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  • Carter And Me

       Author’s note: If you are about the age of Carter and his cousin, unhappy and considering leaving/running away from home please do not use my story as any sort of model. This is fiction in which I can control what happens to my characters. I never ran away from home but, certainly, I was aware of young men who did and…it almost never ended happily.

    And this. If you are in contact with someone elsewhere whom you know only through the electronic medium, if they tell you to come to them, DON’T DO IT. It’s my personal belief that Facebook has a lot of sexual crime to answer for, particularly among the young. There’s an American television show called “Catfish” which deals specifically with discovering what and who the person at the other end of the line really is. In only one or two episodes has this had even had the glimmer of a happy ending.

    Carter and I looked at each other with that stupid ‘just fucked’ grin that the young get. Making up a social error, we’d found that our play mates were called Moma and Yousi, were from Iran-they were careful to point out their families had got out before the nick of time, their families had departed in the early 1970’s. Seems that no matter your place of origin, attitudes don’t change much; Their parents, they were brothers, had not taken kindly to the revelation of sexual preference although told never to come back, they had been allowed to keep the monies some relatives had left them plus their cars, their clothes, really fine jewelry, personal stuff….but told to get in those cars and leave.

    Sensing good advice, they did. It hadn’t taken them long to find their way into sin but they’d been smart, worked sin to their advantage, took massage courses, the weight training sessions that were suggested and…somehow ended up at the Denver airport. They didn’t own the gym but the man who did hardly paid any attention;  As best they could tell, it was run as a tax write off, they were hired because they were decorative, really studs on the hoof   , enticingly so-they stood near the front of the windows a lot. Fully licensed massage therapists, their days weren’t very interesting and, in fact, they were considering a change in scenery; Although they’d never seen them, the mountains surrounding Tehran approximated those near Denver.

    It went through my mind, just based on the porn we’d watched and having no idea how to make this work but…with Sam, us, the Iranians, we damn near had our own male brothel and….the gym was the perfect sort of place from which to operate. (We assumed that Sam might like to escape the pool hall and sucking ‘special customers’ in the can where he worked hustling pool.) Men come in, work out, find there are specialties, make selections, hop on a table, in a steam room, experience a form of aromatherapy not often suggested to open your lungs….Not to mention giving all of us a place to work out and stay in the best sort of shape, based on our drooling over the porn we could get, that was most desirable. Then there was our age…the expression ‘young, tender, meat’ went through my head. The only problem now was how to bring it up?

    Pleasantly exhausted, we all racked out in a sort of darkened room that was marked ‘aromatherapy’, said to be very helpful after a workout although just what sort of workout wasn’t specified. Carter was, well, thoroughly fucked, a first for both of us which our new fuck buddies had just discovered; Two virgins in one day, probably a record for the Denver Airport….but I’m guessing. Lolling about, warm, letting the aroma do whatever it’s supposed to do, I mentioned, as casually as a 19 year old can mention, that, in truth, we were probably on our way to California to pursue a career in photographic porn….a buddy-it seemed best not to bring Sam in to this-had thought we might find employment.

    I believe it was Yousi who commented that why go to California to have one’s picture made? He bet-and I thought this was probably a sure thing-that there was someone, possibly right in Denver, who took exactly those sorts of photographs and, were he to be honest, he and his brother had been approached…well, eventually, they’d succumbed to certain offers that led to a well lit studio, their bodies covered in oil and pictures being made. Matter of fact, if we were interested, he could show us the results of that trial run….But only IF we were interested, of course.

    Silence can be a great come hither, if you play it just right and, for men as naive as we were, we inadvertently did. So much so that, not bothering with a towel, he left for a moment returning with a folio of pictures of …..the two of them. We knew they had great bodies, indeed we had intimate knowledge of them but…in the pictures whoever took them knew what they were doing and knew just how to make their bodies….even better than in reality. Whether the magic of retouching or airbrushing had been applied, they looked sensational and, having had the pleasure plus privilege of seeing the real thing up close and personal, we knew the pictures accurately depicted the real deal.

    Yousi pondered….wondered….if, of course we had a three o’clock, but…if that could be delayed, perhaps we might be interested in finding out how we might look. Nothing porno, you understand, just some intriguing pictures that were, at best, suggestive. I believe it was Carter who asked if what we’d just done with each other was ‘suggestive’ and, if it was, what was the suggestion? Oh, and we had a friend, nice guy, surely they’d like him, right here at the airport…he supposed, if there was sufficient reason, we could always postpone our departure…if a promising deal seemed, well, promising.

    “Here’s what I can promise…” Yousi bent over, took my cock, not as limp as one might have thought given all that aroma, in his mouth as well as sticking one middle finger up my ass. That seemed to suggest something so I did; I wondered aloud how photographs of young well shaped meat, brothers actually, would look fucking each other or, if that was too far, a simple 69, or, maybe just looking deeply into each others eyes as we jerked off, or were jerked off.

    In the dim of the therapy room,  I could see two pair of beautiful dark Persian eyes-well, I couldn’t see Yousi, he was otherwise engaged but I have a good imagination-slowly rising into a smile as their cocks rose, apparently to agree that, yes, illustrations such as suggested would have a certain appeal. He left out the word ‘market’ but we added it in our minds.

    I had to pause while Yousi finished me off, rolled me and ate my ass-a new experience, but…why tell him? I could tell Carter was interested in having this new experience as well; How easily Moma read his mind when he rolled on his stomach and stuck his ass in the air, carefully splitting it with his hands. What a nice long tongue he had, I could see that we were in the hands, and other selected body parts, of  truly gifted amateurs or real professionals. (I mention “amateur” for, as of that moment, money, that dividing line between pro and am had not been mentioned. Suggested, alluded to, vaguely mentioned but no offers of hard money for hard cocks had been offered. Yet.) Surely they must have known, given the revelation of our  former virgin status, that what we were doing was learning on what may become OJT-whatever it sure as fuck beat Sam having to give blow jobs in a bathroom at a pool hall-however, that didn’t seem to worry them.

    To be encouraging, difficult as I was close to climax, I did struggle out the word, “Bareback”…the suction on me went up a factor of at least three. What we knew was that ‘bareback’ meant having sex with whomever without any ‘protection’ from disease. Bareback, to us, was the norm, it was how we practiced our semi-limited sex but…we were bright, knew the problems, possibilities and though the AIDS scare was somewhat in the past, it was something to consider.

    To every stone in the road, there’s a construction crew ready to smooth things out…in this case it was just a revision of what we had, and suspected our new buddies also, did, sex with each other without protection. Laying there, Yousi playing with my nipples, I imagined a scenario in which brothers, possibly a pair of  brothers were photographed doing a double 69. Carter and I were no strangers to that, we both enjoyed it, enjoyed each other and, in the homes from which we were now in absentia, it had the virtue of being very, very quiet as well as something that didn’t suddenly end…if you understood control of yourself which we did.

    Sometimes the  big picture needs illustration so…I slid out from Yousi, went to Carter, put myself in the classic 69 position and took his cock in my mouth; He returned the favor. One thing we’d always lacked was any sort of video so we had to imagine what it would look like, live, if two men were sucking each other off. We knew what we did but that was for our own pleasure with no consideration of what a viewing audience might want; Somehow I felt there was a Persian version to this and I was right. Yousi and Moma, either to demonstrate or because they just wanted to, matched us. We learned that we’d been mostly correct what was needed was a bit of drama to sell to someone watching.

    Aunt Jane had taught us carefully that the best literature and writers of same were those who could allow the reader to not just identify with the characters but imagine what it might be like to be experiencing the action being described. Watching our two new  buddies replicate what we were doing showed us that not only would we enjoy it more if some sound, some motion was added but we’d enjoy each other more as well. Again, the proscription about noise at home had limited us though on many occasions, we had to use our hands to suppress exactly the sounds the boys from Tehran were making.

    Oh, Aunt Jane, were you ever right, the more excitement, the more it’s conveyed to the interested party, the better it is. Probably being sucked off by two guys in a gym in Denver wasn’t what she had in mind but, already, we’d done pretty much everything that no one at home  ever had in mind.

    One thing about airports, there are clocks everywhere. Another thing, over time we’d both gotten to be fairly good actors if only to get our cluster of parents to let us do what we wanted. (Retrospectively, what we’d wanted wasn’t much  but, working them to let us do it or have it was an interesting experiment. It also points up how we weren’t treated appropriate to our age…we were now upgrading that.) “Shit, Carter, we gotta scoot…” He seemed momentarily dim. “The plane..the three o’clock plane….”. (If that sounds like a line from old television show…..)

    He was with me. “Guys, if we promise to change our plans…..??”

    “If you promise to change your plans…what?”

    “Could we come back and, uh, use the gym again?”

    Yousi grabbed me, smiling, “We open at nine, we’ll welcome you but now….come on, both of you, showers, you’re covered in oil and, uh, other oil, ever been scrubbed in a shower?”

    Sam looked a bit surprised. “Jeez, you two certainly look healthy.” We sat at a table and ordered what was a very late lunch. “Sam, we gotta talk to you, here, now…fuck the food…do you know the two guys who run the same day gym or whatever it’s called??”

    “ The black eyed guys? My God, every gay man who even comes in and out of here knows them but boy are they off limits….”

    “They fucked us. Among other things…..”

    Sam sat down. Hard

    “Listen they’re really nice guys, just stuck in there on display, bored but….they liked us.”

    Sam didn’t respond, just looked at us for a moment. “They fucked you?”

    “Yeah, YAY, we’re not virgins anymore and that’s not all we did.”

    An hour later, as Sam rounded up passes for us with our things to get on the bus with him, he still had a confused look. “You…and your brother…met the Iranians at that gym and they…had sex…”

    “All kinds!” I probably sounded like a kid straight from the farm who’s just discovered there was more to do in the hayloft than just pitch hay and  for none of it did you need clothes…..

    “That’s all your things?” He referred to the one duffel bag and one back pack… “We were, as usual, wearing each others clothes… Sam, we left in an awful hurry.” As we pulled away from the white spires of what looked a lot like a very modern cathedral on the prairie it was snowing. “Guys,  it’s cold, you don’t even have a warm jacket or a parka or…maybe you can wear some of my things or Tom’s…”

    Who knew that the trip from the airport to Denver took longer than the flight to Denver  on the plane?

    Three hours later, we were all holding a beer, in front of a fire, wearing thermal underwear Tom used for hunting. Sam, of course, had real adult clothes something I begin to think we really didn’t own. Actually, we didn’t have much adult anything except for our cocks and balls which were clearly adult. He’d called the pool hall to say he was not able to come in, sorry, he’d be back tomorrow and maybe bring some friends-what they understood we might do there was left as a question to be answered. We’d also given him a fairly definitive tour of our day with Moma and Yousi…not realizing they were the fantasy men for a bunch of the gay guys who worked at the airport, or the airlines or just passengers who saw them in the window and wondered if they had time for a massage. What we didn’t realize, we’d never worked anywhere, was that if you were employed, say at the restaurant where Sam was, you could not go wandering about making friends at other businesses. Hence the lusting after the Persians never got further than noses pressed against the glass and heavy breathing. We, as passengers, could walk in, suit up, strip down, get screwed…whatever we wanted plus whatever they wanted to do to us. I could see Sam was…not jealous but wished he could have something like that.

    The few comments he made about Tom were nice, but in the whole time he’d be home between flights, he and Sam didn’t do even part what we’d done that afternoon.  Then there was the issue of the pool hall and….blow jobs in the bathroom. That was something neither Carter nor I could understand-our innocence extended in many directions one of which was not understanding that you did what you had to do….something we’d never experienced; Except for not having winter clothes, we’d had it all-listening to Sam clearly made that point.

    The one thing about hitching rides with Sam was that he started at 6 which meant transport called for him around 4:15 which meant we had to be up, bathed, shaved and ready to go before then, all three of us. Used to doing everything together, it was more like 2 ½ people getting ready than three. Also, over the night, it had snowed, which meant the temperature had dropped; It was a good thing Tom was out of town for between the two of us, we were wearing most of his cold weather clothing…some of which had his airline brand on it…not his name, but to see us was to easily believe we were employees of the airline. In other words, as soon as we hit the airport, those clothes had to be ditched; Having had the mini tour of the airport-the maxi tour would have taken days if not weeks-I’d noticed clothing stores. They weren’t open when we arrived-almost nothing was-and, because we were being ‘accommodated on the transport’ we were let off at the airline spot-the uniforms demanded that. We’d been told how to get, quickly, away from there, find the ubiquitous lockers that are in every large airport, stow the outer, airline branded, clothes then wander into the terminal…wait until the restaurant was open, have breakfast.

    Jesus, they gouged you on prices. For once, we couldn’t share clothing as we each needed a full set; cowboy boots (We’d always wanted a pair), boot cut jeans, warm flannel shirts plus a warm jacket, gloves and a knitted watch cap. All well and good  if you were out doors but…we weren’t. Just to look like travelers, we bought another back pack, filled it and somewhat regretted that the first ‘adult’ clothes we’d actually picked out ourselves were, of necessity, heavy weather gear. We did each buy a pair of jeans and a shirt, sort of change out for the cowboy look. Careful about money-right then there was no income and what we had needed to last for….who knew how long?

    Even taking a very long time to eat breakfast and our shopping expedition, the gym didn’t open until 9 leaving us with time to wander and see what else we could find to do. Not much. There were shops offering hair cuts, nail salons, souvenirs all over the place but…when you looked for actual activities….the airport was geared to passengers going from one plane to another or leaving the terminal and beginning the long, long trip home. Or places you could dump children to play video games while the adults could go get a drink; Probably well deserved given the number of the children the length of the flight as well as whether you had a spouse or partner or family member to help with miniature crowd control. Given enough adults you could swap off drinking with minding the young and then return to drinking. The amount consumed rose exponentially based on the number of the young, how long the lay over was plus how long had the inbound been as well as the distance yet to be traveled.

    We found a place to sit and talk…one thing, we needed to level with Yousi and Moma, we weren’t waiting for a plane, we’d left home, there was Sam…they’d been so great to us…beyond just the sex…but they had to know the whole truth. We weren’t wanted, we hadn’t done anything wrong-if you excluded worrying our families-so that was the whole story. I’m not sure either Carter or I were too keen about revealing that we were sort of small town boys, recently virgins, who were really grateful to them and…what next?

    The tale got told sooner than planned. Again, our innocence in the greater world. Never occurred to us-we’d never had jobs-that people showed up to get ready to open their businesses, true with the gym. We were suddenly picked up, hugged and kissed by our Persians then led into one of the many doors-you wouldn’t see them if you weren’t really looking-that led to the myriad of walkways behind all the shops where whatever they sold was brought in, supplies for the airport….and of course the back door to the gym.

    I guess we didn’t look too happy as we started our recitation of who, what, where, when, why…leading up to that moment. Their reaction was not what we’d expected, they were thrilled, we had everything in front of us, we could do whatever we wanted, they saw what we missed; We could now begin our own lives with no family to dictate, however kindly, what we’d do. They pointed out we were good looking, really well build, intelligent, good men, polite, the sort of guys whom anyone would like to meet. And pay for. In short, we could be adults.

    It was Carter who, suddenly, hopped up, threw his arms around me and kept saying, ‘We’re free, we’re free….” and he was right we were. It was a cliche but if you looked into a darkened gym you saw four men, arms around each other, jumping up and down yelling something.

