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  • Alexxx is Back

    I don’t know if you remember me but I’m Alex. I know it’s been a while since you’ve heard from me but I’ve spent the past year trying desperately to find love. I’m one of the few boys out there who still believes in it, silly me. And I’m one of the few who believe there has to be love before there can be anything physical exchanged. Some might say I’m behind the times but through my stories, you might have spotted something pretty clearly.

    I write a lot about being a virgin and in my writing, through multiple storylines, multiple boys have taken that virginity from me because I’ve wanted them to. Each story was a fantasy of a certain boyfriend taking that virginity from me and cumming in my ass, acting like my handler and treating me like a pup, and even stories of us blowing each other in the most public places. But the reality is, I still have that virginity through no fault of my own. I still don’t know what it feels like to have a dick up my ass or mine in someone else’s. I still have no clue what it feels like to shoot my load in a hot guy’s mouth. For the past year, I’ve been in three relationships. One for three months, another for a week, and a final one for seven months. But yeah…I’m still a virgin and I absolutely hate it.

    The first boy I dated for three months. His name was Larry. He was truly a milkman which is why those few stories existed of me getting fucked by the milkman and he really did used to work in a theme park. I wrote all about him and how I wanted him to be my milkman and drink my milk for life. I even have a story of him and I having fun in a theme park restroom. But sadly, he abused me for three months.

    On our third date, him and I got a little hot and heavy after watching “Love Simon” and ended up groping each other with me eventually going down on him right there on my couch. It was my first time so he couldn’t and to his credit, didn’t blame me for failing to get him off after twenty minutes or so. But he never got off and he left me high and dry without showing me how it was done. I spent the next nearly three months without even once having him grope me again. Heck, every time I even tried to do more than give him a peck on the lips, like let’s say for instance we were saying goodnight and I was leaving his house and I would try to French kiss him, he slapped me across the face for trying to kiss him like that.

    If I even dared to push my pants against his, the next thing I knew, I was pushed to the ground. And a month into our relationship, when things should have been the hottest and heaviest they are ever going to be, I came home from an eight-day vacation and he didn’t want to even see me. I felt used and like I was the only one to actually feel in love. But I still can’t figure out why I fell in love with him at all. How could I love someone who abused me so bad?

    And that’s when I told him how I truly felt, that it wasn’t going anywhere and he didn’t fight for me. He just told me I was much too good for him, and honestly his mom told me the same thing. And it’s sad but I think they were right.

    I spent the next week furiously going through Grindr, trying to find anyone who thought I looked cute. Like my stories at the time suggest, within two weeks, I really did meet a boy named Keith. On our first date we talked a lot about sex and what we want in a relationship. Things such as marriage one day, kids, the whole works which help let you know if that person is the right one for you.

    On our second date, he brought pizza over my house and we watched “Dream Boat”. We both got really hard looking at the hot guys in the movie and ended up giving each other hand jobs that night, which was perfectly fine. I mean, it took well over two hours to give each other hand jobs even though only fifteen minutes of that was him giving me one…he was SO much slower to shoot than me. But that didn’t matter to me. We were both horny and it’s fine to give in to some temptation. By the way, I don’t blame those who have hookups. I just thought that if I ever personally do anything physical, I have to do that with someone I see some future with. And this was something I saw a future in, so why not? Right?

    Things went well for about a week until I went to go visit him at work and as I was leaving, I accidentally forgot he wasn’t Larry and said “See you later, love you Larry”. In retrospect, that wasn’t my best move but Keith texted me once more after that to say goodbye. In that final text, he told me I wasn’t ready for love yet which was likely true. But he also told me the reason it took him over two hours of getting a hand job to shoot. The reason was that he really wasn’t attracted to me anyway. I mean, it was kind of a dick move to call me unattractive at the end of our relationship but I was kind of a dick to say “I love you” to him and include my ex’s name. So, I let it slide.

    Again, I was back on Grindr and opening my phone everywhere I went, hoping that the search radius for guys would be just wide enough to allow me to see someone new, someone who would be my next boyfriend. And sure enough, I was working about a half hour from home when a boy named Jim found me on the app and said I looked cute. Within twenty minutes, he was already asking me on a date because he knew I was busy at work and only had so much time to chat.

    We went on our first date and then a second and a third. Each time, we spent a good half hour French kissing in the parking lot of whatever store we chose to meet up at. Things went so well that by the fourth time I met up with him, it was at his house meeting his parents and I stayed the night.  His parents long went to bed and him and I were left in the living room watching television and talking.

    That’s when we started kissing and kissing led to us both getting hard which we each took notice of. At this point, I already told him of my past experiences of not knowing how to give a proper blowjob but in the heat of the moment, I asked him if he was alright with my trying my mouth at it and seeing if I could succeed this time.

    I slowly went down and wrapped my lips around his cock. It tasted so sweet and I loved it. I began to stroke and suck on it with my lips and he began to hold his hands on the back of my head which I knew was a good sign. Before too long, he was shooting his load into my throat and I was swallowing every drop for the first time in my life. And I fucking loved it. I don’t mean to sound like a cheap whore but I realized just how much I love the taste of cum.

    I sat back up on his couch and pulled down my pants to the ground so he could have a good look at what was next on his menu. But he just sat there watching television again. Even when I tried getting on top of him and clearly showing him I was still hard by pushing my cock into his chest, he told me to calm down.

    I was obviously upset and went up to his bedroom, jerked off and then came back down. He just laughed. When I told him how upset I was, he just told me we would try again in the morning. And when we did try again, I chose to have him do me first. He just used his hand and some lube to get me to the finish line. No mouth at all. Although he did tell me later that he rarely uses his mouth because he gets bored after a few seconds of going down on a guy…well, too fucking bad I thought to myself because even for me it gets boring but you know how much your partner loves it so you keep fucking sucking his cock. Pretty simple, I thought to myself.

    We spent the next few weeks hanging out at each of our houses with lots of romantic dates, dinners, and sleepovers. I would blow him, he would hand me. That’s the way our relationship worked I guess. I told him that I was beginning to fall in love with him, he told me he was starting to have some feelings for me too. And this was fantastic to hear.

    Right around Christmas season, a whole three months into our relationship, he finally put his mouth around my cock and gave me…one…whole…stroke up and down before lubing me up and using his hand to take me to the finish line…and that was after about an hour of begging like a sad puppy for him to go down on me after all the times I’ve swallowed his cum already. But stupid me, I took that as a victory.

    Closer to Christmas we had a fantastic and romantic date night. We got back to his place and no one was home so we decided to try something bigger. I knew it wasn’t going to be perfect and honestly had my doubts it was going to work at all but we tried anal. He put his cock against my hole and he kept losing his boner.

    Now, it’s important to note that I know of such things as ED. I know they exist and I’m in no way making fun of those who have those conditions. But Jim didn’t have that or anything like it. I knew he wasn’t a virgin and all he ever did was top. Oddly enough, we ran into two of his exes already at this point in our relationship and they kept telling me how hard Jim always was around them. I heard how easy it was for Jim to fuck them. I heard how Jim’s sex drive was especially strong and these exes felt so bad for me from how much sex Jim must have wanted from me all the time. It was such a weird conversation in the middle of a mall that day.

    But anyway, Jim couldn’t keep it hard enough to penetrate my ass and it honestly fucked with my head for quite some time. I thought it was me. So, I bought myself an anal training kit and practiced every night like clockwork. Twenty minutes a night having a butt plug in my ass, each week switching to the next size higher in the kit.

    Christmas went by great and it was honestly the first time in my life where I got to spend Christmas with an entire family gathered around. Granted, that family was Jim’s family but I never had much of a family so it was a welcome feeling to have a holiday to celebrate.

    New Year’s 2019 was fantastic. I got my first ever midnight kiss to ring in the new year and when I woke in the morning at his place, Jim had already gone off to work. He asked me if I could fix something on his computer since I am a sort of tech guy and so I went on his computer to help him out.

    That’s when some guy texted him pictures of his cock. Jim had an iMac so his text messages get sent to his iMac and his phone. So, curiosity struck me and I opened up the message to see. Sure enough, Jim and this guy were texting back and forth pictures, video clips of each other cumming, and dirty talking for several months. But he wasn’t alone. There were a dozen other guys who were texting Jim in the same way. All of which were over sixty years old. I mean, you have to keep in mind that I’m 26 and Jim is only 27 so it was very weird to say the least.

    But Jim’s whole explanation for it was that he thought I would allow him this sort of freedom. And stupid me, I thought I didn’t make it clear that we were exclusive. So, I gave him another chance.

    I kept training with my anal kit and about three weeks after Christmas, we tried again to have anal. Again, Jim never even got his tip inside of my ass. And I hit an all-time low. I was so frustrated at work from my company doing poorly back in January that all I wanted was to be fucked and feel used in some way. But Jim couldn’t give me even that. And although he knew how sad I was about my work, all he did was just wrap his hand around my cock with some lube and jerk me. Not even then was I able to fuck his mouth.

    We kept going on dates and building our relationship. But then in the start of February, I spied on him. Yeah, I know it was wrong of me but I truly didn’t trust him anymore that he wouldn’t cheat. And sure enough, he was still cheating. He was still telling guys we had an open relationship and this time, he was chatting with the 60-year-old guys about going over to their houses and doing things with them, although he never actually did because I knew he was actually working or with me when those messages were sent. You heard that one right, he was beside me in bed sometimes when he was sexting them…how unattractive do I have to be to have my 4-month boyfriend sexting someone when Jim could’ve turned around and asked me to help him?

    It wasn’t fair but he promised not to text anyone else. His claim was that he was trying to find friends who would be willing to come over for a bukkake party with me in the center one day. Hence my story on the bukkake sex dungeon he promised to build me one day. Stupid me, I let it slide again and gave him another chance.

    On Valentine’s day we had a very romantic dinner and went for a nice romantic walk with a fire. It was beautiful. When we got back to his place, we tried once more to have anal. This time, I tried leaving a big dildo up my ass for almost a half hour before just to make sure my ass was loose enough for him to enter. He even held the dildo in his hand and used it to fuck me which was kind of hot. But the moment he tried replacing it with his dick, he got very soft.

    That was my lowest point and I don’t even think I got off that night at all. I remember going to the bathroom and just sitting in his shower crying. He must have heard me but he didn’t come in after me. When I worked up the energy to go back into his room, he was already sleeping. To this day, I still can’t tell you what hurt worse, the fact that I failed again at losing my virginity or the fact that he didn’t care enough about me to even stay awake. I know one thing’s for sure, I should have been hurt more by the fact that THIS was the guy who I wanted to take my virginity. I only have one virgin card to give and why I thought he was good enough to take it, is beyond me.

    That was the final time we ever tried anal. From then on, I would give him a blowjob and he would give me a hand job in return. Don’t get me wrong, we had our moments. We went to sex shops and he encouraged me to get a tail so I could roleplay as I always wanted to with Pup Play. He even treated me like a puppy and tied me up to the bed with my arm and leg straps. He would gag me and blindfold me. He would finger my ass and whip me. But never once other than that one time before Christmas, did he ever wrap his lips around my cock. And never once after that third date did he ever let me French kiss him.

    Near the end of April, he was moved into his new house which he had all to himself. He would tell me his plans to put an office into one of his spare bedrooms so I had a place to work and he promised me that by my birthday in July, I would be able to live with him full time if I wanted. And believe me, I wanted to. I was and still am sick of living with my dad. I mean, yeah I love him but I need space too. I need space to jerk off or walk around naked if I wanted, wear my tail in my ass to dinner, get whipped, bark, and moan without anyone being able to hear me and judge me.

    Jim would tell me all his grand plans to marry me someday and he even considered adopting kids with me someday when the time was right. I felt as if he was on the cusp of telling me he loved me for the first time when we hit our six-month anniversary. I celebrated our six months and posted to Facebook. I couldn’t wait to go see him and kiss him. I couldn’t wait for dinner that night with him. But he never said it. He heard me say it for the millionth time in our relationship but he just said “Awe, that’s so sweet of you”.

    It bothered me a lot…It fucked with my head and he knew it. I was so in love with him and I kept telling myself there was something there in return because he was promising me an office, to live with him, to marry him…

    I was at work one day about a month later when a friend texted me a screenshot of Jim’s text messages to him. Turns out, Jim began texting one of my best friends who was our age and also gay, asking my friend to start sexting. Jim actually wanted one of my good friends to cheat on me with and honestly thought I wouldn’t find out.

    That was my final straw. I gave him four chances and each time, he cheated on me. His only rational as to why he had to sext other guys was that while he felt an emotional connection to me, in his eyes, I wasn’t attractive enough to do anything physical with.

    That’s why every time I went down on him and looked up to see how good I was making him feel, he just had his eyes closed, thinking of something else. That’s why when he gave me a handy, he would complain about his arm getting tired after a whole minute and a half. That’s why he couldn’t ever keep his dick hard enough to fuck me. According to him, that’s why we broke up…because I wasn’t attractive enough for him.

    I guess that’s the reason I’ve spent the past month diving deeper into my work, hoping to distract myself long enough to get tired enough to fall asleep. I guess that’s why every time I wake up, I feel nauseous when I look across my bed and see no one there. But who was I fooling? He only ever stayed over my house three whole times in our seven-month relationship so he was hardly ever here anyway.

    But what I can’t figure out is why he still has a hold on me like this? Since we broke up, I’ve downloaded all the apps again: Grindr, Surge, Adam4Adam, Scruff, Recon, Kinksters (I’m a very kinky person who loves Pup Play so those last three are sort of perfect for guys like me). But I hardly open those apps and even when a boy messages me and things are going well, I fear a boy asking me out.  

    I truly can’t seem to figure out if I’m, in some fucked up way, still in love with Jim and just need some time to heal my heart before moving on, or am I afraid of love? Was I so hurt by Jim and the other boys that I fear that no love, no matter how good it is, will ever work out? I keep thinking to myself and asking others around me the question “when do you know?” When do you know a person is the right one for you? Obviously, I can go seven months and think everything is going great, overlooking all the things which make it imperfect, and then things can blow up. So, at what point in a relationship can you trust that person will be there for you, forever?

    I even got myself a new Fleshjack just because I never had my own but I used to use Jim’s one. Yeah, pretty sad that I had to resort to using his Fleshjack when I was at his house alone because I couldn’t trust that when I got him off, Jim would get me off too. But I treated myself for once in my life and got one this past month and it’s fantastic but I’m tired of using it, hoping to feel a tad better.

    The truly fucked up part is that I can’t write any more break-up songs telling the world how bad Jim is. I can’t ask my family for more advice because every time, they have the same “there’s plenty of fish” kind of speech for me. I can’t even write a fun and juicy story for my fans out there and help them have a cum-filled night of fun hearing about my fantasies. I’ve only ever had one fantasy though through all my writing…to have a boyfriend who wants to fuck me.

    I thought being open about being gay was going to be easier. When I heard about straight relationships, I knew couples waited a while to have full sex because there was always the risk of having a kid early-on in the relationship. I knew as a gay guy, I would still have to use condoms but from everything I heard, I thought a boy would be all over me and I would be all over him. The three guys I dated came from the hookup culture where they had sex on night one of a relationship in a parking lot in the dark. I thought they’d at the very least be able to be physical with me because that’s all they wanted with others. But they didn’t want sex at all with me. Can you even imagine how much that fucks with my brain?

    Larry spent three months abusing me, never wanting to kiss me, and ended things by telling me that I was too good for him. Keith spent a week with me, let me kiss him but wasn’t attracted to me enough to get off without hours of work. And Jim spent seven months with me, never letting me kiss him the way I wanted to, thinking of other guys when I went down on him, never going down on me, acting like it was a chore for him to jerk me off, never kept it hard enough to fuck me, and while promising me the world, ended things by telling me I’m ugly.

    After all this time, I was hoping to come back to writing stories and be able to tell you how it went. I thought I would finally have a story which didn’t talk about my fantasies but instead told you the truth…well, I guess in some ways I finally get to do that but not in the way you or I wanted to.

    It’s been a long month after the breakup of pouring myself deeper into my work, hoping to distract myself. On days that there’s no work to do, it’s been a long month of going for long enough walks in the middle of the night just to be so tired when I got home that I would be able to get a quick cold shower, jerk off, and fall asleep with my cum sock still wrapped around my cock. (Yeah, that story a while back of the cum sock was one of my fantasies too of my boyfriend staying over and finding my crusty sock under my pillow).

    But I don’t know where else to turn. I honestly don’t know who can help me find a boyfriend so I wouldn’t be so lonely here. I mean I’m in no way thinking that I should end it all. I’m not thinking that so please don’t worry but my mind has gone past the “fucked” stage of the game. For three boys to not find me attractive enough to fuck but yet nice enough to date, it really fucks with your brain. Even when two of them have read all my stories and are the only two people in the world to know my pen name and my real name, for them never to want to recreate one of these stories for me to make one of my fantasies come true, it really does a number on your heart.

    On the plus side, I now know what cum tastes like and I’ve improved my skills at giving blowjobs. I figured out that I’m ready to move out of my family’s house and live on my own, although I don’t think this month is the perfect time for that considering how lonely I feel. I figured out that I want my next boyfriend to be both a top and a bottom so I can experience both. And I figured out that if you pour yourself into your work enough, it actually does produce some awesome quality products for your clients while at the same time putting an incredible toll on your mental health. Lol.

    On a lighter note, I’m hoping to come back in full swing with cum-oozing stories really soon. I love writing these stories and I’ve learned that any boy worth keeping should be happy that I share my fantasies with my readers. After all, it’s easier for him to figure out what he can do to make those fantasies come true then.

    And while this specific story of mine may not help you get to the finish line, I know some of my readers have been wanting me to come back. Many of you have been reaching out to me, asking me for another story. Since they didn’t know my true identity, they didn’t know I was in a relationship and part of this was to catch you up to speed on what’s been going on. The other reason why I wrote this was to hopefully get out whatever emotions I’m feeling right now. It’s been a month and I still can’t go a day without thinking of Jim or hoping my phone will suddenly ring with a text message from someone who cares for me and wants to spend forever with me.

    Unbelievably, writing it all out I think has helped a little. It’s too soon to tell how much it helped but it has helped so thanks for reading and stay tuned for more regular Alexxx stories cumming very soon.

    Luv you all, Alex.

  • Sweet Angel, Mine

    Chapter One

    I needed the money. Floyd, my partner of 35 years had been dead for a year and a half and in my grieving process, I found myself in a lot of debt. One could only go on so many cruises or extended trips abroad in order to avoid sleeping alone in a bed you shared for over three decades before he found himself in my position: 58 -years- old and just barely able to scrape by from month to month.

    I needed the money and I was lonely in that big three-bedroom house so it made sense for me to rent out the other two rooms.

    For two weeks many undesirables passed through wanting to rent one or both rooms but I just didn’t feel safe. They either had noticeable drug habits, seemed abhorred at the notion of a background and credit check, or tried to talk me down from $700 a month with no extra charge for internet, cable and utilities.

    I had almost resided myself to the notion that I might just have to put the house up for sale and downsize to a small apartment. A shitty way to live the rest of my life, but it beat sinking further into a mountain of debt. On the very morning that I had made up my mind to call a real estate agent and set the ball in motion for selling the house, two of the most beautiful young men I had ever seen came to inquire about renting the place. Their names were Kendrick and Damon. Kendrick looked as if he had been sculpted rather than born. His chiseled cheek bones and physique were the personification of beauty. His dark black skin was so shiny and vibrant it appeared liquid. Damon was plain by comparison. Much lighter skinned, he did not possess the attributes that made Kendrick stunning. He was skinny and though handsome, he wasn’t likely to ever be considered better looking than or ever equally as handsome as Kendrick. He seemed self -conscious and quite dull next to Kendrick’s radiant black beauty.

    “The room is $700, but since you are a couple, I am going to have to charge a thousand.”

    “Oh, we’re not a couple.” Said Kendrick. Poor Damon looked crestfallen. I wasn’t stupid. Those two were definitely fucking, Damon just hadn’t caught on yet that it was supposed to just be fucking.

    “So, will you be renting separate rooms?”

    “Umm, we can’t really afford to do that.” Said Damon. “Kendrick is between jobs but we can share a room and pay the $1,000.” Kendrick looked like he wanted to beat that boy’s ass. I actually respected him for his honesty.

    “I am going to have a job soon!” Fired Kendrick. “I will give you every cent of your Goddamn money back so you can stop trying to make it out to people like your ass is taking care of me.” Kendrick stormed out of the house and slammed the door as if his ass was already a tenant.

    “I am so sorry, Mr….”

    “Randolph. Just call me Randolph ,young man, and you don’t owe me an apology.”

    “He’s really a great guy, Randolph; he’s just been under a lot of stress lately.”

    “Do you give me your word that your friend is not going to make me catch a charge because I am not too far removed from my switch blade sissy days.” I made a stabbing gesture. He smiled the warmest, most heart melting smile I’d seen since Floyd’s. This young man was indeed beautiful.

    “I promise. I am going to be honest with you, we really need somewhere to go. Kendrick came to stay with me at my sister’s place a couple of weeks ago and this morning she was like he had to go if he couldn’t contribute to the bills.”

    “So, you actually have a place to stay, you’re just looking out for him?”

    “I know I am stupid. My sister told me so this morning. I love him though.”

    “Oh sweetheart, I really don’t think you know what love is.” I hated to be condescending with the lad but damn, why couldn’t he see that in spite of his best effort, Kendrick was never going to reciprocate the feeling. I was tempted to refuse rental because I didn’t feel comfortable seeing someone get used but shit, that boy was old enough to choose dick over stability and I was in no position to turn down and extra thousand dollars a month, so I showed him around the place. Damon selected the second biggest bedroom, the one right across from mine, for him and Kendrick. He placed $1,500 in my hand along with a promise to have the rest of the security deposit to me by the end of the week. I trusted him for some reason. He wouldn’t risk losing a place for Kendrick to stay.

    Chapter Two

    Two weeks in and three things were becoming painfully clear, Kendrick wasn’t trying to get a job, Kendrick didn’t give a shit about anyone accept Kendrick and Kendrick was getting on my last goddamn nerve.

    Vain to no end, he showered and changed clothes multiple times a day but didn’t bother to pick up after himself in the bathroom leaving things for Damon to tidy up before he left for or after he came home from one of his two jobs. Yes, the poor fool had managed to find himself another job, while Kendrick would go out all day claiming to have put in applications with no luck.

    What really pissed me off was the way that he took poor Damon for granted, talked down to him, and only seemed to want him around when he needed to get off.

    One morning I was awakened by their loud animalistic fucking. I peeped my head out of my bedroom door and just as I had suspected, theirs was wide open. Seeing Kendrick in all his glory, I understood why Damon was a willing fool. Kendrick’s dick would have made a male pony hang his head in shame. It was as beautiful and black as the rest of him. He stood behind Damon who was bent across the edge of the bed and slammed himself in and out of him causing sweet, shy Damon to utter a string of obscenities that sounded almost demonic coming from his otherwise respectful mouth.

    I quietly shut the door, ashamed of the fact that I was fully aroused having seen what I’d had no business seeing. Unable to remove the image from my head or not hear their moans and swears of ecstasy, I took a bottle of baby oil from my dresser and drenched my hard-throbbing cock. My eyes closed, my cock in my hand, I thought of my beloved Floyd, when we were both young and vibrant. His beautiful light honey colored skin, his greenish brown eyes, his humble demeanor was so much like……Damon! That’s whose face I was starting to see. His moans from across the hall sounded as if he was right there in the room with me. My dick grew firmer and firmer with every stroke.

    “I love you! I love you!” I heard him shriek from across the hall as I skeeted damn near across the length of my room.

    “I love you too.” I whispered because Kendrick damn sure didn’t say it to him.

    Still feeling vibrant after my morning nut, I went for a walk into town, something that Floyd and I enjoyed doing. Our small little college town had so many unique book stores, boutiques, and cafes. It had indeed been a long time since I’d ventured out because Rosie’s, my favorite sandwich shop, was now named Budd’s. It still had the same billboard and décor but new ownership. Bless his heart, Roosevelt Jennings the previous owner had told me and Floyd he planned to sell and retire to the Bahamas.

    In the year and a half following Floyd’s passing I spent so much time away, I hadn’t bothered to keep in touch with old friends. So, imagine my pain when I saw Old Rosie’s picture on the wall with the dates 1959- 2017. While grief for my partner had me running away to escape the area, I missed the passing of a very close friend.

    I kissed my right hand and touched Rosie’s picture with it. Goodbye Old Friend. Please Forgive me.

    “Randolph.” Smiled Damon. God did he look cute in his uniform. The turquoise shirt made his greenish brown eyes pop. “Sit down, let me take your order.”

    “I am really not familiar with the food here; what is good?”

    “They have a pretty good tuna melt, the five-meat hoagie is popular with customers, they also have some good burgers and hot subs, plus their muffins and cake slices are great.”

    “Which cake do you prefer?”

    “I am partial to their carrot cake.”

    “Well, let me get a slice of that and a cup of coffee.”

    “Coming right up.” He smiled

    “Carter, take a break after you serve the gentleman.” Instructed the rotund white man behind the counter. That was the first time I had heard Damon’s last name. Had he and Kendrick made off with any of my possessions, I would not have any idea who exactly to send the law after.

    “Here you are.” He said setting my cake and coffee in front of me. To my delight he sat down at the table across from me.

    “Are you a musician?” He asked “I noticed that there is a piano and an acoustic guitar in the living room I was just wondering.”

    “For years I was this town’s high school band and chorus teacher. I retired a couple of years ago when Floyd passed away.”

    “Floyd?”

    “My partner, the love of my life. The handsome gentleman in the picture on the right side of the mantle.”

    “Oh, I was wondering who he was. I wanted to ask but Kendrick said I asked too many questions and it’s rude to pry.”

    “Kendrick sure does have an interesting perspective on things.” I frowned. “This cake is pretty good.”

    “I told you it was good. So, if I may ask; how long were you and Floyd together?”

    “We were together 35 wonderful years.”

    “Wow, me and Kendrick have been together for three”

    Oh, sweetheart, you and Kendrick are not together.

    “Is that so?”

    “Yea, we met at a party, hooked up that night and have been in each other’s lives ever since. My sister, Jennifer, she hates Kendrick. She thinks he uses me. I don’t feel that way. Do you think Kendrick uses me?”

    Sugar coat it, Randolph.

    “You know what young man, I don’t feel that I have known either of you long enough to have an opinion either way.”

    “I appreciate that.” He smiled. “I’ve got get back to work, it’s starting to get busy in here again.”

    “Well, you can go ahead and take me plate, I am not going to finish this whole slice of cake. I’ve got to keep my girlish figure.”

    He chuckled as he collected my dish.

    “Angel.” I said reading the tattoo neatly inked on his right wrist.

    “It’s my mother’s nickname for me. I got it a few months ago when she passed away.”

    “Oh, I am so sorry. You must have meant a lot to her.”

    “I am her youngest.”

    “You know that name suits you.”

    “Thanks.” He blushed. “Kendrick hates it because he said it sounds weak.” He started to walk away then returned to the table to say, “I wouldn’t mind if you called me Angel, Randolph, just don’t do it around Kendrick. I will be back with your ticket.”

    Maybe it was my wishful thinking but Damon sounded very damn flirtatious when he asked me to call him Angel.

    Chapter Three

    For two days Angel was bursting at the seams over having Thursday, Friday, and Saturday off at both of his jobs. He was like a giddy child whenever he would discuss with me in private all of the special things he had planned for him and Kendrick.

    I felt both sad and warm inside as he named some of the many destinations that Floyd and I enjoyed, like the drive in and the local paint and sip café.

    Kendrick came home Wednesday afternoon, excited over the fact that he had reconnected with his ex, Christoph on social media and the two were going out of town together for a few days.

    My heart hurt for poor Angel who watched the man he loved pack his suitcase and go on and on about the anticipated nights of love making with Christoph. To add insult to injury, poor Angel was instructed not to call or text Kendrick while he was away.

    That night I ordered pizza and cinnamon sticks for the two of us. Angel thanked me, announced that he wasn’t hungry and went off to bed.

    The next morning Angel was alarmingly cheery. Maybe he had cried enough through the night that he had no more sadness left inside of him.

    ‘You have anything planned for the day?” He asked me.

    “I was probably going to take a scroll into town, do a little window shopping; perhaps some actual shopping.”

    “You mind having company?”

    “Of course not. I would be honored.”

    “Thank you, Randolph. I really appreciate you. Today is going to be good.”

    I hadn’t laughed so hard or had so much fun since Floyd passed away. All of the vacations I took after his passing were an escape but they did not bring me they joy that spending the day with this beautiful young man did.

    I was quite impressed with his ability to differentiate antique items and vintage clothes from junk when we were in thrift stores.

    At some point I was so occupied with the stores impressive volume of record albums that I hadn’t noticed when he had snuck away to the counter and made a purchase. Whatever it was, he held onto for dear life.

    “A gift for Kendrick?” I enquired as we were walking down Main Street.

    “No. Could we please not talk about him. I am sure he isn’t talking about either of us.”

    Well Goddamn.

    “I understand.”

    We enjoyed lattes at the local coffee house. In spite of his wish to not discuss Kendrick, I noticed that Angel would check his phone every so often and look disappointed by the fact that Kendrick hadn’t so much as texted him a hi.

    “Randolph, did Floyd ever hurt you?”

    “Yes, early in our relationship he hurt me really bad. He cheated on me with one of my friends.”

    “How did you deal with it?”

    “I was as your young people like to say, petty as hell about it. I fucked his cousin.”

    “What; Randolph, really?”

    “We were both young, dumb and full of cum. We risked losing each other over some meaningless fucking with meaningless people. Eventually we forgave one another and the rest is history.”

    “How many times can a person hurt and disappoint you before it’s time to stop forgiving them?”

    “Angel,” I said reaching across the table and touching his hand. “You’re going to have to figure that out for yourself, baby.”

    “This has really been a great day; thank you so much, Randolph.”

    “The pleasure was all mine young man.”

    I didn’t expect him to hug me, but God was I grateful that he did. He clung to me tightly and I inhaled the sweet aroma of cocoa butter on his skin. I gently kissed him on his neck. He broke our embrace but didn’t seem upset by what I had did

    “Oh, I got this for you.” He said handing me the mystery purchase from the thrift store. ‘Good night Randolph.” He went to his room before I had a chance to offer a “thank you” or “good night”. Inside the bag there was a brown box decorated with gold paisleys. Inside the box was a beautiful boy angel figurine. If I hadn’t known any better, I would have sworn that Damon/Angel had been the model for it. Written on the base on which the little black cherub stood were the words, Sweet Angel, Mine.

    I hugged the figurine close to myself the way that wanted to again hug the boy. I went to bed telling myself that it was just an appreciation gift and it didn’t mean anything more.

    Chapter Four

    I awoke the next morning to the sound of piano playing. I instantly recognized the melody because I was in the middle of composing it when Floyd had taken sick. I put it on hold to take care of Floyd and abandoned it all together when he died. The three pages that I had managed to complete were being played expertly. I got out of bed and went into the living room where Angel sat at the piano, tears streaming down his cheeks and playing the unnamed song throwing his every emotion into each key stroke.

    “I am tired of loving somebody who doesn’t love me.” He said never interrupting his playing or turning around to acknowledge my presence. “I should be spending time with my siblings. I pretty much gave my sister my behind to kiss trying to secure a place for him. I am tired of him fucking me and me hoping, praying that he will just fall in love with me a little. I am tired of not being enough for someone that I have been everything for.” He destroyed the beautiful melody by crudely raking his hand over all the keys. He swiveled around on the piano bench to face me.

    “You, play beautifully.” I said out of complete lost for anything else to say to him. He reached oud and touched my crotch. Instantly my cock sprang erect and poked through the hole in my boxers. He snatched them down to my ankles. I don’t know if the boy was possessed or what but he sucked my dick with such intensity it felt as if he was trying to snatch my soul. Spit trailed down my balls and inner thighs as he took my monstrous cock deep down his throat.

