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  • Cruise to Cruise

    The rehearsals were very demanding, we needed enough material for four shows. By the time we flew out, we had both lost 5kg and looked very toned.

    We arrived two weeks before the start of the cruise, to meet our fellow entertainers and comperes, and work on choreography with the dancers. We also had to be fitted out with our stage costumes. Several suits, a schoolboy outfit of cap, blazer and grey flannel shorts (We made them authentic by wearing tighty-whities), and a sailor’s suit, short-sleeved shirt with epaulettes, and tight, white chino shorts, ‘enhancing’ underwear improved the look. Among the other entertainers were singers, dancers, a dwarf troupe, and a ‘Magic Mike’ Trio. We watched one another in rehearsals. The Magic Mike trio looked yummy. 

    We were in our hotel room one evening, snogging in our sailors outfits, with our shirts undone, when there was a knock on the door. Reluctantly, I answered it (I was hoping to get laid). It was Nick, a comedian, wanting to get to know us better. Out of politeness, I invited him in. It was immediately obvious that he’d interrupted something, so I told him bluntly that we were enjoying sex together, and he was welcome to watch, or join in if he wanted. I went back to kissing my twin. I don’t think Nick knew whether to stay or go, but curiosity got the better of him, and he sat watching us make out. We put on a show he would never forget. Slowly, we disrobed one another, kissing and licking each new bit of flesh as it came into view. Socks and trainers came off and I sucked John’s toes, then up his calves. Shirts came off and there was a lot of nipple play. Zips came down and dicks were played with through our underwear. The shorts dropped to the floor and our poles were over the waistbands. Nick had his cock out. John went down on me, exposing my penis and licking around the crown. I leaned over and pushed John’s boxers down, so that his bud was winking at Nick. My boxers came off and John cupped my sack and engulfed my shaft. Nick fingered John’s hole. I reached over and handed him a tube of lube. John put his bum in the air a little and Nick entered, still wearing his shorts. John carried on sucking me as Nick plowed into him, fucking him ever harder and blowing his load. He slipped out and stuffed his cum-covered knob back in his shorts. John got up, turned around and impaled himself back onto me, bouncing up and down, and jerking, sending ribbons of cum onto the floor. Climbing off me, he turned around again and sucked me to completion. To finish off, he fed my spunk into Nick’s mouth. I think he had got to know us quite well.     

    We joined the ship a few days before sailing, to finish rehearsals on the actual stages. Some of the choreography had to be altered to fit the stage. We also wanted to get used the the ship’s layout. Our cabin had a small en-suite, but there were also toilets and communal showers along the corridor. We preferred these as there was more room and we liked showing off our toned bodies.

    The entertainments director discussed the show’s make up with the comperes. We had to open and close the shows. We could watch the other performers from the wings if we wanted. Some of the comedians were quite funny, but our favourite was the Magic Mike act.

    The opening nights were always nerve-wracking, but the MC was witty and brilliant. We came on in our schoolboy outfits and did some warn-up songs, Like Whigfield’s Saturday Night, and the Macarena to get the party started. We closed the show in suits with some sing-a-long ballads. Relieved to get the first show out of the way, we went back to our cabin, bunged on jogging shorts, and went for a shower, before turning in. In the morning, we went to the crew’s canteen for breakfast, then back to the cabin to make love. The beds were quite narrow, so it was very cosy. Our bodies mirror each other and probably looks quite weird when we fuck, but we know instinctively how to satisfy each other. Undressed again, I toyed with John’s nipples, making him groan and leak precum. He ran his hand down my back and fingered my anus. We worked around to a sixty-nine, with John on top, working our tongues into the cracks. this time John mounts me first, sliding in and kissing before he starts to hump. We flip and he kneels on the floor so that I can take him from behind, jerking him at the same time. His cum went over the floor, mine went inside him. We decided to explore the ship, chat with the guests and catch the sun. 

    That evening, we were on a different stage, with a different line-up. Finishing the show was the Magic Mike Trio. We wondered how far they would go. Over three songs, they gyrated around, losing their clothing, until they were down to bright red G-strings. At the end, they turned their backs on the audience, the G-strings came off, and they shuffled off stage naked. We had popped boners watching. They were handed dressing gowns and went back on stage to rapturous applause. We left for the showers. We were soaping each other and making out, when we were joined by the Magic Mike boys. It didn’t bother us, I knelt and started sucking John. Suddenly, I had three more cocks in my face. I worked my way round, sucking and wanking, like the cat that got the cream, while they were snogging John and each other. They tossed themselves off, covering me in semen. We dried ourselves off, but before they left, they said that they had a four berth cabin and we were welcome to join them anytime. I suggested we went along in the morning. At 10.00 we knocked on their door and were greeted by three hunks, all naked with semis. It turned out they were two brothers and a cousin, who also liked incestual sex. Soon, hand and lips were everywhere as they put on a show. their muscular bodies grappling with one another. We joined in and split up, John on a bed with one guy, me and the others on the floor. John was opened up with tongue and fingers, I was in a three-way, each with a dick down our throat. John straddled the guy, held by strong arms, I was on my back, legs in the air, getting spit-roasted. John was turned onto his back and plowed again. I was still getting fucked from both ends. John’s guy arched his back and bred him. John’s cum went over his head. My two guys swapped and I taste my own juices, then I’m turned onto all fours and fed their cocks again. I got cum-filled at both ends, then rolled over and relieved myself. emptying a huge load. I think we are going to enjoy this trip.    

  • Caught on Cam

    We connected again. Taylor showed up on camera as if nothing had happened last time. Not a word about what I’d seen. Smiling, laid-back, hair messy, chest under a fresh T-shirt. I pretended to be calm too, but inside I felt the tension rush back instantly.

    “Dude, look at this,” he said and moved his laptop away to show his whole body. He raised his arm, flexing his biceps. “Today’s pump.”

    His biceps glistened in the light, and the muscle on his chest twitched as he changed position. I liked it, but I kept up a playful tone.

    “Okay, okay, I get it. You’re a walking gym poster.”

    He laughed, running his hand down his neck as if to emphasize the lines of his muscles.

    “No, seriously, look,” he said, pulling his shirt back to reveal his stomach. A six-pack like in those damn supplement ads. “What do you think?”

    I pretended to be cool. “Looks good. But you’re sucking in your stomach, right?” I said half-jokingly to break the tension.

    He burst out laughing and flexed his muscles even more. “No, fuck. It’s all hard work.”

    And I sat there, staring at the screen, spellbound. The same arms, the same chest that had been in my dreams for the last few nights. I wanted to believe that everything was back to normal, that it was just a mistake, but I felt like we were pretending. That underneath all the jokes and “show off” there was something we both remembered very well.

    Every move he made reminded me of that moment when he looked at the camera and jerked off, and I sat with my dick in my hand on the other side. And now again… I felt that familiar tingling in my stomach.

    But I sat up straight, pretending it was just a normal conversation. Just a normal webcam chat. Two friends. Except that neither of us had forgotten.

    Taylor suddenly looked straight at the screen and smiled that overly confident smile of his. “Okay, now it’s your turn.” He raised his eyebrows as if it were obvious.

    “Show me what you’ve been working on.”

    I froze. My heart started beating faster, but I pretended it was a joke. “What, you want me to do a bodybuilding show?”

    “Exactly.” He nodded and flexed his biceps again. “I showed you mine, now you have to show me yours.”

    I sat there in silence for a moment. Damn it. Everything in me was screaming to say no, but the other part… the part that remembered his cock on the screen, was already showing me images of me undressing in front of him. I sighed, unzipped my sweatshirt, and pulled off my T-shirt.

    “Come on, don’t be shy,” he said when he saw me in just my boxers.

    I raised my arm, flexed my biceps, then ran my hand over my stomach, showing off my abs. The light fell in such a way that the shadows highlighted every muscle.

    “Not bad, man,” he said with a smile.

    I tried to play it cool, but I felt the heat rising on my neck. I was standing there in just my boxers, and he looked at me like I was at some kind of audition. His gaze slid down to my hips.

    “Turn around,” he suddenly said. “Your ass looks pretty good.”

    I froze, staring at the screen. — “No way…”

    “You’ve got nothing to be shy about with me. I’ll judge you like a coach, tell you if there’s anything to fix.”

    I felt my stomach tighten. My hands went to the elastic waistband of my boxers. My heart was pounding. “Fuck, am I really doing this?”

    I stood there for a moment, my hands on the elastic of my boxers. Every breath sounded too loud, as if a microphone was about to reveal that my heart was pounding in my chest like crazy. Taylor waited. He didn’t rush me or pressure me, he just looked at the screen and smiled.

    Slowly, almost in disbelief, I pulled my boxers down halfway, then all the way down until they fell to my feet. I turned sideways, then backwards. I stood naked, the light highlighting every contour.

    For a moment there was silence. Then I heard Taylor’s low laugh.

    “Fuck…” he muttered under his breath. “Man, it’s perfect.” He continued, his tone seemingly playful, but there was something heavier, more intimate in his words.

    “No fat, smooth, firm… perfect shape. Seriously, you don’t need to touch anything.”

    I felt the skin on the back of my neck burning. I stood stiffly, pretending to be cool, but my body betrayed me: my buttocks were tense, my back was shivering, my cock was getting harder and harder, drooping down between my legs. I was aware that I was showing him everything. And that he had control over me.

    “You can turn around now,” he said after a moment, still with that damn smile. “But seriously, man… wow.”

    I lifted my boxers and quickly pulled them up to my hips, as if that would erase what he had just seen.

    We said goodbye as if nothing had happened, a few words about training, that we’d talk tomorrow. But I sat there in front of the screen, knowing neither of us would be able to pretend things were normal for much longer.

    The screen dimmed as if the conversation was over. I stayed silent, but I didn’t close my laptop. Something stopped me. And then I noticed that the camera was still on. The image flickered and returned, Taylor was still in the room. He was standing sideways, as if he had forgotten that I could still see him.

    He slowly pulled down his boxers. His cock popped out immediately, already hard and throbbing. I swallowed hard, unable to take my eyes off him. He reached under the bed and took out something I didn’t expect to see, a fake ass. He placed it on the bed, grabbed a bottle of lube, and poured it generously over his cock. The sound of the gel being smeared was so clear that it sent shivers down my spine.

    “Fuck…” I whispered to myself.

    Taylor grabbed the fake ass with both hands and drove into it with one hard thrust. His hips pounded in rhythm, his body tightening with every move. And then I suddenly heard him growl loudly:

    “Matt…”

    I froze. “Taylor, the camera’s on!” I blurted out in panic.

    But he just looked straight into the lens and smiled the same smile he had when he was jerking off in front of me. And he didn’t stop. He fucked the fake ass harder, louder, panting and repeating my name between thrusts.

    I couldn’t hold back any longer. My boxers were wet with pre-cum, so I pulled them down and grabbed my cock. A few quick strokes were enough. My whole body tensed, and I shot with such force that cum flew onto the keyboard, my hand, and the desk. I moaned loudly, but I didn’t even try to stifle it.

    On the screen, Taylor was close too. He clenched his hands on the fake ass and instead of pulling away, he pushed deeper, moaning heavily. He came inside, holding his hips tightly pressed against it, as if he really wanted to fill it. After a moment, he pulled out slowly, his breath ragged. And then the image faded.

    He left me sweaty, weak, my hands still trembling. I was about to close my laptop when a notification popped up. A message from him.

    “Did you like it? Because all I can think about is what it would be like to fuck your ass.”

    My heart jumped to my throat. This wasn’t an accident anymore. This was a game. And I was in it, all the way.


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  • Alpha’s Dirty Secret

    Disclaimer: This story includes language and themes that may not be comfortable for all readers, so please proceed with discretion. 


    Recap: Cole takes control to a whole new level. After catching Mikey with his sweaty gym shirt, Cole makes Mikey worships his pits and cock. Mikey is aching for more, while Cole smirks down at him in complete dominance. Cole asserts total control over Mikey by spitting down his throat and asking him to swallow every drop (The alternative version had Cole piss down Mikey’s throat). He leaves Mikey soaked, leaking, and wanting more, making it clear this isn’t just sex anymore. Mikey doesn’t just want to be fucked, he wants to be desperately seen by his alpha roommate Cole.
    —–

    It had been five days. Five long, aching, frustrating days.

    Cole hadn’t said a word since that night.

    He’d woken up early, showered and left for work. He didn’t look at me or speak. Just moved through the apartment like I wasn’t even there or didn’t even exist. The same way he used to.

    I tried to act normal. Tried to be chill. I texted my girlfriend more. Told her I missed her. Even watched porn with girls in it. Tried to jerk off to it. But nothing worked. My dick stayed half-hard at best. Because I couldn’t stop thinking about him. About that night. The smell. The taste of him…

    The way his voice sounded in my ear when I rubbed his soaked underwear on my face.

    My balls ached from how horny the thought of him made me. My stomach stayed tight waiting for him to give me his cock. Every time I passed his room or caught a whiff of his scent in the hallway, my cock twitched. Like it knew what it wanted.

    Like it didn’t care how fucked up all this was; how desperate it might have been, but I wanted it.. All of it.

    I’d promised myself I was done. That I wouldn’t go back to it. That I’d stay away from his underwear.

    But then, on the sixth day, I saw them again.

    A pair of black underwear, damp at the waistband, crumpled beside the bathroom sink like they’d been peeled off in a rush. The front was still warm when I touched them. Still soaked. And honestly, I didn’t mean to do it… …but I brought them to my nose. I was already slipping back into my hold habits.

    The smell hit me like a wave, thick and overwhelming.

    Sweat, musk, and raw heat. Pure him.

    I moaned without meaning to. My knees buckled. I pressed them harder to my face and breathed in slow.

    Fuck.

    I stumbled back to my room like I was carrying something stolen. I wasn’t really. I already had his explicit permission to to sniff his underwear. I had his underwear stuffed in my hoodie pocket, my dick already hard before I even shut the door.

    I didn’t even jerk off.

    I just held them to my face. Breathed and licked his masculine scent. Humped my mattress until I came dry in my boxers, my whole body trembling.

    And that was when I realized; this wasn’t over.

    That night, Cole came home late from work. I was in the kitchen, pretending to clean, and I looked up as he changed into workout t-shirt, his chest still wet with a little bit of sweat and his armpits had that darkened sweaty look..

    He didn’t say anything. Just walked past me.

    But then he paused.

    Looked back.

    “You been behaving good?” he asked.

    My throat locked. “Yeah. I mean… I’ve been keeping to myself.”

    Cole tilted his head, like he already knew I was lying.

    Then he smirked. “You miss the way I smell?”

    I didn’t answer.

    He stepped in closer, so close I could feel his heat. His scent rolled over me..sharp, masculine, straight from a long day’s work, with that raw edge of sweat clinging to his skin and his pits. Pure, unfiltered man.

    “I’ve got something planned for you,” he said, voice low. “Since you’re so fuckin’ addicted to me and can’t keep your nose away from my musk.”

    I swallowed. “W-what?”

    He grinned wider. “You’re coming to the gym with me now.”

    I blinked. “What?”

    “You want musk? I’ll give you musk. I’ll do a full workout. No shower. Just sweat. And you?” He leaned closer, dropped his voice. “You’re gonna clean up. In the locker room. Tongue to fuckin’ skin.”

    I swallowed. I didn’t even try to argue. My dick had started chubbing up the second he said “musk.”

    He grinned like he already knew. Like he could smell the desperation on me.

    “C’mon.” He jerked his head toward the exit. “You’re gonna love this place.”

    ────୨ৎ────

    The gym was tucked behind an old warehouse district. No signs. Just a keycode door and the low hum of bad rock playing from inside. When we stepped in, it hit me all at once; rubber mats, steel plates, chalk, and something primal underneath.

    The place smelled like sweat, raw male heat, and something feral that made my pulse race.