    Now that everything was on the table, the Iranians had an idea, we should work at the gym. In fact we knew a lot about training, so the modest amount that was done there was easily handled. And, as Yousi said, two more studs in the window couldn’t hurt business. They hustled around and put together outfits that more or less suggested we worked there. Each of us had a tank top and very short shorts with the business name on it-push up jock, the guys insisted (they wore them,) plus white socks and white sneakers. The four of us standing together in front of one of the mirrors in the gym looked…formidable and, why not admit it, desirable plus, with the group, you had a selection of sizes, colors and what seemed to be concealed in our ‘working clothes’. While we couldn’t be paid, Moma figured out that if a client tipped us, and looking at us, he felt we would be tipped, it was ours to keep. Carter, somewhat innocently, asked what we should charge for sex…if asked.  They hadn’t thought about that; seems they had what we might call ‘regulars’, guys who transited the airport all the time-as well as flight crews who were also frequent flyers in more ways than one-so dropped in for, well, whatever they dropped in for. Yousi made the point that…with us out front dealing with whomever came in, they’d have more time for…their other activities. Turned out he had a list of locals, some who worked in the airport, who liked to drop in and do whatever. Trouble was, they had the gym to run so their personal business time wasn’t much. Now, with us, we were led to believe their days could be fuller, thanks to not being involved ‘out front’. As to what we might…sell…they suggested that we hold back, get some practice. If they had clients who would enjoy some fresh young meat, and understood we hadn’t exactly achieved professional status, perhaps something could be worked out. One thing of which I felt pretty sure, when it came to sex, the cost was never a precisely set number; Part of it was driven by the anxiety of the consumer, another part by the look of the sales person and a third portion by what was wanted.

    Yousi was quite direct pointing out that a great part of our charm was our youth and inexperience. Something about fucking a virgin in a whorehouse or, as he put it, say, “Gee, Mister, I never done that but I sure am willing to try” even if you just finished doing it ten minutes earlier. What they both said was….to see how the day went, what or who turned up, if there were any sales….the worst would be we’d get a good workout, spend some time in the whirlpool not to mention some time with them. Interestingly, they’d sort of divided us, I went with Yousi and Carter with Moma. Doing it that way, there were always two guys in the gym and the other two not in the gym doing whatever they thought up to do. Simple.

    Apparently they’d been in touch with their buddy the photographer making it clear to him they had some really fresh meat, well cut, looked great in the window only needing some publicity photos…or whatever to launch our careers. Their word must have carried some weight as Youssi told me, just pick a time, preferably in the evening, and we’d drop by his place for a sort of meeting, see what he thought he could do for us. Remembering what he’d done for them, what he could do for us was…..a lot.

    I was having real pangs of guilt about Sam; He’d been a friend when we needed one and….the idea of him giving blow jobs in a bathroom to earn money, well, it just made me sad. Told Youssi the whole story, Sam, the bathroom, wondered if just maybe….I saw that magnificent Persian smile, those dark happy eyes turn first mad then sad. Clearly he’d never had to suck off guys in a bathroom or anywhere just to make a buck.…. He did, however, have an idea all I needed to do was hang around the gym when it opened, handle any business that happened in, which, that early, usually was non-existent, he had some errands to run. Okay, I could do that. Five minutes later he reappeared in street clothes, good looking ones, kissed me on the cheek, called me something in Persian then ducked out the back door.

    Based on my little experience with him but knowing what he’d done for us, I’d have laid money that Sam had seen his last men’s room unless he went in to use it.

    I was a little surprised, a Delta flight got canceled so for their First class passengers they’d offered a free massage or workout or…whatever they’d like at our gym. Great! Business. Mouma and Carter handled the massages-that Carter had never given one didn’t seem to be an obstacle and, I could tell, at least one of the guys wasn’t as interested in getting rubbed down as he was seeing what else Carter could do. When he asked him if he’d mind working without his shirt, I saw Moma wink at him then draw some heavy curtains that gave him plus his customer some privacy. Out front, I had a couple of guys interested in working out so…got them into shorts, shirts, shoes and gym class started. Guess they liked it, when they left, and we didn’t ask, they each left a ten spot on a table. Both said they hoped they came back through Denver again. On a hunch, I gave them a card from the gym writing on the back, “Ask for Carter”. We could easily both be Carter, we were often told what a strong resemblance we bore.

    And then it got really crazy. Two more flights were either delayed or canceled and though they weren’t give free passes to the gym, three passengers on them were on the Volleyball team at some university so they almost needed no help, another pair of guys were into strength training so my attention was on them, making sure their form was good, they didn’t get too many plates on the bars….just like we’d been taught when we took up lifting.

    Carter, briefly, appeared and discreetly showed me a fifty then Youssi had another massage for him, a regular for whom he didn’t need to worry about whether he knew kinesiology but was more than pleased to find a fresh, tender ass. His first ‘quicky’. The guy was up, in, out and gone in fifteen minutes. Good for a twenty. Out front I, too, was getting modest tips, nothing under ten which seemed good to me. One thing, we’d been busy and it suddenly occurred to me…..my guy had been gone, I looked at my watch, four hours!  

    I mentioned this to Youssi who didn’t seem disturbed….as if to give me a signal, he reached in a drawer and took out a phone. Meaning, I guess, he’d heard from his partner and all was well. Okay but…I felt some responsibility for Sam; My concern was that for his kindnesses to us, we could accidentally get him fired… About then two guys walked in who, I could tell, were interested in something physical….just not in the gym. Smiling I zipped back, found Youssi in the shower-massaging builds sweat-and told him what I thought. He just smiled, told me to find Carter and, for a little bit, he’d handle out front while we gave service as requested in the rear. He’d have a quick chat with the men, see what was up and which of us they wanted. Wow! I was about to turn my first trick….and only the day after getting fucked for the first time.

    One good thing that Carter and I had done that was suddenly of some importance was the ass play before we ran off to become, I guess, hookers. We’d each ‘experimented’ with dildos of increasing size, as well as the time we’d had them stuck in us. We’d widened ourselves so when something that was flexible went in, the muscles that normally would have needed to be stretched already had been. Which meant we immediately took to being fucked; Just now very important as gym work was turning more to getting physically worked over than worked out. We were loving every minute of it, our learning curve going up fast.

    Help was on the way. I looked up to see Moma leading a puzzled looking Sam who was carrying the clothes from our lockers as well as his things; Something suggested he’d served his last load of eggs anything.

    He looked at me, seemed to smile, then was whisked back with Moma. But not for long. Both of them returned in gym outfits ready to assist with customers. Sam, being somewhat short on the protocols of muscle, fitness, but not, oh yeah, sex, was plunked behind a desk where he signed people in, took payments, then escorted them back to a locker, gave them work out clothing then returned to his desk. I wondered if anyone ever asked directly to be sucked off? If so, some else could take the desk while he did what he knew so well to do.

    I took that suggestion to Moma who was immediately taken with the idea but…needed something: An audition. Smiling he leaned over Sam’s shoulder and asked that, if he could spare a moment….I took Sam’s place at the desk having little doubt he’d need more than a moment. While I had never personally been blown by Sam, all those guys at the pool hall wouldn’t have returned for more service if he wasn’t at least…competent.

    We were surprisingly busy-the addition of Carter, me and Sam came at a good time, our Persian buddies would have been overwhelmed although, as the day went on, more and more guys came in to catch a quick workout rather than a quicky. Which was probably just as well; Sex, however pleasant, is tiring. Also, this was being good, old fashioned hooker sex where you didn’t know the john, just pay up, in out-or whatever-leave a tip, thanks, and on to the next trick.

    Moma reappeared with Sam; Both were smiling which didn’t just suggest, but roared he’d passed the audition. Beyond that, as was pointed out, not everybody who wants sex wants muscles…Sam had that…semi-waif look which some guys like and of course, his specialty which, in effect, we gave him sole right to perform. If we had to, we would but….for the discerning man wanting his load removed orally, Sam was your man.

    Somewhere in the afternoon we realized we were hungry; Nothing since breakfast at the airport restaurant then non-stop work since then. As with most gyms, we had a glass fronted refrigerator filled with all sorts of ‘healthy’ drinks and food. Also about then I realized that….Sam, and therefore us, had missed the transport back to the city….rumored to be a hundred dollar cab ride. The Persians looked puzzled. Cabs? City? Sam? They thought we understood we were going to live with them…Sam too. That’s when he broke down and cried. I believe it was Yousi who said no part of our family (Huh?) made their living sucking the penises of pigs in a common bathroom; He came with us. This captain person could find someone else to warm his sheets. On our way to their home this evening, we’d stop by, he could leave a note, clear out his things and-I got teary eyed myself-come home with us. They then each took him, kissed him on both cheeks and lamented they’d hadn’t known about him sooner.

    To their credit, the Persians had a strong sense of family, of belonging, of brotherhood. While it was never openly discussed, I knew that being abandoned by their family was a wound, a deep one. Oddly, Carter and I were a sort of bandage, we added and made a family plus, of course, Sam. Almost instantly we were treated like relatives, ones they liked, and wanted to share everything with us.was that concept of sharing that really knocked over the two of us. Being newly anointed adults, we’d never seen the other side of ‘family’, we were always the juveniles, the boys, the kids….until now.

    The gym operated on fairly long hours-almost everything at the airport did. It didn’t open until ten but closing was at eight. That is official closing; No one was admitted after that hour but, for those already there, they stayed until they’d finished whomever they were working with or on. Almost no one after, say, five, used the work out part which left all of us available for the kind of sex which goes with modern airports…in other words, just about anything that doesn’t require ‘appliances’ and doesn’t produce screams. As a rule.

    Finally we were all closed up, last customer shooed out the door leaving with a big smile and a nice tip for Sam. We learned something that Sam knew, without knowing it, but we did not. Simply put, a blow job, next to jacking someone off, is the simplest form of sex. As he said, in the john at the pool room, he could do….six or eight guys an hour. They came in prepared to be blown  and all he did was help them over the fence. Simple, quick and, while not as financially profitable as what he’d made that first day, it was instructive to all of us; A blow job is the first thing, may be the last thing but serves as the open sesame to what else they might want. Sam was getting ten dollars per dick of which three went to the pool hall owner but in his ‘opening day’ at the gym, he’d cleared nearly two hundred but only half the number of men. As he said, he was a pro, could do a really good job….offered, as we had time, to give each of us a demonstration. How could we refuse? Our new brother? Our only concern was…what could we show him?

    The drive back into the city was an E ticket ride. We were to find that neither brother apparently took, and passed, driver’s ed (or had held licenses ever)  so our trip into town was not only shorter than the drive out but an adventure but, occasionally, up and or down streets inadvertently taken as conversation interfered with driving . If I’d wondered how all five of us, plus our things, could fit, I hadn’t dealt with the largest Cadillac SUV made. What we also found was that Sam had never driven to Tom’s so had only a vague idea as to where it was. Mercifully, he did remember a large shopping mall quite nearby and, once we found that, we found his (former) home.

    His note to Tom was a kind of joint effort, each of us trying to think of words, phrases, kindly things that thanked him, expressed appreciation but…walked the line from sounding like either A. “Dear John” (Well, “Dear Tom”) and “Fuck You”. What we came up with was probably received in the mind of the recipient rather than the sender but we’d all meant well. And, as Yousi said, how grateful can you be to someone who let you earn your living sucking dick in a can at a pool hall? He had a point.

    Apparently when the Persians had told us they’d been forced to leave home with very little save for some ‘things’ from relatives, their cars not to mention all their clothes, jewelry (Every single piece of it real; If it looked like gold, it was gold etc.), ‘trinkets’ that could be sold for thousands of dollars….but the most important things, each other.

    Their home….paid for in cash as we were told….was an overbuilt ranch, five bedrooms, ditto baths, a pool, four car garage…you get the idea. At about five or six thousand square feet it seemed ‘cramped’ to them which only shows how one sees things can differ. That we would all be comfortable was beyond question what was less resolved was who was sleeping with whom. Yousi and Moma, obviously had the Master bedroom, but after that, their cheerful way of apportioning lodging was just to say, “Look around, when you find something you like, that’s yours.”

    For the first night it seemed best to take Sam, find a room with a either a large bed or twins or…. We found something that, might have seemed cramped to, say, Her Britannic Majesty, was more than adequate for the three of us. The bed? Well, I didn’t know they may sheets that would cover an 18 wheeler but, apparently, they did. Not to mention an overflowing of pillows, stacked blankets, a bench at the end, made to resemble something from a ranch where you’d remove your boots only ours would seat all the ranch hands….the word excessive comes to mind. Sam, somewhat in awe, wondered who in their right might built this sort of place? Maybe a rock star but here? And that’s before we opened the door to what I’d thought was a closet but found it accessed an indoor lap pool.

    Carter looked at me. “Jordan, when did we fall out the back door and into Oz?”

    Else where Sam had opened another door saying… “Guys, I think I found either the john or the locker room for the Broncos….”

    We wandered around opening doors, drawers, finding what amounted to a sitting room with an enormous television, theatre seating…eventually we just sat on the bench not certain what to do. Their hospitality was…overwhelming…a word that pretty much described everything they did. Their kindness, generosity, genuineness was….overwhelming simply  because there was no believing it wasn’t real.

    “Maybe….we should go find them…..?”

    “Okay, put Toto in the basket…”

    The three of us, very close together, started down a hall that, I assumed, ended in either a modified version of the Baths of Caracalla or the reception hall at Buckingham Palace.

    Turned out….neither. Great, smiling, black Persian eyes over….stark naked bodies….

    “The guy who does our pictures will be here pretty quick, c’mon, follow us to the studio.”

    I felt our career in porn was about to begin.


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  • Horny Twink Seeks Hot Sex with Truck Driver at Truck Stop

    Hi guys, my name is Eddie, a 5-foot and 6-inch tall twink weighing only 140 pounds that is constantly a horny slut looking for yet another big cock to drill my fucking white worn man pussy. Since my 18 birthday, I’ve been a bottom slut that has hosted over fifty cocks milking them dry of all their man seed. However, I’ve never had a hot truck driver that has been a fantasy of mine for years. I have had a strong urge to get bred by a cross country horny truck driver for such a long time.

    Two weeks ago I decided to set out on a cross country trip from New York City looking for hot men with a special mission to visit truck stops with the idea of getting a hook up with one of those manly truck drivers. 

    On my fourth day around 4:00 PM I arrived in Omaha, Nebraska and checked into a local hotel. After dinner, I asked the front desk clerk, a hot 20-something red headed hot dude, about events in  town. He shared with me that there was a big four-wheeler truck show at the fairgrounds. I became so excited and felt my cock begin to grow in anticipation of one of those dude’s hard cocks up my ass. He gave me directions and also said when you get back here maybe we could have a drink after I get off work. WOW, he was so hot but not a truck driver–maybe later.

    On my way to the event, I came up on a massive truck stop where I spotted at least 30 big four-wheeler trucks at the truck stop. I immediately became stone hard and horny as hell as I pulled into the truck stop. WOW, there had to be lots of fresh man meat there. Could I find a willing and horny trucker to bed me and give me their white thick semen?

    I parked my car at the edge of the truck stop and began to walk among the trucks looking for that special man. It seemed that most of the truckers were inside the restaurant having dinner.

    It was then that I spotted a handsome big blond guy in the cab of his huge red truck smoking  a cigarette and drinking a coke. Man, he was the perfect trucker that I had been dreaming about for years. I could see that he had  curly blond hair, deep blue eyes and very big arms and biceps showing from those short cut off sleeves. Filled with pure animal lust, I slowly approached his truck walking very slowly looking directly at him with my 7-inch cock at full staff showing through my cutoffs. I smiled at him and he gave me a huge smile and wink. Oh man was this really happening?

