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  • Maybe – For Money

    I live at 1800 West Street; Sean lives at 1801 Oak Street. His house backs onto my backyard. Therein a story unfolds.

    My name is Jack O’Brien. I’m a second generation Irishman, Sean is also Irish. But that’s the only way we are alike except that we look like brothers. Same dark curly hair, pale skin, dark blue eyes, tilted nose and wide humorous mouths. We both smile a lot. Sean shows peppermint white teeth you’d like to lick.

    I think you get that we are neighbors of different ages. Sean is now at the start of his eighteenth year, I am twenty-seven and probably seems part of his father’s generation.

    I moved into this old house four years ago when Sean was a mere fourteen. Cute as hell even then, but now he is a paragon of young beauty. I think he knows it somewhat as he dresses somewhat provocatively for a straight youth. Last week he showed up at my door wearing loose fitting denim overalls that had cutoff legs. They showed off his Irish hairy lower legs and stood it little away from his slim body almost down to his hips. He stood there smiling at me. I think he knows I am gay and he is enjoying teasing me. I love it. He helped me move in four years ago and I know he saw my collection of DVD’s and especially the naked guys on the cover.

    I must be perplexing to him. First off, I am as straight acting as his Dad. I play superior softball on the local team. I got muscles.

    I came to this community to take a job as a history teacher at Agnes Girls Academy, a prestigious girl’s prep school. (There you go; you thought I’d work at a boy’s school.) Sean told me that his parents think I have a married girl friend around and that is why no one sees a woman around me. ‘They figure you have to be careful because you’re a teacher, you know.’ He smirked at me as if we shared a secret. That child can be irritating some times but forgiving him for his sins is a regular thing for me. I think that he knows, that I know, that he slips in to my garage and steals beers from the old frig there. But he doesn’t know that I know that he has slipped into my house and checked it out. There is nothing there to suggest man sex except for the old DVD’s he has already seen. He also helped himself to some five-dollar bills I was saving in my top draw. I never mentioned it, but I did change my locks.

    Sean is a randy teenager. He has a girls friend Beverly for the last year and they do a lot of sexual stuff behind his garage. The view from my place is blocked by hedges, but he didn’t figure on my upstairs window in the extra bedroom used for storage. I can look down and clearly see the activity, especially (I blush) with binoculars. I have a good idea of what is going on with those two. He wants bj, she won’t. She allows breast play and even licking. I think she went into orgasm a few times. He slips his head under her skirt and apparently does a good licking job. He cock is protruding from his jeans. You heard of bobble heads? This is a bobble cock as it jumps as he crouches and works on the girls slit. I could see her convulse. She has a nice doggie to take care of her, but when our hero stands and holds his painfully stiff cock toward her she shakes her hand. Once he got angry and motioned for her to scram. When she was gone he started stroking and twice looked up at my house. Finally his face screwed up into a horrible, but cute, grimace as he shot copious quantities of thick, milky spooge onto his father’s strawberry beds. I wonder if they helped the growth because they were gigantic berries when ripe. I got a whole bowl from his Dad and they were delicious, especially accompanied by the mental picture of gorgeous Sean shooting on them.

    What exactly is my sex life. It is non-existent except for my DVD inspired wanking. I have girls in college. Sean knows this and has asked for sex advice. At first I demurred but he was so needy that I did give him tips. More about this later. I met Geoff, an airline pilot for British Airways. We lived together three years. He was killed in that crash in Egypt. I’m not one to go to bars who peep joints. I’m still mourning and will probably get more social soon, but for the present’Jack, you’ve had lots of experience with girls, right?’ His cute face was now cast into his serious look, wrinkles formed on his normally smooth white forehead.

    ‘Y-e-e-e-s-s,’ I said cautiously.

    ‘How do you get a girl to, to, you know, do oral stuff.’

    ‘Maybe you should ask your Dad.’

    He gave a breathy raspberry. ‘Are you kidding? Did you ask your father?’

    He was right. I asked my older brother.

    ‘What exactly do you want me to do? Give you a method to seduce Bev into a blow job?’

    He coughed on his soda. ‘Yeah, I guess.’

    ‘Well you have to get her sexed up, then blackmail her into sucking otherwise you won’t get her off with your tongue.’

    He blushed. It is all I could do to keep from hugging him. ‘How’d you know about what I do?’

    ‘No magic, I just remember my youth, back then, during the Civil War.’

    He seemed to accept that. The other thing I didn’t tell you is that this talk got him worked up and I noticed a big bulge at his crotch. He walked away, back home, slighted humped over. How well I remember that Groucho walk in high school.

    During one of our conversations he told me how much he loved Bev. She’s lucky, I thought, he was so sincere. He told me that he’d die for her if she asked. Oh my and the bitch won’t even give him relief. He’s got a girl but one with no extra dividends.

    Sean’s graduation was coming in a few months. He asked if there was any jobs he could do around the place to earn money. ‘You know, this prom stuff could cost up to $500 bucks and you know my Dad is always broke from the track betting.’

    I wanted to help. I racked my brain. ‘Tell you what, the garage needs to be straighten out, swept and hosed out, but leave the beers alone.’

    He started to say something of denial but then just broke into his trademark grin. He could get over anyone, except Bev, with that. I told him I’d pay $10. ‘Now you only need $490.’

    ‘Yeah, I know,’ he said sadly.

    It was worth the ten. He arrived with broom and pan, wearing brief bathing trunks. He backed around putting things in order, then swept clouds of dust around, most of it tinting his hair gray and then pulled out my hose (not what you think) and proceeded to hose out the place. When he finished he appeared at my back door his think bathing suits hugging his nice long cock and held out his hand. I’m just a patsy for this boy—-I gave him twenty.

    About a week later I was lolling on a beach chair in the backyard soaking up rays, wearing a speedo. Sean appeared and came up to me. I had had my eyes closed and I jumped when he spoke in his slightly hoarse adolescent voice. ‘Jack, I got another ten for baby sitting, but this is ridiculous. Bev’s pressuring me. I’ll need a tux, flowers, limo and motel.’

    ‘You planning to do the old laid-at graduation thing?’

    ‘Yep. Now what I want to talk to you about, now don’t get mad. If you don’t want to do it, we’ll just forget it.’

    I could see this was very difficult for him and his mouth as working and twisting and a fine sheen of sweat had broken out on the bridge of his cute nose. ‘I promise I won’t get mad. Now out with I!’

    ‘Well, I heard that gay guys will pay a lot to have, you know, their way with younger guys. I need money, I think you got the need.’

    I was floored by this. But it was so delicious I slipped into an unaccustomed perv role. After all I’ve been lusting after this finest example of teenage beauty for years. ‘You mean, you want to sell you body to me—-for money?’

    ‘Yep,’ he said annoyed, ‘You don’t think I’d do this for any other reason. I’m a hetero male, I don’t hook up with guys, except if I really need money. Course I’ve never done it before, but I know you and I trust you won’t do sick stuff.’

    ‘What’s sick stuff?’

    ‘Ah, I see you are interested. Sick stuff like corn holing me, no kissing and one time only and only for an hour.’ He thought for a moment, ‘And no ever, ever telling anyone, and it’ll be $100.’

    I couldn’t help smiling to myself. The boy had no gayness to him. I have good gaydar and I know yet he’d do the nasty with a guy for money. It made me think of the men in prison, tough guys who had ‘girl friends’ in jail and then when they came out where fully back to being hetero-sexual.

    ‘When you want to do it?’ I asked Sean. Now my voice was shaking.

    ‘Right now if you want, I got dressed for it, just shorts, no underwear, no top no shoes.’ He laughed nervously.

    I took his shoulders, he shied back. ‘It’s okay, I’m just taking you inside. Would you like a beer?’

    ‘You got anything stronger?’

    ‘Yeah, I’ll make you a Martini. Ever had one?’

    ‘No but I heard they’re strong. Make one.’

    His voice was shaking. I made a double for each of us and we sat on the couch in the den. We sipped the drink, Sean made a face, soldiered on and finished it. ‘You don’t have to go through with this.’ I said but he nodded his head grimly and told me to get on with it.

    ‘How about a straight porno?’ I’ve got one DVD.’

    ‘What’s that for, for seducing kids?’

    ‘Ouch,’ I said. ‘Remember this was your idea.’

    I put the tape on and he settled back against the cushion of the couch. This was a really hot tape. He watched with interest. I watched him. He was already a little buzzed from the drink—in fact a lot buzzed. His mouth was lopsided and his eyes was half shut, but little Sean was very active. There was a large bump on his upper leg as his cock elongated.

    ‘It’s really hot. I could fuck that girl gladly. I suppose you like the guy.’ He snickered.

    I decided to regain the upper hand. ‘You ready?’ I asked.

    He stiffened. ‘I guess so. I guess I should take off the shorts, yes?’

    ‘Yes.’

    His attitude was like he was going to get a prostate examine at the doctor. I was encouraged that he was half hard and that he touched himself to lift his cock and balls up out of the tight ‘V’ of his legs. He blushed when he saw me notice it.

    ‘Here goes,’ I said. I reached out and touched his chest. He didn’t expect that. I lightly touched one nipple with me finger. He jumped and his cock got bigger.

    ‘Geez, I didn’t now my pecs were so sensitive.’

    ‘You’re learning something new. Did you like that?’

    ‘I hated it. I’d rather walk on hot coals than do this queer stuff.’

    ‘Thanks for the encouragement. You can stop anytime.’

    ‘No go on queer guy, I’ll just keep thinking of the $100.’

    I continued to excite his nipple, now I was stroking both of them and his cock had risen fully and lay back against his young tight stomach, reaching way above his navel. ‘You ever suck yourself? You could you know, flexible body and long dick.’

    ‘Never thought of it, too gay. Come on. You got only forty-five minutes left.’

    I began rubbing his stomach, bumping against his jumping cock a few times. It flinched each time. I knew the hair on my hair was stimulating his cock as I passed against it. ‘Turn over,’ I said in a commanding voice. He immediately turned over. Ho ho, he takes orders, I thought. He put his head on his crossed arms (Oh that thick, black, Irish pit hair. I could faintly smell his youthful body order coming from there. This jock didn’t believe in deodorant. Oh shit, what a back, smooth, lightly muscled, polished and perfect cascading down to his slim waist. His ass was pert and protruding, with a nice shelf at the upper part. Wait, Oh my fucking back, he has my favorite thing, a oval of fine hair at the top of his ass cheeks, ending before the waist. He seemed to have fallen asleep, at least he was quiet. I leaned over and pressed my lips against the hollow of his upper back. He lifted his head, ‘Hey, no kissin’.’ He slurred his words, how cute.

    I assured him that I had no intention of kissing him, this was just the same as rubbing his body. The screwy logic seemed to satisfy him and he settled back with a resigned sigh, but soon there was another kind of sigh as I wetly kissed my way all over his back. The signs continued. ‘You really get off on that, don’t you?’

    ‘It’s okay’ he said but had to clear his throat several times to get the words out.

    Good, I thought, you’re getting with the program, my program, not yours. I now kissed to dimple on the side of his ass cheeks. There was a nice smell around here. I gave the other cheek similar treatment. I noticed he was holding his ass tight with his athletic muscles. I gave his ass a smart slap. ‘Hey!’ he shouted, ‘What’s that all about?’

    ‘It’s punishment because you are holding your ass cheek tight. I’m not going to fuck you, relax, I just want to make you feel good with my tongue.’ I have a long tongue. It’s very celebrated in certain circles. I took my hands and spread his cheeks. This time he didn’t resist. I swept his hairless, pink, virgin asshole with my tongue. ‘Fuck, what was that? You are a pig Jack. How can you lick my asshole.’

    ‘Want me to stop?’ There was no answer. Now for the heavy artillery. I pushed my tongue out as far as it would go and make the tip small and entered his fragrance ass. He immediately began sighing and his back broke out in sweat. He was beginning to have a zoo-like sexual odor that is better than perfume. He was now partly hypnotized from sensation. He wanted more. He probably didn’t realize that his ass was fully relaxed and he was imperceptivity pushing back again my tongue. I slipped in a few inches. He mewled in pleasure. I had him! Now I felt for his young small nut-like prostate. Ah, I found it as he reared up from the waist. ‘Geez, Jack, you’re killing me. You are some damn, fucking weirdo. Er, keep it up. It feels kinda nice.’

    I now began sliding my tongue and pressing against his boy clit. He was in full ecstasy now, his hip undulating, I had to hold the sides of his ass to keep my stuff going. I knew his cock was getting stimulation from the sheet under it and I didn’t want him to come out of sight. I stopped the tongue action. I was just about to ask him to turn over when he did so and rested on his elbows. ‘What’s the matter? Why you stop? I was just getting’ ready to spew.’

    ‘That’s good. You kinda like gay stuff huh? But time is up. The money’s on the table. Bye.’

    ‘Hey wait. It’s okay if you take a little longer and finish it—me—up.’

    ‘Lil’ Sean wants his rocks off. Even if it’s with a queer?’

    ‘Oh fuck you. Yeah, I’m hot and hurtin’ get with it, make me cum.’

    ‘Layback, put your arms behind your head. Just relax and let ol’ Jack do his stuff.’

    I could now see both pits, shiny with sweat and fragrant with his special Sean smell. I leaned in and sniffed them. He lifted his head. ‘You are some sicky. Come on. I want a suck job. You know how to do it.’ He snickered at his cleverness but soon fell into a sex stupor as my tongue raked the underside of his cock that lay stretched and hard on his belly. ‘Oh, oh. Nice Jack. Don’t stop. Really take it. I’m really hot.’

    I stroked Sean’s cheeks lovingly. ‘You’ll cum soon, I promise and you will love it.’ But I secretly thought ‘for the first time.”

    I lifted his hard warm sticky cock to a better angle and moved my mouth within an inch and blew softly. His whole trunk lifted to get more contact. I smiled at his avidness. I could get him to do anything now to achieve that cum. I put my lips over the head, pushing his foreskin back as I did so. I tasted pre-cum, sweet and heavy. I moved deeper, three inches and allowed my tongue to lick the back side of the head. He was moaning now. ‘Jack, you fucking shit, you are killing me. Get me off.’

    I moved deeper onto his shaft, my nose was an inch from his luxuriant Irish pubes. Oh, the smell was fabulous. He was beginning to lift his hips to fuck my mouth. I slid deeper until his cockhead was in back of my throat. ‘Oh shit, Jack, this is heaven. I getting close to shootin’. Do you want me to warm you?’

    I took my mouth away a minute and he make disappointed sounds. ‘No kiddo, just let it rip. Enjoy your hundred bucks.’

    He settled back his eyes tightly shut, his mouth cast into a kissy lips. I had an idea. ‘Sean.’

    ‘Bastard, what now. Get to work. I’m dying here.’

    ‘I will right away, but first, can I give you a little neighborly kiss?’

    He let out his breath in annoyance. ‘Okay, just a quick one and let’s get back on the program.’

