yet.”  

    He thought about it for a minute.  

    “Well if he likes what he’s seeing, just start making shit up as you go along. Something that will get him to come over here.”

    No way, I thought to myself.  

    So I stepped closer, so we were nearly toe to toe, and stuck my thumbs under the elastic waistband on opposite sides of him and pushed them down around an inch or so.   

    “You mean like this?”  I asked, totally poised to shove this sweat shorts all the way down.”  

    He didn’t answer yes or no, and instead he said, “Seems a little extreme, but whatever.”  

    That was a good enough answer for me.  So in one single motion downward, his shorts were at his ankles.   And either he had the world’s largest soft dick, or he had a semi.  I didn’t really care which.  All I wanted to do was look at it, and commit it to my long term memory.  

    He didn’t even flinch, or show any hint of embarrassment.  When you look like Dane does, why would you?   He just casually stepped out of the shorts, and kicked them to his side like they were yesterday’s laundry. 

    I did nothing for the next long minute, trying like hell to figure out where I wanted to go with my big lie, without him catching on.  

    “Dane,” I finally said quietly, “Jungle Boy just stepped out from behind the trees.  This time, he knows I see him.  I think we found our bait — you’re the bait.  I’m not lying, he for SURE likes what he’s seeing.  I’m gonna back away.  Maybe he’ll feel less threatened if I’m not next to you, and come closer.”  

    “Dude, just don’t go far.  And if he starts doing anything crazy, stop him.”  He said, showing the first subtle sign of being a little nervous.  

    That bought me some time to sit on the picnic table bench, and remove my hiking boots.  If I was going to pull this off, I needed to make ‘naked’ footprints to and from the area of the forest where the imaginary kid was standing.  I’m mean, eventually the blindfold would be coming off, and I needed things to seem real for the next day.  

    I moved quickly, and was out and back in under two minutes.  On the way back, I’d made enough noise to sound like I was the approaching kid.   And in that short time — by the time I was standing in front of Dane again — his semi-soft dick was totally hard.  

    Fear of the unknown does that I guess.  

    I should have been prepared for it, but the sheer size of his throbbing cock, pulsing against the evening air, was almost too much for my mind to process.  The thing was easily 8.5 inches.  Maybe more.  And glistening on his huge mushroom dick-head, was a thin layer of slippery looking pre-cum that I’m betting he didn’t know was there.

    I waited another few minutes, just to build a little suspense.  

    Dane didn’t say a word, so that made it easier.  And it also gave me a chance to look at his amazing body again, without him knowing it.  It’s was the coolest thing ever, especially if you’ve never gotten a close up view of a straight dude with a killer boner.  

    Next, I tried to imagine the slow apprehensiveness a stranger would have moved with before making any form of phsyical contact, and I used that to pace myself.   

    I was now the ‘jungle boy’, so when I gently touched Dane’s shoulder, I let him feel a hesitation from me — so that Jungle Boy would seem extremely tentative.  And it must have seemed realistic, because Dane’s cock surged to a new level at the foreign violation from the unseen stranger.  

    I couldn’t believe that I had pulled it off.  It was like the crime of the century.  I had the naked god of my dreams right in front of me, and I could do anything I wanted and get away with it. 

    Damn.  

    So I did what I’ve wanted to do since Dane started causing me to have wet dreams back when I was eleven years old:  In a halting, and curious way, I ran man hands over him like gliding feathers, exploring his chest — every inch of it — before moving on to his sexy stomach.  It’s one thing to look at rippling hard abs from a distance, but I’d never felt them with my very own hands.   It was totally awesome, and incredibly hard trying keep myself under control.  

    I continued my delicate exploration all the way down his perfect ‘V’ shape, until my fingers met his narrow waist.  And knowing I could have every inch of him, I wrapped my arms all the way around so that I could finally feel  the hardness of  his chiseled ass and muscular thighs.  

    Time stopped.

    He started making these sexy sounding noises by then, and that was like a green light for me to get even more bold.  So I backed away for just enough time to tug my surfer shorts down, ’cause I knew it would be my one and only chance in life to let our hard-ons smack up against each other.  

    The expected shock of it to him presented a risk, because I’m pretty sure that most straight guys might have put an end to it right then and there.  

    But he didn’t.  

    So I grabbed hold of as much of our hard cocks as I could, and took my time stroking them in an otherwise impossible sandwich of skin and lust.  

    He made more sounds, almost like he was trying to muffle his unexpected pleasure from what he was feeling.  And I swallowed one or more moans of my own. 

    Next,  I did what I’d dreamt of doing for forever.  I put a single finger to his lips — as a shy jungle boy might — as if to say, ‘shh’, and then I dropped to my knees.  

    And somehow, I had the presence of mind to pick up a rock, and throw it over near the tent — which is where I was supposed to be standing — to make a convincing sound as if I was really over there.  

    And with his full hardness pounding in my hand, and his breathing getting more and more labored and erratic, I leaned in, and let his pre-cum smeared cock-head slip between my lips.  My heart committed suicide.  And his throbbing cock seemed to like what was happening, in defiance of what Dane would have normally allowed. So I just went for it, taking as much of the huge thing as I could fit down my over-stretched mouth.  

    That was enough to make him utter his first words.  

    “Um, that’s probably… not… a good idea, jungle-fuck.”  

    I guess that was Jungle Boy’s new name.  

    I did the only thing I could do — I ignored him.  Besides, he could have busted free in two seconds flat it he wanted to.    

    So I just held on tight, and did my best to blow his mind.  I didn’t even know what I was doing, but I sucked like there was no fucking tomorrow, keeping my grip on his clenching ass cheeks the entire time.   And after a few minutes, he actually started bucking — thrusting into my mouth.  

    I’m sure he was pissed at himself for not stopping it right there.  But blowjobs are hard to come by in Bredmire — if not impossible.  So that had to be on his mind.  Plus, he was more than slightly buzzed…

    I didn’t try to make it last, because I didn’t want to give him time to think.  I just continued sucking on him relentlessly.  And the total power I had over him was like nothing I could have ever imagined.  I owned him.  

    His breathing was even more erratic by then.  

    “Fuckin’ jungle-punk.”  He mumbled.  

    I ignored him again, and I let my free hand slide away from his perfect ass, and brought it back around to the front of him, where I grabbed  hold of his enormous balls  — and squeezed.  

    “OH FUCK YOU, PUNK….!!!”  He screamed to the stranger.  

    And it was all over. He made a series of primal grunting sounds, and somewhere in the middle of those groans of forbidden pleasure, the first powerful blast of his straight cum plastered the back of my throat.  

    My cock nearly burst right along with his.   

    His rocketing, smoldering sperm scorched my tongue, tasting the same way a locker room smells, as it blew down my throat at category 5.  That put the finishing touches on my own aching cock, and as the final tick of the time bomb clicked — it exploded.  We were now blowing our loads together, and my powerful cum shots nailed us everywhere:  My pumping hand, his balls, my face, his thighs — it was a massacre.  My own spermed-up hand was now his dick lube, causing our cum to mingle in my mouth like melting honey.  He yelled out every cuss word he knew.  And I grunted like a dying Christmas pig.  

    And that’s all it took for the true fucking of my face to rear it’s ugle head. Through the bursts of raging lust, he nearly lost his balance, he was slamming me so hard.   And out of pure instinct I grabbed around to his heaving ass, and did my best to steady him — not so much because I was afraid he would fall — but because I needed his pulsing cock inside my mouth as long as possible.        

    There was no longer a future or a past, there was only now — a now I never wanted to end.   And for a while there I didn’t think it would.  

    And let me just say this — when you have an enormous jacked-up dick like Dane’s shoved all the way down your throat, you don’t count how many times he shoots hot steaming rounds of cum down it, you don’t care if he shoots so hard that there’s no need to swallow, and you forget you have a god under your control — you just hang on for dear life, and try to survive it.  

    I wanted to let his pulsing cock go limp in my mouth after the cumming finally stopped. But it was no time to be greedy.  

    So during the time he was sucking in air and recovering, I used the last of my remaining strength to stand, and pull my surfer shorts up.  I made fast, and threw my hiking boots back on, and tried like hell to re-compose myself.  Of course Jungle boy had ‘ran’ off into the forest by then. 

    I was sorry to see him go.  

    Shortly after that, and in Dane’s mind, I ‘reappeared’ and got around to taking his blindfold off and getting his hands untied.  I made it look very unceremonious.  

    I prayed that I’d gotten all of his spunk off of my lips.  

    Luckily he wasn’t in much of a mood to talk.  He was probably dealing with massive regret of letting things go way too far.  And I know he was pissed off that the kid got away.  But  in defiance of that, he did say something about trying to set a trap for the jungle boy again tomorrow, so we could find out where the ‘god-damned swimming hole is’.  I totally understood his disappointment.  And I LOVED the idea of setting a new kind of ‘trap’.  

    I wonder if Jungle Boy likes to fuck?

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  • ooooohhhh yeah

    Based on a request from neat guys and readers Eddie and Jacobi to my last chapter, this is the fourth and last chapter of the southern farm boys and hunk Butch—this time in a four way.

    The story will be narrated and told by cousin Hank.

    After Billie and Butch had given each other hot blowjobs on Monday in the break room during lunch, they met after work on Wednesday at Butch’s apartment for another hot blowjob but yet no ass fucking. They were new at this gay game but were horny as hell to suck each other’s cock again.

    They did a 69 as they deep throated their buddies rock hard cocks and ate each other’s ass. They sucked and licked cock and ass for at least an hour before shooting big loads down the throat of their new fuck buddy. They were so now into gay fucking. They spent the night sucking and rimming ass until they had unloaded their balls three times in the mouth of one another.

    At about dawn, Butch turned to Billie and said: “Well Billie, I think we cannot wait any longer keeping our secret from your brother Mickey and your cousin Hank. Lets go to dinner with them Friday and spring the news of our lust for one another as new fuck buddies.”

    “Yea Butch, you are right. Poor Mickey is still all tense about our parents finding out his secret. This is not fair. He is a neat young adult and my kid brother. I’ll arrange dinner with them. Isn’t this really weird that we all four are now fucking gay sluts. Who would have ever thought that you and I would become like Mickey and Hank, wild gay fucking addicts? Life is so unpredictable. Also, it is time to break off with our girlfriends. I’ll do that tomorrow evening. When are you going to tell your little puritan bitch?”

    “I’ll do it tomorrow night also. We have to do that before the Friday dinner with Mickey and Hank. Word is going to get out soon. The girls need to hear it from us.”

    FRIDAY NIGHT’S DINNER

    Billie and Butch took Mickey and me into Knoxville to a five star restaurant for dinner on Friday night. It was about a 45 minute drive. Man, it was so cool and expensive. What was up? Billie had never wanted to hang out with his brother ever since he got a full-time girlfriend. I don’t understand.

    After dinner and on our way back to our homes, we got the big news from Billie. Butch was driving and Billie was in the front seat. Mickey and I were in the back seat.

    In a nervous tone, Billie turned back looking at us and said: “Guys, Butch and I have something to tell you. It may come as a big surprise.”

    Mickey looked nervous and interrupted his brother: “Oh shit, Billie, please tell me that you did not tell our parents about Hank and me? I cannot go home if you did.”

    With a shit eating grin, Billie said: “Relax my little brother, oh no it is very good news for you two. How do I say this? After you and Hank had sex with Butch last Friday night, he gave me ever hot detail on Monday during lunch. Shit, you are not going to believe what happened. I got so horny that I grabbed Butch and we had a fucking hot blow job during lunch in the break room. I loved sucking cock and eating cum. I know what you are thinking. Was it only a one time horny moment? No, on Wednesday night, Butch and I spent the whole night sucking cock and eating ass. Yea, we are fucking gay sluts like you two. We have dumped our girlfriends.”

    Mickey grabbed me and hugged me hard before he said: “Are you shitting me brother? I don’t believe it. Is it true Butch? Is my brother pulling my leg?”

    “No Mickey, we are fucking lovers and man do we like sucking cock. And I loved getting fucked by you two last week. No more female pussy for us.”

    The car had become filled with an over flow of raging hormone-driven lust, libido levels rising and primordial desires. I felt heat rising from my crotch. I looked over at Mickey and he had sprouted a monstrous hard on as had I. I needed a fucking release soon. Billie saw what had happened and he sprouted a huge smile and said to Butch: “Look buddy, brother Mickey and cousin Hank have huge tents in their pants. They are horny as hell.”

    I began to unzip Mickey’s pants and saw a growing cum ring. I could not wait any longer. I found his cock, pulled it out and shoved my mouth down on his big soft velvet cock and slid it down my throat. Mickey reached over and unzipped my pants, pulled my cock out and he too began sucking me off. We had been able to get in a position to blow each other. Man, this was so hot and a surge was building in my nuts.

    This so turned on Billie that he reached over, unzipped Butch’s pants and went down on his stone hard cock. The driving became somewhat erratic while Butch got his tool sucked.

    We sucked cock for some 10 minutes as we moaned and grunted. It was so fucking hot to get it on with all four of us for the first time.

    Soon I heard Butch say” Damn fuck, I’m going to come. Billie, swallow all my wad. Eat it all.”

    We all could hear Billie slurp as he took all the big load down his throat.

    That set off both Mickey and I as we blasted our loads down each other’s throat. It was a nasty hot load of thick goo. We milked each other dry. What now? Only Billie had not got of his nuts.

    Billie unzipped his pants, had Butch use one hand to jack him off and soon he blasted a huge load in his own hand and fed the jizz to Butch.

    This was too good to stop now. I hopped that Butch or Billie would suggest a four way. Then Mickey spoke up: “Hey, Butch and Billie how about us going to Butch’s pad?”

    “Yea man, lets head there now,” said Butch.

    When we got there, we rushed up to Butch’s bedroom, threw our clothes all over the room, were now sprouting big boners again with some dried cum on our crotches.

    Billie spoke up and said: Guys, one of us has to be the pussy boy tonight and take our big cocks. Who is going to be our bitch?”

    Since I had the features of a twink or bitch, I was chosen. They were determined to use me and my ass for their sexual gratification. I was not about to object. In fact, I loved the idea of being fucked by all of them. I had become totally hard and ready to be the bitch. Shit, having all that cum inside me was a thrill. While one of them fucked me, I could suck another guy’s cock. This was like the best sex ever.

    The only one of us four who had been fucked by a cock was Butch on that Friday night at his pad when Mickey and I had fucked him. Now I was going to get the pleasure of more than one cock inside my ass.

    They placed me on my stomach on the bed, put a pillow under my crotch, lubed my ass, spread eagle my legs that made a direct path to my man pussy. I heard them whisper as they planned the order of driving their big man steel hard cocks up my ass. Soon I learned my fate. Hot cousin Billie got down between my legs, positioned his rock hard cock directly in front of my ass crack. I felt his cock head part my ass ring and began to slowly drive deep into me. When he was about five inches in, I yelled that it hurt. He stopped for a minute to let me adjust to his big snake. Then he began to go deeper until my ass was stuffed with his entire manhood.

    Soon the pain was replaced with pure pleasure as he thrust in and out using his big farm built hips to fuck me like one of the bulls on the farm. My screams were wild and primitive as I felt his cock hit something in my ass that felt so awesome. His pubic hair pressed against my fuck hole.

    Then my cousin Mickey got up above my head, lifted my head up to meet his big leaking bobbing cock and drove it deep into my throat. Oh my god, both of my holes were now stuffed with cock. He rammed his cock down my throat until his pubic hair was up my nose. The smell was so awesome.

    Meanwhile, I felt Butch reach under my crotch and he grabbed my cock and began to jack me off. I was sweating like a pig. I had never felt anything this lustful. My whole body was being ravaged by my cousins and this hunk hockey player.

    I went wild humping and moving like I was on fire. With my mouth full of cock, I could only moan and grunt. After being devoured for some 10 minutes, I felt Billie’s cock grow even harder and almost immediately he produced multi-spurts of his heavy thick cum deep inside my man pussy. The warm cum felt great.

    When he was spent, he pulled out and said: “Who is going to fuck this bitch next?”

    Without any reservation, cousin Mickey pulled his cock out of my mouth, got between my legs and was so turned on, he thrust his wet cock all the way to the base in a second. I felt him drive past whatever that special spot was that had Billie had found. He fucked me with such ease as his cock was lubed from Billie’s thick cum. The feel of the cum and my buddies big cock stuffed deep inside me, I was delirious with the need to shoot my load.

    Hell, Butch replaced Mickey’s cock in my mouth. He drove so deep with his horse like cock down my throat that I almost passed out from having my wind pipe blocked. I felt faint but so good. I got fucked and sucked cock for some 10 more minutes when again I felt the big cock in my ass swell and as Mickey erupted with a river of cum, I exploded with my cock oozing cum out onto the bed sheets under me. The feel of my own cum on my stomach and chest plus the additional cum in my man pussy was an euphoria I had never experienced before.

    But it was now Butch’s turn to drive his manhood up my ass. He lost no time drilling my ass with a huge supply of cum helping him ease deep into my ass chute. He fucked me for the longest time. He must have lasted for 20 minutes as he stuffed his big tool deeper than any other of the guys cocks had been. I was almost about to come again from that pleasure of such a huge cock and rough fuck. I lifted my hips to meet his hard surges to make the fuck even more pleasurable.

    When he crossed the blue line, he yelled: “Oh fuck shit, here I come. Take my man seed now.”

    He blasted the biggest load yet, I was filled to the brim with the three guys semen. When he pulled out, there was a flood of thick white cum running out of my ass and onto the bed sheets. The guys slid their hands through all that cum and fed each other the sweet and salty nectar including serving me a load. The cum tasted so great. I was truly now a cum slut as were my buddies. I love cum.

    “Hank, you did great as our bitch. Man, you know how to take big dicks up your ass,” said Billie.

    The other guys also congratulated me on being a great bitch.

    We were now dedicated fucking gay sluts and fuck buddies. The future would be fun. Lots of great cum for us. We will get our protein satisfied.

    Hope you all enjoyed the orgy. Let me know.

  • The Halfway Inn

    THE HALFWAY INN PART 1

    by Robert Furlong

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    I glanced across at Pete as I took off my shirt.  Perhaps because he was a lot younger than me, he seemed oblivious to any sense of self-consciousness or embarrassment that the two of us were having to share a room and get undressed together.  He looked young enough to have graduated from college in the last couple of years and might have been used to sharing a room when he was there.

    When I’d heard that we had to go on a course in Bristol, the prospect of staying over had sounded like it might be a treat.  I knew that the hotel our company used, The Halfway Inn near Cribbs Causeway, was a fairly basic affair on the edge of an industrial estate, but it’s always nice to sleep somewhere different and especially to have a cooked breakfast served up in the morning.

    A few days later, though, finance had told us that the four of us men who were going had to double up in two twin rooms for the sake of economy.  Having in mind two of the guys I was going with – both in their late fifties and both sweatily overweight – I resolved that I would prefer not to stay over and instead would get up at four in the morning to make the drive to Bristol in time for the early start.

    But then I’d been told that I’d be sharing with Pete Lehman, one of the new recruits from planning.  And I’d immediately figured that didn’t seem half as bad.

    Pete is a tall guy in his early twenties and, while hardly the best looking bloke I’ve ever met and dim-witted to the point of notoriety, as soon as I heard his name he struck me as someone I might be able to get drunk and have some late night fun with.  I knew him to be straight – I’d seen his humourless girlfriend drop him off outside reception some mornings – but he seemed pliable enough that, with a bit of gentle persuasion and a few glasses of something rather stronger, he might be coaxed into letting me help him out with the erection that young men always seemed to have.

    And even if I just managed to get a sniff of his discarded underwear while he was in the bathroom, it would be a good deal better than me spending the night alone at home.

    “Does it bother you having to share like this?” I asked him as he was unbuttoning his shirt and I sat down to take off my shoes.

    He shrugged and said, “Not really.  I used to go travelling with my mates before I met Shelley, and we’d usually share to save on costs.”

    I nodded, assuming Shelley to be his po-faced girlfriend.

    If he’d been travelling with his mates, that could only be a good sign.  Perhaps a few favours might have been traded among a group of horny lads in the closeness of a shared hostel room.  At the very least, once he was tipsy he’d be up for having a wank with me after lights out – each in our own beds to begin with, of course.

    “Are you sure I can’t tempt you to a drink?” I asked.  I’d brought a bottle of Johnnie Walker especially for this moment.

    “Naah,” he said.  “I had a glass of wine with the meal.  I don’t want to be hungover in the morning.  They might start asking us questions or something.”

    He seemed the type of person who would be terrified by directed questions at the best of times.

    I nodded in spite of my disappointment.  There was no point in pouring one for myself; I might end up doing something I’d regret in the morning.

    The plan had been to get him nicely merry and then confide in him – apologetically, of course – that I always needed to masturbate before sleeping.  In his half-drunken state, the likelihood was that he would join in with the noisy fist-pounding I’d give my cock after lights-out and then I’d get up and go over to his bed and confide that I knew a few tricks that could help bring him off.

    But that wasn’t to be.  There was no way I could suggest something so uncouth to a colleague who wasn’t at least halfway to being drunk.

    I stood up and pulled down my trousers as Pete took off his shirt.  I was wearing a tight white pair of Calvin Klein briefs which I’d worn deliberately to show my bum off at its best.  There didn’t seem a lot of point in that now.  

    To my surprise, though, I could feel Pete peering over at me as I stepped out of my trousers.  I folded them up and put them on the back of the chair near to my bed, wearing just my underpants and socks.  All the time, he made no bones about the fact he was checking me out.  He stared over at my bulge as if fascinated by it, smiling and nodding appreciatively.

    “You fill those out pretty nicely, Rob,” he remarked after seeing that I had noticed his interest.

    I was pleased at his attention but thought I ought to take a modest line.  Straight men are often intimidated when other men with large genitals: as an especially well-endowed bloke, that’s a rule of thumb I’ve found it useful to work to.

    “I think it’s the way they’re cut,” I said coyly.  “They have a very supportive pouch to emphasize the… er… shape of what’s inside.”

    He chuckled.  “Oh, right… yeah, I’ve seen those kinds of briefs in shops.  They have a sort of strap inside them, don’t they?”

    “Some of them do.”

    Mine didn’t: I didn’t need any help to be able to make the sort of mound in my underwear you could stand a row of books on.

    “Don’t they hurt your balls, though?” he asked.  “Doesn’t the strap dig in?”

    “I don’t know,” I admitted.  “With this type, I think it’s all in the stitching.”

    I was lying, of course: these were just fairly bog-standard briefs, albeit well-branded ones with a generous fit for guys who were built like me.

    I went into the little bathroom, still wearing my socks, to clean my teeth.

    “Well, they look good on you, Rob,” he called over to me, apparently enjoying the view of my crotch from the side.

    This was starting to seem hopeful.  I’d have to be careful how I played things from here.  I really didn’t want to mess things up at such a crucial point.

    “Thanks,” I smiled, squirting a gob of toothpaste onto my brush.  “It’s quite refreshing to be with a guy who can be so open about finding another man attractive – I like that.”

    He laughed as I started brushing my teeth.  “I’m not like these guys who pretend they can’t see that another blokes is handsome or whatever.  I don’t think it’s gay to admit stuff like that.”

    I nodded over at him, smiling past my toothbrush to let him know I agreed.

    He was pulling down his own trousers to reveal a lime green pair of boxer briefs which had crisp white piping around the fly and along the hems.  His thin, limp penis was clearly defined within their roomy pouch, tucked between the paired bumps of his ample testicles.

    I wondered whether any of his travelling buddies had ever sucked away at that very prick in the quiet darkness of a lonely tent.  Whether the large set of bollocks he was concealing had ever emptied their collective loads down such a companion’s gagging throat, before sleeping bags had been zipped back up and backs had been turned against one another.

    He went on, “I mean, I’d rather you were my girlfriend standing there in her panties and bra.  But just because you’re another fella, it doesn’t mean that I can’t admire the view in a different way.”

    I took the brush out of my mouth.  “That’s exactly how I feel, Pete,” I said through a mouthful of foam.  “I love having a woman in my life – Christ, I was married to one for over a decade – but I can appreciate that men can be attractive to.”

    He nodded and stepped out of his trousers, turning towards his bed to fold them and prevent creases.  His bum looked very appealing in his underwear: his cheeks were pleasantly round and the material between them had worked up deeply into his crack.

    I’d ogled his bum countless times through his cheap black trousers at work: every time I had cause to go to his office I’d deliberately ask him to fish one of the files out from the bottom drawer for me. I loved watching his arse when he bent over: how the pert, round cheeks pressed outwards against the material and how the hem down the middle rode alluringly between them.  It looked even better now in just his boxer briefs and I was determined to get an even closer look at it before the night was out.

    I finished brushing my teeth as he continued chatting.  “I think all guys must feel like us, but they’re just scared to admit it.  They’re worried people will think they’re gay or something.”

    I spat out the foam and rinsed my mouth.  Then I said, “I don’t worry about guys thinking I was gay.  It wouldn’t bother me at all.  I can see the sexual appeal of men as well as women.  If that makes me partly gay, then so be it.”

    He smirked over at me.  “Can you see the sexual appeal in me?”

    I smiled back, feeling even more pleased at the way the conversation was going.  “Of course I can, Pete.  You’re a very attractive man.  I’d have to be a fool not to see that.”

    He smiled more broadly.  He liked the compliment, and I felt a little guilty that it had mostly been a lie.

    I suddenly realised that with his big, dopey eyes and gormless grin, he reminded me of the large rodent-like creature from the film ‘Ice Age’.  Sid, I seemed to remember him being called.

    I walked back into the room, popped my toothpaste and brush back into my toiletries bag and then bent down to pull off my socks.

    “Whoa!” Pete called out.  “What’s that thing in the back of your briefs?  Is it another support or something?”

    I stood up and looked over at him, not understanding.  “What do you mean?”

    “There’s like a big round ring right between your bum-cheeks.  Rubber or plastic or something.  Doesn’t it hurt?”

    I felt myself blush, realising that I had just inadvertently given him a flash of my rear entrance which had recently started taken on a very different appearance from those of most other men.  I’d often fantasized about having someone recognise how plump and stretched – and to my mind, inviting – my anus had become, but now that it was happening for real and with a younger colleague, I suddenly felt acutely embarrassed.

    “It’s… er… not part of the underwear…” I muttered.

    “What is it then?” he asked innocently.  “It’s like a big, raised circle which stuck out when you bent down…”

    He made an arc shape with his finger and thumb, as if wrapping them around an invisible tube.  I blushed more deeply, realising that the hole he was making was quite blatantly the same girth as some of the large, erect cocks that had recently cleaved me open so blatantly back there.

    I cursed myself for having been so sexually active this last week or so.  In the last four nights alone, I’d been roughly fucked by three different men; one of whom proudly revealed that he had a cock as thick as his forearm.  My arsehole must be as loose as an open manhole and so swollen that it puckered outwards like the distended neck of a very wide bottle.

    Pete just stood and gawped that dopey expression at me as I managed to answer, “I think what you saw, Pete, might have been… well…part of me, actually…”

    “Part of you?” he asked vacantly.

    “Yeah,” I said, reluctant to clarify but seeing that I had to.  “I think it was my arsehole.  It gets quite large and inflamed sometimes.”

    Now it was his turn to blush, only much more strongly than me.  His cheeks went almost purple in colour.

    “Oh, right,” he stammered.  “Sorry, mate.  Fuck – I didn’t know.  Is it like some sort of medical condition?”

    I shook my head.  I didn’t want him to think that.  I’d rather that he knew the truth than to think that.

    “No, Pete.  It’s not like that.  It’s something that… well…”

    I thought I’d try another tack.

    “You know when I said I find men attractive…?” I began.

    He nodded stupidly.

    “Well, sometimes – when other men find me attractive too – we express that attraction in a physical way.”

    He didn’t seem to understand but just continued to stare at me blankly.

    “What I mean is,” I went on uncertainly, “while I like having sex with women and I love getting intimate with my girlfriend, with the right guy and the right situation, sometimes I… well… I rather like to play for the other team as well.”

    “But your arsehole?” he asked, ignoring my attempt to explain.  “It’s so big!”

    I smiled.  In spite of Pete’s discomfort, I was starting to feel less self-conscious.  This was, after all, what I had fantasized about countless times and, if I handled it deftly, I thought I might be able to steer things towards the destination I’d had in mind from the beginning.  

    “Given what I’ve just told you I do with it, it is going to be rather bigger than normal, isn’t it?”

    Now I sounded like a primary school teacher trying to get an especially slow kid to understand a simple point.

    And yet he still didn’t get it.

    “What do you do with it?” he asked with genuine confusion.

    “I told you,” I said, holding my smile.  “I like women but I play around with men sometimes.  It’s not a big deal.”

    He looked at me blankly.  This wasn’t sinking in at all.  I’d known he was thick but I hadn’t expected this.

    At length he asked, as if it might help, “Can I see it again?”

    “You’re asking to see my arsehole?”

    He shrugged.  “Yeah.  I’m just curious.  I’ve never seen anything like it, that’s all.”