    The big dude leaned out his window ans said: “Hey sexy, you seemed turned on, wow look at that huge bulge in those short cutoffs. Why don’t you climb up into my cab and show me what you have in those shorts?”

    I’d never been hornier or more excited for a man as I opened the passenger’s door and got in. Oh my god, the big trucker had already dropped his pants and briefs around his ankles as he sat in the driver’s seat and had begun to jerk that massive thick dick that was at least 10-inch as those cum filled big balls flopped up and down. He had huge legs and massive thighs along with his horse cock. I was so aroused looking at that fat free muscled giant of a man. Then I began to think was this a mistake? Could I take that huge cock and have that hunk’s body on top of me? The guy had to weigh at least 260 pounds  with a ripped muscled body free of any fat. He could use that unnatural massive dick to destroy my ass. However, I had never desired to be fucked so bad.

    The dude took charge immediately and made it clear there would be no chatting or small talk but down to man sex at once. He looked into my brown lustful eyes with his piercing blue eyes and glared as if we were in the wilderness and I was some kind of animal that would be his prey for dinner. Man, it was so HOT.

    Then it happened as the brute ordered me to come down on his throbbign spewing precum cock head. “Hey you little slut whore, come over here  and give big Daddy a hot blowjob, you cock sucker. I can see you want Daddy’s fresh meat and all my juicy cum. Now bitch, you’ve got to swallow all Daddy’s big fresh meat deep in that sexy throat. I know you want it bad. Daddy has not had any man sex in two weeks. I’m really fucking horny, do you understand bitch?”

    The big Daddy looked to be no more than 40-years-of-age with such a manly look. I cautiously lowered my head and watering mouth tackling that awesome dick. Holy shit, the dude used his big hands on the back of my head to drive my mouth and throat on that throbbing leaking  giant of a cock. Within seconds his rock hard cock was all the way to the back of my throat leaving me only able to get my breath through my nose that was being tickled by his blond pubic hair while his giant balls hit my chin.

    Oh my god, I was in heaven smelling his hot crotch and tasting that hard cock shaft and salty precum. As I went wild sucking that hammer of a cock trying to satisfy that trucker who had been without sex for a couple of weeks , my cock was aching trapped in my briefs. I sucked his cock with increasing speed as I managed to release my pulsating leaking cock.

    I sucked that man meat as the dude continued to push my head on to his stone hard tool. After I had been sucking and devouring the best meat I had ever sucked  for at least 7-minutes, I realized I was doing a great job when he said: “FUCK YEA YOU WHORE, man you’re one experienced cocksucker, this is not your first rodeo sucking cock is it, slut? You can take more cock than any of those big truckers that have given me many blowjobs and just think you’re only a fucking cute twink. Man, I’m ready to come. Do you want my cum down your throat. you little bitch?”

    Man I love dirty talk as it was obvious the trucker did also. That set us both off as I felt my cum leave my balls and rush up my cock shaft at the same moment that the dude exploded in my throat. I’d never had a guy shoot such a massive load of semen before. In fact, I almsot drowned from the flood of cum he shot and soon at least 80 per cent of that cum ran out of  my mouth and covered his big dick. My cum blasted all over his crotch and thighs. His cum was thick and very salty—he must be a big meat eater.

    As I came off his still hard cock, I thought we were done. I felt spent. But no the sex manic took me to the back of the truck compartment, ripped off my clothes and removed his clothes from his ankles and had me lay down on my back, spread my legs as he got down and drove his mouth and tongue into my asshole. He began the wildest and  most wet sucking of my ass. WOW, he began the most wild rim job of my life. He showered my ass entrance with gobs of wet spit and began to clean my already clean ass as if I was a car at a car wash. I bucked and moaned with ultimate pleasure. I knew he was preparing my worn ass for that giant cock.

    After a long awesome rim job, I watched as he lowered his huge frame down on me as I felt his stone hard cock head part my ass lips and with a mighty thrust he buried that massive tool deep in my ass. Using his huge hips, ripped thighs and legs, he began to fuck the hell out of my man pussy. Oh what a fuck. I was able to take that missile only because my ass had been host to at least fifty other man dicks. Man the onslaught was on. I felt his magic cock massage my prostate, his red hot cock pushed out my ass walls like never before and soon he used the technique of taking that dick all the way out of my ass and then thrust it all the way back in with one thrust. WOW, the feel of my man pussy being used that way had me hard again.

    The dude grunted like a wild bore as he fucked me for the longest time while I put my hands on his huge hips and bucked my ass up to meet his manhood. The feel of pleasure  was beyond description. We both were sweating like two dogs in heat. Then I felt his cock head swell inside me, his breathing became rapid and he gave one more mighty thrust as he erupted with again a huge load of cum this time in my ass. The feel of his warm cum filling my ass caused me o shoot my second load between our hot bodies. There was the smell of warm cum in the air. 

    The giant dude and hot truck driver pulled out that still hard cock and had me suck it clean. Oh man, the taste of that thick juicy cum was salty but so good. The stud went back down on my ass and sucked his cum out of my ass and ate it. He seemed to love cum as I do.

    He embraced me for a few minutes before he said: “Well you little slut that was great sex. And thanks for helping me get my protein for the day and dumping my load after two weeks. Now get dressed you slut and get out of here. I’m behind schedule for my next delivery. But thanks for the nice man pussy. Maybe I’ll see you again as I come through here once a month.” 

    As I left, I did not tell the big dude this was not my hoemtown and that I’d be on the road seeking more hot man cocks. Now satisfied with my first big trucker’s cock, I walked away back to my car limping with a sore ass. Oh yea, maybe that hot red head at the hotel was waiting for me? I no longer needed to hunt for a trcuker’s cock as I was now satisfied. HAPPY ENDING !!!!!

  • Mutual attraction in the park

    Toronto was burning bright under the Spring sun. The last snow patches had melted. After the exercise program in his seniors’ residence, Paul decided to go for a walk and ended up in St. James Park. The daffodils were in full bloom and the tulips burgeoning. But Paul noticed more a young guy approaching him. He smiled and continued to walk slowly, but then turned around to find out that this cute dude had also turned around. They were drawn to each other.

    – Would you like to sit down and chat with an old man?
    – You are not an old man, you are a matured handsome man.
    – Thank you. And what is the name of this cute pink face with sweet red lips?
    – My name is Yurochka, I’m a Russian tourist in an organized group visiting Canada, but we have a free afternoon today. You can call me Yuri. What is your name?
    – I’m Paul, born in this province, Ontario, and I’m a writer?
    – Do you write love poems?
    – No, I prefer short stories of men loving men. I think you also like that… Am I right?
    – Yes, 100%, but in Russia gays are not well treated. It can be quite dangerous.
    – Here you can live openly, kiss in public, even get married legally. How old are you, Yuri
    – I’m 29 but I don’t have much experience with men. And you, Paul, you look like 50.
    – I’m 59, in fact, and I have a lot of experience, willing to share with handsome dudes like you.

    As Paul mentioned that, he put his hand on Yuri’s thigh and exerted a light pressure. Yuri smiled and sat closer to Paul. An electro-sexual shock occurred, each man feeling a jolt in the groin. Paul had always preferred sex with younger guys that he could initiate… not to say dominate. He did not loose time and invited Yuri to his apartment. “This young guy has an angel face but he will become a sexy demon in my arms”, thought Paul.

    As soon as they entered the penthouse loft, Yuri noticed the homoerotic pictures on the wall. Paul had obviously a fetish for guys in jockstraps, tight faded jeans, leather gear and even rubber. Yuri was glad that he had worn his blue jeans which were getting tighter because of a growing bulge. Paul invited him to cuddle on the love seat and slowly started to kiss him. Canadian embrace, Russian moans of pleasure.

    Paul whispered a suggestion in Yuri’s ear, softly biting it. The reaction was a green light for the bedroom.

    – You can call me Daddy.
    – Do you see me as your son?
    – No, more like my God-Son.
    – Thank you for such a hot compliment. You can do what you want with me, Daddy.

    Paul brushed crotch to crotch with his God-Son, then grabbed his firm round ass in blue jeans and started to spank it lightly. Yuri was taken aback at first – he had never imagined this – but found it erotic. Daddy slapped a little harder in the groin, triggering three supplications from his adorable Russian partner: “Can you lick me? Can you suck me? Can you fuck me?”

    The king-size bed had now become an arena of man-to-man pleasure, an altar of Virility. Paul and Yuri both undressed, kissed again, and positioned themselves for a hot 69 encounter.

    – I really like your uncut dick. It is no nice to see the pink mushroom come out at the tip of your hard rod.
    – Can I come in your mouth, Dad?
    – Not now, Son, I first want to rim you.
    – What is that?

    Daddy did not have to explain in words. He just had to slide his tongue on Yuri’s cock, balls and ass crack to reach the anus. “In French, we call it rosette or rose bud.” Yuri was initiated to rimming with frenzy and was ready to explode. “Wait, I want to drink your nectar!” Back to the 69 position, both had a succulent milky drink. 100% homo!

    The Canada-Russia exchange was not over yet. Paul and Yuri cuddled on the bed, embraced warmly, kissed passionately, with the result that the young Yuri proudly exhibited another hard-on. This time, Paul wanted the whole glorious rod up his ass.

    – It’s now your turn to rim me, Son. Get my rosette real wet with your tongue, then stick your gun in it. I’m ready for a hold-up!
    – I’ve never done this before, Dad, but I’m willing to learn.
    – You look and sound like an angel, but deep inside, I know that you’re a Gay Demon.

    No sooner said than done. Yuri didn’t know that a clean but sweaty shit hole could smell and taste so good. It energized his rod and, encouraged by Paul, he spit on his firm dick before shoving it in Paul’s tight ass hole, slowly at first, then powerfully. In no time, Paul was hearing what sounded like a foreign language, no doubt Russian words: Черт, это так хорошо! He did not need to ask for a translation because Yuri alternated with “Fuck, this is so good!”


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  • Box Shaped Heart

    Epilogue

    “Do you realize we are practically hiding in a closet?” Carter snickered.

    Aron hushed him.

    “They’ll find us,” his husband reproached.

    “Of course they will,” Carter said matter-of-factly. “They have the dog with them. They’re already tracking us as we speak.”

    “The fact that you’re making so much noise is not helping,” Aron glared.

    “Okay, okay,” Carter agreed.

    They stood in silence for a couple of seconds. There was no noise from outside. Well, they had found the perfect hiding place, in the closet under the stairs in Aron’s folks’ house. Great, they could relax a little.

    “So,” he whispered, getting close to his husband, “what’s up?”

    Aron circled his waist with one hand.

    “Are you sure you want a honest reply to that? Because I know exactly what’s up right now, seeing that we’re all alone, in a confined place, and I only have to lean in like this, and kiss you.”

    Carter was pretty certain that they were going to smooch each other so loudly that their trackers were going to find them any moment now.

    “So, should we schedule a date for tonight? After 10 am, when everyone’s finally asleep, just you and me, the dads’ bedroom, and a bottle of wine?” Aron nuzzled his neck.

    “I’d rather have a beer,” Carter protested. “Haven’t had one in a while. Why am I always the designated driver?” he faked complaint.

    “Because the kids prefer your driving style for some reason.”

    “Well, I do take them everywhere they want,” Carter pointed out.

    “Yeah. You’re soft,” Aron chuckled.

    “Someone’s got to be. Hey, it’s like I’m the good cop, and you’re the bad cop!” Carter exclaimed.

    His husband hushed him with another kiss.

    Then, Aron stopped and frowned.

    “Hey, why am I the bad cop?”

    It was Carter’s turn to laugh.

    “Frankly, I think they are a tiny bit afraid of you. Deidre told her friends in kindergarten that her dad is as big as a mountain. And that her daddy, aka me, is just a little smaller. Of course, that was an exaggeration. But they believed her.”

    “I don’t think they are afraid,” Aron glared.

    “They are. Although you wouldn’t believe Freddie and what kind of explanations he’s coming up with for your behavior.”

    “My behavior?” Aron exclaimed.

    This time, Carter hushed him.

    “It’s okay. They need the ground rules,” Carter whispered, sneaking his hands under his husband’s t-shirt.

    Even in his forties, Aron still had the same awesome hard body. Carter could feel himself drooling.

    “Well, if it were after you, we would all sleep in the same bed and have the dog on top of us all. We would have zero sex life,” Aron said, but Carter knew him well enough to notice the bubble of laughter underneath it all.

    “Good thing I have you to play the bad cop role. I would never be capable of doing that,” Carter mumbled, his attention arrested by the hard planes of Aron’s torso. “And I would not like a zero sex life either.”

    “Hey, don’t you think they should have found us by now?” Aron caught his hands and listened intently. “What do you think they’re up to?”

    Carter sighed.

    “I bet they came up with some plan of dragging us out of our hiding place. I’m sure Freddie said something like ‘oh, let’s just let them get bored and hungry, and they will come out’. Yeah, I think so.”

    “That boy,” Aron laughed. “I swear he’s smart beyond his years. And I know someone who’s exactly like that.”

    “Or he’s just counting on his own experience of playing hide and seek,” Carter continued his train of thought. “He’s the one who got bored and hungry and came out of his hiding place, after we almost turned the entire place upside down searching for him that one time when we played at home.”

    Aron nodded with a smile.

    “Should we play along?”

    “Yeah,” Carter admitted. “We’ll have plenty of time to play adult games tonight. Plus, I don’t want to miss the chance of getting out of the closet together with my husband,” he linked his fingers with Aron’s.

    Aron beamed at him.

    “I’m sure they have already forgotten about us, but, yeah, how could I skip that?”

    ***

    “Where is Freddie?” Carter asked his mom, the moment they were out in the yard.

    “He is busy inspecting the place. I think he is currently interested in dendrology,” his mother pointed out at the boy now carefully looking at the big oak overlooking from their yard into the Ruskins’ lawn. “Just make sure he doesn’t climb it like you did back in the day,” she wagged the finger at him.

    Carter just laughed and waved. But seriously, he wasn’t going to let Freddie give him a heart attack like he had probably given his mom that day.

    “Hey, buddy,” he called and their son turned to look at him.

    “Grandma was talking to granny and telling her that this tree has a hell of a story to tell,” Freddie pointed out at the old oak, somewhat accusingly. “Do trees tell stories? Do they talk?”

    Carter moved to stand side by side with the boy.

    “Did grandma said ‘hell’?” he eyed Freddie, and the boy just looked away and shrugged.

    It was clear that the matter of talking trees was much more interesting than whatever lecture his daddy had in store for him.

    “Okay, I can tell you that story. But let me tell you a secret,” he caressed the boy’s head. “That was just the beginning.”

    “The beginning? I want to know the end,” Freddie replied.

    “Hmm, are you still looking at the end of books first? I told you’re ruining all the fun that way,” Carter said, but he was not really scolding Freddie.

    After all, he was doing exactly the same thing. Even now, as a complete grown up, married with children.

    “I can tell you the end,” he said with a smile.

    Freddie turned to stare at him. Carter took his and Aron’s son by the shoulders to guide him back to the big table where everyone, from three generations, was gathered around. Aron was bouncing Deidre on one knee, making their little girl squeal in delight, while the two grandmas were debating what to bring first, and the grandpas were absorbed with talking about the last night’s game.

    Aron looked at him and smiled. The biggest smile in the world on the most beautiful face Carter had ever seen in his entire life, with no chance of having anyone surpass that in a thousand years or all eternity. He wasn’t sure.

    “So, dad, the end? The story?” Freddie pulled at his sleeve.