    I pride myself on being a great kisser as Sean found out. I pressed my lips against his tightly closed mouth. His lips were feverously hot. I moved them slightly. I could hear his breathing increasing. I pressed again. His lips opened up. I slipped my magic tongue inside and found his retracted tongue. I touched it. Suddenly his arms reached up and went around my neck and his tongue came a calling. He slid our tongue back and forth. He was breathing heavy, his chest rising and falling. He was so impassioned with the kissing that I thought he’d might come right then. I pulled back. His mouth was still in a kiss formation. He flushed. I think he was embarrassed by his making out with me.

    I went back to his hard cock and immediately took it deep into my throat and used a swallowing technique. He was flipping up and down and moaning out loud. He was totally in orbit now, slave to the sensations I was giving him. I could taste lots of pre-cum. He was a big leaker. Now he gets his reward. I began tonguing and moving up and down. He should have cum by now but the heavy stimulation had crossed his wires and he was struggling and gasping and moaning but he couldn’t cross the line. I lifted up. ‘Sean, I’m going to help you cross the river.’ I reached around and entered his ass. At the same time I got back on the horse and began a vigorous sucking. My finger found his hot spot. I stroked it. He was choking with excitement and calling my name, and cursing me at the same time. Suddenly all sound stopped and all movement. His body went into totally lock. Then he began small sounds like hiccups. His cock seemed to get longer then pulled in to ready itself for launch. The first small spurt was accompanied by a shout from Sean, ‘Oh shit, I spilling, get ready.’ The second spurt was much heavier and he was crying out his passion. Three more loads followed and then little deliveries as he began to calm down.

    He lay there, his eyes closed, bathed in sweat. ‘Did you like that Sean?’

    ‘It was okay,’ he said and then laughed as I cuffed him in the arm.

    ‘Tell you what, I enjoyed it although I didn’t cum. What would you say to an addional $100 for wankin’ me off.’

    ‘Euew! That would be really queer. But I do need the money. Just don’t look at me when I do it, kay?’

    I lay down like he had, my arms behind my head. My cock was very aroused and already slimy with pre-sum. He gingerly reached out and took my cock. ‘You ever fool around with your friends?’ I asked as my breathing began to increase.

    ‘Naw, I know some do it but I was too interested in getting started with girls. I know a lot of the guys stare at me in the locker room but I just ignore them.’

    He knew how to wank, he had eighteen years of training on himself. I tried to keep quiet so as not to scare him but his smooth teenage fingers were so hot on my cock that I moaned a bit. He took his hand back. ‘Am I doing it wrong?’

    ‘No it’s s-o-o good.’

    He resumed and now put his fist around it and began a nice slow rhythm. I was breathing hard. ‘Enjoy it Jack. This’ll be the one and only time.’

    I knew that was not likely to be true. My guy was hooked. Pretty soon he said, ‘Jack, I think you’re ready to deliver, your balls up up around the shaft and the head is getting purple. You have to up the price for me to continue.’ Then he laughed evilly. ‘Only kidding, let’s launch this cum now.’ He began a fast pace up over the head and then down again. I was bawling with pleasure and he seemed to enjoy what effect his shagging make on me.

    ‘Sean, here it cums.’ I shot all over my chest and some went on his smooth, tan arm, some into my hair. What a mess but it was fabulous. At last he saw that I had no more to give and I had gotten sensitive.

    ‘Okay neighbor, enjoyed being with you but I gotta run now.’ Sean said putting on his shorts.

    We resumed our normal relationship. He still stole beer but about a week before the prom he told me that he was still about $100 short and would I consider, you know.

    ‘Sean, the only think I would consider is if you fuck me. I know neither of us ever did it. It would be something different.’

    He thought for a moment. ‘Well, okay, it’s icky. Can you clean yourself a lot first and get me a condom. I’m not ready to be a father.’ He laughed a long time. ‘How about in an hour?’


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  • Haltlos

    Tonight was a mind fuck as much as it was a fuck. When I said I needed a couple of hours to be able to sit down and stop my head from swimming, I meant days. But I’ve stretched out seven shots of tequila since seven o’clock, I’ve just taken three more, and the glow has dissipated enough to get this down. Normally I would just write this in longhand. All of these times in a room with Greg, go into my journal.

    I’ve never shared what we do in the room and when I say room, I mean playroom I’ve written around it, in second/third person in some of my other stories but they were mostly just stories. I’ve never shared what’s in my journal (the paper one), just didn’t occur to me to do it. But, I received a lot of questions lately about my lifestyle why it is Greg and I are together when we seem to have so many problems from the outside, and this is a big reason why.

    Have you ever-surrendered total control of your being your body your mind your soul and the skin that holds it all together to another person? If you never have, you’ve just never found the right person, and you should start today. I say that because, I’ve never felt more alive, more dead, more pain, more joy, more dread, more fuck than I have under Greg’s control. Ahh yes, I am his sub never have been in any other relationship, but Greg’s not like any other relationship. I’ll give you a brief description of the fleshy sweaty machines involved so you can better picture who were are, and just what it looks like when we do the things we do to each other.

    I’m 6 ft 1 in. But I’m lanky not skinny, just no available fat whatsoever, I don’t work out a lot, just lift some weights to tone, actually the diabetes keeps any extra weight off. I usually weigh in at 160, but since Jack’s death last week I’ve somehow managed to lose nearly 8 pounds. Normally I have black hair on my head (I am just about hairless everywhere else) when I don’t shave my head. I have a lot of tattoos. I have six piercings in total well now it’s five, I took out the nose piercing for the funeral, and haven’t put it back in. The rest, well they’re other places.

    Greg is 6 ft 4 in. He’s not over-built at all just completely, totally right in everyway when it comes to his form he maintains himself very well. He’s usually around 250, and he has red hair. But his head is always shaved he used to shave his eyebrows too, but doesn’t now, and has grown back his goatee. He’s got three piercings most of which I love is the tongue piercing, because it can just do amazing things to my cock. He’s got some pretty amazing blue/black eyes, they change colors with whatever he’s wearing. He’s got a left nipple ring, and a snake tatt that comes from his right shoulder and curls underneath his right pec.

    We were lucky. Zeke’s friend Trey Zeke is a pretty messed up cat had a playroom (I fucking hate the word dungeon), had the tools, and had the time. Greg had been mad at me all night, and all day, for what I never figured out. He’s best in the room when we’ve just had a fight. He’s part apology, and compassion the other part just wants to punish me some more, wants his pain to be my pain. He’s best in the room when we’ve just had a fight.

    Throughout this I’m including some of the things that Greg says during he’s originally from Germany, moved from there when he was 14 to California he absolutely refuses to speak in German unless we’re in the room. Mostly because his native language takes him some place deeper, mostly because I can’t understand some of it, and it’s that surprise, him telling me what he’s going to do to me, and I can’t understand it the lilt of his accent can hide danger, it can also make fear grow in your stomach or send it straight to your dick. Greg was kind enough to write some of this down for me.

    Haltlos — Groundless

    There’s preparation, a ritual involved before we ever go into the room. For Greg it’s polishing his Docs, and shaving his head again. It doesn’t matter if he just did it an hour ago; he does it again. Me? I just make sure my body is ready. Whenever we are going to the room, we don’t talk. We don’t say a word. I won’t even look at Greg, but he’s looking at me.

    This afternoon it was hot and muggy, and my nerves were stretched, exposed, bleeding, and burning in the air because of everything that’s happened. If I could paint you a picture, my soul, my self would be a full glass of water. And that glass would be sitting right at the edge of the table, and each time someone walks by the glass is moved by the vibrations, closer to the edge. And this afternoon, the physical pain from last night’s fight had just subsided when somebody with heavy, heavy footsteps walked by and my glass tipped and started the swoon down water spilling out, the glass determined to break all of its bones on the marble floor and that was me, right after I suggested we find a room.

    halt mich stop me

    There’s nothing like the look on my man we he knows that he’s got me. There’s nothing like the thunk, and the squeak of a sharp turn of his boots when he’s coming for me. Nothing makes me harder than his four fingers and thumb like angry slow pistons digging into my shoulder to guide me into the room. I wanted so badly to touch him, to lean up against him and grab his crotch through his jeans, and rub up and down the length have him wrap his arm around my chest and crush me to him suck on the side of my neck, and push me forward and bend me over a chair

    But that’s everyday. The room isn’t everyday, and when he’s leading I can’t touch, only if I’m told I can. So I stood there, all five pistons cranking into the muscle just under my neck, and he was standing so close that I could feel the hard edge of his cock through his jeans. It was barely touching the crack of my ass, and it took everything in my soul not to lean back in that grip and take what I wanted.

    Greg leaned his head ever so slightly and whispered into my ear, ‘Erregen Sie mich nicht’ – Do not provoke me.

    Each deep vowel pounded in my dick, like a pulse like an electric eel wrapped around my cock that would squeeze with each syllable.

    binde du binds you

    Trey’s room was wonderful. He had a beautiful fir St. Andrew’s cross, with a detachable butterfly chair, a T-post, some very nice leather restraints chains tools, and most importantly some excellent knives.

    Okay now, only the most experienced top, should ever, ever, use knives. Because no matter how good you are there’s always the possibility to trip, to fall into your partner to kill them. If you are going to do some knife play, use only the flat end and a duller blade as with anything, this is an art it’s not about injury for injuries sake, and if you bleed for more than ten minutes, get a fever or a rash go to the hospital. And for god sakes, if you’re not experienced enough use a neuro wheel, make some vampire gloves just leave the knife play to an expert.

    I had to put that in there just because I had too.

    Greg was excited to see the knives they were German, I don’t remember the brand, and usually Greg won’t handle anything but his own knife which is a Boker Applegate boot knife, but evidently he’s worked with whatever Trey had, might have been a Linder, because he picked it up and smiled. My heart twisted, my stomach rose up to meet it, and I felt like I was going faint. Greg just steadied me, and rubbed the back of my neck while he hefted the knife and I swear with each heartbeat, I kept breathing out and not in.

    Greg sneered, Trey quietly backed out of the room, and he dimmed the lights. And here’s where the mind fuck begins.

    Fessle mich Provoke me

    Greg took a CD out of his goody bag the infamous black duffle. It was the Schindler’s List soundtrack. Now that may sound weird, and it is fucking weird and messed up considering my background, and Greg’s background because normally the room is just Beethoven, Symphony No. 9 in D minor, nothing like this. Greg flipped through some tracks, pushed play and then repeat. He turned to me, and I know this now because I asked him.

    OFY’N Pripetshok / Nacht Aktion was playing. It’s sung in Yiddish and it’s about learning the ABC’s well that sounds stupid when you say it like that but I don’t know Yiddish, and it’s children’s voices singing this and I just kept getting images from the movie, and Greg’s coming at me, the knife is at his side and we’ve begun it’s all begun.

    He reaches with his right hand and clamps down, holding me where I’m at, and that track of the children singing, and the tragically sad mellow one that follows has just repeated for the first time, and he brings the knife forward with his left hand gives that small cock to his head, and he’s concentrating. He pulls me forward the tiniest bit and the knife, not the tip, but the edge is resting at the top of my chest. And there’s nothing I can write that can impart the feeling of a blade so close to your neck, and you know there’s nothing you can do the mercy is not in the knife it’s in the man holding. My cock was full, up and down and in the two seconds it takes Greg pulls my t-shirt out just a tiny bit with this other hand, and in a flick he’s run the knife from neck to navel through the shirt and suddenly I feel air.

    His hand the one holding the knife is pressed tip up on my dick mirroring the position, and I dare not breath, because if my stomach expands it will push into the tip and I’ll get cut.

    Du offnen sich zu mir – You will open to me

    And because this is the room, and we are who we are Greg pulls me into him, turns the knife at the last second so the tip doesn’t puncture my stomach, but I can still feel the cold clinical steel, and a tiny burn where I know the line of the blade has run along my stomach and I could cum right then and there. There’s that one half-second where I thought I did, because my balls pulled tight and there was that camera flash squeeze, but I didn’t because I’m not allowed too.

    Greg still had the knife in between us, but his other arm was wrapped around my back keeping me there, and he started to kiss me. Softly at first, and not really kisses but tiny lip nips tiny bites that got harder and wetter as he began to move the knife again. When both of our mouths were completely open, and his tongue was doing just what the knife was doing invading, twisting, turning pushing into my soft palette. Greg turned the knife, his hard knuckles grinding into the tip of my cock through the jeans, and as he was turning the knife he cut off the little metal button. I heard it hit the concrete floor in-between OYF’N Pripetshok and Natch Aktion and you have to understand, this is spooky this feels like a sin, doing this to this music but it’s ethereal and beautiful too.

    I hadn’t been let up for air from his kiss, and I was starting to get light-headed when my knees slipped that tiniest bit, Greg managed to get the knife in-between my jeans and my flesh (commando only way to go), and with the non business edge of the blade one cold hard line on my cock, the blade moves down in one motion and my zipper is forgotten as the front of my pants are sliced open. There’s no air hitting my cock, because the hard handle of the knife is pressed up against it. And I’m going to swoon here

    Ahhh writing this is so slow tonight I hurt everywhere, and can’t sit for more than ten minutes at a time haha, I see the trip to Big Bend might have to wait until Thursday, because there’s no way in hell I’m sitting in a car for that long. Even on a plane.

    Don’t get me wrong when I say sore and hurt I’m thinking loved and satiated being uncomfortable for a day is a price I’m more than willing to pay but I’m so fucking tired right now.. the darvacet just kicked in, and I can’t even think anymore.

    Tomorrow night and we’ll finish the rest of my day.

  • Bones Broken – Pain Control

    August 1st, 2002 – Hanover Germany

    My broken leg made it to Europe even though we had to pop for extra seats for it. This is worth it, being here with Greg in his home. The home of the parents of their parents of their parents of their parents, and so on and so forth until there were peasants to farm the dark fields that surround this house.

    In some ways I am Greg’s house and he remodels me. He kept beating his rhythm into me as I came just a little while ago, because that’s what he likes, to feel me tighten and sink and fall away. He pulled me into him and we were stuck like a wet glove to a winter-snow hand that’s just come in to steam near the stove. When he shot inside me somehow the moon appeared in the gauze/gold fabric of the canopy of the bed. My heart hiccupped and all I saw was the glow of my cum on his chest.

    His parent’s house has never known a neighborhood. It doesn’t know what’s down the block, because there has never been a block for this house to sit on. This house comes as is, from a time where the land around it, was its own little kingdom.

    It’s no wonder that none of the windows have any eyelids/curtains in Greg’s parent’s house. I’m say this because I’m sitting here naked, sitting in a large padded chair in our bedroom, facing the bathroom, watching Greg take a shower in the non-shower door gray-blue stone wall enclosure, and the dark trees and darker sky outside is sketching us.

    Greg’s got a small bowl of fruit on top of the partition of the shower and he’s snagging pieces of apples as he’s washing himself. That seems decadent. That seems wrong.

    His G4 laptop pressed up against my cock seems wrong too, but you don’t hear me complaining.

    I’d like to kiss him right now. Kiss Greg. Get a mouthful of hot water, tongue, and pieces of apple something to chew on and swallow as I drink him in.

    Greg is beautiful. I love how he turned just then. It’s wonderful to watch that bulk of muscle at his shoulders going down, carrying his arm as he turns to catch a look at me as he’s slicking his cock with soap.

    If I hadn’t just been fucked near numb, I would be in the shower with him right now, eating the apple out of his mouth and drinking the water before it even hit his body.