    “But it’s my arsehole, Pete.  It’s kind of private.”

    “Well, you can see mine if you want to.”

    Nice one, Mr Furlong, I thought.  Very deftly played.

    I nodded.  “Okay then.  In that case – yeah, why not?”

    I turned around and bent over for him, sticking my bum outwards so that my plump and enlarged ring would push outwards against the material of my briefs.

    “Jesus!” he called out.  “Your butt-hole is fucking massive, mate!”

    I smiled, flaunting my large, bloated ring for him and enjoying the fact that it was level with his crotch.  It was pity the slight bulge in the pouch of his shorts was so far unresponsive: if he’d been running a hard-on by now, poking outwards towards my fat, puffy hole, this would have been so much more encouraging.  I might even have allowed myself to ‘accidentally’ step backwards so that the back of my underwear pushed into the front of his.

    Instead, I asked, “Do you like it, Pete?”

    “It’s a bit weird,” he chuckled.  “But yeah!  It’s pretty cool!”

    I relaxed my anus so I could feel the swollen entrance of it puckering more firmly against my underwear, making a large distended ‘O’ shape – quite patently stretched to a generous cock size – between my cheeks.

    And then, still none the wiser, he asked, “If it’s not a medical thing, how did it get so big, then, Rob?”

    I was going to have to spell it out to him.  The subtle approach just wasn’t working for him.

    “Is it as wide as finger?” I asked him, pushing it towards him.

    “No,” he replied.  “It’s much bigger than that.”

    “As big as, say, a carrot?”

    “No, mate.  Even bigger.”

    “As wide, then, as the shaft of another bloke’s hard-on?”

    “Yeah!” he said triumphantly.  “It’s exactly that size!”

    I stood up again and turned to face him.  He was staring at me with an expression that showed he still didn’t quite get it.

    “So why do you think it might be that size?” I asked him with a smirk.  “Given my appreciation for the attentions of other men?”

    He looked at me incuriously for a few seconds and then the penny finally dropped and his eyes gaped open.  “Oh!” he exclaimed.  “Oh, right!  You like having blokes bum you up your arse!”

    And, then, with a triumphant grin: “I get it now!”

    I chuckled and nodded.  “So now you know, Pete.  And I’d kind of appreciate it if you didn’t gossip too widely about me at work.”

    “I won’t!” he insisted.  “Definitely not, mate.  I just… wow!  I had no idea!  I thought you were… you know… Mr Straight Laced, I suppose.”

    I chuckled again.  “I am straight.  I love women.  I just… well… I like the sensation of having a guy doing that to me too.  Only as a release – nothing more than that.”

    “What, like, just for kicks?  No commitment or anything?  No boyfriend stuff?”

    “Exactly,” I smiled.  “Just like having a wank together, kind of.  Except I like it when a guy wants to use my backside for his pleasure.  No more than that.”

    He nodded thoughtfully.  I let the comparison between what I was admitting I did with my bum and straightforward mutual masturbation filter through to his brain.  If he had played around with any of his travelling companions, even if he’d just had a quick tug with another horny bloke under the cover of their sleeping bags, he might be persuaded that what I was suggesting was just a small step further.

    Eventually he nodded more resolutely and said, “Yeah…. I suppose it sounds like a good deal.  I mean, it’s not like cheating, is it?”

    “Of course not,” I smiled, growing in confidence at how easy he was to manipulate.  “It’s no different from wanking using porn to help you out.  In this case, though, you’re just using a friend’s behind to achieve the same outcome.”

    “It’s just like being bum chums,” he suggested brightly.

    “That’s it exactly!” I laughed.

    He nodded again.  “And that’s how your arsehole became so big?  Helping out friends?  Letting your mates stick their cocks up it?”

    I nodded back, smiling casually like this was such an ordinary conversation for two men to be having when they were sharing a room.  “That’s right.  Mates who get hard up or whose wives won’t serve up the goods often enough.  Or just to help out guys I happen to find myself with and who feel a bit horny… like in this sort of situation.”

    He stared into my eyes and I could almost hear the cogs turning in his head.

    He asked, “Can I see it again?  Without your pants on?”

    I considered the request before replying, “Only if I can see yours.  Like you agreed.”

    He smiled and nodded.  “Okay.  But mine’s not like yours, Rob.  Mine’s really small and tight.”

    “Just like mine used to be,” I explained.  “Before I realised that it’s so much more fun when it’s not.”

    He laughed and I gestured him over to the full length mirror which was on the back of the door to the room.

    We stood with our backs to it, looking over our shoulders at our bums in our underwear.  I bent forwards first, puckering the ring of my anus outwards in my briefs so it made a large gaping opening raised up like a sink hole between my buttocks.

    Pete laughed and said, “Wow!”

    Christ, my hole looked like it had been ploughed by a truckload of squaddies.  The ring was so dilated it was like a full-page advertisement that I liked to be buggered.  It was shameful really!

    Nevertheless, I flaunted it for him, wiggling my hips slightly to show off my unusual attribute as it made a large, proud circle against the back of my underpants.

    Pete seemed impressed with what I was parading for him.  “That is fucking mint, mate!” he laughed.

    “Do you think so?” I asked.

    “Yeah,” he laughed.  “If you’re into … you know… taking your mates’ knobs up there, it shows you’ve been having some great fun!”

    I smiled.  “I suppose I have been.”

    “Christ, you could reverse a fucking truck up there!” he said and then laughed more loudly.

    I had to laugh back.  “Come on, it’s not that big!”

    “Does it stick out between your cheeks when you’re wearing your trousers?” he asked.

    “Not yet, I don’t think.  But I’m hoping eventually it’ll get so big that everyone will be able to see it as a massive, gaping ring against the seat of my trousers when I bend over.”

    “But everyone’ll know you like getting butt-fucked by other blokes,” he queried.

    “That’s the whole point,” I chuckled.  “That’s what appeals to me.”

    He laughed like he got it.  “That is so fucking next!”

    “Come on, then, Pete: bend forwards and show me yours.”

    He leaned forwards and pushed his bum out towards the mirror.  His lime green boxer briefs eased out from the crack of his arse revealing nothing of the ring of his anus but exposing – quite blatantly – a crude brown skid mark right where his hole would be.

    He blushed a dark shade of purple again as we both stared at it.  There was no point in either of us pretending it was anything other than what it was.

    “Sorry, mate,” he muttered.  “Must have been in a hurry in the loo.”

    I smiled at him through the mirror.  “Don’t worry about it.  I’m showing you something very private, so it makes me a bit less self-conscious to see something so private in return.”

    He smiled back at my reassurance and the colour of his cheeks lessened slightly.  “Yeah… I suppose.  That can be my little secret.  You won’t tell anyone, will you?”

    “Of course not.”

    He looked back at my ringpiece and I relaxed it outwards for him again.  It made a large, cavernous hole against my underwear and, as he gaped at it, grinning, I noticed that the bulge between his legs was now rather more pronounced than it had been earlier.

    All this time that I’d been showing off my swollen hole to him, he’d been steadily developing a swelling of his own.  The lonely nerve cell in his tiny brain had been firing on all cylinders, the possibilities of how he could use such a receptive opening slowly dawning on him, and the insubstantial tube of flesh which had been flopping around in his boxers had found itself becoming altogether more substantial.

    Pete was totally oblivious to the fact that the front of his underwear was starting to betray the changing nature of his interest in my well-used backside.  He just stared at my hole, chuckling at its strangeness, while the growing lump in his boxers told its own story of the way things might be headed.

    “You must have taken some fucking big cocks up your arse, Rob,” he quipped.  “I mean, if you don’t mind me saying.”

    I grinned back at him through the mirror.  “I don’t mind at all.  Between you and me, Pete, I once took two at the same time.”

    “You had two blokes’ dicks up your arse at the same time?!” he laughed with wide-eyed amazement.  “How did you manage that?”

    “They sort of lay together on the bed, one this way, one that way,” I explained, gesturing with my hands.  “And I straddled over them, lowering myself down onto their erections as they held them together.”

    He guffawed loudly at that.  “Fucking hell, mate!  That’s awesome!”

    I smiled back at him.  “Actually it was!”

    As I’d hoped, the bulge in his shorts grew discernibly bigger at the image I’d presented him with: this really was heading my way!

    “Come on, then,” he insisted.  “Pull your pants down!  Let’s see it for real.”

    I hitched down my briefs and then yanked them off over my feet and threw them across to my bed.  My cock was half-erect and starting to rise upwards but Pete was more interested in seeing me reveal my rear opening for him.  I used both hands to prize my buttocks apart, flourishing for him my thickly forested crack with my large, pink anal ring protruding from it.  He gasped at the size of it and I saw the bulge between his legs get a little bit fuller.

    “It’s a bit like a minge!” he observed with a laugh.  “Hairy and pink.”

    “Well, I suppose it does the same job.”

    “The same job?” he asked.  God, he really was thick.

    “Receiving cocks and cum,” I explained.

    He grinned over at me.  “Wow!  Yeah!  It’s just like a big fat mott!”

    I smiled back at him but I didn’t want him to think of it like that.  I didn’t want to be his substitute girlfriend – a female stand-in – I wanted him to be growing excited that, for all I was brandishing a blatantly fuckable hole for him, it was most definitely a man who was attached to it.

    I opened my legs wider so that he could see how large my testicles looked hanging down between my thighs.  My balls were so plump that they stretched my hairy scrotum halfway to my knees and I enjoyed parading how copiously full they were for him.  However vaginal my splayed opening looked, he could be under no allusions now that this was another bloke’s buggery-loosened arsehole he was peering at.

    “Jesus, mate!” he called out.  “Look at the size of your ‘nads!”

    “Do you like them?” I smiled.

    “They just look weird!”

    That didn’t sound so good.  “Weird?” I asked.

    “Yeah – you’ve got that massive hole between your cheeks – gaping like a whore’s twat – and then down there, right under it, a fucking huge pair of bollocks.  It looks weird but at the same time really fucking hot!”

    I grinned back at him.  That was more like it.

    I directed my cock downwards with my left hand so that he could see its thickened shaft and engorged head underneath my balls.

    He guffawed again, even more loudly than before.

    “Fucking hell, Rob!  This just gets better, mate!  You’ve got a knob like a garden hose!”

    “Does my arse still look like a pussy, Pete?”

    “No way, mate!” he laughed again.  “Not with a set of junk like that hanging down right underneath it!”

    I laughed back with him.  “The men who fuck me don’t think of me as a woman, Pete.  They don’t think of it as a woman’s vagina.”

    “What do they think of it as?”

    “Another man’s willing arsehole.  And I think they like the fact it’s another bloke’s backside that they’re screwing.  It makes them feel more manly to be able to penetrate another man.”

    He grinned at me but the stupid expression on his face made me doubt he understood me.

    I thought I’d try a different tactic.

    “Let me show you what I can do with my hole when it gets so big like this.”

    I released my cock, letting it spring upwards towards my stomach, and grabbed both cheeks with my hands.  Then I bent further forwards and made my arsehole gape wider for him.  The moist, pink tunnel inside stretched opened temptingly before I clenched it tightly closed a few times to show him how dextrous I was back there.

    “Jesus Christ!” he laughed.  “You could wank a guy off doing that!”

    I pushed my hips back and forth, opening and clamping my anus in rapid spasms.  “I can pump a bloke’s cock like a farmer milking a cow’s teat!  Usually with a similar result!”

    He laughed again.  The mound of his crotch was starting to look very large and was pulling the material at the back of briefs downwards: he was enjoying this even more than I would have hoped.  The thin brown smear between his cheeks which he was brandishing so flagrantly was edging slowly southwards towards the paired bulges of his scrotum.

    “Doesn’t it hurt though?” he asked, seemingly oblivious to the fact that the front of his shorts was betraying his developing erection.  “Having another bloke shoving his cock in and out of your bum?”

    “Not at all,” I replied.  “I’m so used to taking it, your cock would just slide right up there… sorry, I mean someone’s cock would just slide right up there!”

    He looked over at my face, curious that I had referred to being penetrated by him but I just smiled innocently back at him, as if it had been a mere slip of the tongue.

    “Come on, then,” I said, keen to move things on.  “Show me yours.”

    He giggled coyly.  “I don’t want to, now… you know… with the stain and stuff.”

    I smiled back.  “That sort of thing doesn’t bother me, Pete.  When you start getting up close and personal with other men, you have to expect things like that.”

    He glanced over at me with interest.  “Really?”

    “Of course!  Compared to some blokes I’ve… you know… played around with, you’re just about Clorox clean, mate!”

    He chuckled naughtily, his eyes twinkling mischievously.  “Okay…”

    He did as I had done – as I hoped he would – and pulled his boxer briefs completely off and threw them over to his bed.  Unlike him, I took an interest in the state of his cock and was pleased to see that it was almost fully aroused and pointing upwards with its dark red head exposed.  Its size was unremarkable – it looked fairly average in length and girth – but its flagrant excitement was very encouraging.

    I found it endearing that Pete seemed blissfully unaware of how the stiffened state of his penis might be interpreted.  He just grinned over at me – and I grinned back – as he repositioned himself in front of the mirror, refreshingly unselfconscious that his pecker was pointing upwards and that I might construe that as evidence of his developing sexual interest in me.

    I was sure he was going to be up for fucking me up the butt.  Now that his cock had grown so hard, he was going to take very little inducement.  I just had to make sure that I got a turn of my own.

    Pete bent down again and flashed his backside at the mirror.  Finding it difficult to expose his hole for my inspection, he bent as far forwards as he could and opened his legs widely.  Even then it was hardly visible and so he grabbed his butt cheeks and yanked them apart.

    Finally I could see his tiny wrinkled anus – a little more tarnished than I would ordinarily prefer – nestling deep inside the thickly matted hair of his abundantly forested arse crack.

    He presented it for my inspection, his face cautious to see my reaction to it, and relaxed a little when he saw me smile with approval.

    “That’s a lovely arsehole, Pete.  It’s really quite beautiful.”

    He beamed with delight, parading his more towards me through the mirror so I could take in its full glory.  My cock thickened and stiffened at the sight of his tight, puckered ring and I felt the large plum-like head of it swell to full size.  The deep valley between his cheeks was tangled with hair – just how I like it – and, while I could see what was making it clump and stick together around his hole, the entrance itself looked ripe for the taking.

    I was determined to have my turn on this tall, dopey guy’s inviting rump before the night was out.  The throbbing of my manhood was demanding nothing less.

    But first things first.

    I said, “I don’t suppose you can do what I did and make it open and close, can you?”

    “I’ve never really thought about it,” he said.

    I could believe that to be true.  I wondered if he ever really thought about anything.

    “Well, give it a go,” I encouraged him.  “You never know when it might… er… prove useful.”

    He grinned like he enjoyed the challenge and I saw the flimsy rim of it open slightly as if to beckon me in and then ruckle outwards as he squeezed it tightly shut.

    He laughed at how much control he had over it and immediately did it again.  This time he let his hole open a little wider and I got the first whiff of his alluring anal scent.

    I smiled back over at him and thought I ought to commend his efforts.

    “That’s amazing, Pete!” I enthused.  “Is it really your first time doing this?”

    “Yeah,” he grinned.  “Honest to god!”

    “Well, it’s very impressive,” I continued.  “You’ve got incredible control.”

    He opened his rear entrance again – this time so wide so I could see the pinkness inside – and his earthy, anal whiff became a magnitude stronger.  He smelt wonderfully flavoursome – so musky and intense that my mouth started watering.  I was desperate to lean across so I could lick around his furrowed ring – almost ready to jeopardize everything by risking such a surprise – but I held myself back.

    His seduction was going to take a little more coaxing for me to be sure of success.  I was almost certain I could get him to fuck me – I was within a stone’s throw of having him tear open a condom and mount me from behind – but I wanted to make sure that he’d be willing to change places and that might take a bit more work.

    So I didn’t risk freaking him out by telling him how attractive his bum smelled and how much I wanted to lick it – that could come later – but instead offered to show him a few more “tricks”.

    “What do you have in mind, mate?” he asked with a rather charming innocence.

    “Let’s get on the bed together,” I suggested, with a good deal less of that particular virtue, “and we’ll take it from there.”

    We stood upright and turned to face each other, our erections arching upwards in front of us.  Pete laughed with surprise when he saw mine and I pretended to do the same towards his.

    “We’re both proper horny, we are!” he declared before looking from my hard-on to his own and back again, mentally comparing our genitals for size.  It seemed to slowly dawn on him that my penis was at least twice the size of his – both in length and girth – and that my testicles were also a significantly larger than the pair that were dangling between his legs.

    His eyes widened as he stared at my monster of an organ and his mouth formed a broad, inane grin.

    I muttered, “Perhaps the… er… bulge you noticed earlier wasn’t entirely caused by the stitching in my briefs, Pete.”

    For some reason that made him chortle raucously and he exclaimed, his eyes looking up at mine, wide with delight, “Fuck me, mate!”

    I laughed back hoping that, once we got on the bed together, he’d be calling out the same words for a different reason.


    To be concluded


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  • Guatemala Exchange

    Carlos was finishing his set on the drums when he saw his two minders move toward the gambling floor of the Toscana. He took advantage of that to lay his sticks aside and hop off the platform at one end of the club’s floorshow room. Looking as nonchalant as he could, he sauntered back to the murky corner where the big bruiser was sitting at a table alone, chain smoking and repeatedly tossing back scotch shots.

    It wasn’t a one-way approach. The man had been looking intently at Carlos.

    Carlos knew the man’s name was Angus MacLoid. He was staying at the Amatique Bay Resort in Puerto Barrios on Guatemala’s Mexican Gulf coast and had his sailboat tied up in the resort’s marina just as Carlos Arana did. Carlos had first spied the man two days previously when they both were doing maintenance on their boats.

    MacLoid was just the right type of big stud that Carlos liked and melted to—the reason why Carlos’ father, Guatemala’s agriculture minister, Francisco Arana, had Carlos tied up with two bodyguards. Despite being barely legal, Carlos had already proven to be a satyriasis—he couldn’t get enough of bruiser cock. Francisco, who doted on his only son, hadn’t seemed to mind this as much when Carlos was keeping it within Francisco’s cartel, where the father could maintain control. But when Carlos had opened his legs for the competition, for Felipe Molina, who was trying to move in on Francisco’s drugs, gambling, and prostitution empire, Francisco had drawn the line. Felipe was now a guest in the basement of Francisco’s summer mansion in Puerto Barrio—which is what brought father and son to the east coast—and Carlos was hobbled with two bodyguards.

    Angus MacLoid was built to American Marine standards. Big, heavily muscular, but narrow at the waist, with the flaring, muscular thighs of a soccer player. He was wearing a red Speedo when Carlos first saw him swabbing down his deck two boat slips over. The pouch of the Speedo barely held the man in. His biceps and triceps were massive and well-defined. Without an ounce of fat on him, his veins stood out on his arms, legs, and trunk. It was hard to tell what color his hair was, because he had a Marine-style buzz cut and was otherwise mostly hairless and deeply tanned. When he raised his arms, though, Carlos could see a patch of auburn-colored hair at his pits. His eyes were a watery blue. There was nothing handsome about the individual features of his face, although the eyes were mesmerizing. The features all came together in a chiseled, “don’t mess with me,” commanding whole.

    Carlos knew he’d let a man like this do anything with him that he wanted. That was exactly what excited Carlos.

    While trying to keep his handlers, who were helping him clean his own sailboat, oblivious, Carlos tried to show the big bruiser his interest. There was every reason to believe it had been noted too. The man did a pose every once in a while that sent the young, small-of stature man of mixed breed into heart palpitations. And more than once during those poses, the hulking man reached down to readjust the big bulge between his legs—looking directly at Carlos when he did it—and while both bodyguards were looking away.

    Carlos’ father was Guatemalan, but his mother—two wives ago—was a Scandinavian blonde show girl. Thus, Carlos’ features were not pure Mayan, but were sculpted to the more angular features of his mother and there were natural blond highlights in his hair. He was perhaps more pretty than handsome, which went a long way to explain how the thugs of Francisco’s world had been so anxious to get their dicks inside him—even while they feared the sensitivities of the father to anything like this.

    But Francisco was so indulgent that he accepted his son’s sexuality and his interests. He just wanted them to move in channels he could control. When Carlos wasn’t running with any other big bruiser Francisco approved of, one of the bodyguards fucked the young man. Carlos had needs, so he fell in with this, although he preferred a higher-risk partner. And it satisfied Francisco, because it kept the bodyguard alert for anyone else nosing around the young man.

    The American—Carlos had found out he was an American named Angus Macleod because he inquired at the resort desk and, being the son of the agriculture minister who also was the local underworld overlord, Carlos’ requests were taken as demands to be accommodated—finished with his boat and was gone before Carlos and his bodyguards were finished with his. Carlos had every intention of hooking up with the big stud, though. It was a matter of doing so without the complication of a bodyguard alerting Francisco. Francisco was wary of all Americans.

    Carlos hadn’t just gotten a name and nationality. He’d also found out that MacLoid was a big-time music promoter. And Carlos, taking more pride in his abilities as a drummer than he probably could have beyond Guatemala and the support of his father, was taken with the idea of getting in good with a big-time music promoter—especially one who would manhandle him.

    And now, tonight, there he was, in the nightclub room of the Toscana, the new casino Francisco had publicly come to the coast to open—permitting the only son he indulged in most ways to play the drums in the band opening the club. The covert reason for Francisco coming here was to rein his son in from being fucked by Francisco’s opposition in this region, Felipe Molina—a man who was entirely too close to the Guatemalan president—and, if rumors were true, to the Americans—and who was making inroads into Francisco’s drug-running operations from the Puerto Barrios port. Francisco had managed both to end the hookup with Carlos and to seize Molina and was holding Molina prisoner and squeezing him for every ounce of information he possessed before disposing of him in a way that wouldn’t alienate the president—or, at least, that wouldn’t be traced back to Francisco.

    MacLoid rose from his table as Carlos approached. There was little in the way foreplay between the two when Carlos reached the table.

    “You’re a saucy little piece,” MacLoid growled. “I want to fuck you.”

    “Where?” was Carlos’ only reply. Both were looking toward the entrance into the gambling floor from the nightclub, where the two bodyguards were busy cajoling but also subduing a nasty drunk—a drunk, unknown to Carlos, who had been planted by MacLoid.

    “Come with me,” MacLoid answered, gripping one of Carlos’ wrists in a fist.

    The men’s room was a remote one, but not so remote that men didn’t come in periodically as Angus fucked Carlos in one of the toilet stalls. First, after pulling Carlos’ trousers and briefs down to his knees, Angus pushed Carlos down into a seated position on the toilet; pulled Carlos’ pants and briefs off his legs, laying them out behind Carlos on the toilet tank top; unzipped himself; pulled out a mammoth cock; and force-fed it into Carlos’ mouth. Carlos had had enough sexual experience to give an expert blow job—and to do so quite willingly. Angus hooked Carlos’ legs over the crook of his arms on either side to pull the young man’s feet off the floor so they wouldn’t be seen by men coming into the men’s room. A couple of men did come while Carlos was working Angus’ cock hard with his mouth, but they merely used the urinals and left none the wiser.

    Angus was wearing a tuxedo, and he fucked Carlos by using his cummerbund as a sling, cradling Carlos’ buttocks and pulling the young man’s pelvis up to his groin. The younger, smaller man was flexible and was able to press his feet against the stall’s door, reverse his palms against the opposite wall, and rest his neck on the edge of the tank top, his body suspended in air, while Angus crouched between his thighs and pistoned him hard, fast, and deep with a monster cock that would have had the young man yodeling if Angus hadn’t stuffed the young man’s bikini briefs in his mouth.

    Only Carlos’ shirt remained on his back, and that had been unbuttoned and flared so that Angus could lean over and chew on the young man’s nipples while he fucked him. Angus remained dressed, with only his fly open and his cummerbund being used as a butt sling, with Angus gripping each end of it and moving it up and down to move Carlos’ pelvis in the rhythm of the fuck.

    A few more men came and went in the men’s room, but none seemed to realize that there was a wild fuck going on in one of the stalls.

    Afterward Carlos murmured that he wanted to be fucked again—and that he wanted to see Angus naked too.

    Angus answered, with a growl, “Then make it happen.”

    He told Carlos to remain in the stall and redress, giving him time to be gone, and then, after rolling the condom off his cock, fat as a slug from his cum, and dropping it in the toilet, he was gone.

    The bodyguards were beside themselves when Carlos reappeared in the nightclub for his next set with the band. They asked him where he’d been for so long—that they had looked for him everywhere.

    Not everywhere, he thought smugly. He told them he’d been in the dressing room area practicing with his sticks—and that it was their problem if they hadn’t found him. Having bodyguards wasn’t his idea of fun.

    All during his next set, he dreamed of the big bruiser fucking him rough, and when he was finished, he went to his father’s office to check on Francisco’s entertainment schedule, looking for an appropriate near-term dinner event where he could insert a big-time music promoter on the guest list. His father wasn’t there. Carlos knew he was at the mansion, interrogating Felipe Molina in the basement. Carlos had a slight feeling of regret over Molina. He fucked well and there was a thrill of the risk of fucking an enemy of his father’s. But Molina hadn’t fucked him roughly in a stall in a men’s room as men came and went. Now that gave Carlos a thrill.

    * * * *

    The dinner at Francisco Arana’s Puerto Barrios mansion was buffet style and included enough people—and enough who were there for disparate reasons—that people were gathered in small groupings of acquaintances that abutted each other. A few other guests, like Angus MacLoid, knew no one else and aimlessly walked around between the groups. Most of these looked lost. Not so with MacLoid, who looked commanding in his tuxedo and stopped conversations whenever he passed by a group.

    A couple of times Angus had reconnoitered around the ground floor of the mansion, getting the lay of the land and contemplating the large old colonial building’s secrets. Every time he strayed from the entertainment areas, he was met with barrier-looking security men. As probably the most formidable man present, though, he also arrested attention—and much admiration and speculation from more than a few of the women—and, indeed, also, the men present. So, although he wasn’t with anyone—not having located Carlos Arana yet—it was impossible for Angus to be unobtrusive.

    It took some time for his movement around the rooms to intersect with Carlos’, but when he caught sight of the young man, he followed him in a roundabout way until they came close to a hallway leading back into darkness. Angus pulled Carlos into the darkened hall, slammed his body against the wall, and brutally attacked Carlos’ mouth with his. Carlos climbed Angus’ hips with his knees, and Angus dry humped him against the wall.

    “Upstairs,” Carlos muttered with a gasp as they came out of the kiss. “Not here. When the gong sounds for the buffet to start, all of the bodyguards will be herding guests. Upstairs, the hallway to the right, the second door on the right.”

    In Carlos’ bedroom the young man was naked again, and Angus was shirtless, but still in his trousers. The cummerbund was in use again under Carlos’ belly, pulling his buttocks up into Angus’s belly. Angus crouched a bit, standing in the center of the room, Carlos’ arms, head, and legs dangling toward the floor in front of Angus, flopping up and down, as Angus pulled Carlos’ channel in to his belly and then released, his hands gripping each end of the cummerbund sling, pulling the channel onto the cock, thick and deep, then releasing, and the channel losing four inches of the cock. Pull, with a gasp and little cry from Carlos. Release, with a long sigh from the young man.

    Every neuron of Carlos’ being was concentrating on that throbbing, thick cock inside him, working his ass, making him want to cry out. Knowing he couldn’t cry out because of the party going on below them—that and because his briefs again were stuffed in his mouth. The thrill of the risk. The want of the rough sex from the hulking brute. Spilling his seed on the carpet. Feeling Angus tense and grunt, filling the bulb of the condom. Carlos being lowered to the floor at Angus’ feet, spitting out the gag, embracing one of Angus’ legs with an arm, holding Angus’ hand to his cheek, kissing it and begging for Angus to fuck him again. Reaching up and pulling the filled condom off Angus’ cock. Murmuring that there were more condoms in the drawer of his nightstand.

    A brief disconnect, but then they were back in position, Carlos standing in the center of the room, but bent over, grasping his ankles with his fists. Angus standing behind him, hands grabbing Carlos’ hips, cock buried in Carlos’ passageway.

    A knock on the door and rattling of the door knob—fruitless because the door was locked. “Are you in there, Carlos? You are missed at the buffet.” Spoken in gruff Spanish. One of the bodyguards.

    “Yes, I’m here,” Carlos answered in Spanish, trying to keep his voice from being too breathy. Angus was still deep inside him, just standing there swaying back and forth, causing the cock to move inside him. “I spilled something on my trousers. I have to change. I’ll be down in a minute.”

    Then to Angus as they disengaged. “Wait in my bathroom. I’ll draw anyone in the hallway downstairs. I want you again. Longer. And I want to enjoy you fully naked.”

    “You must come to me, then,” Angus answered. “I leave soon for Belize. Tuesday afternoon. You must ditch the bodyguards. The marina. My boat, say 2:00 p.m.? We’ll go out into the gulf and have all the time we want—without your minders.”

    “Yes, yes. Yes. But for now. Hide in the bathroom.”