    “Ah, that’s easy,” Carter caressed their son’s head, and took in once more the family picture in front of his eyes, especially Aron playing with their daughter. “The end is … And they lived happily ever after.”

    THE END


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  • Vacation sex in Spain

    So we were walking home when JJ pinned me against a wall in a narrow alley kissing me and touching me all over. I quickly pulled away not trying to get a boner in the streets from his soft lips and tongue exploring my mouth while his hands are roaming my body like an exploring mission.  

    Out of nowhere, the neighbour comes down the street just as we are getting away from each other, he gives a cheeky smile and moves along. The neighbour is really cute, from previous encounters I know him to be a bit older (around 30ish) however he has these dark black curly hair and thin pink lips with a cute smile and being a local he was in very good shape. He had strong legs and toned arms with the occasional hint of six-pack abs showing through his tight shirts. His butt was small and round in a cute almost schoolboy like way. Anyway back to business so we were walking to the house, open the gate going inside when the moment JJ close’s the front door behind me he grabs me from behind and picks me up throwing me on the sofa getting straight on top of me passionately making out.

    His tongue parts my lips like mosses parted the red sea, with so much force yet still being so gentle and caring. He attempts to remove his shirt yet fails and falls onto the floor with his fast-paced almost violent attempt to tear it off, we both start laughing I was looking into his eyes piercing green and telling him to keep it down what if the neighbours hear us. I got up from the couch and stood over him attempting to pull him up he pulls me down and I fall on top of him with my leg forcefully moving the living room table out of the way. We continue making out and then I took off my shirt and we were chest to chest bare our bodies touching and our hard cocks fighting to join the party. That’s when we decided to get up and get out of our clothes. So I got up and kicked off my shoes stumbling slightly as I almost lose my balance but grabbing onto the dining room table to stop me falling then I loosened my belt bending forward to pull my jeans over my feet, when suddenly JJ was pressing his huge hard 11 inch cock straight up against my ass kissing my arching back. I just got upright as I turned around to face him I noticed there was a familiar face staring at us through the glass front door, with his cock out and masturbating as he was clearing been staring a while at us.

    It was the cute neighbour from next door, I pushed JJ back and went to open the door having my erect cock showing and all. I opened it to which Javier replied “Sorry but your making a bit of a noise and I couldn’t help to come to check it out, and my girlfriend has been away for almost two weeks now, my blue balls are killing me” “We can help you out with that if you can keep this discreet?”  I responded. “Hey I am open to any help and my lips will be sealed, around your cock, so I won’t talk.”

    I put my hand forward grabbing him by the cock pulling him inside the moment the door slams shut we were ripping his clothes off to reveal a young looking perfectly hairless guy, except for his cock trail and armpits, showing his swimmers body with cute pecs, and abs that were carved from rock, with his cute butt.

    JJ went straight down to his cock and he was average flaccid but definitely a grower at 14 inches erect. I started making out with those pink little lips while staring into his hazelnut brown eyes running my one hand through his hair the other over his butt. He pulled away telling me “I always had a fantasy of being roasted like a little whore or in between two studs sandwiched in an orgasm.” With that JJ and I looked at each other and smiled with him getting up from his knees leading taking Javier by the cock leading him to our bedroom, I followed right behind touching and slapping his cute ass as we go up the stairs.

    Getting into the room we all fell onto the bed and started sucking on a dick to prepare for the wet penetration that was about to follow. I started sucking Javier running my hand all over his body, with him being force-fed JJ’s cock down his tiny mouth, while JJ was sucking me good running his tongue around my head lubing me up good. Javier started leaking precum which was a sign that he was ready, with that JJ went to lie on the edge of the bed on his back. Javier quickly reached for the bedside table to which we had a quick response “We going bare honey, ain’t no condoms in this house” “Ok but go slow you guys are huge and I haven’t had anything inside me in a while”. ” We’ll be gentle ok but you can be hard, I want your dick all the way inside me and my lover and dump your cum in us, ok?” JJ replied. 

    We moved into place he put his dick against JJ’s hole and with one quick jab went all the way in. JJ moaned in pleasure as he stated moving in and out slowly. I got up behind him with my wet cock and started pressing against his very tight hole, slowly applying more and more pressure until I popped the head inside, he screamed in pain from my big cock but I just started slowly pushing in more and more and his screaming turned into moaning with pleasure. I moved in and out slowly until we were in sync he started moaning faster and I could feel his ass tighten and tense around my cock edging me but he shot his huge load rope after rope into JJ making him moan in pleasure as the hot liquid covered his internals, “It’s my turn now” JJ said with that he push Javier forward until he was all the way on top of him letting his wet cock pull out and onto his abs coating it with cum. He pushed his dick past until I could feel it against mine pushing against Javier’s hole to expand, Javier, screamed in pain and bit a love bit of great notice into JJ’s upper shoulder, while we both entered him, his hole subsiding and expanding tightly against our double penetration. We started fucking him until we couldn’t hold back and we both shot our loads into this cute schoolboy ass, JJ pulling out letting the hot white cum run down his ass and legs, some covering JJ’s balls as Javier is on top of him.

    Javier, in turn, got up and placed me on top of JJ pushing his huge cock against my ass going inside and fucking me violently while JJ and I make out covered in the cum from this love fest. Until Javier emptied his final load into my ass he fell on top and we lied there carefully rolling onto our sides his cock in me and me placing mine into JJ fucking him again shooting an orgasm into him we lay there dicks inside each other and fell asleep with the smell of cum, sweat and love in the air.

    Then we got awoken by my friend walking up the hallway and pushing open the door to our love nest discovering what I imagined looked like a frat house cum party…….

  • Scruffy’s First Time

    It was a particularly warm day when Dæmon and I decided to try something new. I went to pick him up and bring him back to my place. I was both excited and scared all at the same time.

    “You ok?” Dæmon asked, nudging me with his arm.

    “Yea, just really excited,” I said laughing.

    Dæmon is my best friend. We dated for a little while, but ultimately decided that friends was better for us. But that doesn’t mean we don’t play around or course. We pulled into the driveway and I checked to make sure that no one was home. Once we established the house was empty, we went to my room. Dæmon immediately shifted in to Dom mode.

    “Strip. To your underwear,” He said. I did as he said. “Come here.” He commanded as he sat down on the bed. I walked over to him. I was wearing my red bikini brief underwear. He grabbed my waist and slapped my ass hard. “You know what this color does to me.”

    “Thats why I wore them,” I snickered. He slapped my ass again. I love when he does that.

    “You are in trouble.” He said. He got up and grabbed the blindfold off my dresser. He tied it tight around my eyes and I chuckled. He put his hands on my shoulders and pushed me to my knees. “Take them off.” He commanded. I took his underwear off and didn’t even wait for the command. I took his cock right into my mouth. Sucking as hard and fast as I could. He was moaning in pleasure. I kept sucking and sucking, using my tongue all over his shaft and head making him groan. He put his hand on the back of my head and pushed it all the way down. His dick was fitting perfectly into the back of my throat. He let go and I let him out of my mouth. He grabbed me and pulled me into a kiss.

    “You did a good job.” He said. “Sit back on your knees and put your hands out in front of you.” I did as I was told. “I got you a little present.” He said. I felt something slip over my hands, and I heard a locking sound. He took the blind fold off and I looked down. My hands were in leather mitts that looked like dog paws. He then walked behind me and put a collar around my neck.

    “Now roll on your back,” He told me. I did so. He grabbed my ankle and tied some rope around it. Then he took the rope and tied the other end to my thigh. He did the same to my other leg. “Now roll back over.” I did and was only able to walk on my knees and hands. I was forced to walk on all fours… like a dog. He then grabbed the duct tape out of my night stand. “You ready pup?” He asked. Not even waiting for my response, he slapped the end of the tape across my mouth and wrapped it around my head twice. Oh no… My dick started to get hard. Maybe he won’t notice.

    “Well well, what do we have here?” He smirked. Crap.He reached down and grabbed my bulging cock. I moaned from behind the tape. “We will get to that. But we gotta get you ready first.” He let go of my dick and walked over to the bed. He pulled my pup hood out from drawer and walked over to me. “Now sit up.” He said in a commanding tone. I did as I was instructed and he slipped the hood over head. “Now Scruffy is complete!” He exclaimed, but then had a look on his face. Then it was like a light bulb went off. He walked back over to his bag, and pulled something out, but kept it behind his back.

    “Turn around Scruffy, and get that perky butt up in the air!” He said. Doing the spinning motion with his hand. I did as I was told. He pulled my underwear down just off my ass and he smacked my ass.

    “Mph!” I whined. He ran his hands over his hand print.

    “Here’s your surprise!” He said. I felt him shove something in my hole.

    “MPHHHH!” I moaned. I turned around and looked at my ass. There was a long silicone tail sticking out of it. I wiggled my ass and the tail slapped back and forth.

    “Thats a good boy,” Dæmon said. His cock was still rock hard, and all my holes were officially plugged up. What is he gonna do to me? I wondered. “Now be a good boy and wag that tail for me.” He said, sitting down at my desk. I turned around and stuck my tail up in the air. I wagged my new tail, and my dick was also wagging. It was hard as a rock and I wanted him to touch it so bad.

    “Good boy Scruffy, now come here,” He said. I walked on all fours over to him, and just looked up at him. “You want me to fuck you?” I nodded. “Tell me”

    “Mpph Mphhh Mpppph!” I whined and whimpered through my gag. I felt so helpless and I loved it. Please fuck me Alpha.

  • Finally meeting up with a guy I met online

    I was 27 year old and he was 47. We met on a gay online dating site. I’ve always been attracted to older men. I don’t know just something about them turns me on. As I browsed through the profiles (daddies) in particular I sent messages to a few of them and none had responded. Until like a month later I decided to jump back online and check if anyone had messaged me. 

    Sure enough I received a message from a older white man who was looking to meet up at his place. We chatted about what we were into and what we liked. I myself was a bottom who loved pleasing older men and he praised me for that. He was a power top who loved young men. 

    We tried to make it happen but everytime one of us was busy and it never happened. We ended up disconnecting over and we didn’t hear from each till two years later. Since then I’ve sucked guys off at the local adult theater none never wanted to fuck which is want I wanted so bad. 

    I decided to jump back online to see if I can find someone who wanted to fuck. Sure enough there he was I messaged him and he responded fast. I asked him if he had any free time to fuck and he replied come over. I got off work and was headed to his house. Shaking I pulled up to his house he was outside with his dogs I introduced myself and we walked in his house. 

    Sweaty from work I asked if I can take a quick shower to freshen up he lead me to the restroom and I jumped in the shower. Moments later he joined me in the shower. His cock looked amazing already hard he was about 8inches long nice big balls. He hugged me from behind and kissed my back and rubbed his cock in between my ass cheeks. He turned me around a gave me a long passionate kiss. Then I licked all the way down to those 8inches. 

    I licked the tip and all the way down his shaft came back up and sucked on the tip. Then started to suck on his beautiful cock. He grabs the back of my head and face fucks me which is what I love. holds my head tight down on his cock I thought I was gonna suffocate on his cock until he pulled out and said let’s make our way towards the bed baby. As we walked towards still wet from the shower my hand on his cock he kissed me again and tossed me on the bed and said get doggy baby. 

    Lost in pleasure I did as I was told. Ass up in the air I felt his tongue eat me out like no other. I was Heaven his tongue felt so amazing in and out my tight hole. He stopped and next I felt his cock head pressing against tight hole. As he was sliding in i felt alot of pain and ecstacy all at the same time. 

    He would slide in inch by inch till he was all the way in. Hurting like hell he kissed my back and told me breath and relax baby the pain will go away. I closed my eyes and felt his cock slowly come out the right back in he did this for 5 minutes to loosen me up. Then grabbed my hips and fucked me like I was a little slut. He pinned me down and put all his body weight on me and fucked me hard. I couldn’t move I was his fuck toy till he was done. 

    I felt his cock head big to swell deep inside me as well heard his breathing start increasing. He got back up and slapped my ass and kept fucking me fast and grabbing my ass cheeks. His load was so much he left it all deep in side me. He turned me over and stuck his cock in mouth and said clean daddy up baby. I did what I was told. We kissed and I thanked him for finally full feeling my one need. He said let’s not make it two years till we meet up again baby. 

    I got dressed cum still in me we kissed he lead me to the door and said till next time baby. I walked to the car happy and cum dripping down my leg. BEST FEELING EVER. 

    THE END


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  • The Start

     

                     The Start: Final Chapter.

     

     

                          From your Author:

     

           Yes, we have come to the end. This chapter is over ten thousand words and twice as long as the others. I would like to thank all those who commented, emailed me, and everyone who rated. A special thanks to Eddie.

           I’ve had readers say my chapters have a soundtrack and this chapter has some good music. In the end, I will ask you a question and I really need an answer. Enjoy.

                            Rick’s POV:

     

           Life was good. Yeah, the shooting and all, but, life’s good. Dean and I haven’t talked but I talk to Max every day. He and Jeff are helping to take care of Donny. I guess I was lucky because I wasn’t drug into the news stuff. I had done a stint with AB&F but, I’d landed a spot on a soap opera.

           I was one of those kids that went upstairs in diapers and came back down all this and then some. My character had attitude. OK. I was a whore. In my first three seines, I fucked two sisters that would come out later as my cousins and one was pregnant.

           I was fucking the hell out of one of the girls on the show as well as a guy who did makeup.

    Now I prefer to bottom but this guy wanted an aggressive top and I knew I needed to clean up my act if I wanted to keep working.

           The night I told him it was over he got the most aggressive top I could muster. It made me mad. I wanted what I had with Dean and this wasn’t me. I wanted to hold on and be ridden to orgasm then cuddled; not have to chock this guy on my dick, and I did chock him.

           I did the grossest thing I could think of and pulled my slimy and shit covered dick from his ass and shoved it down his throat then wiped it off on his face telling him we were through and kicked him out of my trailer.

     

            

                                Niki’s POV:

     

           We were still busy but with Dean breathing down my neck I was ready to blow. “Dean, maybe you should take a pill?” I said to him. That did not go over well. Think before you speak, Niki.

           “That’s your fucking answer for everything, isn’t it Niki? Give poor little Dean a pill.” He growled at me. He had just stopped. He was breathing hard and I saw him fighting tears.

           I handed him a notebook. “If you can’t use your words; just go sit in the tub and write.” It wasn’t a request. He looked at me. I pointed my finger and he walked into the bathroom.

           It is not like Dean was there during the shooting and all but, he was suffering. He did have PTSD from finding Rick, and he heard all of this on the phone. I don’t know how much time passed before he came out. I saw him put his coat on as he threw me the notebook I gave him and walked out of the room before I could ask him where he was going.

                               I didn’t know:

     

           I didn’t know when I opened my eyes this morning; I didn’t know.

           

           I didn’t know riding to school with my friends this morning; I didn’t know. I didn’t know.  

           

           I didn’t know what was happening when the shots rang out; I didn’t know. I didn’t know. 

     

           I didn’t know, I didn’t know, I didn’t know.

     

           It’s quiet now and I’m on the floor; I didn’t know. I didn’t know.

     

           I’m looking at the face of a girl I didn’t know. I didn’t know.

     

           I can’t move and the girl I didn’t know was still looking at me: she hadn’t blinked. I didn’t know.

     

           Things are happening around me but I can’t hear them: I see people moving; I didn’t know.

     

           Everything is red and I didn’t know. 

     

           I’m cold and the girl I didn’t know is still looking at me: I didn’t know.

     

           I’m sorry; I didn’t know.