    What the fuck was wrong with Kendrick. Good as Angel could suck a dick he deserved to be somebody’s one and only.

    He didn’t let up even when I announced that I was on the verge of coming. He sucked the nut right out of me, swallowing every drop. When he finished, he simply got up and returned to his room leaving me there with my underwear around my ankle and my semi hard dick dripping his saliva.

    “I am sorry about this morning.” He apologized when we ran into each other in the kitchen around noon. “If you want us to leave, I will understand.”

    “Angel, it’s okay. I am not offended. Thank you. You made me feel very good.”

    “I swear to God I didn’t do that to be petty. I doubt if Kendrick would care anyway. You have just been so nice to me and I really like you Randolph and I just wanted to make you feel as special as you make me feel.”

    “I make you feel special?”

    “Yes. I don’t know but I think I am catching feelings for you Randolph. Today is the first day in three years that I didn’t care if Kendrick texted or messaged me. I spent the whole morning instead hoping that you would want to ___________”

    Before he could get the words out of his mouth, I had his basketball shorts pulled down around his ankles and him bent over eating his sweet young ass in the place of my afternoon lunch. He damn near climbed up on top of the counter as my tongue went deeper into his cotton candy pink asshole.

    “Oh shit! Oh shit!” he uttered as I alternated between licking in a circle and giving him quick puppy laps. I ripped his boxers from around his ankles and casted them aside. I wanted him to have full ability to open his legs wide for me. I turned him over onto his back, His asshole was drenched in my saliva so my pulsating head slid right in.

    “Oh Shit!” He said wrapping his legs around my waist. His asshole was an inferno and gripped my dick like a vice. I wanted it to last for hours but it just wasn’t meant to be. I hadn’t fucked in so long and his ass was so good, I exploded deep inside him. His legs dangled limp around my waist as lay on the counter top, enraptured.

    That night he slept in my bed. Well, I wouldn’t say slept. The one time I had managed to doze off after our love making, I awoke to him massaging my dick erect. Not wanting to shame or startle him, I pretended to still be sleep. When he had me to my fullest potential he took the bottle of massage oil from the night stand and lubed my dick until I was so hard it had actually begun to hurt.

    Careful, not to disturb my sleep,He mounted me placing me inside of himself. Once he began his ride I startled his young ass by grabbing his waist and flipping him over onto his side. I raised his right leg across my shoulder as I tore into his ass with reckless abandon. The boy was going to learn to ask me for dick, not just take it. His little freaky ass loved every minute of my hard pounding. Just when I’d get him hyped from being fucked in one position, I’d change on him and introduce him to a new one. There were a lot of years between 58 and 23 and I was damn determined to show him that with age came wisdom in all aspect of life, including fucking.

    His little potty mouth was out of control yelling obscenity after obscenity. The boy came so hard we were both sprayed in the face. I didn’t care. That boy’s mouth and ass had drunk so much of me cum, how dare I be upset by some of his in my face?

    “I love you, I love!” He declared as I filled his insides

    “Open those pretty eyes.” I ordered. I looked him dead in the eyes when he I said, “I love you, Damon, I Love you.”

    “Call me angle.” He whispered to me wrapping himself tighter around me.

    “Angel. My Angel. Sweet Angel, mine.”

    We clung to each other for the rest of the night.

    Chapter Five

    Kendrick arrived home the next morning. A whole day earlier than expected. He threw his suitcase across the living room floor.

    “That bastard!” he yelled not giving a damn that at 7:00 A.M. Angel and I might have still been sleeping. “How dare he invite his ex. How dare he send me home in a fucken Uber!!! Damon! Damon, I need you.” He walked to him and Damon’s room. “Where the fuck is he; goddamn it I am going through something!”

    Not bothering to knock he flung my bedroom door open

    “Hey Randolph have you seen_________” He was frozen for a solid minute. Neither me nor Angel made an attempt to move away from each other or show the least little bit of shame or remorse for our actions.

    “You are laying up in bed with this old ass man; bitch you know you’re nasty!” raged Kendrick. When neither of us gave him the reaction that he wanted he stormed out of my room slamming the door behind him.

    When we finally got out of bed for the day, Kendrick was gone, but not before smashing the frames to some of my pictures and scrolling many of Angels possessions throughout the house.

    “I will replace the frames for you.” Said Angel.

    “I will help you get your things back in order.” In less than ten minutes the two of us had undid the damage caused by Kendrick’s tantrum.

    “Are you okay?” I asked.

    “Yes. I spent three years dreading the day that Kendrick would walk out of my life for good, but today, I am glad that he did.” We kissed, for no other reason than the fact that we could.

    “Call me Angel.” He whispered to me.

    “Sweet Angel, Mine.” I whispered to him as I lifted him off his feet and carried him to our bedroom.

    The End


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  • Man’s Dream: Taken by Another Man

    …Next I find myself in a room absolutely alone, sitting on the edge of a bed, and as it happens in dreams, the premonition of something inevitable, frightful and insurmountable is already nagging at the back of my mind. The rasping sound of a key in the door startles me, stirs up the sensation of the inner fatalistic alarm even more: into the room comes a tall man of the Latino complexion, quietly approaches the bed and sits down next to me.

    In a low sonorous voice he tells me: “Your appeal has been rejected, and you are to be taken by man forever”. I feel frozen by the sentence, trying to press out of my vocal cords a hint of protest but to no avail because of a lump in my throat. He tenderly takes my hand and brings it to his manhood, slowly unzipping his fly. He doesn’t need to say anything extra, he doesn’t have to nudge my body or head towards the ultimate source of his male force. He knows the power of his manhood – all that he does is just to casually unzip his fly, unfasten his belt and slowly take out his powerful “IT”, guiding my hand to touch it, confidently knowing that the sight and the touch alone would be enough to break my will, take away protection and resistance, send the embarrassing shivers all over my body, implant in my mind the total shameful inevitability of giving my total male self to another man, abandoning all my man’s power of volition. This simple demonstration is enough to deliver the shockwave-sending verdict: “You will be possessed by another man and imbued with his male will and power completely from the inside out, and it is as inevitable as destiny, it’s started to happen.”

    My gaze is shamefully riveted to his manhood against my own will, and the hot touch of it to my hand sends the electric waves through my hand all over my body that start draining my resistance. I’m instinctively trying to resist this invisible overpowering force, at the same time feeling inside that the loss of this fight is inevitable in front of this wall of masculine sexual might.

    I, with electric shivers rippling down my spine, apologetically touch his “IT” with my lips, trying to placate the master with caress and avoid him taking total possession of me and stripping me of all my male self and freewill, yet subliminally this sense of inevitability of having to give myself to this man never goes.

    Driven by this forlorn hope to earn a pardon from the total defeat, I warmly and cozily wrap my lips and the velvety blanket of my tongue around his manhood, and start slowly sucking on it as gently as a baby suckling at its mother’s breast. I feel the acute shameful embarrassment of my erection, but not the erection brought on by my male force, but by the invisible humiliating power emanating from the source of master’s manhood, streaming in waves of shivers through my body, disarming and subjugating it.

    I start feeling the paralyzing taste of his pre-cum, the light pre-orgasmic shivers going through his body and almost whispering gasps, which fetters what little left of my male freewill and strength of resistance even more. The subliminal sensation of the implacable fate is gradually infusing every fibre of my being, the predestined design dictating against my will that my supplicating caress – my only form of resistance left to delay and avoid his ultimate possession of me – is only preparing his manhood for the act of taking all of my male self: my man’s will, my man’s strength and my man’s honour. The acute embarrassment is nagging in my subconscious that I’m doomed to obediently help him prepare for taking me because not doing so would make him take me even sooner.

    Yet I feel a false glimpse of hope that I will be able with a few more tender strokes of my tongue over his glans to beg him into releasing the liquid fire of his male power into my mouth, which would save me from the ultimate humiliation of turning totally into a girl and losing the last vestiges of my male self.

    I double the tenderness of my gentle baby-like suckling at his foreskin and glans, and continue imploringly stroke the two gigantic rocks of his testicles with the tips of my fingers, silently, almost prayingly, supplicating him to mitigate the punishment and release his man’s force into the homey velvety warmth of my mouth.

    Yet subconsciously I feel that it is not to happen, no mitigation can be deserved and he will take me: he will penetrate me and impregnate every cell of my body from the inside out with his male self, with the ultimate extract of his man’s will, stripping me of my own male power and will forever.

    I feel his hand on my head, as he slowly moves me away from “IT” and it sends another wave of shivers of doomed helplessness down my spine with the fatalistic sensation that the destiny of giving myself to the man is unavoidable and predetermined.

    All that I have any will for is to mumble under my breath, without hearing my own voice: “Please..”, followed by a terse calm verdict escaping from his lips “It’s time”. After that everything happens like in a dream within a dream, with my total loss of control against the firewall of his male sexual power. He roles me over onto my stomach and starts unfastening my belt and pulling down my jeans – slowly, implacably, fatefully. I feel absolutely petrified and immobilized with the mixture of the fatalistic anticipation of the unavoidable ultimate humiliation of being permeated – replaced inside out – with another male, turning me into a girl, and the inevitable consummation of this humiliation with my own shameful orgasmic meltdown – the ultimate confirmation of my own male will and identity being overpowered and replaced not by physical force, not by deception or drug, but by the invisible domination of the sexual might of another man over me.

    I still feel some impulses of resistance, but, as with a common dream, where victim tries in vain to run away from a powerful pursuer but cannot move because the legs suddenly become heavy and stiff, and body immobilized, I feel paralyzed and totally fettered. All that I am left with is the self-defeating hope against hope that I will wake up before the irreversible happens, at the same time subconsciously knowing that it is going to happen, and not to someone else but to my self.

    He doesn’t stop at just pulling my underpants knee-high, he totally removes them, never touching the rest of my clothes except for lifting the bottom edge of my shirt to just entirely uncover my bottom.

    He doesn’t rush as he pragmatically stuffs under my hips a cushion to slightly lift up my bottom, for he knows that I am already immobilized by the electric spasms sent by his masculine force through my body, fettered by the insuperable waves of his male might heralding the inevitable, shameful will-breaking climax in me.

    He moves apart my legs with ruthless calmness, total silence hanging unbroken.

    As with many dreams and their typical “out-of-body” experiences, I suddenly see myself from outside, never losing the inside perspective at the same time: I see the indescribable childlike helplessness and fragility of my body, laying prostrate on my front, shivering with the apprehension of inevitable, the naked legs wide apart, the shirt bottom hitched up laying bare my bottom, partially propped up with the cushion under my hips, the little innocent ring of anus in the centre as desperately as apologetically pulsating with sporadic pre-orgasmic frictions in the racking suspense, exposed and doomed so defencelessly, shamefully and humiliatingly as cannot be imagined by any girl on earth in the same situation, for it is a man, not a woman, that is totally suppressed with the male might of another man and subdued into this ultimate self-denying exposure.

    I feel him slowly part my buttocks and then touch of the cold of lubricant to my anus. He puts his big hand around my face buried in the pillow out of helplessness, and I, by instinct, almost convulsively grasp his hand with mine pressing my lips, as if in repentant silent supplication, against his huge hot palm in the last vain hope that, at the last minute, I might by some miracle obtain the pardon and mitigation of the incipient punishment of taking my male honour, my male will, my male self.

    The same minute as I press my face against the boundless palm of his huge masculine hand, I smell his male fragrance that must have been left with his own pre-cum on his hand when he had put some lube on “IT”. This smell alone makes me shamefully dizzy with the pre-climax surges, draining the last drops of my capacity to resist, renders me wet as a virgin girl that is being prepared for giving herself up to an older and powerful male for the first time. This smell of his manhood trickles down into every cell of my body, freezing it as an insidious anaesthetic, depriving it of any strength, preparing it for the act of appropriation and impregnation.

    I desperately want, in supplication, to plead one last time “Please, I beg you, let me drink the elixir of your manhood for once!” but the faculty of speech has already left me..

    My tight little ring, and with it all my inner being, continues to spasmodically constrict in its absurd attempt to beg against inevitable, and this is the only power of begging resistance left in my body against this firewall of his manhood, this invisible flow of energy that dissolves me from the inside out like sugar in warm water, taking all the male strength out of me, as if pulling all the spine and all the bones out of my body, leaving only the helpless and burning flesh crying against its own weakness and its own broken volition bent to totally relinquish itself to the other male, his insuperable male power of domination and possession.

    Suddenly, I feel the touch of his ultimate “IT” to my anus, and, contrary to all hopes, my sphincter, instead of constricting in the last attempt of resistance, gives in and relaxes, plumbing the depth of shame. The touch alone of the ultimate weapon of his male power to the disarmed and dishonoured exposure of the little ring between by buttocks in a millisecond tranquilizes all the muscle control, as a most potent medication, and makes my bottom obediently and resignedly open up, the power of will and control erased without a trace.

    It seems as if no time at all elapses between this first touch of his manhood to my male honor and the full entry: in no time do I feel the touch of his testicles against my perineum with the full penetration of my body with his manhood deep inside myself, or, instead of my bodily self. I feel the willpower and control of each and every cell of my body and mind to be turned off instantaneously, blown out like a precariously flickering flame of an already burned and half melted candle with a single gust of wind, all my inner self turning into that very candle’s melting wax.

    At the same time I feel as if I am nothing but a little most fragile butterfly impaled on a needle alive from tail to head, my body, not belonging to me at all, going limp, all my nerves feeling totally paralyzed by some “orgasmic electricity”, all my cells filled by the shameful honey of total self-abnegation against what had formerly been my male freewill and resigned gilt, all my tissue feeling like a snowflake being thrown into a warm water, dissolving in a fast pre-orgasmic meltdown.

    I lose all the sense of time and space, I feel an almighty vertigo with something that already seems a state of unabated constant climax that ruthlessly holds every fibre of my being in an all powerful electric grip, yet some extra sense dictates that the real climax and the end of my man’s honor is yet to come.

    I feel medically conscious but I am not conscious in terms of my ability to give any account of time space and of what is happening around.

    Even though the penetration feels as instantaneous inside my body, the “out-of-body” experience, as can be only in dreams, simultaneously makes me see myself being taken from the outside, as if in slow motion, and the new owner of my body taking total possession of me: his jeans and underpants are only slightly pulled down to make it practically comfortable to execute the penetration and implant his IT – the ultimate source of his male power – in me. Yet his powerful resilient buttocks are exposed and I can see with the tripled sense of dishonor, how his bottom is slowly lowering itself over me covering my own, my body spontaneously shaking and shivering in total unconscious abandonment, any vestiges of its former male power of will and control evaporating in an instant without a trace.

    This total paralysis of every cell of my body transfixed and filled by his manhood, as dream would have it, is totally mixed with this never-going-away smell of his pre-cum that continues to ooze from his hand into my nostrils, into my paralyzed brain, trickling down every capillary of my body, mixing and doubling the pre-orgasmic grip.

    He is almost not making any reciprocal movements, only several light slow heaves, for all that he has to do is to allow the spasmodically desperate constrictions of my inside to self-destructively trigger the eruption of the volcano of his manhood.

    At this moment, as if falling into the black hole, I feel already beyond the horizon of events from where even light cannot escape, expecting to hit the singularity of the absolutely inevitable ORGASM, where all my former male will, honor and control are compressed into nothing, where all my inner self is irreversibly displaced with that of another mighty male being, where no limit to the infinity of the orgasmic shame whereby my own volition is bent by the gravitation of the man’s sexual might into consciously allowing myself to relinquish all of my own self to him and be devoured by the orgasmic singularity that in itself is the everlasting consummation and confirmation of that man turning me into a girl, into his girl, into the part of his body and mind.

    Almost in no time after the paralyzing penetration I feel as if the source of his manhood (that has totally superseded my male freewill and masculinity) starts growing fuller and fuller inside my body, pronoun “my” only in name by this moment. In a split second it feels as if his “IT” has occupied all my body and replaced every cell of me, and then I start feeling some final pre-orgasmic frictions. The little helpless ring of my sphincter, by sheer animal instinct, spasmodically constricts trying to repel with its last ounce of strength what is as unavoidable as fate, giving some pale semblance of resistance to the incipient impregnation. And it is this very constriction that instantaneously pushes the incoming owner of my body over the cliff of the orgasmic chasm into the final execution of his sentence on me – his possession of me, my male body, my male soul, my male will, my everything.

    Only for a fraction of second I have a chance to hear the short pre-orgasmic gasp, like a salvo, before the river of the liquid fire of his masculinity – his male self – bursts into me, throughout me, superseding me, forcing me into the infinity of ORGASM, shame and humiliation of losing myself forever, vanishing, dissolution into becoming part of the male and his manhood. This second I hit singularity: I suddenly feel the hot injection of the overpowering fluid of his manhood into my shamefully alienated body, and the same instant it feels as if the earth itself has collapsed under me with all the forces of support gone, I have rabid vertigo, feeling as if the liquid fire of his manpower has instantaneously suffused every pore of my former self, made every cell orgasm and relinquish itself, dissolving every fiber of my tissue like as spider’s injection dissolves its victim from the inside. Space and time seem to have vanished, every atom of my body being separate without any location, every part of me is twisted into the ultimate singularity of orgasm, shame and total dissolution of my male self in the manhood of another man, the irreversible reality of having been turned into a girl – this man’s girl – being the only reality at the moment of waking up

  • Clay

    A Moment in Time

    The bus rolls to a stop and Clay stands, slinging his backpack over his right shoulder. Moving down the narrow aisle he feels the spit ball hit the back of his neck. He flinches but dares not turn, instead continues down the aisle.

    “Tell your parents I said hello” says Mr. Pickens as he pulls the door open.

    “I will” Clay responded, moving down the steep steps and out into the heat of the late afternoon. Across the broken pavement, with its dried out dusty depressions, Clay felt the sweat already trickling down his face as he made his way to the entry of the small store.  He saw the familiar red Chevy pickup on the east side of the building, finally out of the sun after sitting in it all morning. At the second gas pump sits Mrs. Simmons’ old Buick, smoke pouring from the tailpipe as it idles while she fills the tank.

    “Mrs. Simmons, you’re supposed to shutoff the engine off when getting gas” Clay says in an exasperated voice as he cuts around her car.

    “Well, if I didn’t have to pump my own gas and got some service like we use to have…”

    He ignored her as she went off on her usual rant, no longer wondering how pumping her own gas had anything to do with shutting off the car. The door squeaked  and the bell mounted at the head rings out as he comes into the dark interior. The wood paneling and ceiling dark with age and the floor so stained and mottled that Clay never remembered it being the normal gray of concrete. He tossed his backpack behind the counter and picked up the broom propped in the corner of the counter.

    “Clay, son, you can do that later. I need you to restock the candy and soda” says Virginia Etheridge, his mother.

    He leans the broom back against the counter and moves back around the counter heading to the small stockroom in back. Everyday after school he comes in and works for three or four hours, sweeping, stocking and pumping gas while his mother works the register and his father works out back changing oil or doing small repair jobs under the lean to on the back of the store. Coming to the store after school is his life. He doesn’t play any sports, or be part of some school group, or hang out with his friends. His parents need him at the store. He wishes he could hang out with his friends more often. As to sports, he knows he is too skinny, to  underweight to be any good at football in the fall or baseball during the spring.

    In the stockroom he pulls out the red wagon, a toy from his youth, the paint faded, and the bed rusted, and loads it with cases of soda and boxes of candy. Pulling it into the store he hears the bell ring and looks up to see two classmates come in. Dean, followed by Landon, then Landon’s father, Mr. Bishop. Clay feels a knot form in his stomach at the sight of Dean walking toward the candy aisle. He watches the stocky boy, reliving the latest torments enlisted against him. Dean is a bully. The worst kind, for everyone knows he is taking out on others the hurt he receives at home by his father. But for Clay, it doesn’t matter, for being the main target of Dean’s bullying doesn’t allow him to develop much sympathy for him.

    Landon comes up behind Dean and it makes Clay feel safer. Whenever he is around, Dean isn’t as mean, less prone to act out. Many a time, Landon has reached out in a friendly manner toward him. But with Dean around, Clay never could accept the gesture. So, he kept close to his few close friends. The outcasts of the school. Those from the wrong community, or the girl who isn’t pretty enough, or like him, the boys who weren’t masculine enough. Clay didn’t understand it, this hierarchy created among his classmates, the one that pushed him to the bottom. One of the boys who wasn’t athletic, outgoing, chasing the girls trying to hook up with them.

    Pulling the wagon down the aisle, it squeaked causing Dean and Landon to look his way.

    “Well, still playing with toys, I see” Dean mocks.

    “Don’t” Landon cuts in, then looks at Clay, “Hey, Clay, how’s it going?”

    “Okay” Clay responds, diverting his eyes to the racks that need restocking. He doesn’t look over when he hears Dean and Landon begin to talk among themselves, debating what to buy. He doesn’t look as he hears them open the cooler doors for a drink. But when they go to checkout, he looks over the shelving at Landon.

    Tall, lean, with reddish brown hair and skin that is fair with cheeks that always look rose tinted. Clay knows he has dark brown eyes and is at least two inches taller than his own five eleven. They were in P.E. classes together last year. He had watched the boys showering and changing clothes. He tried not to stare, afraid to be caught looking. It was bad enough with Dean’s bullying. He dared not let them know how badly he was attracted to some of them. Landon had been in the class and he remembered the lean body and how it seemed so masculine at the time. The hairy armpits and the trail down his stomach to the pubic hair over his cock. He just looked older. Clay considered his own image, even now, a body that looked more like fourteen than eighteen.

    Bending back to his task, ripping off the lids and sliding the display boxes of candy bars on the racks, he considered his place within the community. The Etheridge’s boy. The boy Dean and some of the other boys called ugly names. He didn’t understand it when he considered how he worked harder than most. The farm boys, like Landon, worked on their family farms, and sometimes very long hours. But that was limited to planting or harvest, not week after week, year-round. He had been helping in the store since he was ten, stocking shelves, dusting shelves and sweeping the floor. He knew his parents scrapped by, the store not making enough money with its main sells being drinks, snacks, cigarettes and some gas. How often he had listened to his father talk about the better days, back when his grandparents ran the store before selling it to his father. Back when they still ran a small butcher shop in back and sold some locally grown produce and some in the community would come in for can goods, sugar, flour and other staples.

    The candy he had brought out was put on display and he pulled the wagon over to the reach-in coolers and loaded up the shelves with cans and bottles of soda, water, and fruit drinks. Empty cartons collapsed into a stack in the wagon he headed back to the stockroom.

    “Clay, can you dust these shelves up here; they look bad” Virginia called out from the front as he approached the stockroom.

    “Yes, mam.”

    Boxes stacked in the back and wagon pulled into its place, he goes to the check-out where the duster is stored under the counter. As he approaches his mother pulls the feather duster out and lays it on the counter. She is on the phone with one of her friends, so Clay gets the nonverbal direction of her pointing toward the shelves along the wall. He starts at the top and works his way down. He has two shelving units wiped down and is on the third when the door squeaks open ringing the bell. Glancing toward it, he sees Jack, Eli and Ricky come in, their banter back and forth is louder than necessary with them punching each other on upper arms. More of his classmates. He watches them cut across the front toward the drink coolers. Jack looks his way then diverts his eyes back to Eli and Ricky. Clay knows the routine. He’s not a part of their clique and never will be. Turning back to the shelf, he resumes wiping down the front of each one. He hears them come up behind him to pay for their drinks.

    “Is that it?” Virginia asks.

    “Yep” Ricky replies.

    “Five sixty-five.”

    “Here’s two bucks for mine” said Eli.

    “All I got is a…dollar thirty…six” said Jack.

    “Give me your money” Ricky says, then toward Virginia, “here’s six bucks.”

    Clay hears the register open and money counting out change. He steps over to the next shelf without looking back, reaching up to the top shelf. The register closes.

    “Let’s go” said Jack.

    Clay can’t resist any longer and he looks around and sees Eli and Ricky looking his way.

    “I think you missed a spot” Ricky jokes pointing to one of the shelves, making Eli laugh.

    “Come on guys, I’ve got to get home” Jack calls from the front, the door squeaking open and the bell ringing once again.

    Although the three of them didn’t mess with him, there was something about being around any of the boys in his class that made him realize he held his breath when around them. He exhaled slowly, finally relaxing, running the duster across another shelf. Maybe he was afraid they would turn on him, start to bully him like Dean. Or maybe he was afraid they would see it in his face, this attraction he had toward them. Ricky with his straw blonde hair and blue eyes and a body that filled out his jeans and t-shirts that didn’t seem fair. Or Eli, another farm boy with a body that showed the results of his labors. He had jet black hair, dark skin and green eyes. A mole was just below the left one, a small thing that should have been insignificant. But it was for some reason. Even the girls commented on it. And finally, Jack, shorter than the others, wiry, lean, and fast. He seemed always to be moving. His friends called him Flash for he never stood still. He pictured all three of them and found himself considering each one for different reasons. He moved along the shelves while he imagined having one or the other in some place different, away from this small community with its gossip and everyone knowing everyone else. The good and the bad. Instead he imagined them in some city, or at the beach, or in the mountains hiking some trial. Places he could imagine getting them alone.

    The Admirer

    I see you all the time. At school where you sit in the second row in Mrs. English’s class, or in the third row by the windows in Mr. Wilson’s and in fifth period, our last together, I see you slip in the second seat by the wall, head down, never engaging anyone in this class. I know your friends are in other classes and you keep to yourself. I wonder what it must be like. How do you do it? Put up with Dean’s shit and keep on coming to school You must be counting the days to graduation. What is it now? Thirty-five days…no thirty-six days till we’re done. I can feel the excitement build, see others get more anxious for that day to arrive. But then I look at you, Clay Etheridge, and you act as if graduation is a death sentence. An ending of some sort. What gives? Do you not have plans? I know you’re poor, your family’s store not doing well, but there are student loans and grants for college. I’ve seen your grades and they are a damn sight better than mine, although mine are good.

    I don’t understand why I watch you. Well…that’s a lie. I know why I watch you. Why I know your mannerism, the way you constantly push your blonde hair out of your eyes with your left hand. How your right leg bounces up and down rapidly when trying to answer a question by one of our teachers. Why your clothes hang on your body. One I know is skinny but… I think of the times in P.E. I saw you stretch your arms over your head and the way it stretched your torso to its full length and your long thin arms seem to hang in the air like they were on puppet strings. I wanted to reach out and touch you. To feel your smooth skin. The warmth of it.

    I know your life here is hard, it is for far too many. The farms struggle with drought, low prices for crops, but skyrocketing prices for supplies, equipment, and a desire of many to leave. I struggle with it. I feel a connection to this place and wonder how strong it really is. I wonder about my future and if it will be somewhere else. I look at you and wonder what you’ll do. How much longer can your family’s store hold on. And if it carries on, will it be your sister that takes over. Then what of you?

    When I’m alone, away from the guys, I fantasize about a future. One I can’t see becoming real. One that seems out of reach. But I let its story unfold in my mind. Of us becoming friends…no, more than that. I need to be honest with myself. Truthful about what my attractions are. My sexuality. I need to be honest. I want you. I try to picture it, the two of us together. It always involves us leaving, running away from this place together. A place away from people like Dean.

    A Break in Normal

    Clay and Seth leave English and head to the bathroom. The corridor is crowded, the chatter a loud white noise. They weave through the throng of other students, greeting Sally and Nancy, telling them to hold them a seat in Biology. Clay had needed a bathroom for the last twenty minutes and rushed to get to the one nearest the administration offices, feeling it was the safer of the two. Seth followed him as they passed some the jocks and pushed through the heavy metal door to the boy’s room.

    It smelled of disinfectant and cleaner, which tried to hide the faint smell of urine. Seth went to a urinal while Clay went into the last stall. It was safer, concealed from the others. It was safer, keeping his eyes from looking around. Safer in his lack of exposure.

    The door swung open and Clay tensed up. He tried to hurry up and finish, but he had to go so bad it seemed the flow would never stop.

    “What are you doing?” Seth cried out, and the stall door squeaked open behind Clay.

    “Gotcha, you faggot” said Dean, his voice coming from right behind Clay.

    It was less than minute when the door swung open again. Just seconds of time had passed. Eli, Landon, Ricky and Bill came into the bathroom. Dean was at the door of the last stall, his arm moving back and forth as he was punching away. Seth was screaming at Dean to stop. Below the stall they saw Clay’s legs spread out, kicking to get away. The boys rushed Dean, dragged him back from the stall, telling him to stop it. Telling him he’d gone too far.

    The door swung open again and Jack, Paul and Wil came rushing in, having heard Seth’s screams. Eli, Seth and Landon went to Clay as the others cornered  Dean. They shouted at each other, made accusations, Dean belligerent as ever. The door swung open again and Principal Davis came storming in. He looked furious at first, then concern as he looked at Clay leaning against the stalls.

    “Clay…” Principal Davis uttered in a low voice, then the anger came back, and he turned to the others. “All of you, in my office now. Anyone not there when I return will be suspended for a week.”

    “But…” someone began, and he cut them a stern look that ended any protest.

    “Now” Principal Davis barked, pointing at the door.

    When the other boys had left, Principal Davis moved to Clay. “Come on, let’s get you to the infirmary.”

    “I’m okay…it’s nothing…”

    “Clay, you’re going.” The same firmness, but without the anger and Clay knew not to argue.

    Principal Davis strolled into his office, crowded with the boys. Seth, Wil and Jack sat in the three guest chairs while the others stood against the wall. Dean was in the far corner separate from the others. Davis sensed it, a change in the hierarchy among the boys. Some break in the normal alliances. Looking at Dean, he knew Dean realized it as well. He moved around his desk and stood facing them. He was in charge. He was in control. And the boys knew it or would very shortly.

    “I want all of you to wait in the outer office. We’re going to talk one at a time about what happened in there. Anyone lies to me and they’ll get detention for a week for every lie told. I’m serious. Now, all of you go, except you Seth. I want to talk to you first.”

    “I want to call my father; this is ridiculous” Dean blurted out.

    “He’s being called now” Davis replied looking at Dean with the look of someone who knows he is going to win. That he will win decisively.

    Dean lowered his head and followed the others out.

    Seth was in Principal Davis’ office for about fifteen minutes. The longest fifteen minutes the others had ever endured. He came out and he looked as if he had been crying but his expression was of someone who was finally getting their way. Someone who was going to win this battle.

    “Wil, the principal wants to talk to you next” said Seth as he walked past the boys and left the office.

    Slowly, through third period and most of fourth, the boys were called into Davis’ office. Paul, Jack, Ricky, Bill, Eli and finally Landon each took their turn at going into Davis’ office and telling what they saw and what they did when they got there. They each knew Seth was one of Clay’s best friends and therefore the full truth would be known. But it didn’t matter, for none felt any desire to protect Dean. Not when they saw the bloody nose and lip. The eye that looked swollen. The shirt ripped open and the backpack with its contents scattered across the floor.

    They knew this was no time to lie. Each told the truth, and saw the principal become someone who wasn’t adversarial, but was trying to look after them. For each one, it came easily, the unfolding of events, how Dean was beating up Clay and it took three of them to pull him off. Landon was last for the principal knew Dean and he had been friends since kindergarten. There was the fear Landon would be the one to try to protect Dean, change the story, lessen the violence behind the attack. But he didn’t. His telling was the most graphic, the most horrific. He gave every detail unflinchingly. Then he went further and told of the abuse Dean suffered at home and how this would surely earn him another beating by his father.

    The principal knew the precipice in which he found himself. Dean’s father was in the outer office. His loud voice carrying through the entire administration offices. This had to stop, but he also had to protect not only Clay, but Dean as well. They were boys becoming men and this was a defining moment, one that required a firm hand.