    * * * *

    “A toothache.”

    “You have a toothache? Then I guess you don’t want to—”

    “Yes, of course I want to.” And the look Carlos gave Angus when he climbed on board Angus’ sailboat made that quite clear. Angus was in the skimpy red Speedo again. “I don’t really have a toothache. That’s what I told the bodyguards I had and that I was going to the dentist. Neither one wants even to talk about teeth, so they let me go on my own.”

    “Cast off, then, and let’s do this,” Angus said, as he started separating the rope from the pier.

    They were still motoring out beyond the headlands and into the Gulf of Honduras when they both got naked and began kissing and fondling each other. Angus stood at the wheel and Carlos was kneeling between him and the wheel base and sucking the big man’s cock.

    The boat was still moving, using its motor, when Angus lashed the wheel to sail a steady line straight out from land, pulled Carlos up from below him, laid him down on the small of his back on the roof of the cabin, crouched between his thighs, and began feeding his cock into Carlos’ channel. Carlos moaned, arched his back, and lifted his heels to the hollow of Angus’ shoulders. Angus crouched over him, trapping the young man’s eyes with his and thrust hard and deep, again and again. Carlos began to writhe under him, but Angus continued relentlessly thrusting, fast and hard and deep, until Carlos collapsed under him and whimpered and moaned his surrender.

    When Carlos was able to sit up and look out over the stern of the boat, no land was visible. There was another yacht off the starboard side of the sailboat, paralleling their progress, but there was no other life to be seen other than the seagulls reeling and cawing overhead.

    “How far out are we? How far are we going?” Carlos asked.

    “Into international waters. We’re almost there. Anything goes in international waters. Come below now.”

    This time Angus used a regular plow belt—four feet of thick black leather strap, ten inches wide, with handles on the end. As they were kissing, facing each other, at the end of the berth, Angus whipped the belt over Carlos’ head, down to under the young man’s buttocks, and tilted Carlos’ buttocks up to present his already-opened channel entrance to the giant mushroom cap of Angus’ dick. As the cock moved up in Carlos’ channel, Angus moved the belt up so the strap was at Carlos’ waist. He tipped the young man back, and Carlos’ raised one leg up Angus’ chest and wrapped the other one around his waist, as his torso arched back and his shoulder blades rested on the end of the berth.

    Angus fucked him hard and deep again. Angus let the belt fall, with Carlos holding position with his legs and pulled a pair handcuffs from under the side of the berth mattress. He cuffed Carlos’ wrists over his head without resistance. All of Carlos’ attention seemed focused on the cock working inside him. He did, though, look up in surprise when Angus stuffed the bikini briefs in Carlos’ mouth.

    And he did hear the crunch of wood slamming into wood out on deck, as the other yacht tied up to the side of the sailboat.

    Suddenly, the cabin was filled with other men. Men who were roughly manhandling Carlos out from underneath Angus. Men in camouflage uniforms. Very serious-looking men. More Marine types.

    Carlos gave a panicked look at Angus, but Angus, standing back to let the interlopers bundle the young Guatemalan up, didn’t seem a bit perturbed.

    “You will be going with these men, Carlos,” he said. “They will be holding you but will return you to your father in good shape if he agrees to the exchange.”

    Carlos’ panicked look took on a deeper questioning aspect. The question of “What exchange” was clearly conveyed by his expression.

    “Felipe Molina, Carlos. We want Molina back. He’s a drug dealer, but he’s also an asset of a force much larger than your father. So, whatever he is, he’s ours. If your father exchanges Molina for you nicely and does no further harm to him, you will go back to him in good shape too. If not, perhaps you’ll go back in pieces. No hard feelings. You were a great fuck. Tell your father what I have said about Molina if you see him again. He’ll let Molina go and consider him an untouchable. If not, we’ll be back—for your father.”

    After the other yacht had cast off, carrying a trussed-up Carlos with them, the CIA spy, Silas Collins, no longer needing to be Angus MacLoid, brought a metal pan out onto the deck of his sailboat. He also was carrying the passport and other identification documents for MacLoid and a box of matches. After he’d burned them to a crisp in the pan, he returned to the cabin, pulled on his red Speedo, and rummaged around in the secret compartment under the decking for his next set of documents—as well as the files that would refresh who he was to be when his sailboat arrived in Belize City.

    Not Silas Collins. He rarely had the luxury of being Silas Collins in these days of unrest across the world.


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  • For Past Transgressions

    Elaine brushed right past Josh, without looking at him, ashe entered the shack they’d discovered nestled half way up the slope from thewater a quarter of a mile east along the coastline from Discovery Bay. It hadbeen Elaine’s idea to answer the call of the fortuneteller sign, which was scrawledon a small wooden plank on one of the pillars barely holding up a porchspanning the front of the weather-beaten wood hut. That’s why he had let her gofirst. He wouldn’t have gone in at all if he wasn’t walking on eggs with Elaineand giving in to any whim she took the effort to express.

    Josh Cameron had brought them down to Jamaica at the end ofOctober—the whole family—to see if they could salvage something of normalfamily life. But the walk with Elaine along the island’s northern coastline hadbeen the first time she’d thawed enough even to recognize he was there.

    The inside of the hut was dark and smoky—and smaller thanhe’d imagined it would be. The fortuneteller, who told him her name was MadameLamesha, was a big blob of a jet-black woman with dreadlocks and wearing amuumuu sack that must have exhibited every color of the rainbow. A black scarfwas tied around her head, and her mouth was a vermillion slash of scorn.

    “You must be him,” she muttered in a thick Jamaican accentwhen Josh entered and while he was trying to adjust his vision to the darkness.The woman’s muumuu and her lipstick were the only color in the dingy room. Theinside of the hut was as weather-beaten as the outside had been. Narrow rays ofsunlight filtered into the interior of the hut through chinks in the wall,giving the impression of crossed laser beams. He wouldn’t have been surprisedif the walls collapsed around him.

    She motioned to a straight-backed chair on the other side ofa small round table, and he sat. He had expected a crystal ball. There wasnone; just a shiny black cloth spread over the surface of the table.

    When he’d gotten over the wound-like slash of the woman’slipstick, he was focused on how beady her pupils were in contrast to the vastwhiteness of her eyeballs, which were boring into him accusingly.

    “We really don’t have to do this,” Josh started to say. “Itwas just my wife’s idea to—”

    “Do not speak to me of your wife,” the woman hissed. “Youhave too many wives, and you are impure. There is nothing I can do for you, nopotion I can give you, until you have purified yourself. The blood of thelamb—”

    “Potion? You have no doll I can stick pins in to make thepain go away?” Josh asked, harshly. This really was too much for him toswallow. He wanted to cut into her act before she’d gone into the trance sheobviously was building up to. Her chubby arms were stretched out on the tabletop, gripping the far edge on either side, and the table was jittering, likeJosh was supposed to believe it was moving on its own. Her head was turnedtoward the cobwebby ceiling, and her eyeballs were beginning to roll up underher eyebrows.

    She snapped out of that and leveled a disdainful look atJosh. “That is voodoo. We do no voodoo here. Here is the realm of Obeah. Potionsboth to bring out the good and to dispel the evil. When you are in the grip ofthe Devil, you first must dispel the evil before building up the good.”

    “I didn’t come here for potions,” Josh said. “I came in herebecause we were passing by and my wife was interested and thought—”

    “There are no potions for you—not until you atone for yourtransgressions, until you want to do good. Obeah can do nothing for you untilyou release this demon of yours. Once the Devil has his claws in you, it isvery, very hard to—”

    “OK, I’ve had enough of this. What did my wife tell you?”Josh angrily demanded, as he rose from his chair. He was red faced and suddenlynonplused. What had Elaine told this woman? This was beginning to makesense—sense that he most certainly didn’t want to start dealing with. “I don’twant your advice or your potions,” he growled as he backed the short distancetoward the door he’d entered by.

    “You will be back. The Devil is very powerful. You will needthe potions of Obeah,” the woman said. She was cackling and waving her arms infront of her face dramatically. “But you must shuck off the demon that is inyou before you can combat the Devil that is in the world. If you cannot freeyourself of the demon within you before Hallow’s Eve turns to the dawn of allthe saints, you will be back.”

    Josh was already out the door—where he stopped dead in histracks before climbing down from the rickety porch. He felt foolish. It wasjust the usual fortunetelling mumbo-jumbo scam, and the woman wasn’t even muchgood at it. She was way over the top. He couldn’t imagine why he’d explodedlike that from that claptrap she was spouting.

    But then he could imagine why he’d been affected as he had.Elaine must have spent her time in there spilling her guts to the woman, andthe fake fortuneteller had turned that on him as soon as he’d entered theshack. Elaine had been spiking him like this back on Long Island, and she wascontinuing to do so here. Punishing him for the humiliation he’d brought uponthe family.

    And speaking of Elaine . . . He looked around. She wasnowhere to be seen. She must have taken off for the house at Discovery Baywithout him. The fortuneteller must have wound her up tighter than a drum andcaused her to snap. Elaine had been ready to explode since they’d arrived inJamaica—for weeks before that, if truth be known.

    He scanned the coastline in all directions one more timebefore striking out himself—in case she was there in the cove or on the slope,somewhere, huddled into that fetal position that had become a favoritewithdrawal mechanism for her in the last month. He didn’t see her, but therewas a man standing on the rise toward the east and looking down at the hut.Josh’s attention riveted on him as soon as he saw the man. He was young, andvery black—a Jamaican muscle man. He was wearing baggy shorts, but that wasall, that dipped at the hips almost obscenely, and extended down to his knees.He was serious body-builder muscular, a real hunk of a man. Maybe in his midtwenties, with dreadlocks that tickled his shoulders. The dreadlocks rang anote of familiarity.

    His attention was focused on Josh, who blushed at the rawsensuality of the young man. There was something familiar about him, eventhough Josh was having trouble distinguishing one young, well-built Jamaicanman from the rest. There was something that nagged at Josh as he turned andstarted walking west along the rugged northern coast of Jamaica toward thevacation house on Discovery Bay. Again, it must be something about the dreadlocks,although those were common enough on the island as far as Josh could tell.

    He sensed that the young, hulking Jamaican was following himfrom a distance, and when he was able to, he furtively took a glance back tosee if he was right—and, of course, he was.

    Josh made it almost all the way around the curve ofDiscovery Bay to the Fontland Point vacation house compound on the other sideof the bay before it dawned on him who the young man was. It was the clips ofgold at the end of the dreadlock strands that surfaced the disturbingidentification.

    * * * *

    Josh had first seen Demonde three days earlier at the SirDonald Sangster International Airport west of Montego Bay on Jamaica’s northerncoast. He had been an arresting figure, one that easily drew Josh’s attention.The young man was speaking to Elaine outside the baggage claim area as heloaded luggage into the back of an large SUV.

    After locating all of their bags—with practically no helpfrom either of their children, Ellie or Jason, both of whom were acting likethey had been kidnapped to be here—and setting them outside on the curb of thearrivals area to await the promised transportation to their vacation villa,Josh had gone to the Security offices to pick up the Glock 42 he’d checkedthrough from JFK International.

    Elaine had been livid that he was bringing a gun on theirCaribbean vacation, but he had been adamant. “Have you heard nothing about therampant crime in Jamaica?” he’d asked.

    “And so you’re taking your loving family to Jamaica to bemugged and murdered?” daughter Ellie had asked. The miracle was that she’d evenheard the comment, given that she had ear buds connecting her to a boom box andseemingly permanently growing out of her ears.

    “It’s certainly something I’ve seriously considered doing,yes,” Josh had answered. He’d used his “I’m kidding” voice, but he was “thatclose” to meaning it.

    Going from Long Island this late in October to vacation onthe islands was something he had considered as a Hail Mary attempt to keep theCameron family from imploding. It had been a month since Elaine had confronted himover where frustrations with life in general, and Elaine and the kids inparticular, had taken him. And it had been just over two weeks since he’ddiscovered that Elaine had been no angel either. The back breaker, though, waswhen both Ellie, twenty, and Jason, eighteen, had returned home in lateSeptember. Both were supposed to have been tucked safely away in theirrespective very-expensive universities. But Ellie had decided that college wasdull and she needed to experience life and pursue a singing career. Conversely,Jason had been virtually noncommunicative on why he wasn’t in school—andcouldn’t be, according to the university administration. The collegeauthorities refused to tell Josh and Elaine why, saying they would have to hearit from Jason, as he legally was an adult now. But Jason didn’t want to talkabout it either. Jason wanted to spend his days shooting hoops.

    When Josh returned to the arrivalscurb, he found a Land Rover idling outside the baggage room door and Demondespeaking to Elaine. The exclusive vacation rental company had told him theywould be picked up at the airport for the ride to Discovery Bay and would haveuse of a car and driver, the driver also being the general handyman that wentwith the villa. A tall, very well built young black man in shorts and a tightT-shirt was standing at the back of the Land Rover, in deep conversation withElaine. Ellie and Jason already were in the backseat of the car, putting on anact that mixed boredom with the reaction that could be expected from ashoplifter imprisoned in the back of a police cruiser.

    Before he got caught up in the bustle of getting all of theluggage packed in the car, Josh had the sensation that he had interruptedsomething between Elaine and the driver, Demonde, a strapping young Jamaicanbuck, with a body-builder’s bod and dreadlocks that went down to his shoulders,with golden clips on the ends that glittered in the sun when he moved his head.Josh could just think what was going through Elaine’s mind about this youngman, and Josh instinctively knew they hadn’t left their marital troubles backon Long Island.

    There was the ever-so-slight feeling that the two werestanding a bit too close together and speaking a bit too seriously for anairport transport pickup. The sensation didn’t last long for Josh, but it wasto recur a few times over the next several days.

    Josh looked around him at what appeared to be a whole lot ofunnecessary foot traffic around the entrance to the airport. He sized up mostof the milling crowd as locals who didn’t have a connection to air travelbeyond hitting up travelers for handouts and perhaps picking a pocket or two.Incongruously, he felt threatened by having a gun holster under his arm, as ifhe might become the focus of violence himself. The warnings he received fromall quarters of the high crime rate in Jamaica made him want to hide thepossession of an expensive firearm from all—including the driver, whose challengingphysique had a dangerous element to it. As the driver was hefting luggage intothe back of the Land Rover, Josh surreptitiously opened the glove compartmentand stashed the Glock and its magazine of bullets behind the packets of papershe found in there.

    As Demonde drove the Land Rover fast but expertly along thetwisting coast road known simply as the Major Highway, he spoke in a richbaritone of what the family might be interested in doing for the two weeks theywere on the island. Josh sat in front with him, and Elaine sat in the middle ofthe backseat, her eyes occasionally meeting Demonde’s in the rear-view mirror,while the two children each were turned toward their respective side windowsbut studiously avoiding actually looking at any of the breathtaking scenerythey were traveling through.

    “You have come in time for Hallow’s Eve and the parade ofthe saints,” Demonde said. “And you are in a good location to celebratethem—the village just ahead, Rio Bueno, has perhaps the most impressive paradeon the island. This was the center of the Obeah culture in Jamaica.”

    “The Obeah culture?” Elaine asked from the backseat.

    “Yes, a rich and primitive mix of the animistic and mysticalreligions, brought to the island by the African slaves and embellished by theearly Baptist movement here. Some liken it to voodoo, but there is morereligion in Obeah; it is more Satan centered.”

    “Hallow’s Eve? Is that like our Halloween in the States?”Elaine continued. “We were told that they don’t mark Halloween in Jamaica.We’ll be here over Halloween.”

    “Not the Halloween you celebrate, no,” Demonde answered witha rich-toned laugh, “with children’s costume parties, bobbing—it is saidbobbing, isn’t it?—for apples, and collecting candy. No, Mon, in Jamaica it is linkedwith the church day it is the eve of, All Saints’ Day, on the first ofNovember. Hallow’s Eve is still couched in mystical religions and deep beliefsof the Devil and the fight between good and evil.”

    Wonderful, Josh thought. They were here because of howtiresome that fight had become in the real lives of each of the Camerons. Andnow they would experience it in a darker, more “woo woo” fashion.

    “You must see the parade starting after dark on Hallow’s Evein Rio Bueno,” Demonde continued. “Very dark—and sensual.”

    Josh looked up to see that Demonde was looking into thebackseat through the rear-view mirror, but, sensing that Josh was looking athim, the young black man turned his gaze on Josh, who found himself tremblingat the primitive beauty of the man. If there ever was an image for the word“sensual,” Josh thought, it would be someone like Demonde. Raw and unbridled.On the edge of danger, with a sense of brute power just under the surface. Sucha man could travel the whole scale between gentle and rough, Josh surmised. Hischocolate-brown muscled torso must be something to behold unclothed.

    “Only in Rio Bueno do they pull out all of the stopsconnecting the evening with the tenets of Obeah,” Demonde said. “We do notdress up like fairy princesses or Roman emperors or cowboys as you do in theStates. We pull out the deeper meaning of the occasion. One of the Obeahbeliefs is that the Devil runs free on earth that night and that only thosemaking themselves up to already be dead—ghosts and ghouls—can escape Satan’spower to grab their souls. So that is how those in the parade dress, and theywear fierce wooden masks to frighten the demons away from them. Obeah has alsopicked up an ancient Catholic practice of wearing their clothes inside out on thatday and walking backwards. They believe if you do that, at the stroke ofmidnight on Hallow’s Eve, those possessed by Satan will reveal themselves toyou and thus can be avoided throughout the coming year. Sometimes they are yourclosest neighbors, or even your own spouse maybe.”

    He turned his gaze on Josh and gave him an inscrutablesmile.

    “Charming,” Elaine spoke up from the backseat. The fact thatson Jason, at least, wasn’t paying a bit of attention to the discourse wasshown in his not reacting to any of this. Josh knew Jason would eat this sortof sorcery up if he was listening to what Demonde was saying. “I shudder at thethought,” Elaine added.

    “And there are snakes. Many, many snakes,” Demonde said in asoft voice that left the impression that he himself was eating up the concept.

    “Snakes?” Josh asked in a sharp voice. Elaine’s reaction wasmore of an intake of breath and a sound of disgust. “Why snakes?”

    “Very Obeah, are snakes,” Demonde replied. “Snake venom isat the root of the religion. It is based on belief in the power of potions—onesto bring about good, to counter bad . . . or to do bad to your enemies. Snakevenom is a key ingredient in the potions. Yes, there will be many snakes there.You must come and behold.”

    “Don’t count on me,” Elaine piped up from the backseat. Joshsaid nothing. The whole discussion and turning his head to watch Demonde speakof these things—the sensual allure of ancient myths and practices—were givinghim a warm feeling in his loins. It also made him feel guilty; such feelingsand sensations were what he’d come to Jamaica to avoid.

    They certainly were far, far away from the McMansions,stark-white pasture fences, and the dark secrets of the plastic, smilingfamilies of Long Island.

    At least they were until they rolled up to Fontland Point,which was a sprawling mansion on the western point of Discovery Bay, with asmall artificial harbor, square miles of terracing, and an infinity pool thatjutted out from the great room and seemed to spill over the rocky shorelineinto the Caribbean Sea. It would have been right at home on the shores of LongIsland.

    The compound was all that the rental company’s brochurepromised that it would be—much like home, just not under the judgmental gaze oftheir community.

    And, although the brochure had promised that there would bea cook, a maid, and houseboy slash driver, Demonde was far, far more than waspromised in the latter role.

    “We were told that there was a staff provided,” Josh said,as he and Demonde unpacked the back of the Land Rover and Elaine and thechildren started to explore the grounds, both Ellie and Jason tryingdesperately and unsuccessfully to pretend that they weren’t impressed. “So,there is you . . . and a cook and housekeeper too?”

    “Ya, Mon,” Demonde said. “but the cook and housekeeper havefamilies and live nearby. I have a room in the lower level of the house—and canbe at your call, as you need me.”

    Josh blushed a bit when Demonde looked at him with thosesleepy eyes of his, but then he stiffened as the young man’s gaze slid awayfrom him to take in the voluptuous figure of Elaine as she walked over near theswimming pool.

    Why, Josh wondered, as laid back as the amenities of thevacation villa compound were, did he feel electricity and tension in the air?

    * * * *

    If Josh had expected that the change of venue and isolationwould bring the Camerons together into the happy family that most of theirfriends on Long Island thought they were—or had been before his publiclyrevealed transgression—he was grossly mistaken. In the days running up toNovember, the members of the family barely saw each other, let aloneinteracted. Elaine took to sunbathing by the pool and reading glamour magazineafter glamour magazine, always with a tall drink beside her, with coconut andrum being the main ingredients—heavy on the rum.

    Sometimes Ellie was at the pool too—but always on the otherside of it from Elaine. And always she was hooked up to ear buds thattransported her to another planet altogether. Jason was perpetually off playingbasketball at a nearby, less-extravagant vacation resort at the center ofDiscovery Bay. Demonde had hooked him up with vacationing teenagers and localplayers there and often accompanied Jason. On the rare occasion the family didcome together, it was over the dinner table. But Jason was hardly ever thereeven then and Ellie only on occasion—still off in another universe, swaying tothe music playing in her ear buds and singing the lyrics to herself in a sweetsoprano.

    The walk east along the coastline that had led to thefortuneteller’s hut had been the only sojourn in the first week that Josh andElaine had taken together—and even that had led to Elaine running back to thehouse on her own and locking herself in her room—or at least Josh thought shewas in her room. She didn’t answer to his knock. They hadn’t slept in the sameroom since Josh’s name had appeared in conjunction with a police raid in NewYork’s Chelsea district in the middle of August.

    Even Demonde wasn’t around as much as Josh had expected himto be—which was somewhat of a relief because Josh found his presencedisconcerting. He had been absent so much initially that Josh hadn’t recognizedhim at first the day of the encounter with the fortuneteller. He had found hisfollowing Josh home at a distance disconcerting, though, and after a couple ofagonizing hours alone by the pool with a six-pack of beers, Josh had gone downto the lower level of the house, where the garages and storage rooms—andDemonde’s bedroom and bath—were to seek him out.

    As he approached the bedroom door, which was slightly ajar,he realized that Demonde wasn’t alone in his room—or alone on his bed. From themoans and the sighs and the glimpse of lighter-tan skin under Demonde’s deepchocolate and the way Demonde, stretched out, was rising and falling on thefigure underneath him on the bed, Josh realized that Demonde was having sex.

    Josh was fast to anger at this knowledge as he stepped awayfrom the door, but he quickly recovered. Demonde wasn’t his employee—really—orhis responsibility, and it should not be surprising to anyone that a young manwith such a powerful, beautiful body wouldn’t have sex—and his choice of sexpartners.

    From that time Josh hadn’t come near Demonde’s room in therun up to Halloween and had rarely seen him. He wasn’t even in evidence whenJosh decided—having no takers in the family when he suggested they all go—to gointo the village of Rio Bueno on Hallow’s Eve to check out the parade Demondehad told him about. Demonde couldn’t be found to drive him, but the keys werein the Land Rover, and Josh knew how to drive himself—and he remembered thatthere had been a sign on the Major Highway for the turnoff to Rio Bueno.

    He didn’t get to Rio Bueno until well after dark, and the paradewas already in full swing, snaking slowly down the village’s haphazardlywinding main street between bystanders holding up lit torches that made thewhole scene even more garish and mystical than it normally would be. Theparaders were chanting to the gentle stroking of African drums, the fourdrummers sitting in the bed of an old pickup truck at the rear of theprocession. The scene indeed was as ghoulish as Demonde had told Josh it wouldbe, with more than half of the procession being composed of figures covered inwhite bedsheets with elongated wooden devil masks hiding their faces, each onemore gruesome than the one before it but also each a work of art. These maskswere on sale in the tourist stores at other times of the year and were theprincipal folk art of the region.

    The rest of those on parade were wearing their clothesinside out, had their faces covered in ash, were beating maracas in an off beatfrom that of the drummers in the truck, and were weaving back and forth insidethe parade columns—and all shuffling backwards on bare feet. Many of them hadankle bracelets with jangling bells on them. In all, the sound was raucous buthad a certain mesmerizing harmony to it.

    The image of “snaking” down the street was emphasized by thepresence of live snakes draped around many of those parading down the narrowstreet between adobe and wooden shacks and bungalows set close together. Joshassumed the snakes were nonpoisonous ones, or ones that had been defanged, asneither the noise or the writhing nature of the collective beast shuffling downthe street seemed to have caused any medical emergencies.

    Still, when he realized that what was moving on the bodiesof the paraders were living organisms—slithering snakes—Josh found himselfstepping back into the darkness of an alley between two buildings. There was asensuality to all of it that took his breath away. A heavily sexed man himself,he had not gotten off in several weeks, and he found himself going hard at themesmerizing primitiveness of the celebration despite the ghoulishness of itall. The drumbeat of the African drums became the beating of his heart,drumming in his ears, and he began to pant.

    He sensed that he was not alone in the alley before hebecame fully aware of the fact. A white-robed arm, the arm of a ghost dancer,he was sure, encircled his waist from behind and drew him a bit deeper into thealley, but not so far that he couldn’t still watch the procession passing bythrough a vertical slit of torch-lit space between the buildings.

    The figure embracing him closely frombehind was a man—tall and powerfully built—and breathing as heavily as Joshwas. The feel of the man’s erection through the white cloth of his ghostcostume left no doubt in Josh’s mind that the connection between them was asexual one rather than a random mugging. And suddenly, because of all that washappening around him, because of all that had brought him to Jamaica, andbecause of his great need, a sexual connection was something that Josh achinglywanted. Still, he shuddered and started to hyperventilate as he felt movementon his arms and realized that the man had, like many of the others, snakeswound around his body.

    The man held him close, making soothing sounds at the backof his throat, while Josh controlled his trembling and terror and came toaccept that the snakes wouldn’t bite him. In fact, in some primeval way theyadded to the atmosphere of the encounter, undulating between the two bodies,making them one by winding around one man and then partially over the other.While Josh was calming down, he relaxed and began to moan softly. Only thewhite material of the ghost costume and Josh’s own trouser and brief materialseparated the two. The man was in massive erection, and as the snakes rewoundthemselves, binding one man to the other, the ghost’s erection inserted itselfbetween Josh’s thighs, under his balls, and the two swayed against each otheras the ghost dry fucked Josh’s thighs, which Josh closed willingly to encouragethe friction.

    Now was the time for Josh to break away, to deny the demonthat plagued him. But Josh made no move to do so. When his assaulter slammedhis back against the adobe wall and exhibited a fierce wooden mask, sportingsmall devil’s horns at the temples and with a large, round, mouth openingthrough which sensually thick, brown lips protruded, Josh just sighed andturned his face toward the vertical slit at the alley opening through which hecould watch the parade proceed.

    Giving over all to his present need, he trembled and placedhis hands on either side of the dreadlocked head, as his Hallow’s Eve loverknelt before him, unzipped his trousers, and pulled his hard cock out andbetween moist lips, taking the shaft deep inside his mouth cavity through thelarge mouth opening in the mask. A snake was wound around Josh’s arm, its taildraped down the shoulder and back of the ghost, but, by now, Josh had acceptedthis as yet another sensual element of the coupling. Josh panted and moved hiships, his buttocks hitting the adobe wall behind him rhythmically as his greedythrusts inside the ghost’s mouth took up the beat of the African drums in theback of the pickup truck.

    It seemed like the parade was going on forever, and, indeed,the truck passed the slit of his view beyond the alley three times during theraw, primitive sexual encounter. So the parade, he reasoned, must be in a loop,going down this street, up another, and back down this one again until all werein frenzy-induced exhaustion, and Hallow’s Eve had turned into All Saints’ Day.

    With a cry to the narrow slit of dark blue sky over thealley that was swallowed up in the strange but compelling music of the parade,Josh came down the ghost’s throat in a profusion of pent-up need of more than amonth’s duration.

    He felt so spent and exhausted—and satisfied—that he couldhave just slid down the wall into a heap at its base, but he was being held upby the strong arm of the ghost now standing, leaning down, and resting theforehead of the grotesquely evocative wooden mask on Josh’s forehead. Thevelvety brown eyes behind the mask were boring into Josh’s own eyes.

    “And now me—my pleasure—if I have guessed right,” the ghostmurmured in a rich, smooth, Jamaican-accented baritone voice.

    “Yes, yes, please. Fuck me,” Josh murmured in a strangledvoice.

    The ghost turned Josh’s cheek to the wall, and once moreJosh’s eyes focused on the glimpses of the passing parade, as he heard and felthis belt buckle being undone and his trousers and briefs being pushed down tohis ankles.

    He whimpered as a broad hand palmed his belly and anotherone grabbed the back of his neck, keeping his cheek plastered to the coolpebbled surface of the adobe wall. A snake slithered up his thigh and encircledhis hips and lower belly. It wasn’t large enough to choke the life out of Josh,but it constricted its muscles and released them throughout the fuck in acadence that Josh fancied matched that of the drummers in the truck and of hisassaulter’s rhythmic thrusts inside him. Never before had Josh felt this highduring sex.