     

           ‘I wish I was dead’ was the last thing I said to you last night, Mom. I didn’t know. I didn’t know, Mom. 

     

           I didn’t know. I didn’t know. I didn’t know. 

     

           I woke up this morning and didn’t know it would be the last time I woke up. I didn’t know. I didn’t know. I didn’t know.

     

           I’m sorry my friends: I didn’t know. 

     

           I do, and will always, remember you. I didn’t know.

     

           I didn’t know the last time I saw you would be the last. I didn’t know. I didn’t know. I didn’t know.

     

           I read it over and over. I took a picture of the page and sent out a mass text. Responses’ came one after another along with calls. Elton was saying, ‘Let me see what I can do.”

           Barry said, “Give me a day.”

           I went to find Dean. I didn’t have to go far. He sat just outside the Mayflower; off Central Park. I sat down next to him as he stared at nothing. He didn’t look at me but his hand reached out and I took his in mine and kissed it. “Dean.”

           “I did know Niki. I knew what was going on and I didn’t do anything. I’m trying to rationalize it all away thinking, I’m just a kid. Who is going to listen to me? If I’d of had the balls and stepped up for Donny a long time ago things might be so… different today.”

           “Dean, you can’t do this to yourself. You didn’t know this would happen. You didn’t know. Just accept that you didn’t know.”

           Dean hadn’t been home in a month and a half. He asked for a tablet when we came back from England and that had kept him off my back a little. I would watch him sitting with his knees pulled up, tablet in front of him, and headphones on.

          

           He was doing something. “Niki? I think it’s time for me to go home.” He finally told me out of the blue. I know my mouth was open and then he got up and sat next to me. “You know when things like this happen radio stations have a list of songs they won’t play. How fucked up is that? They have a list because it happens all the time anymore.”

           He put his headphones over my ears and hit play on his tablet and walked to the window. I recognized the music and the screen filled with birthing pictures and hospital nurseries. ‘The first time ever I saw your face.’ At first, I thought how inappropriate, because of the way he sang it to me, and then I really thought.    

           Random pictures of mothers and fathers seeing their child for the first time ran across the screen.

           “I thought the sun rose in your eyes and the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave to the dark and lonely skies, my child.”  

     

           Dean had changed the lyrics and sentiment to mean something totally different than the words he sang to me. His face was to the glass and he didn’t turn around to look at me.

           “The first time ever I kissed your skin.” I watched pictures of women nursing for the first time; of baby holding moms finger for the first time. I started to cry because I knew what he was going to do.

           ‘I felt the earth move in my head like the trembling heart of a captive bird.” Pictures of babies faded in and out. “That was there at my command, my child. That was there at my command. Dean had turned now and was looking at me.

           “And the first time ever you lay on me. I felt your heart so close to mine, mine.” I had tears running down my cheeks and a smile on my face. I stood walking over to him tucking my head under his chin and just listened to the end in the headphones holding him.

           “Do you think this is a good idea, Dean?” I asked wondering what going home would mean considering what he wanted to do.

          

                                    Wet      

     

           “I have to go home, Niki. It’s been too long. We all need to heal.” I know he was seeing my fish-face.

           “What do you want, Dean?” Two hours later he gave me my marching orders.

           He had given me a directive. ‘Do you think anyone will come?’ he finally asked thinking of his request. I had a fuckin week. “Niki will do, what Niki does best, Farmboy. This is going to cost you.” And I put his phone to work.

           It was June fifteenth and Dean’s return, that’s what it was. How many heartthrobs from North Dakota do you hear about? Oh yeah, and his school got shot up. He called it a reunion and I refused to give this potential fiasco a name. It was held at the same stadium where it all started with Rick. We’ll just call that, BN, before Niki.

           I told him I would do what I could, but. I did remember telling him a month ago, ‘they would move heaven and earth for you if they could.’ He really didn’t understand what that meant. I didn’t either. We both got schooled.  

          

           Four motor coaches pulled into the stadium and every person I had talked to or texted got off those buses; more even. Dean was in a locker room and saw none of this. He expected to go out alone because I couldn’t confirm or deny who, if, anyone, was coming.  

           If they needed to hate; he was willing to give himself as a sacrifice someone needed so the healing might start. He had prepared himself. So he thought.

           This morning was a sound check for him. It was just Dean and he sang acapella. You don’t even know what that’s like. He had NO idea how good he was. And I mean he was fuckin clueless. He could hold or hit a note not even knowing what note it was. He just kept asking me “what?” I didn’t know how to tell him or if I even should.

           I’m three years nine months older than Dean and we have rocked each other’s world once. Ok, three times the same night and that’s what I thought about during lunch at a fast food place. ‘Yes, Arby’s.’  

           Dean’s stress level started to rise. The building had filled to capacity and I went to get him. He was sitting in the far corner on the floor, head in his hands. When he heard me come in he stood giving me a smile like everything was fine. That was Dean. “Nice try, Farmboy.”

           I reached out and his chin rested on my shoulder. I kissed him behind the ear and told him, “You don’t have to do this, Dean.” And I could feel his chest shake and he put the headphones on. “I got this. Honest.” Fuckin liar.

           Dean was led to a stool in the dark. Like flashlight on the ground, dark. How fucking creepy. He had to be shitting bricks, I know I was. A single spotlight shined down on him as he sat looking at the floor. He thought he was surrounded by studio musicians along with school choirs and bands.  

           The light was on him and he couldn’t see anything. The screaming electric guitar played by Keith sounded and then stopped. I could hear the boos. Angry haters started screaming. As bad as it sounds, I wanted to fuckin kill people and I know I wasn’t the only one. I don’t think he could hear it. I hoped he couldn’t. His Mom did and I knew she wanted blood. I got your back, mom.

           His head moved back and forth as he settled into the sounds then he looked up to the light with his eyes closed. “We feel it in our fingers;” He started, reaching out. “We feel it in our toes.” 

     

           Dean stood never being able to sing sitting down. He wore a headset with a mic as he waved his hands around dramatically to the unseen audience with a smile and tears he didn’t hide. He had found a medium falsetto. This was way more than rehearsal. “Their love is around us, and so the feeling grows.”

           Dean can’t help but move when he sings and it is the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen. He doesn’t even know. I compared him to Michael Jackson when he said he was going to do one of his songs on the next album. It started a conversation.

           “You know, Niki, I’m a black or white kind of person, but; Take Michael for example; do I think he was a pedophile? Fuck yes I do. Was he a musical genius? Fuck yes he was, but that doesn’t give him a pass. He’s not a good example.”

           Now, I’m not religious, I am NOT religious. I could feel something, though. If I was in LA I would think an earthquake was going to happen any minute. That’s what it felt like.

     

            Dean continued. His voice was like a lonely echo with so… much heart. He was on the big screen and I could see his fear and the wet eyes I hoped everybody could see. His Mom hugged me.

           Flowers and little animals were on the screen behind him now along with old tractors, trucks, and miles of wheat fields. And the words to the song he was singing. This was a DC production. He’d planned everything. So he thought.

           He had rehearsed this and the other songs but he didn’t know who was backing him; if anyone. Niki, don’t let her boss down! And his friends don’t let him down, either.  

          

           I had never heard a sound like this come from him, not even in the tub. He looked into blackness as he poured his heart out. For the most part, it was still dark and Dean had no idea. He had this thing when he’d bend over and swing pushing more air out as he sang.

          

           “They wrote it on the wind.” I saw the recognition on his smiling face and he turned around hearing them in his headset. Lights slowly came on and his friends sang behind him. “It’s everywhere we go. Oh yes, it is. And if we really loved them; then now it’s time to let them go.” 

     

           Music continued to play as Dean greeted his friends singing and he moved from one to another. A kiss was planted to Keith’s cheek from behind as he played and he did the same to Elton with an ‘I love you.’ The high falsetto joined him. Barry. Grampy.

           It pained me to see him hurting but he did what he came here to do with such humility. This guy had raised half a billion dollars and he was humbled today, as I think they all were. It’s not right. I’ll never understand this backward State and the kids they raise.

           His Mom hugged me from behind. “You know we love you and always will; our minds made up by the way that we feel. There’s no beginning, there’ll be no end, cause on their love we can depend.’ This seemed to be going good.

     

           We see your faces before us as we lay crying on our beds. I kind of get to thinking of all the things you said; oh yes we do.” He was back on the big screen and tears rolled over his cheeks as friends gathered around and protected Dean as he cried and they sang for him.

           Dean’s friends, Whoopi, Tom, Keanu fuckin Reeves. Dwayne the Rock Johnson, Bon Jovi, Carol King. Just a few. The place held fifty thousand but the way it was set up probably thirty thousand people with a roped off section on the floor for three hundred or so.

           Security was tight. There was talk of Dean wearing a vest or a bullet-proof trench coat. He refused. A little girl, maybe five, slipped between the legs of a Police officer and ran towards Dean on the field. There was like a big gasp.

          

           He met her halfway and he’d stopped singing as he knelt in front of her. There he was on the big screen with this little girl in front of him so close we could all hear her in his mic. “Please don’t cry, Dean.” And she ran her small hands over his cheeks and the waterworks started as she hugged him.

           Music continued as the heart wrenching seen played out. Dean stood and she held her arms out and he picked her up and starting singing again with her little head tucked under his chin.  

     

           “You gave your promise to us and I gave mine. We need someone to promises too. I gave mine to you. We need someone beside us. It’s written on the wind. It’s everywhere we go.” Now came the hard part.

           “So if you really loved them, come on and let it show.” Dean was hoping for forgiveness for Donny. “Let it go. Let them go.”

     

           Dean had me make arrangements to have Donny’s Dad and Brothers cremated. We both knew that a funeral was out of the question and any kind of headstone would be vandalized.  They would just rest in plastic boxes.  

     

           I think after the first song the playlist went out the window. He did ‘Everybody Hurts’ with Kelly on one side and Pink on the other and then a voice just blew up. Josh Grobin. “Sorry I’m late, Dean.” He could definitely be Niki’s type. I saw an older version of Dean Cooper with messy hair.

          

           Most of the people from the Friends album were here and he did most of the tracks. ‘Bridge’ was making its way up the chart; Dean and John rolled out a live version. I knew we had to be getting close to the end; Dean hadn’t even had a drink of water. I saw him look at me and nod.

           What he’d done on his tablet had been loaded into the big screen. When I paused looking at him from a hundred feet away I understood he meant, now. I said into the headset I was wearing “OK”

           Dean sat next to Granny as he started to play. He stood and put his hands on Elton’s shoulders. ‘The First Time.’

           When it ended there was a long pause. Then people were on their feet and the place erupted. I wished it would have been me but his mom pushed me aside and walked out to Dean with a bottle of water. I heard her in his mic as she hugged him. “Who are you? And what have you done with my little boy???”

           “It’s me, Mom.” He said holding up his hand. “This came out of my dinger.” Showing off the stone he had mounted with diamonds surrounding it on his little finger. I think things might get better. People were still on their feet and I walked out to him as he watched me over his Mom’s shoulder. He kind of slithered from her and wrapped his arms around me and I felt the weight of him relax and I didn’t know if I could hold him.

           Some of his friends came and hugged the both of us, some went to the roped off section to meet families and survivors. There was no ego, no one wanting to be better than another, and honestly, they all knew nothing could meet or beat Dean’s passion. And so they didn’t even try.

           Dean was drenched. His hair was slicked to his head and drips were still falling from his chin. “Are you OK,” I asked?

           He nodded with his face in my neck. “Are you lying to me?” He nodded again and took a deep breath.

          

                              The next day

     

           It had gone viral. YouTube damn near crashed and Twitter was teetering. CNN, Fox, and local news had trucks outside the Lions in the morning. It had been a late night and I let Dean sleep as I worked out a schedule with the guys outside. I knew Red Bulls were ‘firing squad’ worthy, but.  

           When I went back up to the room it was full of his friends and Dean had pulled on a pair of jeans, commando. That’s it; I’m going to have to start wearing a pad all the time.

           It was like when I came in they all knew he had to follow up with what happened last night and the goodbyes didn’t last much longer.

           He looked at me across the room and curled his finger beckoning. He wrapped his arms around me and lightly kissed my neck. “You know I.” and I squeezed him so he’d stop talking. I felt him.  

           “Don’t spoil it, Farmboy. It’s ok.”

           “How did you manage all that, Niki?” he questioned.

           “All I did was ask, Dean. They did the rest. I think they like you. And that will be a thousand, hale Niki’s’” I finished.

           An hour later things had been set up in the lobby because Dean said he wouldn’t sit in a truck. Fox. Dean had never given them the time of day and he chose them first. The lawsuit was still pending.

           “Well, Dean, You look good.” The clown started. “That was quite a comeback you put on last night. Took everybody to church, didn’t yah?” as he kind of rocked his head back and forth.

           “Well, Dick, I didn’t know I had gone anywhere,” Dean said showing his teeth.

           “It’s Don, Dean. When I talked to your handler this morning she told me you planned all of this.” We were now on the downhill side of the ride.

           “First, Dick,” And he smiled showing those award-winning dimples. “Nobody handles Dean Cooper. Second, I do what I did last night and she did everything else. If not for Niki’s generosity we wouldn’t be talking right now, Dick.” And I thought I saw a smile forming on his face.

           “Yeah, it’s Don, Dean.” He started; sounding like a used car salesman. “I have to know? Whose idea was the little girl? That was the best stunt I’ve ever seen.” And the hint of a smile on Dean’s face faded.

           He held up a finger reaching into his pocket with the other hand pulling out his phone and acted like he was having a conversation. He asked, “Are you sure. He’s not going to like that.” And he put the phone back in his pocket.

           I don’t know how long it takes to blink your eyes but, I missed it. Dean leaned forward and slapped the guy so hard and so fast that all I saw was his head spin.

           Now it was pandemonium. Fox Live. Dick was standing screaming at Dean. “You hit me! You can’t hit me. Arrest him.” He said to the six cops that were standing around. None of them moved as Dean relaxed back in his chair.

           “Technically, I slapped you. That was your mother on the phone, Dick. She told me she’d raised you better and you needed a slap. I listen to every body’s mom.” And he kind of made a motion and Dick jumped back.

           “Sit down, Dick. You deserved that and you know it. Now to answer your question; I knew her big sister. I remember Amie when she was born. She has been comforting crying people for weeks and that is what she wanted to do for me. Happy, fuckin, birthday, Dick?” And he pulled the mic off standing then walked over to me. He looked back and gave Dick the finger.

          

           By the time he did CNN he’d watched the whole thing in slow motion with Don Lemon asking if Dean was going to hit him. “Only if you deserve it, Dick. Ok, I know; sorry, Don.” He said smiling reaching over to squeeze his shoulder.

           “Dean, not since Michael Jackson have so many superstars come out for someone. What do you attribute that too?”

           “I think they are all wonderful people. All Niki did was ask, Don, and they came.” Dean smiled at me.

           “Well, it seemed to me that they just wanted to shine a light on the real star of the night. That first song was your choice?” And Dean nodded.

           “I can safely say Dean, you were emotional. I totally get it. Amie’s big sister was your girlfriend up until last year, right? Julie, right?” And Dean nodded. “That little girl broke the hearts of millions Dean, including mine.”

           “Dean, I have to ask; why didn’t you come back for any of the funerals’? Why would you stay silent when those other networks said such awful things about you?” 

           “Well, Don. To answer your first question: it wouldn’t have changed a damn thing. I worked hard trying to stay focused and it just would have brought pain down on me even worse than I suffered. I spent time with Barry along with Elton and his family. Niki has been my rock.