    There was one other guy there. He was near the squat rack, re-racking plates like they weighed nothing. Tall. Thick. Sleeveless black tee hugging broad pecs, grey joggers slung low. Tan skin, short dark hair, backwards cap. A five o’clock shadow lined his jaw. And his arms roped and vascular were crossed over his chest like he owned the place.

    “Yo,” Cole called. “That’s Drew. He owns this place.”

    Drew nodded once, didn’t say anything. Just went back to his weights like we weren’t even there.

    Cole smirked and led me past him to the benches. “He’s chill. Don’t worry.” I couldn’t stop glancing over. Drew looked like the kind of guy who never smiled in pictures. Who had stories about fights in locker rooms. His forearms were massive. And he was watching us. Quietly.

    “Don’t be weird,” Cole muttered under his breath, unzipping his hoodie.

    “Focus on me.”

    And I did.

    We started with incline bench. Cole loaded the bar like he was angry at it. Heavy plates clanged into place. His t-shirt stuck to his chest with every rep, the sweat darkening the fabric around his pecs and pits.

    He grunted on the fourth set, breath rough, arms bulging. “You watching?”

    I nodded dumbly.

    “I want you to see what you’re gonna taste.”, Cole added.

    The way he said it. My throat dried.

    Halfway through the lift, he paused, arms flexed, and looked straight at me.

    Take a whiff.

    I glanced sideways. Drew had his back to us, wiping down a barbell.

    “Bro.. he won’t care,” Cole added, lowering his voice. “Besides, I want him to see what a fuckin’ hungry slut you are.”

    I leaned in close. The heat radiating off him was unreal. My nose brushed the hair in his pit. It hit me hard: rich, salty, and overwhelmingly intense.

    I whimpered before I could stop it.

    “Yeah, that’s it boy,” Cole growled. “Breathe it in. That’s what a real man smells like.”

    I licked. Just once. Tentative. Salty.

    He didn’t stop me. He just pressed my face in tighter.

    More.”, he groaned.

    His fingers curled in my hair and held me deeper into his sweaty pits. My mouth moved around his armpits: tongue dragging slow, shaky circles along the sweaty skin of his pit. The tang of deodorant mixed with raw salt. It coated my mouth. It was disgusting. It was heaven.

    “That’s what I fuckin’ thought,” Cole said.

    He released me. I fell back onto my heels, face flushed, cock hard in my sweats.

    Drew hadn’t said a word. But I could feel his eyes.

    Cole didn’t give a shit.

    He worked through his bench press, lateral raises and some shoulder press making him sweat profusely. His shirt clung like a second skin, soaked down the back, dark under the arms. He grunted with every set, veins popping, chest and shoulders heaving.

    Every so often he’d pause. Pull me close toward his chest, his pits, his neck and make me sniff his scent.

    Once I pressed my face against his crotch and heard him say, “Tell me how strong that is.”

    I didn’t even think.

    “So fucking strong, bro,” I breathed.

    “Damn right it is.”

    He was dripping sweat by the end of it. Shirt clinging. Shorts clinging. That alpha scent rolling off him in waves.

    He grabbed his towel, wiped his face, then tossed it at me. “Locker room. Let’s go.”

    I followed. Fast and shaking.

    The room was dark, damp. Tiles echoing with every step. Cole yanked me by the front of my shirt into the corner, near the showers.

    “On your knees, boy.”

    I dropped.

    He pulled his shirt off, finally.

    And fuck.

    He was soaked. His pecs shined with sweat, abs ridged and wet, pits glistening, his waistband stained dark.

    “Start with my pits,” he said. “Make ‘em shine you filthy boy.”

    I licked him slow and obedient. Tongue to skin. His musk was overwhelming…hot and ripe and pure fucking filth. My face was buried in it, nose pressed in deep, dragging my mouth from one edge to the other.

    “Yeah, take that,” Cole said, grinding his arm up against my mouth. “Fuckin’ desperate boy. This what you want? This what you been sniffin’ off my clothes like a needy cocksucker?”

    I couldn’t even deny it. My cock throbbed untouched in my sweats.

    I even licked a droplet of sweat under his pecs dragging my tongue all the way down his stomach. The sweat pooled between the muscles. My mouth followed it like a starving dog.

    When I got to his waistband, I hesitated.

    “You want this, Mikey?”

    “Yes please,” I whispered.

    He grinned. “Not yet.”

    He turned around, and pulled his shorts down just enough to expose the deep groove of his ass and the thick slope of his thighs.

    “Clean under.”

    I pressed my face between his legs. The smell was ripe and musky

    His balls were dripping.. I could see the dampness on his underwear. He didn’t even touch me. Just stood there, letting me worship him with my mouth. I licked the base of his thighs, the crease where sweat gathered.

    “Fucking hell,” he muttered. “You’re obsessed.”

    I moaned against his skin.

    “Yeah, I hear that. You’re not gonna cum until I say so. You hear me?”

    “Yes sir,” I breathed.

    He turned, pushed his bulge against my cheek. It was fat and warm. Still trapped in his underwear.

    “You think you earned this?”

    I looked up at him, desperate.

    He smirked. “Not yet.”

    His voice echoed loud through the locker room. “Yo, Drew.”

    My stomach dropped.

    Footsteps.

    Then….

    Drew walked into view, towel around his neck, eyes locked on us.

    Cole smirked wider. “I brought someone for you. Told you he’s a cocksucker.”

    Drew stepped closer. Towel still around his neck. His eyes dropped to me; kneeling, flushed, lips wet from Cole’s sweat.

    He tilted his head. “Your throat’s ready, boy?” Drew said, voice low, gravelly.

    “We’re gonna have some fun.”


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  • The Cruising Memoir of a Bisexual Man

    Memory #1 – Part Two

    I’d put my retreating penis away as I stood helplessly apologizing to this stranger.  He finally seemed fully recovered and asked, “Can I see it again?  I want to look at it.”  I was feeling about as un-horny as I ever got at that moment, with the teenage post-orgasm guilt and shame lingering and the near medical emergency boner-killer weighing heavily.  But hey!  He wanted to scrutinize a circumcised cock up close, and I was kind of proud to give that to him.

    I pulled my penis back out, but it had shrunk to a worm!  I opened my fly all the way and pulled my jeans and underwear down just a little, so he could see my scrotum if he wanted to.  I figured childishly that it was show-and-tell time, why not?  He went all vacant and gooey again, looking very closely at my penis, and feeling the scar tissue on my ruffled circumcision collar with his fingertips.  He had both hands and arms through the hole now, like they grew out from his neck.  He held my squishy soft penis while babbling something in German.  I’m sure it was filthy dirty thoughts!

    Then he managed to get both hands behind me, clutching my ass and pulling me toward his face, aggressively!  I worried for a second about my wallet, something they teach you to watch out for everywhere in Europe.  But it wasn’t my wallet he wanted.  He sucked my growing worm into his mouth, resuscitating it back to life while he dug his fingertips into the crack of my ass, digging right into my anus.  He could not have been clearer about what he wanted.

    He pulled his hands back to my hips and then tugged down hard on both waistbands.  He got my jeans and underwear down to the middle of my thighs.  I mumbled, “Wait!  No!  Wait!”  That was all the resistance I could put up at that moment.  I don’t know why.  Because he was much older?  And I was without much agency?  Or maybe because I owed him for a blow job, and for choking him?  It didn’t matter, I did no more to stop him and he didn’t stop!  He pulled my ass cheeks apart so hard I thought he might tear some skin. 

    Then he began feeling the tiny button of my anus with one of his index fingers.  He touched it, he dragged his fingerprint across it.  He pushed at it gently like a doorbell, poking at it.  Then he plunged his finger inside me dry!   It stung like hell and I yelped, but I didn’t fight him or resist.  That acquiescence might have been due to his suckling and pumping my cock so wonderfully!  How could this man be so gruff and aggressive to my butthole, but make my penis feel like it was in heaven?

    He pulled me hard toward his booth, his head and arms were mostly back in his own booth once again and taking my cock and scrotum with him.  I stood there with my back arched and pushing my whole front against the connecting wall to his booth, but my genitals and lower abdomen were fully through the hole into his booth.  He kept mouth fucking me brilliantly, while his hands roughly kneaded my ass.

    Then he moved his hands to my waist, holding me in place in a way that intended not to let me go.  He slurped his talented mouth off my cock and said, “I want to lick your ass!  Please!”  As he begged me, he pushed hard on my right hip, while he pulled even harder on my left, trying to turn me around so my ass would be hanging through the hole into his booth.

    “No!…not yet!” I stumbled.  I don’t know why I said that, or what I meant?  I was just panic-stalling.  Something very aggressive about his nature had revealed itself, and my most primitive instincts were yelling at me, “He’s going to rape you!”  His strength and his grip on my waist at that moment made me certain that if he got my ass turned around and inside his booth, he’d be able to hold me there as long as he wanted to.

    Now I had experienced most every kind of gay sex in my youth, and I had nothing against anal sex.  It was already a point of pride to me to be able to give it to boys who wanted it.  But I had long since learned that forced or aggressive anal penetration can lead to stitches! And how would I explain that to my provincial parents?

    My fight-or-flight senses thought fast!  I said “OK!” and began rotating like I was letting him turn me around.  My feigned compliance worked!  He loosened his grip on my waist and I dashed for the door, with my naked penis and bottom out in the open, my jeans at my thighs.  I scrambled to pull them up, but I didn’t care who saw.  This was an emergency.  Now I felt the delayed sting of his fingernail scratches on my waist.  He had tried clawing at me to stop my escape.

    I stumbled and fumbled with my jeans and underwear, while trying to continue moving, walking fast in any direction.  Just away from the booth! I almost plowed right into an older couple, a man and a women.  [Women came here, too?! “Entschuldigan!  Entschuldigan zie bitte!”  I apologized.  They were much older, my parents’ age at least. 

    They could see I was panicked, and the man said, “Was ist los Mensch?”  I knew that means “What’s wrong?” but I froze.  I couldn’t seem to access any new German vocabulary.

    “Oh, God!” I said out loud. 

    “You are American?” asked the gentlemen.

    “Hast due ihren Schwanz gesehen?” asked the woman.  I knew that meant something like “Didn’t you see his penis?”  Then she added in English, “Of course he’s American, Verny!”

    “Come with us!” invited the man, cheerfully.

    “We’ll protect you mein liebschen,” said the woman.  “You are a beautiful boy!  And you are too young to be in here all alone.  Carl let you in here all alone?”  She made a “Tsk tsk tsk” judgement with her tongue.  “There are fun people here on Saturdays, but there are always a few…not so nice! Do you understand what this place is?”

    “I do now!” I blurted finally able to speak.  “I wanted to know what this place was.”

    “Do you like boys?” she asked provocatively.

    “I like boys…and girls,” I told her a little pleadingly.

    “Ahhh!” said the man with a bright shiny smile!

    “Mmmmm” said the woman at the very same time.

    “Why don’t you stay with us,” suggested the man.  “You can watch what we do and see what happens here.  Maybe we have fun too?”  I smiled and nodded to them both.

    The woman gently took my hand in hers, and the gentleman placed his hand kindly on my shoulder, and together they guided me through the forest of alphabet blocks to where I would learn was their usual place.

    They were Werner [Verner] and Karin [Kahrin], an early 50’s married couple who lived in the city.  They were swingers, both bisexual, and they dabbled in making 8mm home-porn movies.  [That last factoid was shared with me for future possibilities, I’m sure.] They came here to this Dr. Mueller’s location often, on Saturdays, at noon, for the peak of the weekend crowd. 

    They led me to a row of 3 connecting blocks and we all filed into the center booth, booth #8.  The holes between the booths were huge!  A person could actually step through into the adjoining booth with a little effort.  Werner left the booth for a moment without explanation and then popped his head through the hole of one of the connecting booths.

    “Just borrowing extra chairs,” he said smiling.  When he returned the second time with the second borrowed chair, he said, “Sometimes we both get busy…separately, on both sides, so it’s nice to have 2 chairs.  This time I borrow 3, so you relax and watch…if that suits you?”

    “You see,” Karin began.  “We like the middle booth so we are always busy!  We might both get busy on one side, together, while the man on the other side watches.  Sometimes we get busy separately, like Werner said.  Sometimes we just put on a show for the men on both sides to watch.  Sometimes we invite one to climb into our booth with us!  But not today!  Today you are the guest.”

    Werner looked at his watch and said something to Karin very fast, in German, which I missed completely.  Immediately they both began undressing and hanging their clothes on metal hooks that had been installed all around the booth.  That was the first moment I’d even noticed the hooks all around the booth.

    “You don’t have to take your clothes off if you’re not comfortable,” said Karin.  But I wanted to take my clothes off!  I wanted to be naked! And I wanted my stiff little circumcised penis to be out in the open for everyone to see!  I’d been thrilled and maybe spoiled already, by the attention it attracted.

    I quickly began stripping off my jacket, my jeans, my shirt, and finally my underwear.  All crammed onto one hook.  My penis was sticking almost straight up again, at a similar angle as the clothing hooks on the walls.  I was buck-naked before Karin began removing her bra and panties.

    Karen said, “You should put your shoes back on, the floors in these booths are gantz schlect! Filthy!” I think she told me this advice right at that moment to make sure I was looking at her:  She was gracefully pulling her now unhooked bra away from her breasts, all at once like a stripper.  They looked like large triple C-cups, and were certainly breathtakingly beautiful.  She obviously loved to be objectified and appreciated.  While I stood childishly stunned like a deer in the headlights, she went ahead and peeled down her sexy black lace panties, revealing an outrageously erotic and dramatic looking, shaved mound.  It looked puffed up, swollen, with a deep keyhole and vertical crevice.

    Without thinking I reached out and gently gripped one of her breasts, feeling the super soft mature skin, and the soft glandular sponginess underneath.  I’d read about the “soft titties” of older women, compared to the firm springy feeling of a young woman’s, probably in my Dad’s Penthouse magazines.  I discovered that day that I liked soft titties too!

    She let me have a moment while she watched me stare at and feel up her breasts.  Then she reached out and gripped my cock firmly.  I was grasped in slow motion, exhaling a full lung’s worth of air.  She gently squeezed and massaged it.  She began slowly stroking my foreskin up and down over the head, jerking me off.

    “There is no extra skin, Verny!” she giggled. “Come feel it!”

    Werner stepped in closer and we were now a circle of 3 naked humans.  He politely reached out and replaced his wife’s hand, exploring and massaging my aching-hard cock.  He was entirely focused on the foreskin, or lack thereof, I guess.  “You know what people like so much about Americans?” he began. “You can always see the head!  It’s always out, uncovered.  When the GIs come here, from the base at Rhine/Mein, everyone wants to see their penis!  The problem is, they always come in groups.  3 or 4 together most times.  They are too ashamed to let a man touch them, in front of friends, I think.”

    I remember thinking at that moment that I’d already been a wise kid over the past couple of years.  Whenever I went into a situation where I might have the opportunity to exercise my true full nature, I went alone!  Not with my homophobic friends from school! I’d never had a problem with any man touching me.  I probably should have said those words to Werner right then.  But he was beginning to pump my penis with his thumb and forefinger, pulling me into a pleasure trance.  I moaned unintentionally loudly, and Karin giggled! 

    “You’re going to make him cum, Schatzey,” she purred.

    I shook it off and came out of my cloud.  I looked closely at Werner’s very large and dark colored organ.  He was fully erect, but I saw that his foreskin still half-covered the dark henna colored head of his penis, like a turtleneck.  I reached for it enthusiastically and began pumping the abundant elastic sheath of skin, up and down over the head.  It felt so soft and stretchy, like it must feel good on your cock! I pondered how it must be easier to pleasure a penis that hasn’t been circumcised.