    “Present your ass to me,” the voice, rougher, more insistentnow, cut through the darkness, and the palm on his belly prompted Josh to juthis buttocks back from the wall as he raised his stance on the balls of hisfeet. He was willing, open, wanting for what he knew was coming.

    His eyes were watering and he was giving little yip, yipsounds as one of the thickest cocks he had ever taken began to enter andstretch his channel. And enter and enter and enter. Hold. And then begin a long,slow, familiar, sought-after pumping action that became faster and faster, asJosh writhed under the fierce onslaught of the taking, the faster beat of thecock inside him seemingly being matched by the rise in volume and beat of thedrums.

    He couldn’t be mistaken. The drums were, indeed, beatingfaster, the crowd, indeed, was growing more frenzied and louder in its cries,the fuck indeed was becoming ever more vigorous, frenzied. There was nomistaking it, as Josh’s yodels merged with the song of the crowd, Hallow’s Evewas coming to a climax. And so did Josh again, his spunk splashing against theadobe wall. And so, Josh could tell by the trembling and jerking of the cockinside him and by the heavy breathing and snorts and groans of the ghost who wasfucking him, did his assailant.

    The was no feeling of the spurt of cum inside him or of warmsemen lathering the mammoth cock and dribbling down Josh’s thighs, which madeJosh aware that the man must have worn a condom. Despite the safety itsignaled, under the circumstances of their primitive sex act, Josh felt theloss of rawness of what would have made his sense of surrender peak, as hisbody now, at last, slid down the wall.

    He was alone. And, as he raised his head and focused hiseyes, he realized that the sounds beyond the alley entrance were dissipating.The parade had passed him by. It was the morning of All Saints’ Day.

    The house was dark when he returned to the Discovery Bayvilla. Elaine’s door was closed, as were those of Ellie’s and Jason’s bedrooms.All was normal—unfortunately.

    And they had made no progress on the reason why they hadescaped Long Island for Jamaica. At least he hadn’t. The same issue that hadexploded his marriage—their marriage—at least his contribution to theexplosion, still existed. He still wanted to be with men. He still wanted to befucked by men. That devil still had him by the throat.

    Although the sexual encounter in Rio Bueno had brought allof his wants to the surface and had, momentarily, been satisfying in a primitivesort of way, it had only reopened his wound. He spent a fretful hour alone onhis bed, fantasizing about the fuck in the Rio Bueno alley—alternating betweenwanting it not to have happened and wanting it to have gone on longer, forever.Wanting to have seen the body of his lover and to have had the opportunity tomake love to it.

    This had been a new level of sensuality for him. In theencounters that had gotten him into trouble in New York, he shied away fromsucking another man’s cock. But tonight he had felt the loss of not having beengiven the opportunity to do so with the ghost in the alley. He knew the cockhad been thick and long—as it had possessed his channel fully. He felt theencounter had not been complete because he had not been able to fondle and makelove to it as the ghost had done for him. He found himself trying to imaginehaving that cock in his possession.

    There was a divine male body he’d seen here in Jamaica—thatof Demonde, the driver and handyman. Each morning Demonde skimmed and cleanedthe swimming pool, wearing only a skimpy Speedo. In spite of the demon he hadto fight, Josh had taken to being on his bedroom balcony each morning to watchDemonde clean the pool, his magnificent chocolate-brown muscles rippling in theeffort, his dreadlocks gently moving in the breeze, the gold clips at the endspicking up and reflecting the sunlight on the surface of the water in the pool.

    The Speedo had done little to conceal the thickness andlength of Demonde’s cock.

    As he lay there on his back, in the nude, during the morninghours of All Saints Day, thinking of big cocks and hunky men—and of Demonde inparticular—Josh began to stroke his own cock. He arched his back, played hisnipples with his free hand, and moaned softly. He came, but he was stillrestless. It wasn’t enough.

    Perhaps just a glance of him. He wouldn’t touch the youngman—not unless he was invited to, of course. Perhaps Demonde slept in the nudetoo, Josh thought. He rose from the bed, shrugged into a short robe, tied itssash around his waist, and padded quietly down to the lower level.

    Demonde’s bedroom door was half ajar, but, as before, itquickly became evident from the sounds coming from inside the room that Demondewasn’t alone and was engaged in sex. Josh didn’t pull back quickly this time.He had recrossed that Rubicon the previously night. He had little reason now tofight his proclivities. He maneuvered around to where he could get a partialview of the bed, bathed in the moonlight streaming in from the chamber’s openwindow.

    The woman was on the bed, facing the window, on all fours.Josh could not get a good look at her because Demonde was covering her closelyfrom behind. His cheek was brushing hers, taking more than the impression of thewoman’s long, blonde hair away from Josh. Demonde had one hand on her belly andthe other one cupping an ample breast. He was fucking her from behind, slowly,rhythmically. And she was moving her buttocks against his groin and moaningsoftly. It was hard to tell, but Demonde was riding her buttocks so high thathis cock may have been in her ass.

    It was too dark to determine whether she was a Jamaicannative. The blonde hair belied that, and the texture of her skin was decidedlypaler than Demonde’s deep chocolate. There was no dearth of Scandinavianbeauties vacationing in the villa compound where Jason was spending his timeplaying basketball—if that was what Jason was spending his days doing up there,it now occurred to Josh. Jason was a good-looking, strapping young man. For allJosh knew, his son was spilling his seed at that villa compound rather thanplaying basketball. If so, Josh thought, more power to him.

    What couldbe discerned was that she was being well fucked. On every third or fourthstroke, the cock was being pulled almost to the surface before thrusting backinside. Demonde was built long and thick and his balls hung low. In hisfantasies and from his observations of Demonde cleaning the pool, Josh hadconvinced himself that this would be so.

    Josh’s attention went to the forward and backward movementand clenching and unclenching of Demonde’s bulbous buttocks. Josh’sthoughts—despite all of his struggle with this demon—were consumed with theimage of him being in the place of this woman under Demonde. Taking it in theass—hard and deep—as she appeared to be doing.

    When he observed Demonde’s buttocks tighten, move faster andmore frenziedly for four strokes, and then relax with a sigh from him and a cryof “Oh god, yes!” from her, Josh felt the cum spurt from his own hard cock,which he, unknowingly, had been stroking, and dribble down his legs.

    Spent, finally, from three ejaculations in the night, Joshwithdrew to his room—and to fretful sleep and the realization that the tripsouth had done nothing in dispelling the demons that had brought him here.

    * * * *

    Both Josh’s ire and his gorge rose the next morning as heappeared on the terrace by the pool for breakfast. Both Elaine and Ellie,atypically, had appeared for breakfast as well, and they were bothsmiling—again atypically—and they both suddenly were blondes.

    “When did this happen?” Josh blurted out.

    “When did what happen, dear?” Elaine asked. It was almost acoo rather than what had become an accusing jab in the last month. Josh feltthe knife go in on the possibility of what had made her suddenly mellow.

    “The blonde hair. Both of you.”

    “We got bored, Daddy, and wanted a change,” Ellie answered.Was that a sense of having been satisfied from her as well, Josh wondered. “Wenoticed how much attention blondes were getting down here and decided we’dlatch on to some of that.”

    Josh started to say something, but then he couldn’t. Notafter what he’d done the previous day. They were down here to smooth overrifts, not to feed them. And there was no proof . . . not really, not anythinghe could hold onto as leverage in an argument. But which one of them, hewondered. Or has it been both? He had no idea what Ellie’s experience was, butshe was twenty—she could collect experiences if she wanted, and he had no saywhatsoever in the matter. Other than that her feet were still under his table.She wasn’t paying her way. He started to say something, but he stopped himself,realizing that if Demonde was fucking his daughter, his real objection was thatDemonde wasn’t fucking him instead.

    But it could be Elaine too. When he’d been exposed for whathe did, she’d gone off the deep end and helped herself to it as well. If heaccused her now, there was no telling what she’d drag into the fight—and afterlast night in Rio Bueno . . .

    No, he thought, as he clamped his mouth shut. What we needis to start all over again. And I need to reset as much as any of the othersdo.

    He dredged his mind for something to say thatwouldn’t lead to a fight, but then he saw that he didn’t need to say anything.The attention of both women was riveted on the swimming pool, where Demonde, inhis skimpy Speedo, was doing his morning skimming and cleaning.

    In frustration and disgust—disgust with himself and his ownweaknesses as much as with anyone else—Josh wolfed his croissant, gulped hiscoffee, and quickly rose from the table and went into the house. As far as heknew, neither of the women had any inkling he’d left the table at all.

    Time to separate and work on a tan, he thought, as hechanged into a bathing suit and rustled up towel, suntan lotion, paperback,flip-flops, and sunglasses.

    He needed to be alone for a while. There were several pocketbeaches nearby—small plots of sand, surrounded down to the water with rockformations and accessible only by narrow pathways between the rocks. He pickedout a deserted cove, stretched out his towel, ran into the surf and tiredhimself out with the Australian crawl beyond the breaker line. Then hestruggled back to the sand, stripped off his suit to work on an all-over tan,and lay on his belly on the towel.

    He read until he was drowsy and then put the paperbackaside, rolled over on his back to even out the tan, and dozed off.

    When he opened his eyes, Demonde, naked and manhood swingingbetween his thighs, almost down to his knees, was walking out of the surftoward him. But it was more than Demonde. It was the Devil incarnate—the verydemon that had been plaguing Josh for months. It surely was Demonde. But italso was more. His muscular body was magnificent—all power and virility. He hadan evil grin on his face, and there were short goat horns protruding from histemples. And there was a swishy tail. The hoofs instead of feet became evidentas Demonde walked out of the surf.

    He walked toward Josh and then stood over him, hoofs plantedbeside Josh’s knees, and grinning evilly, knowingly, down into Josh’s face withbig, brown, velvety eyes.

    Josh’s attention was elsewhere, though. He was staring atthe monster cock swinging between Demonde’s thighs. He sat up and reached outfor it with one hand, the other one cupping the low-hanging ball sac. He moanedas he took the phallus in his mouth and began to suck it. This was what he’dwanted to do with the ghost the previous night and, denied that, had not feltfully satiated—and entirely new sensation for him as, though he had jacked aman with his hand, he never sucked a man off before.

    He had almost to unhinge his jaw to take the thickness ofthe cockhead inside his mouth cavity. Demonde laughed deep in his throat as hebegan to move the phallus back and forth over the surface of Josh’s tongue,moving deeper toward the throat. Josh moaned at the possessiveness of thisentirely new sensation, feeling the cock throb and harden even further. Demondeplaced his hands on the back of Josh’s head and Josh reached around Demonde’ships and palmed the man’s bulbous buttocks, as Demonde set his hips in a slowfuck motion. Although Josh had never done this for another man before, he feltfully engaged in the unity of the connection. He was exhilarated at thesensation of total connection in this act, and wondered why he hadn’t gone thisfar with another man before now. At the same time he was frustrated from theknowledge that his intentions were to forego all such sexual activity.

    Josh was lifted to a new sensual high when Demonde stoppedmoving his hips and began moving Josh’s head back and forth on the hard andslick cock. Josh involuntarily dropped one of his hands to his own, fullyengorged cock and began to stroke it in rhythm with the forward and backmovement of Demonde’s hips. With a jerk, Josh came. Demonde laughed and pulledhis cock out of Josh’s mouth.

    Josh was then turned over on all fours by Demonde’s strong,guiding hands, with Demonde crouched over his hips, fucking him deep and slow.The cock was impossibly thick and long. Josh realized he knew that cock—fromthe previous night, in the alley in Rio Bueno on Hallow’s Eve. He moaned insatisfaction—greater satisfaction as he could tell that the cock wasn’tsheathed. He could feel every vein, the cock so hard the veins were popping outat the surface, as it moved along his channel walls, sending his passagewayinto shimmering satisfaction.

    Demonde lowered his face to the back of Josh’s neck andlatched onto the scruff of his neck with his teeth like a mother cat would dowith a kitten she wanted to subdue.

    And he fucked and he fucked and he fucked, as Josh moanedand writhed under him. And his flow flooded Josh’s channel deep and seeped downthe sides of the phallus and out of Josh’s entrance and down his thighs. Andthen, as Josh collapsed onto the towel, Demonde followed him down, still hard,and began to pump again, this time faster and deeper and faster and deeper . .. An ejaculation. Resumed pumping and another ejaculation. Pump and flow; pumpand flow.

    When Josh woke, he was alone, belly to towel. His thighswere slick with cum.

    But was it his cum or Demonde’s? Or was it the Devil’s?

    Josh remained there another hour-until he started to burnfrom the sun’s rays, savoring whatever he had just experienced, whether it wasa dream or real life. Whatever it was, it had mellowed him out and given him aseries of tension-releasing ejaculations. And the sex with Demonde had felt soreal and so satisfying.

    He was whistling as he approached the villa and then changedto soft humming as he entered the silent house and walked to the kitchen for abeer. The cook, Angelina, a large, heavyset, jolly Jamaican woman was workingon a lunch that Josh wondered if anyone but he would appear to enjoy.

    “The house is quiet,” he said, not wanting to just passthrough the kitchen without acknowledging her presence. There were many timesduring their residence there that Josh thought the Angelina was the only glue thatkept the family from being pitched out in all directions by the centrifugalforce of the mounting tensions between them.

    “I don’t know where mistress is,” Angelina answered, “butMaster Jason went to the vacation villas on the bay early this morning, takinghis basketball. And Miss Ellie left just now to take the sun in one of thecoves, she said. Do you want lunch now, sir?”

    “No, I can see that you’ve just started making it. I’ll eatby the pool later. You can leave it in the refrigerator and leave for theafternoon. I know you must have much to do at home.” She would be back to fixtheir dinner.

    He flipped open the beer can and walked over to the wall ofglass in the great room that overlooked the pool, hoping, he realized, to catcha glimpse of Demonde, cleaning the pool—a Demonde who, if he was here, couldnot have been in the cove fucking Josh just now. But Demonde wasn’t there. So,Josh went up the stairs to have a shower and wash the sand off his body—and, hethought, perhaps, with a sudden warm feeling, out of his channel. Could thathave gotten in there while he was swimming in the sea, he wondered. Or could ithave entered later—with Demonde’s cock?

    He heard the sounds as he hit the top of the stairs, comingfrom Elaine’s room. They hadn’t even bothered to close her bedroom door.

    Demonde, naked, was lying on his back in the center ofElaine’s bed, his head nestled on the overlapping wrists of his bent arms, hisfists grabbing the slats of the headboard above his head, a big smile on hisface. Elaine, her arms thrust back and the heels of her hands pressed into hispecs, was riding his cock in reverse, her pendulous breasts swaying with therhythm of the fuck and a look of supreme satisfaction on her face.

    Both of them looked up as Josh stood in the doorway, bothobviously seeing him there. Neither seemed surprised or alarmed, though. Elainehad a “take that” expression on her face when her eyes went to Josh. Demondelooked half amused and entirely uncaring and in control. To add to the insult,he reached down with his hands, gripped Elaine’s waist, and raised her a bunchof inches up off his cock to exhibit just how big the shaft was, and thenlowered her hips again to show just how far up into her he reached.

    Josh turned; walked down the stairs, nearly in a trance; andout the front door. The doors of the Land Rover were unlocked, as was the glovecompartment. The Glock 42 was where he’d put it as well as the bullet magazinefor it. Taking the gun, he reentered the house and walked deliberately back upthe stairs.

    He found Elaine alone on her bed, on her back, the fingersof one hand playing in her folds and of the other tweaking a nipple. She seemedneither surprised nor shocked by the gun.

    The French doors to the upper terrace were open, and Joshwalked over to them. Demonde, still naked, the bulbous buttocks the sameinviting orbs Josh had seen in Demonde’s room before—and perhaps had graspedwith the palms of his own hands just recently—had somehow made it down to thelower level and was walking away from the house, in the garden—more saunteringthan making an exit one would expect of a man caught by a husband in a trystwith his wife.

    Josh turned from the window and lowered the gun.

    “Were you going to shoot him or me?” Elaine asked in a calmvoice.

    “Perhaps both. I hadn’t thought about it,” Josh answered. Hefelt guilty at the knowledge that his first reaction was to shoot her—that whathad set him off was seeing her as competition for what he couldn’t help wantingfor himself.

    “You are good about not thinking, Josh. He told me aboutlast night—in Rio Bueno. You just can’t help yourself, can you?”

    Confirmation that Demonde had been his ghost lover in thatalley—not that he needed confirmation anymore.

    “And you can’t stop punishing me for it?”

    “No, I suppose not,” she answered. “But there are sidebenefits. He gives one magnificent fuck.”

    “I know,” Josh said.

    There was a flash of anger from Elaine when he said that.Then she said, “Are you going to shoot me now, or will you put that gun away?”

    “I may have to shoot us all,” Josh answered. But he loweredthe gun further, left the room, and replaced the Glock in the glove compartmentof the Land Rover.

    There wasn’t much he felt justified in doing for havingfound her fucking Demonde. He knew that was her answer to what he had done—andeven, apparently, with Demonde, although that had just now been confirmed forthe first time.

    No, he had come here to salvage whatever he could of hisfamily. But Demonde would have to go. He couldn’t be permitted free rein tocover both husband and wife at will. Josh called the rental agency and arrangedfor Demonde’s removal. The answer, he decided, was not to dwell on what hadhappened but to erase all temptation—for all of them.

    And then the guilt set in as he realized that his thoughtsimmediately had gone to how he might hook up with Demonde beyond the sphere ofthe villa and Elaine.

    * * * *

    Another fretful, hot night, the French doors thrown up tocatch the sea breeze, and Josh lying on his back on top of the sheets, spentbut not fully satisfied from a masturbation session and dreaming of Demonde’scock—and now not only with it possession his ass; now Josh wanted to fondle andsuck it as well. With a groan, he turned onto his belly and dozed.

    He felt the heavy body stretch out full length on top of himand the labored breathing in his ear. And the arms embracing his torso, and theteeth as they closed down over the scruff of his neck. With a sigh, Josh dughis knees into the surface of the bed and raised his buttocks to provide hislover the perfect angle. A throbbing, thick cock pressed its bulb at Josh’shole, and he relaxed his channel, knowing that the shaft would stretch him andreach deeper than any ever had done before. And it did both, and they both laythere, panting shallowly, as Josh adjusted to the invasion.

    Then the deep pumping began, and Josh lifted his head tostare at the back-and-forth of the heavy teak headboard as it ground gentlyagainst the wall to the gentle rhythm of the fuck. He opened his mouth toscream, but a hand covered his mouth, with a thick thumb invading the chamberfor Josh to suck on. He reached up with a hand, running his fingers through thedreadlocks and continuing to the forehead of his assaulter—his lover. His handfelt the protruding nub at the temple. A small horn?

    That’s when he noticed the swishing of something against hiscalves. The end of a tail?

    Something moved across his outstretched arm. He looked overin that direction. In the dark, he couldn’t be sure. The coils of a snake?Suddenly it seemed the whole surface of the bed was alive with the slitheringof snakes. He cried out and had to reach his arms up and grab the slats of theheadboard, because his ass was being pounded hard and deep. Pounded, pounded,pounded.

    The headboard was slapping against the wall and the springswere moaning from the pounding. Josh cried out again and again. “Yes! Yes!Yes!”

    And then the eruption and flooding. Another ejaculation andthen another. Ending in a maniacal laugh.

    And then . . . silence.

    Josh came to in a puddle of cum? All his? Surely not. Heturned over and moaned. Not satisfied. Still wanting it. Wanting so much moreof it. Wanting to suck it as well as feeling it move in his channel. What wasreal and what was not? Why had he sent Demonde away? Why could he not have justshared him?

    But then he beat his fists into the mattress. How in thehell could he shake this demon that had him by the balls?

    * * * *

    The next three days were suspiciously quiet. Suspiciously,Josh thought, because all of his family members were acting as if they werewarming to this vacation. Not to each other, but, individually, mellowing tothe pace of life here. Scowls had changed to small, interior-oriented smiles,flashed when they thought that others weren’t watching—as if each had asatisfying secret to savor.

    Everything seemed normal except that Demonde wasn’t there.And what was abnormal about that was that none of Josh’s family members hadremarked about the man’s absence. Now the rental agency was sending someonefrom a pool maintenance business to clean the pool every other day. And, toJosh’s relief, everyone they sent was an ugly older man. He had said nothing tothe cook or housekeeper about Demonde being sent away. Let them find out intheir own way and for whatever reasons they were told—if they noticed he wasgone during the family’s stay at all.

    The afternoon of the third day, those secrets began tounravel.

    After the noon meal, Josh stripped down to a bathing suit coveredby a T-shirt, because he was beginning to burn, walked east along thecoastline, seeking time alone to argue with himself about two nights ofsolitary confinement with no aided release—reasoning that this was what he’dstarted, the start on the road to pulling the pieces of his family together andshaking his addiction, even though he ached for Demonde to visit him in thenight. Whether real or an illusion, he didn’t care. Well, he did care, ofcourse, but any release was better than none. At the same time he realized thatthis exactly was what he had to shake if his life ever was going to return tonormal.

    Whatever normal was since he had become aware that he achedfor big-cocked muscular men to fuck him.

    He had a thought to try a new cove that was rimmed by a rockcliff. When he reached the rim of that, he looked down into the curve of sandto discover that it wasn’t deserted as he had hoped. There was a couple downthere, having sex. The closer he looked, the more he realized that it wasDemonde—and not just Demonde, but also the Devil Demonde, tail swishing, hornsprotruding, dreadlocks flying, the gold clips on the end of them catching thesun’s rays and sending beams around on the sides of the cliff walls in adisplay of vigorous fucking.

    The woman, with long blonde hair, was on all fours, and theDevil Demonde was crouched over her hips—fucking her in the ass. His taut torsomuscles glistened with sweat from the exertion.

    And it wasn’t just any blonde, Josh realized in horror. Itwas Ellie. His daughter, Ellie. With a cry, Josh started plunging down thesteep pathway descending from the cliff face to the sand below. But almostimmediately he stumbled and fell, scraping his knee on a rock. He had to workhis way down more slowly and gingerly from there, his knee screaming its pain,keeping his eyes on the pathway to prevent another stumble.]

    When he reached the sand, only Ellie was there, on her backon a towel, with her bikini bottoms in place, a paperback in her hands. Shelooked up at him and said, “Dad. I didn’t expect to see you here.”

    I jolly well bet you didn’t, Josh thought, seething inside,but aware, from recent experience, that what he’d seen from the top of thecliff might have just been an illusion created by his overwrought imagination.And also aware that, at twenty, he should see his daughter’s sex life as byright rather than as competition for him.

    But then, while as casually as he could, he said, “I waslooking for a private cove myself; I didn’t see you here,” he began to discerntelltale signs that he hadn’t been hallucinating—at least not about someonejust having been fucking her. The hands holding the paperback were shaking, sheseemed a bit out of breath, and the nipples of her pendulous breasts werepuffy. He turned his head, looking out to sea, and he was convinced that hecould see a head bobbing around a rock that went down to the sea toward thewest—a head with dreadlocks splayed out on the surface of the water—a hint ofshort horns peeking out of the black strands at the swimmer’s temples.

    Josh knew. He knew that hadn’t been an illusion. It wasn’tjust Elaine. Demonde was fucking Ellie too—and probably had been for some time.This was really too much, although he knew there was no high moral ground forhim to stand on. He didn’t linger there. He walked back to where the path upthe cliff side started, mumbling something innocuous back to Ellie’s casual,“See you at supper.”

    At the top of the cliff, he turned east, rather than west,back toward the villa at Discovery Bay. He kept on walking along the coastline,trying to remember the path he and Elaine had taken days ago, back before thisnightmare—or delightful dream, Josh was still fighting that internalstruggle—had begun.

    He realized that he had chosen the right path when he couldsee the fortuneteller’s hut ahead of him, clinging half way up the slope downto yet another secluded cove.

    “You have come back. I knew you would,” Madame Lameshacackled when he entered the dimly lit, dingy shack. She didn’t seem the leastsurprised to see him enter her hut. She was still sitting at the small round,black-cloth covered table, clutching the far edges as if the table would spiralup through the roof if she didn’t hold it down. Her clothing was the same asbefore, as if she had been just sitting there, waiting for him to return.

    “I have rejected my demons, but they won’t let me go,” Joshsaid, standing there, refusing to sit down. Not knowing why he’d come, exceptthat he was at the end of his rope.

    “And you have come to me for help.”

    “You said there are potions—poisons—to dismiss the Devil inthis Obeah religion of yours.”

    “And you want me to give one to you.”

    “I am weak. I cannot fight this myself. I need something tohelp me—if only a psychological crutch.”

    “My potions are not psychological crutches or toys,” thewoman responded with indignation, pulling her puffy chest up and squaring hershoulders.

    “Will you sell me a potion or won’t you?”

    “Oh, yes, I will sell you a potion. I know that your demonis a particularly strong one, and is growing stronger rather than weaker. Itwill have to be a particularly strong potion.”

    For the first time in either visit, she rose from her chairand waddled to the back wall of the shack. She was humming as she rattled jarsand pulled items off shelves and put them back. She returned with a blackleather necklace strand with a vial of some sort hanging from it.

    Josh looked at it as she held it out to him in her palm. Itwas a glass vial, but it was in the shape of a cross. He could see that it hada metal band around it under the cross beam and that it was filled with abluish liquid.

    “If you raise this to the Devil, he will have to back off,”she said. “But if you want to dispel him, you will have to snap it where thismetal band is and touch him with at least some of the potion. He will dissolveon the spot.”

    “And you say this works?”

    “Yes, of course it works. It is strong Obeah. I made thisbatch on the just-passed Hallow’s Eve.”

    “And he will never come back?”

    “Never. You will be finished with him.”

    Josh hesitated at the implication of this. But then hebucked up and said, through clenched teeth, “How much?”

    “Nothing if you try it and it doesn’t work—if you don’treally want to dispel the Devil.” At this, she gave him a penetrating look thatJosh didn’t much like. “You will give me much if it does work. We will discussthat when you return after it has worked.”

    “And the Devil won’t return?” Josh repeated.

    “If he is truly gone, yes. If you believe you have dispelledit but only are fooling yourself, all will be illusion.”

    Clutching the vial in a fist, the necklace around his neck,Josh returned to the villa at Discovery Bay. Something told him he knew whathe’d find there, and he was right.

    Elaine was splayed over the side of the bed, belly tomattress, her feet on the floor, her eyes focused on the door to her bedroomwhere Josh appeared. She was showing a smile of deep satisfaction. Demonde—theDevil Demonde, complete with horns, hoofed feet, and swishing tail, was standingbehind her, holding her waist between his hands. He was fucking her in her ass,taking long, deep strokes. He too was looking at the doorway where Joshappeared, a smug look of victory on his face.

    The expression changed, though, immediately after he saw thenecklace around Josh’s neck. Josh raised the cross-shaped vial, stretching itout toward Demonde as far as the leather strand would permit.

    With a slurp, Demonde pulled out of Elaine’s ass and backedtoward the open French window, with an arm thrown across his face, his upcurvederection monstrous.

    Josh stepped forward, his hand tugging at the vial, workinghis fingers to where he could break it at the metal band. The leather strandsnapped at the power of his pull and the distance between him and the Devil wasbeing narrowed.

    But Josh . . . just . . . could not carry through—at leastfor the extra couple of seconds it took Demonde to back through the window anddisappear from sight. But then the vial snapped where Josh’s fingers had beenpressing on it, and the liquid dropped to the Oriental carpet underneath, whereis sizzled and burned holes through the thick carpeting as acid would.

    Angry at himself. Resolved now—perhaps for the first timegenuinely resolved, he believed—Josh turned and ran out of the room, down thestairs, and out of the house. He ran all the way back to the cove where thefortuneteller’s shack was located. He moved in a frenzy, muttering to himselfthat he needed more potion. That this time he would carry through. That this holdof the Devil’s must be broken—for the first time convincing himself that hebelieved not only in the physical nature of the Devil that besieged his lifebut also in the power of Obeah.

    But when he reached the cove he sought, the shack was notthere. There was no evidence it ever had been there. Was this what thefortuneteller had meant about it allbeing an illusion if he wasn’t genuinely prepared to exorcise his demon? Wereeven the shack and the fortuneteller—and the very basis of Obeah—illusions tothose unable to believe?

    But he was a believer now, he whined. Ah, but you weren’tthen, a little voice inside his head said. You weren’t a full believer thatDemonde was the Devil when you stood before him and could have destroyed him.

    “But I am a believer now,” he repeated, saying it out loud.Turning and screaming it to the sea. “I am now! I am ready to free myself ofthe Devil now.”

    The only sound that came back to him was the sound of thesurf of the Caribbean sea lapping against the sand of the cove below.

    He trudged back to the villa, his mind working on what hecould do to combat this demon. Regretting now that he was entirely on his ownin doing so. As a last resort, he knew, there was the Glock in the Land Rover’sglove compartment. It could be an ultimate answer for him and the rest of thefamily—if it was not an answer for Demonde and the Devil inside him. Josh waswon over now. Demonde wasn’t just a randy Jamaican hunk. He was the Devilincarnate. Josh’s own personal demon.