           I think ‘my comeback’ as Dick called it, was the best I could do to help myself and everybody start to live with a big hole it their hearts.” And Don just kind of sat there with his mouth open a little.

           “And as for not engaging the haters; you saw what happened to Dick.” And they both laughed.

           “Dean, I would love to have you on my show or in my living room, I don’t care. I want to spend time with you just talking. I have a feeling there is more to, Dean Cooper, than meets the eye.” And he reached out and shook Dean’s hand and wished him an early Happy Birthday.  

           After interviews and two days of having dinner and supper with different families, I woke up to Dean getting dressed. He told me he had to go to Bismarck. I went everywhere with him and when he told me he was going alone I was surprised, to say the least.

          

           “Nikita wants some ‘Dean’ time. Don’t be jealous.”      

           Everything went crazy. Dollywood on his birthday was amazing. The Ghost album came out; Sony fast-tracked it, and Dean spent three months doing the follow up double album. And he was set to be a performer and presenter at the upcoming AMA’s. The talk was he would be receiving a few as well.

          

           I remember the date, August 8th. Dean was down to just two tracks left on the first side. He had talked JT into bringing Dream Works on board, despite the cost, and everything just fell into place. His last album with Sony would look like the original Star Trek compared to this one, The Next Generation.

           Dean came in and said he was taking me to dinner and we wound up at this little hole in the wall on the wrong side of town. When we walked in I thought he made a huge mistake. We were the only white people in the place. I took his hand like trying to tell him and this big black man came out. The closer he got his look didn’t change then a smile broke out on his face.

           “Pops,” and Dean’s arms opened up to hug the man who was wearing an apron covered in god only knows what.

           “Kid, you came back to see, old Pop’s?”

           “I didn’t come back here to see your ugly old ass. I came back for some of that slop you feed me the last time.” And they slapped each other on the back and he looked at me.

           Dean’s arm went around my waist and he pulled me close in a possessive kind of way. “This is Niki, Pop’s.” And I could tell he had pride in his voice introducing me.

           The big black man went to wipe his hands and I opened my arms and gave Pop’s a Niki hug. I’ve been told it’s something special. I had to play into whatever Dean was trying to pull on me.

           He kissed me on the top of my head before turning to the occupants’ saying, “Look, everybody. ‘The kid’ came to have dinner with us and this here skinny white girl is Niki. She’s family.”

           Dean took my hand pulling me to a table. “Ok, Dean, spill.”  

           “What?” he asked with dimples.

           “This here, skinny, white girl. Really? They do know you’re not black, right?”

           “From now on, you’re family. And that’s all that matters, Niki.”

           “Fox News says your doing drugs, Kid. That true?” an old man asked trying to stand.

           If you can imagine a ND boy trying to talk ghetto shit. “Whatcha talking bout, olman? Oh no, did they take your Wheel a Fortune and Jeopardy off the air and all you gots that shit? You know me better than that.” And Dean got up walking over to him.

           “Don’t you go getting all high and mighty on me, boy? I can open a can of whoop ass on you like you ain’t neverseen fore.” And he started to cough.

           “Sit your tire old ass down now fore you busts a hip.” And Dean helped him sit then kissed him on the head.

           He sat down in front of me straight-faced. Ok, I know how to play, Stare, too. Dean lost and I realized how much I loved his dimples.

           “Good one, Dean. Pat yourself on the back. You punked Niki. But I knew when we walked in. You paid everybody in here, didn’t you? There’s a camera, right? I’m not a fool, Farmboy.

           White folk don’t wander into an all-black restaurant and act like a raging horse’s ass and expect to walk out. And who are you trying to fool with that lingo anyway?”

           He ignored me. “What are we doing tomorrow, Niki? Fuck that. We need a break. Let’s take the week and just.” He stopped as he looked at me.

           “Just what, Dean?” I asked.

           “I really don’t want to have this conversation here, Niki.”

           “What conversation, Dean?” I really didn’t know.

           He leaned in, “Niki? You never told me if I was.” And he shook his head.

           “If you were what, Dean?” I couldn’t get a read on him at all.

           “Come on, Niki.” And he took in a deep breath blowing it out dramatically.

           “Words, Dean. I need more words.” I said a little too loud.   

           “You’re just going to make me say it, aren’t you?” he asked, bristling.

           “Dean? I don’t have a fucking clue what you’re trying to say.” And our food came.

           We started to eat. I just wanted more of whatever was on the plate. I started to ask what it was and Dean just shrugged. “OK. I don’t want you to go getting all constipated on me so why don’t you just ask whatever you want the answer to.”

           “When we were in London; you never said anything after.” He said with such question.

           I realized immediately. “Well, you didn’t either.” I returned as a defense.

           His hands went flat down on the table and he stood. “Come on Niki. Was I any good or not?” And you could have heard a pin drop.

           “I could ask you the same question.” as I threw my napkin on the table and stood leaning into him.

           “It’s not like I had anything to compare it to, Niki? At least you had.” My hand came up.

           “I swear I will cut you. Do you really want to do this now?” There were a lot of eyes on us.

           “You started it. Come on, Niki. You’re killing me here. I expected something, but nothing. I really thought I brought my A game.”

           “OK. I’m gonna give you a free card.” And I lowered my voice. “Dean, you took me there like five times. A swimming pool between my legs is something that’s never happened before. Are you fucking happy now?”

           “What’d she say,” the old man yelled out to the women sitting next to him?

           “She told’m he rocked her world in the sack.” She hollered back.  

           “So I was good???” Dean seriously asked ignoring the fact that everyone in the place was waiting? Eighteen years old and the smile and dimples were of a kid in a candy store.

           “Damn rights you were good, Kid. Jump back in there and get some more.” That old man with no teeth said.

           “Tell you what, Leroy. How about you worry bout what’s in your pants and leave me to take care of what’s in mine?” And he turned back to me.

           “Dean, I’ve only tasted your fruit once. To be fair, I think I need a few more bites. What about you?” I asked. I think I just got payback and he realized it.

           Dean and I just had a very private conversation in a restaurant. Dean took my hand when we were done and we engaged everyone. I really don’t see skin color and we spent thirty minutes just getting out of the place.  

           He told me we could go anywhere I wanted and we didn’t go anywhere. We spent five days in something deep: whether talking or making love. I really wish Dean would have been the guy to set the bar for the guys that got in my pants before him.

           Now I don’t know if it was because of his buddies; Dean is generous in bed. I guess he was right. He had nothing to compare to until now. And he took direction very well. We did what lovers on a vacation did when on vacation. I’m sure we tasted every inch of each other. Dean and I had London and we hadn’t come together like this in months. I actually thought he sampled the other fruit and made up his mind and didn’t know how to tell me. He hadn’t made up his mind but he was definitely not Gay. I had made up my mind too; I didn’t want to share him with another boy or girl. 

           I have to admit I put fingers in my ass when I masturbate but I was a virgin that way until now. I have heard about the bundle of nerves that men have but girls don’t have a prostate. The only thing I can think of was the position he held me. He had been pulling out and rubbing his wet self over both my holes.

           I gave him every signal I could think of until I just held him in place. His tool was wet and slippery. My knees were next to my head and Dean entered slow, dripping sweat down on me with a tick-tock rhythm. I can’t even describe what our orgasms were like. I realized no one would ever be able to meet the bar Dean Cooper had just set.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               When it ended Dean and I went back to how it was like nothing happened. Five days of Niki not answering her phone or returning emails meant I was swamped. Dean had missed five days of recording and was burning the candle at both ends.

           A month and a half had passed. It was ten days away and Dean was nowhere to be found. I woke up four days ago and he was gone with only the clothes on his back.

           For the last, while he’d piled on the work like it was a race and it was showing. He wasn’t sleeping well and refused the pills when I would, as gently as I could possible suggest. The answer was always no. I had no idea how he could fall off the grid like that; he was Dean Cooper, after all.

           I found him on the news. Well, it was on the news. Some parent was streaming a video of Dean at Seattle Children’s Cancer Center in Washington. He was blowing huge bubbles with sick kids singing Puff the Magic Dragon.

            I was so…happy and more pissed off than I had ever been. It’s not like I hadn’t thought of chipping him just for shit like this. Now what? I know where he is and I know he’s ok; what now? I paced back and forth. 

           I called the place. I’m not blond but I can turn it on when needed. “Hi, I’m like out in the parking lot. I kinda backed into a car. It’s a blue something with North Dakota plates. The license number is NIKITA. Could you maybe have the owner come out?” And I hung up and waited.

           I saw Washington flash on my phone and I answered. “Good one, Niki.” He said and I swear had he been in front of me I would have cut him.

           “Niki? Niki?”

           “What is wrong with you, Dean?” I finally asked.

           “Nothings wrong with me, Niki. I swear. I just wanted to visit some kids.” And then it dawned on me.

           I am smarter than he gives me credit for and I gobsmacked him. “I talked to your Oncologist.”

           “It’s against the fuckin law. He can’t tell you shit.” And I could hear him breathing in the phone.

           I’m sure his little light bulb just starting blinking. “Fuck.” I heard from his end.

           He caught me. “That’s the slimiest thing you have ever done tricking me like that. I’m fine. I’ll see you tomorrow.” Dial tone.

           FFFFFFFFUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKK.

           Now I was left with the knowledge that Dean was sick. I paced the room and the hall. What do I do? Should I call his Mom and tell her? He would be so… pissed at me but maybe I’m the only one who didn’t know. My phone buzzed and the choice was taken from me. I answered.

           “Yes, I know. I saw it too. I talked to him,” I told his Mother. “He’s been on a walk-about.” And I laughed at my answer.

           “He said he needed to see some good.” And the deception started. “With everything going on; I’ve told you how he is now. He’s been working too hard and after the show next week I’m going to bring him back home for Thanksgiving. Love you too.”

           I hadn’t slept, hadn’t eaten anything, and Dean forgive me, I had been chugging Red Bulls. Finally, the knock came to the door. This is going to be bloody.

           “Niki. Come on; I don’t have my key.”

           I walked over and pulled the door open then walked to the other side of the room to look out the window. I was being Niki. He was killing me because I was turned away from him and he wasn’t making a sound. I couldn’t take it anymore and turned; he was right there; I slapped him.

           “Fuck Niki. That hurt.” And I spun his head in the other direction. I was rearing back for another go and he grabbed my wrist. And before I could hit him with my other hand he grabbed that one too.

           He saw the rage and determination in my eyes and I think we both had the same idea. He scrunched up his eyes and tilted his head like daring me. Too slow, Farmboy. I launched my right knee into his nuts. I’ve never really done that before and I saw a range of emotion run across Dean’s face. His hands dropped my wrists with a shocked look and he started falling to the side. I think he was being dramatic.

           I fell out of a tree once when I was little and knocked all my air out; I think that’s what happened to Dean and I was sorry before he hit the floor.

           He was tucked into a fetal position and trying to take in any air at all. “Dean. I’m so… sorry.” He wasn’t doing much and wasn’t saying anything as I knelt next to him.

           “Niki?” he finally squeaked out.

           “Dean? I’m so… sorry but you pissed me off so bad.”

           “Niki; I’m sorry.”

           “No, Dean. I’m sorry.”

           “No, Niki. I’m sorry.” And his voice leveled out. “This arrangement isn’t working. I’m letting you go.”

           He had to look away. It was worse than I thought. “I have a three-year contract; you insisted.”

           “I know, but. You’re not going to kick me when I’m down, are you?”

           I pushed Dean on his back and straddled him. I hadn’t kneed him that hard. “You are dumber than fuck, Farmboy and have proved it more than once. If you haven’t figured it out by now; the only way to get rid of me is with a restraining order. What part do you want me to cut off first?”

           It was like off the Fly. I was in the air, then I was on my back, and then Dean was on me; like in a nanosecond. It was really kind of fucking hot. I looked up to his flaming eyes wondering if he was going to kiss me or, “What are you gonna do, Cooper? Gonna hit a girl?”

           And I smiled at him knowing that Dean realized at that moment he had just lost.  

           “You’re still fired.” He said getting up.

           “I still have two and a half years on my contract.”

           “I know. Parker will cash you out or whatever you want.” And he walked to the window.

           “Dean, you know I,” I felt the tears burst out. I had to tell him.

           “No Niki. Please don’t.”

           I walked up to him and he raised his arm in a defensive way. “You fuckin hit really hard for a girl.”

           I pulled his forehead to mine. “Do you remember when I told you ‘I am here because this is where I want to be? I wasn’t fucking with you.”

           “I believe you, Niki. But I think a fine is in order for your abusive behavior today.” And his hands rested on my hips. “You hit really hard. A hundred grand.” And his hand came up. “Each.” And he kind of closed his legs dropping one in front of little Dean.

           “Fine. I still have half a year.” And I knew he was going to bring up the nuts. “And as for these,” as I reached down; “I think we should be even.” And I squeezed.

           “If you want stones, Niki. You can have mine. Fifty grand.” He said waving his hand at the cans and pulling at the ring on his pinky.  

           We looked at each other for a long time. “I’m sorry Niki? It’s gonna get real complicated.” Such defeat he had on his face.

                                                                                         “It’s ok, Dean.” I really wish I could have said, ‘Niki will fix it.’

           “Niki, I’m starved.”

           “Of Corse you are.”

           We ate out and when we came back in he asked if I was taking a shower. “Are you?” I questioned. I realized it had been a while since we’d showered together and I wondered where he was going.

           “I’ll go first” and he closed the door.

           Yes, we have been together like this for five months. Yes, we had a rule and never broke it. I could hear him singing and knew he wouldn’t hear the door. How had Dean hidden this from me? How had I not felt it?

           He heard the bathroom door open and stopped singing. “Turn the light off, Niki.”

           “Why, Dean?”

           “Because I’m the boss and I said so.”

           “Did you really think that was going to work, Farmboy?”

           “Niki, Please.” He asked with such remorse.  

           I realized he had been avoiding the touching and closeness that had been normal and how it hadn’t for the last six weeks. We were busy. I didn’t turn off the light and removed my clothes. I could see him through the shower doors and he had his head in the corner.

           I stepped in behind him and brought his back to my front as I wrapped around him. I had never felt such a defeated breath come out of him. I remembered what it was like a few months ago when he would flaunt his body. I longed to feel what I once saw and I didn’t get my wish.

           He put his hands on mine as if trying to stop me but his hands rode on mine as I felt something I wasn’t sure I wanted to see. His collar bone protruded, pecks were gone. His ribs were pronounced and there were no abs or stomach.

           I couldn’t, fuckin help it. I wanted to cry, wanted to hit him again, I wanted to scream. I didn’t do any of that and just kissed his back. I pulled away and washed him like I hadn’t in a while and he let me see all if him.

           What eighteen-year-old doesn’t have an ego? Ok, multiply that by a thousand; were talking Dean Cooper. It was at that moment I realized and started to cry as Dean turned me and said in my ear, “It’ll be ok.” In a comforting voice knowing it wouldn’t.  

           The next morning we didn’t talk about it. I did what I do and Dean sat typing. He talked to people planning stuff knowing it would never happen and I listened wondering why he didn’t tell anybody; why he wouldn’t come out and tell me. I’ve come to understand that people who are dying are embarrassed like it’s a weakness, something that if you were stronger, you could beat.

           Dean did the AMA’s and it was there I saw. He had a Ghost thing he’d created with Louis Armstrong, It’s a Wonderful World. Dean sat on a stool with the big screen behind him. The medley played and Dean pulled out the gravel.