    Landon left the office and Davis saw him walk past Dean without looking at him. He saw the break between them with Dean looking down, rejected, for the first time. Dean’s father came into his office more belligerent than he could imagine. The gall of it caused him to have to take a deep breath and firmly tell Mr. Hudson to sit down. He waited for them to sit, to have a moment of silence, enough he felt some control over them. Then he pulled out a folder and opened it on his desk. It was polaroid images of Clay from in the infirmary. Mr. Hudson grimaced then looked at Dean with an anger that scared Davis.

    “These are going to the Sheriff McKenzie this afternoon. If anything, and I do mean anything, happens to Clay Etheridge in the future, Dean will be the first suspect and probably the only suspect” said Davis looking Mr. Hudson squarely in the eye. “Do you understand?”

    Davis waited till Mr. Hudson finally nodded his head. “Good. Now Dean is suspended for a week and will have detention for remainder of the school year.”

    “What?” Dean burst out.

    “Shut it” Mr. Hudson barks.

    “And Mr. Hudson, let me make something else clear. I know you have abused Dean. That stops now. If I get any indication abuse continues, Sheriff McKenzie will be coming for you.”

    “You can’t threaten me…”

    “It’s not a threat; it’s a promise. I’m calling your pastor and you wife. I’ll call anyone else I can think of, to reinforce my instructions to you. I will use every avenue available to me to put a stop to bullying not only in this school, but outside of it. You have been warned. Dean, get your things and the two of you can leave.”

    The Admirer

    I admit it. I cried when I got home. I didn’t know what else to do. I’ve never felt so helpless as when we went into that bathroom and saw what was happening. I have let the small things slide, gave Dean too much leeway. I wanted to just be friends with him and the other boys. Part of the gang. But I also want to be friends with you. I just wanted…

    I was glad Dean wasn’t at school the next few days, but not seeing you. That hurt. I went to the store hoping to see you. I could tell it was bad at your home by the way your father stared me down. I wanted to tell him I didn’t do it, but I know, for far too long, I didn’t do anything to stop it. I’m sorry. I talked to your mother, told her how sorry I was about what Dean had done and how I think the principal was putting a stop to it. When I asked about you, I didn’t think she was going to tell me anything. But she did. I wanted to ask if I could come see you, but I was scared to, afraid my reasons would show somehow.

    Please hurry up and get well. Please come back to school. The time to graduation is so close. Since the beginning of the year I’ve wanted it to get here as soon as possible. Now, I want time to stop, to give me more time. I feel like everything is slipping through my fingers. For the last year I’ve considered who I am, looked online at sites where other guys are out, openly dating, going to proms with their boyfriends and planning for the future. I have chatted with some of the guys, even dared to set up a meeting, which I’ve never been able to follow through on. It’s crazy, to know yourself, but be unable to express it. And then there is you, whom I don’t even know if you are. Are you? Would you tell me if you were?

    The Deafening Silence of Solitude

    For days Clay stayed in bed. He hurt all over and his eye had blackened to an ugly violet. Seth, Nancy, Sally and Cindy had come by after school and there were cards and flowers from others. It amazed him. To see some who barely gave him the time of day sign cards or send flowers telling him to hurry up and get well, and to come back to school. He had read the names within the cards, shocked by some he saw. Eli, Bill and Jack, and others were surprising enough, but the one from Landon had been a real surprise.

    He had seen Eli on the front porch knocking that morning before school. Persistently he knocked. Luckily no one else was home, already at the store, and he could ignore Eli, look through the small gap in the curtain, waiting for him to finally give up and leave.

    The phone rang in the afternoon and he let the old answering machine answer it. He wished for a cell phone, one no one would know the number, then he wished he had answered the calls.

    The house creaked with the rising heat of the day. The window units ran hard trying to beat it back within the old farmhouse, with its uninsulated walls and single pane windows. He lay on his bed, wearing only boxers trying to stay cool. His skin felt damp, sweat nearly breaking out on his damaged skin. Bruises and scratches marred his chest and stomach, a long scratch ran down one arm and he felt the dull pain in his face. He was uncomfortable and wanted out. Where he didn’t know. The structure around him, this place that was home, didn’t feel right. It struggled to contain him, to provide for his shelter. And it did nothing for his loneliness.

    He heard Dean’s accusation over and over. Faggot. Faggot. Faggot. He feared it, this labeling, and wondered if others would say it if he went back to school. Principal Davis set it up to where he didn’t have to go back. He could finish his course work at home. But the principal also told him he should come back. Take a stand and not let it hurt him more than it had. He knew the principal was right, but he didn’t know if he could do it.

    He felt his isolation. His loneliness. The silence of it. The way time seemed to measure out slowly, painfully giving him the time to relive it. Dean in his face. That first punch that hit him in the mouth. His fall, then Dean holding him by his shirt and the sound of it ripping.

    He pulled out his journal. A cheap spiral notebook he kept hidden in his nightstand. He didn’t write in it regularly and far too often, not even honestly. Not the way he should. But he wrote when he was down, or when he had ideas about his future he didn’t want to lose. Opening it, he saw it had been only a few days since his last entry. He scrawled the day’s date and began to write.

    He wrote about the last few days. Purged it from his system, putting down his fear and pain into words. He wrote furiously, the letters slanted and uneven, reflecting some race across the page, accelerating toward some conclusion, some insight. Or just a relief to tell the story.

    He heard the back door open and close and assumed it was his mother or sister come to check on him. He heard the footsteps through the kitchen, dining room then the short hall, Tentatively, they drew near. Slower than usual. Something wasn’t right. Sliding his journal under his pillow he turned to get up. His door squeaked open and he found himself holding his breath. He knew it wasn’t his mother or sister. He feared it was Dean coming to finish him off. Fingers wrapped around the door and eased it open.

    “Clay…Clay, you in there?” said Landon easing his head into the narrow gap.

    “Landon? What are you doing here?”

    “Your mother said I should stop by; said it’d be okay.”

    “My mother…”

    “Clay, I’m sorry.”

    “Why are you sorry?” Clay responded defiantly. He knew why Landon should be sorry and he wasn’t sure he wanted to hear excuses. For a moment neither said anything. Clay sat on his bed waiting, wondering what would make Landon come to his house in the middle of morning, skipping school to do so. Then Landon began to speak. At first the words meant nothing to Clay. He considered them empty gestures. But Landon’s tone changed, the seriousness of it. Landon moved closer, grimacing when he saw Clay’s face and torso, but he didn’t stop. The words changed; they bridged the gap between them. Clay felt some release, some reduction in the pain he felt. He heard the words of apology, of not knowing what to do at times. He felt the meaning of those words, the insecurity of them, of boys trying to be men, using all the wrong aspects that they thought gave meaning to it. Then Landon eased down on his bed next to him. They sat in silence. Clay didn’t know what to do. Landon was too close. But when Landon turned and hugged him, whispering once again “I’m sorry” it was over, his anger at the others. Even his anger toward Landon. He hugged him back and whispered “thanks”.

    Landon stood to leave, eyes scanning the dresser with all the cards and flowers on it, then he looked back at Clay, hands in his pockets, rocking on his feet.

    “Clay.”

    “Yeah?”

    “The others want to see you.”

    Clay knew who he meant. The ‘others’ were the other guys who had been there. He wanted to say no. Wanted some means of not dealing with it anymore. He looked at Landon and nodded his head yes.

    “I’ll tell them when I get to school” said Landon giving Clay a weak smile. He moved to the door and swung it open.

    “Landon?” Clay called out as he was about to step out.

    “Yes?”

    “Aren’t you going to get in trouble for skipping?”

    Landon smiled, then shook his head. “No…I went to Principal Davis and he gave me permission. He even encouraged me to come.”

    That afternoon others showed up. Ricky, Jack and Eli came over. Even Owen, Eli’s younger brother tagged along. Clay knew Owen was in the tenth grade and reflected the same features as Eli. Jet black hair, dark skin, but in a taller leaner body. At first it was awkward, just as it had been with Landon, but when they sat on the floor and pulled out a deck of cards, a calm settled over them. Their banter became casual, that of high school boys joking around, talking about girls, graduation and what they were going to do during their first summer after school.

    Clay felt at ease, sitting next to Jack and Eli, Ricky across from him, his partner in their card game. Owen sat outside the circle between Ricky and Eli. Clay didn’t think about the situation, sitting among other guys, so close their knees bumped on occasion. He looked at them, not out of a sense of attraction but trying to read their expressions, in a search for some upper hand in the game. Jack was rambunctious, slapping down cards and exclaiming his play. Ricky was quieter, more deliberate in his play while Eli seemed distracted, never knowing who’s turn it was or what he should play next. He saw the way they bantered back and forth with each other. The casual jest or poke at some comment or bad play, and he wondered how he had not been able to be a part of this before. It was only Owen that spooked him. Time and time again he caught Owen staring at him. Boldly not looking away when caught, instead smiling, mischievously, as if he could read Clay’s mind. Clay tried to dismiss it, telling himself Owen was only a tenth grader, sixteen at best. No way could Owen read him, know his deepest secret, something not even his friends knew. He found himself the one unable to hold eye contact, unable to acknowledge the stare and the knowing smiles.

    Looking over at Eli he wanted to say something, some dig at Owen that would stop him. Make some comment that big brother would come to his rescue, but Eli was either oblivious or refused to deal with Owen. It was as if Owen were the older of the two.

    “Eli, it’s your turn” said Ricky bringing both Eli and Clay back into the game. Eli blushed, stammered about the last play and fumbled with his cards. When he laid down a card, Ricky and Clay laughed. It was another bad play, one that played into Clay’s hands, allowing him to score big.

    Clay nudged Eli’s knee, shaking his head at the bad move. Eli glanced at him, then quickly looked away. Never had he seemed so nervous, out of place. Jack looked at his hand trying to decide on his next move when the door opened. Charlene, Clay’s sister stood at it, looking around the room as if never been in it before.

    “Hey Ricky, your mom called and said you needed to get home.”

    “Okay. Hey guys, got to go” said Ricky as he tossed his cards on the floor between them.

    “Well, we should go to” Eli said, and within a few minutes Clay found himself alone in his room. But this time was different. He didn’t feel so isolated. So different or apart from the others.

    Seth called a few minutes later and Clay told him to come on over.

    The Admirer

    When I was at your house, I wanted to tell you how I feel. I wanted to confess, to be honest, really honest, for once in my life. I don’t know why it has to  be so hard. Maybe it’s because I’m afraid you’ll reject me, tell me you’re not that way. I think I could handle it, if only you told me you understood, and wouldn’t judge me for it. Maybe. But maybe I’m afraid you are like me and will reject me for other reasons. Reasons that may strike too close to home. I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know what to think.

    You’re looking better, even though that eye is really black. A real shiner. I can’t tell you how it pained me to see all those bruises. I know we should have done more to stop Dean in the past, when it was just snide comments and the occasional knocking of a book out of your hand. But it was too easy to take the coward’s way out. To just laugh with the others and pretend it was all just a joke.

    I lay here in the dark thinking about you more and more. It’s like you’re about to leave forever and I don’t know how to stop you. Our time together in school is nearly over and, in a few months, when you are somewhere else, I won’t even be a memory. Just some vague name from the past, forgotten, while you make a life for yourself. It’s crazy, for if you knew. If you knew. It doesn’t make sense. I know there are others out there. Guys looking all the time, trying to meet up. I seen their post online, some near here.

    I do fantasize about you. Sexual fantasies. I picture you excited by me, aroused by me. I picture us alone in your room. I picture me before you. On my knees. I’d do it too. I’d do whatever you wanted. I’d give myself to you if only…

    If I write it, will it come true?

    The Reveal

    The next day, after school had let out, Clay found his room even more crowded. Seth came with Jack and Wil, and closely behind them Eli and Landon arrived, once again with Owen in tow. Ricky and Bill arrived at the same time as Nancy. It was Friday, and everyone felt released from their routines, the need to do homework, or chores, all sitting on the floor or on Clay’s bed, hanging out. Cindy and Sally arrived a few minutes later, carrying large pizzas.

    Clay turned on his small shelf stereo and loaded a CD, one his sister had given him. The sound of instruments played in the background as they passed the pizza boxes around the room, each one taking a slice of their choice. There were too many of them, all crowded in his room. Too many to allow those dark thoughts to creep in, or his fears and anxieties to exert themselves. Looking at one guy after the next, listening to what he was saying didn’t cross any line, didn’t feel like he had to hide behind only quick glances or look away in apparent shyness, afraid his expression would give him away.

    But as at ease as he was, he still was conscious of his looking at the other guys in a way that he knew they did not look back. His friend Seth, compact body and long hair with clothes layered up, far too much for the heat. There were times he wondered about Seth. Considered what it might be like if they were more than friends. But he knew his friend, more so than anyone else. Looking around the room, he considered Jack, Ricky and the others. For most of them, it didn’t fit. The image he tried to create of them, a guy with the kind of thoughts he had, of two guys more than just friends. At first, he questioned Eli, but there was something about his distracted mannerism that didn’t fit. He was an enigma, the one he couldn’t read. Then there was Landon. The memory of that hug came back to him, the tightness of the embrace against the soft low voice that whispered. “I’m sorry”. When no one was looking he caught Landon looking at him. Serious, questioning looks that seemed to want to say something.

    But it was Owen that rattled him.

    Once again, he caught Owen looking at him, like he was reading him, seeing through his eyes into his mind. More than once he asked within his private thoughts if Owen could hear him, half expecting Owen to answer ‘yes’. It was late when everyone finally began to leave. They left in groups, the number dropping quickly until Clay found himself sitting on his bed with Landon, Seth and Eli, with Owen nearby. There was an awkward moment when no one seemed to know what to say. Landon shifted position then looking down, fingers raking over the quilt, he began to talk in a low voice.

    “Clay, I want to apologize…”

    Clay tried to stop him a couple of times but Eli, then Seth told him to let Landon continue. He listened to Landon’s confession, once again apologizing for letting Dean be a bully. When it looked as if Landon was going to go on after a brief pause, Clay reached out and touched his arm. Looking up, Landon remained quiet.

    “It’s okay. Let it go” Clay responded. Landon nodded.

    “Guys I’m beat and need to go” said Seth as he stood by the bed. “Let’s go into town tomorrow?” he asked, looking at Clay.

    “Maybe” Clay replied, knowing he wasn’t ready to go out in public. To go out and let some see their gossip had a grain of truth, with his eye still dark and the cut on his lip not healed.

    “Okay.” Seth knew not to push it, not yet.

    Clay watched the guys leave, Eli, Seth, Owen and finally Landon heading out. He heard them speak to his parents then the back door open. He laid back, the night over and took a deep breath. Suddenly his door swung open and Owen walked in.

    “Hey, I forgot my backpack” as he crossed the room and picked it up from the far corner. Clay watched him approach, set it on the bed unzipping it. Owen reached inside and pulled out his math textbook and flipped it open. There were several cards inside that he handed to Clay. Leaning close, voice lowered, “I found these in Eli’s backpack. He’d kill me if he knew I took them. Just know there are more. A lot more.”

    “I don’t’ understand?”

    “Look, Clay, I may be just a kid to you guys, and I may be wrong, but I’ve seen how you look at them. I’ve seen that look before. Eli has it.”

    “What…no…what are…”

    “Clay. I’m not saying anything, to anybody. Just read these. Okay?”

    “Okay.”

    Backpack zipped up, Owen flung it around and over his shoulder and walked out. Clay looked at the cards in his hand, the scrawling script on each one, all the same thing, his name. For a long time, he just held the cards, staring at them, waiting on some secret to be revealed, knowing he had to open them to discover it. There were nine of them and he flipped through them looking at his name, over and over. Nine times he saw Eli’s handwriting, the rough script that spelled out his name. Clay. Clay. Clay. Clay. Clay. Clay. Clay. Clay. Clay. His heart raced in his chest. He found himself holding his breath and made himself breathe. He heard his sister go to her room and he started to shove the cards under his pillow. He didn’t know what was contained within them. What confessions Eli had made, but he felt something dangerous about them. Something that could not be put back once released.

    He picked one, randomly from the middle. He opened it and pulled out the small card, one with an image of a beach. It looked like Destin, or Fort Walton or Pensacola. It didn’t matter. He flipped it open and looked at the now familiar script, angled on the page, rising upward as it went across the page.

    “I see you all the time. At school where you sit in the second row in Mrs. English’s class, or in the third row by the windows…”

    It took his breath away.

    He didn’t finish it, couldn’t’ focus enough to do so. He opened another card. This one an image of sky at sunset. The colors were vivid. Red, orange, blue, violet, purple, and so many others. It shook in his hand, knowing this would be another confession.

    He opened it and began to read. The words came out in fragments, phrases he recognized, pleadings too familiar.

    “…hurry up…come back…I’ve wanted…I want…more time. I feel like everything is slipping through my fingers…”

    The realization someone else had these feelings. These thoughts he had had himself. He looked at the drawer of his nightstand where his journal was secreted away. Tossing the card on the bed, he opened another. The card was a mountain trail, with a lone hiker walking away from the camera. Flipping it open he saw the familiar handwriting and began to read.

    “When I was at your house, I wanted to tell you how I feel. I wanted to confess, to be honest, really honest, for once in my life. I don’t know why I let it be so hard. Maybe it’s because I’m afraid you’ll reject me…”

    Clay gasped at the honesty of Eli’s confession. How the writing got worse, the lines shaky, like each word took an enormous effort.

    “…I’d do whatever you wanted. I’d give myself to you if only…

    If I write it, will it come true?”

    Clay smiled at the sexual nature of Eli’s final confession. He let the card fall on his bed as he stared up at the ceiling trying to image Eli writing it. He was going to stop there, lay the cards aside and just dwell on what he had read so far. Besides, that card had to be the last one. It was written sometime late last night. Absentmindedly he pushed the other cards around on the bed. He looked at his name, with the crooked ‘C’ and ‘y’ at the end that trailed off too long. Then he noticed that all of them had been written in black ink, except one. One card had his name in blue.

    He opened it.

    The card was handmade, just folded stock paper with an image glued on front. He didn’t recognize it. It was a photograph taken at school. A casual shot of everyone hanging out at the picnic tables, probably during lunch break one day this past winter, judging by the coats everyone was wearing. Across the bottom were notes about the image, and he realized it was something the annual staff was considering for their yearbook. He looked at it, where Eli had taken a black marker and circled someone in the background. Someone standing alone, leaning against the wall looking to the side, unaware of the camera. Someone that he recognized as himself.

    “I’m kidding myself. After last night I know I can’t do it. I want to tell you how I feel. But I know I won’t. I look at my brother, only two years younger, and I see someone so much more confident. So, sure of himself. I bet he’d do it without a moment’s consideration of the consequences. I confess this in cards, telling myself I can mail them, just finish addressing them to you and drop them in the mailbox in town where I cannot retrieve them. 

    I won’t do it. Not even that. I’m sitting in a stall at school, scared to death someone will catch me as I write this. Crazy, but these cards have become some sort of crutch. A way for me to stop dwelling on it. On you. It doesn’t work, but it helps.

    I want…”

    The card wasn’t finished, the last phrase just hanging there.

     Discovery

    Eli roamed aimlessly around the discount store in town, eyes not focused on anything. He hadn’t called anyone to come hangout, even slipping out of his home so Owen wouldn’t want to tag along. He told himself it was to think, to gather his thoughts together. But he knew that wasn’t true. There was nothing to think about. He’d written it all down. All of it. Or as much as he could. Now it just haunted him. Made him lay awake at night. Made him feel a fool whenever he had been around Clay. He wanted closure. Some way to end this obsession. He considered burning the cards. On the way to town he had even driven down to Black Water Bridge with the intent of doing just that, but there were others there, swimming in the creek and goofing off on the sandy bank by the road.

    He thought about mailing them but knew he wouldn’t do it. He unzipped his backpack and looked at the thick stack of cards in the back pocket. He rubbed his finger over their top edges wondering if he should just throw them in a trash can. But he feared someone finding one of them, reading it, his private thoughts, and he zipped the backpack and tossed in the footwell.

    He walked up Main Street, all three blocks, and back down. He went into the drug store and ordered a drink at the counter in back. He cut into the pawn shop to avoid Jack and his father going into the bank. He did the same into a sewing and quilting store to avoid Landon and Ricky. He watched them go into the drug store, then turned to see the women of the store staring at him as he were an alien. Maybe he was, he thought, as he excused himself and slipped out.

    It was nearing noon and downtown was getting busy for a Saturday. People on the sidewalks browsing the few storefronts with displays. It was the last place he wanted to be. He cut around the corner on 3rd, heading to the parking lot behind the abandoned hardware store. His Cherokee sat near the back, under a lone oak tree struggling to survive in the narrow strip between asphalt lots. The Cherokee’s back window reflected the harsh noonday sun making him squint.

    Door unlocked he climbed up into the driver’s seat and held the steering wheel as he stared straight ahead. How long he sat here he didn’t know, but suddenly he realized there was a small envelope under the windshield wiper. A simple white rectangle, stark against its background. He held his breath, thinking it was a mistake. Someone put it on the wrong vehicle. Then he thought it had to be some church bulletin trying to round up more members. He stepped out and reached around slipping the card free. Back inside, door closed and motor running so he could have air conditioning, he held the blank envelop up in front of him. He flipped it around a few times as if it would relay some message, invisible ink suddenly visible or some other special means.

    He tore the flap loose and pulled out the card inside. It was notebook paper folded till it fit inside. Drawn on the front was an eye. It wasn’t very good, the lines uneven and overlapping too much. Opening it he saw handwriting that was familiar. The printed letters he had looked at before when no one was watching. Blocky, uneven, the lines of text climbing upward as they moved across the page.

    Eli

    I see you too. Don’t ask me how I know, but just know I do. 

    If I ask you first, will you overcome your fear? If I ask you first, can you accept it? If I ask you first, can you not care what others may think? 

    Clay

    Eli struggled to breathe. His hands began to shake. For a moment he thought he was having a heart attack. He grabbed up his backpack and unzipped it, pulling out books, tossing them on the passenger seat till he was at the pocket in back. He pulled it open and quickly thumbed through the cards. It seemed like they were all there, but when he did it again, looking at the front, he knew a few were missing, especially the last one.

    A tap on the side window and Eli jerked around. He saw the black eye first, so deeply bruised it still made him wince. He saw the healing lip, and the tall lean frame dressed in a t-shirt with a ballcap pulled low.

    He saw Clay standing by his door. Then he saw movement behind him; it was his brother standing a few feet away.

    Eli lowered his window, trying to figure out what to say. Clay stepped up closer, resting his arm on the door.

    “Hey, Eli, Owen and I was wondering if you could give us each a ride home. He told your mom you would.”

    For a moment he didn’t know what to say, then he saw Clay smile and he began to laugh. Owen walked up and stood next to Clay.

    “Unlock the doors. It’s hot out here” said Owen as he pulled on the rear door handle.

    There would be no confrontation. No stammering of denials or raised voices in accusation. Owen admitted he took the cards, unapologetically, saying it had to be done. Eli dropped off his brother, who made no protest to stay with them. Owen simply winked at Clay and climbed out.

    Eli drove to Clay’s house. They would be alone there, everyone else at the store working. They moved through the house quietly making their way to Clay’s room. Eli went in first and Clay followed, closing the door and locking it, making sure no one could come in.

    Eli stood by the bed, suddenly feeling anxious, unsure what was expected. He’d had so many fantasies about this moment, he didn’t know what to think. He raced through things to say, or how he should respond, realizing it was all so much more than his fantasies. It was more exciting and scarier and thrilling and intimate than he dared dreamed. Clay came up close, standing only inches away. Eli looked up into his eyes, and saw they were so vivid blue they looked liquid. He saw the freckles that crossed over the nose and the way blonde hair hung down covering one eye. And he saw the thin line of lips, with their turn upward on each end and the contour below his nose. He saw them move toward him and he closed his eyes.

    The first touch was gentle, barely any pressure against his own lips. The pressure increased. He pushed back against them, suddenly awakened to this moment. This moment when Clay was pulling their bodies together. They moved against each other, feeling their sex become aroused. Clay kissed him roughly, passionately, open mouth taking his tongue.

    He never wanted anything more than this moment with Clay. He moved back and tugged Clay’s t-shirt up pulling it off. He put his hand against the chest and raked the back of his fingers down over the sternum then over the right nipple. He felt the hard center against his fingers as Clay shivered. He leaned to it and kissed it, raked his tongue over it then put his lips over it and sucked. Clay moaned while pushing his fingers through Eli’s black hair. Clay grabbed him by the hair and pulled him back, Clay gasping, begging him to stop.

    He moved to Clay’s neck and kissed it, dragged his tongue over it, upward till he was following the curve of the right ear.

    “Don’t make me stop next time” he whispered in Clay’s ear, lips grazing the skin as he spoke.

    He moved back to Clay’s chest, kissing a scratch, then one of the bruises that was fading. He began to stoop down, keeping his lips in contact with Clay’s chest. He moved slowly, raking his tongue and lips over the smooth skin, down till he was on his knees, his lips moving horizontally along the top of the waistband. The stomach undulated more and more and the gap at the waistband tempted him, made him want more. He ran his tongue down and felt the waistband of Clay’s underwear and knew he had further to go before he got what he wanted.

    Clay didn’t slow him, did nothing to stop him as he unfastened the jeans, pulled down their zipper and buried his face in the boxers within. He smelled Clay’s scent and breathed in deeper. He mouthed the fabric, blindly searching for it, feeling it thickness against his cheek, then his lips. He kissed it, ran his lips along the exposed length then pushed his tongue through the fly feeling bare skin.

    Clay’s hands held his head loosely, fingers working through his hair. He looked upward and saw Clay standing open mouthed and eyes closed, as if ready to cry out. He took the jeans and boxers at the waist and tugged down. They slipped over Clay’s ass then he worked them over the erection that held them up. They fell to the floor and he guided Clay to step free of them. He wanted Clay naked, fully exposed to him. He kissed near the navel, then downward till the flared head of Clay’s cock rubbed against his cheek and he turned and took it in his mouth. Inch after inch slipped through his lips and filled his mouth. He pulled back till only the head was in his mouth, then took it again. Over and over, he worked his mouth on Clay’s cock till the hands held his head and fucked his mouth. He held still, taking it, wanting it. The cock filled his mouth till he nearly gagged, but he took it, every inch Clay would give him.

    Their moans and grunts echoed in the small room. Their sex made it feel hotter. Their skin burned with desire, every touch hot, quickly growing slick with the contact. Eli clung to Clay’s legs, held on with desperation as he took every thrust into his mouth. Clay pushed in deeper gagging him, but he held on. He moved in rhythm with Clay, watching the flat abdomen come toward his face, then pull away, over and over, the repetition of it hypnotic. He slid his hands up and felt the cheeks flex with Clay’s movements. With his right hand he slipped his fingers between them, raked them up and down the tight space. Clay’s movements became erratic, his moans louder, as he rubbed his fingers over Clay’s tightness, feeling it resist his ministrations. Clay grabbed his hand and pushed it harder against his tightness.

    “Do it…please…put them in me” Clay uttered as he rocked between Eli’s mouth and the fingers at his opening.

    He pressed his finger against the tightness then breached it, sinking into Clay’s depths, pushing as far as he could go. Clay shuddered with the penetration, his cock grew thicker in Eli’s mouth, then it gushed out its load. Thick wads of cum choked Eli, filled his mouth to overflowing, dribbling down his chin. He swallowed, and swallowed, taking what he could as Clay continued to spurt wad after wad into his mouth.

    He kept his lips tight to the thick shaft as he drew back, milking it, drawing out all of Clay’s first load. Then he kissed the head and stood facing him.

    Clay moved trance like, suddenly submissive to Eli. He undid each button of Eli’s shirt, worked it gently off his shoulders. He undid Eli’s belt, tugged it through the loops, tossing it on the floor. Jeans were unbuttoned, zipper tugged down, and Clay went down on his knees dragging boxers and jeans with him. He helped Eli step free of them, tossing them aside, then he took Eli in hand, tugged on it, pulled the sac down watching the hard cock bob up and down. It drooled out a clear drop that began to trail down toward the floor and Clay caught it on his tongue. He thought of the taste as being Eli, some essence of him and he rose to the cock. Long and lean, sticking straight out, he slipped the head in his mouth and took what he could of its length.

    Eli shivered, never having felt anything so good before. The sense of being touched ran up and down his spine. He stood, fists balled up, toes curled, and let Clay take him. The slick mouth moved along his cock, the tongue teased it, licked over the head. He thought he would fall over. The room was spinning as if he were drunk.

    Clay walked him back to the bed and pushed him back on it, legs hanging over the side, pushed apart as Clay moved up between them. He threw his arms out over his head, closed his eyes and centered his entire being on the sensations Clay was giving him. The soft heat that enveloped his cock. The gentle suction of it, its movement along its length, lips tight, milking it, drawing him near. Then he felt the probing fingers, the touching further down, seeking entry. He brought his feet up, each placed on the edge of the mattress, far apart. He opened himself to Clay and felt the penetration, the push inward, twisting and stretching him open.

    He submitted to all it. Anything Clay wanted.

    Clay slipped his arms underneath each leg and rose, letting each leg fall into the crook of his elbow, then straightening each, the calves sliding up each bicep till they rested on his shoulders. Clay stroked Eli’s cock, his hand quickly becoming slick. Then he pushed his own cock down, it so hard again it ached for release. He rubbed the wet head over Eli, smeared his slickness over the tight opening, then pushed against it.

    “Let me in” Clay uttered as he moved over Eli, folding him in half. Eli’s ass rose up off the bed and Clay pushed against Eli’s tightness till he felt the squeeze on the head, then the shaft as inch after inch sank into Eli’s depths.

    It was never like this in his imaginings. Never could he fantasize such sensations. Or this pure need to feel his cock inside another guy. The tightness of it, as he sunk fully into Eli. He pushed against Eli’s ass trying to get deeper feeling the shuddering body beneath him. Then he heard the soft whisperings, the repetition of it, over and over. Leaning over on top of Eli, he kissed his neck, nipped at the earlobe and dragged his lips to Eli’s moving lips. He heard the words for the first time.

    “Fuck me. Fuck me. Fuck me.”

    Clay pulled outward, letting Eli’s tightness milk his cock, then he pushed back in, slowly, all the way, grinding his abdomen against him. He savored the feel of it, this connection between them. His cock buried in Eli. His pace slowly increased till he was fucking, driving his hips harder, faster, their bodies smacking together. Eli clung to him, and he felt the hands slide slickly down his back to his ass pulling him to go as deep as possible.

    He rose up on his hands giving himself the room to move, to undulate his body till his muscles ached. He was burning up, sweat trickling down his face, his chest and his back. The bed squeaked and shook, till it was rocking across the floor. Their fuck became physical, desires driving them. Clay opened his eyes and watched Eli, the way he moved beneath him, the way his Adam’s apple moved as he continued his soft mutterings then the louder cries, the pleadings for him to fuck harder. He shifted on his knees and fucked with all his remaining strength.

    He watched Eli stroke his own cock, harder and harder, as he hammered away at his hole, fucking it roughly, the smack of their bodies coming together louder than Eli’s cries. Eli shuddered beneath him, cried out like an animal. Cum hit him in the chest and face and looking down he saw it spattered over Eli from his face down to his slick slimy hand. The smell of it was intoxicating, this scent like no other, and he felt his own need rise, every muscle tensed tight. It surged through him and he shoved into Eli, all the way, grinding his abdomen against Eli’s ass and came. He shuddered with each release, jabbing against Eli’s ass trying to get inside him deeper. To be a part of him.

    Then he collapsed on top of the sweaty, heaving body.

     Eli’s cell phone rang and after fumbling around for it, Eli finally found it in his jeans on the floor.

    “Hello.”

    “Eli, mom wants to know when you’ll be home?” Owen asked from the other end of the connection.

    “I…uh, I…”

    “I’ll tell her you’re staying at Clay’s tonight.”

    “Okay.”

    “You are at Clay’s, right?”