    As Werner and I pumped each other’s tools, I directed my free hand to Karin’s mound, dipping my fingers underneath and feeling around for wet flesh. I found it! At the very bottom of her waxed-smooth under-carriage was a small spot of slippering wet fluid.  I wet my finger and dipped it in.  Then two.  The fleshy folds around her hole parted while my fingers slipped into her soft lubricated tunnel!  I suddenly felt so relieved and secure.  This was my first time with people so much older than me.  I thought I’d be lost somehow and not know what to do.  But as much as everyone’s private parts are as unique as fingerprints, they are also all very much the same.  Even the complicated vagina, with lips, hood, clit, hole, it’s all the same.  They come in thousands of different shapes and colors, but the parts are all generally in the same places, regardless of age, race, nationality, or local grooming habits.  I guess the only freak at this party was me!  With a penis that was dancing topless.

    Our standing circle of threeway mutual masturbation was in itself a deliciously erotic experience, unlike anything I’d ever fantasized.  Ironically it felt so intimate in this technically public place.   A feeling amplified when Karin leaned over and kissed me, deep soft playful tongue kissing!  Instantly however, that feeling of intimacy was plundered when a man entered one of the connecting booths. 

    He stuck his head well inside our booth.  He was younger, 30 something Middle Eastern looking man.  He was darkly complected, and very handsome.  “Allo?!”  he said cheerfully, seemingly familiar with Werner and Karin.

    “Gutentag!” said Werner back, smiling. 

    The man said something back which I also missed.  Then Werner whispered to me, “He asked when was someone going to suck his scwantz?  I told him we were busy teaching our student about adult things.”

    Seemingly as a rebuff to the Middle Eastern man, Werner grabbed a chair and sat right in front of me and gobbled all of my cock into his mouth and throat moaning “Mmmmm! Mmmm!” I gasped but Karin quickly covered my mouth with hers, pushing my free hand onto her closest breast.  My fingers explored her vagina like an automatic unconscious response.  She closed her hand over mine making me really squeeze her soft breast.  She wanted me to be more firm.  More aggressive.  I squeezed down on her tit and pinched her hardening nipple.  She whimpered into my mouth loud enough for Werner to hear, and he responded with another “Mmmmmm!”

    The Arab man spoke again very quickly and Karin turned toward him and said, “OK!  OK!”  Then she said something quickly and quietly as she stepped over the man’s disembodied looking head coming through the wall.  She grabbed two fistfuls of his thick black hair and pushed her pussy right into his face!  He growled and moaned as he licked Karin’s pussy loud and sloppy, like a dog licking an ice cream cone.

    Karen whined, “Lecken meine Scheide!” [lick my vagina].  “Lecken meine mushy!” [lick my pussy!].  “Macht meine mushy nass!” [make my pussy wet].

    Werner obviously liked to see his wife getting her pussy licked.  He strained his eyes and craned his head as far as he could to see the contact, without losing my cock from his mouth.  So, I whispered, “You watch.” And offered my hands to help him to his feet.  I pushed him back against the wall, right next to their Arabian friend in the hole, and I seated myself in front of his big dark fully sheathed cock.

    That was my first uncircumcised penis that ever entered my mouth! [And it’s true, you never forget your first time!]  There was something so much more three dimensional and complex with all that elastic skin.  There was so much more you could do!  I fell instantly in love with sucking uncut cocks because I could still suck and suckle and bob and squeeze and hmmm…all my fancy learned tricks up to that moment; but I could also use my hands, to slippery-fuck him with his own skin!  At the same time!  There were so many ways to create more lubricated friction up and down the shaft and head of an uncut man’s cock, it was like a whole new human sex organ had been introduced to me.

    I glanced to my right and made eye contact with the slobbering Arab.  He winked at me.  I looked up and saw Werner looking down at Karin’s pussy, and so was Karin.  Then she abruptly pulled away from our Arab friend and grabbed a chair and placing it backwards a few feet from the hole.  She bent over shoving her ass through the hole into our neighbor’s booth and placed the palms of her hands down firmly on the seat of the chair. 

    Karin yelped when the Arab shoved his cock inside her pussy.  I only knew for sure he was fucking her pussy, from her encouraging dirty talk:  “
    Fick meine mushy! Ya! Fick mich!” [Fuck my pussy, yeah, fuck me.]

    Werner tapped Karin’s thigh, gesturing for her to move forward.  He wanted to see the Arab’s cock entering her cunt, and so did I!  She understood and crept forward several inches.  The Arabic man’s cock was dark as a black man’s.  Or close anyway.  And it was beautiful, long and elegantly tapered, robust but not painfully thick.

    I could smell Karin’s pussy now.  I hadn’t snuck a sniff or a lick or my fingers yet, as I always do with younger girls.  I didn’t want to appear crass to the really cool and classy mature adults.  But the scent of a new vagina is always a very specific kind of thrill.  I had expected her to smell stronger and more pungent, based on nothing.  I just figured older meant riper.  But her scent was mild and feminine, a subtle smell, slightly sour.

    Those vagina thoughts were quick and fleeting, however.  I was so enamored with sucking my first uncut cock, that in hindsight I think I probably did a terrible job of it.  I was so much fun doing things that I only imagined would feel good.  I was doing some things only because I could, maybe selfishly.  Like pull all the foreskin as far down Werner’s shaft as I could, with a bundle of skin at his base that looked like a deformed scrotum.  The head and the top 5” of his cock were strained tight with stretched skin, and I sucked him like a circumcised man.  Then I would slowly release the foreskin with my fingers, suckling up the loose skin up the shaft and into my mouth, inch by inch.  The wet slippery skin would turn back inside out, and I had fucked the shaft while I jerked off the top of this cock with my mouth.

    He obviously liked what I was doing, but maybe he was being polite?  I know I wasn’t focused on just making him cum.  I wasn’t one of my girlfriends who just wanted to get it over with ASAP!  And I hadn’t been glory hole trained yet, learning how to make men cum fast, so they can get back to work on their lunch hour.  I wasn’t trying to find his orgasm rhythm, so I could pull him into it to make him come fast, almost against his will.  Trust me if you don’t remember being a teenager: If it’s you getting the blowjob, you want to cum fast!  If it’s you giving the blowjob, you want it to go on and on forever!

    The Arab said something to Werner from inside the other booth, but again I couldn’t translate it.  Then Karen said something I also missed.  Then Werner said, “Karin’s going to suck your dick, and I’m going to suck Mahare’s dick!”

    But I wanted to suck Mahare’s dick!  Especially because it was covered in a glaze of Karin’s pussy!  “Can I suck his dick?” I blurted.  “Please?  Just for a minute?”

    “Oh, you are an American!” said Mahare, in a very clear English and British accent.

    Werner looked confused but even more disappointed.  I had to explain why:  “Werner, his cock is very beautiful, but it’s also covered with Karin’s mushy.  I want to taste that, so much!!”  It would be more than 20 years until I would realize with my second wife, that I loved sucking men’s cock who had just fucked my wife.  A cock covered in pussy was apparently going to be my “thing” one day!

    Karin hooted and laughed, saying, “Liebschen, you can taste me all you want!  Anytime!”

    Werner was on board, saying, “I’d like to watch you finish Mahare!  Then you can like my wife’s mushy.  OK?”

    I obeyed, turning Karin’s chair around and sitting right up close to the hole.  I took Mahare’s cock in both hands, now slightly shy of fully erect.  But it still had a slippery wet fragrant sheen of Karin’s marriage juices on it!  I smelled it like a flower.  I tasted it.  I licked it.  Then I plunged my mouth on it, forward and down on the long four pole.  Mahare sighed, and I moaned a maniacal “Mmmmmmm!” just for Karin’s sake.  She giggled next to me.

    I glanced left to see Karin and Werner begin fucking face-to-face standing embrace.  Karin put a chair against the wall to her right, and put her right foot up on the seat, spreading her legs open extra wide.  I could see Werner’s cock fucking her deep, while they both seemed to watch me felate Mahare.

    I kept moaning my pleasure over the taste of Karin’s pussy on him, but I was also smitten with the erotic beauty of his organ.  “Ethnic” looking penises were brand new to me, a boy from the white exurbs of Chicago.  Mahare obviously trimmed his sea of thick black public hair, so that very little came up around the base of his shaft.  I was free to move my lips as far down his shaft as my limited skills and capacity allowed at that age.

    Unfortunately, I did gag once really badly, which horrified me with embarrassment!  I’ll never forget how young and stupid I felt at that moment.  But I recognized that my gagging was at least partially responsible for making Werner moan loudly, and it made Mahare growl and begin pumping his cock into my mouth and throat.  I was vaguely becoming aware of how my youth was a turn-on to the adults that day, but I hadn’t a clue of how much of a turn-on it was.  You can’t begin to understand the value of that currency until you are old.

    Now Mahare was forcing his orgasm rhythm on me!  Suddenly I realized that I was only half sucking his cock, while he was half fucking my face!  I did my best just to keep up and take his in-strokes into my gullet, and then clamp down with some friction and suction as he pulled out.  Mahare began moaning loud enough to be heard outside the booth, and muttering in what I assumed was his native language.  Karin purred, “You’re making him cum Liebschen!  He’s going to cum right in you!  Be ready!”  Werner pumped Karin harder and harder, smacking their bellies.

    Mahare stammered, “Oh!  Oh!  Ummm!”  and began squiring strings of semen into my throat.  There was incredible velocity behind his ejaculation.  I could feel the impact of each squirt hitting me in the throat and tonsils!  This man was cumming hard!  I thanked him with moans and purrs.

    I had wanted so much to show off to him, and to Karin and Werner, and take him in my ass.  I was still entertaining the idea even while he was cumming his balls dry.  I kept suckling his whole shaft, moving slowly from base to tip to drag out every pearl.  I also kept my hands planted firmly on his shaft refusing to release him.  I wanted to keep him or make him hard again, so he could fuck me in front of Karin and Werner.  But alas it was not to be.  He pulled his cock away and bent over sticking his head in the hole.  With a big smile he gave his “thank-you’s” and “good-bye’s” to the three of us. 

    I blurted out, “Please stay!  You can fuck me.”  I could hear how childish and desperate my adolescent voice sounded, reverberating in that tiny room, and once again I was utterly ashamed.

    Karin instinctively tried to comfort me, saying, “Awe, Liebschen, you’re so sweet!” while she petted my bushy mop of hair.  “Mahare is a once time and all done man!”  She was close to the English euphemism.  “He told me once that he masturbates before coming here, so he lasts longer.  But once he comes, he runs away!  Lost of men do that.”

    Werner had unplugged himself from Karin and proceeded to arrange a chair angled sideways in front of the hole, almost in the middle of the room.  She sat down on the chair slouching down and forward, and spread her legs open wide!  She wanted us to put on a show between the holes.  She made the “Come here” gesture with her curling index finger.  I obediently complied.

    I ravenously began licking and sucking Karin’s beautiful mature shaved vagina.  Once again, I wanted to show off for the grown-ups so I tried probably too hard.  But my enthusiasm was appreciated, and Karin started making some high-pitched whimpers that made Werner growl!”  He loved watching his wife be pleasured by another person.  He stood very close just watching and slow-jacking his big thick cock.

    Soon there were watchers at both holes:  a middle-aged darkly complected man on one side, and an older gay couple at the other.  Werner obviously knew the couple, he sidestepped over to them to play a little give-and-take.  The man alone watched us, staring wildly, at Karin’s cunt and my face, while he was clearly jacking himself below the hole.  He probably needed a chair badly!

    Watching his intense expression watching her pussy was pushing Karin over the top.  She came hard, making enough noise to be heard all the way to the cash register at the front of the store.  It certainly alerted all the bisexuals that there was at least one woman in the house.  But our single watcher wasn’t done.

    Karin stood up and moved her chair over to the hole with the single watcher.  She placed the back of her chair up against the hole, the backrest slightly higher than the bottom of the hole.  She said something to the watcher too fast for me to understand but our watcher responded by standing upright and presenting his dark fleshy cock through the opening.  She bent over placing her hands on the seat of the chair, and then looking back over her shoulder at me: “Fuck me Liebschen?  Please?”

    That sight, like several others that day, is a vivid picture burned into the engrams of my long-term memory!  Karin bent over, looking over her shoulder at me.  Then turning her head to take a strangers fat cock into her mouth.  That teenage me was totally fixated on the clear picture of her soft looking peach and pink shaved vagina, like a fleshy taco hanging upside down between her legs.

    Finally, I shook off the hypnotized spell and stepped forward, plunging my rock-hard young boner right up inside her without any fanfare.  She made a muffled “Ummmpff!” with her mouth full and busy.  I started pumping her slowly.  The visual stimulation was intense.  Watching this beautiful mature woman, older than my mother, sucking a big uncut cock like a career whore!  And then periodically looking over my shoulder at Werner.  First, he sucked their two pale white penises side-by-side naked at the hole behind me.  One was bordering on big, the other was a smaller medium-sized cock, with a freakishly big mushroom shaped head.  I was distracted with thinking how much fun that head would be to blow.  And then of course looking down at my own dick fucking a hole!  That’s always a primary turn on.  All boys like to see their own cocks sawing in and out of something, or something pumping up and down on them!

    When I heard the chair on Werner’s side scrape the floor behind me, I looked over my shoulder in time to see the entire event, Werner bending over his chair and taking the huge mushroom head cock in his ass.  He made some seriously erotic sounds of discomfort, like that first stinging stretch was a pain he adored.  I’d been told that was true for many gay men, but I was young and still didn’t like the pain.  Ideally, I like to have time and lube and fingers stretching me, relaxing me before taking a full-sized adult cock through the gate of my sphincter.  Werner yelped and whined in pain…and then moaned in pleasure.  In 50 years of fucking only one rule remains constant:  everyone is different.

    I came silently inside Karin, listening to Werner expressing his love of a rough ass-fucking, and watching my own penis thrusting in and out of Karin, glistening with her own lubricant.  She wouldn’t have even known except my pumping slowed.  My gasps were drowned out by Werner’s howling like a dog being beaten.  He was about to cum too.

    We spent another hour or more after that, sucking and fucking strangers at both holes.  Werner would give Karin and I directions, and we would get into whatever positions or combinations he ordered.  All three of us sucked and fucked what became an endless line of strangers.  As soon as one came, he left and was instantly replaced by another stripping off his clothes like it was a relay race.  The word must have gotten out that a bi-threesome was taking all comers in cube #8!

    Karin sucked a lot of cocks, while l fucked her.  She also took a lot of cocks in her pussy and ass while I sucked my share too.  Werner kept busy on his own, sucking men’s dicks as a prelude to taking them into his butt. 

    I was confused by how much he loved being fucked in a bent-over position.  I’d learned a profound amount of sex knowledge at a very young age, which included a lot of gay sex.  I was taught and trained in the methods of stimulating the prostate, and I’d long since learned that the only position to make contact with the prostate during anal sex, was with the receiver laying on his back.

    There isn’t any practical way to accomplish this without a bed or table or a high bench.  There wasn’t any equipment or furniture in Dr. Mueller’s arcade to accommodate that pursuit.  So, was Werner’s crazed need and pleasure from being ass-fucked solely psychological?  Was it an extreme turn-on from the act of giving yourself completely to another man?  I understand that urge, even if only as a teenager who wanted to show off.  But I couldn’t help but think that Werner had some deeper issues, beneath the need to be filled with cocks!

    At one point Karin placed a chair to the left side of the big hole, facing the hole with her bald pussy pushing right into our neighbor’s booth.  With one foot up on the chair spreading her legs open wide, she could take the newest stranger’s cock inside her face-to-face, or at least belly-to-belly.  Then she begged me, “Put it in my ass!”  That was lots of fun!  We did that a few more times, maybe because she could tell how much I liked it.

    We also put on several threesome shows, for the entertainment of visitors on both sides of our cube.  We sucked and fucked each other in every position humanly possible, while horny spectators masturbated furiously, sometimes spraying their semen through the holes, collecting in puddles right beneath them.  Several came, left, and were instantly replaced by more.  There had to be a line outside our neighboring booths, but I never got to see it.