           He spoke to the audience. “You know I meet a lot of young people and they ask, Dean, what do you mean, what a wonderful world? How about all the hate? And how about all the wars and people starving? That’s not a wonderful world.” And he moved back and forth.

           “How about listening to Dean for a minute. Seems to me it ain’t the world that’s so bad it’s what we’re doing to it. And all I am saying is see what a wonderful world it could be if only we’d give it a chance. Love baby, love. That’s what I’m talking about. 

           If lots more of us loved each other we’d solve lots more problems.” Everybody was on their feet before Dean could start singing.

           “I see trees of green and red roses too; I see them bloom for me and you. And I think to myself, what a wonderful world.

           I see skies of blue and clouds of white, the bright blessed days and the dark sacred nights, and I think to myself what a wonderful world.” The whole place was singing.

           “The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky; I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do. They’re really saying I love you.” And Dean held out the mic and everyone sang. I could see this was a highlight for him.

           “I hear babies crying, I watch them grow, they’ll learn much more than I’ll ever know and I think to myself, what a wonderful world. Yes, I think to myself, what a wonderful world.” And Dean turned and clapped to the screen with Louis Armstrong and Robin William’s pictures.

           Dean didn’t return to our seats between shit. He walked out after the first award. He was looking at, Best New Artist, Best vocal, Best Song. Best, Best, Best.  He had two albums and eighteen top singles. Nobody had a chance.

           “This isn’t fair.” He started. “I don’t want this to be, ‘The Dean’s’ award show and I wanted to withdraw completely. Is Forest? Are you in the room?” and spotlights shined around. A camera saw him stand following him and there was applause.

           “As I said, I wanted to withdraw and this guy talked me out of it. Tell them what you said, Forest.”

           “First; it’s Tom, Dick.” And the room erupted as Dean stood straight-faced. ‘Come on Dean? That was funny.” And Dean broke a smile and they bonked heads. “Dean, I told you that people can be fickle and get caught up in the moment.”

           “And what did I ask you?”

           “You asked me if I thought your fans were fickle.” And he laughed.  

           “That is not what I asked you,” Dean said kind of holding on to Tom.

           “OK. You asked if your friends would be pissed. And I told you, yes. Would you be mad winning by default?” he asked whoever he was pointing at. “How about you?” Pointing his finger in a different direction.

           It did turn out to be the Dean Awards show. We spent the next five days in LA so he could get some strength back. Didn’t happen. During the day he talked non stop, during the night I held him. Calls had been coming in and I assured friends, knowing something was wrong, that he was fine. More deception.

           We landed back in Minot; I’d ordered a private plane. We stayed at the Lion’s and talked most of the night. Dean has stage Fore Lung Cancer. He found out when we came back for the Return. Dean never smoked and had little experience with weed. At the time he was told he had three months, maybe longer if he did treatment; it had been three months plus, and he hadn’t done anything.

           “I’m so fuckin sorry, Niki. How am I supposed to tell my Mom I won’t be here for Christmas anymore?”

           How could I possibly make him understand? “Dean, close your eyes and dream you’re looking down on a lake. You are like a rock dropped into a lake. You have created endless ripples and you’ve touched people in ways none of us will ever know or understand.”

           Hours were clicking off like weeks for Dean. I helped him to his Mustang and I was in the driver’s seat. I tried to start the car. Nothing. “Nikita, start the car.” He said.

           “Voice not recognized.” And her avatar looked at him.

           “Nikita, start the fucking car.”  

          

           “Voice not recognized.” She said shaking her head back and forth.

           “Nikita?” I said calmly.

           “Voice recognition authenticated.” And she looked at me.

           “You need to take him home.”

           “Understood.” The car started, a map came up on the screen. “Passengers’ body temperature is below normal. Should I” And I cut her off.

           “Yes.”

           “He’s really sick. He’s been working too hard.” I told his dad as he helped me get Dean to his room in a condition I’m sure his Dad had never seen before.

            I was the one to tell his mother and father he was dying and it would be soon. The hardest thing I’ve ever done. “But Niki, what happened to stage one, two, and three?” His mother asked crying. Dean had never smoked and neither did his parents.

           I really don’t know how he found the strength to get as far as he did. He had only been to the bathroom and I spent as much time with him as I could. I heard his confession.

           “Niki, would you do something for me?” He asked letting his head roll in my direction.

           “Of course, Dean. Anything.” I would have done anything. I’d of walked on coals, had my nipples pierced, anything.

           “In my closet, there’s a box. Open the door. To the right; that’s it. Don’t open it. If you could get it out of the house without Mom and Dad seeing? I would die if they saw it.”  

           What an expression I thought. ‘I would just die if.’ We say it all the time but here he was doing just that. If there was ever a person I wanted to haunt me for the rest of my life it was, Dean. I sat down next to him with the box on the floor between my legs and opened it up.

           I wished he had the strength to do to me what he wanted. “You are so… fuckin fired.”

           “What else, pervert?” I asked with a smile.

           “My computer? Just bring it to me.” And he smiled at my attempt of humor.

           He was living every teenaged boy’s dream. He was purging his room of porn and toys so his parents wouldn’t find it and think less of him after he was gone.

           “Dean, your Mom has Supper downstairs. You should try to come down and eat.” I knew there was no way he could but I asked anyway.

           “You could get me a plate, Niki.”

           “Nice fucking try, Farmboy. I go get you a plate and you fuckin die. Not on my watch.” And I held back tears.  

           It wasn’t that long and. “Fine, don’t get me a plate. The least you can do is keep me warm.” And I had to smile at his humor.

           I crawled in next to him and his arm came around me. “Dean?”

           “No Niki. Me first.” My face was on his chest and I couldn’t see his. “I’m so fucking sorry for all of this. Not just me but all of everything that’s happened. I would like you to use my scholarship at the University Of Washington and earn high marks. It seems that Nikita is now yours and don’t let her get the better of you.

           “Your car and I will never get along unless they take out her engine and put in a bunch of batteries.”

           “Niki, wash your mouth out.” And he laughed so hard he choked. “You know what, Uptown? I think I am hungry. I’d take that plate now and if you could hand me my tablet.”

           He took my hand, “Niki. Do you know?” And I stopped him

           “Don’t spoil it, Dean.”

           “Spoiler alert, Niki. Tarzan loves Jane. I have from the first time I saw you and I’m sorry I haven’t told you before now.” He couldn’t lift his head and tears ran down the sides of his face.

           “Do you really think Jane didn’t know, Tarzan? And I know you aren’t so fuckin thick that you didn’t know how much I love you, too”

           “I really am ready for something to eat, Niki. Could you hand me my headphones?”

           His Mom and Dad were sitting just looking at the plates they’d dished themselves. They both looked up when I walked in and said, “He’s hungry.”

           My phone buzzed in my back pocket saying I had a new email. Dean. I knew now. I should have known then. Dean would have hung on for as long as he needed to spare me that. His last act of selfishness; he wouldn’t allow me to be with him when his breathing stopped; wouldn’t leave me with that memory.

          

           I handled everything for Dean and I released a statement. “It is with a heavy heart that I announce Dean Cooper passed away this evening at home. He was diagnosed with Stage Four Lung Cancer in June and was surrounded by his family.”

           Nobody knew he was sick and his death came as a surprise to most. The outpouring was like none other. Canada, Australia, and England lowered their flags. Fox News said that “sources say it was a drug overdose.” I set that shit to rest.

                               His Email: 

     

           My Dearest, Nicole; if you haven’t figured out by now; Farmboy, is a coward. I know how many times I stopped you and how many times you stopped me. Why did we do that, Niki? I love you and you love me; why did we rob those words from each other until now?

           I’ve extended your contract and you will be the president of ‘The Dean Cooper Foundation.’ Parker is the Executor of my estate and he will help you. He’s a good man.  

           I’m so sorry for not telling you. It has been hard; we all have an expiration date but we don’t think it is a few months away. I never could have dealt with your pain when you looked at me. I know you think I was selfish and you’re right, I was. I’m the boss.

           I remember that first day. I’m sure you thought Sony was punishing you for something: North Dakota, in winter. I remember how you were with me when I broke down and how embarrassed I was. You, Niki, are the reason I became what I did. It was you.

           When we were in Winnipeg and the way you looked. When we were at Granny’s and the way you looked. I wanted to tell you every time I saw you; how fuckin fantastic you were. I so… wish I had the time to sample your fruit for the next fifty years, Niki.

           Sweet dreams, Uptown.

                         

                        Dean Adam Cooper.

     

           The outpouring was more than I ever expected. There wasn’t a church big enough; back to the stadium. I didn’t make arrangements for anybody; they did all that themselves. This state was barely half a million and five percent of the State showed up.

                            

                              Tom Hanks:

           “What a year; am I right?” He started. “I remember like yesterday. I was talking to Winston and my phone rang. I held it up to him then answered, “Ellen.” And that was how it started.” And he shook his head like remembering and in disbelief.

          

           “I was at the AMA’s with him a week ago and I knew something was wrong but. It was a few days over a year ago when I met him. What a first impression. I have never met a young man with more passion and I’m sure, unfortunately, I will go to my grave never meeting another.” And he looked at me sitting next to his mom.

           “Dean hated the fame and recognition of what happened around him but he carried himself with such dignity. Dean walked the walk and talked the talk; he was a role model and all of us looked up to him.

           In one year Dean recorded over eighty songs; remakes. I asked him once, aren’t you just recycling old stuff?”

          

           “He told me that he wasn’t recycling ‘old shit’ he was resurrecting great stuff. What most of you don’t know is Dean had a stack of songs that were written by the best songwriters in the business; written just for him.” He turned around and testimonials came up on the screen.

           “You know I can’t help who I am any more than you can. I wish everyone could understand what he has done. In a year this remarkable young man raised, what I’m sure will be an epic amount of money. He has gained the respect and admiration of many of his new found friends and family.” And he turned again to look at the pictures on the screen.

           I was surprised at all who showed up. Tom offered right away and I accepted on behalf of Dean’s parents. It wasn’t going to be your normal service. I flew to Washington and met with Parker, his attorney, and found out how my life would be changed in more ways than one.

           Dean’s family was his mom and dad, with little extended family. I sat with them and before it started I had waved enough down to fill the first two row with us. I hate to say but some were Dean’s, famous friends and he made a lot.

           “I have talked to people in my business and many in the music industry. There is a consensus; I think he will be written about, I think he started the healing in our country and songs will be sung about him. And from me personally, I wish I had met him a long, long time ago.” And he walked towards me as the music started.

           Tom knelt in front of us and he gave condolences’. Everyone who talked to me was like I was Dean’s wife or something. I guess his friends kind of knew but even his mom and dad treated me like we all lost something.  

           “I didn’t know, I didn’t know, I didn’t know,” Elton started.

           “I didn’t know when I woke up this morning, I didn’t know.” And his short fingers sang with the keys.

           “We should never be silent, I didn’t know. I didn’t know.” He had taken Dean’s words and transformed them into his final honor for Dean.

          

                               How time flies

     

           I walked through the U District smiling back at the reflection in the old shop windows. I saw my destination and walked into StarBucks. I love Washington; or at least our little part of it.  It has been five years and today was the anniversary of the first Billion. On the big TV was Dean at Dollywood on his last birthday. It’s still so hard believing that I was part of that. You could barely hear it but most everyone was watching.

           “What was his name.” one guy asked another. I had to smile; Dean got his wish.

           “His name was, Dean Cooper,” I told all of them reaching down to take the hand.

            “Mommy, that’s my name.”

           What Dean and I shared in August that year produced this little guy. I knew I was pregnant when Dean died and I never told him. How cruel would that have been? I’d like to think he somehow knew.

           “Yes, little Cooper. That was your Daddy.” They said in unison.

           “Uncle Jeff, Uncle Donny. Can we feed the ducks?”

                                    The End.

                             From your Author:

           I would like all of you to know I loved writing this series. I think people such as my self have a responsibility to not only entertain you but maybe address things that need to be talked about. When I started my focus was on music and bullying and how that environment can get better.

           As I wrote things around me changed and so did my focus. I introduced rape, sounding, cutting, and love on different levels. I hope the end wasn’t a big disappointment but Dean gave all he had to give.    

     

           I was thinking about continuing though: Jeff and Donny, along with Niki and little Dean, Rick, and Max. And a young college kid named Ryan and his friend, Robby. What do you think? RJC.  

          

          

                


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  • Cross dressing went too far

    I do admit to my love of wearing panties and stockings, or tights (pantihose) under my suits for work, gives me a real turn on. As a gay guy, looking at other men and wondering what they are like under their clothes, well hung, cut etc keeps me really horny.

    A few nights ago, one of my pals whom I have some great fun with, said he had tickets for a great Hypnotist would I like to go?  Of course, I agreed and off we went.

    Shit, the show was awful.   He picked on me  as one of the last clients, should I say. He dragged me on stage (no pun intended) and tried to put me under. I knew he didn’t succeed, or so I thought,

    Tom, my mate, waited until I returned to my seat. “Load of crap” I told him.

    “Ah” said Tom “You did not see what we, the audience saw then Phil”

    “What do you mean Tom?” I asked him.

    “Well, the guy asked you what your favourite hobby was, you said making fun of crap hypnotists. He then asked if you believed in what he did and that he had hypnotised  you to reveal your inner most secrets as you were so unbelievably rude to him. You told him, in front of 1,200 people, that you were a bottom gay man, who wore lingerie under his day clothes and like to get fucked wearing panties or tights. You like to walk around with a jewelled butt plug up your ass and had to wear a condom under your panties or tights as you frequently shot a load looking at guys you fancied. As that was not enough, you then added you thought he was a load of crap, to which the guy said you would remember everything that had happened to you when you woke up in the morning, he snapped his fingers and you shuddered, woke up and walked back to me”

    “Oh fucking hell Tom, you cannot expect me to believe that bullshit, lets have a fuck and then we can get to bed”

    I am lucky actually, I am a well hung cut man, 8” cock and hefty balls, I was wearing tights under my trousers, which Tom asked me to leave on. He threw me face down on the bed a pulled down the waistband of my tights, just enough to pull out the butt plug I love to wear, and rammed his rather large cock right inside my hole.  “Tom, go easy” I said “I know fucking me in tights gets you so horny, but I am already cumming and getting in a mess”   

    A few minutes of banging away and Tom yelled he was cumming and I felt a jet of hot cum fill my insides> I lay there savouring the feeling of that lovely cum and then stood up, I could feel it oozing down the inside of my legs and also through the nylon covering my cock, it slipped like jelly down my cock and balls, Tom knelt down and licked my tights front clean.  Oh heaven.

    We showered and went to bed Tom wears shorts, I usually wear panties of some sort, tonight I chose  black lace ones, honestly guys, you really want to try wearing women’s panties they are a surprisingly large pouch at the front to hold your tackle and a full back or thong styles back, not sagging or bagging and loads of stretch,

    I had some horrific dreams, the sort that scare the shit out of you and then when you wake up simply disappear.  I woke up about 7am bursting for a piss, Tom was snoring his head off as usual, I shot in the bathroom grabbed my cock out of my panties and let go.

    Holy fuck, I was pissing all over the toilet seat, my legs, the floor I grabbed my cock, NO COCK OR BALLS THERE. I sat on the toilet and finished pissing and stood up. I yelled for Tom who ran into the bathroom and looked aghast at the urine covered floor, toilet and me.

    “Phil, what the hell  are you playing at? Your panties are dripping piss and its everywhere”

    “I don’t know” I cried and pulled down my panties.

    “Fucking hell” screamed Tom “Where the fuck are your balls and cock and what the fuck IS THAT?”  he yelled pointing at  my crotch.