    “I think you know the answer to that.”

    Owen laughed and the connection ended.


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  • Moving Countries

    It’s been ages since I was fucked or sucked or even met up with another guy. I’d guess almost 2 years. Being very shy, I rarely hook up with others despite really wanting someone dominate or control me to make me do as they want. I always play safe and while I love kinky it must be kept sane.

    I recently moved countries for work and decided, after a few drinks, to have a look on Grindr to see who was about. I gave up using that application a long time ago as it is so full of crazies and flakes. Yet this evening there was a 28 yr old Chinese guy also here on business who tapped me as soon as I logged on. He stated he had been out for a company function and also had a few drinks. He was horny as hell and wanted to tie someone up and fuck them. My immediate reaction was “hell yes” but then thought two guys with a few drinks usually means inhibitions get left behind and I was worried about us getting caught up in the heat of the moment and possible end up getting bred by someone I only would probably meet once.

    We talked about what we liked to do and I explained to him how shy I was and really needed someone to dominate or control me. I also asked if he was drug and disease free like I was. He replied he was completely clean and also preferred when he dominated someone. Our conversation got hotter and hotter as he told me what he was into. It was like meeting the perfect top for me.

    We agreed to meet at his hotel for a drink, to determine if either of us wanted to change our minds. I won’t provide a face picture online as it was once abused by some crazy guy who I met and refused to go any further. Something just didn’t seem right with him. My new friend told me his name was Chen and I gave him my name, Adam. I told him I needed about 90 minutes to get fully washed and get to his hotel. I always want to be really clean inside and out when meeting someone so take my time to ensure I am. I also asked him to shower as the smell of a smelly cock is a real turn off for me. He agreed and we set our meeting time. He told me to message him again when I was leaving so he could go down and have a table for us.

    I washed myself careful not to play with myself too much. I was so horny it wouldn’t take long for me to cum and that would have ruined everything. After about 30 minutes I was completely clean inside and out. I waited a while for my ass to settle down after the washing before contacting Chen again to let him know I was ready to leave. I told him I had a cock ring and asked if he wanted me to wear it. He said to bring it and he would put it on. He then asked me to wear no underwear and loose pants as he liked the thought of me going commando. I agreed. I called a taxi and headed to his hotel. He had told me what he was wearing and that he would meet at the foyer.

    I was nervous as hell questioning if I should continue or not once I got to the hotel. As I entered the hotel into the lobby, I stopped and thought about turning around and leaving. Just when I thought about leaving,  someone approached me and said hi Adam holding his hand out to shake mine. I shook his hand and we went to his table. It was nice out of the way in the secluded corner of the lobby with almost no people walking by. He asked what I would like to drink and went and got me the wine I requested. I slowly started to feel at ease. We sat and talked for a short while when I felt his leg rub against mine. I did nothing but let him continue. He moved his foot up my leg so it was pushing against my cock and balls. My cock was rock hard as he pushed against me. He told me to open my pants and zipper which I did and he slipped of his shoe pushing his sockless foot into meet my hard cock and balls. I grabbed his foot with my hand and pushed against him holding my cock against his foot. He said he wanted to feel my balls so Opened my pants even further and pulled my balls out out He firmly pushed his toes onto them lightly crushing them as he pressed. I lay back in the chair my legs spread wide moaning in pleasure as his foot massaged my balls. After a short while he said drink up, you are coming to my room. 

    I did up my pants with my raging hardon clearly visible underneath, finished my drink and got up following Chen to the lift. I don’t know if anyone in the foyer noticed the obvious bulge in my pants as we walked past the front desk but I just kept walking fast to get to the lifts as quickly as possible. Once in we went to the 8th floor and then into his room. As the door closed he spun me around and kissed me sticking his tongue down my throat barely giving me enough time to use my tongue with his. At the same time his hand opened my pants and went straight to my balls. He gently squeezed and pulled them almost as if he was milking them. He told me to remove my shirt and pants and I did while he still gripped my nuts.

    His mouth moved to my nipples and he alternated between sucking them very hard and biting them. As he sucked hard on one he would pinch and pull the other for a while before switching nipples.  I moaned in pain trying to get him to stop as he assaulted my now super sensitive and sore nipples. That didn’t work. He continued his sucking. After about 5 minutes of non stop sucking and biting he stopped and I looked at my nipples to see if they were ok. They were fine but they were huge. I couldn’t believe that his sucking had caused my nipples to be 4 or 5 times bigger than normal. He stopped what he was doing and undressed. We both stood there naked when he asked me for the cock ring. I was so hard I didn’t think there was any chance he could get it on. He pushed it over my cock then manhandled my balls forcing then through the steel ring until they popped out. It was so painful pushing my balls through. He pulled on my balls to make sure they and my sack were fully through. He kissed me again passionately before turning me around and pushing me onto his bed so I was lying face down. He told me to kneel and so he could put pillows under my stomach.

    With the pillows in position, he took some rope and tied it around my left wrist. He said don’t move and he pulled on the rope and tied the other end to my ankle. He then did the same on the other side. I was completely immobilized. Once done, he knelt in front of me and pushed his uncut 6.5 inch cock head into my mouth. I licked and sucked the head as he moaned and started pushing in deeper into my mouth. Eventually he buried his cock as deep as he could. I couldn’t breathe as he held me by the hair feeling his balls against my chin. I felt his cock jerk up and down in my throat with excitement. He pounded my mouth over and over making me lick and clean my saliva and his precum from his member each time. After that he moved behind me and started slapping my balls. Not hard but frequently and with enough force to deliver slight pain. I started leaking and dripping precum from my cock and he used his fingers to scoop it up and make me taste and swallow it.

    I then felt a slight flick against my hole, then another and another as he started to rim me. I had only ever been rimmed once before and thought it was only ok. This time was different, as his hands molested my balls his tongue got more and more playful. He tried forcing his tongue into me but I was too tight. He used his finger on my ass to open me up slowly finger fucking me. He then added a little lube when he introduced his 2nd finger. I was moaning non-stop. I had no idea how loud and didn’t care. This was bliss. He used his fingers to pull from side to side slowly opening me up. When I was ready his tongue found my inside walls. I had no idea he could have pushed it in so far. He ate my ass over and over and I just knelt there bound and unable to do anything but take it.

    Finally he said he wanted to fuck me deep and hard. I asked if he had a condom to which he replied that he thought I had them. Shit, no condoms. He wanted to fuck me and I was desperate to have him inside me. He positioned his hard cock shaft against my hole and pushed against me then rocked as if he was jerking himself off with my asshole. He said he could do this but I needed something in me. I said “I want to feel you inside me”. He asked if I was sure and I said dominate me. That was all he needed. He placed his cock against me and pushed himself in as deep as he could. I cried out as his cock impaled me. He grabbed my hips and pounded me over and over. He didn’t ask if it hurt or if I was ok, he just fucked the hell out of me. He pulled out, removed the pillows and rolled me over onto my back. It was perfect position for missionary with my hands tied to my ankles. He didn’t wait for me to settle and just plunged back into my continuing his assault on my ass.

    He kissed me as his fingers worked my nipples and his cock hammered my ass. I was completely helpless and sore and loved it. As his fucking continued his breathing started to get faster and heavier. I said to him, “please don’t cum in me”. He said ok. He then asked if I enjoyed being dominated by him to which I replied, yes sir. His right hand found its way to my balls and he started squeezing them. The pressure got harder and harder and as I said it hurt he said “beg me for my cum”. I was in shock and couldn’t believe it. As I started to say no his grip tightened and pain rushed from my balls. Again he said “beg me”. It was so intense. I loved being fucked like this but was so afraid. Again he squeezed this time even harder and I cried out, “please give me your cum and fuck me like a slut”. He said “yes you slut take it all’. He was now fucking be hard deep and very fast. His breathing intensified as he finally rammed himself as deep as he could and exploded inside of me. He cried out and his whole body shook in orgasm as he unloaded into me. I could feel his cock throb over and over inside me as he cum filled my insides.

    When he was done, he lay on top of me for about 5 minutes panting heavily his cock still deep inside me. He said he was very clean again and had no diseases as he kissed me. He pulled out as his cock softened and said he wanted to see his cum leak out of me. Still tied up, there was nothing i could do. He said “ohh there it is” and I could feel his juice start to run down my ass. He rushed his mouth and tongue back to my ass taking scooping up the leaking cum before pushing his tongue into me to collect more. He then moved between my legs up to my face and told me to open my mouth. He fed me his cum. It’s the first time I had even been felched and only the 3rd time in over 30 years I had been bred. He did this a few times and each time we kissed as his cum dripped into my mouth. After that, he positioned his knees beside my head then told me to clean his cum covered cock. There wasn’t anything I could do but what he told me. Each time I had cleaned his cock, he would go back to my ass, push in and make me reclean him with my mouth.

    He went for a shower leaving me still tied up on his bed, cum dripping from my ass and mouth. When he came out he told me he wanted to cum again. He positioned himself over my face and put his balls into my mouth. He told me to suck them gently as he sat down on my face. He played with his cock getting hard quickly. He removed his balls and put his cock head in my mouth leaving it there for me to suck as he jerked himself off. It didn’t take him long as my tongue teased his sensitive cock head and I sucked him hard. He said he was cuming and lay on top of me driving his cock down my throat. His cock thrashed around as he unloaded wave after wave of cum into my throat. Eventually lifting off, I cleaned his cock once again.

    He untied my hands and ankles and my legs collapsed onto the bed. He told me he wanted to see me cum. When I cum I have massive orgasms and shoot loads. This without the added stimulation, pain and domination I endured. He pushed two fingers back into my cum soaked ass and started finger fucking me. At the same time his other hand grabbed my balls gently squeezing and slapping them and I started to jerk off. I was getting closer, I knew I would erupt hard and I eventually cried out I was cuming. As I did he pushed a 3rd finger deep into me and his finger fuck assault continued and grabbed my balls hard. My whole body shook and bounced on the bed as I exploded in a massive orgasm. I came over and over spraying cum everywhere. I collapsed onto the bed breathing heavily as he slowed his fingers and withdrew them. Once I had enough energy back he asked if I wanted to shower which I did. I came out of the shower and he walked me back to the bed. I thought I would just get dressed and leave but he said he wanted to play with me some more and asked if I would stay the night with him. Normally when I cum I am completely done so I wanted to leave. Yet he kissed me, played gently with my balls and massaged my asshole opening with his finger so I agreed to stay.


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  • Arena Stage

    Sean

    Dress rehearsal for Defiance was exhausting—for me, at least, since I had to dance in it. But I’m sure it was nerve-wracking for Masters and Handelsman, too, because this was their last crack at making it right before the drama critics descended on them. They were so pumped up on reviewing and celebrating and agonizing over minutia on the production that they went straight to Handelsman’s yacht, the Boxoffice, in the yacht basin near the theater. And Masters told me I had to come along.

    Before we left the theater, I called the Gangplank restaurant, which was close to closing time, and cajoled them into preparing a late supper to send over to the yacht for the two men. I myself wasn’t hungry. I was just exhausted. And after I’d accepted the meals at the gangplank to the yacht and taken them into the salon, where the two men barely noticed they were even there they were so animated and excited, I sat back into the cushions of the curved bench lining the fantail of the yacht. I brought my legs up onto the cushion, stretched out, and gave myself up to sleep.

    I couldn’t go to sleep, though. I was exhausted beyond sleep. I shut my eyes tightly and tried controlled breathing, but it just didn’t happen. It was both a bad thing and a good thing that I couldn’t go to sleep. First came the bad thing.

    Masters and Handelsman must have assumed I’d gone to sleep, because they made no attempt to moderate their discussion.

    “So, you’ve done it, have you?” Handelsman said.

    “Yes, the apartment’s sold and I’m having the clothes sent up to your place in Connecticut,” Masters said.

    My ears perked up. I hadn’t heard anything about this sale—although I’d found he was trying to sell his apartment—no, our apartment. I lived there too.

    “And you’re sure you’re done with it?” Handelsman said.

    “Yes,” I heard Masters speak. “I didn’t much care for it anyway. As long as I had Lawrence for those earlier plays—and Sean now—the attention was pleasant, but those empty years between the time Lawrence died and I took on Sean were frustrating. I’m happily done with it. Your invitation to come live out my days with you couldn’t have come at a better time.”

    “And to think that no one in the theater ever knew who was writing your plays.”

    “That was part of the pleasant part,” Masters said. And then he laughed. “Such a joke on all those pompous theater people.”

    “Including me,” Handelsman said.

    “Oh, no, never including you, Lenny. You were special. There’s never been anyone like you.”

    “And Sean?” Handelsman said, followed by his own laugh. “What will we do with sweet young Sean up in Connecticut?”

    “Oh, I’m sure we’ll think of something,” Masters answered. “You know how we shared Gil. Sean has charms of his own. So small and yielding. I wonder how he’d do with doubling. Gil wouldn’t stand for that. But Sean will do anything I tell him to do.” His voice suddenly sounded husky, and I opened my eyes, lifted my head, and peered into the salon through the window. The two were sitting close together, and Handelsman had one hand inserted in Masters’ shirt front and the other was stroking Masters’ exposed cock.

    “Shall we retire to the cabin?” Handelsman said in a hoarse voice.

    “Yes, I think so,” Masters answered.

    “And Sean, shall we wake him and take him with us?”

    “Later,” Masters answered. And then they both rose and, laughing and joking, embraced and entered the corridor leading back to the staterooms.

    I could hardly wait for them to be gone. I was suddenly alert and believed if I didn’t get off the yacht and away instantly, I would begin to hyperventilate. My whole world was shattering. What a complete bastard Masters was. And Handelsman wasn’t far behind.

    I slipped off the yacht and loped blindly up the grassy embankment. I had to find Gil. I needed Gil—now more than ever before. Where could he be? One place was a good bet—adding to his escape fund. I started walking briskly toward the elevated Southwest Freeway, both what I had just heard and the brisk evening breeze making so much clear to me now.

    * * * *

    Gil

    “Am I interrupting anything?”

    I turned and was surprised to see Sean standing next to me at the bar in the Bachelor Pad gay club. He looked more like his favorite uncle had just died than that he been part of an almost-flawless dress rehearsal for a production we had all been slaving on for months.

    “What’s the matter, Sean?” I asked. “You look sorta like shit.”

    “I said, am I interrupting anything, Gil?” he repeated. His eyes were flashing and his nostrils were flaring, and he looked like he was thinking of picking a fight with me.

    “Just a drink, Sean,” I answered. “I haven’t been in here for any other purpose since before we took that car ride up to Great Falls. I wouldn’t do that to you.” I reached out and put my hand on his forearm. He was trembling like a high-strung racehorse.

    “Sorry, Gil,” he whispered, and he just sort of collapsed on the stool next to me. “I’ve just . . . I can’t . . . oh, shit.”

    “Come, let’s go back to the townhouse,” I said. “We’ll have privacy there, and you can tell me what the matter is.”

    But when we got back to the townhouse, Sean didn’t speak. He was at me like a bitch in heat, crawling up my leg and rubbing his chest against mine, and unzipping my jeans and digging for my cock.

    I decided, without any trouble, that talk could come later, and I picked him up in my arms and mounted the stairs and gently laid him on the bed. He moaned as I undressed him and he cried out as I knelt between his legs and started making love to his cock and balls and hole and not stopping, not letting up, until he had given me what I wanted, his total release. Then I stood and held his legs out wide by the ankles and mounted him, this time in a swift thrust that almost lifted him off the bed and made him cry to the ceiling. I rode him hard and deep to my own ejaculation, skin on skin, no niceties, full commitment. He cried for me like an animal in heat, digging his nails and the heels of his feet into my butt cheeks and holding me close inside him and yelling crudities of the fuck that I had no idea he even knew.

    We were stretched out on the bed, in an embrace, when he broke down and started to cry.

    “What is it, Sean?” I whispered. “What has you worked up? The play is great. Your dancing was great. It made me harden right up. I’m glad you came looking for me to fix that.”

    This didn’t brighten him up a bit. I never was much of a comedian.

    “Come on, you can tell me.”

    “A sham, all a sham,” Sean whispered. I was relieved that I’d started him talking about it.

    “What was a sham?”

    “Masters. Just a big fake.”

    I laughed. I couldn’t help it. “Of course he is. That was always apparent—to anyone who bothered to look.”

    “You don’t understand, Gil,” he said. “He didn’t write any of those great plays. The guy he had living with him before, Lawrence, the guy who was killed in the automobile accident a couple of years before Masters hired me—he wrote his plays for him. I can see that now, he hired me just to write his plays for him. This Lawrence guy was the one who wrote his earlier plays. The only plays Masters wrote himself were the ones that didn’t work.”

    “Doesn’t surprise me,” I answered. “But speaking of plays, Sean. I read your latest one. It’s brilliant. It’s gonna be a hit.”

    “Thanks, Gil, I needed to hear that,” Sean said. He sat up beside me and leaned his face down to mine and we kissed. When he rose back from the kiss, he looked more in control now, and the sadness had evaporated from his eyes.

    “And I overheard him and Handelsman talking on the yacht. They are going to Handelsman’s place in Connecticut after this. They are moving us to Connecticut.”

    “Ain’t no way I’m fuckin’ movin’ to Connecticut,” I muttered.

    “And Masters is giving up the sham of writing plays. He said he’d never been interested in that anyway—he just liked living off the playwrighting talents of others. He’s just a big fraud. And he’s retiring to Connecticut to live with Handelsman. What are we going to do, Gil?”

    “Didn’t you hear me?” I said. “There’s no fucking way I’m going to Connecticut.”

    “But—”

    “Or you either, if you are thinking straight,” I continued. “What held in you thrall to Masters, Sean? You said you loved him. What about him did you love?”

    He sat there, looking confused. Then his face cleared. “I loved him because he was the lion of the theater,” Sean said. “Because of his writing talent. Because I believed in his writing talent.”

    “Which is what, Sean?”

    “All a sham,” Sean whispered.

    “Exactly. Can you hear your lion go meow now?”

    For the first time that evening Sean laughed. And it was a good, throaty laugh. I guess I wasn’t as much of a loss as a comic as I thought I was.

    “And what do you need Masters for now, Sean?”

    “Nothing.”

    “Did you hear and understand what I said about your play script? It’s great. It’s a winner. I’ve been working with Handelsman in the theater long enough to know a winner when I read one. We could take it to Broadway. But I suggest we take it to the West Coast. We both said that’s where we’d go if we could follow our dream. There’s work and a life for us both out there—together, if you’ll have me.”

    Sean wasn’t slow in giving me a definitive answer on that. He rolled me to my back and mounted my pelvis, holding my cock as he descended on it, and he fucked my cock until he’d come on my belly and I’d reciprocated deep inside him.

    “Pack quickly,” I whispered when our breathing had returned to normal again and we lay in each other’s embrace. “We can be out of here and on our way in a half an hour.”

    “The play—Defiance. Opening night tomorrow,” he murmured, and I was pleased to hear the regret in his voice. “And your escape fund.”

    “You were right about my escape fund,” I said, with a low laugh. “I’ve had more than enough money saved for some time. I just needed a greater reason to leave than to stay. You’re my reason. And, as far as the play, what do they do when someone’s sick one night?”

    “We can adjust the dances for one, or even two, missing,” Sean answered.

    “So, you’re sick,” I said. “Permanently sick. Sick of walking behind Masters and Handelsman and cleaning their asses for them. I mean, what’s the fucking play mean to you now? Other than that you wrote it. It’s tainted by Masters’ shit. You’ve got another play here that will launch you out of his shadow. What’s the play Defiance to us now, other than a symbol of our own defiance—of us sticking it back at Masters and Handelsman at last?”

    “Nothing. Nothing, I guess.” Sean answered. And there was none of the indecision in his voice that came out in his words. That had been my one worry. That, knowing Defiance was more his play than Masters’—much more—that maybe he couldn’t just leave it, even knowing we were done here. That we’d been done here for some time; that we’d just been wallowing in a rut.

    “Let’s us get out of here, then.” I was up already and half way to the shower.

    “How, Gil?” Sean said, with a laugh. “We’re both city boys in the city. Are we going to try to hitch across the country?”

    “Nope, we’re going in my new Mustang,” I said. And I grinned. This may be the first inkling that Sean would have that this plan wasn’t all that impromptu. He had fallen into my own already-formed plans perfectly. “Not a new Mustang, but mine—ours—now. Bought it off the lighting technician guy. Hoped you’d relent and let me fuck you in it one day. And maybe you will. It’s a long way by road to L.A. from D.C. How’s that sound, Sean?”

    “Best offer I’ve had in a long, long time.”

    -Fini-


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  • Separate Tables

    I stood behind the boot of the Bentley in the front auto court of the Rivenhall country inn, perched high on the cliff over a horseshoe cove on the sea north of Scarborough, while Felix, the chauffeur, helped Forest DeWitt into the lobby of the inn. When Felix came back, he opened the boot of the car and started handing out the luggage. A valet was there to carry, but there was enough to overflow the hand cart so that I had to take a suitcase and my laptop case from Felix, as well. Felix, a muscular stud, was more than capable of carrying the suitcases into the inn, but he would not have been able to carry them up to DeWitt’s suite—he wouldn’t have been permitted in the front lobby of the hotel, not to mention up to the principal guests’ floor. That wasn’t just because Felix was black; he was a chauffeur—outdoor staff. We were clearly in traditional empire England at Rivenhall Inn.

    When Felix handed me the second bag, his hand held mine for half a beat longer than necessary, he gave me “that look,” and a charge of electricity went up my spine. His look revealed that he still was having trouble processing the liberty I had allowed him to take. He understood upper-class English protocol even if I, an American, didn’t.

    The big-cocked Nigerian had fucked me for the first time the previous night in the small hotel in Great Yarmouth, after six nights on the road out of London in this meandering trip to the west and then to the east and the north—and he’d done me well. Once he’d known there would be no repercussions from sinking his thick cock inside me and that I was his for whatever he wanted, he’d taken over and fucked me totally. I had wanted him inside me from the first moment I’d seen him when he was driving us back to DeWitt’s London townhouse from the club in Soho.

    Felix had shown surprise that I had willingly lain under him. I’d had to lay broad hints and practically pull him on top of me and inside me for him to realize I’d let him fuck me. Once he’d gotten over that, though, he showed me who was master and who was slave. I didn’t mind being the slave—even to DeWitt—although I had different reasons for laying down for a man depending on what the man had to offer. DeWitt had money and position and exuded breeding and education and interesting friends. Felix was a virile, muscular black bull who smelled of musk and fucked in primeval lust.

    Most rent-boys, I’m sure, took the minimum amount of fucking they had to to survive. I was a part time rent-boy because I liked spreading my legs and being fucked—being submissive to a dominant man, either by position or physical attributes. My family was wealthy enough. They paid me good money to do my cruising an ocean away from Boston. I could exist on what they sent me—just not to the level of comfort and adventure I wanted to be accustomed to.

    I’d come to the hotel garage after dinner in Great Yarmouth, where Felix, shirtless and all glistening ebony skin and bulging muscle, was polishing up the Bentley for the next day’s drive. When he had realized that he could, he fucked me on the backseat of the salon car. There was plenty of room back there for me to lay under him and grip his bulbous buttocks in my hands and squeeze them to the rhythm of the rise and fall of his pelvis as he pumped me deep and hard.

    I’m sure that DeWitt, quite evidently rank conscious, had indoctrinated Felix in the power of the pecking order. Although Felix fully understood, I’m sure, that I was DeWitt’s boy toy for this trip—the old man had diddled me in the backseat of the Bentley and I had knelt and sucked him off on the road at various times during the trip and Felix couldn’t have missed that from the driver’s seat—he knew I was the old man’s secretary too, and educated—and American. So, I’m sure he understood that I was enough above him not to let him dominate fuck me. But I was on this trip—indeed, had come to England—for the sexual adventure. And a strapping black bull Nigerian was adventure.

    “I don’t know where we can go,” he’d said when we’d come out of a kiss and I had my hand stuffed down the front of his trousers, feeling him engorge in the grasp of my hand.

    “In the back seat of the Bentley,” I’d said breathlessly. “Here. Now. You’ve seen DeWitt and me in the backseat. Take me back there and show me how you’d do it better.”

    DeWitt was thick, but he was old and fat and of limited stamina. Getting him hard and maintaining the hard was a chore. He was one and done—on a night when he could manage the one. Often he was satisfied with a blow job. He didn’t really care if I needed more. It wasn’t my place to need more than he wanted from me. Still, he hadn’t shown signs of possessiveness yet. I didn’t get the impression that he begrudged me getting it from someone else too—as long as it didn’t inconvenience him.

    The Nigerian was thicker and longer, was meltingly rough, and was a muscular bull who, after putting me under him in the backseat of the Bentley, putting it in me, and giving me all of it, was almost immediately ready to go again. I’d asked him not to be so rough and he banged my head against the seat rest, called me a “cock tease” and a “fuckin’ whore,” and commanded me to open my legs wider for him; I begged him to go slower and he picked up speed; I begged him not to fuck me so deep and he sank his cock in me; I begged him to give me his load inside me, and that he complied with. Felix didn’t just fuck me; he tore his pleasure out of me. I loved it all, my mind going back to before I was signed up with the high-class escort agency, when I was being run by a cruel pimp and the pimp counteracted the dulling of arousal by frequent tricks by tearing his pleasure out of me and leaving me totally fucked. Felix knew I was loving having a real man fucking me. He left me totally fucked.

    We’d been traveling for a week from London, meandering, first, to the northwest—to Reading and Oxford—and then back to the east coast of Britain, supposedly leisurely working our way toward Edinburgh, and the first time I’d been taken to the edge sexually was the previous night under Felix. Maybe his barebacking me had been part of the primeval thrill of it, but it also was because he was young and virile and took no prisoners. Yes, I’d managed to lay under other men early in the trip, but none were the raw lover that Felix was.

    I was still walking bowlegged from the previous night. DeWitt didn’t seem to notice, but Felix certainly did. He had been acting as one with a proprietary interest in me during the drive today, and I’d been dutifully subservient to him—in whatever ways I could without DeWitt catching on. DeWitt was some sort of royal, I gathered—certainly well connected in the intellectual circles of Great Britain. He also was very conscious of rank, putting me, traveling as his secretary, below him, and leaving the black chauffeur barely acknowledged at all.

    Felix and I parted ways in the auto court at the hotel entrance. DeWitt would have a suite of rooms on the second floor—the first floor, to the Brits—overlooking the sea. I would be in an attic room, with a small bath, if I was lucky. It didn’t matter much, as I’d be spending much of my time in DeWitt’s suite and in his bed. Felix would be in a bare-furnished, small room, with a bath down the corridor, above the garages. They would have a covered garage for the Bentley, of course, and the garage would be cleaner and better appointed than the servants’ rooms above were.

    We had arrived close to the dinner hour, and this separation of the classes would be evident there, as well. It was not in season, so the guest load was sparse. Still, it would generally be a surprise to find that all of the guests—and all of the front-of-the-house staff—were male. I wasn’t surprised, though. That had been the norm thus far in the travels. DeWitt was welcomed in a succession of all-male clubs and accommodations. None of them registered surprise when they came in in the morning to pull the drapes and take breakfast orders to find me in bed with DeWitt.

    We had met in such a place—in a gay club in London’s Soho district, the currently trendy Circa Club on Frith Street. That’s where we had hooked up. We’d been sitting at separate tables, viewing a sex performance on a small stage, where a monstrously large and hung man fucked a near-dwarf into semiconsciousness. I had caught DeWitt’s attention—that’s what I had been there for, to catch the attention of someone who could afford me—and an attendant had conveyed DeWitt’s invitation to join him at his table. Having already assessed the men of possible interest in the room—on the basis of my two separate criteria, either wealthy or hunks, preferably both—I had concluded that DeWitt was the most eligible hookup for the night. He was a whale of a man, but he also was strikingly handsome and intelligent looking—and he was dressed expensively and was being shown great deference by the club staff.

    He had been refreshingly straightforward on what he wanted and was willing to pay as we watched the near-dwarf get scraped off the chaise lounge that had been set in the center of the small stage and then the dancing interlude began. He didn’t want to dance. He wanted sexual release. I offered to go on my knees right there, under the table, and blow him. He laughed, but said he had a better idea. I went back to his townhouse with him, Felix driving us in the Bentley, and I gave him a blow job and rode his cock in a cowboy—not too energetically, as he obviously had his physical limits. He still could ejaculate, though, and still wanted to. And he wanted a young man to coax it out of him.

    Rather than throwing me out after I had given him sexual release—all of his expressed wants had been short term—and he was intrigued to discover that I was an American, had graduated from Yale, and could hold down my end of a literary discussion, even though it was in American English and not the Queen’s English, he invited me to stay afterward for a drink and conversation. He was in a cobalt-blue silk robe. I, at his request, was in the altogether, and I’m fairly sure that watching me move about the room naked was part of the thrill of him inviting me to stay.

    He fucked me for a second time that night on the sofa in his lounge, obviously pleased and exuberant that he’d managed two ejaculations with a young man in an evening. I worked hard to coax that second coming out of him.

    Afterward, he wanted to talk and drink some more. The conversation was good; the scotch was better. He discovered that I was writing a “coming alive” novel from my rather loose travel itinerary while I was “experiencing” Great Britain and that I’d taken on jobs as a gentleman’s secretary. As I stood in front of him, and he lifted his scotch glass with one hand and fondled my half-erect cock and balls with the other, he said he was in need of a gentleman’s secretary. He shared that he was about to start off on a leisurely road trip up to Edinburgh, stopping here and there to check on various businesses and organizations he had a hand in as a member of boards. There would be considerable report and corresponding writing to be done, and there would be time free for a young man, like me, who was writing a novel, as I was, to write—as long as I wasn’t writing about him.

    “Might you be interested in a bit of traveling and providing of secretarial support?” he asked. He named a generous fee.

    “That’s all I would be expected to do?” I asked. “That’s quite a bit of money for just that.”

    “And bed warming, of course,” he said.

    “And this, as well?” I asked. He was seriously stroking my cock now, leaning his face into it.

    “And this as well,” he said.

    I allowed myself to go full hard for him, to build up the essence he was working to coax from me, and to feel his warm lips close over my shaft and take my cum in his throat. He pulled his face away and wiped his mouth with a napkin, but he continued holding my cock in his hand.

    “Of course, I understand,” I said, breaking what had been moments of silence spiced with heavy breathing from us both. And I did understand. “When might this start?”

    “Tomorrow,” he answered. “Would that be a problem putting your affairs in London in order and arranging your possessions?”

    “I just have a couple of suitcases of clothes and my laptop,” I answered. “I’m staying at the Rosewood London on High Holborn. I could be picked up there in the morning, or later, if you were leaving later.”

    He raised his eyebrows. The Rosewood London was a premier London hotel, where even the midstream hotels cost an arm and a testicle. We both knew it was. What he didn’t need to know, though, was that my room had been paid through the night after this by the aging movie star I’d been with for the previous month. He had left for a production location in Italy and had not opted to take me with him. I had been in somewhat of a “what’s next?” panic when I’d gone to Circa that night.

    “We can swing by there in the morning to pick your suitcases up,” DeWitt said.

    “So, you want me to—?”

    I didn’t need to pursue that question further, as he brushed his robe open to reveal he was in erection again. I gathered that he was as surprised as he was pleased—that this was a rare occurrence for him—that my moving about his library in the nude while we had conversed had affected him favorably.

    I’m sure that night was the first one in years that he’d come three times, albeit over a space of several hours.

    He fucked me on his bed in a missionary initially, he on top, huffing and puffing as he struggled to pump me with his cock, racing to take advantage of his uncertain erection, adequate in size, but just barely. I clutched his buttocks and hooked my ankles on his shoulders, trying to help him get it all in despite the impediment of his big belly, while giving him appropriate praise and encouragement. At least he was thick enough for me to feel him. And I was groaning and breathing heavily—more from the weight of him—he was a big-stomached man—than for arousing effect. At my suggestion, he turned me, penetrating me from behind. I was able to arch my back to give his belly a trough to fit in, and he was able to achieve greater depth. It was over within ten minutes.