    I love how his profile looks. When he puts his foot on the small tiled ledge that runs around the open shower, his calf flexes, stands out and so does his ass, being beat with the water. When he’s turned like this, his pecs are so noticeable, and although not over-built at all; they are bas relief to his frame. When he turns, his whole frame turns because there’s power in that, in that follow thru, no bending no twisting his whole body turns, muscles following muscles and his balls meet the base of his cock—because he’s lifting them up with his wet hand drawing his cock hard in a sketch just for me.

    I just lifted up the laptop to reveal my appreciation of his form.

    He just popped another slice of apple in his mouth, put his face under the water, and shook his whole head, like a wet animal. But he has no hair to drip. His scalp is shaved and red with a few bite-marks from earlier, small little smiles for me, from me, for him.

    I think I sunk my teeth into his scalp and chewed/licked/sucked it when he had to hold the thick wood banister of the bed earlier so he could fuck me harder.

    I was held between the wood and him and there wasn’t any room to move to go and it simply was him above me. My left leg pressed against his chest, the one with the cast throbbing off to the right in rhythm to his fucking. He locked me in between the wood and him, clasped the banister, almost ripping down the fabric that hung on the canopy, scooping my ass up and down and breaking me in with these slow deep drum beats.

    It’s that moment where I can’t talk, where I can’t moan/groan appreciate, because my air is being cold-cocked with his thrusts. Robbed and beaten, and this hurts, but this is a paying up of sorts to him, to use a backward redemption where we are walking back thru the hurt to get to the end paying for the fight that led up to the broken leg. It is this knowledge that I am doing that for him and he is doing it to me that swirls me like spinning a circle in your room, just twirling until you open your eyes and you don’t see right away, you just feel the turning of the earth; gravity and stars build a bridge in your stomach, from your cock to your heart and out your mouth and it escapes in a dry thank you as he’s beating his rhythm into me and all I can hear is his balls against my ass and the wood complaining in his fucking in his grip.

    That’s why he loves me so much, physically that is.

    I asked him once wouldn’t he prefer someone as bulky as he is? I mean he’s right at 240 and a tall guy. I’m over six foot but near 80 pounds later.

    He says he loves to grip my hips and hold me to him as he’s entering me. Says it’s something about the control, but more about the trust, because even though I’m not near as built, there’s a power within me. Kind of a red-fuzz ball vibration he said he feels when he holds me like that, and it is my willingness to let him hold me, keep me, sink into me, that amazes and enthralls him.

    That’s why I took some extra pain pills tonight. My broken leg is throbbing. I knew late tonight when he was behind me, insisted on undressing me that he was needing me and needing me in this way.

    My eyes melted into his so he could see just what he was doing to me and how he had made me. He leaned into me, his hand wet with sweat, slipping on the wood, and gripping my shoulder, his jaw tensed face breathed air made out of melting sand stinging across my chest, and he said,

    ‘Cum.’

    And I did as he thrust me through that moment. That sound, his words, that feeling his cock, like the dullest knife paring me into him, for him.

    I came and I painted him.

    I wanted to lick the wet shine on his teeth as he bared them, cumming into me with a needle that spread and turned into a million more needles, all orange and soft at the tips, with a pressure that grew in my ass, that started at up my spine and unfurled like wings thru my back. Wings that folded in and made my chest blind with fuzzy darkness and I imagined I was the devil’s angel and that this was as close to any eternal as I would ever get, because he was just at his end, still pumping me, and I came again.

    What I remember next is the comforter on my face. It felt kind of stiff, but soft, a decorative button was biting into my cheek. I next heard the sound of steam.

    Greg had already washed me down with a rag, because my dick was pink, warm, and grateful.

    So I decided to pick up the laptop and write while I still felt the red-fuzz balls curling through my ass, and singing through me.

    I am fucking sore ‘this is reverse pain control’ my broken leg is a slow fire, incense burning inside the cast, but this is the price of my mountain. It’s the price of my husband.

    I shouldn’t have watched him while he is showering.

    I’m too hard for the laptop to sit here like this, any second now, and my dick is going to start typing.

    I am so lost in him. He’s a hedge-maze that I want to be tangled in. We’ll water and sun together the rest of our days, our branches will defy God and we will never be solved as he heals my broken bones.

  • Beyond the Closet Door

    If you haven’t been able to guess by the subject line, I am a gay man and this is my coming out blog.

    I must! Do all that I can to insure that every possible opportunity exists for me to find a lover . . . a boyfriend . . . a future fiance . . . perhaps a husband?

    I am gay.

    I’ve always been gay.

    Now I need to acknowledge this fact, and act accordingly.

    All my life I’ve been alone. Never had a real girlfriend. Never had a real date. I’ve never woken up in a woman’s arms. I’ve never made love with a woman. I’ve never been really attracted in a sexual way towards women.

    On the other hand:

    I have slept in a bed with a cousin and brother.

    I slept naked with them.

    During my teen-age years we shared several intimate experiences.

    Sometimes we snuggled.

    Sometimes we cuddled.

    Sometimes we kissed.

    Sometimes we rubbed our penis’s together.

    Sometimes we would 69.

    Sometimes we necked.

    We experienced everything except anal sex and I never got to suck them long enough to make them cum.

    We would take showers together so we could kiss and hold each other tight. I would go to my knees and take his penis in my mouth. I would suck and suck until he got hard, then he would force me to stop before I could make him cum.

    Sometimes my cousin would take me in his mouth as I sucked him in bed. We would get at opposite ends of the bed and we were about the same height so it was easy to gobble each other.

    Only I gobbled.

    My cousin just let me lie in his mouth.

    Sometimes we would go out into the woods so we could roll around and rub our organs together.

    Many times we would experiment late at night.

    We shared a bunk bed. Usually we slept at opposite ends. At some point during the night, his foot would snake up my thigh and he would slide his toes up under my underwear. I would do the same to him.

    ‘Come up here,’ I would say.

    Shawn would move up to my end of the bed and I would lie on my back and spread my thighs.

    He would lower himself down on me and we would kiss as we did some heavy petting.

    ‘Why do you always wear panties?’ he asked me one time.

    I told him I liked the way the panties felt and I wanted to be his girl.

    I think he was turned off by that, I don’t know.

    Eventually I would take off his underwear and I would take off my panties.

    We would rub ourselves together and sometimes we did it just right and the feel of our cocks rubbing against one another was so wonderful I would moan out with pleasure.

    I got crazy in bed with my cousin. I squeezed him with all the strength in my arms and legs.

    I repeatedly asked him to enter me but he wouldn’t.

    Finally it all stopped when I said I wanted to be his girlfriend.

    He said he wasn’t gay, just experimenting.

    From that time on I’ve had to fantasize about how it might be.

    I had a few chances to be with a man but I let my pride and shame keep me from being the girlfriend in a same sex, man to man relationship.

    I lived in Dallas for a while. I lived by myself and there was a neighbor guy who had the hots for me.

    Oh how I wish I had just let him know I wanted him too.

    I hid the truth though.

    I met a brother of a close friend in 1990. He called me ‘Blondie’ and I acted like I took offense. Really though, I wanted to find some way to be alone with him.

    A few years later he called and said he was coming out with his brother to see me.

    I lived in the country with an Aunt and Uncle.

    If he had come out, I know we would have become lovers.

    I wanted him so bad that day that I took a long bath.

    It was on this day that I experienced the pleasure of anal play.

    I shoved a bar of soap up inside me to clean me out and I gasped with pleasure.

    Oh my God it felt so good.

    From that time on, I’ve looked and looked for something to simulate a penis. I’ve worn butt plugs. I’ve used those big sharpies when I didn’t have a butt plug.

    I love having something big and long inside me.

    I can’t wait for the real thing though.

    I experienced something today though that I’ve never experienced before.

    I found an enema syringe (I guess that’s what you call it). I filled the bulb with water and squirted the whole thing inside me. It was wonderful. I can’t wait to feel actual hot, sweet cum explode inside me like that.

    I can’t wait to actually use scented douches so my boyfriend will enjoy eating, tonguing and sucking my hole.

    I can’t wait to wear eatable panties for him.

    I want to kiss with both of us holding Hershey’s Kisses in our mouths. As we kiss the chocolate melts and we trade back and forth until our saliva and the chocolate is gone.

    I can’t wait to neck.

    I can’t wait to wear a dress or sexy women’s wear and go out in public with him. I can’t wait to hold hands in public. To kiss in public.

    I can’t wait to Nair my legs, chest, crotch, underarms and pubic and anal hair so I’ll be silky smooth.

    I can’t wait to swell shut around him after hours of anal sex.

    I can’t wait to suck him raw. To drink his urine from time to time. I can’t wait to roll with him in a sleeping bag, a sleeping bag for singles. I want to be wrapped tightly with him. I imagine us finding a secluded place at night where we can get into the sleeping bag and just roll over and over together.

    I can’t wait to make love with him in missionary style so we can kiss and I can cling to him while I roll and toss him as he plunges deep inside me. I can’t wait to feel him on top of me.

    So many things I want.

    I want to cook for him, clean for him, keep house for him, be his girlfriend in every way. I want to find a man who believes in getting married. A man who wouldn’t mind making me his bride.

    I’m looking for real love.

    I can’t stand it any longer.

    I’m not out to friends and family and I’m using a false name but I do want to come out some day.

    I want to have a boyfriend first though.

    So I am making a pledge. I have set a goal.

    I will! Have! A! Boyfriend! By April 2, 2007.

    I will.

    I want to find a man who’ll buy me things from www.electriqueboutique.com

    When I find that man, he’ll have found the true love of his life.

    I won’t have a sex change but I will consider taking feminine hormones so my voice will be higher, my skin smoother and my desires even more effeminate.

    So, now you know what I want…let me tell you how I got to this point.

    As I sit here writing this journal, I can’t help but think about the first time I realized I was different.

    I recognized this difference at the age of seven. Something happened then that made me feel whole. Something that still makes me feel whole.

    I feel whole right now because I’m wearing women’s clothing.

    I am wearing a thong and it’s pulled tightly up inside my butt so it will hold the butt plug firmly in place. Over that I am wearing a pair of satin crotchless panties. Covering that is a pair of nylon panty-hose. I slipped a pair of ruffle panties over the hose. I put another pair of hose on over that. I put on a pair of lace and nylon panties. Another pair of hose and then some tight elastic girly shorts. They’re pink.

    I have a black mini-dress and a body stocking too. I wish I had more though. I want tights. I want a night gown, some more dresses. I want to wear slips, a full body stocking with sleeves. I want to wear sexy tight panties, so tight that they squeeze me. I want to get the panties in petite sizes. I want to wear tight hose. I want to wear skirts, bikini bathing suits, heels, wigs sometimes (although I’d rather let my beautiful blonde hair grow long). I want to wear baby dolls’ teddies, tight fitting see through things and all kinds of women’s clothes.

    I want to ware perfume. I want to put lipstick on for my boyfriend before we kiss. I want to douche. I want to be a girl in every way except that my anus will always be my vagina.

    While I won’t enter him much, I would like to 69. I do like being sucked. I do like rubbing my cock with another. I am a man, I’m not trying to avoid this truth.

    I don’t wear women’s wear to appear as a girl; I wear women’s wear to appear as a man who loves being girly.

    I felt girly for the first time at the age of seven. I’ve wanted a boyfriend since that time.

    Leslie Renee

    40 years old

    Gemini

    5 feet, two inches tall

    130 pounds

    Blonde hair

    Blue eyes

    Petite

    In good physical shape

    HIV negative

    STD free

    Virgin

    Hobbies: reading, writing, computing, internet, wearing women’s clothes, finding a boyfriend, listening to music, playing the drums, bible study, Christianity, research, week-end get aways, breakfast in bed, romance, flowers, candy, long baths, long walks, holding hands, kissing, cuddling, snuggling, movies, dancing, walking and sometimes jogging, swimming, camping out, theater/arts, shopping, cleaning, cooking. I like the sound of rain while in bed. I like masturbation. I like giving head. I love anal sex. My favorite books are Shogun, Taiko, gay fiction and nonfiction. Favorite movies are Forest Gump, Steel Magnolias, Broke Back Mountain, Six Weeks, To Kill a Mockingbird, Titanic. I love Star Wars and Star Trek. Data was my favorite.

    My favorite drink is Dr. Pepper. I like steak, chicken, Mexican food, Cajun food, fried chicken, chocolate fudge, Mississippi Mud Cake and Rocky Road Ice-cream.

    I’m real and I’m looking for a real man who’ll be my boyfriend and who’ll let me be his girlfriend.

    For starters anyway.

    My ultimate goal is to change my last name to his.

    My ultimate goal is to come out to my friends and family and then leave with my boyfriend and start out new.

    I don’t mean he has to leave his location but I do want to leave mine.

    So, if you’re reluctant to date a man because you don’t know if he will want to move, fret no longer; I’ll move gladly when I find my knight in shining armor.

    I’d love to be a ‘kept lover.’

    I’d even like to be a truck driver’s lover. I’d be willing to date people who travel. I can work anywhere I have computer access so we can spend time together as he travels.

    My greatest wish and desire is to find a very rich gay man who is a masculine top into girly bottoms; effeminates.

    I’d love to find someone who could and would spoil me.

    I’d drop my current life in a second to become that man’s girl.

    Are you out there?

    Discovering Selective Impotence

    12:03:27 AM

    Well before I tell you the story of my struggles with sexuality, I want to make an interesting observation.

    It isn’t one that just occurred to me but it is one that keeps reoccurring.

    There have been two opportunities in my life when I could have had sex with a woman. Both times I was impotent. The first occasion happened when Sam, my best friend and I got drunk together and she got horny and we kissed a little. She got naked and we rolled around in her bed. She wanted me to enter her but I did not respond. My penis remained soft and small.

    The next time came when a girl named Tabitha spent the night with me. We kissed a lot and she got naked. I ate her out good and hated every minute of it. I didn’t like the taste or the feel. I was impotent that night too.

    But When I experimented with my cousin and brother, I grew hard right away. I loved kissing. I loved taking them in my mouth and bobbing my head up and down. I loved running my tongue around the tip and the crevasse between the head and the shaft. I loved caressing one side of their penis with my upper lip as I caressed the other side with my lower lip. I loved sucking on their lips. I loved it when they put their tongues in my mouth. I loved it when we were in bed and I was wearing panties. I loved having them on top of me. I loved showering together when we could moan a little and make passionate sounds as we breathed hard and kissed fiercely.

    My anus tightens at the thought of having a man inside me.

    I’ve never gotten this aroused from thoughts of a woman.

    Every time I think of being with a woman, I end up feeling disappointed. When I think of being with a man, I am aroused and I feel hopeful.

    So I know with out a doubt that I’m gay.

    I’m not transgender but I am effeminate. I don’t think I’m a girl but I know I want to be the girl in a same sex relationship.

    I don’t have a gender crisis problem. I know I’m a guy. I know I was not meant to be a girl. But, I was! Meant to be a gay man’s girlfriend. A homosexual man’s fiancé, the bride of a sincere, soft-hearted, romantic, well-hung, intimate, sexy, masculine top.