    Then Werner ordered Karin to sit in the chair in the middle of the room, and told me to eat her pussy…but he directed me to stay on my knees while I licked her.  Werner wasted no time and began licking my anus like a romantic lover.  He held my ass cheeks wide open and gobbled like a slob all over my butthole, like it was the most delicious and fragrant scene he’d ever encountered.  Years later I would realized that was for show!

    He licked me and tongue punched my tiny hole and then began fingering my ass.  I could feel clearly when he squeezed a second finger inside me, and then began fingerfucking my rectum.  He knew where the prostate was located, and he made me squeal like a girl when he started rubbing across it.  I could hear our two watchers groaning and slapping their dicks harder and harder. 

    Now the moment of truth: Werner rose up on his knees behind me.  I wondered why he’d waited so long?  I assumed that he figured the same as me, that he’d never fit inside me.  He was certainly bigger than anything that had entered me so far.  But he was a grown-up!  He surely knew what he was doing. 

    I heard him sloppily coating the head of his cock with mouthfuls of saliva, and the sound of the watchers jacking off got louder!  I felt him push the head of his cock against my anus.  He pushed harder and harder, pushing my whole body forward into Karin’s pelvis.  But the head of his cock was so fat and swollen, it may as well have been pushing flat against a wall.  I knew that if I had an hour and a butt plug and lube, I could probably break a new personal best and squeeze that thing inside me.  But without all that his monster wasn’t going anywhere. 

    He tried and tried and muttered some frustrated words in German, making the watchers jack themselves harder still.  I blubbered “I’m sorry!” Werner retreated.  He straightened up and began slowly fingerfucking my rectum with 2 fingers, again, making sure our audience could see the penetration.  Then he increased the pace until he was violently finger-fucking my ass, rough like he liked his own ass fucked!  I could hear him jacking off his own cock furiously while he finger-raped me and gave my little prostate a serious beating.  The sensation was going to make me cum whether I wanted to or not!  I squealed as I reached down to jerk my own hard dick which would have cum on its own anyway.  As I came, I heard Werner grunting like a bull, and I felt the sprinkle of his ejaculation squirting all over my back and ass.  Our audience howled!

    When I left Dr. Mueller’s that afternoon, Karin and Werner and I had hugged and kissed and promised we could not only do this again, but I was also invited to come over to their condo downtown where we could have intimate fun!  Werner gave me a business card, he was an attorney of all things, and he pointed out his home number on the card.  He told me to call them and we’d schedule our next rendezvous.

    Two days later that card went through the washing machine and became a thumbnail of pulp!  I was lost!  How could I re-find them?  It took me a month to reschedule another Saturday alone in the city, without inviting the suspicion of my parents, or my unsuspecting girlfriend, or my burgeoning circle of other friends.  When I arrived at Dr. Mueller’s the second time, a different attendant was at the register.  I offered my 3-marks and I was once again welcomed inside without incident.  But within seconds, I saw the orange tape and signs covering the entrance to the arcade: “Achtung!” followed by lots of words I didn’t know.  The arcade was obviously closed.  Could this be my fault?  Did someone find out they let a kid in, and they got in trouble?

    I took weeks of amateur detective work to find out what happened, but apparently the police discovered certain clerks were allowing prostitutes to work the arcade.  Now if you don’t have any experience with German people, it may be tricky to understand their thinking in a situation like this.  Prostitution is legal, but highly regulated and controlled.  Cheating the system like that is universally disdained.  However, a free-thinking nearly adult teenage boy, making the choice to engage in consensual sex with adults?  That’s fine!  I found most of Europe to be much more “free” than the US.

    Sadly, I never went back to Dr. Mueller’s, even though I’m sure their arcade eventually re-opened.  My life became too busy, and my free time went to one girlfriend, even though that Saturday turned out to be one of the wildest times of my life!  But when you’re in hormone-fueled adolescent puppy love, nothing else matters.

    Most of the “gloryhole arcade” market and culture in the US is nothing like Germany’s in 1976.  It would be years until I discovered “sex clubs” in the States, which is really what Dr. Mueller’s arcade was.  I would liken it to The Bijou or Melrose theatres in Chicago, or the San Mateo Theatre in the San Francisco Bay area.  The bottom line is that Dr. Mueller’s was a public place where people went to “wander about in search of a sexual partner.”


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  • Nude Male Stripper Derek Tyson Performs Kinky Show

    This was my first year to celebrate PRIDE month. I am a good looking and athletic guy who just turned 19 last year. Although I have been in the closet and gay for a few years, I decided to go with a few friends who asked me to join them at our local parade in. Coming from a conservative background, I was not quite sure what to expect but everyone I encountered was very friendly, accepting and non-judgmental. Following the parade, there was a cookout at a friend’s house of one of the people who invited me to the parade. We all went and hung out for a few hours, ate, played some games, etc.

    Upon leaving the cookout, one of the hosts asked if we were going to attend the party later that night. I was not aware of any party, but one of the friends I was with kind of whispered in my ear, saying it would be pretty wild, and sort of a sex themed party, with at least one male stripper there, along with some other entertainers. Of course I was definitely hesitant, but nearly everyone was kind of excited and urged me to at least go for a little bit, so I said I would think about it.

    We all went back to this friend’s apartment, and as evening was approaching, they started to get ready to go to this party. I was still not sure, but everyone was getting excited and trying to talk me into going. I had to go back home (only a few minutes away) and get ready, if I decided that I would go. They continued to urge me, and said that we would meet back at this friend’s apartment in an hour if I wanted to go. They kept reminding me that it would be wild but fun and that I needed to get out of my shell. There would also be a male stripper there as well as some other entertainers, and that it would be good for me to get out of my comfort zone and experience some wild and crazy fun. I asked them what I should wear, and they just said whatever. There would be a pool, so if I wanted to bring a swimsuit, otherwise, just something comfortable.

    As I was driving home, I figured that I had nothing to lose, so decided to get ready and meet them back there, so we could all leave together. I put on some athletic shorts and a t-shirt, and drove back over. I arrived and they all were glad I was joining them for the night. We left and drove about 40 minutes outside the city to this literal mini-mansion.

    We pulled in and there was this huge house, with a pool and recreation area in the back. My friend parked, and we got out, heading towards the crowd of at least 100 people. As we walked up, we were reminded no phones or cameras were allowed. I noticed that nearly everyone there was a guy, so figured this must be a gay party, but then saw a few others who were trans. I figured no big deal, and just hung with my friends who began to mingle with a few other mutual friends. A few minutes later, a fully nude guy stepped out onto the patio with a tray of drinks. I was a bit taken back, but everyone didn’t make any big deal of it, and I remembered my friends saying it could get kind of wild. So, I just went with it, noticing the guy was pretty hot! I did watch tho, as he continued to walk around with no shame, allowing people to touch him as he served drinks. I knew I was only 19, but felt the need for a drink at this point!

    I could tell that there were a few other people my age there, and it didn’t appear that underage drinking was going to be any issue. So when the nude host came around, I took a cocktail from the tray. He was definitely muscular, and hot, with a nice ass, and long, thick, flaccid dick! I continued to watch him out of corner of my eye, as I struck up a conversation with an acquaintance. A lot of the guests were definitely eyeing the server as he walked around.

    A few minutes later, a second fully nude guy stepped out, except this one was sporting a huge hard cock! Everyone definitely stopped what they were doing, as he walked on the pool deck, some even reaching out to jerk his boner as he walked by. His cock was enormous! I would guess it to have been at least 9 inches or longer and very thick! He had a set of rings in his hands, and shouted at the crowd that there was going to be a ring toss game and whoever won the ring toss would get a ‘prize.’

    He was captivating and several followed him to the pool where he laid down on a raft in the water, with his boner straight up. Guests began to throw the rings from the side of the pool, in an attempt to get one over his huge cock. He smiled and played along. Several guests participated and after several tries, an older guy was the first to be successful. By now, a large crowd, including me and my friends were watching. I kept staring at his cock, as well as his beautiful tanned and muscular body. His abs were super cut, and one of the first things I noticed were his nipples. I am a nipple freak, and his tits were so small, and hard, literally perfect with nipple rings. I also loved his blond hair and blue eyes, and although he was smooth shaven, his trimmed underarm and small patch of pubes were light blond too. The dude was amazing and I later found out that they had brought this stripper in from several hundred miles away, and that his name was Derek Tyson [pictured above], a supposedly pretty famous male stripper who specialized in wild performances at private parties.

    The ring toss lasted until someone got three rings around his cock. It was a lot of fun to watch! Everyone clapped and cheered when the winner was crowned and then Derek got out of the water and onto the deck. I had actually forgotten about the prize, but Derek went up to the winner and briefly talked to him before he began to suck Derek’s huge cock! Everyone was shouting, “suck him, suck him”, but the guy struggled to get the stripper’s cock into his mouth, since his cock was so big! So the winner just stroked him and got as much of it in as he could. I was definitely out of my element at this point but actually enjoying it!

    Derek continued to walk around and mingle with the crowd. He had put on a pair of boots, but wearing nothing else than a smile, he went around and let anyone and everyone stroke his hard cock and even put it in their mouths, as they deposited their tips into one of his boots. I secretly wanted to at least touch that thing, and also play with his hard nipples, along with petting his abs and chest, but I didn’t have any money! The group of friends I was with had brought some cash, so one of them decided to try Derek out! As Derek strutted by, one of the guys in my group bent down to put some money in his boot and then touch his cock before putting it in his mouth. My buddy nearly gagged!! Derek’s cock and even his ball sack were just huge. I definitely could feel myself getting aroused at that point. Without even thinking, I reached up to his chest and tweaked his left nipple which was poking out really far, and it was rock hard. Derek looked at me and smiled. I knew at that point I wanted to go further and do more!

    I kept my eyes on Derek for the next 20-30 minutes as he walked around and interacted with a lot of the guests. I was in awe that his cock never went soft, and he just went around the party as a normal guest. But this was not normal! A buddy I was with and who knew I was new to all of this, asked me if I was going to blow him. It was obvious I had been watching Derek, but I told him I didn’t have any cash with me. He laughed and a few minutes later, the group of guys I was with offered to buy me a small session. I was freaking out and embarrassed and said no way. But they kept on insisting. When will you ever again get a chance to suck a famous male stripper with a cock that big.

    They ended up calling Derek over and I was mortified! He walked to us within a few seconds, and one of my friends slid a $50 bill into Derek’s boot. They told Derek, this is our bro’s first time. Derek smiled and reminded me that I had previously pinched his nipple and that he actually enjoyed that. I kind of grinned as he guided my hands to his chest so I could play with both his tits. They were so perky and hard and I could feel my own dick getting hard. Derek guided my hands down his firm muscular chest and shredded 8 pack of abs until I got to his cock. I stooped down and my friends started making a scene and shouting. Gently, Derek lowered his cock to my face, as it was pointing almost straight up. His massive sausage was in my face with a small nest of light blond pubes. His huge ball sack was smooth, and I felt myself getting rock hard when I saw all of the precum leaking from his gaping pecker hole and down his shaft. Derek slapped the top of my head and my face with his juicy cock. Then he slowly slid his huge boner into my mouth. He was enormous and I could barely get more than his cockhead into my mouth. My body shivered, as I began to try and take Derek’s huge tool further down. I could taste his precum as he thrust his body slowly, allowing my throat to gradually take his cock deeper and deeper. I was embarrassed, as I only got a few inches of him in before beginning to cough and gag. He pulled out, just smiled and gave me a second chance. He then grabbed my head, as I grabbed his huge smooth balls and squeezed them softly before reaching back to his hard glutes and ass. He continued to pump me, but I couldn’t get more than maybe 4 inches deep. Not only was he long but extremely thick!

    Derek gave me a kiss on the cheek as he walked away, onto the next guest. My friends assured me I had done great, and asked if I enjoyed it. Dumb question…I will never forget it!

    A few minutes later, it was time for the next game. It was announced that Derek would be sounding himself for the enjoyment of the crowd. I didn’t know what sounding was, so asked one of my friends, and he told me to just watch. I had no idea, and to be honest, was not prepared for what was about to happen next. Several of the guests got into the pool and the rest of the crowd got around the perimeter of the pool. Derek climbed atop the diving board, and unashamedly began to stroke his already rock hard dick in front of everyone. Someone brought out a plate of items. The next thing I saw was Derek take a rod and begin to slide it down his penis! Yes, inside his dick hole! What the fuck! The crowd was cheering and applauding as Derek took these metal rods and moved them in and out of his cock hole. I learned that night about cock sounding! Then he took some lollipops! He inserted one and asked who wanted to be first. Several volunteered, and Derek began to take offers and bids while moving to the edge of the diving board. $140 later, some older dude was the first and went over to where Derek had moved. Derek allowed the dude to suck his cock and then pull the lollipop out with his teeth. The guests cheered and others began to follow! I am not sure how many suckers Derek put down his cock, but there were several. I was in total shock by this point! You could tell Derek was horny as fuck and enjoying it! However, he wasn’t finished. Derek grabbed another item, and this time it was a medical thermometer. Derek announced that the temperature was 96.8 on the thermometer and took guesses from the crowd to see how hot it would get! Derek then slid the thermometer down his cock hole. I gasped as he slid the entire thermometer deep into his cock, I mean the whole thing was inside his cock hole! Slowly the thermometer would peek out and he would push it back and slide it in and out. Finally removing it, he looked at the temp and shouted 105 degrees! Everyone laughed! Then he asked who wanted the first taste. Again, people in the crowd began to bid, and $200 some dollars later, Derek gave the thermometer to some middle aged dude who put it in his mouth and ate Derek’s precum from right off the thermometer. Derek kissed the guy on the forehead, then wiped the thermometer and slid it down into his cock again. Several guests got in on this action, and Derek would re-insert the thermometer and each guest would tip him and eat Derek’s precum after he took it out of his cock. Not gonna lie, I was in awe. Too fucking hot!

    After the thermometer, I thought I had seen it all until the final show. Derek’s cock was rock hard, purple and his balls were tight and swollen by now. I mean he had been hard for at least an hour, not to mention sounding his cock, so I couldn’t imagine, but this next event was beyond crazy. Derek picked up a fireworks sparkler from off the plate and showed the crowd, asking if they were ready for some fireworks! The crowd cheered as Derek slid the sparkler down into his piss hole. My friend group was going nuts as he stuck it several inches down into his massive cock. I was thinking holy shit, is he really gonna light that thing? Within a few seconds, Derek stood on the diving board in front of everyone with his cock rock hard and the sparkler sticking out. His muscular and chiseled body looked like a piece of art, as he asked for a lighter. A nearby guest got one from his pocket. The crowd roared in anticipation, and the dude lit the sparkler!! Derek danced on the diving board for probably 10-15 seconds doing tricks with the sparkler deep inside his cock. The crowd was going nuts, and then Derek had to dive into the pool to put the sparkler out!

    As he came out of the water the crowd screamed in approval. Derek then announced he was going to make his own fireworks show. Fully nude, rock hard and without any shame, Derek proudly walked to the pool deck and grabbed a towel. He laid down on a lounger and began to jerk his cock for the crowd. A group of maybe 6 or 7 guests approached his chair while the rest crowded around to see the big finale. The area had been roped off so there was enough room for everyone to watch. The half a dozen or so guests approached Derek and began to have their way with him. I was hard by this point and it was hot to watch this group (which I had assumed paid a lot of money) interact with every part of his body. Derek’s hands were tied behind his head, as the small group began to molest and caress every part of Derek’s hot muscular body. I secretly wished I was one of those men, as each stroked his cock, fingered his hole, gave him rim jobs, sucked his cock, and exposed every part of his body for the crowd to see. After maybe about 10 minutes, Derek shouted ‘boys, I am about to cum’. The group all moved behind his head, and untied his hands. At the time I couldn’t understand why they all moved behind him, but Derek began to stroke his cock and within a few seconds, Derek aimed his cock and began to shoot huge ropes of cum over his head, aiming at each of the guys in that group that were standing behind him. The crowd cheered, as each huge rope came flying out several feet and splatting on the guys’ faces. Derek kept cumming and cumming, spraying his seed all over! It was volumes more than I had ever seen in any porn film! Finally after at least a dozen or more blasts, his load began to fall on his face, chest and abs. The guys behind him began to rub his cum all over his chest and then eat if off their fingers! It was so hot. One of the guys, stooped down to lick his chest and abs to clean off all the juicy cum that was sprayed all over him. The crowd applauded for a few minutes with approval, and then the guys took Derek off the lounge chair, put the towel around him like a robe, and sat him in a pool chair. Then they carried him off like he was royalty into the house. That was the last we saw of Derek.