    In the morning, I tried to ride him, with him lying on his back, but he couldn’t get it up well enough to penetrate me properly. So I sucked him off, pulling a weak, but well-appreciated, ejaculation out of him. He spoke in awe that I had drained him five times since we’d met less than twenty-four hours previously, although neither of us mentioned how little actual cum he’d produced.

    My position was secure for the near term, and we were off in the Bentley the next morning, with a very impressive-looking Nigerian at the wheel. The trip had been as advertised. I transcribed notes and prepared letters in the morning after breakfast in whatever hotel or club we were in, DeWitt went off with Felix at the wheel in the afternoons for meetings that produced the next morning’s correspondence, we had dinner—invariably at separate tables and often even separate dining rooms—and DeWitt let me linger in the background as he met with friends in the evening over drinks and cigars.

    He never again managed three ejaculations with me in one night, but I already had him hooked—or so I thought.

    His meeting and drinking and talking with friends became my favorite time of the evening. The time in bed was a bit of a chore for me. DeWitt had a wide and interesting set of friends. Some even showed interest in me and gave me their cards, inviting me to contact them when and if I became free. My function there appeared to be fully understood—and accepted—by all. Heterosexual men in his class were granted their mistresses. In his circle of friends, he was granted a young rent-boy.

    This open propositioning from his like-lifestyle friends didn’t seem to disturb DeWitt, although there also seemed to be an obvious understanding that DeWitt had priority on me. All, though, seemed to recognize and respect DeWitt’s proprietary interest in me—at least for that moment. All of DeWitt’s interesting friends were male. All of them of the evident gay persuasion seemed to take it for granted that I was there to please DeWitt sexually. Some of them maneuvered me into a position to please them as well.

    When DeWitt wanted to retire, I became valet, as well. I helped him undress and sponged him off in the tub, fondling him in the tub to determine what it would be that night—what he could manage and desired—a missionary, a doggie, a cowboy, just a blow job, only a hand job—or, on one or two nights, only a cuddle and fondle in the bed until he went to sleep. Regardless, when he’d dozed off, that was my signal to return to my own room.

    If it had been just that, I would have been wracked with nervous energy. I was highly sexed. I needed it regularly, and I needed satisfaction from it. Luckily, help was available—usually in the form of DeWitt’s friends of the evening. In Reading, the first night on the road, where DeWitt was visited by a BBC commentator friend along with several men in BBC production, the commentator broke away from the conversation when DeWitt was involved in a deep political argument, lifted a questioning eyebrow to DeWitt. and received a permissive nod. The commentator then signaled to me, using the recognizable code of sheathing his middle finger in his cupped other hand and stroking it in and out. He wanted to fuck me.

    When I followed him out of the room, I got standing doggie fucked in a quickie in the bushes below the hotel terrace, by an erection that was longer, thicker, and more vigorously applied than DeWitt could manage.

    And in Oxford, it was a novelist, who spent as much time talking with me as with DeWitt and who conveyed he would be waiting for me in the hotel bar after I’d put DeWitt to sleep, who had a room of his own in the hotel, and who tied me up and nasty fucked me for two hours before releasing me. This obviously had been at DeWitt’s acquiescence, as he asked me the next morning if I enjoyed a bit of bondage—and that night he tied my wrists to the headboard posts of a country inn bed in Cambridge, saddled up behind me, and did his rendition of a dribbling ravishment. I entertained him as a raped captive, and he managed an erection for longer than usual. He didn’t move me to high arousal like the novelist had, though. The novelist had length, girth, vigor, inventiveness, and staying power that DeWitt couldn’t hope to manage. I remained satiated for days after that adventure. The novelist offered to take me to the South Seas with him for what he called research, but I regretfully declined. Only one sugar daddy at a time, was my policy.

    None of the men DeWitt was meeting with in the evenings seemed to have any delusions about what my function in the mix was—or much doubt what I’d do for them for money. Both of the men who fucked me—the BBC commentator in Reading and the novelist in Oxford—tipped well. There were no opportunities—indeed no arousing men—for the next three nights, though, which is what had me going to the garage in Great Yarmouth in search of Felix and his big, black cock on the sixth night.

    All in all, the trip was being quite satisfactory and beneficial—and that wasn’t even because, contrary to what DeWitt had said, the whole experience was, in fact, becoming part of the novel I was writing—with cloaked names, locations, and occupations, of course.

    I was giving DeWitt what he wanted and needed, and now, as of last evening, Felix was giving me what I wanted and needed.

    * * * *

    There were fewer than a dozen dining at Rivenhall that evening—all men. And the arrangements kept to traditions of the empire. Seven men were at tables—separate tables—in the main dining room, which apparently had once been a deep sunporch. It was a step down from the lobby and the wall facing the sea at the top of the cliff was all windows. The woodwork was painted a cream color, with storm-tossed ship paintings set in the recesses. The carpeting was cream-colored too, as if daring patrons to wear outdoor or soiled-soled shoes to the dining room. The music was muted, a mere murmur of something classical. The caste system was at work here. Seven men—obviously the wealthy guests—were at separate tables in this room.

    A step up from this area, toward the interior of the building, was another dining area, a large alcove off the main dining room. Here the furnishings and the cutlery and crystal were a bit inferior to that in the main dining room, the carpeting a dark blue, the walls cream-colored, and the nautical oil paintings good, but inferior and less arresting than those in the gentlemen’s dining area. And here, on this night, sat four young men—also at separate tables.

    The tables themselves were a mystery. They all were small, with only one chair—both in the main dining room and in the alcove off that for the younger, “lesser” diners. Neither sociability nor dinner conversation were being encouraged in the dining room. All other interaction, certainly any overt sordid interaction was to go on elsewhere. The trappings of the dining room made that quite clear.

    The raised section was where I’d been seated—in the alcove, a step above the main dining room. The service was attentive here, but not like it was in the main dining room. I knew why I’d been seated here rather than in the main dining room with Forest DeWitt—and I was quite confident that Felix was being served in a servant’s hall somewhere, probably not even in the main building. I was personal staff or assistant or comfort young man—whatever. I had no idea at that point why the other three men were seated in that section, but I had my suspicions, which were borne out. They were all young, handsome, well-formed men, two of them blond and lithe, and a bit limp wristed, almost more pretty than handsome. One of them, like me, was a sturdy lad, though. I was clearly the only American, and Americans must be hard to come by here. The wait staff couldn’t quite figure out whether I ranked above or below the three young Englishmen seated in our section.

    The understanding of what the relationship and function between the dining room sections was came when I noticed one of the diners in the other room calling a waiter over, gesturing to him, and nodding toward one of the pretty boys seated in my section. A bit later, a bottle of Guinness appeared at the pretty boy’s table. Even from where I sat, I could tell that there was a room key and a folded English pound note of some indeterminate denomination attached to it. The waiter nodded toward the gentleman in the main dining room, the gentleman and the pretty boy nodded to each other, and soon both had left the dining room.

    This wasn’t just an old, traditional country house inn. This was a male brothel for the well-heeled as well. I was perhaps the only young man sitting in this section who had an attachment to one of the seven men sitting in the privileged section.

    Sure enough, a tall elegantly turned-out gentleman of obvious wealth, in very good condition for what must have been his fiftieth decade by the color of his hair, soon thereafter called a waiter over, and I couldn’t help but noticing that he was nodding toward me when he spoke to the waiter. This time, though, the waiter nodded toward Forest DeWitt at a nearby table. The gentleman shrugged and looked disappointed. His eyes locked on mine, and I gave him a nod of recognition and did what I could to look disappointed too. He was better looking and trimmer than DeWitt was, and he wore his clothes like he’d been born to the silver spoon. I looked at his hands, observing the fingers. There was an old adage about a man’s fingers and toes, and I’d found that it was borne out more than not. His fingers were long and elegant.

    Another pretty boy was picked off by one of the diners in the main dining room while we were still on our salad course. After that, I felt the call of necessity—I also felt a bit tight in the crotch from the possibility with the elegant gentleman that hadn’t worked out—and I left the dining room and found a men’s room.

    I was standing at the urinal, cock out, and had just completed my pee when the door to the room opened and the elegant gentleman appeared. There was a line of five urinals along the wall, but he chose the one next to me, saddled up to it, unzipped and released himself . . . and then he just stood there, cupping his cock in a hand. He wasn’t urinating. It occurred to me that that wasn’t why he was here. He was in erection, the cock being unusually long, if not particularly thick. This was as I had imagined. But what made me almost swallow my teeth was that he had a gold Prince Albert ring in the bulb. The ring was thick and weighed the bulb of his cock down. He held the cock in his right hand, on which he wore a ring with a thick gold bead in the setting.

    We both stood there longer than necessary—me having finished peeing and he apparently having no intention to. We both knew what that meant. He turned and looked at me, his expression amused, his visage handsome and patrician. Confident, dominating. He owned the place; he owned me. We both understood that. There was a scar—a bit puckered and light colored against his healthy-looking tan—running from his right ear to his lower lip. The blemish only accentuated how handsome he was, with wavy gray hair—otherwise. The scar lent an aura of mystery and danger to him. The Prince Albert ring lifted the “danger” quotient significantly, as well.

    He was very polite. Looking down at my exposed shaft, he murmured. “You are beautiful, May I?”

    I gave him a breathy, “Yes.”

    He reached out and touched my cock, which I had been holding in position with my left hand. He was standing beside me on the right and crossed his right hand to take the shaft. His left hand went to the small of my back. I released my hold on the shaft and let him hold it straight out. My tool stiffened. We held there, he undoubtedly waiting to see if I would balk or break away. I didn’t. I dropped my arms to my side, submissively, and looked directly into his eyes.

    “May I?” he whispered again in a cultured, melodic voice, as he gave my shaft two long, slow strokes.

    “You already are,” I said.

    “But you don’t want me to stop, do you?”

    “No, I don’t want you to stop.”

    “Are you committed or are you for sale?”

    “I am engaged, for which I am paid,” I answered.

    “To Forest DeWitt? I see that he’s in the dining room.”

    “Yes, I’m here with Mr. DeWitt.”

    “But you don’t want me to stop masturbating you.”

    “No, you don’t have to stop, if it gives you pleasure.”

    “Does it give you pleasure?”

    “Yes.”

    “Do you want to give me pleasure . . . for a price?”

    “Yes, if it can be accommodated within my arrangement with Mr. DeWitt.”

    He gave a low laugh and murmured, “Spread your legs back from the wall, lean in and place your hands against the wall. You’re going to come for me.”

    With a sigh, I palmed the wall behind the urinal with both hands, arms extended, and spread my legs. He leaned his face toward mine as he began slow stroking my cock. I met his face half way with mine, and we kissed. He’d been drinking some sort of blackberry-flavored wine. I let his tongue inside and gave him a low moan.

    I moaned deeper as he turned the ring on his right hand so that the gold bead was on the inside and he started fucking my piss slit with the bead while he slow stroked me. His left hand went under the waistband, with fingers sliding into my buttocks crack. My trousers and briefs fell to the floor. The fingers found my asshole and penetrated it. His fingers were long, elegant. The middle one managed to reach my prostate and to start the rise of my cum. The index finger was working to spread my channel more open. His intent was clear.

    He pulled his lips from mine momentarily. “You are completely submissive to me,” he said. It was a statement, a command, not a question.

    “Yes,” I answered.

    “You would be in bed, as well?”

    “Yes.”

    “I can use you as I please?”

    “Yes.”

    He moved his lips back to mine and held me in the kiss while he fucked my piss slit, stroked my cock, and finger fucked my ass. I was his. He could do anything that he wanted with me. I’d been keyed up ever since I figured out the system in the dining room and saw it in action. He was working me in four ways—with his mouth, on my cock, in my ass—and mentally. He sensed I was tensing up to come and moved his right hand lower on my cock and stroked me more vigorously, holding the cock straight out, pointed into the urinal, until I came in three gushes and groans.

    “Now you?” I asked.

    “Yes, please. With your mouth.” He turned full toward me and I went down on my knees and took his cock in my mouth. He ran his fingers into my hair, took control, forcing me to deep throat him. I gagged, but it was what I wanted—a master who could be demanding and a bit cruel. At one point he jerked my head off his cock, pulling painfully on my blond curls and arching my head back. He spit down into my mouth and then pulled me back onto the cock. I gagged again as he pumped my throat with his hard staff. The incongruity of an elegantly dressed and well-mannered older man treating me this cruelly sent chills up my spine and made me go hard again. I reached down for my own cock and masturbated to the rhythm of his stroking.

    I could see he was looking around the men’s room and his eyes had settled on the bank of toilet stalls.

    “Do you want to fuck me in one of the stalls?” I asked, taking my mouth off the cock, but holding it in my hand still. “I want you to fuck me in one of the stalls,” I added.

    “Yes,” he said in a breathy voice, and I stood and pulled my trousers up, preparing to go into one of the stalls with him.

    But at that point the door to the corridor opened and the waiter who had let this man know I was here with DeWitt entered. He could clearly see what we were doing, but he knew it wasn’t his place to act like anything was going on. His presence, though, was enough to make the man push his cock back into his trousers, zip up, and leave.

    Before leaving, he leaned into me and whispered, “If the opportunity arises, I want to bed you. I will use you totally.” Without waiting for a response, he turned, brushing by the waiter without acknowledging him, as if the servant didn’t exist, and exited the restroom. The waiter walked over to the urinals and unzipped himself, pulling out a cock that was going erect. As the gentleman had done with more elegance, the waiter turned and showed me that he was hard.

    “You look like you want one stuck up inside you, pretty boy,” the waiter muttered.

    And so it was the waiter who fucked me in one of the stalls, with my buttocks perched on the toilet tank, my feet plastered to grab bars on the stall partition on either side, the waiter hunched over me, fully dressed, with just his fly open and his cock out. He clutched my throat with one hand and had the other braced against the back wall behind my head. I grasped his waist between my hands and counterpunched his thrusts, using the leverage of my feet against the partition walls.

    What can I say? The elegant man had made me so horny that anyone who wanted to fuck me in that bathroom would have been given leave to do so. The waiter wanted to fuck me. He was young and vigorous and hard and cruel, slapping me and banging my head against the tile wall behind the toilet to make me docile to his wants, even though I wasn’t resisting him, making me clean his cock with my mouth when he had shot his load, and leaving me panting and whimpering, sitting on the toilet of the stall, when he was done—treating me like the whore I was. It was just the fuck I needed at the moment—an extension of what the elegantly clad gentlemen was leading up to but had not been able to complete.

    When I got back to the dining room to face a cold main entrée, the elegant man was nowhere to be seen. The fourth, more sturdy rent-boy was gone as well—and so was Forest DeWitt. While I was eating desert, the waiter who had fucked me—and who now was reacting to me as if I was just another untouchable, superior-to-him, guest at the inn—brought me a small bottle of some after-dinner wine. The taste was of blackberries. Attached to the bottle were a calling card and a fifty-dollar U.S. bill. The elegant man had taken the time to find out I was an American. The name on the card was Sir Giles Renwick, and the address was Berwick Castle in Yorkshire. Scrawled on the back were the words “luscious” and “perhaps later.”

    By the time I’d finished drinking the wine, the waiter was back with another note. It was from DeWitt, saying that he wouldn’t need me that night.

    I went out into the night, finding myself standing by the parking court, with garages on two sides. A light was on in one of the rooms above the garage, and I could make out the silhouette of a muscular man. Felix. I went up the stairs at the end of the garage, down the corridor and stopped outside an open door. Felix was in the room, stripped down to his waist, brushing his teeth at a sink.

    He fucked me, roughly, through most of the night, me begging for more and him giving me more. He took me in positions I’d never tried before—standing in the middle of the room, pulling me on and off his cock, as I was bent over in front of him, legs and arms dangling toward the floor; on his bureau, me doing the splits, my cheek pressed into the mirror on the wall; my shoulders brushing the floor, inverted in front of him, my legs running up his torso, and Felix pulling me on and off his cock.

    It was the fucking I needed. Afterward, as we cooled down, our bodies at full stretched along each other on the small cot that passed for a bed, Felix said, “You aren’t with the viscount tonight?”

    “No. I think he’s taken someone else to his bed.”

    “And so you came to me.”

    “So, I came to you—but because when I’m in heat and need a man I prefer you. Because you can do what you just did.”

    He laughed and reached down and penetrated me with three fingers. They slid in with no difficulty. “Because I’m black?”

    “I have no preference that way,” I answered. “Or I didn’t before I lay under you. Now, yes, your being black adds to the pleasure of it.”

    “Is it Because I have a horse’s cock?”

    “Because you have a beautiful, black bull’s cock and know how to use it.”

    “It’s not a good thing if he has another young man in his bed tonight.”

    “It’s not?”

    “Not for you—for us. He does not hold interest for long. It’s not you. It’s him. Be prepared, I must tell you.”

    And that was good advice. It was the last time I was with Felix. The next morning, when I got up a bit late because of the tiring exercise Felix had put me through, Forest DeWitt, the Bentley, Felix—and, for all I know, the other rent-boy from the previous night—were gone. The note left for me was that there was urgent business in York. It didn’t say they’d be back, though, and they weren’t.

    * * * *

    I did wait for them to return. I thought I really had no option. I asked at the reception desk about Giles Renwick, the elegant older man who I encountered in the men’s room the previous evening, but they wouldn’t confirm whether he was still booked at the inn, saying, with a sniff and raised nose, that if Sir Giles wanted to contact me, he would do so. I could hardly bank on that happening. It wasn’t that I was destitute for money—I just didn’t know how to get to my money reserves in London from this isolated east coast inn.

    Throughout the next day, whenever I heard a car driving on the road running along the top edge of the cliff up to the inn, I went to the auto court, thinking it might be them. I was surprised how many black Bentley salon cars drove around in this area of the country. It was a Friday, and men were arriving in large numbers for the weekend. The main dining room at Rivenhall had over twice as many men there—still all at separate tables and still showing more interest to the younger men in the dining alcove off the main room than to each other. My keep was covered for a few days more, so I wasn’t about to miss a meal in the dining room. I was sitting with nearly a dozen young men in the alcove now—all varieties of young men, each at a separate table. The more sturdy young man from the previous evening—the one I suspected had gone to DeWitt’s bed—wasn’t there, though.

    Quite a few men were eyeing me, and I eyed most of them back—the ones who looked like they were monied and who I wouldn’t mind being handled by. I was in a mild panic. I wasn’t worried so much financially as I was at having been abandoned in a remote—remote to me—area of England without a patron, and without Felix to bed me properly and meltingly. I didn’t want to go patronless long, if only because I needed the inspiration it gave me for writing my novel. I was mildly bummed that Forest DeWitt would so easily give me up for anyone else. Was I losing my touch? My desirability?

    The most striking man was a tall, beefy Indian gentleman, who was getting preferential treatment from the wait staff. He was quite large, heavier than was ideal, but he looked strong and commanding. His eyes stopped on me occasionally and I stared back. I looked at his hands, his fingers covered with clunky rings that looked expensive enough to hold my interest. The fingers on his hands were perhaps the longest and thickest I’d seen on a man. From what he was wearing, it was obvious that he wasn’t English. The Indian aspect of him was apparent. That he could bring it off in this atmosphere spoke to his prominence and standing with the hotel. He was wearing open-toed sandals, and his toes too were thick and long. The tops of them were covered with curly black hair. He had a fine head of wavy black hair and black hair curling up his throat above his shirt collar.

    From the way his gaze floated around the room and kept returning to me, I felt certain he would call for me, and I speculated how big he was, how hairy he might be, how expert in the fuck—and how cruel.

    Before he could make a move, though, if he intended to make a move on me, a small bottle of chilled blackberry dessert wine was brought to me by my waiter of the toilet stall the previous evening. He winked at me as he opened the bottle, poured me a glass of the wine, and handed the bottle to me. Tagged to the neck of the bottle was a room key and five hundred-euro bills. I looked out into the main dining room and, at last, saw him. Sir Giles Renwick. He lifted his wine glass in a toast to me.

    Even though I hadn’t finished my meal, I got up and walked out of the dining room. My exit took me by Renwick’s table, and I paused and gave him a downcast look of submission. I was signaling that he could do whatever he wished with me. From his intake of breath, I think he understood.

    Even so, he made me wait, for more than an hour, lying on his bed, naked, on my back, my legs bent and spread, my pelvis elevated to give the man a good shot as soon as he entered the room of my ass being ready for him, before he attended me. When he did come back to his suite, he gave me a disdainful look and said, “My valet has not come here with me. I want you to be my valet for tonight.”

    “You fuck your valet?” I asked, smiling.

    “Yes, of course,” he answered, straight-faced. “That’s part of his duties.”

    “I will valet for you, of course, but I don’t know what to do other than open my legs for you,” I responded.

    “And sucking my cock,” he added, smiling this time. Then he told me what to do. He stood there while I undressed him and folded his clothes—and, kneeling before him, sucked his cock. And I washed him in the tub while he stroked my cock. I dried him off with a towel in the middle of the bedroom and, upon his command, sank to my knees again. He tied my wrists and ankles together and held my head between his hands while I gave him head again. Then he pushed my cheek to the carpet, commanded me to keep my tail raised. He put a foot on my cheek and pressed down, telling me that he was going to take everything from me.

    “Are you going to keep the PA ring in?” I asked. I had encountered only a few of those in the past and the client had always taken them out before sex. I assumed they would bruise the passage walls. He was about to mount me and his was still in place.

    “No. I want you to feel it,” he said. “You agreed to everything. Do you want to call this off now?”

    “No, I don’t want to call it off,” I answered with a whimper.

    He came around behind me, mounted me, penetrated me with the longest cock I’d ever had, crowned with the heavy PA ring, and he fucked the stuffing out of me as I panted and moaned and writhed under him. I felt the cock ring rubbing and abusing my walls, and I cried out in pain-pleasure more than I usually would have done because of it.

    On the bed, I lay on my belly, grasping the brass rungs of the headboard overhead, my wrists tied to them and my ankles and thighs tied together, as he lay stretched out on top of me, only his pelvis moving, fucking me in long, deep strokes, making the most of my passage being constricted by the bonds pressing my legs together. Untying me, he rolled me over on top of him and made me take the position of the crab over him, legs bent and feet on either side of his knees and arms holding me over him, palms on the bed next to his shoulders, while he fucked up into me from behind and I counterthrust up and down on the shaft until I collapsed and he fucked on.

    His assault on me was cruel and glorious—and it went on interminably.

    After he’d come, he rolled me on my belly again, covered me, and entered me with a half erection that, nonetheless, was long enough to reach far up inside me. I felt him pull out of me and redistribute his weight. And then I felt his fingers—slick, heavily lubricated—at my hole. He penetrated me with, first, one long finger, and then another. I began to pant as the third and fourth fingers forced their way in and spread, working at spreading me open. I panicked, realizing that he planned to fist me. I’d never been fisted before. His fingers were long but slender, as was his hand. He realized he probably could get it inside me, but not without a lot of pain. His hand was in up to the knuckles. I began to hyperventilate and, involuntarily clamping down on his fingers, tightening up.

    “Relax,” he whispered in my ear, “I’m going to reach up into your belly.”

    That didn’t help. I tensed up even more, sobbed, and begged him to stop.

    He laughed, but the laugh had a hollow, irritated tone to it. He pulled his hand out of me and slapped me on the rump—hard—pretending he hadn’t meant to fist me, that he was just toying with me. But I could tell that he was disappointed, that he was displeased that I didn’t—couldn’t—give him everything he wanted. Still, the effort had made him hard again. He remounted my ass, thrust deep inside me, and fucked me with a fury, slapping my buttocks and thighs to release his ill-hidden anger, punishing my channel walls mercilessly with the chaffing of his PA ring.

    After he’d fucked me, I lay back on the bed. He stretched out beside me, hovering over me and took my mouth in a kiss. As we kissed, he took my wrists and pulled them over my head. I felt the restraints go around my wrists and cuffs snap, binding my arms over my head. He went up on his knees and raised my right leg up his chest, hooking my ankle on his shoulder. Then he did what he’d wanted to do whether I wanted it or not. Capturing my eyes with his as he hovered over me, he fisted me with his right hand, breaking through my sphincter this time with his knuckles and fucking me with his hand while I writhed under him, exhausted, fighting to relax, whimpering, panting hard, and, ultimately, moving my pelvis with him and taking the fist.

    At three in the morning, my having been ravaged cruelly—and most satisfactorily—by him, he pushed me out of the bed with the growl, “I need to get some sleep,” and I gathered up my clothes, pulling them on as I moved to the door to the corridor. I paused there, thinking he would give me some word of approval or affection, but he already was snoring when I left the room and gently pulled the door to behind me.

    My ass was as sore as it ever had been before, but I was humming, sure that I had done well, that I had taken all that he demanded of me and had gotten him off repeatedly, maybe five times. I hadn’t done too badly in that department myself. Chances were excellent, I thought, that I’d moved on to a new patron. I took the “I have no valet with me” statement to suggest that he would use me in that role—while totally using me as his sex slave.

    The good feeling about that lasted only until the next morning when I came down to breakfast just in time to see him driving off in his Jaguar.

    “Yes, that was Sir Giles,” the man at the front desk said. “No, we don’t expect him back for a couple of weeks. He’s checked out.”

    I felt a loss. He’d fucked me as I liked and beyond, taking me into new territory that men would pay premium prices for me to let them do; he obviously was wealthy and titled; he was strikingly good looking for his age; and he had a long, long cock. And there was that gloriously punishing cock ring. I’d had the feeling he could reach up into my belly with his PAed shaft when he was taking me in long strokes. Thinking on it now, I obviously hadn’t pleased him enough for him to take me with him.

    There had been a rush there at the end, after he’d fucked me in so many positions, to send me away. Was it because I didn’t give him everything he wanted—that he wanted even more and thought I wouldn’t give him because I had been resistant to the fisting at first—and maybe hadn’t taken it as well as he wanted ultimately? Was I prepared to accommodate the more sophisticated and more specialized demands of the upper British classes? Was there something more demanding than fisting that Sir Giles wanted from a submissive?

    * * * *

    The man was spending an inordinate amount of time worshipping my hole—or so I thought at the time. I was on my back on his bed, my legs spread—my left ankle hooked on his shoulder, my right leg bent, as he reclined on the bed by my left hip and alternated between thumping and thrumming my hole, kissing and tonguing it, and penetrating it with his fingers. I’d never had a man so entranced with and obsessed with my anal opening. But, as it was slowly yawning wide for him, perhaps there was a good reason for his fixation. I know that it was arousing me. Maybe this was standard sex play in India.

    My wrists were tied, my arms raised above my head and tethered to restraint buckles he’d pulled up onto the mattress from between the edge of the mattress and the headboard. He’d obviously done this before—a lot.

    “Yes, yes, yes,” I was murmuring, and it wasn’t an act.

    His fingers were slathered with lube, which he was generously and sensually feeding into my ass. When he had four fingers inside me, I arched my back, let my head roll back, and cried out toward the headboard. I was sure he was working up to fisting me, and I’d never experienced that from a man with fingers as thick and long as the Indian’s. I’d only experienced it once before—just the previous night—but not as totally as this would be if it continued. But then Giles Renwick didn’t expend the time and energy to get me as open as I was now.

    “Oh, shit. Oh, fuck,” I whined in anticipation.

    His name was Patel, Virat Patel. I could have cried my head off and no one would have come to rescue me. Patel, who was the Indian who had eyed me at dinner the previous night and might have sent for me then if Sir Giles hadn’t done so before he could, owned Rivenhall. He could do as he liked with me. He had earned his spot as the head of this male brothel; he was an expert cocksman and he manipulated my body at will, taking his pleasure as he liked and, in turn, giving me pleasures such as I’d never experienced before. And that was saying a lot coming from an expensive male hooker. I wanted to be dominated fully, taken totally.

    He could fist me if he wanted. But it transpired that he wasn’t doing that and it wasn’t why he was spending so much time and effort opening my channel up. It was because the old adage of what long and thick fingers and toes meant held true here again. He’d been wearing a white dhoti—a one-piece sarong-type skirt or baggy pants—and when he unknotted that, allowing the material to puddle away from his body and moved his huge body over mine, I glimpsed his cock and balls. He was massively hung—long and as thick as my wrist.

    As he hunched over me, both of his arms stiff-armed into the mattress on either side of my chest, and his jet-black eyes in his brown face intensely staring down into my eyes, muttering that he wanted to see my suffering when he penetrated me, Patel started forcing his cock inside me. Even with the long preparation, I had to fight hard to take him. He demanded that I relax and not clinch up and that helped. I whimpered and cried and begged him for mercy as he took his time filling me. Before he bottomed, I had collapsed and lay there, legs spread and turned out to widen my channel as much as possible, completely open to him, totally conquered. The full surrender helped me take and survive him.

    Once he was fully saddled, he began a slow pump, one that increased in intensity and length of slide. Passion overtook me and I went with him, totally won over to the size and intensity of him. I bucked with him and begged him for it. We fell into a coordinated rhythm and movement of our hips and buttocks and legs until we were one, totally in sync fucking machine.

    “Very good. You are a great lay,” he murmured, looking down into my eyes. “You take it all. Most of my boys cannot.”

    He lowered his mouth to mine and I opened to his tongue. He lowered his muscled, hairy chest to mine and chaffed my tender skin with his black, curly, silky hair. We moved in coordinated waves, and I cried out, arched my back, and shot my load up between our chests. He fucked on, interminably. I shot a second load. He fucked on. I was moaning and groaning and crying out that I’d never had it so good or so long or so thick. And then he stiffened and fired off inside me, and I was able to add that I’d never been bathed in so much cum. And then he shot off again and again.

    * * * *

    The initiation of an interview with Patel on his bed had been completely unexpected, as it was not arranged in the dining room. He’d sent one of the waiters from the dining room to find me, where I was wandering in the garden, near the edge of the cliff, that Saturday afternoon. I was despondent, having lost the second man I was thinking would be my patron within two days. I was just twenty-four. As far as I knew I hadn’t lost my attraction to men. It wasn’t so much the lost money I could earn by having a well-placed patron who I could service and who would keep me bedded. I had sufficient cash reserves—when I could get to them. It was the increasing uncertainty of my power over men—even middle-aged men. I was meeting men now who were more sophisticated and demanding with sex, who wanted something special. I didn’t seem to be expert enough to give a man everything he could want.

    It wasn’t “my” waiter, the one of the men’s room stall, who came to fetch me. If it had been, I probably would have coaxed him to fuck me there in the garden—to be cruel to me again, to give me assurances that sexual attraction wasn’t slipping away from me. But, although “my” waiter had hovered around in the dining room after that coupling, in that realm he maintained his place, not giving me as much deference as he did the guests in the main dining room, but treating me with distance and respect.

    “Mr. Patel—he owns Rivenhall—wishes you to come to his bedroom,” the messenger said.

    “Tonight?”

    “No. Now.”

    “Now? In the afternoon? Did he tell you what he wanted from me?”

    “I think you know what he wants from you,” the messenger said, giving me something close to a sneer. He was a waiter in the dining room. Of course he knew that assignations were set up there. He knew what young men like me were doing when we came to the dining room and sat at the separate tables in the alcove off the main dining room.

    My mind went to Patel. He was massive. I can’t say I hadn’t already wondered how well he was endowed and had compared his paunch to the larger one DeWitt had and even while I was eating my dinner the previous evening was thinking of the positions we could use for him to get greatest penetration—and me sufficient pleasure without being crushed. When a man with a big belly took me from behind, I arched my back to give him a shelf to accommodate his girth. When he took me in a missionary, I often tried to be arching back over the side of the bed to open totally to him and let his belly push out unencumbered in front of him. I did what I could to give such a man maximum depth for the thrust. As for my pleasure, he needed to have something hefty to thrust.