    When he got back to the villa, the cook had returned tostart preparing dinner. The Land Rover was gone. Had Elaine left him? Joshwondered.

    “Where is Mrs. Cameron?” he asked Angelina, trying to keephis voice casual.

    “Mrs. Cameron and Miss Ellie are in their rooms,” Angelinaanswered. “I was just upstairs and I saw them both. They are sleeping.”

    The Land Rover, Josh wondered. Who had taken the Land Rover?Had Demonde stolen it?

    “And Jason?” he asked. “I guess he’s still at the DiscoveryBay compound.”

    “Oh, no, Mr. Cameron. He wasn’t before. He just was throughhere, raiding the refrigerator. He and Demonde. But he may be off to thevacation compound, playing basketball, now. I hope that son of yours is a verygood basketball player. He seems to have devoted his life to it.” She toppedthis observation off with a hearty laugh. Josh attempted an appreciative smile,but what she said was pounding at his brain.

    “He and Demonde? Demonde was just here?” Josh asked,fighting for breath, his voice sharper than he had intended.

    “Oh, yes. He was just here. With Master Jason. He said theywere going to Discovery Bay. To play basketball.”

    Something roared in Josh’s brain. He knew now that he shouldhave told Angelina that Demonde was not supposed to be here anymore. The fearthat gripped him wasn’t just that Jason had never taken the Land Rover beforeto go play basketball at the Discovery Bay villas compound. It was what Joshhad seen in the front foyer just now.

    Jason’s basketball. He never went to play basketball withouttaking his basketball.

    Demonde had Jason. Josh knew that as well as he knewanything. Demonde undoubtedly was fucking Jason too—and had been all along—andwas fucking him now.

    The image of his eighteen-year-old son, bent over a rocksomewhere, with Devil Demonde mounted on his young hips, tail swishing,raucously laughing at Josh as his thick cock moved up inside the tender channeland Jason, rather than crying out at the assault, panted and begged for thefuck—more competition for Devil Demonde’s attentions—was overwhelming.

    Josh collapsed into a straight chair and lowered his headbetween his knees, fighting the nausea and racked by frustration and despair.Not the frustration and despair that he had brought himself to believe in. Thefrustration was that Demonde was fucking Jason and not him. The despair was therealization that he never was going to shake this demon. That he never wasgoing to deny Devil Demonde’s power over him.

    And with the Land Rover gone, so was the salvation of theGlock.


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  • The Unbreakable Bond

    As I continued on toward the house, I relived all the moments that we had had together. And though I wished all of it was a bad dream, a cruel joke that fate had played, I knew better than that. Trent was married. And even though I knew that what we had seemed so real, either one of two possibilities had occurred.

    I didn’t relish in the thought that my brother was a liar…that this marriage was some cover up to hide the truth that Trent was gay. On the other hand, I knew that Trent had had his fair share of pussy growing up. He was a ladies man, after all…one of the many qualities that I found most attractive. On the other hand, perhaps I had been wrong the whole time. Perhaps Trent didn’t feel the same way and was looking to experiment. And once it was all said and done, maybe he didn’t really like it…maybe it wasn’t that he wasn’t gay…maybe he just didn’t want me in the same way that I had longed for Trent all those years.

    Nevertheless, there was one simple, undeniable fact…Trent was now married. And it pissed me off more than anything…to approach me last night in the shop and push himself onto me the way he did. I would have given anything to have wrapped my warm mouth around his cock, to rim his perfect ass, to explore every muscle like a new found love affair, to watch as my aching cock penetrated him to the depths that I had before. Yes, I wanted him. But, no, I was not going down that road. I was better than that. I had decency. I had class…all traits that Trent didn’t have after all, I suppose.

    I looked up at the deck as I walked by and saw him staring blankly into his hand like a child with a new dollar bill. It was adorable and sickening at the same time. And just as I passed under the deck where he sat, I heard him speak.

    “Patrick, get your ass up here now!” His voice was steady and commanding. And the sheer tone of his voice caused a stirring in my crotch that was unquestionable. I stopped in my tracks, waiting for him to speak again…reeling and grasping at words to say in return.

    “Why?” I hissed back at him.

    “Because…because I’m your brother. I need to talk to you!” His voice was husky in the cold air.

    “It sounds to me like you need to talk to your wife, brother…not me.” I took another step as I heard him shuffling overhead, his heavy steps seeming to leap and bound upon the wood above me and then hurdling down the stairs into the yard. I froze again as I heard his heavy gait upon the crunching snow behind me.

    “Patrick, I have something to tell you…it’s really important and we need to talk about it right now. Can we go somewhere? Just us? Please, I’m not asking for much.” His voice had modulated into something less powerful, something vulnerable. But in my mind, it wasn’t the imploring of a lost soul…no, it was the hungry lust of a liar.

    “There’s nothing to say, Trent. Your words are as hollow as a tomb…promising as a sift.” With my back still turned to him, I could feel the blood rising to my face, the veins in my neck distending out into the cold air, boiling to the breaking point. I felt his hand rest on my shoulder. It infuriated me…my mind screamed with all of its might.

    “Patrick…I love you…let me explain,” he said softly.

    “There’s nothing to explain, brother. Not one goddamned thing.” I shrugged his hand from its resting place and took a step forward. “You’ve made your bed…now lie in it like the lying dog you are.” I felt his hand on my shoulder again and with a force that only he could have as he whipped me around to face him. I saw the tears on his face, the begging soul in his eyes…and it was all lost on me.

    “Please, Pat…you don’t understand.” His words were choked and strained as he held back the sobs. “I can explain it all…just give me a chance. If you loved me the way you said you did, then you owe it me to hear me out.”

    “I owe it to you? I OWE it to you?” I was irate. I took a step forward shoved the Goliath man before me, again and again. “I owe you nothing! You know why? Because you took everything I had! You fucking prick! How dare you say that to me!” I stood toe to toe with him, not backing down, unafraid of his strength, his cunning, his rugged handsomeness, his manhood…I feared nothing. “I owe it to you? NO! You don’t even deserve to call me ‘brother’ anymore.”

    As I turned to walk inside, his voice resonated again. “You know that picture Dad bought Mom when they first got together? The one that hangs in the hallway before you get to their room?” Trent’s words lingered causing me to stop in my tracks again.

    “What about it?” I asked.

    “It’s from Corinthians…Love is patient, love is kind…” he began to recite.

    “I know what it is, Trent. What about it?” I asked sharply.

    “I’m not going anywhere…I’m going to get through to you, Pat. What I have for you is patient, kind. It’s not jealous or boastful or proud. It isn’t rude or self-seeking…it doesn’t submit to anger. It forgets all wrongs and forsakes the evil the world offers and rejoices in its truth. It will always defend, trust, hope and endure. It will never fail…it will never fail, Pat.” I could hear him breathing hard as the snow fell silently over the rolling hills and towering trees.

    “It did fail, Trent.” I whispered.

    “Love is all that matters, Pat…it’s the only thing that will ever last!” he urged.

    “And, sometimes…it’s not enough.” I opened the door and walked inside leaving Trent in the bitter cold…alone.

    ***

    I remained in my room the rest of the evening, well into the early hours of morning before I was persuaded out by Mom’s cooking. It was Christmas Eve, and the entire home smelled of wonderful confections and country living. It was around 5am when I decided to head downstairs to offer to help her. As I approached the landing, I could hear his voice.

    “He hates me, Mom.” Trent’s voice echoed through the kitchen, dining room and great room.

    “Oh no, dear…he doesn’t hate you. Patrick couldn’t hate a soul on this earth if he wanted to. It’s just not in his nature. He’s hurt is all. You have to realize, Trent. When it was just the two of us…before you and Dad came into our lives, Patrick had become very…jaded. He had to grow up very early. Not like you. He became the man of the house. And, he watched his own father treat me in the worst of ways.

    For a long time after he left us, Patrick was the man of the house. And I think at first, the thought of you and Rick unsettled him. But not because he was protective of his place in the world. No, I could tell that he was more than willing to give up that role. But, he was unsure of whether or not he could trust again. And, in time, he did. And then he fell in love with you.

    Oh, it was written all over him. The way he hung on your every word and supported you in all that you did and said. He was your own personal PR agent, I swear. And Dad tells me that he says you leaving him like you did…it just destroyed him. I’ll be honest; he hasn’t been the same since. Can you blame him?” She scolded in her mothering way.

    “No, Mom. I can’t. But, if he’d just hear me out and listen to what I have to say then…” he trailed off.

    “Then what? He’d be over it? He could have closure? Son, matters of the heart aren’t always so cut and dry. You must realize that. It’s not as simple as saying, ‘Oh, and this explains it all’ and you get to go about your business. You have a wife. That’s not just going away for him.” I crept further down the stairs to see him sitting at the bar opposite of the granite island where she stirred a pot that filled the room with the scent of cinnamon.

    “My dear, all I know to tell you is to give it time. He’ll forgive you when he’s ready. In the meantime, the best I can suggest is man up and be ready to withstand his anger and remember that this anger is the result of pain…not malice.” He stood up from the bar and walked over to her, kissing her on the head and giving her an enormous hug. “Now, go on back to bed…it’ll all be better in the morning.”

    As he began to traipse back toward the stair, I snuck back up to my room, closing my door behind me. I heard his footsteps coming down the hall and noticed that they stopped in front of my door. My mind took me back to that night as I watched his shadow dance with the light. I watched his shadow shift at my door step, as if trying to decide whether to knock on my door or not. Instead, he slipped something underneath it and walked on down the hall.

    I stared at the piece of paper for hours it seemed before making my way across the room to retrieve it. On a scrap of paper, perhaps from the grocery list Mom always kept down stairs, he had simply written, “I love you…from here to the moon and back.”

    ***

    As the house bustled about in preparation for our Christmas Eve dinner and family and friends began to pour into our home, I decided to venture out to the store for a couple of necessities at Mom’s request. And on a whim, I bought a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. I rarely smoked, but something told me that until I returned to school or Trent left for Japan-whichever was to happen first-I was going to need something to take the edge off.

    I returned the items home and excused myself as I went out back for a smoke. The night was clear, the air was cold and crisp…darkness had fallen, casting shadow over much of the property because of the big house, the trees, and the mountain. I quietly packed my cigarettes and unraveled the foil, lit one up and propped up against the house.

    I was lost in thought when I heard the flick of his Zippo and was startled to near death. “Geezus! What the hell are you doing?” I asked him.

    “Same as you, I guess…looking for a quiet place to think…and smoke. When did you start?” he asked.

    “You know, this would be a perfectly good conversation to have if I could stand being around you…if we had common interests and goals…if you hadn’t fucked me over and messed me all up in the head. Then, then we’d be able to have small talk.” I took a drag off of my cigarette and exhaled slowly. “Just leave me alone, Trent.”

    “You get my note?” he asked.

    “Yes, I did.” I answered.

    “And?” he prodded.

    “I’m not doing this right now.” I threw down my smoke and began to walk off when I was knocked to the ground and began rolling down the hill towards the shop. I lay at the foot of the hill in a daze when Trent snapped me out of it, pouncing on top of me. “What the fuck!” I yelled.

    “You won’t give me a chance any other way…so, I’m taking matters into my own hands. Now, you’re gonna listen to me, Pat. You are going to hear me out.” He held me at my wrists, and struggling as I was, he was too much for me to fight back. I relaxed knowing he was in control. “That night, the night we had sex was the best night of my life. I haven’t even had sex since. I can’t…I’ve tried but can’t even get off. And do you wanna know why?”

    I smiled, “Equipment trouble?”

    “You’re such a goddamned, smart-mouth bitch, Pat! Because I love you. I have always loved you. And try as I might to act like I don’t, like I’m a regular guy, like this didn’t happen, like I’m tough and straight and all that I thought the world expected out of me…I can’t fight the fact that I’m not complete unless I’m in your arms…like my world stops when you aren’t around…like my heart doesn’t beat without you in it. Patrick…I love you. I always will. And, even though I fucked it all up, I’m trying to get it back if you’d have me.” He panted, out of breath from spilling his guts.

    “You…ARE…MARRIED!!!” I shouted.

    “Yes, I am…to a woman that did me the kindness of covering up my shame. Life was hell in the Marines at first. The guys knew I was different. And they were making life hell on me. That was the price for leaving you like I did. That was my punishment. Kelsey knew the story from the beginning…she knows, Pat! She married me so that the guys would ease up…so I wouldn’t have to live with any of them anymore. She did me a favor…that is all. I swear to God on my very own life, it’s the truth.”

    “You aren’t lying are you?” I said, unable to catch my breath.

    His voice softened. “No, Pat. Kelsey was the one that has encouraged me to try and get you back. Mom and Dad know how I feel. Everyone knows how I feel. Except for you. And, now that you know…what do you feel…about me?” He got up and shuffled to my side, leaving me heaving in snow. “C’mon, Pat. Please just tell me. If you don’t feel the same way, I understand…but, I can’t take this silence. My God, it’s bad enough to know how bad I’ve messed all this up…please don’t make me suffer anymore.”

    I sat up, stunned and bewildered, and looked at him blankly. “Say something, Pat. For God’s sake…” he pleaded. But, I had no words. Nothing I could say would match with everything going through my head. He fiercely punched the ice-laden ground and stood up. “I guess the silence says it all.” He turned and ran towards the house, and when he was just out of ear shot, I began to cry.

    ***

    The evening continued, uneventful. I retired to my room after the horrendous exchange outside, as did he, I suppose. There were so many at the house, we wouldn’t have been missed. I got a hot shower, chilled to the bone, and sat down in the alcove that overlooked the woods from my room. I covered up with a blanket and watched the snow fall as I tried to comprehend what had happened. There was a gentle knock on the door.

    I answered and was stunned when I saw Kelsey there waiting with a sincere smile. “Hey, Patrick. I hate to bother you, but I really think we should talk.” In her arms, she carried what looked like an enormous CD binder that was more than four inches thick. I moved out of her way and gestured her in.

    “Look, I know Trent talked to you…and, being his friend for so long, I know he has a way of going about things backwards. He does love you…and, even though I know you are hurting right now, you should know that he’s hurting too…” I cut her off.

    “Kelsey, I appreciate what you’re trying to do, but this really isn’t any of your concern. I get it…he needed a cover up. Fine. Great. Wonderful! That means two things to me: he’s gay and he’s ashamed of it. It still doesn’t fix the fact that he left me that day…he broke a promise.” I reached over and grabbed the photo of us from graduation night in the frame that he had pain-stakingly fashioned years ago. “Do you see this?”

    “Yes, he has one just like it. An Unbreakable Bond…I get it. Pat, you think I don’t know what you’re going through, but I do. I’ve been there with him through all of it. I’ve seen him cry over you…and pray to God for forgiveness for leaving you. I’ve seen him drink himself to death, mourning over you. And…I’ve seen him love you…even when you were not there.” She sat down at my desk and unzipped the binder. “This is Trent’s. It’s a CD case he started the day he left the hotel that morning. In it, in each little pocket, he placed a letter. Sometimes he’d write two or three a day. Each and everyone he wrote to you. Just look, Pat. There are more than four hundred pieces of paper telling you that he loves you, and misses you, and that he’s sorry. More than four hundred times this man has said that he wasn’t good enough. That he messed it all up. That you deserve better than he could ever be. He’d kill me if he knew I was showing this to you.”

    I thumbed through the plastic pages, scanning over the neatly folded letters, some dirty from the grime of deployment while others crisp and clean. “He wrote all of these for me?”

    “Yes, he did. I want you to read them. About an hour ago, he put one more in here before he went to bed…and, Pat, there’s so much that these letters say that he can’t. If you ever loved him, open up your heart and hear what he’s saying in these letters.” She stood up and wrapped her arms around me. “You guys once said that you had an ‘unbreakable’ bond…I think its time you both prove it.” And with that, she left the room.

    ***

    As Christmas Eve dawned into Christmas morn, I sat at the window and began to read. With each and every word, I was left breathless. The tone of his letters, the sincerity of them all, these were the things that I was missing. The pieces of the broken puzzle. He would talk about his day, his horrible treatment and hazing from his Marine brothers, the nights he would cry himself to sleep.

    He would talk about the things he had seen, the places he had been, the successes and the failures. He would write about his plan to get married and how he hoped that I would forgive him. He would say how much he missed me, how he wished he could be with me, how fucked up he was for leaving that day. I stopped counting the times he told me he loved me…and all the reasons he did.

    He would ask for forgiveness, for my grace for all that he’d done wrong, and beg that one day I’d give him another chance. He relived our moments together growing up, the times we’d laugh and cry together…and that sweet night that he gave himself to me…how he never felt more complete than the moment that our bodies had become one.

    He would drone on and on about how he worried that I would move on, how that he hoped I would find happiness, and how he would love me until he drew his final breath. His words poured off the pages, and I drank it all in. And then in the last letter, the crumpled up paper stuck out of the pocket unlike the others. It was thicker than the rest. I hastily pulled it from the pocket, and as I did, something fell to the floor into the darkness.

    Knowing I would look for it later, I anxiously read his last letter:

    My love, I’ve done all that I can do to show you that I am the man you fell for all those years ago. I’ll love you until the end of time, from here to the moon and back. I’d do anything to be yours…for you to love me again. I’d give anything for the chance to stand in front of allthe world and give you this gift…this token of my love. But, I guess that’s not going to be in the cards. It’s my own fault…the price for my leaving you. Patrick, if only you’d take this symbol of my love for you, I’d spend every beat of my heart showing you what true love is.

    Yours forever,

    Trent

    I turned on the light looking for what had dropped out of the letter. There, in the center of the room, was a shiny ring that looked oddly familiar. As I knelt to pick it up, I realized that it was like the ring Trent wore…but this wasn’t scratched or nicked. No, this one had never been worn. On the inside, an inscription was barely visible. I moved closer to the light to read it…before falling to my knees weeping.

    ***

    The sun shined brightly across my face as I woke up on the floor, clutching the letter and ring in my hand. It was Christmas morning, and a new day. The smell of bacon filled the house as I went to the bathroom to get ready.

    It had been a long standing tradition to have a wonderful breakfast Christmas morning and open presents in front of the fire place. And as I got ready, I realized that the man that I had loved the majority of my life would finally be within grasp. For so long, my hatred and anger had kept him at bay. But at last, the time had arrived when Trent and I were coming full circle in the grander scheme of things.

    I put the ring in my back pocket and began my slow descent down stairs. Mom and Dad were setting the table as Kelsey continued cooking. Trent was no where to be found. As I stood on the landing, scanning the room, I saw him sitting there in front of the fireplace, aimlessly staring into the roaring blaze. I smiled at Kelsey and couldn’t help but notice her give me a wink. Mom and Dad stood at the table, frozen where they were as Dad reached over to hold her hand.

    I walked up behind Trent and noticed him fiddling with his wedding ring. He sat there, his broad shoulders filling out a grey cotton long sleeve shirt, dark denim Levi’s and a nice pair of boots. Here he was, the man of my dreams…absolutely gorgeous in every way.

    “Merry Christmas, Trent.” I offered. He turned his head slowly with that devilish crooked grin spreading into a wide smile. His brown eyes glistened in the firelight.

    “Merry Christmas, Pat.” His face seemed to glow as he stood to face me. “I…um…I’m glad you came down to join us. I was thinking you were just gonna stay up there all day.”

    “No…just…overslept.” I stood there looking into his beautiful eyes noticing everything…the smell of his cologne, the neatly trimmed hairstyle the Marines had given him over his shaggy hair so long ago…the perfect dimples that graced his face as he smiled. I turned to Mom, “Mom, how much longer until breakfast is ready?”

    “Oh, about another half hour.” She smiled as she set the table.

    “Trent, can we talk?” I whispered.

    “I thought you’d never ask…” he grinned as he reached for his coat across the love seat. “We’re heading out for a bit…we’ll be back in a few, Mom.”

    As we donned our coats to head out into the bitter cold, Kelsey approached us both, giving us both a big hug and whispered in our ears, “I recently read that nothing was impossible…until you quit. Now, go…I love you both.” Trent leaned down and kissed her on the cheek.

    Trent opened the door and guided me through with his massive hand on the small of my back…his touch sent electricity through my body. And once outside in the bitter cold he said, “Dad’s shop?” I nodded in agreement…and into the snow we began the trek to the shop…headed into a moment that would change our lives forever.

    ***

    “Let’s get some heat on in here,” Trent said as I took off my coat and laid it on the recliner. I scanned the room and looked at the wall mounts of deer and big mouth bass that Dad had collected over the years. The room smelled of saw dust and diesel fuel…a smell that I’d grown accustomed to and found comforting after all these years.

    “So…did you sleep well?” I began, trying to find my bearings in the conversation.

    “No, not really…you?” Trent replied.

    “Well, no…had a bit of a late night. Trent, I really don’t know where to begin. There’s so much I need to say…that I want to say. For the first time ever, I’m having a hard time finding the right words.” I looked down at my shoes and kicked off the snow that was encrusted on them.

    “Maybe this can help,” Trent said as he moved over to me and wrapped his arms around me, nuzzling his face in my neck. As I gripped his body with my aching arms, his hot breath bathed over my flesh. After so long, my body felt complete as it contacted his. He lifted me up, holding me so tight, and I felt his lips caress my neck as he gently kissed me. “I love you, Pat.” He sat me down slowly, and as our eyes met, the words I would say came rushing in.

    “And I love you, Trent. Kelsey came to me last night and gave me something…a binder of letters that you’d written me. I stayed up all night, reading every last word. I don’t know what to say, Trent. It was the most precious moment of my life…after all this time, my love for you hasn’t changed. It’s almost like I was waiting for you in the dark…hoping you’d come back to me.”

    I took a step back and turned away as the tears began to flow. “And then, the last letter, the letter that you wrote last night as I shut you out….you poured your soul out to me and I said nothing. I hope you know that it’s not that I didn’t love you…I just didn’t know what to say.” I reached in my pocket and grasped the ring.

    “And then there was this,” I said holding out my hand. The brilliant metal glistened under the shop lights, and I watched as Trent held up his hand displaying his matching ring.

    “The night before we went to the justice of the piece, Kelsey gave me these two rings. One was for me to wear, the other was for you. She said that if I were to be married, I should do it right…that my soul mate should have a ring too.” His shaking hand reached out and picked up the ring, gazing at it. “I’ve carried this with me every day since the night she gave it to me…waiting for the moment that I could give it to you.”

    He reached for my hand and looked into my eyes, “Patrick…all my life I’ve wanted to feel complete…I’ve wanted to feel special…I’ve wanted to make a difference. I waited all my life for a moment when I could look into your eyes and simply say that I love you…you complete me…you make me feel special…and with you, I know I can make all the difference in the world.

    I know that our lives didn’t turn out the way we planned. And, I know I’ve made mistakes. But, I hope you know how sorry I am…how much I love you. I hope you know that if you’ll accept this ring, I’ll spend the rest of my life’s breath loving you, caring for you, hoping and dreaming for you. Patrick Shane Johnson, my brother, my love, my friend…you mean the world to me. I’ve always said that you and I had an unbreakable bond…one that could never fail. If you’ll take this ring, I’ll go to my death loving you with all that’s in me. Will you take my ring?”

    With tears in my eyes, I simply nodded. His hand, now steady, glided the ring onto my hand…it fit perfectly. And as we held hands, gazing into each other’s eyes, I felt whole for the first time since that night in the hotel. Trent leaned down to kiss me, and as our lips met, the electricity between us ignited the heated passion that burned there before.

    Trent began pulling at my shirt, ushering me to expose my flesh to him. Once it was over my head and cast to the floor, like the animal I once remembered, he began to feast on my flesh, tonguing my chest and neck. I looked and watching him hungrily suck on my nipple…one after the other. “I love you, Trent,” I whispered.

    He picked me up and moved us over to the recliner where he sat down with me straddling his lap. I shifted my weight off of him and began pulling at his shirt tails to expose the mammoth man that he was. And as I kissed his neck and shoulders, his warm, enormous hands dug through my jeans at the flesh of my ass. I clamped down upon his sinewy shoulder and heard the familiar growl rise up within him. His hands clawed at my back, begging for more of the same. I grabbed his jaw and kissed him fiercely, exploring his warm mouth with my own.

    As I continued to probe him with my tongue, I began to frantically unzip his fly and press my hand into his manhood sheathed under his perfectly white boxer briefs. As I needed his cock in my hands, I felt the wetness of his essence that was soaking through his underwear. I mouthed my way down his perfect body, I made it to his massive meat that was straining through his underwear. I began working my mouth over the fabric, feeling his member pulse at each and every advance.

    Trent reached down and pulled out his cock and it slapped hard against chiseled stomach. I took my tongue and glided it along the shaft of his cock, savoring every vein, the taste of him, the slick head marinated in his own pre-cum. As my love growled and moaned, I plunged myself on his cock, burying my face into him, sending his cock into my throat, closing off my own breathing so that I could feel the fullness of this majestic man.

    I quickly began to piston my head on my growling animal as he held my head and pivoted his hips into my waiting my again and again. His spit-soaked balls hung low, full his man cum…the thing I wanted the most…I wanted it inside me…I wanted to feel him stretch me with his rod and load me with his cum.

    As I came up gasping for air, I shifted my own pants down, exposing my unused hole and working it with my own fingers in preparation of this might man that loved so much. I climbed on top of him, and looked into those smoldering brown eyes that I adored as I crouched poised above his inflamed rod. Trent leaned forward, gently kissing me, as I held his cock in my hands and glided it over my hole again and again preparing for what was to come.

    I began to ease my weight onto him, his cock head pressed perfectly against my virgin rosebud that began to open and accept him. The pain, as unbearable as I knew it was, was nothing compared to the ache I’d had without him. I felt his cock head penetrate me and looked into his fiery eyes as he winced and growled again and again at my advances. His cock stretched my hole, filling my void to the brim, as I felt my body settle and rest onto his full nuts.

    I took a deep breath and held it as I relaxed my screaming body upon him, fully impaled by his manhood. His hands roamed over my body and pulled on my reddened cock that drooled its jizz onto his stomach. I slowed began to lift up and feel him sliding out of my hole and the gentle swallow him up again. His body, racked with desire, tensed and surged with every pump of my hole on his cock. “Oh God, Pat…yeah, baby…”

    My pace quickened as he held me at my right hip and pumped my cock with his other hand. The pain and dissolved into sheer pleasure as I continued riding my man, slamming my body upon his meat over and over. I leaned forward and bit him again, releasing the animal inside as he growled and gripped my body hard with his massive arms. He began raising his hips at a feverish speed, pounding and drilling my hole without abandon. My body was his and his thrusts were sending me over the edge quickly.

    “I’m gonna come, Trent…Oh FUCK!” I screamed as I neared my own orgasm.

    “Feed it to me,” he whispered as I stood, my hole releasing his cock and shoved my own down his waiting throat and pumped my cum into him. He hungrily accepted every drop as he continued to work his own cock. Once he was satisfied that my load was spent, he pulled my arm hard, forcing me down, with a hand on the back on my neck as he shoved his cock into my throat. “Take it, baby. TAKE IT….FUCK!!!”

    His behemoth released surge after surge of his spunk down my waiting throat. Like a hungry beggar, I moaned as I accepted him, taking everything he had to give me. His growling continued as waves continued to pump from his tool into my waiting mouth. And finally, his growling subsided and morphed into somewhat of a whimper as I continued to lick at his reddened cock and milk every last drop from him.

    Breathless, we lay together…completely satiated…unbelievably satisfied. “Trent, it’s unbelievable how happy you make me.” I nuzzled my face into is chest as I listened to the beast that was mine breathe…his heart beat. “You are right…what we have could never be broken.”

    “No, my love…it can’t…and never will.” Trent said.

    ***

    We stood at the airport just a few short days later, the entire family saying their goodbyes as Trent and Kelsey returned to Japan from leave. My heart broke to see him go. The last couple of days had been a perfect dream as we caught up, laughed, cried and connected on levels that never knew existed. Every square inch of his body was recorded to my memory just knowing that I might never see him again.

    As the attendant announced the boarding of their flight, we all cried, kissed, hugged and reaffirmed our love. The family took a few steps back to allow Trent and I some privacy…a chance at one last intimate moment. “I’m going to miss you, Pat,” he said softly.

    “I’m never far away,” I replied as I laid my hand on his chest. He was so dashing in his travel utilities. “I’m not going anywhere, Trent. You have me…always and forever.”

    He leaned in to kiss me, as Mom and Kelsey frantically took pictures of the two of us in that moment, and then he looked at me with those wonderful, brown eyes and said, “I’m coming home to you…I promise.” He took my left hand and intertwined it with his own. “This bond…is most definitely…unbreakable.”

    THE END


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  • Corsican Shepherd’s Choice

    He hoped Lucien hadn’t decided he wasn’t coming and had left. Paulu had turned the sheep over to his younger brother, Petru’s, care, and that had taken longer than he anticipated. Petru was such a donkey. But then, Paulu supposed he’d been a donkey too when his father had trained him to the shepherding. It wasn’t as easy a task as many thought-certainly not those fishermen down in Calvi who made fun of him in the harbor-front taverns. If Lucien hadn’t been there that one night . . .