    One who kisses well and likes to kiss. One who will bathe with me. One who will sit on a closed toilet lid, let me straddle him, face to face so that I can lower myself down on his hard, long cock. I imagine us kissing deeply as I slid up and down his shaft, my anus lubricated with stimulating jell. The kind that enhances sensation.

    I want to learn the anal practices so I can suck him with my anal muscles. So I can draw water up inside me as I bathe. I want to learn to tighten myself around him until he is unable to move. I want to swell shut around him.

    I want to let my hair grow long. I want to get a body stocking that will hold the both of us inside.

    I want to spend days just wrapped around him.

    I want to b able to scream out loud as we make love. I want to be with a man and to be with him in every way without shame, without disgust, without fear of persecution, without fear of failing. Without fear of getting a disease. Without fear that it is just a one night stand.

    I want to be certain that the man I’m with for the first time will be the only man I’ll ever be with. I’ll gladly give my all to the man who can give me all I desire.

    I write this diary for that man.

    My love if you are reading this, then obviously you’ve made me happy. You’ve made my dreams come true.

    And now I’ll make you happy for the rest of our lives.

    You’ll be proud to introduce me as your girlfriend. And I’ll be proud to be your girl.

    I’ll talk baby talk, I’ll snuggle close to you in public, we’ll hold hands, we’ll kiss. We’ll embrace, we’ll say ‘I love you,’ We’ll go into lingerie stores together. We’ll go into a dressing room together as you dress me in girly things. You’ll buy me all kinds of clothes. Skirts, panties (nylon, satin, lace, all kinds), dresses (mini dresses, see through, evening dresses, party dresses, skimpy dresses, little girl dresses), tight hose, night gowns, perfume, makeup, douche, Nair, lipstick, necklaces, tights, baby dolls, teddies, body stockings, hose, bikini bathing suits, thongs, eatable panties, heels, jump suits, bedroom toys, bubble baths, leg wax, body oils, lotions, and harnesses that will allow us to enter each other at the same time. We would use two dongs to have anal sex at the same time.

    I want to make love in stacks of pillows. You lower me into a bird’s nest of soft pillows so that my anus is high up and you can enter me as you lie on top of me, chest to chest, mouth to mouth, waist to waist, tummy to tummy. Legs around you, locked at the calves with binders.

    We are glued together with body glue from torso to tummy. My thighs are glued to your hips and lower back. We wear some kind of fitting that keeps our mouths together.

    Man I wish you were here now.

    Well, since you’re not I guess I better stop fantasizing and tell you the story of my ‘coming to terms.’

    Little Girl Panties

    I was about seven years old when I found a pair of little girl panties lying in the hallway of our house.

    I’m not sure how I knew they were panties but I did. I immediately became curious.

    I wondered how they would feel. The fabric felt different than underwear, somehow prettier the feel of the fabric made me feel something different? Hopeful? Happy? Strange?

    Yes. I did feel these things and I didn’t know why.

    I put the panties in my pocket and later I went into the bathroom and changed my underwear for the panties. I put my underwear in the hamper and I wore those panties for a long time. I loved the way they squeezed my hips, waist and crotch. I liked running my fingers over the fabric. I liked the way they fit on me. They were very tight but then that’s why I wear three pairs of hose and several pairs of panties. I want tight fitting femwear and I don’t have any so I make due with what I have.

    I want my legs to be wrapped tightly in hose or tights. I want to feel the panties hug my body. I want to feel the thong strap inside me. I want to feel the butt plug pressing deep inside me. I want to feel it as I sit in this chair.

    I want to feel the girly feeling I get when I wear girly clothes. I want to wear my little dress and the body stocking.

    I want to have the opportunity to actually go out in public, dressed in women’s wear, (skimpy dress, sexy hose, sexy panties, pretty necklace, lipstick, makeup, shaved body hair and either my own long hair or a wig. I want to be wearing chocolate panties so he can eat them off of me at the end of the day. I want to be dressed as a girl but I also want people to know I’m a man. I want to walk with him, hand in hand, arms around each other, my head on his shoulder, my lipstick on his mouth and smeared on mine. A hitch in my walk from the soreness of last night’s love making and the pressure of the lubricating butt plug inside me. The one he will use to lubricate me tonight before he suck the butt plug out of me and fill me with his eleven inches.

    But, I digress.

    For months I washed out the little girl panties so I could wear them again and again.

    It was about this time that I met a kid named John McKnight. I know now that I loved John. I fantasized that we were one body. We were clad in the same pair of jeans, the same shirt. The same underwear. I would be wrapped around him as we shared the same suit of clothes.

    I dreamed of sleeping with him but there was no romance, just the closeness.

    John and I played a lot together and sometimes we would run together, holding hands.

    In the fifth grade I held hands with another kid. Oh how I’ve missed him over the years. I think that I really began to feel homosexual attraction in the fifth grade.

    Kyle Linder was the kid that Mr. Burns, our homeroom teacher, assigned to help me out.

    You see I am blind. I have been blind all of my life. For the first four years of my schooling, I went to a day school for the blind.

    In 1977 we moved from that area and I began attending public school.

    Kyle was selected to show me around and acquaint me with everyone.

    We became closer and closer every day. We would walk to the lunch room holding hands. We didn’t just hold hands like the old style, our fingers were intertwined together. We held hands like a girl and boy. Sometimes we would squeeze each other’s hand. Sometimes he would move his hand and run it from my knee up my thigh. He would do this when we went to the auditorium to watch a movie. I would put my hand on the inside of his thigh too.

    After several months we found a secret place behind the school building. It was protected from view by shrubbery.

    We would pretend to wrestle under the protection but within a few seconds, he was on top of me, my legs were around him and we were grinding our hips together.

    I think we would have become lovers if he had not moved away in the sixth grade.

    I remember I was very sad.

    Around this time, I learned that I’m not as sexually attracted to women as I am men.

    One night my sister came to me and invited me to sleep with her. She took my hand and rubbed it against her panties.

    I wasn’t interested. I was not aroused. But the following weekend, my cousin and I kissed and rolled together and showered and we rubbed cocks. We French kissed for the first time. We snuck off all day and spent time kissing, rubbing, doing a little oral sex (again, I would suck him with hunger but he would just put the tip of me in his mouth. I would try to thrust myself down his throat but he wouldn’t let me.

    So, we kissed a whole lot.

    We also did a lot of heavy petting. Many times we would come close to orgasm but he would always stop.

    I fantasized about some of the boys in school.

    We were studying CPR in PE class. The other boys were playing basketball after we studied health topics for a while. I would lie on the bleachers listening to them play doge ball or war ball. I dreamed that one of the kids would come up to me, lower his mouth to mine and we would pretend to practice CPR but would instead be kissing.

    There was some discussion of me going to Austin to the Texas School for the Blind. I would have gone during my eighth grade year. I looked forward to it.

    I just knew I’d find a boyfriend there. Maybe my room mate would be gay? We were teenagers too so we weren’t so afraid to experiment or to take a chance.

    I didn’t go though but I did continue to experience intimacy with Shawn.

    I also began to raid my sister’s panty drawer. I would prowl through the drawer until I found a sexy feeling pair. I’d wear them and wash them over and over until they began to fall apart.

    I also discovered maxi-pads. I would tape one end of the pad to my balls and run the pad up through my legs, up into the crack of my ass. I would make sure the pad was securely attached to me. I loved this feeling. I don’t know why.

    One night my brother and I were rubbing cocks and I started moaning so loud that my parents almost caught us.

    That was the end for me and my brother.

    Shawn and I shared a couple more experiences but that ended as I indicated before.

    I tried heterosexual relationships for the next several years but failed at all of them.

    I would always find myself fantasizing about being with a man.

    In 1987 a friend told me that Stuart had a crush on me. I blew it off and have wished every day since that I had not.

    I was living alone. I wanted to be with a man. I lived in the gay part of Dallas. A rich man was interested in me. I wanted to be his girl but I was scared. How easily I could have left my friends, parents and family to be with him. But I didn’t. When I finally decided to tell him how I felt, it was too late.

    The greatest opportunity I ever had might have been the greatest love ever known.

    Stuart told my friend that he would do whatever. He would kiss, he would suck my dick, he would fuck me, he would cuddle with me he would do anything.

    I wish I had told my friend ‘go tell him his girlfriend is waiting for him.’

    My Uncle had moved out the day that I learned of Stuart’s interest. My Uncle was straight and I vowed that once he left, I’d have a boyfriend.

    I think that Stuart and I would have gotten together if I would have had any kind of experience. I’d never even kissed at that time. Well, except with my cousin but it was never the way I wanted. I want deep kisses, long kisses, kisses filled with saliva, with mouths corkscrewing, with suction, with moans, kisses that involve sucking lips, caressing lips with lips. Kisses that involve Hershey’s Kisses. Kisses that last for hours. Kisses that leave us with swollen lips, bruised lips, dry mouths and a hunger to move on to foreplay.

    Kisses that lead to necking and huge bruises on necks.

    Kisses that grow intense as he begins to orgasm inside me and as I begin to have the ultimate anal orgasm. We mold our mouths together so that the screams won’t be too loud.

    I’m a good kisser now but at the time I knew Stuart, I wasn’t and I didn’t want to fail.

    Stuart invited me to share his water bed but I didn’t hear his message right and missed that opportunity.

    He took me to work a few times.

    A thousand times I’ve wondered what would have happened if I had snuggled over against him as he drove me to work. What if I had leaned over towards him before getting out of the car to go to work? What if I had leaned over, said bye in a sweet feminine voice, and turned my mouth up to indicate that I wanted a kiss.

    What if I had walked over and snuggled up against him on one of those nights he sat on my couch and we talked. I always sat on my bed and he sat on the couch.

    What if I had walked out to talk to him the night my parents came down?

    Stuart was mad at me about something. At the time I didn’t know what but he was mad because he thought I was sleeping with another guy. There was a friend who needed a place to stay one night and I let him stay. He ended up coming back and robbing me. It took me a while to figure out why Stuart was glad about me getting robbed but finally I realized he was jealous and he thought I was gay and didn’t have any interest in him.

    So, what if I had walked out to talk to him that night he knocked on my door.

    My parents were there so I walked out to talk to him.

    The entire history of my life could have been changed if I had acted different.

    What if?’ let’s examine that from the ‘fantasy story’ viewpoint.

    Here’s how things could have happened.

    Sweet on Stuart

    ‘Do you want to go to Ihop and eat?’ my mother asked.

    ‘Sure,’ I said.

    Just then there was a loud knock at the door.

    ‘Who could that be?’ my parents asked.

    ‘I don’t know,’ I said, walking to the door and opening it.

    ‘Oh hi,’ Stuart said, ‘are you Leslie’s parents?’

    ‘Yeah, they’re my parents,’ I said ‘come in and meet them.’

    Stuart came in and there were the usual introductions.

    ‘Well we were about to go eat,’ I said, ‘sorry but I’m going to have to go.’

    ‘Okay,’ Stuart said ‘will you be back tomorrow?’

    ‘Not until Sunday,’ I said as I walked to open the door. I walked outside and Stuart followed me. I shut the door behind us.

    ‘Stuart,’ I said, ‘There’s something I need to say.’

    ‘Yeah, whatever!!’

    ‘Stuart, I know why you’re acting this way. Do you think I slept with that guy who spent the night here last night?’

    ‘Well, didn’t you?’

    ‘Stuart,’ I said ‘can we walk down a ways from my apartment?’

    We walked about teen feet and when we stopped, I moved over to Stuart, pressed myself against his side and slowly snaked my left arm around him.

    ‘Stuart I’ve never been with any man. I want to be with a man but you’re the only man I want to be with.’ ‘I’ve been uncertain of my feelings since Billy told me you are attracted to me. From the very first day I’ve wanted to say or do something to give you a sign of interest but I’ve been scared. Stuart, I know! I’m gay. I dream of having a boyfriend. I want someone like you in my life. I want to be with you but I don’t want it to be a one night stand. I want you to be my boyfriend. I want to be your girlfriend. I want to have the kind of relationship with you that might turn into marriage.’

    ‘I really want to just move in with you, quit my job and be your girlfriend, then your fiancé, then your bride.’ Stuart turned to me and took me softly and slowly into his arms. Our mouths met and we kissed gently. ‘Can we hold off until Sunday afternoon?’ I ask in a soft feminine voice as I kiss him lightly. ‘Yes baby, we can,’ he says as he moves his mouth so that we could kiss fully. We kissed for a solid minute or two. I sucked his bottom lip into my mouth. He sucked mine. We kissed with little nips, we corkscrewed our mouths, we briefly slipped our tongues inside. Then we broke and stepped apart.

    ‘If you buy me some girly things and put them in my mailbox I’ll wear them Sunday evening. I’ll get ready before you come over.’

    ‘What if I just leave some stuff under your mattress?’

    ‘Great idea,’ I say as I fish out my key.

    ‘Make a copy of this and drop it in the mail box. You can have the other one. When I get back Sunday I will see what you’ve sent and I’ll wear whatever you bring. I want some panties though, douche, a dress, night gown, something sexy. If you want to take me to meet your parents Sunday evening then I’d like to dress as your girl.’

    ‘Can I introduce you to my parents as my baby?’

    ‘Baby,’ I said turning my mouth up for a last kiss, ‘You can tell them we’re engaged if you want. I plan to move in with you, quit my job, write my family a letter and then spend the rest of my life involved in your world. I’m tired of pretending to be straight. I want to be gay and I want to live where we can kiss in public, hold hands, slow dance together. I want to live where I can wear girly things for you. I want to live where we can go to stores and buy lingerie, sex toys and other stuff. I want to live where I can be your bride. Where I can cook. Clean, and be as feminine as I want to be.’

    ‘I want to escape from my old life and leave it behind.’

    ‘When I fall asleep in your arms Monday morning, exhausted, sore, happy, completed, I don’t intend to ever sleep without you for another night.’

    ‘Good,’ he said ‘then as of Sunday night, you live with me.’

    I walked back into the apartment.

    My parents suspected something but couldn’t put their finger on it.

    Well, they will understand after Sunday.

    I spent Friday night, Saturday and the first part of Sunday with my parents.

    When they left I hurried to the mattress and pulled out the package.

    I had a cherry scented douche, a thong, eatable panties, lace and satin panties, a dress, panty-hose, platform shoes, perfume, lipstick, a slip, several panties of nylon and lace, a body stocking, a necklace, a sexy skirt, a mini-dress, a baby doll, a teddy, a double-dong penis, lotion, Hershey’s kisses, and a bottle of Nair.

    I spent the next hour in the bathtub, removing every speck of body and pubic hair.

    I douched with the cherry scent. I put on the eatable panties. I put on the thong and a pair of the tight little girl panties. I put on the slip. The hose, then the pink dress. I put the necklace around my neck, sprayed perfume, put lipstick on my lips and just as I finished, there was a nock at the door.

    ‘Stuart,’ I said.

    As soon as I opened the door, he was inside. He wrapped me tightly in his arms and we began to kiss openly, hungrily, greedily, wetly. His tongue slipped down the back of my throat and gagged me. We pressed our crotches together and I felt him growing hard inside his pants. He reached his hand down between my legs and up under my dress. He caressed me through the slip and panties and I grew hard very quickly. He picked me up in his arms and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He carried me like that to his house. We kissed without stopping.