    But I was later to think upon that musing and laughing at the thought of worrying about a man with a big belly being able to achieve enough penetration to satisfy me. Patel’s cock seemed to reach to my tonsils and to stretch me like a baseball bat no matter what experienced position he maneuvered my body into. Once we were fused—and there’s no other word for it; his cock filled me at the greatest stretch and he possessed me to the maximum point of sexual connection that he could, and did, do—he did as he liked with me.

    “Why not?” I had answered and had followed the waiter back into the gentleman’s brothel.

    The second time Patel fucked me, he released my wrists. It didn’t mean much, though. He was strong as an ox and held me in close embrace. He fucked me from behind with both of us on our sides and him holding my left leg raised. Again, I felt stretched to the limit but welcomed the cruel and rough fucking and let him know I did. Once again, we moved in perfect harmony, making the most of our sexual parts.

    As we lay there afterward, him still holding me close, still deep inside me, still half hard, he whispered in my ear, “You are good. Very good.”

    “You are better,” I responded.

    “I wanted to know. I wanted to know before . . .”

    “Before what?”

    “You have been abandoned here. Do you realize that? Forest DeWitt isn’t coming back. Sir Giles isn’t going to send for you. He will come back here, but when he does, he may not call for you. He may have had what he wants from you already.”

    “I know,” I answered.

    “Those young men—the ones in the dining room, making themselves available to the guests. They aren’t all working independently. Some are brought here as personal whores, as you were.”

    I bridled at that, but he was right. I was a whore. DeWitt had brought me here so he would have a whore to service him.

    “Some work for me,” Patel continued. “I maintain my own stable that I train to the service. Some work for me longer than others. If they leave, they leave trained to earn more. While they are here, we split the fees, but I steer the best of the guests to my own boys. You have been abandoned here. You can work for me until you get your bearings.”

    “It’s something to consider,” I said. “I can’t say I wouldn’t leave with one of your guests if I found one I fancied and who wanted to take me on an adventure.”

    “I understand. Until then, you would be my slave and I would be your master. I can train you to be a top earner. But you must not rise above yourself. You must accept that you are here to pleasure men in the ways they want to be pleasured.”

    I had no trouble understanding those were the rules here—separate dining room sectioned and separate tables.

    He didn’t have any way of knowing but that was the very best argument a man could use with me to get his way.

    “Did I not do that for you just now—be your willing slave for whatever you wanted from me?”

    Patel laughed. “Yes, and you did it very well. If you hadn’t, I wouldn’t be offering you what I am.”

    “I’ll be in the dining room tonight, then,” I said. “Now, though, I’ll—” I had started to roll out of his embrace and pull my channel off his cock, but he held me close, tightly enough that I yelped from the sharp pain of it.

    “No. I said you are my slave and I am your master. I am not finished with you yet.”

    And that obviously was true. I could feel him engorging inside me again. He rolled me over onto my stomach, pulled me up on my knees, palmed my belly with one hand, and pressed the heel of his other hand into the side of my throat, forcing my cheek to the surface of the bed.

    I groaned again as he crouched over my ass on the bed, mounted me, and began to fuck me again in long, thick strokes.

    I whimpered and sobbed and begged for mercy—and reveled in every stroke of the renewed fuck.

    He turned me on my back again, and I spread and bent my legs and lifted my pelvis to him, willingly, offering myself as a sacrifice, a sacrifice he accepted. He fisted me now. Now I could take it after the reaming of his cock over the previous hour. I would give him anything, and he wanted—and took—it all. I panted and groaned as he penetrated me with a greased hand up to his wrist, taking his time.

    “We have all the time in the world,” he murmured to assure me that I was completely in his control.

    “Be good to me, master,” I begged.

    “You wish me to stop? You wish me to withdraw?”

    “No. Have me as you like.” I was lost to him, wanting more, wanting it all. He wasn’t just a massive, big-bellied, middle-aged Indian. He was a sexual mystic, a master cocksman.

    “Remember what I told you in taking a cock my size. You must do that for a large fist too.”

    I remembered, willing myself to relax and open to him, to control my breathing—not to hold my breath—to concentrate on how fully we were fused, the pleasure I was giving my partner, the pleasure I could have as well if I fought through the pain. Already I was learning from Patel, a master. Wherever I went from here, I would have learned to please a man more fully—and to get maximum pleasure myself.

    And it was pleasure—the pleasure of knowing I could take it; that it was what my partner wanted from me and that I was in the position to give it all to him. The pleasure of knowing I could take a huge cock, even a fist, probably even two cocks at once.

    I can take a fist, I can take a fist. I rolled this over and over in my mind as he was penetrating me with his hand. And then I had taken his fist.

    He was inside me. I felt his fingers stroke my channel walls, a thumb firmly planted on my prostate and rubbing. Driving me crazy. I bucked against him, with him, as he fluttered his fingers inside my channel. He held my head to the mattress with the other massive hand on my throat and gazed into my face, reveling in my complete, whimpering surrender to him.

    “Good, good,” Patel leaned into me and whispered in my ear. “And you will become better at it. Sir Giles had a word with me this morning before he left. He will not send for you, but he will come here and enjoy you. He wishes you to be fully trained to the fist before he comes back again. And we will cover sounding as well.”

    “Sounding?” I asked. “What is sounding?”

    He told me what sounding was, and then I knew that there were more refined and demanding sex acts an English gentleman might require from me than I had experienced as yet.

    I would maybe find a patron to take me away from Rivenhall, but not for a time—not for as long as Vital Patel dominated me like this—and there was the promise of another coupling with Sir Giles—and I had the chance to learn even more tricks of the trade.


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  • Two men and a truck

    George had always saved for a private pension plan and was able to take “Freedom 55”. He sold his house, made a profit and bought a condo in downtown Toronto. There were so many moving companies but the choice seemed obvious: Two Men and a Truck. It almost sounded like an adventurous invitation, with daredevil innuendos…

    The two men were called John and Jim, both in their mid thirties, both handsome, both medium built and muscular. John had an anchor tattooed on his left arm; Jim had a short dark beard that gave him a macho look. They emptied the house in just over two hours. George watched them eagerly, especially when they were bending to lift a sofa or a bookcase, showing a round firm ass in tight jeans. He offered them a coke or a beer which they accepted with a smile. The last item packed was a 6-foot painting of a nude black guy hung like a stallion. John whispered to Jim “I think this guy is gay, maybe we’re in for a bit of fun!”

    Once at the condo, George directed the movers to the right room, asking them to place each piece of furniture in the proper position. The tall painting was the last to be unwrapped. It had the power to attract the attention of anyone in the room.

    – We can hang it for you. Where does it go? said Jim
    – In the living-room, between the two windows.
    – Is he someone you know? asked John.
    – Yeah… it’s the self-portrait of a close friend.
    – Are you hung like him? joked Jim.
    – No, but I think you both have a hot rod that needs attention. Am I right?
    – Can we first take a shower?

    John and Jim didn’t wait for an answer and started to remove their sweaty shirt, revealing a sizzling six-pack. When they bend down to untie their boots, George grabbed their ass, slapped it and triggered a moan of satisfaction. The shower area was big enough for three guys ready to hug. George soaped his movers’ hard dick, rinsed it clean, licked it avidly, and started to suck each one with frenzy. John’s boner was thick, cut, with a bursting mushroom fueled by nuts in a tight bag. Jim’s chopper was a slender, uncut dipstick attached to low-hanging balls. He tried to reach for George’s cute curved piece of meat, saying that they also wanted a share of the meal. “Let’s go in the bedroom, the king-size bed is a good arena for a virile combat.”

    George, John and Jim took place on the mattress, forming a circle, each with a dork in his mouth. You could have called it the sixth Olympic circle. The position was ideal to easily switch from 69 to ass rimming, an exercise that generated a fanfare of FUCKING AWESOME!

    John and Jim had imagined their plan on the way from the house to the condo. They were hired to move furniture why could this job not have fringe benefits… as it was often the case. They saw the good-looking George as the ideal recipient of their masculine nectar… each positioned at a different entry port, each ready to explode at the same time.

    With only spit on his 7-and-a-half-inch pistol, Jim started pushing it slowly in George’s tight ass. Very soon, the entire length was deep inside. Then Jim slid his hands under George’s ass, lifted him, pulled his cock almost entirely out, and let George fall back down on it to have him impaled, moaning louder.

    John was not the type of guy to remain on the side line, observing the action. No, he was decided to take part in it voraciously. He shoved his thick manhood back and forth in George’s mouth. His intention wasn’t to face fuck the more-than-willing client, but to literally skull fuck him. He kept yelling “Take it all, my little whore, you’re going to love my cum flavor in your mouth, you sweet son of bitch!”. George had no idea that double dipping could be so fucking tasty.

    John and Jim felt their orgasm building with every thrust and could not refrain from commenting on this man-to-man pleasure: “Gosh, my girlfriend isn’t half the fuck you are!” To the tune of this compliment, George began to stroke his own cock, bringing it to a climax. In harmony, all three men opened fire at the same time, one in a hungry ass, one in a warm mouth, one on his hairy chest.

    When the two movers left the condo, they both wondered if they should hire George as manager and change the name of the company to “Three men and a hot truck”…


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  • A Frightful Friday at Frogmore

    Supper was always a tense occasion on Friday evenings at Frogmore, a leading English public school for boys, located in a village of the same name, near York.  In the early 1900s, the period when the events recounted in this little drama occurred, Frogmore was one of those educational establishments where time had more or less stood still since the mid-nineteenth century. The school’s motto might as well have been spare the rod and spoil the boy, as along with a number of northern schools, the cane, and its companion, the birch, were never spared and were still in regular use; too regular, in the eyes of many of the pupils, who had for many years taken to referring to the school as Flogmore. Friday evening supper was always a special occasion as it was the only meal of the week at which the then Headmaster, a certain Reverend Dr. Marcus Sebastian Temple, partook of a meal together with his pupils in the school’s Great Refectory. The Headmaster sat at high table on a raised platform, together with some of his colleagues, remote from his charges. But other than the fact that general level of chatter was rendered less strident than usual by the presence of their lord and master – the Headmaster’s presence was always a dampening prospect, whatever the occasion – the meal progressed more of less normally.

    But as ever, tension was in the air, as Friday evening, after supper, came the fatidic hour when the Headmaster dealt with those boys who, during the week, had received punishment notes in class from their teachers. These notes, which the unfortunate recipients were obliged to place in a box outside the Headmaster’s study, were then collected by his secretary, who late each Friday afternoon, posted a list of the not-so-lucky-lads who would be joining what was called the Penitents’ Parade to the Headmaster’s study later that evening.  To be a member of the Penitent’s Parade, was an absolute guarantee of going to bed that evening nursing a well-beaten arse, a commodity, which could be considered as the hallmark of Frogmore School. And when I say well-beaten, I really do mean that the recipient went to bed with an excruciatingly painful pair of buttocks, for the Reverend Dr. Temple on spite of his age, was no slouch when it came to delivering the goods with the cane.

    Boys who had been issued with punishment notes already knew that their names would be on the list, so although those in that unfortunate position were understandably less at ease with their supper than was usually the case, they were, on the whole, resigned to their fate, which they saw as part and parcel of life at the school. The tension was not, however, limited to them, but was general across the entire school as the boys waited for the meal to end, to see if their Headmaster would address them. There was often a sting in the tail on Fridays, as the Headmaster frequently announced additional names of boys, who had committed some infraction, out of class, for which they too were to be taken to task later the same evening.  So there was always a degree of uncertainty in the air as to whether the Headmaster would invite other boys to join the Penitents’ Parade and benefit from his rather painful post-postprandial ministrations that evening. And when I use the word invite, let me say that the invitation was not one which the nominee could refuse.

    The Headmaster rose from his chair and gazed, I wish I could have said, with a beneficent eye over his flock; but that was, alas not the case. Indeed, the converse was true; for the Reverend Dr. Temple was not one of those clerics whose heart pumped the milk of human kindness through his veins. In fact, quite the contrary, for, the Reverend Dr. Temple was one of those strictest of unbending, late-Victorian disciplinarians, an old-style headmaster, who subscribed heart and soul to the biblical concept of an eye for an eye. As such, in making the punishment fit the crime, he had no hesitation at all, in inflicting the most severe beatings on the bare backsides of any members of his flock whom he felt merited his attention, as many, in his view, did!  So invitations to visit the Headmaster in his study were not exactly sought after by the boys.

    On this particular Friday evening, as the Headmaster rose from his seat, the gentle hubbub in the huge refectory stopped instantly as if the entire complement of over four hundred and fifty boys had been struck dumb. You could almost feel the electricity in the air as the tension mounted to breaking point and the assembled boys waited in silence, holding their breath, each praying that his name would not be called and that his arse would, therefore, not be on the line and subject to the painful depredations of the Reverend Dr. Temple’s cane later that same evening. The reason for the general nervousness among the boys was that no one had even the faintest idea whom the Headmaster might wish to see or for what reason. Frequently, it was because of unsatisfactory work in class, which had percolated through to the Headmaster. But equally it could be for other offences, both real and imagined, for which a master had reported a boy to the Headmaster; or then again, for boys whom the Headmaster himself had seen committing an offence. And let us be quite clear, At Frogmore, during the early 1900s, the offences which Dr Temple thought merited a beating, were legion. Dr. Temple was particularly heavy on boys whom he caught bullying their younger schoolmates, but dozens of other, less-serious offences, if detected, inevitably led  to a very painful arse for the perpetrator.

    For whatever reason a boy was named, there was no public explanation of why he had been called and was condemned to join the Penitents’ Parade. But there was scarcely a Friday night on which the Headmaster did not add a few names to the punishment schedule prepared and posted on the notice board by his secretary prior to supper. Philosophically, the boys who received their invitations verbally from the Headmaster usually thought that it was better than finding themselves on the punishment note list. The end result was just as painful, but at least they did not have to wait long to get it over and done with. On the other hand, the lads, who had been given notes early that same week had the mental anguish of having to live through the week in the full knowledge that come Friday evening, as sure as night follows day, their backsides would be forced to mate with the the Headmaster’s cane.

    So far, that particular Friday was no different from any other. As beatings were always event which aroused great interest in all members of the school, the entire assembly at supper that evening already knew that there were eight names on the list posted on the notice board prior to supper that fateful evening. So the whole school knew that, come what may, there were at least eight of their schoolmates whose bare arses were on a painful collision course with one or other of Dr. Temple’s canes before the evening was out. That fact alone had already sexually aroused many of the older boys who could barely control their hardening cocks as the Headmaster prepared to speak.  As ever, there was omnipresent, that prurient, vicarious curiosity, which all boys seem to possess to a greater or lesser degree, which kept every member of the entire assembly on a knife edge, hoping that his name would not be called for some offence he was only vaguely aware – if at all – of having committed, but at the same time taking secret pleasure from the fact that one or other of his schoolmates might be called, adding to the number of those to be executed that evening.  

    Dr. Temple drew himself to his full height of six feet. He was a spare and bony man, dressed always in deepest black and in the style of the day, wore his academic gown over a long black coat.  He was one of those miserably faced people who always looked as if he had just lost a pound and found a penny.  He glared balefully at his assembled flock through an antiquated pair of round-lens, wire-rimmed spectacles which belonged to the previous century, if not earlier.

    “Gentlemen, as is customary on Friday evenings, those of you who have been found wanting and have received punishment notes from your teachers during the past week will already be aware that your attendance is both requested and required on tonight’s Penitents’ Parade.   I see from the list, that this evening I shall have the pleasure of addressing eight of you. As usual, those of you involved will assemble yourselves in the corridor in front of my study, appropriately attired for the occasion, at precisely eight o’clock this evening.  I would stress, every boy involved must present himself, in the appropriate attire.  For the three new boys, the first-formers, whom I see on list, who have not yet had the pleasure of participating in one of these Friday night gatherings, your schoolmates will, I am quite sure, make you aware of what you should wear when you present yourselves to me this evening. I trust that I have made myself clear. So as there are no questions, I will move onto my supplementary list of boys I wish to see this evening.”

    So there were other boys in the Headmaster’s collimator that evening. You could feel the entire assembly metaphorically drawing itself to attention and holding its collective breath as the names of the boys who would have the very doubtful pleasure of joining the Penitents’ Parade were called out out by the Headmaster. There were four additional names in all; all of older boys in the fourth and fifth forms.  There was then a long pause whilst the Headmaster squinted at a note which he had just pulled from his pocket. He held up his hand for silence and said:  “Now in addition to the four boys I have just named, I would also like to see Nigel Danvers from the upper sixth.  Danvers I would ask you to to be good enough to present yourself to me around nine o’clock after I have finished addressing the other younger boys.  Oh, and before I forget, to avoid any misunderstandings, may I remind you, Danvers, that you too should change into attire appropriate to the occasion before you come to see me this evening,”

     The school could not believe its ears.  The Headmaster had just named the school’s head-boy, Nigel Danvers, the senior prefect of the year, in his own way as hated as the Headmaster himself by the rest of his schoolmates for the frequent, vicious beatings he inflicted on his brethren.  And his death warrant had been signed, sealed and delivered in front of the entire school; and as he had been reminded to present himself to the Headmaster in the appropriate attire, which meant only one thing: the head-boy himself was to be given a naked arse beating. As the Headmaster left the refectory, the buzz of conversation among the boys, reached fever pitch as they discussed the implications of what the Headmaster had just announced. At Frogmore it had always been maintained by the Headmaster that all boys, from the day they entered to the day they left the school, were subject to the same rules.  And if anyone had doubted the veracity of that assertion, then today, the Headmaster’s surprise announcement had given them all the proof they could ever wish for. There could be no more positive confirmation of that assertion, which, frankly, had until now, fallen on many sceptical ears.  But there it was; the head-boy had been publicly named in front of the entire school and, along with the other twelve penitents, was to be beaten that very evening.  And to add insult to injury, the Headmaster had also reminded him that he too should present himself for punishment appropriately attired.  The whole thing seemed totally unreal and many boys asked themselves if they had been dreaming.

    But before we go on and join the Headmaster exercising his unquestionable skill with the cane on the naked arses of the unfortunate members of that evening’s Penitents’ Parade, just a word about that much used practice of making the boys wear what was called the appropriate attire on such occasions.. The appropriate attire  worn by public school boys who were to have their arses beaten on the bare, as was the practice in most northern public schools at the time the events in this narrative are taking place, consisted simply of a pair of gym shorts and a gym vest and nothing else. Even a boy’s shoes were abandoned in favour of a pair of bedroom slippers. So boys presenting themselves for punishment, as many all too frequently did, were very scantily clad indeed.  The advantage was obvious; shorts could be dropped at a moment’s notice, giving immediate access to that key piece of anatomy essential to any beating: the boy’s naked buttocks.

    Frogmore could not lay claim to being the originator of this idea. That distinction was attributed to a now long-dead, former Headmaster of another public school, Churston, near Hereford on the Welsh border.  Like the Reverend Dr. Temple, his late colleague had been another divine with the most apposite name of Dr. Mortimer Birch.  And true to his name, the Reverend Dr. Birch had no hesitation in applying his dreaded and much-feared namesake instrument of punishment, then in widespread use throughout the public schools system, to the naked backsides of any errant member of his flock. Many were the generations of boys, whose naked backsides had benefitted from such generous attention from the birch administered by the Reverend Doctor before he finally retired. But as you will probably have guessed, his actions with the birch like those of many other sadistic schoolmasters were always, according to him, motivated by the highest moral principles. He regularly deluded himself, as he roasted some poor lad’s bare arse, that what he was doing was, as ever, for the boy’s own good.

    But this gentleman, who was totally devoted to the birch, had seen that due to the rather cumbersome school  uniform which the boys wore at Churston, gaining naked access to that all-important part of a boys’ anatomy was, to say the  least, an awkward business. And so he had come up with the idea of making the boys, whom he was about to beat, change into their gym strips before presenting themselves to him.  This simple idea was one just short of genius, as the shorts easily came down, giving immediate access to that indispensible part of the lad’s anatomy: his naked arse! For some twenty or so years in the late nineteenth century this mode of dress was practised only at Churston. But on his retirement, the Reverend Dr. Birch wrote an article which was published in a now long defunct magazine called The Public School Teacher.  Entitled: A Suggestion for the Appropriate Attire to be Worn by Public School Boys who are to be Beaten. How the Victorians loved their long descriptive titles! But long or not, the suggestions in this widely read article were adopted by a large number of public schools throughout the north of the country. So, the expression, appropriate attire, slipped into general public school speak, meaning gym shirts and gym vest only to be worn when a boy was to be beaten.

    We will leave Dr. Temple after supper in his study, in his preparations for dealing with what was a bumper haul of no less than twelve boys, all of whose backsides were already twitching with horror at the thought of what they would shortly suffer at the hands of their Headmaster and consider for a moment the unfortunate position of the head-boy, Nigel Danvers, the unlucky thirteenth member of that Friday’s Penitents’ Parade.  To be named head-boy at Frogmore was an honour indeed, as the head-boy, the senior prefect among a total of eighteen across the six houses of the school, had almost the status of a master.  He occupied a suite of two rooms in the School’s main building, at the other end of the corridor from the Headmaster’s study and had a spacious study and a separate bedroom reached by a short corridor in which was a small private bathroom. But his elevated position was not just one of title, as he was in charge of the other prefects, who, in turn, were responsible for maintaining a semblance of order when the boys were out of class. And in common with the then general practice in public schools, all the prefects were authorised to beat their younger brethren when the need arose, which, it goes without saying, it often did.  And so, although the Headmaster’s use of the cane was concentrated on, but not exclusively limited to dealing with members of his regular Friday night Penitents’ Parade, the cane, in the ever-ready hands of the prefects and head-boy, was alive and well at all times.

    But the head-boy’s position in this hierarchy of young flagellators was very special.  Frogmore practised the demerit system, common to several other schools. Each boy carried on him in his  jacket pocket,  a small demerit notebook, in which both masters and prefects could enter demerit marks for those little peccadilloes, which individually did not merit physical correction for the lad in question, but which when added together did promise a mandatory beating. And so when a boy had accumulated a total of ten demerit marks, he was honour -bound to present himself voluntarily to the head-boy on Friday evening after supper, wearing only the appropriate attire for a mandatory, no-questions-asked beating. The Headmaster had defined the tariffs: six cuts of an appropriate cane for a first visit, nine for a second and twelve for a third visit in any one school year, all of which  the head-boy dispensed with that customary, sadistic vigour, which one so often associates with a prefect’s beating.  So at one end of the corridor each Friday evening the Headmaster dispensed what passed for justice to the boys on his Penitents’ Parade, whilst at the other end of the same corridor, the head-boy received and dealt with those boys who had crossed the threshold of ten demerit marks during the preceding week. The difference was that the Headmaster had a defined list of subjects requiring his attention, whilst the head-boy had no idea at all until the relevant boys presented themselves at his study after Friday evening supper, how many arses he would be required to beat on any particular Friday evening.

    In the event, on this very Friday, the head-boy found a bumper crop of six lads requiring his attention with the cane, assembled in front of his study door. So the two groups, twelve boys to see the Headmaster and six to see the head-boy, stood in their gym shorts and vests at opposite ends of the same corridor, waiting nervously to be called in to have their arses roasted. Opinions differed among the boys as to who was was the harder caner: the Headmaster or the head-boy.  However, a few cognoscenti who had had the doubtful pleasure of experiencing both the Headmaster’s and the head-boy’s flagellation abilities, reckoned that there was little to choose between them, as they were both absolute bastards when it came to laying on the cane. Like most prefects, the head-boy, Nigel Danvers, was an enthusiastic practitioner of the rights which went with his elevated position. In a word, he really enjoyed skinning the naked arses of his erstwhile school-mates, from whom by virtue of his position he was now somewhat estranged. And this Friday, with a bumper harvest of six arses to beat, he should have been in seventh heaven. But, of course he was not. The fact that he himself had been publicly summoned to see his Headmaster at nine o’clock that evening and told to present himself wearing the dreaded, appropriate attire to boot, made one thing and one thing only quite sure: he too was to be beaten; but for some as yet undefined  reason. It had to be serious for the Headmaster to take the unheard of step of naming him in front if the entire school and specifying that he should arrive appropriately attired for the occasion.  The entire school had been made aware of the fact that their head-boy was going to be beaten by the Headmaster. And from the way it had been publicly announced, the Headmaster clearly wanted to relay a message to the school: no boy, whatever his position, was above the law.

    So that Friday evening, Nigel Danvers, found himself in the uniquely invidious position of hunting with the hounds and running with the fox. He himself as head-boy was about to carry out his duty and beat the boys waiting outside of his study, holding their demerit books in their hands. And then, he himself was to change into the skimpy, appropriate attire and report to the Headmaster, who was clearly intending to roast his arse for an as-yet-unknown reason; at least it was unknown to him, although the Headmaster clearly must have a reason for him to make such a stunning, and, for his head-boy, humiliating, announcement in front of the entire school.  He somehow hoped that it was all a dream; some horrible nightmare, from which he would suddenly awaken. But as he walked along the corridor and saw the six lads standing there at his study door, demerit books in their hands, nervously awaiting his arrival, he knew it was real.  When he had finished dealing with the six of them, as he fully intended to do, he knew he would himself have to change into that same, skimpy, appropriate attire, walk back along that same corridor and face his Headmaster. It was not that he feared having his arse beaten, an act which he had experienced many times in the past, but not one for which he would have readily volunteered. It was the fact that he had been summoned to visit the Headmaster in front of the entire school; and not only summoned, but told to report wearing the appropriate attire, which was just so humiliating. He had been cut down to size in front of the entire school in a most demeaning way.

    But thing were as they were; so as he entered his study, he collected the demerit books from the nervous assembly of boys on whose naked arse he was shortly to lavish that not-so-tender loving care for which he was famous. Of the six boys assembled, five were first-formers.  It seemed to be a fact that new boys accumulated demerit points more rapidly than their older brethren, possibly because they were less aware of the myriad of piffling rules over which they could stumble as they settled down to life at Frogmore. But he saw, with some satisfaction, that the sixth candidate for the cuts, which as head-boy he delighted in dispensing to Friday evening demeritees, was one, Andrew Thompson, from the upper sixth, a boy of his own age and in the same form to which he himself belonged. Although Nigel Danvers had no objection at all to lavishing his care on younger boys, it was when the occasion arose, as it now had, to thrash someone of his own age, that he achieved the maximum personal satisfaction.

    As he sat for several minutes at his desk, looking over the demerit books, it was a strangely surreal and disconcerting occasion and wondered if this was to be the last occasion when would exercise his powers of fustigation on his schoolmates. Whatever the Headmaster was holding against him, it had to be serious for him to have called out his head-boy in public. So not surprisingly, Nigel Danvers was totally ill at ease with himself as he sat there wondering whether he would still be head-boy of Frogmore in an hour’s time. But for the moment he was still head-boy and as such he had his duty to do. And moreover it was the single aspect of his duty, which gave him the greatest pleasure. Although he would never admitted the fact to a living soul, like many young men in the privileged position of prefect in public schools throughout the country, he revelled in he act of inflicting physical pain on his school brethren.  So with uncertainty looking him starkly in the face, he decided that he that he might as well make hay whilst the sun was still shining and make his potentially last act as head-boy one one to be remembered by all participants.

    He opened his study door to face the five trembling first formers, whom he motioned to enter, leaving Andrew Thompson standing alone in the corridor. He closed the door and again installed himself behind his desk, with the five young lads lined up in front of him. Nigel Danvers put on his sternest face as he addressed the highly nervous boys in front of him who had hitherto no experience of the ways of Frogmore.  There was no need on these Friday evening demerit occasions, to discuss the misdemeanours which had led to each of the lads reaching the fatidic total of ten demerits which automatically qualified them for the mandatory six cuts of the cane administered by the head-boy.

    “As you all probably know,” he said, addressing the young mans for the first time, “You are here today because each of you has accumulated a total of ten demerit marks, which as you all know means that you will each receive an automatic six stroke beating, administered by me as your head-boy.  I regret to say that there are no mitigating factors which can be considered and so, unless any of you has anything you wish to say before I proceed to beat you, I suggest we get on with things and that I put the five of you out of your mental misery.” He did not mention the fact that their mental misery would soon be replaced by a very painful arse.

    One boy, Robert Williams, stepped a half pace forward and said in a trembling voice: “Danvers we all know that according to the school rules we have to beaten, but I have never ever been beaten before and I am terribly frightened that I will not be able to stand the pain. Will what you are going to do to us hurt a lot?”

    “Is there anyone else among you who has never been caned before? I have to say that I am surprised that Williams here has never had the pleasure of having backside polished with the cane.  I would have thought that you would all have been swished at least once at your prep schools. I know I was; and quite frequently I might add, before I come to Frogmore. So hands up any other boys who has never been caned before.”

     Quite exceptionally, two others of tonight’s five first-formers had never been caned before coming to Frogmore. So in what might be his swan-song as head-boy, Danvers was to have the pleasure of introducing no less than three maiden arses to the  rigours of the cane. On any other occasion it would have been a delightfully erotic prospect for him to introduce three unsullied arses to the cane; but with the uncertainty of the Sword of Damocles hanging over him, the occasion was, to say the least, slightly tarnished. But one had to make the best of any situation. In that spirit, as he saw no point in allowing what might happen to him later that same evening to deter him from his duty as head-boy, he now stood up, went across to the door of his study, where hanging from a hook were his two canes. He took down the junior cane, which he swished menacingly through the air a few times. The five young lads winced visibly in fearful anticipation of the pain which that slender rod was shortly to deliver to their backsides.

    “Well gentlemen, I think the time has come for me to put you all out of your misery.  Take off your slippers and shorts, all of you, and stand in a line one behind the other on the centre of the room and leave some some space between yourself and the classmate in front of you so that the dog can see the rabbit.” 

    The head-boy watched as the five young lads, all terrified by what was happening to them, reluctantly did as ordered.  As they were getting themselves ready for what was to be a mass beating, Williams said:  “Danvers, do we really have to take off our shorts as if we do as we have nothing on beneath them, we shall all be standing there with our bums bare. So please could we keep our shorts on?”

    “Williams I have told you all quite clearly what to do and it is not for you to question my orders. For your information, all beatings in this school, from your first day to your last, from the first form to the upper sixth, are given on a boy’s bare bottom; so get a move on the lot of you and do as I say; all of you get your shorts off completely and get into line, otherwise I shall have to consider increasing the mandatory demerit strokes from six to nine and I am sure that none of you would want that. Do not think I am joking as I am not; so get into line, bend over, clutch your ankles with your hands to present your bare bums to me; and remain that way until I have finished caning you.  If any boy moves whilst I am tending to the needs of his bottom, then I shall start again from the beginning with that boy. Is that clear? Now, boys, I will not pretend that a traditional bare bottom beating is a pleasant experience, as it most certainly is not. Nor is it intended to be, as its aim is to teach a boy a painful lesson. Indeed the purpose of the pain of a well-beaten bottom, which is what I now intend to give to each of you, is to make a boy understand that he has to mend his ways unless he wishes to spend most of his time at this school unable to sit down comfortably. And believe me, boys, I shall not fail you in leaving each of you this evening, with a bottom so painful that you will barely be able to sit down to breakfast tomorrow morning. You will all go to bed this evening bearing the painful hallmark of Frogmore School, school: a truly well-beaten arse.”

    It is doubtful if any of the boys had realised until push came to shove as it now had, that they would be caned on their bare bottoms, or that the cane would be applied with such unrelenting vigour.  Although a pair of thin cotton shorts provides practically no protection against the bite of a well applied cane, the very fact of having to bend over naked is, to say the least, an embarrassing and humiliating act to inflict on any boy who is being punished. But that, as in many other public schools,  was the normal procedure at Frogmore. Add to that what was by no means normal procedure, the fact that the head-boy had sadistically lined up all five young lads to be beaten with their bottoms naked, rendered the overall anguish of the proceedings more dramatic. It is not, therefore, surprising that before the head-boy had delivered the first of his total of thirty strokes, several of the boys were already on the verge of tears. The head-boy positioned himself to the left of the last boy in the line. After the customary tapping around with his cane to position the first stroke, he raised the cane over his head and brought it down at lightning speed to mate with a resounding crack with the bare bottom of its unhappy owner. The success of that first stroke can be judged by the loud cry of agony which the unfortunate owner of that particular arse let out.