     

    Paulu stopped and looked up the northern slope of Monte Cinto, Corsica’s tallest mountain, for signs of the soldier. His eyes could pick out the stone Genoese tower, built, like so many others on the island, centuries ago by the Italians to provide warning of the raids of the Barbary pirates. He couldn’t pick out the flat clearing where the Roman temple had stood, though. That’s where he was to meet Lucien. He had received word that Lucien had leave from the army and wanted to meet Paulu there. They had not had time and opportunity to complete their pledge of love before Lucien had gone to the army, and Paulu ached to be in his older lover’s arms again and to be transported to the paradise that Lucien said awaited them.

     

    It was a steep climb to the tower, but it gave Paulu time to revel in his arousal at being able to meet with Lucien in private at last-if Lucien hadn’t failed to wait for him. Paulu and Lucien came from the same village at the base of Monte Cinto, between the mountain and the northern coastal town of Calvi. Lucien was two years older than Paulu, who had only recently reached his majority and who hoped he would, like Lucien, be able to leave his village and work in greater freedom, away from his home villager’s accusing eyes, for the type of life he wanted to lead. He wasn’t interested in the army, as Lucien was, though. Lucien was the macho one; Paulu was more sensitive, more musically inclined. His hope was to go south, to the capital city of Ajaccio, and to work as a waiter in a café where he also could sing and play his lute.

     

    Lucien had taken a special interest in Paulu and had taken him aside when the opportunity arose and embraced him and spoken to him of love and of them being together, away from the village, one day. And they had even kissed. One afternoon on the lower slopes of Monte Cinto, where Paulu was watching the sheep, Lucien had appeared and they had gone beyond kissing. They had held and stroked each other’s cocks, and Lucien had kissed Paulu’s cock and caused him to come. Only having heard the whistling of Paulu’s younger brother, coming up the hill to take a watch with the sheep, had prevented them from going further.

     

    Then a couple of evenings before Lucien was to go off to the army, they had stolen away to Calvi to be together “at last.” Lucien had booked a room in an inn and Paulu had declared his willingness to spend the night with him-under him-not caring at that moment what he would tell his father about where he had been. But they had gone to the waterfront café, and there were only men there. And the men had taken an interest in Paulu, who was small of stature but perfectly formed and with the visage of an angel. They had been drunk and Lucien had had to fight them off with his knife. He wasn’t nearly as drunk as they were and he was a big-boned, strapping young man, who was good with his knife. The two of them had escaped the café, but Lucien had been cut, and the time he planned to be fucking Paulu in the room he’d rented was spent in a clinic instead.

     

    The incident had put Lucien out of sorts. Even though Paulu wanted to lie under him, Lucien wasn’t in the mood. He was preparing to go into the army. And there was an older, more experienced young man than Paulu who Lucien had taken an interest in by then.

     

    Once recruited and shipped off there had been months of basic training for Lucien in the army barracks outside Ajaccio. But then he had gotten word to Paulu that he must see him and would be at the Genoese tower on the Northern slope of Monte Cinto on a specified date and time. His message was that he wanted to see Paulu. Paulu had no illusions about what Lucien wanted, even though the message could not reveal that. Lucien wanted to be inside him, but it was what Paulu wanted too. He knew what his preferences were. He wanted to be initiated in what men did with men before he went down to the capital city when his younger brother took over the responsibility for the sheep, which would be soon now.Paulu didn’t want to be seen as a country bumpkin when he got to the capital.

     

    And Paulu wanted it to be Lucien. He had wanted it to be Lucien for years.

     

    Paulu reached the tower without seeing evidence of Lucien. The area in front of the tower was level, with an ancient circular platform made of flat stone slabs. In the center of the circle was an altar. Centuries before the tower had been built here this had been the clearing for a Roman temple, and probably centuries before that it had been the center of pagan worship. There was no telling how old, and how many religions the smooth-stoned altar table had served. Maybe even various forms of fertility rites. Paulu approached this altar and stood behind it, looking down onto the island’s northern coast and the town of Calvi and mourning being here alone.

     

    And then he wasn’t alone. Lucien, a giant of a young man when placed against Paulu, had appeared from nowhere and encircled the smaller, younger men in his beefy arms from behind. Basic training had been good for Lucien’s body. He was hard muscled, trim, and cut.

     

    “Lucien,”was all Paulu had opportunity to say in surprise as he turned his head and Lucien hungrily took possession of his mouth. Lucien’s hands glided all over Paulu’s trembling body. He pulled Paulu’s sheepskin tunic over his head and laid it on the altar. Paulu’s trousers were pulled down off his legs.

     

    “Lucien.Maybe we should-” Paulu started to say as they came out of the kiss. He was shuddering. He was aroused and moaning under Lucien’s frantic intimate attentions, but he had expected something different than this. More buildup and preparation. Conversation beforehand about what each had done in the intervening months, some cuddling and stroking perhaps. But Lucien seemed almost a mad man.

     

    “I’ve waited too long for this,” Lucien growled. “I must be inside you or I’ll come just thinking of how much I’ve wanted you.”

     

    “Lucien!”Paulu cried out again, but the hulking soldier already was lifting him, placing him on his knees on top of the sheepskin on the Roman altar, and pressing his cheek down on the cold stone with a grip on the back of his neck with one beefy hand and pinning one of Paulu’s arms behind his back with the other hand.

     

    Paulu whimpered while Lucien attacked his cock, balls, and asshole with his tongue and teeth. Paulu cried out and strained against the restraining hands as Lucien worked his hard cock into the channel. And Paulu moaned and groaned as Lucien rode his ass to an ejaculation.

     

    Paulu thought it would stop then-or at least pause so that he could hear Lucien speak to him again about how beautiful he was and how they would be together one day-but no sooner had Lucien withdrawn his cock after coming than he was inside Paulu’s channel again with a cock as hard and as needy as before.

     

    It almost seemed like an entirely different cock. And when Paulu was revolved on the cock and turned to his back on the altar, he realized to his surprise and horror that it was an entirely different cock. Another man, another soldier, his trousers off but his fatigues tunic open and hanging on his shoulders, was standing between his thighs and fucking him. He was flanked by two other soldiers, all strangers to Paulu, who each held one of Paulu’s legs up and out-and who were grinning as they watched Paulu being fucked. It wasn’t long before Paulu realized that they were just waiting their turn.

     

    Lucien had come around to where Paulu’s head lolled over the other side of the altar when he wasn’t lifting it up. Lucien knelt, holding Paulu’s head in his hands, and whispered encouragement and endearments in his ear. Now, having gotten his rocks off, Lucien was willing and able to court Paulu, to tell him how beautiful his body was, and how it should be shared. And how well he was doing, and how much Lucien appreciated Paulu doing this for him and his army buddies.

     

    Before Paulu could voice his own response to this, Lucien had stood and pushed his cock between Paulu’s lips. He clasped Paulu’s hands in his and held him stretched out on the altar, entertaining the cocks of his buddies at one end and of his own cock in Paulu’s throat. The four soldiers each fucked Paulu twice before they pulled away from him and conversed happily among themselves while they redressed and then disappeared behind the tower from whence they’d appeared.

     

    Lucien followed behind after he’d taken Paulu up in his arms, Paulu still on his back on the altar, and rocked him and told him how good the taking had been for Paulu and how he wanted to visit Paulu regularly like this and how good a time they would have. Paulu lay there, whimpering and moaning, nodding his head for Lucien and accepting the kisses and the homage Lucien belatedly was bestowing on him. Paulu had no idea what to think or say or do. He’d wanted to cross this line and he’d wanted to be with Lucien. He’d have to think about this. He didn’t really know how to react to what had happened to him.

     

    Was this normal with the ways of men with men? How was he to know what should be expected of him in this world?

     

    He did love it when Lucien was cocking him. He did love Lucien. He would like Lucien to take more time and to be more affectionate, but that came with time, he was sure. Didn’t it? It was just because of the need and frustration Lucien had built up. And he’d said he wouldn’t have been able to get away to meet Paulu if he hadn’t brought the other soldiers along. They wouldn’t be there every time. Paulu was sure that Lucien had said that.

     

    ** * *

     

    Paulu was gingerly climbing down from the altar and stretching his stiff limbs when he realized that, once again, he wasn’t alone. This time it wasn’t soldiers though. It was men who looked like gangsters, even though they were in jeans and T-shirts. They also had guns in holsters at their waists or under their armpits. By the time he was aware of them, they were fanning out around him, in an enclosing circle, and they were signaling to each other. Paulu looked from one to the other-there were a half dozen or more of them-and he could see that they were all in a crouch, with their arms held wide, at the ready, looking for where he would try to bolt. And they were all grinning and licking their chops.One of the men slipped a hunting knife from a sheath strapped to his calf and went into a crouch, facing Paulu, and moved the knife from one hand to the other.

     

    Paulu tried to move toward the weakest-looking one, a fairly old, paunchy man. But the two on either side of that man closed ranks, grabbed Paulu as he careened into them, and pushed him off into the middle of the circle. He was propelled far enough across the closing circle to be grabbed by the hands of two men at the other side.

     

    The men were calling to each other in Corsican. One of them was telling the man with the knife he couldn’t play with Paulu until the others had fucked him.They started bidding on who would be the first to fuck him.

     

    The circle closed. One man, strapping and strong, older than most but not an old man, asserted his right to be first, saying he was ready now and the others could ready themselves by watching. His jeans were down around his knees and his erection was curved up when the men now behind Paulu were lifting him up to set him down on the man’s cock.

     

    A shout from the corner of the tower rang out, though, and the men around Paulu fell away. He sank to the stones beside the altar.

     

    “What in the fuck are you men doing?” The voice was deep and commanding.

     

    “We saw him giving it to a group of soldiers,” the man who had been about to fuck Paulu answered in a whining, diffident voice. “He gives it. We were just playing.”

     

    “Well, go play somewhere else. You’ll be needed soon for the transfer.”

     

    Paulu looked up from his crouched position as the men obediently melted away, leaving an older man alone with him in the stone circle around the altar. The man was looking somewhat amused. He wasn’t tall and he was chunky in build, but he looked powerful. He was both distinguished looking, with well-cut salt-and-pepper hair, and an expensive-looking silk sweat suit, and rough looking. His face looked like it had been battered from time to time in street fighting but that he hadn’t gotten the worst of the fights. His nose had been broken-probably more than once-but on him it was a roughness that exuded power, danger, and mystery. When he opened his mouth in a smile, his teeth were perfectly aligned. Another sign that he was wealthy. They had probably set him back more money than Paulu’s family made in a year.

     

    The jacket of his sweats was open, revealing a heavily muscled barrel chest, covered with black, curly hair. A gold medallion on a thick gold chain hung around his neck. He also had heavy rings on his beefy, long-fingered right hand, the biggest of the rings on his middle finger.

     

    He moved slowly over to the altar, picked up Paulu’s sheepskin tunic, and leaned down and handed it to Paulu.

     

    “Put your trousers and this back on and come with me. You look like you need some strong wine.”

     

    Paulu uncoiled, reached over for his trousers at the base of the altar, and rose. He clothed himself, all the time carefully watching the man, who smiled benevolently back at him.

     

    “I am Don Carlo,” the man said while he watched Paulu dress. “Those were my men. I live down near Calvi and we were out for an afternoon on the mountainside. They won’t be bothering you. They have other activities that will keep them busy. Come back with me to where the wine is.”

     

    Paulu followed the man around the side of the Genoese tower and on a slow descent, winding around the western side of Monte Cinto. Then they were ascending again a bit to a glade of trees, where Paulu could see that blankets were spread out on the ground and a young man in shorts and a T-shirt was working over a couple of straw baskets. Down the hill from here were three black, four-wheel-drive vehicles with smoked windows. Two were vans and the other an expensive-looking SUV. These were parked in a field above another line of trees, masking them from view from the road near the base of the mountain.

     

    As they approached where the blankets were laid out, Don Carlo gestured for Paulu to sit on the blankets, called for the young man hovered over the straw baskets to produce wine and two glasses, and then waved the young man away. “Go find something else to do for a couple of hours. Go to the vehicles and help the men when they come.”

     

    Handing Paulu a glass of wine, Don Carlo reclined beside where the young man was sitting cross-legged, trembling a bit, completely out of his element. He had to use both hands to handle the wine glass.

     

    “Don’t be afraid,” Don Carlo murmured in a low voice. “It is very good wine.Drink that up and I’ll refill your glass.”

     

    While Paulu was drinking his second glass, Don Carlo began asking him questions.

     

    “My men said you were with soldiers up there at the tower. Is that true?”

     

    “I wasn’t with the soldiers,” Paulu answered. “I was there waiting for one soldier. He brought the others.”

     

    “And the others assaulted you? Sexually assaulted you? My men said they did that.”

     

    “Yes,”Paulu answered in a small voice. Don Carlo had a hand on his knee.

     

    “Take your tunic off. And tell me what your name is. Don’t worry, I’ve seen you without your tunic on. I just want to make sure they didn’t cut or bruise you.”

     

    “They didn’t. My name . . . my name is Paulu.”

     

    “Let me see for myself. If you are hurt, we should see that you get medical attention. Here, lift your arms.”

     

    Paulu lifted his arms and the tunic came off over his head. Don Carlo ran his hands back down Paulu’s torso once the tunic was tossed aside. Paulu flinched. One hand remained on his thigh.

     

    “There doesn’t seem to be any damage. How about to your legs, though?”

     

    “No, nothing there,” Paulu said in a meek voice.

     

    “Here, your wine glass is empty. Let me refill it. Drink up. When you came to the tower to meet your soldier, what is it you two planned to do? Did the soldiers do anything to you that you hadn’t planned on the one soldier doing with you?”

     

    Paulu didn’t answer. He just hung his head and looked down at the hand, with its two heavy rings, resting on his thigh. He felt a little woozy and seemed to be thinking and moving a little sluggishly.

     

    “You and your soldier were meeting to have sex, weren’t you?” Don Carlo asked. His voice was gentle, completely devoid of judgment.

     

    Paulu looked down the side of the mountain. The men in the jeans with the gun holsters who had accosted him at the tower were down there now, with crates of something. They were loading them into the van.

     

    “Yes,”he answered. “Lucien and I are in love. It was the first meeting we were able to have.”

     

    “So, you went to the tower to have sex, and you did have sex. Maybe more than you thought you would?”

     

    “Yes.”

     

    “Don’t feel shame at that. I hear a note of shame in your voice. Sex is healthy for a young man your age. And there’s nothing wrong with sex between men. Why, I enjoy sex with a man too.”

     

    Paulu looked up sharply at that, looking into the steel-gray eyes of the older man.The man exuding power and control.

     

    “It was my first time,” Paulu said plaintively, as if that made any difference here.

     

    “But you enjoyed it?”

     

    “No, not really. It was rough.”

     

    “But you enjoyed it with that one soldier-the one you went to meet-didn’t you?”

     

    “Yes, mostly,” Paulu admitted in a weak voice.

     

    “And you would let him fuck you again?”

     

    “Yes.”

     

    “But you would have enjoyed sex with him if he hadn’t been rough, if he’d given you more attention?”

     

    “Yes, I think so.”

     

    “Sex doesn’t have to be rough. It is glorious when done well. Perhaps what you needed was an older, more experienced man. Perhaps you need an older man to work with you so that you can enjoy it more the next time with your young soldier. There are things you can do to make him want to give you more attention.”

     

    Paulu looked down the hillside again. The two vans were pulling away. Only the young man who had served the wine was left. He was leaning against the fender of the SUV. Waiting. Paulu had a good idea what he was waiting for, why he wasn’t coming back up the hill yet.

     

    “Take the trousers off now. I need to see if you have any bruises or cuts on your legs.”

     

    With shaking hands Paulu undid the rope belt, stretched his legs out in front of him, pushed the trousers down to his knees, and then shrugged them off his legs altogether. He wasn’t wearing briefs. Don Carlo ran his hands down both thighs and calves. Paulu couldn’t help going hard. Don Carlo put an arm around his shoulders and laid the other hand on Paulu’s thigh, high up.

     

    “You know we are going to have sex now, don’t you? That I’m going to fuck you.”

     

    “Yes,”Paulu answered in a small voice.

     

    “I will be good to you. I will show you how it should be done. Here. Turn your face to mine. I want to taste you.”

     

    As Paulu turned his face to Don Carlo’s for the kiss, the older man encased his cock in a beefy hand and started to slow stroke him. After several minutes, with a stop to cup and roll Paulu’s balls, Don Carlo’s hand descended down Paulu’s perineum, and with the heel of his hand under Paulu’s balls, Don Carlo finger fucked Paulu’s hole, giving his rim the full attention of the large, smooth, rounded stone on the heavy ring of his middle finger.

     

    The finger sank in deeper, the stone finding Paulu’s prostate. Paulu moaned and panted at the sensation of the rubbing on his prostate-and came with a jerk.Don Carlo gave a little laugh, but he didn’t stop working Paulu’s body.

     

    Don Carlo, naked now, his gold medallion beating softly against the cleft between his pecs, fucked Paulu in slow strokes on the blankets with his knees pushed up under Paulu’s buttocks, his hands gripping and pulling on Paulu’s hips, and Paulu’s torso arched back, the heels of his hands buried on either side of him in the blanket. Don Carlo fucked Paulu in rapid, pistoning strokes doggy style, with Paulu on all fours, his buttocks presented in the air and his heaving chest and his cheek pressed to the blanket. And, showing great stamina, Don Carlo fucked Paulu slowly, sensuously in a side split, quizzing Paulu in murmurs how he could best use his cock to please the young man.

     

    “I wish you to come live with me,” Don Carlo whispered in Paulu’s ear as they lay, Paulu pulled into Don Carlo’s breast and lap.

     

    “I cannot,” Paulu answered, the regret obvious in his voice. The older man had demonstrated to him how glorious being fucked by an experienced man could be. “I am a mere shepherd. My family needs me.”

     

    “You are of age when most men are leaving home,” Don Carlo persisted. “Is there no one else in your family to herd the sheep?”

     

    “My younger brother, Petru, is almost trained to it.”

     

    “If you were to die today, would Petru manage to take over?”

     

    “I suppose.”

     

    “I want you to come down to Calvi to live with me. You can herd my sheep.”

     

    “My father would not allow it.”

     

    “Tell your father that Carlo Vittini wishes to have your services.”

     

    “He will not care.”

     

    “He will care. Be here with whatever you think you will need-it won’t be much; I will provide for you-at noon in two days’ time. Now turn over on your stomach.I’m going to fuck you again.”

     

    ** * *

     

    “Don Carlo Vittini?” Paulu’s father said. He shivered, but then he said,”Yes, if Don Carlo says you must go, then you must go.”

     

    ** * *

     

    Paulu was on a hillside above Don Carlo’s heavily secured villa near Calvi, tending the few sheep that Vittini had acquired when Paulu had come to him, when a small boy approached him and stood there, looking at him.

     

    “Yes, what is it, boy?”

     

    “Are you Paulu Mariani?” the boy asked.

     

    “Yes.Why do you ask?”

     

    “I was told to give you this message,” the boy said. He handed over a folded sheet of paper and then turned and scampered away.

     

    The note was from Lucien, who asked Paulu to meet with him in a glade beyond the walls of the villa the next afternoon.

     

    It was with special anticipation that Paulu went to Don Carlo’s bed that night and for the first time, Paulu pressed the older man down on his back on the bed, mounted him, and fucked himself to a near-simultaneous ejaculation. Thinking the special fuck was for him, Don Carlo sighed, held the young man to him afterward, and kissed all over his body before turning Paulu on his stomach and, himself, mounting the other for a second, slow, sensual fucking.

     

    Lucien met Paulu at the edge of the trees the next afternoon.

     

    “I looked for you forever,” he said. “And now I find you here, in the lair of the monster.”

     

    “What monster?”

     

    “Carlo Vittini, that’s who. Or didn’t you realize that you are in the house of one of the Corsican mafia dons? Racketeering, casinos, drugs, prostitution, murder.There’s nothing below him.”

     

    “He’s good to me.”

     

    “I’ll bet he’s fucking you. He’s known to want young men like you.”

     

    Paulu was frightened now. “I’ve come to you, Lucien. You’ve called and I’ve come to you.”

     

    “I suppose it’s good that you’re in his house,” Lucien said. “You can help us. The army will be raiding him and taking him into custody Saturday after dark. You can open the gates to the compound for our vehicles. That will help us surprise him.”

     

    “Lucien.I don’t want-“

     

    “You can’t help from being involved. It’s either help us or you will be taken in as part of his household.”

     

    That wasn’t what Paulu was going to say. He almost had reiterated that Don Carlo had been good to him. But he held his tongue and just nodded his head.

     

    “But that’s not what I came for,” Lucien said. “I came to have you. Come into the trees with me.”

     

    They were there, waiting for Paulu in a glade several paces inside the tree line.They were different soldiers than those who had fucked him on the Roman altar at the Genoese tower. But they were soldiers who wanted the same thing. And, one by one, along with Lucien, they had him. And then they had him again.

     

    When the others were done, Lucien stayed with Paulu and told him how well he had done, how much help he had been with Lucien’s standing with the other soldiers, and how the two of them would be together forever after Vittini and his gang had been arrested.

     

    Dazed and sore, Paulu just nodded his head and returned the kiss Lucien gave him as enthusiastically as he could before Lucien left him and followed the other soldiers.

     

    Saturday, at dusk, the army attacked the villa of Don Carlo Vittini. Although they had been told the gates would be open to them, they had to knock them down. They found the villa to be deserted. Paulu had made his choice. He knew nothing of Vittini’s criminal activities. All he knew was that Don Carlo was good to him-and that the man who would be his lover, Lucien, was not.

     


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  • Adventure

    Silver light bound the edge of the drapes that covered the windows, melting away the darkness and the night shadows. Another dawn streaked the sky.

    I looked at him as he slept beside me. There was a thin layer of sweat on his brow. The lingering odors of sex pervaded the room. Except for leaving it to eat a sustaining meal, we had been there, in the shabby worn-out motel room for four days. Holding, touching, kissing, tasting, loving. Ah! How we loved! Expressing our passion in every way our experience and imagination suggested. Drowning in splashing golden streams and shooting luscious cream, we exclaimed out enslavement to each other.

    “I love you, Michael Davis.”

    “I love you, Danny,” he murmured, half asleep.

    His cock was erect. How could it be, after he had exercised it so insistently in my ass-hole. But then mine was hard too. I couldn’t resist another kiss on the head of it. I tasted the bitterness of last nights’ fucking.

    Slipping my body around, I placed myself in the contra position, the famous sixty-nine. He groaned his approval as I swallowed his cock into the back of my throat. My nose was buried in his thick pubic hair, still damp and smelly from last nights’ pissing games. We had come a long way in our adventures, since leaving New Orleans. There was little left to be tried.

    It began slowly, as he sucked on my cock, but it was there. The exquisite pleasure of it caused thrills to creep along my spine, increasing with every moment of the suck, growing faster now, and then the sudden simultaneous blast of pleasure as we each ejaculated again. We fell apart, lying back upon the bed, our breathing, short and staccato, panting like animals in heat, as surely we still were. His hand reached for mine and held it tight. We lay still for a long time.

    “You hungry, Danny?” he asked.

    “Um hum. For you,” I said pulling my hand from his, seeking his ball sac, shriveled and limp. I raised myself and leaning over him sucked them into my mouth.

    “Shit man,” he laughed, “You’re a fucking pervert now. A pretty little piss queen.” The tone of his voice was sweet and gentle, and I new he loved me for whatever I was, despite the things I did and submitted to in the last four days.

    “I guess we got carried away. Doin’ all that stuff, but I loved it. It was fun.” My voice trailed off I know. Thinking about it excited me. We had been together for a little over four weeks now. Only twenty eight days since we sat in the French Market in New Orleans, eating beignets.

    How innocent I was then. So unaware of the adventures that were waiting for us on the road ahead.

    In the way that lovers do, he read my thought. “You’ve come a long way, baby,” he said with a laugh placing his hand on my head, and holding it there at his crotch, buried in the tenderness of his loins. I comforted myself by sucking on his cock again.

    “It’s time we moved along, Danny. Let’s hit the road and seek out some fresh love-juice. I’m getting hungry for some of that strange meat.

    We’ll find us some fresh bodies. Okay?”

    The thought of it set my gonads flowing again. Yes, he’s right. It’s time to move along; look for more fun.

    We headed west, out of Houston on a narrow two lane road that was not important enough to merit a name or number. The warm moist air was conclusive to our purpose and, once we were clear of the city we took off our clothes. The sensual pleasure of the humid breeze licking our naked bodies was a luscious pleasure. I still felt the wonderful excitement of being naked, and know Michael felt it too, for his cock was sticking up out of his lap like the giant salami it was.

    We flirted with a truck driver for several miles. He smiled, nodded approval as he looked at us. When he turned off the road into a patch of cottonwoods we followed him. He was young and vigorous, and we each tasted his hot sweet sap. When we were finished, he gave us his address in Tucson, with a candid invitation to visit he and his roommate lover, who “Was just as queer as you,” he said with a smile.

    We had lunch at a McDonalds that sat alone on a no-where stretch of the deserted road we were following. The two boys that worked the counter looked almost too young, but they both proved to be more than capable.

    Michael and I bent our bodies over the table, facing each other. Our open mouths close enough for a tongue duel as the boys fucked us. Ah Yes!

    The adventures of the open road were still there!

    The towns were far apart. The empty spaces seemed to stretch forever into nowhere. They were lonely too, for as the road stretched its’

    distance into the empty miles ahead, there was no sign of traffic, nor of people, nor of men or boys. It was as though we were on another planet.

    The sun had been brilliant in a cloudless sky, but it was low on the horizon now, ready to bed down for the night, slipping into the west.

    “Take heart, Danny, we’re just a little more than a hundred miles from Van Horn. We’ll get a room there,” he said, and then he mumbled, “And a thick, juicy Texas steak.” He added, “Hopefully, that is.”

    “Yeah man! I’m hungry. Guess I could eat a horse.”

    Michael laughed. That was one of the things I loved about him. He was always so cheerful. Nothing seemed to bother him. “Seems like you’ve eaten everything else.”

    It was then it happened. With one enormous sigh, the motor of our trusty chariot stopped. It was so sudden and unexpected, that we looked one to the other in astonishment.

    “Shit!”

    I looked at the gauge, but it indicated that the tank was more than half full. We had filled up in Fort Stockton. Michael guided the silent vehicle to the side of the road.

    “Shit! You know anything about cars, Danny?”

    “All’s I know is how to turn them on. And then I’m not sure of some of them.”

    “Christ! There’s nothing we can do now but wait for someone to come along. Once that sun goes down it’s dark, man, not much twilight out here in this flat country.”

    Michael got out of the car and pulled on his jeans and shirt. “Better cover up, Danny. Never know who’s going to come along.”

    We sat together, comforting each other for what seemed like a long while.

    The clock in the dash reminded us that it had been several hours since the motor gave up the ghost and died its’ sudden death.

    Michael pulled away, raised his body up, turned, and looked out the rear window. Far off in the distance behind us, were two tiny lights. We watched as they approached us with the speed of ageing turtles, growing larger and larger with each stretched out minute. As it came closer to us, Michael put the hazard lights on. Neither of us spoke, but I know he wondered what new adventure was coming up, just as I did.

    It chugged up to us, sounding like a boiler that was about to burst. When it was along side, it screeched to a halt. Even though it could not have been travelling faster than ten or fifteen miles an hour, it seemed to skid to a stop. It was too dark to see it, or who was driving it.

    “Are you having trouble? If so perhaps I can be of assistance.” The voice was strong and firm in its sounding, and we heard the door slam shut.

    He walked in front of his headlights as he approached us. His image, caught in the light, I saw that he was a man of vintage years, somewhere between sixty and eighty, a military bearing, his head held high and shoulders back.

    There was a thick shock of pure white hair that rolled over his forehead to the back of his neck and over his ears in soft waves. He was clean- shaven with a ruddy complexion of a man who had spent time out of doors in the sunshine. There was a calm and complacent expression on his face that relaxed into a smile. In the brief moment that I saw him in the light, I knew he was a man of quality, a gentlemen. He had class.

    “My name is Henry Mergatroid Higgins,” he said extending a long arm attached to a huge hand. His handshake was firm.

    “My name is Danny Tobin and this is Michael Davis, Mr Higgins.”

    “Henry. Please call me Henry. Having car trouble I see. Well sir, we are One hundred miles from Fort Stockton that way, and one hundred miles from Van Horn that way. There are no garages, no gasoline stations, no mechanics in between. I suggest you lock it up and come with me. We can call for assistance on the morrow.”

    “That’s awfully nice of you, Henry,” Michael said.

    “Nonsense. I wouldn’t let you sit out here all night. Besides, you’ve got to call for help and my telephone is the only one for miles around. Come along then Michael, you too, Daniel.”