    He carried me through his front door, through the living room, into his bedroom and laid me in a stack of pillows on a large King size water bed. I spread my thighs, tilted my hips and invited him to lower himself on top of me. We lay like that for hours, our mouths as one. We kissed for a while, we necked for a while, we ground our hips together. Then he began to move his mouth down my neck as his fingers worked to untie the dress front. His mouth traced my throat, down my chest. He sucked each nipple, using his tongue to trace around it in circles. He moved down my tummy, tongued my belly button. He slowly inched towards my rock hard cock. I jerked the rest of the clothing down over my thighs and legs as his hot mouth engulfed my length. ‘Wait baby,’ I moaned. ‘Let me undress you and let’s do this together.’ And so I undressed him. When we were both naked, I knelt with my knees on either side of him as he lay on his back, I lowered my mouth and took his length into my thirsty, hungry sucking machine. I pulled his hips against my mouth and rolled onto my back. As I did he buried his mouth in my crotch and we started a wonderful 69. We brought each other to near climax many many times but we stopped just before cumming. Finally though we both went all the way and we choked on each other’s cum. After we came, we lay together, out mouths filled with cock and we let each other grow soft.

    ‘Now let me eat that pussy,’ he said.

    Keeping my mouth on his cock, I pulled my cock out of his mouth, lifted myself and squatted over him. I lowered my anus to his mouth. I used my fingers to part my cheeks. His hungry mouth found the melted chocolate panties and he tongue and slurped and sucked me for a long time. I moved my hips in a circular motion as he ate me. I started bobbing up and down his shaft as he tongued me. Eventually he grew hard again and I turned my body and moved my mouth from his cock, up his tummy, up his chest, up his neck until my mouth was one with his. I rolled onto my back, coming to rest on a stack of four pillows.

    I raised my legs high and he slowly . . . slowly began to enter me.

    He was eleven inches long and very big. It took him about three minutes to fill me with his length. And then we fucked and fucked and fucked. He stayed inside me for over ten hours. He emptied himself inside me over and over. Finally I got so dry that I swelled around him and he couldn’t move until he grew soft. So we just lay together and kissed and necked. We used our fingers to caress each other. Backs, shoulders, buttocks, cheeks, faces. We softly touched each other as we rolled back and forth over that large bed.

    When we were finished, the sheets were tangled and wet. We were exhausted and sore and I was one happy lil girl.

    Tomorrow I would write the letter to my folks.

    And the next day

    Why, I’d be Mrs. Stuart Barzoom.

    End of story

    If only it would have happened that way.


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  • One Week Invisible

    My Dad is probably the smartest man in the entire universe. That’s not only the opinion of his not brilliant son of sixteen, but of the US government, Nasa, CIA and FBI.

    He has served on advisory committees for all sorts of secret weapons and he is the founder of a think tank that tosses around crazy concepts to consider. A few weeks ago he was at one of those. One of the subjects was invisibility. How do I know what they talked about? This super secret group? I know because I have his password into his computer and sometimes I check on what they were debating. Most of it is boring, and most of it is so complicated that I cannot even begin to figure out what they are talking about, but suddenly I read, for the transcript, invisibility.

    My dad was telling them that it is theoretically feasible. He said that he would put on the table a new approach and some of the specialists might want to wrestle with it. That was Dad’s way, a brilliant concept guy. His postulation was that the methods in literature had affected scientists.

    The concentration had been on altering the person by chemicals or changing the way light revealed them. Dad said that the person could be unaffected by the people around him could be manipulated. When asked to be more specific he mused that he had seen hypnotic experiments where the subject did not see a person in front of him. He thought, maybe an electrical field could be established into which the electrical synapses of the brain might be fed preset suggestions that there was no one there.

    The group had all said that it was interesting and worthy of study but in reading it, I Jimmy Weldon could see they scoffed.

    Now I had fooled around with some hypnotism. I was successful in the case of two of my friends. The problem is that a sixteen-year-old hypnotist does not have the aura of a Mesmer and that is part of the mystique of suggestion. These two friends were lightly hypnotized separately. Chad was sure that it didn’t work but he could not untie his hands. Billy, I think went deeper because he was under some kind of a trance for about a half hour and when I woke him up he thought it was only a minute or two until I showed him my watch.

    I could not get my father’s suggestion out of my mind. I determined to build some sort of device that would broadcast a hypnotic suggestion for a sufficient distance so that passing people would not see the operator.

    Our basement and garage was full of every sort of valuable and junky electric equipment. I was able to rig up a coil that would emit a constant suggestion that was an electric equivalent of hypnotic suggestion.

    The whole thing was contained in a motorcycle helmet. I had to test it. I called Chad and Billy to come over. Billy wasn’t home but Chad answered and said he’d be along soon. He lived only two houses away so I knew he’d be there quickly. I waited at my front door.

    I put on the helmet. I saw Chad rounding the corner. I snapped the switch. He walked right by me. He called and knocked on the door. I said quietly ‘I’m right here.’ He jumped a mile.

    I snapped the switch off and began immediately visible to him. ‘Wow, that’s amazing. You got something that only fantasy stories are written about. You could, you could-‘

    I could see his dirty sixteen-year-old mind working. ‘Yean, I know, go into the girl’s lockers. You would think of sex. This is a great scientific discovery. It could be used by the army, or even make real stealth planes.’

    But he was grinning wetly, ‘But we could go into the girl’s toilet and watch them pee.’

    I began to worry later that day that Chad would spread all over that I had this invention. I called him on the phone and told him that it was a fluke, that it stopped working so I would have to get back to the drawing board to find out what was wrong.

    Now I am going to confess something to you. No one knows, not my friends or my parents. I am as gay as a jaybird. I think I always knew, but I’ve been able to keep it under wraps. Problem is that the older I get the more insistent is the urge to do something sexual with another male. I figured that my new toy would give me some voyeuristic possibilities and I would be safe from detection.

    A menu of possibilities presented itself to my perverted mind. I was interested in naked guys, watching sex situations, even a little raunchy stuff. Oh I am a dirty boy!

    I decided to peek into a world barred to me: boy’s in the toilet when they thought no one was there. I walked down toward the private school that was only three blocks away. Their day session was two hours longer and the junion high kids would still be in class. I snapped the switch and waited.

    I did not want to attract attention from the guard inside by a door opening by itself. Soon someone came out and the door was on an air delay lock. I slipped in…–unseen of course. The boy’s room was just down the hall. I carefully opened the door. I hoped if anyone were inside they would think that someone opened it and then changed their mind. There were no doors on the cubicles. Hell, it was designed perfectly for me. I stepped around and there was a kid of about thirteen on the pot, his jeans down to his ankles and his boy cock in his hands. His stroke made a juicy sound so I guess he was just about to spew. He moaned, his eyes turned skyward, he pushed his cock down into the bowl and let fly. He sat there a moment, a little dazed from his cum, then wiped the tip, pulled up his pants and left. I stayed. I sat on the floor in the corner, no use standing while I was waiting. Another kid came in, dropped pants and settled on the potty.

    He was there for real business. He groaned and grunted. Gee, if I closed my eyes it would sound like sex. I noticed he reached around and pressed just above his asshole to push a turd out. He lifted up and looked at it floating there. I had to suppress calling out, ‘It’s not gold.’ He finished, and I slipped out the closing door. I felt that was enough for today.

    But my mind kept returning to that wonderful helmet in my closet upstairs.

    I told Mom that I was going to go over to Chad’s for awhile. I held the helmet behind my back and headed down the street, putting it on when I was sure no one was looking. There were lights on in the garage. Chad’s garage had been turned into a playroom for him. Sometimes he slept out there and he had all his hobby stuff there. I peeked through the window and almost fell backward. There was Chad, his pants at his ankles, and Billy leaning over him, sucking his cock. Chad looked as if he was going to cum any minute. I could see his eyelids fluttering and he seemed to lift off the chair. Billy was in profile, it was perfect. He never took his lips away and sucked up all the spunk Chad must have been shooting.

    Then Billy pulled him up, kissed him a long time, then took his place on the chair and Chad began to suck Billy.

    This was a very happy revelation to me. Now I had two gay friends, at least they ‘did it’. This knowledge was power to me and even better because they didn’t know that I knew. It was too delicious. It was all I could do not to laugh out loud.

    I decided to tip toe away. I saw all I needed to see. On the walk back, I was still invisible. I passed a car parked in the shadows just past Chad’s house and a house away from home. As I passed, I idly looked in. There was Barry, an eighteen-year old from the neighborhood, about a block away. I always considered him a real hot looking guy, tall and muscular, thick blond hair and a fuck you expression always on his face. The girl, he didn’t know.

    Hey, the window on the driver’s side is open. I went around and leaned in, close to Barry. This was fabulous to be right in the middle of a make out scene. But this was more than that. There was Barry’s big cock sticking out of his pants. ‘Peg, just lift up and settle down on my thing. You know the way you did last week. It felt just great. I know you liked it.’

    The poor guy, I thought. He’s hard up, pleading. Finally Peg got her ass on his lap and faced the front of the car. Barry was saying hoarsely, ‘Yeah baby, that’s so good. Now let me get you into position and I can slip in.’

    In a moment they were fucking. Barry was making all sorts of animal sounds, Peg was pretty quiet until she suddenly started making noises.

    Jimmy thought she was laughing, but it was her orgasm calls. Barry didn’t last long. Pretty soon he said, ‘You better lift up, I’m goin’——‘ He howled.

    She was really mad. ‘You got me all wet. You’re such a pig. Couldn’t you wait.’

    I left the scene. Now every time that shit Barry would give me a superior angry look it would only make me laugh because he knew a lot about him.

    The next day was Sunday. No church going in this house, so I slept in. I think I must have been alone in the house, still in bed, when Billy strolled into my room. In this town, we don’t lock our doors. ‘No one answered so I figured you were still in the sack.’

    I rubbed my eyes and yawned, trying to get awake. I was sleeping on top of the covers, wearing my briefs. Billy took a great interest in the big stiffo I had pushing my briefs out. I had no hesitation, now that I knew about him, in speaking boldly. Billy was a real cute kid, spikey black hair, I think maybe dyed Goth black, always wore extra long cargo pants, maybe because his legs were real thin. Even the shanks that showed were hairless and thin. But his face was real nice, big dark eyes and long black lashes, red puffy mouth. Oh that mouth, I remembered it around Chad’s dick yesterday. My stiffy go stiffer.

    ‘Yo Jimmy. Can I try your helmet?’ Uh oh, motor mouth Chad had talked.

    Best thing for me was to stonewall it.

    ‘I was just kidding Chad. You know, he will believe anything.’

    ‘Billy looked at me with open mouth. He said you disappeared.’

    ‘Do you really believe that?’

    ‘I guess no. But I believe you have a real morning woody. Can I see it?

    Slip off your whiteys.’

    I figured I might as well start the day off with a nice cum, my first with someone else. I slipped off the shorts and my good friend sprang up against my belly. I really had to take a piss but that added to my cock being so rigid. It felt nasty but good. I flexed it a twice. Billy was licking his soft lips and a little drool formed in the crease in his lower lip. I could hear his breathing. ‘I think you like my dick. Yu want to touch it?’

    ‘Yeah,’ he said hoarsely.

    ‘Okay, take off your clothes, why should I be the only one naked?’

    He complied like his life depended on it. He sure was skinny, but cute.

    He had a thin trail of hair from his belly button to the beginning of his pubic hair. His dick was thin, pretty small, but it was hard and stood out with a gentle curve upward at the end. He reached down and touched my cock that responded with a big jump. He was breathing so hard now it sounded like asthma. He stroked me a few times. I was beginning to feel a little like I might spew, so I rushed things along. ‘Billy, I knew your mouth is watering to swallow my dick. Come on, lean down, kiss it.’

    He did. He really kissed the head, actually a French kiss.

    ‘Take it in your mouth Billy,’ I said coaxingly.

    He wasted no time, he surrounded the head with his hot lips, his tongue licking the tip. Oh, this was a super excellent feeling. I was breathing now louder that he was.

    I lied back on the bed, put my arms behind my head, whew, I needed a shower, I could smell my pits. But now they smelled nasty like the sex I was enjoying. Billy lost no time in trying to take my seven inches deep in his throat. He waggled his lips along the shaft a quarter inch at a time.

    I was fast losing a sense of consciousness. Then with a slight gag I bottomed in his threat and his nose was against my pubic hair. I bet I was a little stale smelling but what the hell, he was my suck boy. He stayed with my cock in his threat and kept swallowing. The massage of his throat muscles was driving me nuts. I felt my thighs tingling and feeling paralyzed, that was a sure sign that I was going to shoot. I tapped Billy on his spikey head. ‘I think I goin’ spill. You want to pull away?’ He shook his head, which motion threw me over the cum fence. I felt my body locking held by my impending orgasm. I shouted and rubbed and scratched Billy’s head as I double up, howled, thrust my hips and beat the sheet with my fists as I unloaded a combination of spooge and piss.

    Billy fell back dazed. ‘Gee when you go down, you do down. It was like holding a bucking bronco.’ His head gradually cleared. ‘How come you had the nerve to ask for a blow job? Did Chad say something?’

    ‘Chad? What’s he got to do with it? ‘ I asked innocently. ‘Does he do it too?’

    ‘I don’t know about that, but don’t tell him about this. Maybe we can do it again. I didn’t get off. You want to help me out.’

    ‘No sweetie. Jimmy no gives, Jimmy just gets. You better get along, I have to shower and get dressed, I smell like a stable.’

    He turned and walked out, dejected and rejected.

    After the shower and my cereal that I ate dry because we were out of milk, I began to wonder how I would spend the day with my ‘cloak of invisibility’? I said those words like I had a echo.

    I got the helmet from my closet and stood in front of the mirror and snapped it on. This was the first time I could check it out. There was no change in my image. Maybe this was because I am inside. But no, I should be invisible. The damn thing’s no working. I check the battery. This signal used very little current and an AAA battery was sufficient. I put in a new one. No help.

    I took it to the garage workroom and took it apart. I went over each component and everything seemed okay. I was dumbfounded and baffled. How could it just stop. I bet my Dad would know but I could never admit that I was mucking around, using his password on the computer. I put the parts in a box and figured I think about it and try later.

    I got my bicycle out, I hadn’t ridden in awhile. I headed down the street and encountered Chad. Now I told you that Billy was kinda cute, but Chad was a dreamboy, big, about six feet plus, muscles on muscles, thick wavy blond hair, big blue eyes, the whole shebang of male beauty. He smiled at me, ‘Hi Jimmy. You gonna spy on some girls today?’ Jeez, what white teeth and pink tongue you have grandma, I thought. I twitched down there even though it had been two hours since I came hard, but at my age, that’s enough to be rearmed.

    ‘No, actually I was thinking of sneaking into the porno movie.’

    ‘Watch out, there are guys who molest pretty boys like you.’

    ‘Or on the other hand, maybe you might like to come to my house and fool around.’

    ‘Fool around? Who told you I fool around?’

    ‘Why, do you?’