    As we drove back home that night, my friends asked what I thought. Of course, I was speechless, and couldn’t even describe what I was thinking. They all asked if I was glad I had went. They also assured me that not all male strip shows were as good as this one was. Of course I had nothing to compare it to, but I will never forget it.

    I got home that night, and had the best wank I ever had. All I could think about was Derek Tyson, and that hot body, huge cock, sounding and the largest cum shot I had ever seen.

  • New Neighbors

    Levi yawned and stretched as he rose from bed. It was the crack of dawn and a busy day was waiting ahead of him. He glanced out of his window and saw the expected site of his new neighbors. The vacant bungalow next door had been empty for a couple years before a pair of sweet ‘renovation gays’ bought it and were now finally moving in judging by the U-Haul in the driveway. Levi hadn’t met them yet but saw at a distance that they seemed to be an extremely affectionate and handsome couple. One was bald with a tall swimmer’s build. The other a little shorter and looked like he could’ve eaten Levi for breakfast. Casting some inappropriate ideas aside, he went about his routine and left for the day.

    Work and a couple college classes had really knocked the stuffing out of him so by the time he got home, he was ready to shed his clothes and jump in the shower. Levi was intercepted first…

    “Before you get settled,” His mother started. “I want you to take this over to the new neighbors.”

    “What is it?” Levi asked getting a tray shoved into his hands. “And why me?”

    “Because you need to not ask questions and my feet hurt.” She said smiling. “It’s a casserole. I talked with them earlier and we were discussing recipes.”

    “Okay. But if I’m never seen again because you had me got meet some strangers…”

    “It’s gonna get cold, Hurry!” She shouted as she started for the upstairs.

    Levi plodded his way outside and across the lawn. Upon reaching the steps, he looked around and rang the bell. When a figure approached the door, Levi realized how much taller the tall one was. He was at least a 6 inches higher than his own respectable 5’11. The door opened.

    “Hey there. My mom wanted me to bring this over for you.”

    After a brief pause, the tall man beamed and said, “That’s right! You must be Levi. She said she was gonna send something over. My name is Nathan, let me take that for you.”

    “You’ve done a beautiful job on the house.” Levi said. Small talk was never a strong-suit.

    “Thank you! Come on in and meet Jake.” He said. “I’m just gonna put this in the kitchen.”

    Levi entered a quaint living room with a couple of arm chairs and a big sofa. There were a few lamps dimly lighting the corners of the room giving it a cozy feeling. Standing from the sofa was Jake, he was larger than life and met Levi to grab his hand.

    “It’s nice to meet you. I’m Jake.” He said. “Come take a seat.”

    “Thank you but I can’t stay long.”

    “We had a fun conversation with Helen this morning and she was determined to send us some food over.” Nathan said coming back. “It’s nice to get to know the neighbors though and see what a welcoming place it is.”

    “That definitely sounds like mom.” Levi said with an awkward chuckle. “But, I shouldn’t impose. Let us know if you need anything and we’d be happy to help.”

    “Thanks.” Jake said, “The same goes for you.”

    Jake stood again and walked Levi off the porch, thanking him again and wishing him a goodnight. Walking back in, he plopped down next to his husband.

    “He seemed nice.” Nathan said. “Maybe shy though.”

    “How shy can you be at his age?” Jake said reclining back. “His mom said 22? or 23?”

    “It was 22. Nice kid.”

    “Nice ass too.” Jake said winking.

    “You perv.” Nathan hit him with a pillow and tried his best to wrestle but was overpowered. 

    “I bet I can tame him.” Jake said, no on top of Nathan. “But for now, I’ll have to do with you.” They both laughed as Jake dragged and carried Nathan off to the bedroom.

    A few days had passed since their meeting and Levi had gone for a swim. A chest high fence separated his parent’s place and the new neighbors which made it extra convenient for Jake to watch. The yellow square leg trunks were a favorite of Levi’s as they hugged his bubble butt just right. They seemed to highlight his very form as he moved through the water only calling more attention from Jake. He sauntered over to the fence.

    “Do you swim often?” He said as Levi was climbing the ladder.

    “I’m half fish.” Levi retorted as he steadied himself on the poor deck. “If you have a swimsuit handy, you’re more than welcome to join.”

    “I’ll be right over.” Jake said with a smile and walked back into the house.

    Levi didn’t really know what came over him. At least his parents weren’t home to find him swimming with a total stranger. Worse he then thought, what would this man’s husband think of him? Before he had a chance to think more, Jake came out in a navy blue speedo and hopped over the fence like it was nothing.

    “It’s nice on a hot day.” Or something to that affect Levi uttered. He tried not to but he could stop stealing glances as the package that was dangerously restrained in the pouch of the swimwear. Levi of course knew he was gay, his parents knew, he wasn’t a virgin either, but something about Jake and Nathan too for that matter gave him a ticklish feeling in the pit of his stomach like he had when he first started dating in highschool.

    “Do you dive?” Jake said, snapping Levi out of it.

    “Some.” He said. “I’m terrible at it.”

    Jake jumped in and lounged against the wall of the pool. “Give it a shot and I’ll rate you.”

    Levi was unsure but eager to impress for some reason so he slowly took his place on the diving board. With a few steps and a jump, it was done. He came to the surface and shook the water from his face.

    “7.5” Jake said smiling. “I’ll go and you follow my lead.”

    Jake heaved himself up the ladder, water pouring down his wide back. He turned around and stretched out his hand. Levi swam over and took hold as he began to climb. Jake saved him the effort however and yanked him out of the pool, grabbing to steady him on the deck.

    “Watch this.” Jake went over and made a magnificent dive with a clean entry into the water.

    “10 out of 10!” Levi said.

    “I’m glad I’ve still got it. Used to dive in highschool before I took on wrestling in college.” Jake said pulling himself up to sit on the pool ledge. “Are you gonna give it another go?”

    “Sure.” Levi was nervous but made it up to the board once more. He did his thing and made a better entrance so he thought till he surfaced and realized he’d lost something.

    “12 out of 10.” Jake said stifling a laugh. He had picked up the yellow trunks as the wake moved them over towards him.

    Levi was horribly embarrassed and had turned a few different shades of red. He was speechless as he tried to both tread water and cover himself.

    Then, it got worse. Nathan came to the backyard looking for his husband having just gotten home.

    “Oh hey guys, what are you up to?”

    “Nothing much.” Jake said slinging the sopping wet trunks over to Nathan.

    “What the fuck?” He said in confusion at getting plastered in the face with them. He looked at the reddened Levi now hugging the edge of the pool. “Jake, what did you do?”

    “I didn’t do anything. It was a diving accident.” He said with a little laugh. “They didn’t want to hold on I guess.”

    Nathan slipped over the fence and handed the trunks back to Levi who was relieved to see them. “Tie ’em tighter or you might have Jake chasing some tail next time.”

    “I… I’m sorry.” Levi began to stutter an apology.

    “Don’t worry about it.” Nathan said. “Mind if I join you two?”

    Levi had recovered and just slipped the trunks up. “By all means.” He didn’t know if Jake had seen but what was so embarrassing was his semi hard cock. Jake posing on the side of the pool, flexing every time Levi looked at him wasn’t helping but should have been obvious that was his intention all along. 

    Nathan came back in a pair of short trunks like Levi’s but in red and dove in from the side of the pool. The three swam and made small talk for a short while before Jake asked, “Are your parent’s home?”

    “Not until late tonight.” Levi said.

    “You’d be welcome to come over for some dinner.” Jake said. Nathan swam over.

    “I’ll make something light and simple but you’d be more than welcome.” He said, clinging onto Jake’s meaty shoulders.

    “I’d love to too.” Levi said. He was thinking it over in his mind and was trying not to spiral out of control. It was just dinner.

    Nathan and Jake got out of the pool. They hoisted Levi up as had been done before but this time Jake felt like teasing.

    “Boy you aren’t very heavy.” He said wrapping his thick arms around Levi’s frame. Levi was lifted off his feet and held against the man’s chest, his heart beat audible.

    “Be nice.” Nathan said in a fake scolding tone.

    “Oh I will.” Jake said. “You tell me when you’ve had enough.” He grabbed Levi’s sides and lifted him high into the air and held him over the pool. Levi’s legs dangled as hands gripped tightly at the huge forearms before him. They were incredibly muscular like the rest of his body with a layer of fat padding everything else.

    “You must have destroyed in wrestling.” Levi gasped out as he struggled.

    “Still do if you’re up for a match.”

    “Please.” Nathan said. “I could beat you. Plus you’d crush him!”

    Jake laughed and finished Levi off. “Hold your breath.” He said before tossing him back into the pool like a toy. As Levi surfaced, he saw Nathan waving him on.

    “Get out and come on over.”

    Levi hurried to shower than change before he slipped over to the neighbors. The cold air was freezing against his still damp skin. Jake waved him over to join him on the couch.

    “Won’t be long.” He said. “Roast chicken breast and salad I think.”

    “Sounds good.” Levi said, sinking into the overstuffed couch.

    “For the record,” Jake started. “I meant what I said earlier. I’m always up for a wrestling match if you are. I’d go easy on you.”

    “I’d need you to.” Levi said, feeling a little self conscious. “I couldn’t get close to beating you.”

    “Neither can Nate. He likes to act like he can but I always win.” Jake said scooting closer. “I’d be fun to teach someone though. If you ever want to work out together, let me know. There’s a small gym in the basement.”

    “Oh, god.” Nathan said as he entered the room. “Don’t make him into a meathead.”

    “And what’s wrong with meat?” Jake said. “Or head too for that matter.” He added turning to Levi.

    “Come eat.” Nathan said, rolling his eyes a little but smiling all the same.

    Dinner went quick and all three sat on the couch with some wine and started talking again, this time about more intimate subjects though.

    “You’re mother told us you had a breakup and that’s why you moved back in?” Nathan said.

    Levi blushed. “Boy she really doesn’t spare the detail.”

    “That’s what mom’s are for.” Jake said, refilling his glass.

    “I rent the mother in-law suite from them at a fraction of the apartment prices.” Levi said.

    “They’re crazy around here!” Jake said. “We looked at several places before finding this house.”

    “You’ve got a good deal there.” Nathan said. “You’re always welcome to come over here though.”

    “If I get fed like that again, I’ll have to come back.”

    Nathan smiled and sipped his wine. Levi wasn’t much of a drinker but some good wine from some equally good men couldn’t be refused.

    “You don’t have anyone special now do you?” Jake asked, leaning in.

    “No. I’m just waiting to see what comes my way I guess.”

    Jake smiled and looked over at Nathan. Levi was nervous as hell sitting between these two imposing men. Nathan took another sip of his wine and put his arm across the back of the sofa, behind Levi. Jake set his glass down and walked out of the room.

    “If you want to…” Nathan started to say. “You’ll be very welcome over here for more than just dinner.”

    “I… I’m flattered.” Levi said. “And nervous.”

    “It’s okay. Maybe you should move in a little closer if you’d like a hug.”

    He took no more hints and cuddled up against Nathan. His arm came down and wrapped around Levi like a snake about to strike. Jake came back in and nodded to Nathan.

    “Come on.” He said looking down to the little man curling up next to him.

    Levi followed Jake with Nathan closely behind him to their bedroom. The lights were down low and the king size bed was stripped to the bottom sheet. An assortment of items were on display on the nightstand.

    “Don’t be nervous.” Jake said pulling Levi in. “We are gonna take great care of you.”

    He bent down and kissed Levi’s plump lips. His tongue barged through and dominated his prey’s mouth. Nathan began unbuckling Levi’s belt and pulling off his clothes. Soon he was naked, 6 inches standing proud, between the two studs. Jake worked his arms again and lifted Levi onto the bed and pushed him back. He began to kiss every inch of his body spending extra time with his most sensitive areas. Nathan went into the attached bathroom and began running the water.

    “We better get you ready.” Jake said picking Levi up like he was nothing. He carried him over to the bathroom over his shoulder where Nathan was waiting with the equipment.

    “Leaving nothing to chance.” He said before kissing his husband.

    Nathan dropped a little lube on Levi’s hole, still high in the air hoisted up on Jake’s shoulder and inserted the end of the hose. Levi moaned slightly as a warm slow flow began to enter his lower gut. Soon, Jake set him down and he released. This somewhat embarrassing yet amazing display of power was repeated a few more times until they decided Levi was ready for anything. The bed was softer than Jake’s shoulder and he was relieved to be thrown down on it. Quickly though, Jake sat astride him and bore most of his weight on his chest and stomach. Nathan had stripped and went to the other side of the bed. Levi got an idea of his whereabouts when out of nowhere, some thick, long, heavy meat was slapped down onto his forehead.

    Jake laughed and slapped his husband’s cock down again. “Oh baby, you’re gonna be sore but you’re gonna love it.” He climbed off and stripped as well,

    “Come over here and get daddy hard.” Nathan ordered. Levi opened his mouth and began to take in the thick cock. Once he reached as far as he could, Nathan gently gripped his hair and slowly pulled the warm throat downwards. Levi would sputter a bit and have a brief moment to collect himself before going back down. He never could get all the way but Nathan reassured him the whole time. “I’m gonna train this throat good, slut. You’re such a good little cocksucker aren’t you?”

    Jake climbed back onto the bed, this time focused on the bubble butt laid out for his use. He knelt down and dove his face into the mounds, tongue diving further and further into the tight pink hole. Levi moaned around the cock in his throat only making it go deeper.

    “Fuck you’re delicious.” Jake said, coming up for air. “We’re keeping you.” With a stinging slap to the ass before him, he went back down and ate Levi out like he was the last piece of meat on Earth. Nathan had begun a steady rhythm of thrusting down the tight throat.

    Jake, after satisfying himself that Levi was well and truly opened by his tongue, pressed his index finger into the tight hole. It sank in with little effort. “That hole wants it so bad.” He said, pulling out. He added another and pushed. Levi groaned as the unstoppable force pushed it’s way through.

    “You wreck that cunt, babe.” Nathan said. “Get it good and wet for me.”

    “You know it sweet cheeks.” Jake said back. He pushed further till he bottomed out. “I’m not gonna use too much lube on you. We like it raw and you will to.”

    Levi was scared now but didn’t seem to have much choice in it now. One of Jake’s meaty paws held him firmly down from the middle of his back. The other was stretching out his hole with an unbelievable expertise. Soon, it was removed. Nathan pulled out and braced Levi’s shoulders as a hint about what was coming. Jake spread his cheeks and hocked a huge wad of spit down in a perfect bullseye. Then something wet, heavy, warm, and throbbing began to push against his hole. Levi could have sworn it was a battering ram or a telephone pole but he knew Jake was about enter him. He had only seen Jake’s bulge and if this is what was under those speedos, he must have had a third leg.

    “Fuck, babe.” He said. “This hole is so fucking tight.”

    Levi only moaned through gritted teeth. The pain was setting in as his hole slowly accepted the intruder. It was a mix of pain and pleasure that was so hard to describe. He was overwhelmed. Levi’s mind nearly shut down as his senses were overloaded. The girth only seemed to increase just as the length seemed unlimited until he finally felt Jake’s thick bush scratching at his ass.