    His automobile was old and tired and moved at a slow pace, but eventually we turned off the road onto a small dirt trail that led behind a clump of chaparral and mesquite to a surprisingly large and beautiful house, surrounded by grass and a garden, and bordered on a rushing stream.

    “It’s like an oasis,” I cried as soon as I saw it.

    He looked at me, a tinge of surprise in his handsome face, “Why that’s what I call it,” he said. “Oasis of the Desert, however did you know?”

    “It’s just that it is so peaceful,” I answered.

    We helped him carry the supplies he had purchased in Fort Stockton.

    “Once a week,’ he said. “I go there once a week.”

    “Are you all alone then, all the time, all by yourself?”

    He lowered his eyes and brushed his hand across his cheek. “Yes, I live alone.” But he straightened up and smiled. “But not now, not tonight.

    Tonight I have company,” and there was a tremor in his voice. “I haven’t had a visitor in over twenty eight years, so if I forget to put out towels or soap or do something wrong, please let me know. You have a tendency to forget after twenty eight years,” he said wistfully.

    He handed each of us a glass of Glenlivet splashed over cubes of ice in sparkling Waterford crystal. And while we sipped the velvet liquid, and felt its’ warming tentacles reach into our bodies, he somehow prepared a sumptious meal of porterhouse steak and salad with no effort. All the while he sliced vegetables and made french fried potatoes, he chattered happily. It was ‘good’ to have company, as he called us.

    When Michael asked why, “Why do you live here. With all these beautiful things, the furniture, the paintings on the walls, you could be anywhere.

    You should be in Dallas or New York or Los Angeles. Why have you isolated yourself here in the middle of nowhere?”

    “Why, this was my Daddys’ house. He left it to me. I was born here. Why in the world would I want to live any where else?”

    And the conversation continued this way through dinner and after. He was flattered that we had enough interest in him, to ask personal questions.

    They did not offend him as you might expect, and he was candid in his answers.

    “Then you’ve never married,” Michael asked.

    He shifted his position and reached to his snifter of Armagnac. We were sitting outside on the patio looking at the reflection of the moon upon the silvery waters of the river. Our stomachs were full, and the three of us were as ‘content as Texas cows’. He laughed, “No, I never married.

    I was never much interested in women. I was like you boys. I hankered after men—-Texas men. But being that way in Texas, in the 1930’s was hopeless,” he sighed. “I’m seventy years old now. A little older even.

    And you know I never once lay with a man. Not once.”

    I was shocked at what he said. Not about himself, but that he recognized that Michael and I were what we were. Neither of us had said or done anything to suggest that we were lovers. But Michael, ever alert and ready caught the implication immediately and recognized the possibiities.

    “Maybe it’s time you did,” he said.

    The sounds of the desert at night, the singing and rustling of nocturnal insects increased in the silence that followed. It was not the quiet of embarrassment, but of contemplation, as each of us dwelled in his own thoughts.

    Henry was the first to stir, and in a quiet voice that spoke louder than its’ sound, he said, “I always regretted that I would leave this earth one day with no memories to take with me. But I have accepted it. Now that I have become old, the fires are fueled by dying coals. The warmth is there, I guess it always will be, but it’s not as hot as it used to be, not as immediate.

    “It’s better to let sleeping tigers alone. You awaken them, and they might snap at you. Might even eat you alive.” And we watched the fire die slowly in the pit. Its’ light faded, as the glow from the full moon increased its’

    asscendant ride into the dark sky. The sounds of crickets, as they rubbed their legs together, interpolated the comfortable silence that followed, and we sipped our brandy, and poured more and sipped again, until the luscious liquid in the snifter was gone.

    “Well sir, if you boys don’t mind, it’s time for me to ready myself for bed,” he said quietly, “Out here, we bed down when the sun does, and it’s been long gone, so I will say goodnight.” The lonely sadness in his eyes was overcome by a twinkle and a sudden smile. “Enjoy yourselves, my friends, and thank you for being here.” He arose from his chair, and bending toward me, in the dim light of the night, he kissed my cheek.

    “Oh to be eighteen again,” he said wistfully, and we followed him up the stairs to our bedroom.

    Michael kissed me with fervor and passion, sucking on my tongue, rolling his over it, exploring secret hollows in my mouth. His hands were on my buttocks pulling me to him, forcing our hard-on cocks to probe the bristly pubic hair. Something in the evening, perhaps the spicy Texas steak or the silky armagnac had unleashed his passion with an accustomed force.

    “Oh God, I love you Danny.”

    “I love you, Michael, so much.”

    “We’re lucky to have each other Danny, now, while we’re young and able to do something about it.”

    “Yes, I know,” I said holding him, my hand gliding over his warm, hairy skin. I found his nipple and kissed it, sucking on it. My hand slid down his hard stomach, my fingers wrapped around his solid cock.

    “Fuck me, Michael. I want you inside me. I want to feel your cum spurt.”

    “Yes,” he said.

    Afterward we lay together, arms and legs entangled in a loose knot. I could feel the pounding of his heart against mine and, as the beating gradually slowed, he fell asleep.

    Somewhere in the night, the moon gave a twilight cast to the bedroom.

    Michael was on his back, a quiet snore escaped his full lips. He was deep in slumber. I could still feel the throbbing cock inside me, hitting the prostate with measured prods in a consistent rhythm. The pleasure had been wonderful. I lay beside him, looking at his beautiful naked body, and I started to masturbate, to jack my cock back and forth in ever increasing pleasure. And then I thought of Henry, alone in his bed. Could his cock be hard too, waiting for fulfillment? How sweet and gentle a man he was.

    So thoughtful, in every way, to make our presence a welcome one.

    I eased out of bed with little disturbance. Michael was deep in a dream, maybe a wet one, and I slipped out the door into the hallway. There were several bedrooms and bathrooms off the hall, but only one had its’ door closed. Going up to it, my fingers on the knob, I hesitated. Should I, I wondered. And the power of needed contact told me what to do. I slipped inside, closing the door as soundlessly as I had opened it.

    In the soft light of the moon, I saw Henry lying on the bed. He was naked.

    And as he had shed his clothes, he shed his years too, for his body was firm, young, long and lean with stringy muscles. Except for the patch that grew around his cock, there was little hair. The most predominant thing to notice were his huge nipples, sticking out like swollen thumbs on his narrow chest. I hungered for them, to taste, to feel, and to turn on the exciting nerves that dwelled inside. I wanted to give Henry the pleasure that had been denied him all these years.

    I slipped into bed. Beside him, I touched his warm skin with pursed lips and light fingers. First his nipples, one then the other. How sweet was the taste of him. He stirred, but did not awaken. I held back by rising passion so as not to disturb him, not yet anyway.

    I loved the secret intimacy of acquainting my body with his, learning all his secret places.

    He stirred again. A soft moan. My nose buried in soft pubic hair, inhaled the scent of sandalwood. My tongue licked his testicles. I could feel his cock as it grew along the side of my neck. How big it had grown as blood rushed into it. Like his nips it was oversized, a giant phallus reaching into the air. I took it into my mouth, and my tongue rolled over the slick tight skin that covered the head of it. Now my passion controlled me, and I could hold back no longer. I wanted this cock that had never been tasted by anyone.

    “Oh no,” he whispered, “Oh my, no! Oh no.” and his hips forced his huge cock deeper into my throat. It was as though I were swallowing the whole of it as it rolled along my tongue, and I sucked. Sucked and bobbed my head back and forth. My hands cupped his balls, my fingers found his hole.

    then the thrashing of his body began, and we cadenced our movements in a parallel rhythm which grew and grew in intensity until the point of no return was reached and passed, and with an abrupt cry and a final lurch, he exploded his cum in a spasm of ever-increasing pleasure.

    “Aaaaaaah,” he cried. “Oh, Oh, Oh, my god!” and his breathing became furious pants of heated breath. “Oh Daniel…..Ah Danny…..”

    And I pulled away and slipped my body up on the bed along side him and held him in my arms in a lover embrace and he started to cry. I could taste the tears as they wetted his cheeks, and I held him close. The shaking of his body, gradually eased itself as a lovely calm washed over him, and we lay together for a long time, only half awake, each of us dreaming his private dreams.

    Somewhere in the night I fucked him, giving back the cum I had eaten. And somewhere he tasted me as my own cock erupted its’ cream down his anxious throat.

    We said no words. Only the cries of love and the groans of passion were heard as we performed our sexual pleasures upon each other. When dawn began to lighten the eastern sky, I slipped back into the guest bedroom and into Michaels’ arms. He had not missed me for he slept through the deflowering of Henry, our gracious host.

    By midday the mechanic had come and repaired the car. It was time for us to be on our way so that we could be in Van Horn before dark. All morning I had expected Henry to say something, make some comment of what we did through the night, but only his eyes, touching mine, announced his love, the love of a seventy year old man for an eighteen year old boy. And so

    I kissed him good-bye with the spoken promise to write, and the secret and silent promise to one day return.

    I looked back at him standing on the highway, a diminishing vision reduced to an invisible speck by the turning of the wheels, and I thought how sweet this adventure had been, and I put my arms around Michael and kissed him.

    “I love you,” I said.

    A sly smile crossed over Michaels’ face. It was knowing and wise, “Well, at least Henry has a memory to take with him,” he said.

    And we were on the road once more…….


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  • War Letters

    Now that he’d gotten this far with it-contacting the man and driving all the way up to Gettysburg from Washington, D.C.-Hal Collins was having second thoughts. He arrived at the house fifteen minutes early, but drove right by it and pulled over to the curb two blocks farther on. Several minutes later, the pain in his hands registered in his brain, and he realized he’d had a death grip on the steering wheel. He took his hands away and popped his knuckles.

    The old wooden cigar box was sitting on the passenger seat beside him. He remembered seeing it in the bottom drawer of the general’s desk in his study, when he was a boy and the family was visiting the general, his grandfather. While the older folks sat out on the porch and talked, Hal would sneak into his grandfather’s study, which was stuffed with memorabilia from three wars his grandfather had fought in: World War II, the Korean Conflict-as it was called until recent decades when it was finally given the respect of having been a war-and Vietnam, which his grandfather had fought from the Pentagon, having been called back into duty from retirement. Generals were always subject to being recalled, and Hal’s father was a symbol of extraordinary bravery, honor, and service.

    But the general never would talk to his family about his war service. Hal’s father-and later Hal-had to find out about the general’s war service and the stories behind all of his medals and citations through magazines articles from the time, or, like Hal did, while his parents and the general chatted on the porch, by surreptitiously going through his grandfather’s study.

    For some reason, although Hal always checked that the wooden cigar box, closed by two rubber bands, was always in the bottom drawer of the desk, he never, while his grandfather was alive, had had the courage to open it.

    After his grandfather’s death-ironically from lung cancer contracted by chain smoking the same cigar brand of what Hal thought of as the general’s secret box-Hal’s father had quickly packed up all of the memorabilia and sent it off to the general’s regimental museum.

    For years Hal had kept thinking about the box and wishing he’d had the courage to open it to see what was inside when he was a child. When his own father died, Hal was surprised to find the box-the same one; he’d memorized every torn scrap on its sides and top-tucked away in his dad’s attic along with other things Hal knew were very private to his father.

    The rubber bands no longer were on the box. Now it was closed with thick string. His father must have opened the box and seen what was inside. He must have read the few notes that were inside, crudely penciled on yellowed paper and secured with a black ribbon.

    And when Hal read those notes, he was glad he hadn’t read them until now and he knew why both his grandfather and his father had kept them secret-and, most of all, why his father hadn’t sent them off to the regimental museum with everything else. Underneath these ribbon-wrapped notes was a short letter from his own father, addressed to Hal. His father not only had kept the notes, but he had known that Hal would find them.

    Hal: As it is evident that you have now found and read of your grandfather’s secret, I turn over to you the request that he made of me but that I was not equipped-either emotionally or by nature-to fulfill, as you are. You can understand all of this better than I can, I’m sure, and are much better able to decide what to do about this. The enclosed notes were written to your grandfather when he was a young army officer during the Allies’ Anzio invasion in World War II, when his unit marched from the boot of Italy to Germany. At the last, the general begged me to find what had happened to the young private who wrote these notes, Benjamin Montgomery, and to pass on the general’s highest regards and appreciation and his apologies to Montgomery or his surviving descendants, if any.

    I had no idea what he meant before I found and read the notes. When I did find them, I regretted having promised to try. And I put off trying until it was too late for me. But by then, I knew you would be the one to fulfill this request, if anyone could or would. Both because of who you are and because you have the means of searching the records from the Pentagon. So, I leave it entirely up to you on what you can or wish to do about this.

    Dad

    Hal sighed, picked up the box, opened the car door, and started walking back to the house wherein lived Benjamin Montgomery’s grandson. It had taken some time to trace him through the Pentagon files, but Hal had done so. He now wished he hadn’t been persistent in doing so. He had assumed he would find nothing, and then when he did, he assumed that Montgomery’s grandson wouldn’t have any interest in a few notes his grandfather had written in World War II.

    He had called ahead and he had said the minimum he thought necessary to be able to claim-to himself-that he’d done what he could to fulfill his grandfather’s death wish. But the young man on the other end of the line, Bud Montgomery, had surprised him. There had been a pause before he had spoken.

    “General Henry Collins? Yes, I know of him. You say you have some notes from my father, sent to him in World War II?

    “Yes, and I promised my grandfather when he was dying to try to track down what had happened to your grandfather in life and to pass on his regards, appreciation, and-he said-his apologies. It might be enough to have done this over the telephone . . .” Hal certainly hoped it would be enough, and he had now passed on the three things the general had asked for, so this would be enough for Hal. “There are just a few notes, probably in your grandfather’s hand. But you may not want those, and perhaps just this connection over the telephone is enough.” Hal hoped the young man wouldn’t want the notes. It was bad enough that Hal knew about them and had read them.

    “Where are you?” the young man answered. “I think we should meet.”

    “I’m in D.C., but I can come to you, if you wish,” Hal said, hoping that the young man didn’t wish. “But perhaps a meeting isn’t . . .”

    Hal had done what his grandfather had wanted. He didn’t really want to get any further into this.

    “I think we should meet. I think I have the notes your grandfather sent mine in this exchange.”

    Oh shit, Hal thought. “Maybe we should just leave this . . . I don’t think it would do either of our families any good to . . .”

    “It’s fine, Colonel Collins,” he answered. “This need go no further than the two of us, but I loved and respected my grandfather, just as I’m sure you must have yours to be doing this. I think we owe it to them to put these notes together, if they do go together, just to give them both some peace and closure.”

    And thus Hal found himself knocking on the door of a neat little bungalow on the edge of Gettysburg, Pennsylvania.

    A trim, handsome young man met the door. “Colonel Collins? I’m Bud. Please come in. The living room’s over there. Would you like to have a beer?”

    While the young man was getting the beer, Hal entered the living room, which was minimally but neatly furnished. He sat on the sofa and looked around. There were photographs across the room on a table. A wedding photograph, obviously of Bud Montgomery and a pretty, young blond woman. And a few others, of a couple of older couples-their respective parents? And a more recent one of Bud and his wife and two small children. And one of an older, but handsome man. The Benjamin Collins of the notes?

    Despite the table full of photos, Hal got the distinct impression that he was alone in the house with Bud Montgomery.

    After bringing in the beers, Bud left for a few minutes and then came back with a small wooden box-not a cigar box, but obviously an old one. He took a small stack of folded, yellowing paper out of it, and sat on the sofa next to where Hal was sitting, the general’s cigar box in his hand.

    “Well, if these are the two parts of a story, we’d best see what the story was,” Bud said.

    “Are you sure?” Hal asked. “The notes I have are very . . .”

    “From what I have here, I have no illusions about what these represent,” Bud answered.

    And so, they began.

    * * * *

    “It would be suicidal, Major. And it would be cruel to the soldiers who we know won’t last the night or beyond tomorrow. We need to let them die and peace. Then in a couple of days we could-“

    “It’s what regimental headquarters wants, Captain. We must move with the regiment and they are moving on from the Monte Cassino area.”

    Captain Collins knew that Major Dunlap was lying about that. Collins was the “Sparks”-the commo operator-for the unit of fifteen soldiers of the 157th who had been assigned to maintain the wounded until the ambulance corps unit could catch up with them. And since they’d been assigned those duties and managed to pull the wounded up to this warren of caves around the base of the mountain that the Monte Cassino monastery supported, all hell had broken out on the battlefield below. They hadn’t heard from regimental headquarters for two days. A German artillery unit had advanced to support the Italians, and Captain Collins strongly suspected there wasn’t a 157th regiment anymore.

    The unit had landed in Oran, Africa, in June of 1943 to stage for the invasion of Italy at Anzio at the end of January 1944. The landing had gone well, but by early February, as the regiment worked its way up the peninsula, the Germans began throwing everything they had left at the invasion force and the 157th had stalled at Monte Cassino, seventy miles short of Rome.

    So, Dunlap and Collins were the officers of a fifteen-man unit guarding thirty-two wounded soldiers in a series of caves opening up onto a broad ledge. The wounded, a good third of which would inevitably die soon, were stashed in the caves. The fifteen combat-capable soldiers were pulling eight-hour shifts of five men each at positions near the edge of the ledge, watching for Germans or Italians, while five soldiers maintained a mess and other support needs and the other five were sleeping in a cave dedicated to their needs. Dunlap and Collins each had a shallow cave for their own billet.

    The ambulance unit consisting of seven medics had reached them less than an hour previous to the disagreement conversation between the major and the captain near the entrance to the cave holding the terminally ill. To the major’s great disappointment they arrived with no news of the rest of the regiment’s disposition or condition.

    Major Dunlap was about to reiterated the order to prepare the men to move out, when the head medic, a corporal, came out of the cave.

    “We have assessed the wounded, Major,” he reported. “Three of the soldiers will die within the next couple of hours, and I doubt that five others will last the night.”

    “That’s unfortunate, Corporal, but we must be on the move to meet up with the regiment.”

    “How far will that be?” the corporal asked.

    Captain Collins, who had been turned away from this discussion, turned back and said, “We have no idea how far it is. We have no idea where the regiment is now. Or do you know, Major?”

    The major looked irritated-but also fairly called. “No, it will be up to us to find them.”

    “Many of the wounded can’t move on their own, Major,” the corporal said. “We’ve just done our assessment. Now we have to dress the wounds. Some of the soldiers still have bullets in them. It will be hours before we can stabilize the wounded.”

    “And by then it will be dark,” Captain Collins said. “We will stand less of a chance finding the regiment through enemy territory in the dark than in the light. And, as I said, it would be cruel to force march men who will be dead, one way or the other, in the morning-and the able-bodied soldiers can’t fight, as needed, with two wounded men each on their back.”

    The major’s face was beet red. He didn’t like to be second-guessed, even by clear logic. But the logic, in fact, was clear.

    “Very well. We will reassess the situation at dawn tomorrow. But I then want us on the move by noon.”

    Collins and the corporal watched the major stalk off. They turned and looked at each other. Both were fine-looking men, the captain in his late twenties and the corporal, by the look of him, barely twenty-two. They each shook their heads, giving the other a sympathetic look, and walked off to perform their respective duties.

    It was late afternoon on February 12, 1944.

    That evening, Captain Collins found a note that had been placed under his pillow that gave him some comfort that his near insubordination with the major earlier that day had not gone by without some form of support from the men of the unit.

    Shouldn’t be doing this, I know, but just wanted you to know that most of us guys are with you on this, Cap. Some of the man we have here are too shot up and played out to be on the move just yet-some of them forever, and it would just be cruelty to bring those men even more pain in something that isn’t going to save them. Just want you to know you aren’t alone in this, even tho none of the rest of us have a say in anything.

    The next day dawned with no further contact from the regiment, two soldiers that had to be buried in the soft soil at one edge of the ledge, and a heavy fog enveloping the mountain. The fog helped them in the respect of making it less certain that any of the remnants of the German and Italian forces roaming around-the enemy having suffered as much in the battle as the Americans had-would find them under those conditions. They still could hear the occasional sound of rifle shots. But the German artillery was silent, and perhaps on the move up the peninsula. The 157th was a vanguard regiment in the march up from Anzio. Soon wave after wave of American forces would be in the area. This was why Captain Collins favored staying put. They could always catch up to the 157th later, he reasoned with the major.

    The fog hurt them in the respect that it brought the disagreement between Major Dunlap and Captain Collins even more in the open. There really was no place they could go and not be overheard if the major insisted on blustering his position. And the major did insist on blustering his position.

    The fog stayed with them all day, though, and by late afternoon the major had to admit that they were going nowhere that day. Two more of the critically wounded had died in the night and two beyond that during the day.

    “But what about those with only minor wounds?” the major asked the medic corporal.

    The corporal called out a young private, who looked barely old enough to be at war out of the cave were the less-critical soldiers were being treated. The private was shy, although he managed a smile at Captain Collins when he emerged from the cave. “The major has asked about the progress of the health of the minimally wounded, Private Montgomery. Please report. How many of them would be ready to march tomorrow-and to fight, if need be.”

    The private flared up a bit at the question, glaring at the major probably a bit more than the major would tolerate if the soldier were directly under his command, but he calmed down as quickly as he had shown irritation. “Most of the men not in the critical care area could probably march tomorrow, sir. But I doubt if more than a dozen of them could point rifles steadily. Perhaps a few more days and-“

    “Thank you, Private,” Major Dunlap said with an icy voice. “You may go back to your patients now.”

    Once again the private gave Captain Collins a smile as he turned and fled back into the cave.

    That night Collins received yet another handwritten note under the pillow of his pallet, which gave him encouragement to hold off on the withdrawal from the caves.

    Stand up to the major, Cap. There are enough of us who will stand behind you on this. The caves are the best place to be in this until the fighting gets beyond us. We got more sick and wounded here than we got men who could fight. We didn’t march all the way up from Anzio to Monte Cassino just to get out in the open for Krauts and Spics to pick us off. There’s nothing cowardly about it. I, for one, would pick up a gun and join it out there if you tell me to but none of us medics can be doing that and caring for the wounded soldiers and carrying them out of these caves on our backs at the same time. You are told the major right about that.

    One who cares and stands behind you.

    Late that night, not being able to sleep, Captain Collins had left his cave and was standing by the entrance into the critical care cave, chancing smoking a cigarette to calm his nerves. He normally wouldn’t have considered doing this at night, but the fog had settled in again, and he doubted that a lighted tip of a cigarette could be seen at the edge of the ledge from here, let alone down the mountainside.

    He thought he heard a strange noise from inside the critical cave-like perhaps one of the patients choking-and instinct drew him into the entrance way. He stopped there, though, instantly understanding what was happening at a pallet over in a corner.

    The young soldier on the pallet was one who had been thought not to be alive this morning, but he was still alive. One of the medics was kneeling beside him. The medic had unbuttoned his fly and had his cock out, and the dying soldier was sucking on it, while the medic had his hand inside the fly of the soldier and was stroking his cock.

    Collins wasn’t surprised. There had been indications about this solider earlier, the one who was dying, but nothing definitive had been established. It was clear from what Collins could see and hear that what the medic was doing for the dying soldier was an act of solace. Regulations, of course, demanded immediate charges and punishment for both of the soldiers. But, muttering “fuck it” under his breath, Collins just turned and left the cave.

    Exhausted, he was able to fall into a deep sleep on his pallet for the few hours left in the night. When he awoke, he found another note-in the same hand and on the same lined notebook paper as the two earlier notes-laying on top of his mess kit. The note thanked him for turning his eyes away from what he had spied in the night, and for not reporting the incident.

    Just want to thank you for understanding, Cap. There’s lots of ways to take care of the wounded and dying. It’s not being less of a man to be human and carrying with all this shit going on. Private Craig is on his way out. He knows that. Jimbo knows that. If Jimbo allows him to get what comfort and pleasure is left in life that ain’t up to no one but the two of them and God, I say. It’s war, and it’s still bad out there. Krauts everywhere and the Spics are just shooting at anything that moves. We’re probably all gonna die. Probably none of us are going back to a regular life as the Bible tells us to do.

    Thanks-for the private Jimbo’s caring for in the best way he can see and for the remaining time the private has-for just overlooking it and not telling the major. Everything about where we are and can’t get out alive is unnatural. And we’re stuck with everything. So, nothing’s unnatural here.

    With the greatest respect,

    Private Benjamin

    When Collins checked the next morning, he found that Private Craig had died an hour earlier. Collins also now knew who had been sending him the notes. This one was signed by the private who had been called out to report the combat readiness of the less critical wounded, Private Montgomery. He had signed the note “Private Benjamin,” but the only Benjamin in the caves was Private Montgomery.

    Other news he received that morning was that Major Dunlap had taken two soldiers and set off on his own to reconnoiter the area, still being hot to lead the unit off the mountain and to meet up with the 157th. This was fine with Collins except for the part of not having been informed that the major was doing this. It was a clear sign that the major didn’t trust or want to work with Collins, which couldn’t possibly be good, especially when the unit was in the peril that it found itself in.

    Still, there was an upside to this. Until the major returned, Collins was in charge. The major had said nothing to the men about the situation. Collins called them together, including the less-critically wounded, after they had breakfasted and told them that, unless the major returned with contrary orders, they would stay here for at least two more days. He didn’t say the timing was established with the consideration that by then there wouldn’t be critical wounded still alive who could not travel-but everyone listening to him knew the score.

    He continued by saying, though, that the unit would  have to be on the move soon. Little evidence of fighting had been heard or seen from the valley in more than twenty-four hours, he was sure that the main vanguard of the U.S. forces would be appearing in the next day or so, and, most telling of all, they would be running out of supplies and couldn’t stay here much longer in any event.

    The men listened to him intently and none questioned the wisdom or necessity of what he was saying, his spirits were lifted that night to find yet another note in his cave that evening providing affirmation and pledge of support from his not-so-secret supporter. It normally wouldn’t mean a great deal to receive support from a private-and one from a medical rather than a combat unit and looking barely old enough to shave-but his eyes had met on several occasions with those of Private Montgomery over the past two days, and an affinity had been established between them. For some reason, Captain Collins found himself very much wanting to know that he had the young, good-looking private’s approval.

    He was not yet able, however, to consider what might underlay this affinity.

    You’re the man. I’d follow you anywhere. You were right. It’s just about past us now. Soon as we’re down to those never going anywhere from here, I’m with you a hundred percent on giving it a go. So’s all the other guys. The major doesn’t come back, we’ll do what you say, no question. Me, especially, whatever you want, whatever you tell me to do. You got it. I’ll carry a man and a gun. Just say the word.

    You’re man,

    Private Ben

    The next morning, Captain Collins’ world changed forever. And it happened in the most unexpected way, blindsiding him, deeply disturbing him, and causing him to brood for some time on his life until now to consider whether there had been any foreshadowing for this life-shattering revelation.

    The unit had devised a shower behind some rocks at one edge of the ledge, where a small cascade of water dropped down the side of the mountain. Part of the “on mess duty” units duties was to keep buckets of this water filled, and when the men were able to break away to douse themselves with the ice-cold water, they merely tipped a bucket over their heads, soaped up, rinsed, and used as little water as they could in the process.

    When Collins’ rounded the corner of the rock-enclosed area, naked, to take a quick dousing, he almost ran into Private Montgomery, who already was there, soaped up. Surprised at the appearance of the captain, the private lost his balance. Collins’ caught him, preventing the smaller man from falling to the ground. But the positioning of the captain’s arms and hands when he caught the naked private was intimate. He was embracing the privates chest from behind him with one arm, the captain’s hand palming the private’s pecs. And his other hand was cupping the private’s genitals.

    All would have been fine, if the captain had let loose of the private as soon as Montgomery had regained his footing. But he didn’t. They remained, transfixed, in that position for nearly half a minute-time enough for both of them to start hardening up and for each to know that other was doing so. Collins was trembling. Montgomery let out a low moan, which snapped Collins out of his daze. He turned and fled the shower.

    For the rest of the day, he dreaded the knowledge that there would be a note accusing him of what he’d had no knowledge of having any interest in-at least until now. He agonized at the realization that he had meant something to him. That it had started to make some feelings of the past click into place, feeling he didn’t know he’d had and didn’t want to have.

    He avoided Private Montgomery for the rest of the day and wouldn’t have known what to say to him if they did encounter each other in private. There certainly was nothing he could say to the young man with others present.

    He made it to the night without incident, but, just as he surmised, there was a note under his pillow on his pallet when he retreated to his cave. It wasn’t an accusatory note, though. Collins realized that it might have been better if it were. It was a “not to worry” note that left him more disturbed and full of guilty feelings than before.

    It’s OK, Cap. It’s more than OK. It was accidental like. But anything you want. Anything you need. Just ask. And not because you’re an officer. Because you’re you. You don’t even need to ask, know what I mean? We all have needs. I have needs too.

    Ben

    Benjamin Montgomery’s note of conciliation-and hinting of more-could not go unanswered. To talk to him would put it all on some sort of official level. Captain Collins decided he had to write a note of his own, the first one he’d ever written to the private. He agonized over the note, not being able to write what his emotions were telling him he wanted to write-to admit to-which wasn’t only that feelings he had for other men were beginning to emerge from him but also that he had specific feelings for, attraction to Private Montgomery. Feelings he should not have, but increasingly couldn’t deny.