    ‘Well, if you want to suck my cock I wouldn’t say no. Do you?’

    I was checkmated for the moment. I wouldn’t mind getting another round of being blown but I wasn’t ready to be the blower. Perhaps I should just see how it all develops. ‘Maybe, maybe not. Let’s just go and stop talking about it.’

    When we got to my house we tramped up the stairs and into my room, still messy with the unmade bed. Chad closed the door behind him and snapped the bolt. ‘I smell sex in this room. Did you wank off this morning?’

    ‘Every morning.’ I swept my tee shirt over my head. I stood there smiling and rubbing my chest. ‘Like?’

    Chad kicked his slides off and pulled his shorts off exposing his entire lower body, his dick hanging slightly hard just below the bottom of his shirt. ‘You like?’

    I stared at his cock as I slipped out of my trainers and shorts. I was stiff and hard.

    ‘I think you like it. Jimmy, you’re drooling and breathing hard. Your cock is a full hardness. You don’t have to ask. My answer is yes. Get on your knees and get me off.’

    It was a standoff, at least for two minutes. All you could hear was my heavy breathing. I was so excited that my cock was dripping. I almost felt I might cum from the tension. Chad, the bastard was smirking at me.

    At last with cry of defeat, or resignation, I fell to my knees. Chad made no move to come closer, but he did throw his shirt off and flexed his chest muscles like a jungle animal just short of pounding his chest and trumpeting. I had to crawl slightly to get close. I lifted his now hard cock and slipped my mouth over it. I had never done this in my life. I had seen male porno and tried to remember how they did it. Chad knew, of course, exactly what to do. I think that with Billy, he was the boss. He took my hands and pulled them around to the back of his ass. ‘Hold me steady, I tend to get weak when I cum.’

    I put out a tentative tongue lick on the head of his now protruding head.

    There was sex dew on the tip. I braced myself for the taste but it was sweet and watery. He let out a low moan when I did that. I was pleased, the whore bitch was pleased. I wasn’t even ashamed, I was proud I could please him. He pushed forward as a hint for me to take it in my mouth. I delayed so he put a finger to my lips and rubbed my lips. ‘Let me in Jimmy boy, don’t fight it, you want this cock so badly you can hardly breathe.’

    Then he put his finger in my mouth and like a pet dog I sucked it. ‘Yeah, that’s enough practice. Get to I!’ He slapped me on one cheek. I quickly got to work. I took about a third of his cock into my mouth and stopped, my tongue vibrating and moving of it’s own accord. He liked that. ‘Great, use a lot of tongue.’ He was pushing again, I opened my throat and he slid in down to his pubes. They smelled delicious, nice soap and a little Chad sweaty. With his cock down my throat I choked a bit, almost upchucked, but got myself under control but moving a little back. His hips were beginning to thrust. I allowed lots of spit to fill my mouth and I began a fast in and our vigorous sucking. He was howling with pleasure. ‘You are some fucking suck hound, much better than…..: He never finished. I don’t think he realized how close he was to cumming when it hit him. His thighs began to vibrate and a few times his knees almost collapsed. I held on my hands spread over his fuzzy ass checks. Then he began unloading. I swallowed fast, gulping and crying out my thrill at being part of this charged moment.

    He fell back on the bed. ‘Whew, that was hot. You had much experience?’

    ‘First time. Eh, I’m pretty hard here, you think you er…’

    ‘I would, but I get really anti sexy after I cum, but if you want to jerk off I’ll watch you and you can even unload on my chest and belly but be careful, not near my face.’

    ‘Well, okay, thanks but I think I’ll save it for when I’m alone.’

    ‘Suit yourself. Hey, should we find Billy and maybe go down to the Y swimming pool?’

    ‘Thanks but I’ll just hang here.’

    What a let down after three days of hot excitement: the helmet, what I saw using it, getting a blow job from Billy…that was excellent! At least I know that I’m not the only one around who likes sex with guys. Who knows what the future will bring (said in my echo) voice.


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  • Naked Salesman

    I earn about a quarter million a year. Pretty impressive! But I am more than worth the remuneration from Echardt Assurance Ltd.

    I came to work with them three years ago from an assistant coaching position at a well-known eastern university. My success with recruitment became rapidly famous. I was only twenty-four when the CEO of this company invited me to work for them.

    I was a former footballer and still look like I’m showing up for scrimmage: six feet four, very low body fat and a profile never mashed by the other team.

    The methods I used were partly based on training athletes and partly on my own theories. First off, I recruited athletes for initial interviews. An athlete is a perfect employee: energetic, has the will to win, attractive usually (more on that later) and fearless. The main factor I had in weeding out the not-so-great applicants, and subjecting the chosen ones to ‘testing’ is that they were crazy to get this job. The pay was outstanding.

    This company is not likely known to you, since we do not insure individuals and do no advertising. We insure corporations against catastrophic events, terrorist attacks and devastating natural disasters. The premiums are high, the commissions are lucrative.

    I think you will get to know more about my methods if you follow the case of Jason O’Malley. Jason just completed college. It was a free ride, all paid for. He was a good quarterback, but not good enough for the professional teams. He was twenty-two and prospects looked bleak. His coach (I had contacts with many coaches) gave Jason my card.

    He arrived for our appointment promptly at nine AM on a Monday. I appraised him as he walked the distance from my office door to my desk. He had the physical appearance I usually preferred for my salesmen: Good hair, broad shoulders and narrow waist, a bland good-looking all American face, open and innocent.

    You will remember that I mentioned in passing that handsomeness was an important factor in selling. The potential buyer will tilt toward a good-looking guy, not because they are queer, but that there is deep in all men a remembrance of that short period in life, about fourteen when they were partially homosexual.

    Jason shook hands. Nice large, dry, warm hands, this was a definite plus.

    He fixed me with his sharply blue eyes and smiled winningly, likely using the technique on me that he used on many a girl. This was good. It meant that he sold with his cock.

    He stood in front of the two chairs at my desk, uncertain which one to take. I had invited him to sit, but I hadn’t gestured to either chair. He hesitated, then looked up at me with a slightly questioning air.

    Excellent! I pointed to a third choice, which was a chair on the other side of the room. ‘Bring that one over,’ I stated firmly. He jumped into action and placed it in front of the desk, with an expression to ask if it was okay.

    ‘Yes, that’s fine son.’ Of course there were only a few years difference in our age but I wanted to express my superior position.

    Jason was actually inappropriately dressed for an interview of this seriousness. He should have been wearing a dark suit and conservative tie, but the kid was still a college kid and wore what he must have thought was dressy: Chinos, a blue blazer, his tie was a clip-on. ‘Yipes!’

    I decided to get started. ‘Jason, have you read the material about this company? Do you know what we sell? Do you believe in this product?’

    His frown was quite charming making a corduroy of his forehead. When he answered, I was delighted that he had an excellent voice: deep and clear.

    ‘Mr. Wilson, I would have no problem of personal ethics. This protection offered by Echardt is needed and offers companies security in these dangerous times.’

    ‘Good Jason, but call me Jack. We are going to get to know each other quite well before the decision is made to hire you or not. I want to say that if you do not get the tap to join us, it doesn’t mean that there is something wrong with you, it just means that the match is not right. I will give you several other companies you might contact and use my name.’

    ‘Gee, that’s great…and comforting. But I know you are going to want me to be part of your team. I’m a winner.’ He clenched his fist in resolve.

    ‘I’ll do whatever it takes.’

    ‘Glad you feel that way because some of the testing we are going to do may seem odd or unorthodox to you but they have proved very effective for us.

    Are willing to get started? I have reserved three hours for you this morning. First off, you will want to know about the naked test. Yes, I will administer a lie detector test to you. No clothes. Why? Because we have found that people tend to tell the truth when they are shed of their clothes. Is this okay with you?

    ‘Sure, guys like us are used to being undressed…..in the locker room and so on. I’m not embarrassed.’

    ‘Right. Now step into the bathroom over there, get undressed, and drink the full class of fruit juice left there. It is a relaxant and will calm you for the test.’

    He got up slowly. He must be thinking ‘what did I get myself into?’ He disappeared into the lavatory. The class of ‘juice’ contained a calming drug, yes, but it tended to remove inhibitions that that interfere with getting the truth. It also contained a tiny bit of libido stimulant that would also reduce resistance to questions.

    He stuck his head out of the door like a shy maiden. ‘You ready for me?’

    I waved him in. He was a nice specimen of young manhood. He was slightly hairy in the center of the chest and around his navel. His skin was smooth and healthy looking. The cock was normal sized and I noted that his pubic hair was slightly trimmed. His legs were full and muscular, a great feature but when he turned, his ass took over as champ. It was museum quality.

    ‘Take this seat. I will be putting electrodes in several places. Then I will ask a list of questions. Don’t try to anticipate what answered will impress or what you think we want to hear. Just answer truthfully, even if it is embarrassing. You are more likely to be eliminated if you lie.’

    He nodded and said, ‘Yes, er, Jack.’ I noted that his eyes were less bright and open. The hypnotic, calming drug was taking effect. As yet his the libido effect of the other drug had not taken effect and would not until something stimulated him.

    I sat slightly out of sight behind Jason. I noticed he was breathing a little heavily. ‘Jason, nothing that happens in this room will be revealed. In fact I will give you the readout to destroy. You may find some questions make you sexy and if you get a penile reaction, don’t worry about it. I have done this test many times and that is common. Now I am turning on the paper roll and will start with question one.’

    ‘Have you ever had a lie detector test before?’

    To my surprise, he said yes. I figured I’d go into that after the test.

    But I was pleased that he saw fit to respond in a way that might be negative for him.

    ‘Have you cried in the last year?’

    Again he answered in the affirmative. This boy was really into truth.

    Must macho guys don’t cry and if they do they deny it.

    ‘Did you like your father best?’

    ‘No.’ (Now that’ interesting. I will question that.

    ‘When did you last have sex?’

    ‘Last night.’

    ‘Was it with a girl?’

    He half turned to glance at me. ‘Yes, of course.’

    ‘Just say yes or no.’

    ‘Do you prefer straight vaginal sex?’

    It took a bit of a while before he answered.

    ‘N-o-o-o.’

    ‘Do you prefer to perform oral sex on your partner?’

    ‘No.’

    ‘You like oral sex performed on you?’

    ‘Yes.’

    Well, looky here, Jason’s little guy was rising up. He sensed it and put a ham hand over it.

    ‘Have you ever had sex with a boy or man?’

    ‘No.’

    The test went on into various ego matters and testing him for anger triggers etc. Finally I came over that told him that the test was over and I removed the electrodes. ‘Shall I dress?’

    ‘No, just sit here on the couch and we’ll go over your responses.’

    I took the read out and began. ‘You had a problem with the type of sex you enjoy. Don’t you like giving pleasure to a woman?’

    He seemed uncomfortable. ‘I do, in theory, but I don’t like the taste of some vaginas.’

    ‘You like getting a blow job. Do you come quickly?’

    ‘Yes I do, if the person is good at it.’

    ‘Do you find that many are not?’

    ‘Oh yeah. This girl last night stunk at it. I knew she didn’t like doing it and that was a turn off. Holy shit, I can’t believe that I am telling you all this. I guess my hiring chances are shot.’

    ‘Not at all. So far you’re doing great.’

    ‘No about your father. What didn’t you like?’

    ‘I never have discussed family secrets but he molested my older brother. I saw it happening and I was very upset each time.’

    ‘He left you alone?’

    ‘Yes because I was only about seven or eight and shortly afterward my folks got divorced. My brother was made a queer by all that stuff.’

    ‘The question about whether you had sex with a boy or man. You said no, but that was a lie. What’s that about?’

    ‘Yeah, well, when I was in my early teens there was a kid on my team and we had sex together. Nothing heavy. We jerked off together.’

    I noticed that his cock, that had been relaxed was now rising.

    ‘Is that all?’

    ‘Okay, I’ll come clean. We did sixty-nine and once we experimented with ass fucking.’

    ‘Do you miss that young fooling around?’

    ‘Sometimes.’

    ‘Jason, if I asked you to open my fly and take out my cock would you do it?’

    ‘I don’t think so. That’s too queer for me.’

    ‘If I told you that you had to do it to win the interview?’

    ‘Is that true? I would be hired if I did it?’

    ‘Yes.’ This was the supreme test to find out how far he would go to win.

    He leaned forward. His hands were at my crotch. He wrestled with the zipper. It was awkward as I was sitting. ‘Shall I stand up?’

    ‘Yeah,’ he said gulping. I noticed his handsome face was bright red. I stood up, he easily zipped the fly and my pants opened and exposed the white shorts and the bulge of my penis swelling out.

    ‘Go ahead boy,’ I said putting on an impatient, commanding voice.

    He almost sobbed with resignation and reached in and extracted my long cock through the opening of the boxers. He looked up at me. ‘Okay, do I pass the test?’

    ‘You do, but I think you would like to stroke it a bit. No?’

    He didn’t answer but lightly, using one finger, he stroked the underside.

    His breath was now rasping in his throat. ‘That’s real nice boy. Lean in a little and smell it.’

    He leaned close. I put a finger in his mouth and he automatically began sucking on it. ‘Good boy. Now go for the real thing.’

    He opened his pretty jock mouth and was about to slide onto my cock. I backed away. ‘That’s enough!’

    He looked up at me in shock. ‘It was a trick! You seduced me and I fell for it because I wanted this job so bad. You’re a fucking bastard.’

    I patted his head. ‘Jason, Jason, calm down. You got the job.’

    He smiled up at me. ‘Gee, I thought I had killed it. I don’t know what got into me. I don’t think I’m gay…but…’

    Jason and I were together a lot during the next few weeks. I helped him get a wardrobe of clothes, I got him settled in a small apartment, but in a good building. ‘Address is important. You can move to another apartment in the same building later, when your income allows it. Then I began teaching him and some of the other new recruits, the fine art of landing a contract.

    Jason made a sale! A nice one, a good start. He was already ahead of the others. As a reward, I took him with me on a company sales meeting in Las Vegas. We shared a room, but not a bed of course. I made a presentation and Jason was really impressed. ‘You organize your thoughts so well and your diction and voice quality is terrific…compelling.’

    We went out drinking that night. I can handle drinks better than Jason.

    Though we matched drink for drink, Jason was mashed and smashed. I helped him back to our room. I took off his shoes and pants and he flopped into bed. He mumbled something about ‘no school tomorrow’ and passed into a deep sleep, snoring loudly. I undressed to my shorts and slipped under the covers. It was about midnight. About three hours later I awoke to Jason rubbing my shoulder. ‘I didn’t want to wake you abruptly.’

    ‘What’s up?’ I asked.

    ‘I woke up an hour ago. I’m half sober, but horny. Can I get a reward? I mean doesn’t this job have ‘fringe benefits’?’

    ‘Okay I said,’ still half asleep. Slip in here.’

    He took off his shirt, socks and underwear and lay beside me on the bed. I moved my hand on his muscular chest, exciting his nipples. He was sighing continuously. That was some hot spot for him. I moved down on his slightly hairy belly and caressed gently. He lifted his trunk as a hint that I should get to the main event. His cock was stiff and pulsing, the end wet with sex dew. I cupped my hand over the shaft. He let out a long moan. I began a slow soft stroke. His mouth was open, he was moaning steadily. ‘Do you want to cum?’ I asked him.