    I looked down and nearly passed out, my lovely cut cock and large balls had simply vanished and there in their place, was what looked remarkably like a PUSSY…… a vagina on me?

    I suddenly shivered and suddenly remembered what the Hypnotist said the previous evening.

    “Tom its that bastard Hypnotist” I shouted “He has cursed me”    I remembered we had his card and phoned him, although it was only 0830. “Hello” said a strangely  elated voice. “Remembered now how rude you were last night?,  You apparently love wearing lingerie so I thought it would be nice for you to feel how looking the whole package would suit you…. I am terminating the cal, and no matter how you try to contact me, you will have no further success, enjoy your new sex organ”

    The phone went dead,  and I tried to recall, it was unable to connect.

    I sat on the toilet lid, Tom kneeled on the floor holding my hands. I dried myself off, and went into the shower. I got out and dried myself and Tom walked me back into the bedroom. We sat on the bed, My hand unconsciously went down to my dick-less and ball less crotch and touched my gash.  It felt soft and warm and slightly moist, Nice lips on around the edge, and fleshy flaps on the inside. 

    To my disgust I was getting turned on.    “Tom?”  Will you check out my pussy, does it look ok to you?, would you fancy playing with it as a gay man?    Would you like to try an fuck me please?”

    Tom looked surprised,”Love to if you wear some crotchless panties”   I found a pair which looked great as my large cock and balls hung down from the slash in them.   Now they fitted me perfectly. 

    Tom pulled me up and moved to the wardrobe, he held me closely and started to kiss me, gently squeezing my nips, I could feel myself getting hotter and hotter in my crotch, I felt a little trickle like jelly sliding from my gash, them I felt Toms cock pushing in me.  “God, this is amazing” cried Tom, we can kiss and I can fuck you from the front, I love feeling your panties sliding up and  down my cock, and shit, I am going to cum” 

    CUM?”. He fired copious amounts of thick hot cum into my pussy, and after a few minutes,  he pulled out , it was still dripping from his monster cock head, so I licked it clean.   I suddenly realised that Tom had his head between my legs, he was licking my pussy clean, I  I looked down  feeling his tongue sliding inside me.

    We decided to go shopping, I wore some thick tights under my jogging bottoms and on the way home in the car, Tom looked at me said “Are you cumming in your pants, ?     You have a large wet patch on your jeans.  I sure did, it was wet and sticky,  whoops cum!

    Arrived home to find dribbles of cum and a white jelly stuff sliding out of my gash.   “It’s  your cum and my lube, leaking out.  I need to buy some tampons, so we turned around called in the petrol station and bought two packets.  Got home opened the packages and pulled one tampon out,, rammed it inside my pussy, pulled  on some black nylon hold ups, and pulled up my tracksuit bottoms  and started on the lunch. 

    Tom walked in the kitchen “How are you feeling Phil?”     “Ok thanks” I answered, “Seems like I am a real pussy boy now, can you cope with me like this”

    Before I could move, Tom had spun me against the wall, pulled down my tracksuit bottoms, pulled on the tampon string which fell on the floor, and his cock was inside me so quickly I could not believe it., He was tonguing me and then kissing me roughly,  I could tell he was loving it, his breathing was short and he pounded away at my vagina.   I am SO ENJOYING THIS,   He shot another huge load inside me. Pulled away away and let me lick his cock clean, he repeated his performance by licking my pussy clean again.     He moved away, gae me a new tampon which I pushed up and  pulled up my tracksuit bottoms.

    “There Phil” he smiled “Does that answer your question?”


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  • The Bear and the piggy

    The long kiss goodnight

    Authors note: This chapter will feature bondage, forced/rough sex, piss, torture, blood, violence. If any of these triggers you please skip this chapter.


    I finally was starting to come to when I felt a wet liquid run down the left side of my face. My eyesight was fuzzy. I could only make out blurry images. One image looked to be on the bed, the other was in the corner doing something else.

    I could feel a cool air on my chest. My gaze was slowly coming back. I looked down and saw my buttoned shirt was opened with my tits hanging out. I saw two clamps on my nipples with a chain in the middle. I looked further down and saw my cock hanging out of my buttoned jeans. My cock was tied with a rope that was pulled down to my boots. I tried to move but I was secured to a chair. I tried to say something, but my voice was blocked by a bulbous gag that was inside my mouth. I was not going to escape this.

    “Like that little gag,” a voice emerged from across the room, “it’s a penis gag. I bought that one off of Ebay, used by the way. I never like to clean my toys off.” It was Earl and he was slowly approaching me.

    I tried to wiggle through my restraints, but the fucker had bound them tight. I looked around the room for Ashton and did not spot him. I could only see a figure covered up under a sheet on the bed.

    Earl moved closer to me. He was wearing all leather. He approached me in a leather vest, unbuttoned to show his slim hairy torso. He worse chaps with a black jock strap covering his member. The flap was held together with buttons. All he would have to do to unleash his cock would be to tear the flap open. He smoked a huge cigar and made sure to blow the smoke in my direction. For the first time I was intimidated.

    “Sorry about the blood, “he said as he touched the side of my head, “You gave me no other choice. I also hope you don’t mind the restraints. I haven’t been with a bear in a long time and I really wanted to see your cock. And I gotta say I’m not disappointed.”

    Earl bent down and began to lick the tip of my mushroom head. I tried everything not to get hard, but his tongue was hot, and it had been so long since anyone had touched it. My cock started to grow.

    “Looks like a grower to me. A hairy grower.” Earl said as he took my cock deep down his throat.

    His warm mouth surrounded my growing cock and I was unable to keep myself soft. My cock began to grow deeper down his throat. Earl, the little slut, kept deep throating my cock further down his throat. I was sure I was choking him with it.

    “My what a big piece of meat you have. I love when I have to pull the hair out of my mouth.”  Earl said as he took one of my pubes from his mouth and flicked it on the floor.

    I tried to mumble to him, but he was not in the mood to listen. He gave me a quick slap across the face and spit on my forehead.

    “Keep struggling like that and I’m going to do worse to you bear. I might even pull your balls right off.”  He began to tug on the string pulling my cock further down to my boots.

    “AAAAA!” is all I could muster from the gag. Earl laughed in response.

                “All that moaning is making me hard. I think you might want to taste it bear.” Earl stood back so I could get a full view of him. He pulled opened the flap and revealed a lengthy cut cock. He was not as hairy as me, but he wasn’t bare either. He walked closer to me and pulled my face right to his now erect cock.

    “Smell it bear!” He said as I took a big whiff of his cock. The smell made me gag. His cock was stinky and was enough to pass out an amateur cock sucker.

    “Haha. I just got down sitting in my piss pants a little while ago. I haven’t washed my cock since. Wanna taste?”

    I had no time to answer. He ripped the gag off of me fast and immediately stuck his lengthy cock in my mouth. He thrusted his cock further down my throat, I could feel my saliva coming from my throat. The smell alone was toxic enough for me, I was very close to throwing up.

    Suddenly I felt a rush of warm liquid run down my throat. It wasn’t cum, his hairy balls were too full for that. It was his piss. He was pissing right down my throat. I tried to pull my head away from the stinking taste going down my throat, but he held my head in place. This was a fucking nightmare. The piss slid right down my throat and seemed to drag on for hours.

    “Ahh, that felt good.” Earl said as he slowly pulled his cock out of my mouth and trickled a few drops of his piss on my lips.

                “What…….do…..you ……..want?” I asked as I was trying my best to speak. My head was throbbing like a fucking earthquake had hit it.

    “Well,” he said as he lit his cigar again, “I was just going to rob you. I was just going to take your wallet, your truck, and anything else you had of value. But then I saw the both of you and I couldn’t let you go. I’ve looked all over for a sexy father son combo and they are very rare to find these days.” Earl took a puff of his smoke and blew the air at my face.

    “Cough….Where is..?”

    “Oh the kid? Well funny you should ask that. See this mark on my face?” He asked as he got closer to me. Earl had a cut on the side of his cheek.

                “What of it?” I asked as I began to spit the taste of his piss out of my mouth.

    “Well after I knocked you out, your little boy thought he could be a hero. He grabbed your truck keys and sliced my cheek right open. Little did the little fucker know I was much stronger than him.” Earl began to smile.

                “What did you do to him?” I asked worried.

    “Well, he is under this sheet right here. I didn’t want to do too much to him before you had a chance to see it.” Earl walked closer to the bed.

    My immediate thoughts went straight to death. I had to take those thoughts out of my head. I could see a slight movement from under the sheets. He was definitely still alive.

    “Want to see your son?” Earl asked as he threw off the covers.

    Ashton was underneath, and he was not in any position to say or do otherwise. Ashton’s face was covered with a leather hood, his mouth gagged with a penis pump gag. His wrists were pulled across the bed as if he was crucified. He was completely naked, with his hairless ass sticking right in the air. His legs were tied in bent motion, so his back and ass could stay arched. His cock and balls were tied and pulled down to the leg divider that was keeping his legs spread apart. It was a sight to see, but a horrific one.

    Earl walked over and laid a huge slap on one of Ashton’s bare ass cheeks. He wiggled in pain. My poor piggy was unable to move or even moan. I had to break free somehow.

    “I thought you’d like to see him like this. I’m going to do so many things to him first and then I’m going to move on to you. I’m going to start by pumping that gag a few times. I wonder how deep he can take it?” Earl laughed.

    He walked over to Ashton’s gag and gave it a quick few pumps. I could only see Ashton wiggle. I knew that plug was going to get bigger and Ashton was not going to be able to handle that.

    “You Fuck!” I yelled across the room.

                “That will be no more talking from you.” Earl rushed over to me and placed the gag into my mouth. The taste of it was gross and I was powerless to stop him.

    Earl made his way back over to Ashton. I tried to wiggle my wrists a bit, it was tight. I had to keep trying. I had to break free of these restraints.

    “What to do to him first dad?” Earl asked sarcastically as he got closer to Ashton’s bare ass.

                “Mmmmm.” I muttered under the horrible tasting gag. Earl smiled at me.

    “What’s that you say? You want me to pee in his asshole? Well if you say so.” Earl said as he hopped onto the bed and placed himself over my piggy’s ass.

    Earl opened up Ashton’s hairless hole and placed his cock right on top of it. Earl let his spit hit right inside my piggy’s hole and massaged his finger around his anus. With a quick motion, Earl’s cockhead was now inside of my piggy.

    “Ugghh!” Ashton screamed from his gag.

                “It’s so tight dad!” Earl said laughing. My wrists restraints were starting to get loose.

    “Here it comes.” Earl said as he I could see him getting ready to pee inside my piggy.

                “Noooooo!” Ashton screamed again under his gag.

    Earl was sighing in relief. He was pissing right into my pig’s asshole and I was powerless to stop it. I was sure Ashton could feel the warm liquid filling his tight hole up. I was pissed that I had to watch, but my cock was betraying me.

    “I think daddy likes it boy. His daddy cock is growing. What a slut! I think daddy wants a shower too.” Earl said as he removed his cock from Ashton’s hole abruptly.

    Earl made his way to me and pulled the chair near the bed. I was heavy, but Earl was strong. I knew what the sick bastard was going to do, and I wasn’t going to like it.

    Earl sat me directly in front of Ashton’s pink hole. Earl had got on top of the bed again and was spreading my pigs asscheeks apart. I saw a pink hole staring back at me. One his cheeks were spread I saw a dark entrance leaking yellow liquid from it. Earl gave me a big smile and soon all I could feel was wet.

    “Good boy! Give your daddy a bath!” Earl shouted as he laughed.

    Yellow liquid was spouting out of my piggy’s asshole. The piss was hot, stinky, and was getting all over me. Earl must’ve filled up my piggy because the piss was never ending. My poor piggy was moaning in relief, he even tried to hold it in, but Earl slapped his ass every time he did. I could feel a bit of relief on my wrist. I was almost free.

    “Damn boys, that was hot. What should we do next?” Earl said as he let go of my piggy’s asscheeks.

                “Mmmm!” I yelled under my gag. Earl ignored me.

    “I think a slut like your son needs to have a slutty hole. I think I’m going to shove my whole fist up there and make it huge. I’m going to stretch that hole so big that everyone will know what a little slut he is. Maybe I’ll brand him right after since he already has one.” Earl bent down in front of my pigs’ hole and stuck his index finger inside of him.

    “One finger in, so tight. Let’s add a few more.” Earl placed his middle finger and his ring finger inside of Ashton’s tight anal region.

    My restraints were loose. I just needed to wait for the right time to strike. I could see Earl getting his fist ready.

    “I don’t think I’ll need lube. Sluts like this don’t need lube. On the count of three. One…Two…Thre…….!!!” That was all Earl could say before he found himself knocked down to the floor.

    I gave it my all. I punched him as hard as I could and made sure not to let up. Earl blocked a few of my punches and tried to kick me in the balls, but my adrenaline fought through the pain. I bunched up my right hand and gave Earl a quick punch to the head and he was knocked out. My attention was then directed at my pig.

    Ashton was still bound. I undid his arms first. When I let up the straps I could his wrists were red, and rope burnt. I then moved to the divider between his ankles. That sicko had tied his balls and weenie to the middle of the bar. I undid the rope around his privates and then I undid the bar. Before I could say anything to him, I found myself being knocked onto the ground.

    Earl was on top of me. His grip was tight. The fucker tried to bite my neck with his missing teeth. I tried to throw him off of me, but I was still sore from being bound in the chair for so long. Earl somehow made his way to my hairy balls and began to squeeze them very tightly.

    “Fuck!” I yelled at the top of my lungs.

    Earl just smiled. I gave him a headbutt and we both ended up falling backwards. My vision went blurry and I almost passed out. Next thing I saw was Earl grabbing something sharp from his pocket. With a quick swipe of his arm, I could feel liquid go down my chest. I looked down and saw blood. He had cut me right across my hairy chest.

    “You don’t know who you are messing with bear!” Earl yelled as he swiped again, this time cutting my arm. I was stupid to try to defend the attack.

    I dove for his stomach and tackled him right onto the ground. The next thing I could feel was Earl grabbing my balls again. This time I could feel a cold steel pressed against them. He literally had me by the balls.

    “Don’t you fucking move!” Earl commanded as he pressed his blade against my ball sack.

                “Just leave asshole.” I said as I tried to gasp for air. I was tired from the fight.

    “Oh no. That would be too easy. I’m going to slice your nuts off and make your faggot ass son eat them. It will only hurt a bit you ugly fat piece of……” Earl said no more.

    I looked behind him and saw Ashton, his gag and hood were off. Earl fell to the floor and Ashton’s body stood still behind the now falling body. Ashton had glass object in his hand, something from Earls’ bag. I slowly stood up and saw blood come from Earl’s head. I leaned in for a pulse and felt nothing. Earl was dead.

    “You okay pig?” I asked as I slowly moved to him.

    Ashton said nothing. He stood there naked, his eyes red from tears, his body shaking from fear.

    “We are going to call the police now. You are going to be alright.” I said as I moved closer to Ashton.

    Ashton finally drew his gaze on me. He dropped the glass object down onto the floor and pressed his firm lips against mine. I couldn’t believe he was kissing me. His hot wet tongue filled my throat. I tried to back away from him, but his kiss was strong. I kept thinking about all the awful stuff that I had down my throat, but his sweet kisses were taking the nasty tastes out of my mouth.

    “Call the police Mr. S.”  Ashton said as he moved away from me. He leaned over Earls lifeless body and gave him a quick kick in the stomach.

    Tonight, was a fucked up night.


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