    This had to be nipped in the bud. Montgomery couldn’t know how he really was feeling. His note to Ben, delivered by slight of hand in passing the next morning, was meant to apologize for the encounter and assure the private both that it wasn’t his fault and that it was an anomaly brought on by the tensions of the war-and not an indication of anything real.

    Oh, god, B, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to do that. Just forget I ever touched you like that. I don’t know why. I’ll be careful not to be showering at the same time again. It’s the war, man. I’m not like that. You don’t have to tell me it’s OK. It isn’t.

    The note didn’t work. Private Montgomery clearly was interested in more contact-and inviting more intimate contact. His answering note clearly opened the door to Collins and caused the captain to retreat to his pallet, pull the cover over himself, and masturbate to gain relief and release the heat of the thoughts that now were racing through his mind. A simple, accidental encounter in the shower had opened a Pandora’s box. It had let a genie out of a bottle that Collins didn’t seem to be able to bottle up again. And it wasn’t being helped by Private Benjamin, who was now giving Collins intimate looks as they crossed paths and was positioning his body provocatively

    The note Collins found after the noon mess clearly signaled that the private wanted more from him. And increasingly, Collins wanted to give the small, cute medic more.

    I wanted more. There, I said it. But you’re so hung, I was scared. And an officer. You haven’t done it, ever before? Don’t know how you managed Africa and then up from the boot of Italy without it. Or maybe officers can get at the women. Privates like me sure can’t. I sure won’t say anything to the major or anyone else, and if you’re interested, see you at the shower again. If you’re not, please just forget that I mentioned it.

    B

    That night, the private stole into Collins’ cave and was naked and creeping under the blanket covering Collins’ pallet so silently that Collins thought that he was having a dream-a dream that he couldn’t help but having-before he was awake enough to know that he was hard, that Private Montgomery was straddling his hips, and that the private was fisting Collins’ cock and sliding his channel down the pole.

    Collins lay there, wide eyed and panting heavily as the small, young, incredibly sexy private fucked himself on the cock.

    Collins had done nothing to force the encounter, but when, after twenty minutes of groaning sex, they both had come, Collins had done nothing to cut off the encounter either.

    His note to the private the next morning was meant to put an end to it, to take all of the blame, but to say that it would be impossible to go on, to follow his acknowledged attraction farther. And in accepting the blame for someone egging the young man on, he as much as told Private Montgomery to turn him in for rape. He was the officer. The responsibility was fully his.

    I’m such an animal. How can I ever let you know how sorry I am I lost control like that. Just a fuckin animal. It’s all this stuff about whether and when to make a break for it. I just about had all I can of it. I promise I will never again . . . If you want to report me to the major, I wouldn’t fault or fight it. Maybe it’s just time for me to be put down. This war is hell. It’s making a fucking wild animal out of me.

    I couldn’t say this to your face. You can show this note to the major, if you like. It’s all my fault.

    Captain Collins

    Private Montgomery’s answering note, brushed all of Collins’ arguments and noble intentions to take full blame and all responsibility aside and pressed on for more attention from Collins, for the captain, the older of the two and the top, to continue and deepen the relationship. When Collins didn’t answer that note, Montgomery sent yet another one, beginning Collins to step up to the attraction each undeniably had for the other. The second note was passed by hand, and for the first time the issue was spoken.

    “You have fucked me already, Captain. That cat don’t go back in the bag. You want me, I know-as much as I want you. It’s the war. We both need this. I’m aching for it.”

    No, don’t feel like that, Cap. Don’t say anything like that to me. I wanted it. I asked for it. It ain’t like you popped my man cherry or anything. My first officer, tho, and I never had it so big. Not your fault. Once I saw you in the shower. . . . Just the way it is out here on the road to Berlin. The tension and the needs. It’s not the real world. We all have needs and urges. Me too. Don’t take this on yourself. You need it . . . anytime, you got it.

    Anytime, anywhere,

    B


    Anytime you want it, Cap. ‘Cause I sure want it. I can’t stop think of doing it with you. I have needs too. Couldn’t you tell by my moaning as you pushed it up into me and how I clung to you and then begged for it again? You’re not taking advantage. You didn’t hurt me-in none of the ways. I’ve done it before. Lots of times. And I can get it. That’s not a real problem. But you and me. We’re real good together. Real good. I gotta say that if you’re really thinking of me, as you say is what’s holding you back, you’ll fuck me again. We both need it. We both need to feel. You’re driving me wild here. I’m aching for it.

    Collins came to Ben in the shower. The shower wasn’t set up in the last niche in the rocks along the far edge of the ledge. Collins pushed the private beyond the shower, into another niche, and fucked him from behind, standing up, with the smaller man bent over in front of him and grabbing his ankles.

    Ben said that wasn’t enough for him. Collins admitted that it wasn’t enough for him either. They fucked half that night away in Collin’s cave, on his pallet, in several different positions, all ones Ben nudged Collins into. It was clear that Ben was the expert here, no novice in any sense of the word. But Collins was a quick learner. The dam had burst. He suddenly knew who he was and what he wanted.

    And what he wanted was to fuck Ben silly. It’s what Ben wanted too.

    The note Ben handed Collins the next morning exuded the glee that he had that, at last, they were fucking with no reservations, no restraints other than keeping it private between the two of them.

    Roll me over, Roll me over

    Roll me over in the clover

    And do it again, do it again!

    Ain’t much for poetry, and I never thought of that way of it, but that’s all I could think of, you fucking me. Us guys are always singing that song-most in a different way. But that’s just how I feel with you now. You put me on one high, you did. First time we done it all the way flat out without any guilt or shame-at least for me, and you sure as hell didn’t seem to be holding anything back. And then again. I want you to do me again and again and again, Fuck me. Fuck me. There, I said it. War is hell. But it’s not that much hell now.

    Roll me over . . . BIG SMILE.

    Yours

    They had one more night together in the caves. They fucked with abandon, with Collins taking complete control, with Ben muttering over and over again, “Fuck me, spike me, screw me, plow me,” in joyful celebration that Collins was mining the depths of his channel, both of them spewing cum multiple times.

    The last note that Collins received from Ben in the caves celebrated their exuberant coupling with a crude poem that was to become Ben’s mantra as the march and fucked across northern Italy and into France.

    Fuck, spike, screw, plow,

    Do me anyway you like,

    Just do me now, now, NOW!

    There. Hasn’t being royally screwed like that last night made me a much better poet? I know that we can’t speak about this in the open. But don’t deny me these notes. You don’t have to answer if you don’t want. You let me know in the night what you’re feeling. You came to me for it last night. I am just busting with the want of having your dick inside me. Fucking me, fucking me, fucking me. This war is hell, but you have given me a slice of heaven, a reason to live, to be there on the other side. I live for the nights, of you covering me, and kissing me, and holding me tight. And thrusting inside me. And fucking, fucking, fucking me. God, you are hung.

    I know you don’t want to talk of love. But if one man could talk of love to another . . .

    Yours. Anywhere, anytime.

    That morning, Captain Collins marched what remained of the unit, down a fourteen soldiers, including Major Dunlap and the two soldiers he’d taken with him on the reconnaissance mission, out of the caves and down the mountainside. Twice they brushed by near German remnant units but two days later, without firing a shot, Collins delivered all of the men who had come off the mountain with him safely into the hands of U.S. Forces.

    The remnants of the 157th, now, with the addition of Captain Collins’ men, was gathering north of Rome to prepare for a march through France, toward Berlin. The Germans were on the run back to the homeland. Of the 705 men in the 157th at the first firing of a gun in the battle for Monte Cassino to the day the Captain Collins appeared with his unit, Major Dunlap never being heard from again, there remained 163 men.

    On February 24, 1944, Captain Collins was promoted to major and notified that he was being put in for the Silver Star for bringing his unit out substantially intact and saving as many wounded men as he had.

    At the end of the ceremony, Private Benjamin, thinking that his ambulance unit might now be split off from the 157th slipped a note of congratulations to Collins, and set up an assignation with the new major in the room assigned to Collins in a small hotel had had been commandeered as an officers’ billet.

    Congratulations, Major. If anyone deserves it, you do. Bringing all of us out the Monte Cassino caves hell hole alive. I’m so proud of you. But being an even higher muckity muck officer now, does that mean we have to use a rubber? Sorry, that was a joke. But I don’t want to use a rubber. The skin of a hard, throbbing cock rubbing me inside. Not just any cock-yours. That’s what I want to feel. The heat of it. I guess there would be the pulse of it that I love to try to match even with the rubber. But not the heat and then the filling of me. Your hot jism exploding even deeper inside me-deeper than your big, hard cock can reach. I feel it in my belly. It warms me through the long, wet trod through France. Tried to come with you last night. Almost got there. Maybe tonight?

    Tell me that majors still fuck privates. If I’ve worked it right, you are reading this as you turn in. And are getting hard. For me. If so, I am just back in the shadows. Just put out the light and lay down on your back. I’ll give you a blow job worthy of a major and then I’ll do the riding.

    Love (Yes, there, I’ve put it out there in the open)

    You know who

    The fucking, intense and celebratory not only because of Collins’ promotion but also from relief that they had made it to U.S. lines and because this was their first lovemaking in a proper bed, went on for hours. Collins was in full control now, taking Ben first doggy style, bent over the side of the bed. After drinking half a bottle of Champagne that Ben had managed to commandeer, Ben lay on his back on the bed, his legs hooked on Collins’ hips as, pushing his knees under Ben’s buttocks, Collins grabbed Ben by the waist and pulled him on and off the cock. They celebrated their first encounter and Collins’ first controlling fuck by fucking in the shower of the adjoining bathroom, Collins standing with his back to the slick tiles of the wall, and Ben plastered to his pelvis, with wrists hooked behind Collins’ neck, and Ben placing his feet on the wall in either side of Collins’ torso and fucking himself on the cock by leveraging off the wall on the balls of his feet.

    One last drunken fuck found them on the floor, Ben on his belly, and Collins riding his buttocks and waving his arms in the air like a rodeo cowboy.

    Ben asked for a written note cataloging their evening together, thinking that this might be their last fuck, that they would find themselves in separate units the next morning.

    Collins’ letter not only celebrated the night, but also expressed the depth of his appreciation for what Ben had given him. It also contained the surprise that they would not be parted-that a major was accorded an orderly and that Collins’ request that Ben be assigned to him as his orderly had been granted.

    They would march into France together. As an high-ranking officer, Collins would received billeting in a hotel or private home, wherever possible. That the two would march by day by fuck in a private bedroom by night.

    War or no war, life was good for the two lovers.

    Jesus Christ, that was incredible. We’ve come a long way, haven’t we, B? There is so much I want to do with you, to you. You are the reason I can go on. And it will go better for us, now, I promise. A major scores an orderly. And better billeting along the road. Maybe a private bedroom in a heated house. And an orderly to serve him. Guess who services-opps, I mean serves . . . grin . . . me so well. So, guess who’ve I’ve asked to be my orderly.

    We mustn’t sink too far into this, though. This has got to remain the temporary result of the circumstances of war and men thrown together in worry and danger and not the usual outlets. This is still unusual, unheard of in my family, as I’m sure it is in yours. I have a wife and a child. I love them no less than before this happened.

    This must, for both of us, just be to see us through this hell of a war. We can’t put too much meaning into this-either one of us. But it’s important to me. Now, thanks quite a lot to you, I can see a glimmer of sanity on the other side. Not a life completely like it was before Africa and Anzio and Monte Cassino, and now France. I would never regret this: you, being inside you, the release, the pleasure, the forgetting just for those moments, you lying under me, you giving it to me . . . everything. But this isn’t the real world, and aren’t we fighting to put the world back on its axis-and on the pedestals that civilized societies create for us to honor? I love my wife. I love my baby son-even though I’ve never seen him in the flesh. And, yes, I have L for you too, B. But it’s a different feeling. It’s for here, now. That will have to be enough.

    But, fuck, B, that was incredible. Yes, fuck, fuck, FUCK.

    The only shadow hovering over the concept of their life being ideal-or as ideal as it could be considering that they were still in a war and marching across countries on their feet-was the continued hedging Collins voiced and wrote about concerning the future and the probability that they both would return to normal-more socially acceptable-lives after the war.

    Ben continually worked to deflect this, though, and answered Collins with a letter making every effort to hang on to what they now were to each other. Whereas Collins fought to acknowledge reality, Ben grasped at the fantasy that had been woven around them.

    I don’t know why you lift me up and then push me down. Not when I’m on your cock, of course. You can lift me up and slam me down all you want then. You could have stopped at “score.” You sure scored last night. You could write these letter on two sheets and just slip me the first page and burn the other one. But I’ll take what I can get. I’m aching for you to slip me something right now, and we’ve just finished the evening mess. I have hours more to pant for your cock.

    I’ll take an L that comes with an F and an S or two and a P (Fuck, screw, spike, plow-but do it now. Isn’t that the way it went? You’d think I chanted it enough while you were screwing me that I’d remember exactly how it goes). Your body doesn’t lie to me, Henry. You are in paradise-far from this fucking slog to Berlin-when you are fucking, screwing, spiking, plowing me. And so am I.

    You are right about having privacy and a bed most nights along the march through France. I didn’t know you could come up with that many ways to fuck a man. Good thing we don’t use rubbers. We’d be out of what few the Red Cross slips under the table to a soldier before we’d gotten out of the caves. Screw thinking about the other world. This is my whole world now. You are my whole world. Even if you can’t say it, I can. Love, love, love.

    And right now, I would love you to fuck me.

    * * * *

    By late July of 1944, the 157th, in separated small units spread across the line of advance, was approaching the Largue River in the Franche-Comté region, preparing to move into the Alsace region. When they cleared Alsace, they would be in Germany itself. They were hot on the tail of the retreating German army. There were few skirmishes between the U.S. and German forces, but the local populace was war weary and panicked and communication were such that they had little knowledge of what army was moving through their region. All they knew was that they had been used as pawns to exploit and ravish.

    They were skittish and responding to any danger they saw to their villages and farms.

    Major Collins’ unit was approaching the small hamlet of Bonfol, which had been brutalized by German soldiers not more than two days previously. Walking in a tree-lined dirt-surfaced avenue between fields that had been churned up by German Panzer units, Collins’ heard a rustling in a tree overhead. Looking up, he saw a young man of no more than nine or ten, pointing an old rifle at him. The rifle wavered in the boy’s hands and Collins’ had time to see the fear, determination, and hatred in the boy’s face before he turned to take cover. He also had time to shoot the boy out of the tree with his own at-the-ready rifle.

    He didn’t shoot, though, and because he didn’t shoot, as he turned, the rifle in the tree discharged and a single bullets somehow struck Collins’ in the muscle of a calf, traveled through that calf, and then through the other. As he fell, he remembered having looked back up to the face of the boy in the tree, whose eyes looked sad and weary. The boy was raising the rifle again.

    But a shot rang out, from among the soldiers who were catching up to the major, and the boy fell out of the tree and lay, dead, on the ground just beside where Collins’ had fallen. Before Collins’ was lifted up by his orderly, Collins’ was face to face with the boy on the ground for long enough for it to register than the boy’s eyes retained their look of sadness.

    Collins’ was transported to the nearest U.S. Army field hospital near Basel. His orderly, Private Montgomery stayed with him, having been very useful in tending to Collins on the spot and keeping him as comfortable and stabilized as possible en route to the field hospital because Montgomery himself had been a medic in an ambulance unit.

    At the field hospital, the orderly stuck by the bedside of the major, providing additional nursing care twenty-four hours a do to what the busy hospital could afford. The wound was painful and it would prevent Major Collins from preceding with his unit or meeting up with the 157th until they were approaching Heidelberg, in Germany, some ten weeks later. But his wounds were minor compared to others the hospital had to deal with under short-staffed conditions, so the presence of the orderly meant everything in the initial care of the patient.

    When the major came out of the near coma, induced by painkilling drugs, though, he turned away from the orderly and refused to respond to him. At length, he asked to be transferred to another hospital and for his orderly to be sent on to catch up with the 157th, which is what transpired.

    In the final known, and fullest and most revealing, exchange of letters between the two men who had become war-conditions lovers, Private Montgomery, who was the soldier who had shot the boy from the tree outside Bonfol, pleaded to the major not to turn away from him and the major sadly answered that it was time for both of them to start returning to reality-that their war would be over soon, they both would want to return to a life that didn’t include men making love to men, and that this disruptive incident in France was, both of them needed to admit, the best possible circumstance to end their relationship.

    August 5, 1944

    Tell me that wasn’t our last time. Tell me it wasn’t because your wounds hampered you and I had to do the work. You didn’t mind it with the promotion celebration. You seemed so distant tonight. But it wasn’t because you couldn’t come. I brought you off twice. But it was like you were holding back-and I know you when you aren’t holding back in a fuck. Oh, god, do I know how wildly you can fuck when you’re loosened up. I thought we were beyond the notes, that we could talk to each other in the daylight. I can control myself in front of the others. You should know that by now. I’m your orderly and also a medic. No one’s questioned that I spend the night with you in this hospital room. If you won’t speak to me, at least read this note. Don’t turn away from me.

    Is it because he was just a boy and I shot him? Or is it because you hesitated in shooting him yourself, and are embarrassed that I saw that? I don’t judge you for that. Your ability to still be a human after all of this time in the war is part of why I love you. And no one else saw what happened. No one saw you freeze.

    It was him or you. And he’d already shot you once-and even though he looked scared as hell, he was going to shoot you again . . . and again until you dropped dead. So, of course I dropped him. You have to understand. When it’s you and anyone else, if I can do anything, I will. I know what you’ve said and written, where you’ve drawn the line. I understand your problem, how you are torn, how you feel you have to hold on to that other world if you can. But that’s your line. I draw no such line. I have no other world to lose. I’m yours, all yours. I will do anything to keep you alive.

    OK, you don’t have to talk to me, but those wounds, even though they are flesh wounds, could easily be infected. Don’t turn me away. I’m a medic, not just the young soldier you’re fucking and can’t fully accept that you are.

    Don’t turn me away.

    Benjamin Montgomery

    The private you are fucking and who loves you


    August 7, 1944

    Ben:

    If you are reading this and we aren’t both in a stockade, the colonel gave you this letter without reading it-as I requested that he do. You also will know that I have been moved to another hospital-at my request-and that you have received orders to catch up with the unit marching into Germany. Although I’ve learned we are going to Heidelberg to protect artwork the Jerries stored in the castle there rather than to Berlin. I don’t know if you even care about that. But Heidelberg would have been a far better place for us to spend our last days together than what’s left of Berlin.

    And you must realize that we would have ended it there, in Heidelberg, which isn’t that far away considering that we have tramped on foot from the boot of Italy to here in Alsace already.

    I’ll say it now. I have come to love you, and it isn’t all about the sex, even though, you are right, it has been paradise to be able to balance the hell of war with the heaven of fucking you. And, yes, that scares me. I shouldn’t have let it go there.

    This isn’t the real world. We both must return to the real world. I can’t believe that you have nothing waiting for you back in Tennessee. You must return to normalcy, as I must. This war has stripped away everything civilized and acceptable in the soldiers who have been forced to clean up the failure of politicians and megalomaniacs like Hitler and Mussolini. To a certain degree, we’ve been reduced to being primitive animals too-just to fight them on their own level and to survive. It was natural, in a way, there being few women and many frightened men along the road that I let myself be reduced to a primitive animal in this way too. Men thrown in together in fear and uncertainty, need and tension. Testosterone like a bright flame. And being told over and over again that we weren’t like the fascists-we didn’t loot and rape. And if we did, we’d be summarily executed-in a climate where it was believable that this would be our fate.

    It was natural to turn to each other for comfort and release. And you were so desirable-from the first time I laid eyes on you. And then, yes, you have to admit it, so willing and leading me. You accepted responsibility for that from the beginning. It’s not that I’m saying you are a schemer. It just seemed so much more acceptable for you in the circumstance we were in. You were the one with the open mind and I was the prude.

    That’s not an excuse for me, of course. I was an officer and you were a private-not even a foot soldier. You were a medic working to save the wounded men assigned to my unit in the caves of Monte Cassino. I didn’t even ask you how old you were. You looked so young that I should have. Thank god your being too young didn’t get added to my sins. I should have shown restraint. But it was such a struggle on what to do there, and you were so comforting and supportive-and available and willing. And so damn sexy. I was an animal, a primitive animal. And you took it and did everything you could to have me and to hold me inside you.

    I don’t think I’ve ever told you. I never could bury it all with my wife or any of the other women I’ve had. But you took it all and made love to it. And I was such an animal. I was lost to you-days before I first fucked you. It was driving me crazy. It was what I wanted at the time. When you gave yourself to me, it got me through the lunacy of the war.

    But enough of that. I promised myself to keep this formal-for the sake of both of us. No, this is not your fault. None of it is your fault, really. You were young-you still are in years, but certainly not in experience. I’m an officer. It was basically my weakness-my weakness in this so that I could be strong in other ways. You’ll chastise me, I think, for mentioning “fault.” All along you’ve taken what we’ve been doing as natural and right, under the circumstances, and I’ve been the one who was reserved and expressed the guilt. That said, I have loved your notes; the heat of them spurred me on to something I’ll never regret (I hope), and they gave me release when, barring a release such as that, I might have killed Major Dunlap back in the caves of Monte Cassino, and then where would we have been?

    A parting is inevitable. I ask you to come to accept that. But that it is now isn’t because of anything you’ve done. You saved my life. I don’t discount that in the least, and I forever will be in your debt for that. I was in your debt before that. You gave me everything. You gave me pleasure and release and a will to put one foot in the front of the other during our trek. And you did it all without asking for or demanding anything but the cock in private-which was the easiest thing I could give to you, because it brought so much pleasure to me. (Cock in private. I laughed when I reread that. I’m sure you did when you first read it. You always said I was too serious. I sure had my cock in a private, didn’t I?)

    I think it was the eyes-the sad eyes-that woke me up. Of course the bullet through the legs was a wake-up call in itself. That young man in the tree. His eyes looked so sad. He didn’t want to be there any more than we did. But he had a duty, just as we did, no matter how futile and irrelevant it was at that point. The Jerries were on the run-all the way back to Germany. His war was over. But the boy didn’t realize it, and he did what duty told him he had to do-shoot the invaders. He was trembling so bad that I have no idea how he managed to hit me-even in through the thighs.

    I can’t help wondering what I would have done-what you would have done-if he’d missed with that first shot. But it was the eyes. I’d seen those sad eyes before. I saw them on your face when you first struggled up to the caves in Monte Cassino with your medical unit and saw the work that faced you-knowing that a good third of those boys would never be coming out of the caves alive no matter what we faced if we had to go back into the battle.

    I think when I first saw those sad eyes of yours, I knew that I wanted to possess you. (The rest of the body was great too, I must say.) I had had those thoughts about other men before that. But there was something about you that told me that I needed to have you under me, pinned to the ground by my cock, fully mine. But when I saw the eyes of that young man who died, needlessly, because I was invading his village and his village had suffered the savagery of all of the invaders who came before us, I knew I couldn’t go on like that with you.

    And I knew, despite what I’ve written, that it was all my fault, all responsibility for your life and well-being that I shouldn’t have taken advantage of.

    Don’t write me again-please, Ben. It all has to stop at some time. Now is the time. You won’t find me. The colonel has assured me that you will be safe where he assigns you-back in an ambulance unit, but now with the enemy pointed the other way and running. Remember me with fondness, if you can, and as your partner in surviving the hell of war. I know that I will remember you with . . . yes, Love.

    HC>

    * * * *

    “That’s the last letter I have from your grandfather to mine,” Bud Montgomery said. The light was growing dim in the small living room. The men had been sitting side by side, closely, piecing the letters together for a couple of hours.

    “I see,” Hal Collins answered. “That’s sad, so sad.”

    “Yes, but what I story. I can understand how both of them felt. The sadness was that it had to end.”

    “As I read the letters, I can see the conflict in my grandfather’s view of it-having to consider the social mores of the time-or thinking he had too. Your grandfather’s position seemed the purer.”

    “But it also seems clear that my grandfather seduced yours into the relationship-a private seduced an officer.”

    “I don’t think that would have been possible if the officer didn’t basically want it to happen. They just lived at the wrong time.”

    “You think it would have been better in the present?”

    “Well, homosexuality is more readily accepted now, I think. I certainly don’t feel the stigma that my grandfather obviously did-probably for very good reason. I’m an Army officer and I’ve been able to declare, if only recently.”

    “You? You’re gay?”

    “Yes, I think that’s why this responsibility for putting the letters together devolved on me. My father couldn’t bring himself to do it. But in his letter to me, passing on the responsibility, he said that I should understand the need for it better than he did, because I was gay. In that, I think he was right.”

    “I see.” Bud was looking away from Hal, his face turned toward the family photographs on the table across the room.

    “I’m sorry if I have offended you.” Hal was truly concerned. Since he had arrived here and while they had been piecing together the letters, he increasingly had become attracted to Bud Montgomery. He, of course, could never act on it, but he found the young man’s understanding and acceptance of the contents of the letters and the sensuality he exuded arousing.

    “How could you have offended me?” the young man, asked turning back to Hal. He placed a hand on Hal’s forearm that Hal felt as a burning brand, so much did it arouse him.

    “You have been so good about all of this-the revelations in these notes and letters. I’m gay, so it isn’t difficult for me. But for you it should be-“

    “I’m gay too.”

    “Excuse me? Those photographs on that table over there. Isn’t that your wife? Aren’t those your children?”

    “Yes, but that doesn’t mean that I’m not gay. It just means I didn’t come to grips with that fact until after I married and had children. My family is resigned to the fact and we get along fine. They just don’t live here. I live here alone, and when I’m feeling brave and am attracted to a man, I bring him back here, and I lie under him.”

    “You bring men back here, and you lie under them-when you are attracted to them?”

    Bud had not removed his hand from Hal’s arm.

    “You lie under men?” Hal repeated.

    “Yes, I’m sorry if I offend you now, but I’m openly gay, and I want to make the most of the rest of my life. That’s what I find sad in the story of our grandfathers-that they so obviously loved each other and yet had to give each other up. I don’t even need the love. If I’m am attracted to a man and aroused by him I am happy to let him fuck me.”

    “Men fuck you?”

    “Yes, when I want them.”

    “And that’s all it takes? You might, then be attracted to-“

    “I have been attracted to you since I heard your voice on the telephone. I have been aroused by you since you walked through my front door. Haven’t you felt the vibes too?”

    “Yes, I’ve felt them. But I believed . . . I didn’t know . . . I fought them.”

    “Like your grandfather fought them? To what good purpose? Was he happier for it? I can tell you my grandfather wasn’t happier for it. He mourned the loss for the rest of his life. He’s the one who forced me to acknowledge that I like men rather than women-and that I liked men to fuck me. He’s the one who told me not to resist my impulses, to grab as much pleasure, of my own choosing. He gave me the notes letters he’d saved from your grandfather. That your grandfather saved the notes and letters he received as well screams of his own regret for what he lost. We don’t need to relive our grandfathers’ mistakes, though . . . Damned right I want you to fuck me.”

    Hal stopped further declarations by the younger Bud by pulling him closer, embracing him, and possessing his mouth with his. Bud pulled Hal down on top of him as they turned to stretch out on the sofa, and they rolled around, frantically pulling at each other’s clothes until there was nothing else to pull off. Instinctively, Bud scooted down the length of the sofa as Hal worked his way in the opposite direction, raising up in a pushup position on his toes, with the heels of his hands dug into the sofa arm. His face now positioned under Hal’s pelvis, he took Hal’s half-engorged cock in his mouth, and Hal face fucked him, doing pushups above the younger man.

    When Hal was as hard as hard can be, Bud scooted up the length of the sofa again, to where he could guide Hal’s cock to his asshole, wrapped his legs around the small of Hal’s back, and pulled the cock inside him.

    “Shit, you’re good at this,” Hal muttered as he continued his pushups, this time stroking his cock in Bud’s channel rather than his mouth.

    “So, according to those letters, was my grandfather,” Bud answered. “There’s so much I can show you, so much we can do, so much fucking we can make up for for our grandfathers.”

    Hardened armyman that Hal was, he was able to do hundreds of pushups without breaking a sweat. Bud was glad he could, although they both broke a sweat.

    When they had been ejaculated and fell into an entwining embrace-and Bud had managed to regularized his breathing, he whispered, “Can you come again?”

    “Gettysburg isn’t that far from D.C. I think I can manage to make the trip again soon.”

    “No, I mean can you come again now. Can you make me come again now. This house is small, but it has a bedroom.”

    “Yes, I think I can manage that,” Hal answered, with a grin. “But our grandfathers did it wherever. I don’t need to go as far as the bedroom.”

    Bud gave a gasp and arched his back, as Hal thrust his cock up inside him again and began to pump, showing how fit he was-that he could get hard again quickly.


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