    He gulped and said hoarsely, ‘Yeah, please, I’m going outa my mind Boss.’

    I smiled to myself. ‘First you got to earn that come.’ I leaned over him and brought my lips close to his full jock lips. He pulled back a little and said, ‘I just can’t get myself to kiss a guy. Sorry.’

    ‘No problem,’ I leaned back and got back into a sleeping position, signaling the episode was over.

    ‘Hey, you gonna leave me like this?’

    I didn’t answer. Nothing happened for a least two minutes. I could hear him breathing. Suddenly he took my shoulder and pulled me around to face him and put his scalding lips against mine. He keep them there, closed tightly. I reached toward his nips and stroked them. His mouth opened slightly and I could feel his breath against my face and he bellowed in and out. He was fast slipping into a sexual haze. I opened my lips and he followed, his tongue snaking out to touch my tongue. Now he was gasping in passion. I knew this was what he always wanted.

    I pulled away. ‘Wha’?’ he almost cried. ‘I did it, now why don’t you finish what you started. This is torture.’

    I patted his head. ‘Jason, I’ll give you a mind shattering orgasm but you have to learn to give as well as take.’

    I turned my body around so that my face was at his crotch and moved my trunk so that my cock was at his face. ‘Get the idea?’ I said.

    ‘I just don’t want to do it. It’s just too gay.’

    ‘No tickee, no shirtee.’

    I leaned forward and a gave a quick lick on his occk head which was completed out of its foreskin, wet and fragrant. He groaned and his body actually gave a few fuck thrusts. ‘You like that, don’t you? You want more, you have to earn it with a few licks of your own.’

    He signed in resignation and stuck his tongue out and licked the underside of my cock. It felt excellent, especially having worked hard to get to this point. Without my prompting he moved to take my cock head into his mouth. His tongue flicked quickly back and forth, no doubt imitating his clit licking talent. I began to get dizzy with pleasure.

    I slipped his cock into my mouth and worked it down into my throat. He stopped for a minute and left out a howl of pleasure. ‘Oh, that’s so great.’

    ‘Show your appreciation,’ I whispered to him, speaking around his cock. He needed no further instruction. He fell into a mode he still remembered from his early teens. He took my cock deep into his throat, his lips against my public hair. I did the same to him. Now we were both whirling into orbit, the room had disappeared and we were one organism belt on release. We moaned a duet, we shook and thrust at each other. For these moments we were intensely in love as each knew the other held the key to his release.

    Jason locked up first, but managed to keep sucking. I think the power of his coming orgasm scared him. He let out awed ‘ooohs, and ughs’ as his body switched from his brain to his balls. His body now was dancing in and out seeking his cum. Suddenly he stopped, all his splendid muscles in a lock. Then his cock began to deliver its sweet cum. I stroked his hot ass during his long, six pulse cum, delaying my own. But then I couldn’t hold back. I shouted my cum song and unloaded, going almost into a blackout as I orgasmed.

    Finally we lay back panting. Jason was the first to speak. ‘So that’s what you meant. Okay, you should have explained better Boss.’

    Jason and I were both busy for the next few weeks. He continued to rack up small sales. His stats were almost twice the other guys. I was working with them constantly to determine their closing problems. Besides Jason, none of the other guys were intimate with me.

    About three months after our session in Vegas, that we never repeated, my receptionist buzzed me that Jason O’Malley wanted to see me. He came in, we shook hands formally and he sunk into a chair I had indicated. ‘What’s up?’

    ‘I got a real problem. I’ve been working on a policy sale to a global shipping company.’ He mentioned the name. It was a big outfit. ‘We have been talking about a ten million dollar policy of protection.’

    ‘Sounds great. What’s the problem?’

    ‘I’ve been working exclusively with Ramon Viera, Jr.’ I knew the name well. His father had founded the company and Junior was now gradually taking over. Fortune Magazine had an article about him a month ago so it was fresh in my mind. Ramon was only in his early twenties, a former international playboy, now settled down and doing very well with the shipping company. I remembered that he was extravagantly handsome, tall, slim, dark curly hair and fabulous eyes with tangling lashes. He was often shown on the tennis court, his slim tan legs well displayed by the very short shorts he always wore.

    ‘Nice work to be spending time with that hunk.’

    ‘Yeah, very exciting but I don’t want to mix business with six.’

    ‘What’s the story?’

    He has fallen in lust with me. I have to keep moving around his penthouse office to evade him. He has made in pretty clear that if I am going to land this fabulous piece of business that I will have to do whatever he wants sexually.’

    ‘This is really a big deal. It would make you the salesman of the year, even the decade. I am not sure how to advise you. Suppose we go together ostensibly to discuss details and maybe we can steer him away from the obsession.’

    Jason made an appointment, but didn’t mention that I was going alone. We entered the lobby of the building the shipping company occupied. It was very impressive. The security was heavy. I even had to take off my belt and shoes. Finally a well dressed young guy acted as escort and we entered the special elevator and in a flash we were outside the office of the executive vice president, young Ramon.’

    Jason pressed a silent entry button and the opaque glass door became transparent. It must have been some sort of Polaroid arrangement. We were both revealed to the person in the office. A somewhat computer-like voice crackled at us. ‘I only expected Jason. Who’s this guy? Are you planning a threesome? Okay, I’ll see you both but you must get undressed and slip into a robe. They are in the closet on the left.’

    We starred at each other. This was getting weird and I wondered what I had gotten myself into.

    Now robed, we rang the entry button. The dark door again cleared and the elegant slim figure Ramon Viera was revealed. He was wearing his patented white shorts…nothing else but a broad smile.

    He boldly went over to Jason and pulled the string on his robe. ‘Tasty I must say’ and twirled an imaginary moustache. His eyes were glued to Jason’s handsome dick that I noticed had slightly plumped out. That boy, he loves attention and compliments. He will be an easy lay for the eager Ramon.

    Ramon now brought his attention to me. ‘Jason is the perfect sex partner.

    Husky, clean and innocent yet darkly passionate. You on the other hand are the epitome of sexuality. Men and women are drawn to you as you embody power yet have the nature to bring tender sexual activity to anyone lucky to have you.’ He walked over to his glass desk, threw his long barefoot legs up on it, knowing we two could easily see up the leg to his bare balls and cock. ‘Tell you what I’m thinking. I am offering a ten million dollar contract, providing the extra benefit is included. I will double that figure and will sign today if both of you, shall we say, play along with me.’

    He sat there, his smile broadening by the moment, looking from Jason to me.

    We were speechless. That would be the largest contract in the history of the company. We would be heros. But there was something that I believe Jason and I both suspected, that this young guy was

    unpredictable………maybe nuts. But I looked at Jason and he stared back. He slightly nodded and I returned the nod. Ramon saw the whole interplay.

    ‘Okay, lovelies. Slip out of your robes and I my shorts and we’ll have a drink first.’ He walked to the refrigerator concealed behind a wall panel.

    A tray of glasses and a frosty pitch was inside. He brought it to the desk. He flashed a gorgeous smile. ‘It’s not lemonade and it’s not booze.

    It’s a little concoction I drink before sexual encounters. It puts me in the mood. You will love the effect.

    We shrugged and walked over and each picked up a glass. We three downed it almost simultaneously. At first I felt nothing but Ramon watched us carefully, giggling slightly. ‘Y-e-s-s-s. You are feeling a bit warm, even a tiny bit dizzy but not unpleasantly so. Verdad? Your scrotal area is relaxing, calling attention to itself. What’s this Jason, the all American Boy is getting a big stiffy.’ He walked over to Jason who was flushed and swaying on his feet. He seemed to get a greater effect that I did. I was feeling sexy but still in control. Ramon put his arms around the muscular boy and pressed his lips with his hot Latin ones. Ramon stroked Jason’s chest, flicking his finger over the rapidly stiffening nipples. Jason was moaning around the kiss. His moans turned to cries.

    ‘Oh shit, fuck, I’m going to spill.’ He began shaking and Ramon cupped his hands under Jason’s pulsating cock as it delivered a half cup of steaming cum into the slim brown hands. When he finished, he staggered over to the leather couch and fell on it, seemingly passed out. ‘Poor boy, my brew and his cum was too much for him, but he’ll recover shortly I promise.

    Meanwhile it’s time for a little snack.’

    I was strangely repulsed and turned on at the same time as Ramon hummed in pleasure as his shiny red tongue lapped up the cum collected in his palms.

    ‘Ah, delicious, speaks of years of good healthy living.’

    He turned to me. ‘Now comes your opportunity to double the contract.

    First off, on your nice hairy knees and get in my crotch and open those hot puffy lips.’

    I knew this was coming. I seldom in my sex life had ever blown anyone. It was okay right now. I knew this was on the menu coming in. I leaned in.

    The boy was hard. I wondered if he ever wasn’t hard. He rubbed my cheek and scratched my head as if I was Rover. ‘Take it deep. There is a surprise waiting for you.’

    I allowed saliva to gather in my mouth and eased his prick deep in my throat until my nose was right against his pubes. Then I realized what the surprise was. There was a sweetish odor in his pubic hair. He must have coated it with an anesthetic, maybe chloroform I tried to pull back as I was getting woozy but his slim, but strong brown hand pressed on the back of my head. I didn’t go under but I was in and out of consciousness. I hadn’t realized his wiry strength as he pulled me into an elbows and knees position and began slowly fingering my ass lips. I was moaning in pleasure and also the weird feeling of being half under. As all this was going on, I glanced at Jason who was still sprawled on the couch near us. He was just waking up. He scratched his balls and stroked his cock. He looked down in surprise to see that it was hard, but that was the viagra or something similar that he had imbibed. I was half passing out again as Ramon put his finger all the way into my ass hole, stroking my hot button inside. My ass was moving in and out by itself, seeking more stimulation.

    ‘Nice, very nice boy. You are asking to be fucked in non-verbal communication and I hear it. Just as I felt waves of part unconsciousness assailing me again, he stood up, greased his cock and pushed it in roughly.

    I came to for a moment and howled in pain. ‘There, there, calm down big guy. You have to suffer to enjoy the reward I will give you.’

    He began slowly fucking me. I had waves of sleep and waves of alert awareness. I was constantly moaning and talking to him. ‘Yes you fucker, come on, move faster and deeper. I want to feel you deep.’

    He was now mewling in passion, his cock deep in and out was bringing him to a crashing climax. Suddenly he slapped my ass hard, stingingly. This got him off, by causing pain, but it also threw me over the hill. I shouted that I was coming and he, just behind me felt my ass opening and closing rapidly. We came both at the same time.

    Jason in the meantime was stroking himself off watching us. ‘Suck me somebody.’ He pleaded.

    The two of us, Ramon and I went to perform the duty. We got on either side of his rampart cock and licked each on our side, stopping to twirl tongues together. I sucked him, then Ramon sucked him. Jason was babbling with over stimulation and finally he grabbed us both firmly to keep us from moving and causing exquisite agony and pain on his sensitive organ. Then he began babbling as his cum hit him, spewing sweet cum on our shoulders and even Ramon’s black curly hair.

    I was the first to get down to business. I’ve got the papers in the other room. Are you ready to sign?’

    ‘Er, I’m ready but a contract of that size has to be signed by Papa. Get dressed and I’ll ring him to come up for the signing.

    A few minutes later I, Jason, Ramon and a distinguished and handsome fifty year old Ramon, Sr. were in the room. The contract was on the glass desk.

    I took the lead in explaining the contract. Mr. Viera studied the contract and turned to Ramon. ‘You can’t sign this. First of all you have no authorization for committing the firm to anything over one thousand dollars, and secondly we have a contract already with another assurance company.’ Turning to us, he smiled elegantly, ‘Knowing my son, I would say that you have been fucked. I hope it was worth it.’

    Jason and I were numb for several days, then we saw the humor of it. We two, especially me, educated lads were duped by a kid with wild sex and good looks. ‘He was the prototype for cute,’ said Jason. I told him that he ran a close second.

    He liked that. ‘I feel a need for fringe benefits Boss.’

    ‘Came here for your rewards. You deserve a happy ending.’


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  • Jack of All

    The plane ride in from London had been long and crowded, and passport and customs lines and the effervescent Panos were the last things I wanted to see when I was disgorged into the hot and busy immigration hall at Ben Gurion Airport. I wanted nothing more than a stiff glass of scotch on the rocks, a shower, and four hours of sleep in a Tel Aviv hotel room before I went any farther. But there was my office manager from my new assignment, Panos Mikalides, holding a placard with my name on it and bouncing around between me and that long passport control line, which looked all the more daunting by the stern-faced Israeli soldiers prowling around with their Uzis at the ready. I sighed and acknowledged to my new, exuberant Greek employee that I indeed was the new Israel bureau chief for the International Press news agency and prepared myself for the worst.

    From the beginning, however, Mikalides demonstrated for me how he’d become a legend in the IP system as Mr. Fixit. In no time, he had escorted me through a reel of red tape at the airport, turning stern and suspicious expressions of a parade of officials into broad smiles and thumpings on the back, and we were out of the terminal and into an Opel sedan and racing toward the towers of Tel Aviv and the blue Mediterranean in no time. Mikalides was driving with his hands and his mouth, both of which were going a mile a minute, and I wasn’t able to establish that I wanted nothing more at the moment but a slug of scotch and my hotel room before he had veered off south of the city center and driven into what appeared to be a village dolled up for the tourist trade.

    ‘This is Jaffa,’ Mikalides explained as he pulled up and parked in a spot that a boy had obviously been protecting for him. ‘It’s the oldest part of Tel Aviv. Thousands of years of habitation here. I wanted it to be the first place you saw in Israel.’

    He pushed open his door and started to get out of the car. I made no motion to join him and overrode his discourse on early Israel history of this region with an objection. ‘I’m sorry, Panos, but I’ve just had a long and tiring plane trip. I only want a drink and a shower and a good nap. And then I suppose I need to check in at the office.’

    ‘Yes, yes, all is well at the office,’ Panos responded through the window of the car door he’d already shut. ‘The drink’s why we’re here. Then it’s off to your new house.’

    ‘My house?’ I asked incredulously, as, resigned, I unfolded myself from the car and followed Panos toward a gap at the end of the street, where I could see the blue waters of the Mediterranean. Panos had flipped a coin to the Israeli boy, who had chirped his thanks and disappeared in the opposite direction.

    ‘I just got here,’ I objected. ‘I assumed I’d be in a hotel until I could find a place. And I understand that it’s not that easy to find an affordable rental in Tel Aviv. I’ll have to have a small flat of some sort in Jerusalem too.’

    ‘Both all arranged,’ Panos said, as he pulled me into a crowded terrace café overlooking the sea and guided me to the only empty table in the place. It was in a prime spot and obviously had been kept clear in anticipation of our arrival. ‘It so happens I own several places I rent out and the main office has already approved the rental of my beach house in Herzliya, the international area on the coast north of the city, and a small flat I have in the American sector in Jerusalem. I’ve arranged furniture for the house and have stocked the kitchen. So we can go right there from here.’