    The head-boy then moved on, with  an appropriate pause between each stroke, delivering his first cut to each lad in turn. Then, the first of the six, mandatory cuts having been delivered, he returned to his starting position applied a second cut to that first arse, whose unhappy  owner had been waiting in agony for what seemed like an eternity for the punishment to continue. But as any connoisseur of the fine art of flagellation will tell you, the way to deliver a truly well-beaten arse, apart from of course an ability and the willingness to wield the cane, is to make haste slowly, placing each cut accurately and delivering it with the maximum force, which stops just short of breaking the skin. And that is exactly what the head-boy did that day. As he moved five more times at a leisurely pace down the row of bare arses, by the time he had finished with them, he had delivered a total of thirty strokes of the cane, leaving each lad with a text-book version of what is usually referred to as a well-beaten arse: six arses each with six, deep, angry, parallel, crimson welts across them.

    No boy at Frogmore had ever experienced a more excruciatingly painful introduction to the discipline of the school than had those five first formers that Friday. As the five of them limped back to their dormitories, they all vowed to themselves that this first time would also be the last.  Not in their wildest dreams could they have imagined that one man with his slender cane could do so much damage and deliver so much pain to their backsides in such a short time.  But of course, vows are easier to make then to keep and the five of them, as normal schoolboys, their lives at Frogmore were, over the years, punctuated with other altercations with the rattan cane, which invariably emerged as the winner. Beating, as they quickly learned was part and parcel of daily life at the School; a favourite pastime of the Headmaster, the six housemasters and the numerous prefects all of whom wielded that dreaded rod with gay abandon. The school really did merit its nickname of Flogmore.

    But what of the sixth boy, or rather young man, Andrew Thompson, who had been left standing there alone in the corridor, whilst the head-boy dealt with the five first-formers. He had wondered what was afoot, when the head-boy, had ushered all five boys together into his study.  This in itself was unusual, as when boys were beaten, they usually faced their nemesis alone. But as he already knew, along with the rest of the school, tonight was a very special occasion for he had heard the Headmaster make his announcement about the head-boy. In his view, Nigel Danvers’s days as head-boy were numbered and indeed would probably come to a painful end at his publicly announced visit to the Headmaster’s study at nine that very evening. So it seemed to Andrew Thompson that he himself might be in the unique position of being the very last boy, whose arse would be treated to a dose of that legendary, not-so-tender  expertise with the cane, for which the head-boy was already justly notorious. And so, as he stood there awaiting his own fate, the undoubted unpleasantness that he was about to experience, was tempered by the fact that the head-boy, who was shortly going to shred his arse, would shortly afterwards, find himself too on the receiving end of a cane, being thrashed by the Headmaster.

    However the situation in which he found himself was further complicated by the fact that both the head-boy and he were in the upper sixth.  Although they both took some of the same classes, as they were both on  the arts side, with Thompson studying history and English, whereas the head-boy concentrated on classics, they had never been the closest of friends.  But they did, nevertheless fraternise somewhat in the sixth-form common-room, which had rendered the present situation even more delicate, by the fact that along with several other sixth-formers, he and Nigel Danvers had indulged in the sort of experimental sexual activities for which public schools are notorious. Not to put too fine a point on their relationship, they had, a few months ago, when they were in the lower sixth, both experimentally fucked each other. And so, it was with all these thoughts churning around in his head, that Andrew Thompson awaited his fate in the corridor.

    With that understandable, insatiable curiosity to know what was happening in the study, like any other boy, Thompson glued his ear to the door.  He heard only the faint murmur of the head-boy’s voice as he addressed the five first-formers, doubtless apprising them of their fate. Then there was a brief period of silence after which the characteristic crack of the cane mating with a boy’s naked arse, accompanied by howls of pain was clearly audible across the closed door.  Andrew Thompson had no idea that the head-boy was in process of beating all five lads together. But as the rhythm of the strokes continued one after the other with no discernible pause after the first six strokes, it became obvious to him that all five lads had been bent over simultaneously and were now having the needs of their arses resoundingly met; it was obvious that the thirty strokes were being delivered as an unbroken series as the cane passed one stroke at a time from one boy to the next.  It seems to Thompson that Nigel Danvers, who was himself under a severe threat of losing his position as head-boy, was intent on making what might prove his last opportunity beat his schoolmates, into a memorable occasion. He had evidently decided that if he was going to be sacked, then he would depart with a bang and not with a whimper. As he waited there to be called in to face the head-boy, not surprisingly Andrew Thompson shuddered to think what the head-boy had in store for him.

    But if Andrew Thompson felt nervous about being confronted by his classmate, the head-boy, the feeling was mutual. Nigel Danvers was feeling very nervous himself about confronting one of his classmates of the same age and moreover, one with whom he had, in the relatively recent past, had cordial, if somewhat tentative sexual relations. So not surprisingly, when Thompson was finally called in to confront the head-boy face-to-face, both young men were more or less walking on eggs. But needs must and the head-boy knew he had to grasp the nettle firmly. Whatever the relationship which had existed or, indeed, which still existed between the two of them, it could play no part in what was to happen next. The head-boy’s actions were dictated purely by the school rules, which by virtue of his position, he was obliged to carry out. The facts were clear and simple and not open to negotiation. Thompson had accumulated ten demerit points and like all boys in the school, irrespective of age and position – the rule also included the prefects – he had earned a mandatory beating of six cuts on the bare and he knew it was his duty as head-boy to administer that punishment.

    The head-boy, finding himself in the unfortunate position of having to punish a close classmate, wisely decided that he would handle things quite formally to avoid their joint emotions getting in the way of the unpleasant task, which he knew, come what may, he was obliged to perform. In the sixth-form, the boys had adopted the habit of calling each other by their first names, whereas in the lower-forms, surnames were absolutely de rigueur.  But as he prepared to address Thompson, Nigel Danvers suddenly realised that in spite of his fears, things would probably work out alright. Thompson had already obeyed the rule and had presented himself, in the appropriate attire for punishment, to him, the head-boy and classmate with whom he had had a previous sexual relationship. So he knew full well that his position was non-negotiable and that his arse would be shredded by the very guy with whom he had previously had sex.

    And so acting decisively, the head-boy said: “Well Thompson, you have, as the school rules require, presented yourself voluntarily to me with ten demerit marks, which, as you know, means you will be you have earned an automatic six cut beating on the bare, which I, in my position as head-boy, am obliged to administer.” 

    Thompson played the game and showed himself in his best light as the young gentleman he truly was and said: “Look here, Danvers, I am sorry that it has had come to this between you and me, but I realise that you are just a cog in the greater works of this place and you have to do your duty as head-boy. So could we please get on with things and get this horrible business over and done with as quickly as possible.  I know I have broken several, piddling rules, which is how I came to accumulate ten demerits. As a result, I know that you are obliged to give me six on the bare. But please believe me when I say that I bear you no ill-will at all for carrying out your duties and if it makes you feel any better, if I were in your place, which I am happily not, I would do exactly the same. So, Danvers, where do you want me? Where is this painful act to take place? Over the back of that old armchair, I wager.”

    The head-boy breathed a great mental sigh of relief that Thompson was taking things so well and was not trying to argue himself out of his punishment. But of course, he was quite right. He had broken the rules and had just seen five younger boys thrashed for exactly the same reason, so to have tried to talk himself out of his beating would have been invidious. So Danvers took down his senior cane from from the door and motioned Thompson towards the fateful armchair, over the back of which hundreds of boys had, over the years, been invited to bend and submit their naked backsides to the rigours of the cane.

    Now, it is a well documented fact that beating of any boy’s naked arse usually arouses sexual feelings in the fustigator. After having just thrashed five boys, the head-boy was already highly sexually aroused, with his cock rock-hard and pushing against the crotch of his trousers. In fact, so insistent was his cock, that on any other Friday, he would have left Thompson cooling his heels a few more minutes in the corridor whilst he himself went into his bathroom and relieved his sexual tension by jerking himself off. But on his very special Friday evening, in view of his own mandatory meeting with the Headmaster at nine o’clock, that was not what happened. As Thompson approached the chair, he turned and faced the head-boy, smiled and pulled down his shorts to reveal his sizeable endowment, with which he knew the head-boy was already intimately familiar, fully erect and already at the pre-cum stage of sexual excitation. Then, having more or less thrust his erection into the head-boy’s face, without saying a word, but still smiling he  bent over the back of the chair, placed his hands on  its arms and said: “Well there you are, Danvers; I’m all yours; just do your worst and let’s get it over and done with.”

    At the sight of Thompson’s erect penis, with which he was already familiar under rather different, more congenial circumstances, Nigel Danvers felt an increased emission from his own cock which, by its uncontrollable actions, indicated its desperation to be liberated from the constraint of his trousers. There was nothing unusual about an older boy – a young man, in fact – becoming sexually aroused when he was about to be beaten.  Danvers had seen this several times in the past, when he had had occasion to beat any older boy. But never had he seen such an overt display of sexuality as Thompson had just paraded in front of him. It was as if he had wanted to brandish his cock in front of the head-boy in defiance of the position in which he found himself. It was almost as if he were saying, “Look at me; look at my magnificent sex – it was a truly magnificent sight – beat me as hard as you wish, but you will not tame my cock however hard you try.” Danvers took a moment to pull himself together having been subject to what was a passive act of defiant braggadocio and then advanced to address Thompson’s naked arse with his cane.

    As he gazed down upon Thompson’s gorgeously sexy, muscular body, he felt his own cock becoming  harder still, if that was even possible and the dribbling emissions of his own cum increased so much that they created a damp patch in the front of his trousers. Highly embarrassed by the turn of events and aware that he was attempting to control what was uncontrollable, he just prayed that he would get though the caning and be able to get rid of Thompson before he himself exploded fully into a highly erotic spontaneous orgasm of sperm. He looked down on Thompson’s undefiled buttocks which he was about to shred and then went straight ahead and gave him six ferocious parallel cuts with his senior cane. So viciously did he attack his target that when he had finished, the six stripes he had etched into Thompson’s naked arse, were all oozing droplets of blood. Only God above knows how, but Thompson managed to maintain his self-control and dignity throughout the entire horrible process, during which he did not make as sound.

    Danvers breathed an internal sigh of relief that it was finally all over and that he had sexually not totally disgraced himself by having a full orgasm in his pants.  But as he gazed down on on the results of his handiwork, he was appalled by the damage he had wreaked on his classmate’s arse. Noted and feared by the entire school for the harsh beatings he delivered, Danvers had never before been so vicious as to break a boy’s skin and draw blood. And so feeling totally guilty for what he had just done, the anger, which had led him to excess, was immediately replaced by concern for Thompson and the severe pain he had inflicted on him. No one in his right mind, other than an utter sadist, could ever think that what he had done to Thompson was a just and reasonable punishment for a demerit beating. In an attempt to make amends and somehow to palliate the results of his actions, he went to his bathroom where he kept a pot of Aloe Vera ointment, an unguent much used by boys to ease the sting of the stripes left by the cane and in which the local chemist’s shop did a brisk trade with the boys of the school.

    “Andrew,” he began, using his victim’s first name now that the painful formalities were over, “Believe me I am truly sorry for what I just did to you, which I now realise was way over the top, So why don’t you stay as you are, over the back of the chair and let me apply a little Aloe Vera in an attempt to ease the pain, which I know must be unbearable. I don’t know what possessed me to attack your arse in the way I did and I do, most sincerely, apologise to you.”

     Andrew Thompson, who had not made a sound until now, said: “Nigel, I have to accept part of the blame myself for what just happen. Look, I went out of my way to goad you on when I flaunted my cock in your face. We have both been beaten on the bare several times before today, and we both know that under such circumstances, no one has the slightest control over his dick, which has a mind of its own and does exactly whatever it wants. So the fact that I had a boner as you prepared to cane me was something over which I had no control whatsoever.  And I saw that you too had the same problem, except that yours was kept inside of your trousers.  I saw from the tenting of your crotch and the damp patch that you too were mightily aroused by what you were about to do to me. But what I should not have done, which I freely admit was a mistake, was to stick my erection in your face. A guy cannot control the state of his dick, but he can control what the does with it; and what I just did, sticking it more or less to you, was, frankly, wrong.  And so, Nigel, although you gave my arse an absolutely unbelievably painful roasting – the worst I have ever experienced – I accept that I too must bear part of the responsibility for my present, painful state and I bear you no ill-will for what you have just done to me. If our positions had been reversed, then I might well have done the same to you. We all allow our rage to get the better of us sometimes and do things which we later regret. Well let’s just say that this was one of those occasions.”

    Whilst Thompson was saying his piece, Danvers went on massaging the Aloe Vera cream into his arse. He suddenly realised that he was enjoying what he was doing and that he himself was still sexually fully aroused. So as he and Thompson had had tentative sexual relations in the relatively recent past, which for no good reason had been discontinued as each of them had moved on to other partners in the insatiable quest for sex which motivates most young men of their age, it is not at all surprising that Danvers’s massaging fingers began to stray nearer and nearer to that all important entry port for a rampant male shaft.  Danvers, by now, saw that his initial motivation of mercy with the Aloe Vera was rapidly transforming itself into lust.  Looking and fondling, for that is what his initial application of the ointment had by now become, Thompson’s beautiful arse – in his eyes, more beautiful than ever, perhaps because of the livid stripes he had created – had now become an object of intense sexual desire to him. He could feel his cock, still confined in his wet underpants, insisting on being liberated and being allowed to perform what was its natural duty. If ever Danvers had felt in need of a fuck, it was right at that moment. And as it was at present, Thompson’s beautifully inviting arse was just crying out for a dose of the true sort of tender loving care, which Danvers would be more than happy to supply.

    Nigel Danvers’s application of the Aloe Vera cream had been done in complete silence, during which time his desire for sex was mounting exponentially.  But as Nigel’s exploring fingers moved ever closer to that all important entry port, Andrew Thompson realised what was happening and that, although as yet unspoken, his erstwhile fustigator, by his overt actions, was grooming him for the sex act.  As the saying so neatly puts it: it takes two to tango. But already with the more intimate way his arse was being explored by the head-boy’s probing fingers, Andrew Thompson knew that he would be a willing partner to what now seemed an inevitable by Nigel’s cock. It just remained for one of them to take the bull by the horns and say what they both knew they wanted.

    So as Nigel Danvers, the head-boy, was the prime mover in what was obviously going to happen, he said: “Andrew, I think we both know where this is leading and I think we probably both want the same thing. But you are free to tell me to stop what I am doing right now if you don’t want to go any further.”

    Andrew Thompson decided to play coy and tease him. So he replied: “Perhaps it would be best if you told me exactly where you think this is leading? Nigel, not to put too fine a point on it, you have just taken my arse to hell and back with your bloody cane and you are now trying to ease my pain by applying some ointment to the results of your handiwork, so what do you expect me to say?  You are in charge of the proceedings, so just say what’s on your mind now. Go on, Nigel; speak up; what are you proposing? I’m all ears.”

    So the head-boy, faced as he now was with a direct question, went on: “Andrew, I don’t know if you are thick or are just being bloody obtuse; probably the latter. You know as well as I do where things are heading from here. But just to make it all clear, let me spell it out for you directly. Do you or do you not want us to indulge ourselves in sex and have a quick fuck before I present myself to the Headmaster at nine o’clock when I appear to have a strong chance of having my own arse skinned by him for some as yet, to me, unknown reason?  So, yes or no, would you like me to shaft you before we call it a day?”

    Andrew, who was as sexually aroused as was Nigel himself, replied: “Keep your shirt on Nigel, I was just needling you a bit to get my own back in some small way for what you have just done to me. But I can tell you that your generous offer to share that massive erection which you were having difficulty keeping in your pocket before you dispensed your generous bounty on my backside just now, would probably prove a soothing diversion and take my mind of the pain which I am experiencing, thanks, entirely, to your sterling efforts with the cane. I really feel I should congratulate you for sharing with me the boundless propensities for creating pain with the cane, which you seem completely to have mastered. I feel privileged and honoured to have had an experience vouchsafed to so few of our classmates. After all it is not every day that one has the opportunity to experience the fustigatory talents of the head-boy at their very best. And so I feel highly honoured to be among that select few on whom you have graciously bestowed that privilege. And now to have your generous offer of sharing the talents of your more personal rod, whose pleasure giving properties I know from past experience are, in a totally different way, equally exhilarating as those which I have just had the pleasure of experiencing, I feel I should go down on my knees and thank you for the bounty which you are so generously offering to bestow on me.”

    “So yes, Nigel, I would really welcome what you so succinctly describe as a quick fuck; a small mercy, with which I suppose I shall have to be both grateful and satisfied, in view of your own pressing engagement with our revered Headmaster.  I have to say, I don’t envy you at all in what will be your post-copulative appointment with the Headmaster. I have not had the pleasure of having my own arse addressed by him since I was in the fourth form, but I hear from recent beneficiaries of his largesse that in spite of his rather – how shall I put it – antediluvian appearance, he is still on top form? So, Nigel I don’t think that you will leave his study this evening feeling that you have been cheated out of your just deserts. In fact, quite the contrary; I am sure that the old boy will do his very best to see that you, as his head-boy, leave his study with an arse which you will not dare to touch for fear of burning your fingers. However, as you have most kindly offered to assuage my own pain by the ever gratifyingly soothing act of anal copulation, I hope that when you emerge from your flagellative meeting with the Reverend Dr. Temple that you will allow me, in my own humble way, to offer you the same comfort as you are now offering to me.”

    Nigel Danvers listened to this amazing, off-the-cuff piece of mockingly sarcastic persiflage in complete silence. He marvelled how Andrew had managed, on the spur of the moment, to spout, such a load of pretentious – and let’s be honest – amusingly articulate claptrap. It could have been a speech from a play – but it wasn’t. And what made it all the more remarkable was that Andrew was making light of matters, for he was still enduring what was, by any measure, an excruciatingly painful arse. He had turned the whole thing into a piece of light hearted banter, which it certainly was not. It was a serious occasion with two very serious parts: an excessively vicious beating to be followed by an act of illegal, homosexual sex. 

    Realising, by now, that he was filled with admiration for Andrew, Nigel said: “Andrew, I don’t know from where you got that pretentious piece of pompous clap-trap that you have just spouted. But let me summarise what you said.  You do want me to fuck your arse right now and you have offered to extend me the same courtesy when I return later from my meeting with the Headmaster bearing my own putatively beaten arse. So less I have misunderstood you, stay exactly in the position in which you are at present and I will do my humble best to satisfy both your and my own carnal desires.” 

    Nigel went into his bathroom, where he took from the cabinet a small bottle of baby oil he kept there for just such occasions as the present.  Having prepared Andrew’s anus for penetration he wisely, locked his study door, before shedding his own clothes and preparing to shaft his partner.  Now not to put too fine a point on it,  both he and Andrew were equally well-endowed sexually; they both had sizable cocks. Andrew’s still rampant member was  sandwiched between his belly and the padded, leather back of the armchair, but was still as ram-rod hard as when he had, inadvisably, flaunted it in front of Nigel, thereby so infuriating him, with the consequences we all know.  But Nigel’s own dick, now released from the confines of his trousers, against which it had long been straining for freedom, now jumped immediately to attention, dribbling a more or less continuous stream of pre-cum indicating its readiness for purpose. 

    After applying a little oil to his own rampant member, Nigel pressed his cock-head against Andrew’s tight anus and, with the smooth, confident movement of someone who knew exactly what he was doing – which he did – overcame the firm resistance of Andrew’s anal sphincter and slid the full seven inches of his erection into his partner.  The whole act was accomplished without any preliminaries, as Nigel was so sexually aroused that he was barely able to control himself. In many ways, his actions were reminiscent of those of a dog,  which scenting a bitch in heat just throws itself – as nature intended it to do –  upon the receptive female, so great is the inbuilt imperative for reproductive sex among all living creatures. What makes us humans unique when it comes to sex, is that we appear to be the only living creatures who indulge in sex as a pleasurable pastime as distinct for reproductive purposes. And when one looks at the act of anal sex in which Nigel and Andrew are about to indulge, reproduction does not enter into the equation at all; it is all just lustful pleasure.  In fact, if you think about it about it, with all the contraceptive devices man has invented, most sex, both hetero and homo, is probably for pleasure. Let’s face it; sex is as addictive as are narcotics and once a taste fo rit has been acquired, it is is toy which never fails to please.

    But as he thrst his rampant cock into Andrew’s welcoming arse, Nigel was now totally incapable of controlling himself. So much so  that on only the third thrust with his cock, he could not prevent himself from climaxing prematurely and pumped his entire, orgasmic load of sperm all over Andrew’s naked arse. So the deep welts left by cane, were now bathed in layer of Nigel’s creamy spunk, in addition to the Aloe Vera cream which Nigel had just applied.  Whilst this was a moment of great personal gratification for himself, Nigel knew that by prematurely climaxing, he had robbed his partner of the steady build-up towards his own orgasm, produced by  less frenetic cock action, thereby cheating him out of his share of what should have been an equally satisfying sex act for both participants. Whilst he was still ejaculating his sperm which seemed to go on forever, Nigel was already feeling guilty at having let his partner down. Nigel had wanted to have sex with Andrew, not only because his cock was demanding it from him, but also because he wanted to try to make amends to Andrew for his excessively hard use of the cane and the livid mess he had made of his arse.

    “Andrew, I am so, so sorry; really I am; but I simply could not stop myself climaxing like that; I had no control over what I was doing; please believe me.  But here, let me try to make it right for you and this time I promise I will take you right through to your own orgasm, in an attempt to compensate and make it up to you for all the pain I have just inflicted on you.”  

    Nigel went to his bathroom and fetched a towel with which he very gently, in view of their parlous state, wiped his own copious emission from his partner’s buttocks.  His own cock was still hard and clearly ready for another onslaught on Andrew’s anus. If anyone had been present as he fucked his partner for the second send time in five minutes, he would have thought he was watching an experienced anal copulator at work.  However he would have been wrong, for although Nigel along with many other of his classmates in the upper sixth had made tentative efforts at the sort of hesitant sexual relationships so common among older public school boys, it was not until now, as he was fucking Andrew Thompson that it all felt so very right. And so, with that innate sense of sexual drive given to all men when push comes to shove, he now fucked his partner as if he was a routine act, which he performed on a daily basis. So he started with long slow strokes, each of almost the full length of his hard cock and then gradually as the feeling built up in both of them, he increased both the speed  and strength of his thrusting, until, in those final frenetic moments when one loses control of oneself  before climaxing into orgasm and shooting one’s wad, he did what was to become the hallmark of his own copulative technique; he withdrew his rampant member completely from Andrew’s anus and after a moment’s pause with his cock held ready in the air, thrust his full length back inside his partner with great force, bringing both of them to orgasm.

    For a young man, relatively inexperienced in the finer points of anal sex, what Nigel had just done by instinct, was an absolute triumph of a fuck for both of them. As he pumped and pumped, in a series energetic, ejaculative jerks, what seem like an endless stream of his own into Andrew’s arse, he felt that in fucking Andrew and giving him what he was later to learn was his first true copulative orgasm, he was well on the way to redeeming himself for his earlier excesses with the cane. Whilst he could not take back the pain he had inflicted on Andrew’s arse, he had royally made amends in the way he had just given his partner a totally unexpected experience beyond his wildest imagination. But then, in the middle of this joyous sexual coupling, he suddenly remembered that fatidic nine o’clock appointment with the Headmaster: an appointment for which he dared not be late.  So what should have been been a pleasant after-glow of a highly satisfactory act of sex for both of them, came to a hurried end as both young men pulled on their skimpy attire of shorts and gym vests, Andrew to go back to his own study-bedroom and nurse his still painful arse and Nigel to his fate with his Headmaster, the Reverend Dr. Temple.

    It was exactly nine o’clock as Nigel arrived at the Headmaster’s study to see that the red engaged light was still burning. Evidently some poor lad was still in there, having his arse roasted by the Reverend Dr. Temple. His suspicion was confirmed when a few moments later he heard, across the closed door, that sharp, inimitable crack of a cane as it delivered its painful message to some poor sod’s bare arse. It is quite amazing how different circumstance make one see things differently. As a regular, enthusiastic wielder of the cane himself, Nigel Danvers, had always rather enjoyed hearing the crack of his cane as it landed on its naked target. But now, as he stood there waiting to be called in to face his own fate with the Headmaster, it suddenly hit him that in a few minutes it would, in all probability, be his own naked flesh mating with the cane which would be emitting that crack, which now had suddenly become distinctly less appealing. And as the realisation of what was likely to happen to him sank in, he became more and more nervous and, frankly, scared for his immediate future.  As he stood there listing to the steady cracks as the cane descended repeatedly on some unknown arse, he still had no idea why he had been been summoned to see the Headmaster or whether he would still be head-boy at the end of the evening. In those few minutes, before he entered the lion’s den, Nigel Danvers experienced a feeling of impending doom, the likes of which he had not had for several years, but one which he shared with countless other boys in the same position as he now was. The wait is almost as bad as the punishment itself.

    But then there was suddenly silence as the Headmaster, evidently concluded beating the last of the twelve boys on his list. A few minutes later, one, Stephen Dobson, a fifth former whom Danvers knew quite well, limped tearfully out of the study, the door of which was firmly closed behind him, leaving the two of then – the beaten and the to-be-beaten – standing together in the corridor. Danvers did not dare to announce his presence to the Headmaster, who had left the engaged sign on and had closed the door with such finality that it would have been a brave soul who dared to knock on the door. In a fleeting moment of fantasy, Danvers wondered if the Headmaster had forgotten that he had that thirteenth element of a baker’s dozen of boys – himself, of course – whose whose candidate arse was available in the corridor just waiting to be skinned. But given his devotion to duty with the cane to which the Reverend Dr. Temple invariably adhered when it came to punishing boys, he knew that this was just wishful thinking on his part. As he looked at what might best be described as a shell-shocked Dobson, who was tearfully massaging his arse with both hands in a futile attempt to attenuate the pain he was obviously feeling, Danvers could see that look of undisguised, misery on the lad’s tearstained face.  So, even though he himself, as we all know, enjoyed nothing more than beating arse, on this occasion as a future kindred soul to Dobson he said gently: “So it was that bad, was it?  By the look on your face, I divine that our Headmaster, the Reverend Dr. Temple is on top form this evening.”

    “You can say that again,” came the reply.  “That fucking old goat started off by giving me nine and then because he said I had attempted to touch my arse whist he was shredding it, he added another three for good measure. And let me tell you that the old boy really still knows how to lay it on when he tries. That bloody bastard has just given me twelve in all; and he doubled every stroke; six on six id what he gave me; so, as I can feel,  my arse is well and truly shredded. I can tell you, Danvers, that the way I feel right now, I doubt that I shall ever be able to sit comfortably again. That was early the worst beating I have ever had; and let me just tell you that I have had plenty in the past, but nothing to compare with what he just did to me. Frankly, I feel sorry for you as we all wonder what you must have done as head-boy to be called out in front of the entire school for a Friday night meeting with our dear Headmaster, dressed as you are, which means your arse is on a collisions course with the Reverend Doctor’s cane.  We all wonder, I can tell you, whether or not you will still be head-boy tomorrow morning. Anyway, Danvers, I wish you the best of luck” And with that, Dobson limped off down the corridor to what would be a very uncomfortable night in bed.

    As he stood again alone in the corridor, Danvers asked himself the same questions that Dobson had put to him and to which he still had no answer. What had he done to merit being called out in such a brutal way on front of the entire school? That his arse was forfeit and going to be beaten was self-evident in the the light of the appropriate attire he had been told to wear. And he too asked himself if his evident fall from grace meant that he would no longer be head-boy of Frogmore when he left the Headmaster’s study later that evening. He thought of the way Dobson had sworn when had referred to the Headmaster.  On  any other occasion but the  present, as  head-boy, he would have felt duty bound to punish Dobson for speaking of his Headmaster in such a vulgar way and would have had no compunction whatsoever in thrashing Dobson for his use of bad language, which was a definite  no-no at Frogmore. But these were not normal times; and as he himself silently echoed the sentiments about the Headmaster to which Dobson had given voice, he had allowed the matter to pass without taking him to task for swearing.  And so he stood for full ten minutes more, contemplating his navel as the saying goes, becoming ever more nervous about his fate.

    Eventually the door opened and the Reverend Dr. Temple stood there inviting his head-boy to enter. “Danvers, I feel I must apologise for keeping you waiting for what as you must realise is, for both of us, a very important appointment. However I had some urgent business to attend to before I felt I could deal adequately with what as, you have, by now, probably realised is a very serious matter.”

    Danvers’s fertile mind boggled at the thought of the urgent business which the Headmaster had had to deal with before he could even contemplate seeing his head-boy. But after having skinned the naked arses of no less than twelve of his pupils in the past hour, it does not require a great stretch of anyone’s imagination to divine the nature of the business that the Reverend Doctor had discharged during those ten minutes. Like most men of any age, the Reverend Dr. Temple was still subject to the spontaneous, erotic, side-effects, which always seem to accompany the administering of corporal punishment, over which even the most dispassionate of fustigators, to which category the Headmaster would have stoutly maintained he numbered, has absolutely no control. In fact, passionate rather than dispassionate would have been a better word to describe the Headmaster’s approach to the use of the cane. As he entered the Headmaster’s study, the head-boy had to summon up all his sang-froid as he steeled himself to remain calm in the face the absolute certainty of what was shortly to happen to him. One thing, at least, was certain; in view of the skimpy clothes he was wearing: he was going to be beaten. But what was unclear was his future position as head-boy. Was he going to leave the Headmaster’s study stripped of his rank or not?  

    Danvers had been many times in the Headmaster’s study, but not for several years under such unnervingly trying circumstances as now. Where accommodation was concerned, Frogmore treated its masters very well indeed; and the Headmaster was, of course, no exception. He had a large and luxuriously furnished study, the first of several rooms of his spacious apartment, for as a bachelor, he lived on the premises. His study, where he conducted his daily business had an open fireplace – the sole source of heating – in which, as it was already early November, a fire was cheerfully burning. The first impression one had on entering was of a comfortably furnished sitting room, for a sofa and several armchairs were arranged invitingly around the fireplace and a decanter of port and several glasses on a side table added to the agreeable picture of an evening reading a favourite book whilst sipping a glass of delicious wine in front of a blazing fire.

    But first impressions can be very misleading. Although immediately seduced by the obvious attraction of a potential chat and a glass of wine, sitting comfortably around the open fire, the more observant eye would have rapidly realised that there was a less agreeable, more sinister side to this room. There, lying  on a massive old desk was a selection of rattan canes and in the middle of the floor was standing an adjustable beating horse with a padded back over which countless generations of boys had been forced to bend and submit their bare buttocks to the painful ministrations of the Headmaster. And the truly observant eye, which the head-boy undoubtedly had, would have discerned a large discoloured patch on the carpet directly in front of the horse, where the tears of countless boys, including those of the twelve lads whose arses the Headmaster had just flogged that very evening, had left their inedible testimony to the flagellation ability of the various Headmasters.