    In a moment though, it was swiftly pulled out leaving Levi winded and nearly senseless. Soon he was breached again with the same difficulty. This went on for some time till his ass finally began to adjust. It was still painful and Jake’s occasional spit wads didn’t do much but they were the only reprieve he was gonna get all night. Then the real fucking began.

    Jake developed a pattern of steady thrusting before slamming home and staying put for a moment before withdrawing completely. This was done over and over till Levi found out what he was looking at.

    “That’s so fucking hot.” Jake said. “Look at that gape. You have a fuckin’ tunnel, boy.” He quickly filled that tunnel with his girth and began the process over and over again. After a few minutes, Jake wrapped his arms around Levi and rolled over onto his back. Levi was pulled on top, backside down, all while still impaled by the huge member. Jakes arms jacked Levi up and down like a human fleshlight. Soon, he began thrusting hard.

    “Fuck yea, bitch. Take that dick!” Jake started saying. “You want my load? I’m gonna breed you nice and deep.” He began to roar. Jake slammed Levi over and over for what felt like an eternity before he slowed down. Levi could feel the monster inside him swell a little as it pumped gallons of white hot seed deep into his gut. After Jake a moment, Jake pulled out and gave one last big shot over his Boy’s cock and all the way up to his chest. His grip didn’t loosen though. That was only round one, Nathan had been standing over them watching and was getting more eager every second to add his load to Levi’s wrecked hole.

    Jake held Levi put as Nathan lined up and rammed in with as much force as he could. Levi, though wider than he’d ever been, gasped for breath as an immediate power fuck began. He was going to battered and bruised by the end of the night.

    After about 20 minutes of this, Nathan reached his arms under Levi and picked him up. He was folded nearly in half with his feet dangling over Nathan’s shoulders as well as Nathan’s tongue in his mouth. With out his arms in place, Levi could have stood on his own, impaled on the thick rod deep inside him. He felt Jake’s finger reach under and around his hole taking up a large amount of cum that was getting pounded out. He took this and pulled Levi’s head to the side and shoved it deep into his willing mouth. His tongue then joined it.

    Nathan was driven wild by this sight and started pounding slower yet harder. Levi moaned with each thrust until it stopped all together. Nathan had dumped his load deep into Levi to mingle with his husbands. They both set their new toy down and focused a little attention on him. Jake took up some more cum and grabbed Levi’s cock in a tight grip. Nathan did the same and proceeded to near choke him with it. Between the sore ass, choking control over his throat, and Jake’s expert motions, Levi practically screamed as he had the best orgasm of his life. A huge volley of cum was shot up his chest and even onto his face.

    “Can’t waste that.” Jake said as he knelt down low and began to lick it up. He got every drop but didn’t swallow. He came to Levi’s mouth and dove his tongue in deep.

    Levi was in heaven and it was only just beginning.

  • My Autobiography

    On a night just before we left the pub, we had a party with a live band. The place was packed, including my partner’s family. Towards the end of the evening, I went on the mic to thank everyone for their support and custom over the years, and that my partner and I were looking forward to starting a new life together. The next day, my partner was summoned to his gran’s house. She was furious, not that he was gay, but because he hadn’t told her. 

    With the pub sold, we flew to the Dominican Republic for a holiday. It was late November. I sat on the beach in the mornings, writing Christmas cards, and putting a note into each branch of the family, coming out and telling them of my new relationship. Fortunately, all but one were supportive, and even they eventually came round.

    We moved to the South coast and rented a bungalow for a year, until we found our forever home. It wasn’t long before my sexual energy got the better of me. At my insistence, we met other guys and went to sex parties, even though I knew my partner was uneasy about it. When he stopped doing it, I went behind his back to have sex with other men. Writing it now makes me feel shameful, but I always excused myself, blaming my high libido. Time and again, I’d be caught out. I’d say sorry, and promise to change my ways. I never did.

    In 2005, the UK government granted gay people the right to a Civil Partnership. Marriage in all but name. We were at Brighton Pride and proposed to each other. The following year, we committed ourselves in front of 150 guests, including my ex-in-laws. It didn’t stop me from misbehaving, and when I retired it became easier. It was not until I was in my mid-seventies, and in the last chance saloon, that I finally came to my senses.

    We have been through some turbulent times. Apart from my philandering, my husband has depression, bordering on bipolar, he tried to take his own life on several occasions. His Mum got cancer, and after each operation, we nursed her through convalescence, until she died at 61. Despite it being inevitable, it hit my partner hard, and he has never truly recovered. 

    But here we are, over 30 years later, still together through the ups and downs. Like most married couples, we love each other dearly, and sometimes infuriate the other. 

    My brutally honest true story.   

  • I Submit

    [Meta: This is the first chapter of “Book 2” of an ongoing story. Books 1 and 2 both occur in the mid-1970s: Chapter 1 of Book 1 starts on Friday, February 23, 1974. The “big story” in the news was Watergate.

    Book 1 tells the story of how I (John Thomas) first met my boyfriend, Eric Svalberg, how he seduced me into accepting who I actually was sexually, and also how I fell in love with him. The title of Book 1 (“Shame And Punishment”) hints at how that process got started. All of the chapters of Book 1 can be found by checking my profile, which lists all of my published stories (just click on my user handle.)

    Book 2—whose title is “I Submit”—tells the story of the trials and tribulations that both Eric and I have to experience—decades ago—in order to be each other’s boyfriend, and also of the sexual journey that Eric takes me on, ever deeper into sexual submission.]

    Prologue

    In the final chapter of Book 1, Eric and I—for the very first time—slept together in my bedroom—with the approval of my mother, and of Eric’s parents. Of course, they weren’t expecting us to sleep on the floor of my bedroom, in the same sleeping bag (they never did find that out.) It was the very first time that I had ever slept with anyone since I had been a small child. I found out later that Eric had been doing that ever since his first year of high school

    In my case, I loved my mother far too much to want to want to cause her any distress or upset over my sexuality. That was one reason I made sure to lock my bedroom door, even though my mother had no history of just barging in to my bedroom without asking permission—at least, not since I was about 10 years younger, anyway. Had my mother discovered the locked door, I would have justified it by appealing to Eric’s right to privacy.

    Even though we were both high school Seniors at the time, we were also both 18, and would be graduating high school in 3 months. Nevertheless neither of us wanted to risk being kicked out of either one of or homes, so we were very careful to keep our parents in the dark about what we were up to, sexually.

    Thursday morning, February 28, 1974

    When my alarm clock woke both of us up that Thursday morning—at 7:30 am—I realized that I had fallen in love with Eric. [That wasn’t unearned, as you will see if you read Book 1.]

    Sleeping in Eric’s arms all night was just the final ingredient that contributed to that result: Deep intimacy—sexual or not—was (and is) a huge motivation in my life—it’s what I had been yearning for, especially with other males my own age—but could not get, thanks to the taboos against it in the socio-cultural mores of the time. As for Eric, he had already made his own feelings quite clear: He was deeply in love with me; he had even all but proposed to marry me—and would have, if only same-sex marriage had been legal.

    Eric and I made ourselves decent, and then went together to the bathroom to take care of our biological and hygienic necessities. We also showered together. My mother made no comment about that; she wasn’t even awake yet. Had she said anything, I would have simply pointed out that Eric and I were in the same gym class together, and so had to shower together (in the same communal shower, anyway) at school, every day.

    Returning to my bedroom, I put on fresh clothes that were appropriate for school; Eric had to just re-use his school clothes from yesterday. He commented that, in the future, he’d plan things out better. Then we had breakfast: Grape Nuts—my usual breakfast, whenever I made it for myself (which was every school day.) Eric had never had Grape Nuts before. He said he liked them, but that chewing them made his jaw sore. I just told him that that served him right. He got the point.

    After breakfast, we set out on the 14-minute walk to the high school (which I had actually timed, just yesterday.) Along the way, we both agreed to meet up at his house after school. Upon arrival at the campus, we both headed to our respective classes. It was only as I was sitting down at my desk for my first period class (AP pre-calculus,) that it dawned on me that we had both been seen walking to school together.

    Oops. Oh well, too late to do anything about that, now.

    It also dawned on me that I didn’t even know all the classes that Eric was taking. I knew he was taking Algebra 2 (although I didn’t know what period that class was,) because that was the subject where he needed my help the most. And I also knew he had 3rd-period PE, because we were both in that same class. I had helped with his history and civics homework, but I didn’t know what periods those classes were in. Nor did I know what 2 other classes he might have.

    It was on my trek from my 2nd-period class (AP Physics) to the boys’ gym that I overheard a rather disturbing conversation between two other students whom I didn’t know. The key comment that stood out to me was this: “He was seen walking together with Eric this morning.” The response was also alarming: “Not surprised. Eric has a reputation.” At which point, the original speaker spotted me, and tilted his head in my direction, so that the other boy saw me, too.

    Damn!

    The fact that Eric had a “reputation” was news to me. But once I gave it the thought I should have given it, days ago, I realized that of course he could: Eric had been doing the same with many other boys (and girls, for that matter) at his previous high school—one in the same city, so gossip could have spread between the two schools. We both had transferred to this high school for our Senior years (12th grade, for any non-American readers.) But in my case, my previous high school was in a city hundreds of miles away.

    Eric had told me key facts about his sexual exploits, but not that he had a “reputation” because of it. Perhaps he didn’t know? I had thought that the only reason for our secrecy about the fact that we had become friends was solely due to the events in the showers the previous Friday [see Chapter 1, Book 1 for the details,] but now I began to believe that that was not Eric’s sole motivation. In fact, it would add quite a bit of justification to the fact that he had felt so shamed and embarrassed over the events of last Friday—assuming he was aware of his “reputation.”

    Nevertheless, during the PE class, I continued our charade of not knowing, or caring about, each other. Eric did the same, probably totally unaware that we’d blown our cover—at least partially.

    No events of significance to the story occurred during the rest of the school day. Upon exiting my last class of the day (French 4,) I headed to Eric’s house using the alternate route, so as to not be seen walking home with him. I was fully aware that that might now be a futile tactic. While on the way, it occurred to me that one of the implications of the conversation I had overheard was that I, too, had a “reputation”—and had already had one, before the events of the previous Friday.

    Giving that some thought, I concluded that I had probably not been careful enough about not being seen ogling the larger-than-average endowments of some of my fellow (male) high-school students. I couldn’t think of any other reason that I might have already had a “reputation,” other than the fact that I was a nerd, was seen as highly intelligent, and that I had no girlfriend (and hadn’t ever had one, although there was no way the students here at my new school could have known that for a fact; but of course, they would have had reasonable cause to so assume.)

    Damn. Just damn.

    Upon arrival at Eric’s house, I again saw him watching for me from the living room window. Seeing me, he waived, and then immediately headed for the front door, to let me in. By the time I reached the front door, he was already opening it.

    He apparently saw the look on my face, and instead of his usual, enthusiastic greeting, said, “What’s wrong, Babe?”

    “Let’s go inside, and then close the door”, I replied. “I don’t think we want to have that conversation where the neighbors might hear us.”

    Once we were both inside, and he had closed the front door, I continued: “Did you realize that we were seen walking to school together this morning?”

    “Oh. Fuck! No, I had not realized that. How is it that neither one of us thought to take separate routes to school this morning?”, he asked.

    Already having asked myself the same question—hours ago, now—I replied: “We were both too euphoric—and distracted—by the events of the previous day and night.”

    He just stared at me for a minute, and then said: “How do you know we were seen?”

    I recounted the conversation I had overheard, while on my way to our shared PE class. He looked absolutely stricken.

    “Did you know you had a ‘reputation’?”, I asked him.

    “I did not”, he replied.

    “What about at your previous high school?”, I queried.

    “Oh, yeah. I did have a reputation there”, he answered.

    “Could that reputation have followed you from there to this school?”, I asked.

    “Hmmm…I guess that that’s a possibility”, he admitted. “But if so, this is the first I’ve of heard of it.”

    “If Scotty—your previous ‘fuckboy’—had outed you, you would have probably already have heard about it,” I observed. “And in any case, he would have had just as much reason as you to keep things secret, while he was attending school here. And after having moved overseas, it’s just too far fetched to suspect him.”

    “Right. Had his parents ever found out, the consequences would have been severe. Catastrophic: His parents held him back a year, because otherwise, he would have always been one of the youngest students in his grade. Instead, he was always the oldest. He turned 18 right before I ever even met him, early last November. So his parents could have—and would have—kicked him out of the house. There’s just no way he would risk anything like that”, he replied. “But that means that the most probable theory is that there was a transfer of rumors between my old school and this one”, he continued.

    “Yeah, that does seem like the best hypothesis” I replied. “And by the way, the strong implication from what that one guy said is that I, also, have a ‘reputation’”, I added.

    “Why might that be?”, he queried.

    “Well, they know that I have no girlfriend. And I’m widely known as a nerd, who’s really smart. And the fact I’m far from well-endowed is probably well-known, too. If you add in the possibility that others have noticed my..unusual..interest in big dicks—because, just like last Friday—I wasn’t careful enough to hide it, then it’s plausible that some would have begun to assume that I’m gay”, I explained. “Isn’t that sort of why you reached the same conclusion about me, last Friday?”

    As I was saying all that, I was wondering to myself why I hadn’t realized all of that before. Wishful thinking on my part, I could only assume.

    “You’ve got a point, there”, he admitted.

    “So, what do we do now?”, I asked.

    “Hmmm….Well, we could just stop trying to hide our friendship, without admitting to anything beyond that. Trying to hide would just make us look more suspicious”, he proposed.

    Giving that some consideration, I finally replied: “That would be far easier on us, than trying to hide our friendship. And it’s not like our parents don’t already know that we’re friends—best friends, even. Also, given the fact that we already have ‘reputations,’ it wouldn’t make the situation much worse than it already is”, I concurred.

    “You know, our high-school days are almost over, anyway. All we really care about is keeping our parents in the dark,” he observed.

    “Good point. A very good point, actually”, I replied. “Will you lose any friends over this?”, I asked.

    “Not sure, but I don’t think so. As long as I don’t actually admit to anything, other than having you as a friend,” he said.

    “So, it’s settled, then”, I concluded.

    “Yup,” he replied. “You ready to lose more of your gag reflex? Maybe even all the way?”, he asked, smiling.

    I had already decided to fully submit to him—sexually, at least—by the time I had woken up that morning. But I didn’t tell him that, yet. Nor did I tell him—yet—that I had fallen in love with him. So what I said in response was, “Sure. You haven’t misled me about sex, so far. So I’m game.”

    He gave me a big smile, took my hand, and led me to his basement bedroom. Unlike last Tuesday, he did not forget to close—and lock—the door to his bedroom, this time. Checking the time, I noted that we would have about 2 and a half hours before Eric’s mother got home.

    Eric instructed me to get naked from the waist down, and then to assume the standard position on his bed—on my back, feet pointed towards the head of the bed, head pointed towards its foot, and hanging over the edge. He went to the bathroom that was attached to his basement bedroom to fetch a towel for me to use as a bib, and then handed it to me, after I had assumed the “face fuck” position. I placed it to cover my neck and chest.

    Eric was already taking off his pants and boxer briefs. Once nude from the waist down, he walked towards my head that was hanging off of the foot of his bed, stopped when he arrived, and then said, “Tell me what you’re supposed to do.” He wanted to make sure I hadn’t forgotten my part in the play.

    “Open my mouth as wide as I can. Try to keep my teeth from scraping your dick. Swallow right when your dick starts trying to penetrate my throat. And don’t forget to breathe after you pull out of my mouth, giving me a few seconds to breathe,” I said.

    “That’s good enough for now,” he replied. “i’ll have more things for you to do, later. But not today.”

    He then put the head of his dick against my lips, so I opened my mouth—wide: His dick was really big. When I felt the head of his dick beginning to attempt to push into my throat, I swallowed. As before, that eased his dickhead into my esophagus, soon followed by as much of his almost 11-inch member into my throat as was possible, given the physical constraints: He was balls deep into my mouth.