    Since what might fancifully be described as the beginning of time, successive Headmasters had done what they saw as their duty and beaten the bare arses of their pupils on that very spot.  And as if to emphasise the immutable permanence of what many boys, the present head-boy included, thought of as the scaffold on which they were to be executed, a large, threadbare patch in the carpet in front of the beating horse caused by the shuffling feet of countless boys, was yet a testimony of its permanent position as a key element in the room’s accoutrements. As Nigel Danvers took in this dichotomy of a room, where pleasure and pain made uncomfortable neighnours, he could barely repress his own shivering at the thought of bending, half naked, across the beating horse and allowing the Reverend Dr. Temple to take his bare arse to hell and back, which was doubtless what was going to happen.  However, the fatidic moment when Dr. Temple’s cane and the head-boy’s arse would make their first acquaintance that evening had not yet arrived, for the Headmaster had the obvious intention of drawing out his head-boy’s mental agony as long as possible before putting him out of his mental misery.

    “So, head-boy, once again, please accept my sincere apologies for making you wait so long in the corridor; but needs must and I had an important task to attend to before I could see you.  However, better late than never; so do come in and sit down in one of the easy chairs in front of the fire whilst you are still able to do so comfortably and let me offer you a glass of port by way of compensation for the delay.”  Listening to the Headmaster making his excuses yet again Nigel Danvers allowed his imagination to run away with him as he saw in his mind’s eye the Reverend Dr Temple jerking himself off to ease the erotic sexual tension that had built up inside him as he shredded the arses of twelve of his pupils in quick succession.

    But the sting in the tail of the Headmaster’s initially pleasantly attractive reception had sent a chill down Nigel Danvers’s spine as he realised that his bonhomie was purely superficial and that his arse and the beating potential it offered were almost certainly the main things occupying the Headmaster’s mind at the moment.  Anyway, there was little he could do but accept the invitation; so he sat down in a comfortable chair in front of the fire and accepted the glass port which the Headmaster handed to him.  As he tasted the wine, deliciously sweet though it was, he suddenly felt like the legendary condemned man offered the choice of food for his last meal before he was hanged.  The Headmaster’s cryptic comment confirmed the head-boy’s foregone conclusion that he was to be beaten. Moreover, taking the Headmaster’s words at face value, it appears that he was intent on leaving his head-boy with an arse which would be so tender as to ensure that he would sit nowhere comfortably for quite a while. But then, when did the Reverend Dr. Temple ever hold back when he dispensed justice to his flock? The fact that he he was destined to leave the Headmaster’s study with a well beaten was a given; par for the course, so to speak.

    With the two of them, to all intents and purposes going through the make-believe motions of enjoying each other’s company over a glass of port in front of a blazing fire, the Headmaster then embarked on what was to prove, for the head-boy, a spine-chilling discourse, during which all was made clear as to why he had been summoned to appear before the Headmaster in such a humiliatingly public manner. Almost from the first chilling words uttered by the Headmaster, Nigel Danvers knew that his goose was well and truly cooked.

    “Well Danvers, I trust you are enjoying your wine.  I always think that when a sixth former, unfortunately in this case you, Danvers, is to be severely punished,  that he merits a stiff drink to enable him to face up to the inevitable vicissitudes of life and accept the painful consequences of what he knows he deserves.  Now, Danvers, I think you know as well as I do why I have summoned you to see me this evening and the inevitable, painful consequences of your actions which I feel is my duty as your Headmaster to visit upon you.”

    The head-boy, listening to these orotund, pompous words, was still no wiser as to the reason why he was in the Headmaster’s study. The only thing which was now clear was that his arse was in line for a severe beating. And so he said: “Sir, the only thing I know is that having been told to report to you wearing only the appropriate attire for such occasions, I assume that I am going to be beaten. But, sir, I honestly have no idea what I have done to merit such a beating.”

    “Come, come Danvers, you must know when I summoned you, the head-boy of this school, to see me in the way I did, in front of the entire school that you had committed a severe breach of one of the school’s cardinal rules; in fact, to make matters worse, more exactly, that you had broken several of the school’s most important rules. The reason for what I am sure that you see as my brutal announcement after supper this evening, is that I wanted the entire school to see that here at Frogmore, everyone, the head-boy included, is expected to obey the rules and to understand that if he strays from that straight and narrow path of obedience, as you have done, then irrespective of his age and position, he will suffer severe and painful retribution for his actions. Danvers, you claim that you have no idea why you are in front of me this evening, facing a severe beating which, let me tell you, is richly deserved. Well, young men, kindly allow me to enlighten you.  Let me take you back to last Tuesday evening when at around nine in the evening I happened to be in the High Street and, quite by chance, saw a young man leaving a public house on the other side of the street; The King’s Arms, if my memory serves me correctly.”

    Nigel Danvers realised with a sudden surge of adrenalin sending shivers down his spine that he was the unfortunate figure whom the Headmaster had fortuitously seen leaving The King’s Arms. He had had no idea until the Headmaster lobbed this bombshell at him that he had been observed leaving the public house that evening by anyone at all, least of all by his Headmaster. In fact, he had totally forgotten that he had sneaked out that evening into the town to have an illicit beer, a common practice of many lads in the upper sixth, who aged eighteen as they all he were, were not breaking the law of the land, although they were breaking one of the most strictly enforced of the school rules. But in spite of the dire and painful penalties which they would incur if caught, the excitement of breaking the rules was often an incentive rather than a deterrent to forbidden behaviour. Had the Headmaster been more inquisitive and entered the King’s Arms that evening, he would have found that his head-boy had left two of his co-prefects still propping up the public bar. But as he did not enter the pub, the head-boy was his sole catch on that occasion; but what a catch it was; one of which he could make an example of in front of the entire school. Hearing that the Headmaster had seen him leaving the King’s Arms, Nigel Danvers’s blood ran cold, as he knew that he had no argument with which to defend himself against what, as sure as night follows day, was about to happen to him. However, serious as things already were, they became steadily worse as the Headmaster tore strip after verbal strip off his head-boy before even picking up his cane to address his arse.

    “Danvers, I am very disappointed in finding that you, my head-boy, on whom I rely to keep order in this school, should himself break one of the most stringently enforced rules of the school. I place drinking, along with smoking, directly below stealing, as the two most sacred rules of this school, It is bad enough when boys bring illicit alcoholic drinks into the school which they then secretly consume in their studies; but to indulge in drinking in a public house is beyond what can even vaguely be viewed as acceptable behaviour, least of all from my head-boy.  But I also saw that you were in mufti for your illicit outing, as you had chosen to abandon your school uniform in favour of an anodyne sports jacket, presumably to avoid being recognised by the townsfolk at the bar as a boy from Frogmore School. And that, Danvers, is another rule which you ignored. As you well know, when outside the school grounds, all boys , you included, Danvers,  must always be correctly dressed which means that you should wear your school uniform and your headgear, in your case, your head-boy’s mortar-board, which was also conspicuously absent from your attire that evening. And to add insult to injury, in going into town in the evening, you were also fully aware that you were breaking another golden rule.”

    “The school, which acts in loco parentis for all its boys during term time, cannot allow them to go off willy-nilly whenever they wish. Just supposing that you had had an accident during your clandestine outing the other evening, the school would, quite rightly, be held legal responsible. I am very disappointed in you Danvers; very disappointed indeed! A head-boy, who, I understand from the murmurings which have reached my ear, has already established a reputation with the cane which rivals my own, but who, due to a lapse in his judgement, now finds himself a candidate for a painful encounter with that same rod of justice. I am deeply disappointed that a young man, whom I had hitherto seen as a model of moral rectitude, a firm enforcer of the School Rules among his schoolmates, who, this very evening has himself corrected with the cane, those of his schoolmates, who have had the misfortune to collect ten demerit marks, should now find himself subject to the same punishment due to his misdeeds.”

    On and on went the Headmaster, until he finally came to the crux of the matter:  “And so, Danvers, you will understand that I could not allow you to escape unscathed from your unfortunate lapse of judgment, which is why, I decided to make a verbal example of you in front of the entire school. In summoning you to appear before me in such an overtly brutal and public manner as I did earlier this evening and in specifying publicly that you would present yourself to me appropriately attired, I made the entire school aware that all boys, the head-boy included, were subject to the same rules, which if they broke, as you did, would incur the same punishment. So, Danvers, the entire school knows that its head-boy is about to beaten by its Headmaster. I am sure they would all like to know what sin you committed to incur my wrath; but I see no reason at all apprise them of your misdeeds.  It is enough for them to know that their head-boy can be beaten and, indeed, has been beaten, thereby establishing beyond doubt of the doctrine of equality of treatment of all boys at Frogmore School. And so, my dear Danvers unless you yourself choose to reveal to your schoolmates the reason why you are here this evening, they need never know and you can continue with your duties as head-boy as before. I have to say, Danvers that in spite of your present mistake, I still consider I made an excellent choice in naming you head-boy and I understand that your reputation for maintaining order is first-rate. And so, Danvers, let us put this unfortunate lapse of judgement behind us and allow you to continue gong your excellent work as has hitherto been the case.”

    Listening to this long-winded speech, Nigel Danvers was amazed to hear that he was to emerge from his ordeal still holding the post of head-boy  with nothing worse than sore arse to shown for his escapade. However, there are sore arses and sore arses; and this was to a very, very, sore arse. His blood ran cold once he had heard what the Headmaster had in store for him.

    “So Danvers, unless you have anything to say in your defence, I think the time has come for me to substitute something more positive for the present mental anguish which you are doubtless experiencing. Alas, in so doing, as I am sure you are aware, I am afraid that you will have to suffer the indignity of taking the cane across your naked buttocks.  I regret to say that it cannot be otherwise, if justice is to be seen to have been done. Now, Danvers, I do not wish to appear unduly severe, but as I am sure you are aware, your offences are serious and do merit a very sound thrashing.  I would, therefore, suggest that you prepare yourself mentally, for an eighteen stroke beating, which, in view of your elevated profile and the seriousness of your offences, is the minimum I feel you deserve. I did consider giving you the maximum of twenty-four stokes, which are allowed under the School Rules, but in view of your hitherto unblemished career and conduct, I decided eighteen cuts would suffice to teach you enough of a lesson. I know that it will be a very painful few minutes for you, but when it is over, I think that you too will realise how lenient I have been under the circumstances. And you know, Danvers, in a way I think I should thank you for having provided me with an opportunity to bring home to the entire school, the equality of treatment which all boys at Frogmore can expect. It is not every day that a Headmaster has an opportunity to beat his head-boy. And so, Danvers, in many ways you are serving as a splendid example of the ethos of this School to all its members; a fact of which you can and should be justifiably proud.”

    It goes without saying that Danvers did not consider an eighteen stroke beating in any way lenient. Nor did he care much for the fact that his arse was apparently viewed by the Headmaster as a beacon of light which testified to the equality of treatment all boys of the School.  He, drained the last drops of the port which he had been sipping, in the forlorn hope that the effect of the alcohol he had just consumed might attenuate somewhat  the pain  which the Reverend Dr. Temple was about to inflict on him. Then he stood up from the  the easy chair in which he had been sitting listening to the Headmaster’s concluding peroration of his long-winded remarks and moved, as he had been motioned to do, over to the dreaded beating horse, which stood there, like the guillotine during the French revolution,  ready to welcome its next victim.

    “Danvers I think you are sufficiently familiar with the horse, so I leave it to you to make the necessary height adjustments to ensure that you are comfortably installed with your buttocks held high, for what I am afraid will prove a very painful few minutes for you, during which I shall correct you in the traditional way with the rattan cane for your misdemeanours. Oh, and I am sure I do not have to tell you that before adopting the appropriate position you should discard your shorts as your buttocks must be bare. But I am sure that you know all that as you are accustomed as head-boy to beating your schoolmates, which I am sure you always do on the bare as tradition at this School demands. So you must excuse me for preaching to the converted.”

    As Danvers took off his shorts and bent over the horse, offering his bare arse to the rigours of the Headmaster’s cane, he just wished the old goat would shut up and get on with it. He had been put through the wringer of being educated at Frogmore and as a normal boy he had committed a normal boy’s misdeeds for which he had duly had his arse thrashed many times in the past by a variety of prefects, house-captains, head-boys and, on several occasions, by his housemaster. But only once had he been beaten by the Headmaster himself and as he stood there today, bent across the beating horse waiting for the first crack of the cane to deliver the beginning of its painful message to his naked arse, the full horror of that one occasion now came back in greatest deal as if it were yesterday.

    It had been a salutary experience when he had been in the fifth form and he and his team mates in the junior Rugby team had become involved in a fisticuffs with the opposing team at another school in an away-game. It goes without saying that all thirty lads went to bed that night with well-beaten arses provided by courtesy of their respective Headmasters.  But the way it was done that Saturday evening at Frogmore was little short of a bloodbath. The Reverend Dr. Temple was obviously hopping mad and seething with rage, at the behaviour of fifteen boys from His School, as he thought of it. That they should have demeaned themselves by engaging in a fist fight with members of their host team was not anything which could be tolerated.

    It was possibly the occasion when the Reverend Dr. Temple, showed himself at his fustigatory best – or worst for those on the receiving end of the stick – burnishing his already legendary reputation of being an expert with the cane, as he etched eight excruciatingly painful stripes into each of fifteen naked arses. As soon as the team arrived back at Frogmore, they were marched immediately to the gym changing rooms, where, under the eye of their sadistic PE instructor, a certain Mr. Bateman, they were all made to strip off completely and don just a pair of gym shorts, which had appeared as if from nowhere. They were then ushered, barefoot and practically naked into the gymnasium itself, where the Headmaster, with that wrath-of-God look on his face, which said everything, was awaiting their arrival, brandishing a vicious length of rattan.

    “Gentlemen, you should be happy that I still address you as such, in spite of your appalling behaviour earlier today.  I am totally disgusted that a team of boys from this school should allow itself to become involved in a brawl with its counterparts from the host side.  I cannot and will not allow your bad manners go unpunished, particularly as the incident occurred in another School in which you were guests.  You, gentlemen, have made your bed and you must now lie in it; and allow me to assure you, that I intend to make that a very uncomfortable bed for all of you this evening. Mr. Bateman, if you would be good enough to line up these miserable wretches in alphabetical order, I shall do my very best to make sure that they rue the day when they entered into a fight with their host team. Now, gentlemen, so that you are aware of what is in store for you in the next few minutes, you will each receive eight cuts of the cane across your naked bottoms: six parallel strokes drawn together two diagonal gating cuts.  Mr. Bateman, over to you, sir; please get these boys in order.”

    The look on Bateman’s face told the whole story of how much he was enjoying his role in the proceedings:  “Right, boys, you heard the Headmaster. Get yourselves in a straight line over against the wall, arranged from left to right in alphabetical order of our names. And when you a have done that, take of your shorts, put your hands on your heads and stand perfectly still until called forward by the Headmaster, when you will step forward to receive your punishment.”

    At these words, the whole team looked panic stricken. To be told to stand there stark naked with their hands on their heads, as they watched each of their team-mates being beaten in turn by the Headmaster was unheard of. It was one thing to stand around naked in the showers as they did every day, but quite another to be made to stand in line with your hands on your head and your genitalia exposed to the full view of anyone and everyone present. But as there was no choice, the boys did as they had been told to do by the sadistic Mr. Bateman, who looked on with obvious pleasure written all over his face at the mass execution he was shortly to witness. And as was totally predictable given the erotic effect that bare-arse-beatings always appear to arouse in all concerned – the beater, the beaten and any observers – each boy suffered the extreme embarrassment of seeing his uncontrollable manhood, with that mind of its own, rapidly rise to the occasion. Within one minute of stripping off, all fifteen boys were sporting rock hard erections.  It would be fare to say that they were all were dying with embarrassment at the totally undignified and humiliating position which they had been forced to adopt, not to mention being terrified of the punishment which was about to be visited on them, made even worse by the fact that they all were being made to witness each other having their arses skinned.

    The Headmaster pointed with his cane at the first boy in the line: “Ashley, kindly step forward. Bend over and grip your ankles firmly with your hands and remain in that position until I tell you to stand up.”

    The other boys looked on in horror as the Reverend Dr. Temple then proceeded to apply his cane with unbelievable vigour to Ashley’s naked rump. In spite of the number of boys requiring his attention that evening the Headmaster, made haste slowly and applied every single stroke to Ashley’s arse with careful deliberation. He paused for at least ten seconds between strokes to allow the unfortunate recipient fully to appreciate the pain to which he was being subjected.  Carefully and in precisely targeted positions, from the bottom of the Ashley’s back to the top of his legs, that very sensitive area called the sit-spot, the cane descended repeatedly with that inimitable, characteristic crack of well-seasoned rattan mating with the bare flesh of a boy’s backside. The Headmaster paused after delivering the sixth of his parallel strokes to admire the precision of his handwork, which was, as usual, perfect: six deep furrows  each a livid red colour and each oozing the odd drop of blood where the cane had broken the skin. He then applied the last two strokes as crossing diagonals, thereby leaving Ashley with what, by any standards, was a text-book example of a perfectly well-beaten, eight-cut gated arse.

    Before he was invited to step forward to offer his own arse to the not-so-tender mercy of the cane, Danvers had to witness four more of his team-mates being beaten with the same vigorous efficiency and dedication to purpose which the Reverend Dr. Temple always showed. Now, as we already know, Danvers’s arse and the cane were acquaintances of long standing, as he had been beaten more or less regularly, at least twice a term, throughout his entire school career. But never had he experienced anything like the intensity of the pain which the Headmaster now delivered with his cane.  From the first to the last, like a man possessed, he delivered all of his eight promised strokes with his maximum force. It was as if he was on a mission from a wrathful God to teach all members of the Rugby team a lesson they would never forget.  When Danvers was finally told to stand up and rejoin the line with his hands on his head any earlier embarrassment he had felt standing there, with his cock still erect and now dripping a few drops of pre-cum, had been subsumed into the excruciating, throbbing pain he was experiencing in his arse.  But of course he and his team-mates were forced to stand there stark-naked for a full half hour and watch the Reverend Dr. Temple systematically shredding the arses of each and every one of them, with an efficiency and vigour which belied his age. And so it was not until the Headmaster had delivered a total of one hundred and twenty swingeing cuts with the cane that the rugby team members were finally dismissed and allowed to return to their respective houses where they passed, as the Headmaster had predicted, a very uncomfortable night in their beds.

    Danvers, still prostrate across the beating horse in the Headmaster’s study, was suddenly awoken from his thoughts of that first and, hitherto, only time when he had had the unfortunate  experience of enjoying the Headmaster’s skill at delivering pain, by that inimitable sound of the sharp crack of a cane mating with its target. This audible intimation that the Headmaster had delivered the first cut of what he had promised was to be an eighteen stroke beating, was followed a split second later by that  searing pain, so characteristic of a expertly applied rattan cane, when mating with the naked flesh of pair of well-rounded buttocks. Awakened from his thoughts which until that moment had been elsewhere, by that first bite of the cane, the head-boy knew instinctively that this was to be a very special beating. That first cut had been delivered with a force, the like of which he had never before experienced and had taken his breath away. And in is usual style, the Headmaster made haste slowly and spaced the next five strokes at ten or even fifteen second intervals – an age for Danvers, the unfortunate owner of the arse being punished – to allow his head-boy to appreciate the care with which each cut was being applied. And cut, was truly an accurate description of what the cane did to the head-boy’s buttocks that day, as it bit deeply into his bare flesh, breaking the skin each time and raising a few spots of blood.  Those first six cuts were spaced evenly from top to bottom of the head-boy’s arse and were delivered with such unbridled vigour, that by the third stroke, the Reverend Dr. Temple had reduced his head-boy to tears.

    The Headmaster had told Danvers that he was to receive an eighteen stroke beating to emphasise to him the seriousness of his misdeeds, but he had not been told of the very painful method by which the Headmaster intended to deliver what was, by any standards, in spite of the Headmaster’s declaration of leniency, a very severe beating. After a pause of that interminable minute, which felt like an hour to Danvers, the Headmaster continued his punishment marathon. To Danvers’s horror the Reverend Dr. Temple had no compunction whatsoever, in doubling his first six strokes with the second round of six. And so, already in unbelievable pain thanks to the Headmaster’s unstinting generosity with his first six cuts, Danvers’s suffering was increased to what might have thought were the limits of endurance as the cane bit deeply six more times into the initial six welts. But it was not yet over, as worse was still to come.  After another minute’s pause, the Reverend Doctor went with unabated vigour and overlaid the final six cuts on the same six original welts, completing a text-book example of what was technically an eighteen stroke, six on six on six beating. By the time Danvers was told told by the Headmaster that he could stand up and pull back on his shorts, he could barely put one foot in front of the other, so great was the pain that the Headmaster had delivered.

    “Danvers, I have been relatively severe with you today – the understatement of the century – as I felt it necessary to bring home, to you in a very painful way that I expect better behaviour from my head-boy in future. Danvers, you are in a very privileged position in this School and as its present head-boy you have considerable power over all your schoolmates. As such I expect you to set an example to your contemporaries, on whom you have both the permission and the power to exercise the same sanctions with the cane as I have just exercised on you.  No one, in this school is above the law; you broke it and have suffered in spite of my leniency – that mot inappropriate word yet again! – an exemplary punishment for your sins. I hope that the pain you are now experiencing will have taught you a lesson which you will not wish to repeat. But make no mistake, Danvers; if you step out of line once again, what you have just experienced will seem, in retrospect, like a light breeze across your nether regions compared with what I am capable of delivering when I am truly annoyed.”

    “Now, as head-boy of this School, I urge you to think hard on what has happened to you today when you deal with your schoolmates in future. I expect the best behaviour from all pupils of this school and as head-boy I expect you and your team of prefects to maintain discipline in the traditional way. The boys must all understand that they if caught breaking the rules, then they will suffer painful retribution for their sins.  I have just shown you, by way of an example, alas to your cost, the way that a major misdemeanour should be punished. However, no misdeed, however trivial must go unpunished and I expect you and your co-prefects not to shrink from using the cane whenever it is called for. I have, throughout my entire career worked on the principle that given an inch the average schoolboy will take a mile.  So do not hesitate to use that indispensible backbone of the Frogmore disciplinary ethos, the cane, especially on the younger boys who tend to allow their high spirits to get out of hand. Remember, a well-beaten bottom never did any boy any lasting harm.”

    Danvers was thankful finally to be allowed to escape from the Headmaster’s endless pontificating and to find that in spite of his misdeeds, for which his arse was now suffering in a way that he had never before experienced and never again wanted to repeat, he had not been demoted from his post as head-boy of Frogmore.  Indeed, listening to the remarks of the Reverend Dr. Temple, he saw that he had been encouraged to use the cane, in the persuasive, corrective power of which, the old boy was obviously a true believer. He made his way gingerly back to the head-boy’s study where he made a futile attempt to calm down the pain throbbing in his backside by sticking his arse under a cold shower before gingerly patting himself dry with the towel and lying face down on his bed. He did not bother to cover himself at all, leaving his naked arse exposed to the air, as even the touch of a sheet was too painful to bear. And there he lay until he finally dosed off after about an hour.

    It must have been midnight when he awoke with start. The bedside candle was burning and by its dim light, a naked figure was kneeling on the bed beside him massaging some of his own Aloe Vera ointment into his exposed arse. And then it suddenly hit him, Andrew Thompson, true to his word had come back to fulfil his promise to render to him that same service; Andrew had come back, as he had promised, to fuck Nigel.  As he finished applying the soothing cream, Andrew held the candle over the prostrate figure on the bed, and said:  “My God, Nigel, what the fuck did the old boy do to you? Your arse is in a dreadful shape.”

    So then, happy to have a sympathetic ear to listen to his sorrows , with Andrew lying naked on the bed beside him  he told his erstwhile sex partner, whom he himself, not two hours ago, had just beaten, the whole story of what had happened to him in the Headmaster’s study. “And you know what, Andrew? At the end of the day, the old goat did not relegate me to the ranks as I had feared he would and I am still the head-boy; albeit a head-boy with an excessively well-beaten arse, in the best Frogmore tradition. But I am still head-boy nevertheless: and moreover with a verbal mandate from the Reverend Dr Temple to go out and thrash the naked arse of any boy who is caught even breaking the most piffling of rules. You know, our revered Headmaster is a devout believer in the benefits – to the receiver that is – of a well beaten arse. Frankly, Andrew, it would not surprise me one bit, if we were to learn that he kneels each evening in front of that altar to flagellation of his, that bloody beating horse he has standing there in the middle of his study and gives thanks to the Almighty for the regular supply of cane fodder to which the School give him access. Make no mistake Andrew, our Reverend Headmaster is an absolute sadist. Oh and just one thing before we move on to pleasanter pastimes times,  what I have just told you, Andrew, must go no further; that you must promise me. The whole school knows the head-boy has been beaten and I suppose they will think that a new head-boy will be nominated to replace me. Well as you now know, they will be so very wrong.  And they will soon find out that I am alive and well and able to exercise my functions as head-boy, when I tickle some poor sod’s arse with my cane as I certainly intend to do next week. But they need know nothing else.”

    Andrew looked lovingly at Nigel’s lacerated buttocks by the dim light of the candle, before saying: “Well Nigel, you know what I promised to do for you after you had seen the Headmaster, but if you don’t feel up to it right now we can take a rain check on it and do it when you are feeling a bit better.”

    But as we all know sex is such a driving force that Nigel, who was still in agony from the caning, nevertheless wanted nothing more at that moment than to have the pleasure of Andrew shafting him. However, as Andrew had done with him, he now acted coy with his putative lover and said: “You know, Andrew, I am not at all  sure that I understand what you were getting at when you you said: if you don’t feel up to it right nowwe can take a rain check on it; if  I don’t feel up to what exactly? What is it that you are proposing that I might not feel up to right now? You know I believe in the saying that there is no time like the present. So what is it I exactly that you are proposing? Could you perhaps be little more l more specific as to what it is that I might not be up to so that I can give you a better informed answer? After all, Andrew, if I don’t know what it is you are proposing, how can I decide whether I feel up to it or not? It might surprise you to know that in spite of the parlous state of my arse at the moment, I am not a total invalid and might indeed welcome what it is you are proposing if only I knew what it was.”

    By this time Andrew realised that Nigel was sending him up and he said laughingly “Nigel, did it ever cross your tiny mind that you sound like an absolute arsehole at times. Well let me just tell you, my friend, that this is exactly one of those times and that you are behaving like an absolute arsehole. However as you clearly need it spelling out to you, do you or do you not wish me to fulfil the promise I made you earlier this evening, which was to fuck you after your visit to the Reverend Dr. Temple as a thank you gesture for the similar service you rendered to me after you had beaten the living daylights out of my arse? Is that clear enough? So yes or no? Do you want me to fuck you right now?”

    “Andrew, there are time when you sound like an utter prick. Of course I want to have sex with you right now, but just go gently.  To say the very least, my arse is in a somewhat delicate state at the moment and like a fine bottle of old wine, requires careful handling. If you can believe it, Andrew, and it is perfectly true what I say, whilst the old goat was doing his worst to my arse with his cane, the one thing which kept me sane during his onslaught – and it was an onslaught, believe me – was the fact that you and I would have sex again together after it was all over. So yes, Andrew, please do go ahead and fuck me. But just try to be gentle. Try, if you can to make it an act of love rather than one of carnal lust.”

    That final remark made by Nigel was to lead further than either of the two young men could have even vaguely imagined, as they had sex together for the second time within a few hours that night at Frogmore. In 1960,  more than half a century after the events of that Frightful Friday at Frogmore had taken place, Nigel Danvers QC, now retired and Sir Andrew Thompson,  still active as High Court judge –judges are like actors in that they do not seem to retire but continue in office until they finally drop – were still together as a couple, quite  illegally under the then Law of the Land, but  as much in love with each other then at their advanced age of eighty-five years as that night when Andrew had taken to heart the comment made by the head-boy and had truly made love to him.

    THE END


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  • Frat Toga Party

    Chapter 2: The Run

    After the amazing toga party Davis and Pierce began to hang out a lot more. Davis barely spent any time in his own room. He was always in Pierce’s bedroom.

    They were jogging together talking about new students in their university.

    “There’s a new guy on our wresting team, Adam I think his name is,” Pierce said.

    “Yeah we have some fresh meat on the swim team as well,” said Davis. “Sebastian and Aaron.”

    “Wait I think Sebastian is on the wresting team too.”

    They continued talking about their teams and how well the well they’ll do this upcoming season.

    Davis loved running with Pierce. Pierce went commando in his short running shorts. Davis would watch as Pierce’s package swayed with each stride. Davis adopted Piece’s dress code too, having borrowed some shorts from his lover. 

    Davis was almost full mast when he stopped Pierce.

    “What’s up dude?” Pierce looked down at Davis’s massive tent. “Oh we’d better take care of that.”

    They stepped off the sidewalk and into some bushes along the park next to a van. They would be hidden well from view of everyone.

    Pierce pulled Davis’s shorts down to his ankles and began sucking. Davis let out an audible moan. Davis looked down to Pierce who was stroking his own cock through one of the leg holes in his shorts.

    He loved doing this out in public. It was much more exciting than inside the safety of a bedroom.

    But then suddenly Pierce stopped. “Oh shit,” he said and ran off.

    Davis was bewildered until he saw the young officer standing there. Davis quickly bent over pulling his shorts up in a quick motion. Davis thought about running too but he couldn’t move.

    “You’re coming with me,” the officer said as he grabbed Davis by the arm and guided him out of the bushes and into the back of the van.

    The door slammed behind them.

    Silence filled the van. Videos played on the monitors. One of them was paused. It was Davis and Pierce in the bushes.

    Davis was still rock hard. And the officer noticed too.

    In fact his crotch seemed to be rather defined in his tight uniform.

    “Strip.” Was all he said.

    Davis started with his shirt. He slowly pulled it over his toned torso. All he had on now were his running shorts.

    The officer was rubbing his cock through his uniform.

    “The shorts too.”

    “I want to see something first,” said Davis.

    After a stare down the officer complied. He undid his belt buckle, dropping his navy blue pants to the floor of the van. The thick cock sprang up to full attention. A drop of precum was on the tip.

    “I wanted both of you but I guess I’ll settle for one. Now drop the shorts.”

    Wordlessly, Davis pulled down his shorts to his ankles. This was a crazy situation and it was so erotic and so hot. Davis was so horny. He couldn’t wait to see how this played out.

    The officer was stroking his dick. Licking his lips. Eyeing up Davis.

    Davis was completely naked now in front of the cop.

    “Sit.”

    Davis sat in the swivel chair. The leather was cold on his ass. The officer walked over with handcuffs. He took Davis’s hands behind the chair and bond them

    He then presented his dick to Davis’s mouth.

    “Suck.”

    It was difficult sucking the thick cock but Davis managed to get his lips around the mushroom head. Davis was so aroused precum was oozing out of his penis.

    Right when the officer pulled his dick out of Davis’s mouth, the door burst open and another cop came into the van.

    He was older. He dropped the muffins onto the floor. Shocked at what was going on in this van.

    But then he grinned, devilishly. The second officer took his belt off and dropped his pants. His erection pointed right to Davis.

    Soon both officers were jerking their cocks right at Davis’s face. Each one forcing their way into his mouth.

    “You like that, don’t you? You little cocksucker.”

    Davis answered by shooting his load all over his chest and stomach. Eight shots of hot jizz. It was surprising because no one was even touching Davi’s cock.

    “I’ll take that as a ‘yes.’” 

    The first officer took his dick out of Davis’s mouth. He stroked it and sprayed Davis in the face with his seed. 

    The older cop was ready too. His cum came in long ropy bursts.

    The officers’ cum was running down his face from under his eyes. It was on his mouth and even dripping off his chin onto his chest.

    “Did you learn your lesson?”

    Davis nodded and licked the cum off of his lips.

    “Good.”

    The handcuffs came off and they let Davis out of the van.

    He stood naked outside of the van. “What about my clothes?”

    “We’re keeping them.”

    “Take this as compensation,” said the first officer as he threw his police hat out to him.

    Davis caught it. He couldn’t even admire it. He was naked in the street covered in cum. He used the hat to cover his dick. Davis ran as fast as he could back to frat house.

    Pierce heard a knock on his door. He opened it to find a cum-covered Davis only wearing a police hat.