    I still gagged—but noticeably less than had been the case at the same point in the procedure than had been the case on Tuesday, two days ago. He held position only briefly, though—not for a full minute, as he had been doing occasionally two days ago. Once he had fully withdrawn, I took the opportunity to breathe; he afforded me maybe 5 seconds for that, and then started the next balls-deep downstroke. Wash, rinse, repeat.

    On every fifth downstroke, he would hold position, fully down my throat, for about a minute. When he finally withdrew after such a one-minute hold down my throat, he would give me about 10 seconds to breathe, before resuming. He maintained that 4-to-1 pattern until he came.

    As for me, I was focused on reveling in the feeling of submission, of being sexually dominated by him, of experiencing the dick of my dreams in action, and of giving sexual pleasure to the boy I loved. I enjoyed knowing that I was essentially giving Eric the most intimate kiss it was possible to give a boy, or man. The fact that my gag reflex was obviously withering away to nothing during the approximately 20 minutes that Eric was fucking my face really helped with that. The fact that Eric’s big dick was still making my jaw sore had the opposite effect. But at least, the soreness seemed to be less bad than it had been on Tuesday. So, all in all, it was a net win.

    Of course, my eyes were soon watering, and I was soon drooling profusely. Just like I had been, two days ago. Eric was apparently right, that that would be a permanent feature of getting my face fucked.

    After the first 10 minutes or so, I was getting hard, myself—without even touching my dick. Eric noticed—and just like on Tuesday—he began jacking me while he fucked my face. I came just before he did.

    After Eric finally came, he didn’t stop. He just kept on fucking my face—just as he had done 2 days ago. And he kept jacking me, so I also came again. The fact that I could achieve multiple orgasms, helped along by having someone else jacking me, and also by the psychological stimulation from what Eric was doing to me, I found quite fascinating. Until Eric, I had been strictly a “one orgasm per day” guy; although, the only orgasms I had been having were those that resulted from masturbating myself.

    I noticed that Eric would check the time, after each orgasm. He obviously hadn’t forgotten the near-disaster we barely avoided 2 days ago, when we had both lost track of time: We almost got caught, when his mother finally came home.

    As Eric was going for his 5th orgasm, I (belatedly?) noticed that I was no longer gagging [I had never had any problem with choking, or vomiting, as I noted in Book 1.] But my jaw was pleading with me to wait at least a day between each face fuck and the next.

    After Eric’s 5th orgasm, he finally stopped: It was just after 6:10 pm. We got up, headed to the bathroom, got cleaned up, made ourselves presentable, went back into his bedroom, and put our briefs and pants back on. Checking the time, I saw that it was almost 6:20 pm.

    “Time to get your homework done?”, I asked. “Your father will ask you about it.”

    “Yeah, I know. And so, yes, it’s that time.”

    So he gout out his Algebra 2 textbook, found his homework assignment, after which I tutored him on how to do it. While that was underway, his mother came home. Eric paused our tutoring session, and went upstairs to greet his mother. He soon returned, and so we resumed the homework session.

    Once we were done with the math homework, the next two assignments just involved his reading in his textbooks, so my only contributions were limited to answering questions he had about what he was reading, and advising him about the key points he’d need to memorize for any tests. The fact that that sort of thing just came naturally to me was one of the reasons I did so well on tests, in spite of almost never doing any homework.

    We heard Eric’s father come home from his job as a Professor of Psychology while Eric was still reading his final homework assignment. So, once Eric had completed his homework, we both went upstairs to give his parents some Platonic, teenage boy attention and affection.

    Eric’s father (Liam,) asked the expected question regarding the status or Eric’s homework. Eric, smiling, said that he wouldn’t have come upstairs, had he not finished his homework. Liam looked at him bemusedly, then laughed. His father then turned to me, and asked me what the homework had involved. I told him that the math homework had involved graphing systems of inequalities, that the history homework had involved the events surrounding the adoption of the 14th Amendment, and its aftermath, and that the civics homework had been about the legal and political arguments, pro and con, surrounding FDR’s New Deal. That seemed to satisfy Liam.

    And that’s when Eric’s mother (Beth) called us to dinner. I noted that, this time, she didn’t ask me whether I would like to stay for dinner: She just assumed it—in spite of the fact that Eric and I had not yet formally presented our proposed teenage-boy feeding reciprocity arrangement to Eric’s parents yet (where my mother would feed Eric dinner on some nights, and Eric’s parents would feed me dinner on other nights); we had gotten buy-in for that from my mother, yesterday evening, though. So I decided to present that idea to Eric’s parents during dinner.

    They liked the idea, and immediately accepted it. And then Eric’s mother completely surprised me—and I have to assume, Eric as well—by asking me whether I would like to sleep over with Eric this evening. “You shouldn’t have to walk all the way back home on the evenings you’re here, and Eric shouldn’t have to do that either, on the nights he’s with you at your place,” she added.

    After I got over my shock, I answered her in the affirmative. I couldn’t help but notice the expression on Eric’s face. I also noted the fact that Liam (Eric’s father) seemed to also be pleased. Interesting. Very interesting.

    After dinner, Eric suggested that we go into the garage to use the bench press to get started on the exercise regimen we had agreed to start, last Tuesday evening. Liam commented, “Do you guys want me to spot for you, again?”

    “Not unless you really want to,” answered Eric. Diplomatic. As I’ve said previously [see Book 1], Eric was not dumb; his education had just been mishandled—an issue I was determined to fix. One academic subject in which he was far ahead of every other student at the high school—including me—was psychology. Given that his father was a full Professor of psychology at one of the nation’s most prestigious universities [name withheld to protect privacy], that should have been no surprise.

    So Eric and I traipsed off to the garage. I spotted for Eric, then he spotted for me. We took turns like that for about an hour, and then returned to the living room, exhausted. Eric went to a closet located near the door to the garage, and retrieved a sleeping bag. He handed it to me, saying, “You can sleep in this, on the floor in my room,” making sure that his parents heard him. Sneaky bastard: He was confirming their approval of that plan, without explicitly asking for their OK. He got no response.

    So he gestured at me with his head, indicating that we should retire to his bedroom. And so, that’s what we did. Eric closed his door. I then asked Eric whether he should lock it.

    “What if my parents try to open it?”, he asked.

    “Then use the excuse that I deserve privacy when I’m dressing, or sleeping in my underwear,” I replied.

    He just smiled, locked the door, and then started to hug and kiss me.

    But I had to ask, “Did you and Scotty ever sleep over at each other’s houses?”

    “No. My parents didn’t really approve of him. They never really approved of any of my friends—fuckboys, or just friends, either way—since I started Junior High,” he told me “They’re not just OK with you, they seem to be genuinely glad that I have you as a friend. I haven’t seen that from them in years.”

    “Can’t complain,” I replied. But privately, I began to wonder just how much Eric’s parents knew about some of his friends. Yeah, those ones.

    We slept in each other’s arms for the second night in a row. Mostly, we actually were in our underwear. Mostly. Just in case.

    I could definitely get used to this.

  • Gilded

    “Tristan! Tristan!” Cato called out to his friend over the press of men exiting the comitium. 

    Assembly had ended. 

    The light of the waning sun stretched the shadows of the tall pillars surrounding the open lawn, signifying how long the session had gone. 

    Early on, the sun had been high, the day sweltering, and finding shade amidst the throng of sweaty men was a god send. Now, the air had cooled, and a haze had lifted up from the dusty pathway underfoot, highlighted by the golden rays of the later hour.

    Tristan, a young man of similar age to Cato, was amicable of face and soft of belly, especially when compared to Cato’s more fit physique. He looked back over his shoulder, a bright smile coming to his round face as his eyes came upon his friend. Hand raising, he gestured to the left of the flow of bodies toward a small courtyard just off the exit path. 

    “What say you young Dantatus?” Cato said to his beaming friend in a deep and bombastic tone. 

    “Dantatus?” Tristan replied.

    “I’d say good tidings to you and your bright smile, if it were not so jagged and yellow.” Tristan’s smile vanished, replaced by a look of mock outrage as he covered his mouth and teeth. 

    “I am not Dantatus, Young Cato, son of Quirinus, or should I say, Young Varus.” Tristan’s knees buckled and he screwed up his eyes, walking as if he could not right them, his dark curly hair flopping about. The two friends laughed, reaching one another and clapping each other around the shoulders. They walked together further into the courtyard, reaching a glittering fountain in the center of the square. 

    “Yet…Varus indeed?” Tristan said, his arm’s crossing and tanned face turned more serious. A glint of questioning flashed in his eyes. “After your late night frivolities…  Tell me, were you made bow legged, or did you cause another to walk awkwardly into the night?” Cato looked admonished.

    “A more vulgar man would lower himself to divulge such…vulgarity.” Cato retorted, attempting to maintain a look of distaste despite the clumsy end of his statement. “I on the other hand-”
    “Are a depraved wolfhound,” Tristan cut in with a judgemental smirk. “Whose prick is still probably as stiff as it was when deep inside one of Albertus’s exoletis.”

     “You sir…are not entirely wrong.” Cato said, his face going blank for a moment.  “I say to you…It’s still hard if you’re looking to help soften it.” He put on a half-hearted leer that quickly fell away in defeat under Tristan’s smirk. Not one of his better retorts.  “I beg for your sympathy. It was a late night, and today’s assembly was long and tedious.”

    “Pathetic! What sort of man fucks all night and fails to rise, spry and lively the next morning? No man I know.” Tristan proclaimed in triumph.

    “Perhaps one who stayed awake long after all pleasure had ended.” Cato said, the smile for his teasing friend becoming rueful. As he expected, Tristan became more solicitous now that Cato was coming to the reason of why he’d called to him. 

    Cato was grateful. Tristan’s father served as the accountant to Cato’s father and household. Cato and Tristan grew up together, and they’d come to rely on one another’s friendship in times of both levity and council.

    “Did something happen?” Tristan asked.
    “Indeed. Many more things than I’d care to admit.” Cato said, and recalled the previous night to Tristan; About Thaddeous Waxon, putting great emphasis on the hold the Equites had over the proceedings and the giant Salvator. How with a gesture, Waxon commanded the huge man to nearly kill another. He mentioned little of his feelings toward the ward, though he highlighted the young man’s look of contempt upon Cato’s subtle game of perversion and power dynamics with Waxon.

    “You make the Equites sound like a man found in the pages of great myths.” Tristan said.
    “I dare say he has raised himself up to such heights. I do not overstate my claims of the man or his servants, though a hero I would not claim him to be.”

    “Yes, but who is there to truly contradict the idea?” Tristan said, his countenance thoughtful. “Many know of his victories on the battlefield, and there is no person within Ostia who does not know of his wealth. No other merchant can claim such success in the region. I’d say your meeting with him was a fortuitous one. You can’t deny, despite the ambiguity of your opinion towards him, that he is a great man with great influence. I say if given a second opportunity, take advantage of his good opinion of you. You could only benefit.”
    “Oh, I plan to…” Cato said, his voice trailing off as his thoughts went to the ward, his beautiful face a significant reason for the previous night’s insomnia. Tristan must have read something of the thoughts on Cato’s face. His eyes thinned and head tilted back.

    “There’s something more you’re not telling me.” He said. Cato’s lips pressed together as he looked into the dark brown eyes of his friend, saying nothing. 

    It was then that a young boy no older than eleven, and who Cato recognized as a servant of his house, came running into the courtyard panting from what was a long journey.

    “Titus, what say you? What brings you here? Has something happened?” Cato said in alarm. He clutched the boy’s shoulder’s, steadying him. 

    “Master Cato…I’ve…been searching for you…for an hour.” Titus stammered between beleaguered breaths. 

    “Out with it then.” Cato said, looking Titus in the eye as Tristan stood by, curious about the news.

    “A messenger for you…from the Equites Thaddeus Waxon…A request for your presence at his home. Tonight.”
    “Tonight?” Cato said with bewilderment.

    His eyes turned toward Tristan, who too looked taken aback, but in the next moment, a discerning, if slightly smug, smile curled his lips. 

    A request to meet with the Equites was not a request. It was a summons. For it to take place at his home held significant implications, and to be brought to Cato with such strict urgency…

    Was this to be an offer of employment?    

    Tristan was right. 

    This was truly a great opportunity. A rare opportunity. One that Cato’s father had dreamed for him. One Cato had dreamed for himself. 

    Cato had played the game, and had impressed the Equites.

    He had aroused his curiosity, and yet far more, aroused his lustful heart.

    Was Cato to be like the ward? Like his giant Salvator? Painted in gold. Dressed in white lace? 

    Or was he to be something else? 

    Waxon’s wife Antonia had given him five daughters and no sons. 

    Cato, the son of a great house and notable parentage, a young man held in high esteem with a patriot’s pride, youthful bravado, strong body, and thick cock, had all the traits seemingly upheld in the mind of the Equites. Traits Waxon himself held, and one he most likely wished for his own son if his wife had borne him one.

    Cato was reaching of course, and yet, thoughts of such greatness played a melody in his mind. 

    Did he truly leave such an impression? 

    If this were to be true, he would elevate his family’s name, his own name, to heights unknown. 

    And Cato would see Waxon’s young ward…

    Be near him. 

    He could wipe away that blank countenance. Raise his forlorn gaze up…

    To meet Cato’s face…

    Cato had no choice. He had to meet with Waxon. 

    “If you please Tristan. Inform Praetor Trius of this new development for me. That it is a meeting of great urgency, and I do apologize for not meeting after assembly.”

    Just as Titus claimed, a messenger awaited Cato upon his return home bearing the news of Waxon’s invitation to his estate, west of the Tiber, just outside of Ostia. Having taken just over an hour to return home from the comitium, Cato declined the offer of taking the chariot sent for him, opting to go by horseback on his mare Lyra, A chesnut numidian Cato had raised from a foal. 

    Cato reached the bridge passing over the Tiber within a quarter of an hour, passing the massive ships harbored at Ostia’s great portus. All the while thoughts of the ward heavy on his mind.

    Would Cato see him or dare say…speak to him, or would the young man be deep within the slave quarters? Hidden away. 

    Cato assumed the latter, and immediately admonished himself for thinking this way. How foolish was he to yearn for just a glimpse of the ward’s face. 

    How pathetic. 

    He was riding there to meet with the Equites. He accepted the idea he would not see the ward.

    The home sat atop a hill of rocky formations covered in moss, grass and olive trees, overlooking the Tiber and the Mediterranean sea. The road leading up to the ascending path was surrounded by orchards and fields. Small homes dotted the landscape. Cato knew they all were under the patronage of the Equites. His ownings were vast indeed.

    Reaching the summit, what Cato saw was not a home, but a palace, made up of many wide, columned red roofed structures. He was immediately flagged down by armed men, and after presenting the written invitation he’d received, was allowed to enter the paved courtyard of the largest structure with a great fountain of a naked woman in the center, each corner of the square lit by enormous blazing braziers. 

    Waxon came out to meet him, his scarred face less dour than Cato had seen, favoring a welcoming, pleasant countenance that still did not quite reach his piercing black eyes. 

    “Welcome young master Quirinus. It makes me glad that you accepted my invitation with such promptness. I apologize for the later hour. I have just returned from my inspections.” Waxon said, reaching out his hand to shake Cato’s. He was accompanied by two grim faced guards armed with spears. Neither the ward nor Salvator were present.
    “I can only thank you for your invitation Master Waxon, and please call me Cato. I just came from assembly not one hour ago, Your message reached me as I was still on the road home.” Cato said, clasping Waxon’s hand.
    “Then you must be famished. Come. Food has been prepared upon my arrival. Have something to eat, then we will discuss why I called you here.”

    After eating his fill at Waxon’s bountiful table, Cato found himself in the Equites personal office, which was more akin to a small, if macabre, library filled with shelves of scrolls, tablets, books, and an extensive collection of animal heads and fur hides. The Equites, having just returned home, left Cato alone for a short period of time as he tended to urgent household business he could not put aside that arose during his absence.
    The dead eyes stared down at Cato, unnerving him. There was no doubt that Waxon had hunted and killed every last beast on display. A killer indeed, even for sport.

    It was then that the door behind Waxon’s desk creaked open, causing Cato’s heart to leap into his throat. It remained lodged there when he saw that it was the ward who had entered the room in a simple white tunic tied at the waist by a rope.

    As if his body had become stone, Cato watched as the young man made his way to Waxon’s desk, a note of papyrus in his hand. He too stopped moving when he noticed Cato there, eyes fixed on him. 

    Each breath coming harder as the second passed by, Cato looked deep into his olive green eyes, unable to speak for moments that felt lost to time. When he finally did, the words choked in his throat. 

    “Hello…Hello um…I’m sorry, but I never learned your name. I don’t know if you remember me. My name is-”

    “I remember you.” The ward said, his eyes upon Cato’s unwavering. His voice was soft, yet still strong in a way that caught Cato off guard, sending shivers down his neck and shoulders. “Master Cato Quirinus. Son of Lusidious Quirinus.”

    “Yes…Yes, I am.” Cato said, feeling rather breathless.

    “Did you require something?” Should I fetch a servant of the house for you?” The easy cadence of his words was more assured than Cato could have ever imagined, suggesting the young man was unphased by the awkward tension Cato was suffering. 

    “I…no…thank you, but no.” Cato said. With a nod, the ward put the papyrus sheet on Waxon’s desk, turned and left the room.  

    Cato gazed at the door as if willing it to reopen.

    A sudden, irrational roiling came into Cato’s stomach, rising into his chest, affecting his mind. 

    He hadn’t even gotten his name.

    With that thought ringing in his thoughts, it left no room for reason, or consequence. Cato rose from his seat, went to the door, and out into a long, stone hallway stretching to his right and to his left. The ward was more than half way down the left side of the passageway. Cato just barely caught a glimpse of him turning into what appeared to be another open air courtyard. Cato strode after him, his chest and head radiating the warmth of excitement and fear in equal measure. 

    What was he doing?

    This was the home of Thaddeus Waxon. A man who killed for his country and for his own pleasure. Cato held no pretense about not understanding how foolish this was. How dangerous. Yet, his young heart would not allow him to stay still, and he abided by its call just to get the name of this beautiful young man.

    He came to the threshold the ward just passed through, and saw that it was not a courtyard, but a long, wide green lawn with many stone paths leading to other areas of Waxon’s estate. The ward was walking toward a large, more simply constructed building. Cato started to call out to him, but thought better of it. Guards were sure to be posted all throughout. Cato had at least maintained enough sense to understand that, though he was a guest of the Equites, he had not been invited to wander the grounds freely. 

    The ward entered the large building, and soon after, Cato reached the same door. 

    A distinct smell of dampness and sweat came over Cato, and at once, he knew he had entered the slave quarters of Waxon’s estate. His own family quartered slaves. He recognized the long, low-lit corridors of rough, cracked stone, and while the smell was distinct, the smell was not foul unlike most slave quarters, which implied it was well maintained. 

    The clash of swords rang faint in the air, distant, as were sounds of men shouting. Cato slowed his pace, the only light coming from rooms, their openings placed sporadically to the left and right of the hallway, most empty aside from the occasional man or woman looking with curiosity at the new arrival. The ward was nowhere to be seen.

    Cato made the decision to remove his fine sandals and clean, linen tunic, leaving him bare chested and his undergarments covering his lower half. If he were seen, he hoped to be mistaken as another slave or servant. He placed them on the floor in a dark corner of one of the corridors, mussed his hair,  and continued on.

    The sounds of clashing swords drew him in, becoming louder as he turned into another empty, low lit passageway, and another, until finally came upon a person, or rather, several people. 

    Men with broad backs and clothed in nothing but animal furs just barely covering thick, round buttocks stood upon a balcony looking down into the source of the racket. They raised their thick muscular arms, cheering, groaning, and laughing, unaware of Cato. Down below were two men, swords and shields in hand, circling one another in a dirt square, their hard, muscular bodies drenched in sweat, gleaming in the dancing light of torches surrounding them, their skin red with exertion. Another man stood off to the side, a whip in hand, observing the men as they rushed at one another with savage tenacity, the shields crashing together.

    This was a training ground for gladiators. 

    The heat of the collective bodies gathered close together, the strong smell of their musk, washed over Cato. His desire for men could never be satiated, and being surrounded by the powerful gale of testosterone caused his thick cock to throb beneath the cloth covering it. Despite the foolishness of this endeavor, his mind wandered away from caution and to thoughts of these beasts of men undressed, sucking and fucking with Cato among them, his tongue and cock deep within their plump asses.

    As he surveyed the scene before him, Cato caught sight of the ward sitting on a small wooden chair behind the throng, a worn little book in his hand, taking no part in the revelry of the fight below. 

    Next to him, hand on the back of the chair, was another great beast of a man, not far from the size of Salvator himself; his height comparable, his powerful, half naked body not quite as chiseled, but no less impressive. He looked to be of Norse descent; One of the giant, fair haired Varangians from what Cato could surmise. A rare sight in Rome, the blonde of the man’s ropey hair, shaved on both sides of his tattooed head, and short beard, despite being unwashed, was an unmistakable sign of his ancestry. A mug of drink in his hand, the man wore a grim expression, though Cato, always the keen observer, could see amusement at the spectacle below within the crinkle of his eyes. 

    “Aye there! Boy!” A deep voice barked. Cato was taken from his thoughts, his cock remaining half engorged. The source of the voice was a man tan of skin, with a barrel chest covered in the black hair similar to a great beast, with huge arms, no neck, and a full, scraggly beard. “Are you lost? Wander off from the servants quarters to gawk at the animals?” Like the Norseman, this man held a mug of drink in his hand; the red faced merriment of having already drunk multiple cupfulls glazed across his face as he guffawed with a few other men.

    “I’d say he has.” Another man with long brown hair called out with a laugh. He was thick chested like the rest, but shorter in stature when compared to most others there. He sauntered over, and without warning, reached down and gave Cato’s semi-erect cock a few light slaps. “Look at the fucking cock on this young bull. I think he’s taken a liking to what he sees.” Cato backed away, his face burning, his heart pounding. “Aye, no worries young master. The arena has been known to get the blood flowin.” The long haired man said, putting a hand on Cato’s shoulder, guiding him forward toward the edge of the balcony. “Come and see the spectacle in all it’s bloody glory.”

    The fight below had become brutal, and though neither man landed a blow that would seriously injure the other, they both bore cuts and bruises. Cato in no way was aroused by the violence. His only thought now was to escape back to the Equites’ office.

    Coming here was a mistake. 

    He looked back behind him to see the ward looking in his direction, his handsome face conveying some confusion with Cato’s presence. The Norseman’s attention had been drawn to him as well, a hint of curiosity within his otherwise placid, icy blue eyes. Cato had never seen eyes like his before, as blue and clear as gemstones placed within the grisled, handsome face. Not a moment later, they left Cato, coming upon something that took all the grimness from the Norseman’s expression, replacing it with a sudden light of happiness. 

    Cato followed his gaze where he saw Salvator standing within the threshold of the balcony entrance, his smile unlike anything Cato could have imagined him to own. The two giant men came together, their playful shoving, laughter, and embrace displaying the kinship of a long-term friendship,  Than to Cato’s astonishment, as unmistakable lovers. Their foreheads came together before sharing a kiss, filled with deep affection and longing. As their lips parted, smiles of joy only love and admiration could bring, came with their faces as they talked and laughed, acting as if nothing and no one else were present. It was, in fact, quite a sight to see these two gruff beasts of men sharing such tenderness with one another. 

    It didn’t take long for others to notice Salvator’s arrival, and many men went to greet him merrily, clapping his shoulder, and welcoming him back from what must have been a long time away with Waxon and his tour of his lands. The ward had risen from the chair, coming to them, but standing apart from the rest. Like Salvator, for the first time he carried a smile, if ever so slight, on his face as he watched the reunion of the two men.

    When the crowd moved back to watching the fight below, the ward approached them, his diminutive frame more pronounced than ever before amongst the two giants. Putting his thin hand on Salvator’s arm, momentarily taking his attention from his lover, the ward said something into his ear. Both he and Salvator looked upon Cato, as did the Norsemen, his curiosity peaking. Salvator’s expression returned to the hard stone Cato was familiar with. 

    His stomach lurching, Cato did his best to appear undaunted.

    After a few more brief words with the Norseman, whose own face darkened as he listened intently, Salvator went to Cato.  

    “Master Quirinus.” He said, his accent thick with the sharp lilt of his Persian homeland. “What brings you here to the gladiator’s training ground? Are you here on behalf of my master?”
    “I…” Cato began, but stopped to clear his throat. To Cato, Salvator was a different man than what he had been back at the baths. He was speaking more than three words, and his display of loving affection toward the Norsemen was, at the least, wholly unexpected. 

    Cato began again, keeping his words clear and plain. “I am a guest, invited by the Equites on business. I was looking for the…I was taking a tour of his home. Your master is busy with another, unavoidable matter.” Salvator spared a glance toward the ward and Norseman, then it returned to Cato, his expression dubious.

    “And you made it all the way here, deep within the slave quarters before realizing you may have lost your way?”
    “I never claimed to be lost.” Cato said, his defenses rising.

    “And yet you are.” Salvator said, a thick black eyebrow rising. 

    Not letting Cato speak again, Salvator turned his back to Cato. “Come, I will guide you back to the Master’s study.” 

    Deciding it was best not to object, Cato followed close behind. 

    “I must return Master Quirinus to Waxon.” Salvator said to the Norsemen, gripping his arm, his expression softening. 

       “Aye, how much longer will you keep our bed cold?” The Norseman said, bringing his face close to Salvator, a smile in his teasing words, His own northern accent as prevalent as Salvator’s eastern accent.

    “I won’t be long, Osman.” Salvator said, his words filled with apology.

    “So you say.”Osman said, with a sigh, and the roll of his remarkable blue eyes. “A’ight. Be quick. I have plans for these next few days to have your cock fully used to my satisfaction.” A devilish grin came to Osman’s face, as he reached down and gripped Salvator’s enormous cock beneath the loin cloth, having no care that he had an audience.

     “I will guide him back.” The ward chimed in. Cato and the two men turned to him. He looked up at them, the same serene smile on his handsome, young face for his enormous companions. Cato, taken away by his smile, found his gaze lingering on it longer than he meant before quickly looking away. “I insist.” The ward continued. “You have been apart for too long. Go and be together. I shall see you both in the morning.”

    Once again, Salvator’s actions contradicted Cato’s impression of him. His hesitancy to let the ward go on his own was apparent on his broad face, his objection coming to his lips before Osman spoke first. 

    “Say no more Auri.” He said to the young man, as he held Salvator from moving forward.

    His name was Auri? 

    That was an unusual name. Cato could only guess that it was the short version of a longer name, though he could not imagine what it was. 

    A meaningful look passed between Salvator and Osman, Salvator’s hardened resistance falling and finally giving way to Osman’s reassuring gaze.

    “Aye…” Osman growled, overtaken with the precocious enthusiasm of a young boy. He grabbed hold of Salvator’s ass and pulled him in close, burying his face in his lover’s thick neck, kissing it again and again before pulling him toward the door leading out.

    Before being dragged fully away, Salvator stopped and looked at Cato.

    “Go straight back to Waxon’s office.” He said. His expression was as serious as death. “And don’t let anyone see you. If you find that the Equites has already returned to his office to find you. Lie. Do not tell him you came here. Do not say you were wandering the grounds…looking for him.” His glare went to Auri the ward, whose annoyance toward Salvator’s accusation made him go rigid. Cato, mortified by the comment, had a mind to throw himself off the balcony and be skewered by one of the men fighting below. Yet, a more powerful feeling came to him. 

    Fear.

    Had Waxon seen Cato’s eyes linger on his ward?

    Was this the reason why Cato was invited? To be punished like the man who attempted to touch Auri in the bath house.

    With these last words, Salvator and Osman took their leave, and Cato led him away.

    Having gathered his sandals and tunic from the hidden corner and redressed, Cato followed Auri from the gladiator’s training ground and out of the slave quarters. They walked at a brisk pace, Auri stopping now and then to check if anyone was present. 

    Cato’s desire to speak pressed in on him. 

    Say something. Anything.

    “I…apologize if I have brought any potential trouble upon you.” Cato said, his tone low and tentative.

    “I’m not the person you should worry about.” Auri said.

    Cato understood, and the two young men made a swift pass across the lawn back to the corridor where Waxon’s office was. Auri stopped just short of the door, saying nothing as he let Cato pass. Cato kept his eyes down so as to not look at him.

    “I may soon be employed by your master. I believe it’s the reason why he asks me to come and see him.” Cato said. Auri’s response was to remain silent. 

    “If so…I look forward to seeing more of you…Goodnight.”
    Cato then slipped into the study, and to his undying relief, the room was empty.   

  • How I’ll Realized My Yin

    Sexuality is fluid. We are both yin (feminine) and yang (masculine). In my 20’s and 30’s I was more yang enjoying straight sex.   However, in my 40’s I felt a need to realize my yin..

     I am 5-11, weigh 175, and have brown hair.

     I started to play with my hole and got a 8”dildo to fuck myself. I wanted to receive rather than penetrate. I enjoy fucking myself in the morning and sucking my dildo after it has been up my ass.  I have become more femme in the way I dress wearing more color, having an earring dangling from my right ear and wearing a beautiful pearl necklace.  I feel good wearing boots with high heels. I started watching gay porn.

    I had some gay tendencies such as strong fetish for boots and leather.  In puberty I came when I tried on a gorgeous pair of cowboy boots.  I also got hard wearing tight black leather jeans.  Boots have always been part of my sex life. Because  putting on a pair of gorgeous cowboy boots made me hard, I wore them having straight sex.

    Gradually, I made love to women without penetration.  I used my mouth to pleasure them.  Women love it when I make love to their ass with my hands and mouth. I can play with women’s pretty butt for hours. My cock gets rock hard when I play with women’s ass that I come on her ass and hole and then lick my cum there. I love ass so much. Oh fuck.

     I can bring her to an ecstatic climax by licking and kissing her pussy. I still love my cock. I like to stroke it and shoot my cum. My transformation is more inner than outer.

    Having sex, I wear different women’s clothing depending on how I feel.  I wear women’s knee-high white patent leather laced boots with 4” heels and a skirt. Sometimes   I wear pink leather shorts and hi top pink Chucks. 

     I love wearing Keds.  I feel so hot in my bright white Keds wearing them with  faded denim shorts and white tank top.  Some guys have hit on me when I am wearing this outfit. Once I was walking in park where queers hang out and a  guy came up behind me and rubbed his hardness against my shorts.  I let him until he came in his jeans.  I didn’t mind that he thanked me and called me a fag.  I liked being recognized as queer.

      Nike’s website for women includes a place where you can design your sneakers.  I did one pair  in white hi top leather with a pink swoosh and soles.  I love these pretty boots.  I have also designed Nike Cortez sneaks, one pair in soft pink with a white swoosh.  They go well with my pink leather shorts.   When I wore these pink sneaks for the first time to bed,  I wanted my partner to kiss them.  Seeing her lips on my new pink sneaks that I had designed, I shot a big load.

    My lover  licks my ass when I am wearing laced panties till I come.  She fucks me with my dildo with my legs spread wide so it goes deep in my pussy. I cry out, “Fuck me, fuck your pretty bitch” 

     I look so  pretty in my outfits- my earring, pearls and pretty sneaks. I can get off when my partner says I am pretty  because I know I am gorgeous.  I love making love to a woman and being a lesbian.  I feel so beautiful and whole as a woman. We are part of nature which is beautiful;  we are meant to beautiful. I have found beauty by honoring and developing my yin. I have become a gorgeous bitch.