    ‘But then I’ll need transport right away to get into the office in Tel Aviv,’ I said, trying to maintain some sense of control here

    ‘All arranged as well,’ Panos said, giving me a sweeping gesture with his arms. ‘As it happens, I have a few rental cars as well. The Opel is available to you until you buy something of your own.’

    He sat there beaming at me, and I couldn’t think of much of anything to say in return. His legend was bearing out. Despite this, I was flabbergasted when a waiter plunked down a double slug of scotch on ice in front of me even though we hadn’t ordered anything.

    ‘Jack Daniels Black label,’ Panos announced with a big sloppy grin.

    ‘Quite right,’ I answered. ‘How did you know that was what I’d want?’

    ‘I know all about you,’ Panos said with another grin. ‘That’s my job here for IP; I’m what you Americans call the Jack of all trades for the operation here.’

    I wanted to counter that this particular saying had a second part, ‘but a master of none,’ but I sensed I did not want to get off on bad footing with the office manager. This was my first manager assignment, and I didn’t want to immediately start alienating key local staffers, especially an office manager who obviously had his thumb on the pulse of everything I needed to be in good working order. But Panos was overpowering. And I was afraid that this might be leading to a struggle for power within the office, especially since Panos seemed to be in his mid forties, at least fifteen years older than I was.

    ‘Surely not all about me,’ I said with a somewhat nervous laugh.

    ‘Yes, all about you,’ Panos responded quietly, giving me an intense look. ‘And whatever you need, I’m here for you.’

    I swallowed hard on my scotch. I certainly hoped he didn’t know everything about me. But, if he did, at least I wouldn’t have the embarrassment of him trying to procure women for me. He seemed to have covered all of the other bases, and I had no doubt that he rented out women as well. ‘I can’t think of anything you haven’t already provided,’ I answered evenly, meeting him intense look for intense look.

    And, upon looking so directly at him now, I could see that he was a handsome devil, like most Greek men of his age. He was powerfully built and on the stocky side but not fat stocky; solid stocky. He had black curly hair with some gray in it that made him look distinguished rather than old, and he had the musculature of a young, vigorous man. Perhaps in other circumstances, I would have found him attractive. But it was going to be hard enough struggling with him for control of the office without getting involved in any complications.

    Of course, I was right about the struggle for control of the office. Panos tried to interject himself between me and the rest of the local staff from day one, and it didn’t help that I was much younger than he was and certainly very young to be the bureau chief and that he was able to use his connections to fulfill all of the office’s logistical needs. It irked me that I was living in his accommodations, both in Tel Aviv and Jerusalem, and driving his car but he was a god of fixit in the eyes of the headquarters offices, and they seemed delighted that he could streamline these arrangements.

    The arrangements for the trip to the northern coastal city of Haifa four weeks after my arrival would have been the last straw if I didn’t need to get there and set up so quickly to cover a series of marketplace bombings that were seen as the opening salvo in a whole new terrorist campaign in the region. I’d tried to call in hotel reservations myself, but everywhere I tried was booked. Panos swept in at that point, naturally, and informed me that he happened to have a seaside cabana on the beach just south of Haifa where I could stay. He went on to say that it would be best if he went up there with me, because he could get me a camera crew on the spot and knew some officials there who would get us into the action quickly.

    This was my job and this was my first important assignment as Israel bureau chief, so I swallowed my irritation, and Panos and I raced up the coast in a taxi he owned that would help us slip in under the radar of terrorists and the Israeli military alike.

    The cabana was not much more than a motel room with a bath and kitchenette on the land side and a main room with a double bed and sliding glass doors out onto a small terrace overlooking rocks descending sharply into the Mediterranean. Just a double bed, which I looked at in dismay when we entered the unit at sunset after a long drive up the coast.

    Sensing my concern while he was opening the curtains to the glass doors out onto the terrace, Panos said. ‘The unit’s for you. I have someplace else to stay. Go ahead and hit the shower, and I’ll check around to make sure the air conditioning and other things are working and let myself out. I’ll pick you up at 6:30 in the morning for breakfast before we drive into Haifa to meet your camera crew.’

    The shower sounded great, so I went directly into the bathroom and stripped off my clothes and showered under a lukewarm stream of water that wasn’t really any worse than what I had in my more modern Herzliya house.

    When I came out of the shower, with just a towel wrapped around my waist, I found the lighting in the room muted and a beautiful sunset spanning the horizon of the Mediterranean through the glass wall. I also found a naked Panos stretched out on the double bed, facing me, his face set in a grin.

    My dick took a lurch under the towel that I’m sure Panos couldn’t miss. He was beautiful. Beautiful as in mature, solidly built, hirsute, horse-hung beautiful. Not an Apollo, but definitely a Zeus. A bottle of lubricant was on the bedspread beside him, and he had lathered up his prodigious, engorging cock and was stroking himself slowly with a fist.

    After a minute of shock, I built up all of the anger and authority I could muster and told him in a low, threatening voice that I was going out on the terrace to watch the sunset and when I turned back to the room he’d better be dressed and gone.

    I marched out onto the terrace and stood at its edge above the rocks descending to the waterline and fought to control myself. He was beautiful, his cock was gigantic, and my body ached for him. But I had long accepted that I couldn’t mix my sexual life with my business responsibilities. And I was the bureau chief here. I couldn’t mess around with the single biggest threat to my authority in the office.

    I heard a noise behind me, and turned to find that Panos wasn’t leaving. He’d come out onto the terrace, bottle of lubricant in hand, and had sat down right behind me on a plastic chair. I tried to walk past him and into the room, determined to leave, even though I had no idea where I could go. But he wrapped a fist around my wrist in a firm grip and pulled me to in front of him so that my legs encased his thighs. He pulled the towel off me, put his big hands on my butt cheeks, and pulled me into him. Leaning his head down, he had my now-stiff cock in his mouth and he was deep throating it, making pleasurable humming noises as he slowly pumped me.

    I gasped and struggle weakly, having lost the war without barely having gone into battle. He had been right. He knew all about me. He knew I was weak. And he knew what I liked. I also could not argue in the least that he was a jack of all trades but a master of none. I now had to list seduction and sucking talent to his trade list, and there was no question that he was a master at both.

    His tongue and teeth were doing wonders on my cock, and his well-lubricated fingers were already entering my ass while the palms of his big hands held and spread my butt cheeks. My loud protests turned to moans and gasps, and I became putty in his hands as I leaned my pelvis into his face and ran my hands through his hair.

    He had four fingers in my ass, probing deeply, when my knees began to collapse. In response, he pulled his mouth away from my cock, pulled my chest into his, and held my buttocks up with his hands, but only briefly, while he maneuvered my asshole over his cock and rubbed his bulbous dick head around on my hole until it entered me to the rim of the head. I cried out in pain and fear at the size of him, but his hands were now forcing my butt cheeks down, and I slowly descended on his thick, long rod.

    His searching mouth went to mine, and he possessed my lips and invaded my mouth with his tongue, stifling my cries as his cock stretched my ass walls to their limits and hosed its way up inside me. I writhed above him, which only helped him push deeper inside me. When I had settled to where I could feel his tennis ball-sized balls and his curly pubic hair tickling my tender butt cheeks, his lips and teeth went to my nipples, and I arched my back away from him.

    We stayed there for long minutes, as my gasps and grunts turned to panting and moaning and his dick filled out to its full engorgement inside me. His tongue was racing around my pecs and up into my arm pits, and he moved to raise and lower my butt cheeks with his hands to provide friction for his cock inside me. With renewed strength, however, I held my hips close into his pelvis, preventing him from stroking inside me, enjoying the throbbing of his cock deep up my ass canal.

    ‘Fuck me,’ he commanded in a hoarse whisper. ‘Move that sweet butt of yours up and down my shaft. Fuck me. Fuck yourself.’

    ‘No!’ I said. ‘I’m not going to let you fuck me like this. I’m going to rise up off you and you’re going to get up and leave and not come back until the morning. We can’t do this. We’re not going to have this in the office. This is the end of this, and you now will know every day that I am the boss and you are the employee that you can’t control me, and that I’m in charge.’

    Brave words, but it was taking every ounce of my strength and resolve not to give into him. I loved his cock inside me. I’d love for him to be fucking me wildly.

    A guttural, almost animal sound came up in Panos’s throat, and he grabbed my head between his hands and brutally attacked my mouth with his, trying to overcome my defenses. I deadened my lips to his, not responding, doing my best not to respond until he gave up.

    I might have pulled it off if he hadn’t been so strong. With a roar, he stood up and pulled his cock out of me with a big slurping sound. I thought he was going to turn and leave then, but he didn’t. Instead, he turned me to facing him, picked me up with his hands on my waist, and threw me over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes. He then lurched into the room and dropped me on the bed. I scrambled up on my hands and knees on the top of the mattress and tried to move across the bed to put it between us. But he was too fast and strong for me. He dropped down on top of me, pushing the wind out of my body and completely pinning me. His hands grabbed my wrists, and he forced them up to the headboard, where I instinctively wrapped my fists around the brass rods there. He then reared up behind me and pulled me to my knees with an arm wrapped around my belly.

    He entered me again then. Brutally and deeply. And he set up a stroking motion himself, one that started slow and deep and accelerated to long and rapid until he had me panting and moaning again and bucking my hips in obvious desire for his pumping action.

    He buried a fist in my hair, pulled my head back to his, and asked me now if I wanted him to stop and leave, but I was too far gone for that. I admitted I loved what he was doing to me and for him to continue. He kissed me on the mouth brutally again, and this time I opened entirely to him. He covered my body closely with his then, his lips pressed into the side of my neck, his arms stretched out over mine, and his strong thighs squeezing mine so that my ass canal tightly sheathed his cock. Only his pelvis and my hips were in motion, as he fucked me deeply, and I pushed my buttocks back into him in an insistent, answering rhythm. The first climax came in nearly simultaneous spouts of cum from us both him deep inside me and me up my belly as my cock stroked the bedspread.

    After he had conquered me that first time and I no longer could put up a pretense of not wanting him, our hands and tongues explored each other’s crevices and curves as we both reloaded. And then Panos fucked me roughly for almost an hour nonstop, in several positions. And I loved every stroke of his huge cock inside me.

    We slept, entwined in each other’s arms, and then, as a reddish-yellow line was forming again along the horizon of the Mediterranean, we woke, and Panos fucked me again this time more tenderly, belly to belly, my ankles resting on his shoulders, so that we could look each other in the eyes and convey just how much we were enjoying each other’s bodies. I met him stroke for stroke and we came together in a combined sigh of release.

    Panos’s mastery of all he tried was borne out again the next day, as he did a magnificent job of pulling the camera crew together and cajoling the local authorities to let us get close to the action as another set of bombs rocked the downtown Haifa area. I received kudos from the home office on our reporting of the Haifa events. There was still the question of control, of course, and Panos was bold in taking me whenever and wherever he wanted from that day forward. So, I should have quickly asked for a transfer away from this situation. But I became addicted to Panos’s cockiness and to his huge cock and to the mastery with which he used it inside me, and it was a couple of years before I was able to break away from the orbit of this Greek god of mine.


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  • I Laugh When I Cum

    I am twenty. Girls say I am cute: 5′ 6″, curly black hair, smooth and cut.

    I have a strong personality and if I see a guy I want, I go for it. If I’m refused I don’t give a shit, there are plenty more out there. I expect my partner to be open to everything. If he is shy and skittish, I bail. At least that was my MO until I met Casey.

    I saw him sinking a very difficult shot on the 18th. He was with a older man, his father I guess. I applauded. He looked around, saw me and smiled. What a smile. Gorgeous teeth. That wasn’t all, he was tall and slim with pale blond messy hair. His face was beardless with a long sexy nose and curly pink lips. What a package of male beauty.

    Later that day he was in the locker room drying off after a shower. “Nice putt” I said and reached out my hand for a shake. He had to drop the towel a bit. His hand was cool and strong. We held hands more than necessary.

    Finally he laughed and withdrew. I was to hear that laugh a lot. “Name’s Jeff.” He supplied his name Casey. “You leaving?” I asked.

    “Why did you ask? Yep, my Dad’s giving me a lift.”

    “Stay on, we can talk in the sauna.”

    “Okay, his locker is around the corner. I tell him.” He stopped a minute, “I just showered.”

    “So what, you can shower again.” I was starting my dominant personality and he seemed to like it.”

    He returned in a moment and we talked into the sauna. Lucky no one was there. It’s a club sauna, small, only about three can fit in. I held the door for him, hung up my towel on a hook and reached my hand out. “Hang yours here.” I didn’t want to start this minute of taking all day to get to the meat of the occasion.

    He seemed reluctant at first, shrugged and untied his towel and handed it to me. As soon as his towel cleared his front his long pale cock flipped out. What a beauty. And his ball sack, full of two big plums. He was not cut. Oh that ass! I began to get slightly hard at the sight of him.

    We sat down together. He leaned back. It seemed like an invitation. “You met any young guys here?”

    “Naw, there are mostly older fucks with bellies and wrinkles.”

    I reached out my hand and placed it just above his knee, as I talked. This gave him a chance to move away and I would not have invested too much risk.

    “Is there any action here, in this sauna.”

    “I don’t think so. I wouldn’t participate anyway.”

    “You straight?”

    “Not exactly but I have a problem.”

    “Positive.”

    “N-o-o-o. I’m healthy. It’s more like a tic. A sex tic. It’s better that I don’t do anything.”

    “Sounds interesting. You jerk off a lot I guess.”

    “Yeah when I am in a sound proof room.”

    I stared at him. “Whatcha mean”?

    He took a deep breath, his excellently muscled chest expanding. I almost jumped him, tic or no tic. “What’s the tic?”

    “I can’t control myself from laughing when I get sexed up and when I ejaculate I laugh out loud.”

    “That’s not too bad. Except your lover must think you are laughing at him.”

    “Yes that’s often the problem, so I just stay away from it all.” He looked hard at me. “I know that it seems that I am coming on to you, but I don’t want to risk laughing here.”

    “Let me check this out.” I reached my hand further up his blond fuzzy leg and moved it back and forth. He smiled and uttered a sharp “Heh.” A little more up to leg and the side of my hand touched his ball sack. His face broke into a broad smile. It was real cute and fun doing this. All for the sack of scientific discovery.

    “You better stop. I’m going hard and that usually starts me off.”

    “Hard’s good. Go for it pretty boy.”

    He sighed as if to say that it’s my funeral.

    I flicked his pale pink tits with my thumb nail. “Heh, heh, heh/” was produced. His face was flushing so nicely.

    I took his hand and put in on my now hard cock. He seemed eager and began stroking me. I think he wanted to get me off so he would have to get into his tic/ But I have good control. I’d get him off before I spooge.

    I copied his motion and he began giggling. It was strange. The reaction seemed so out of place.

    We were sitting on the lower step. I reach out and pulled him to his feet and stood him in front of me. His prick was lengthening and curving upward. My favorite angle. I licked the head. He let out an explosive “Hah.” Then I licked again and moved his foreskin up and put his cock head in my mouth and licked rapidly. He broke into peals of laughter, his body shaking with gleeful sounds. “Oh, oh, I’m sorry.” He put a hand over his mouth but the laughs leaked out over the sides. I still thought it was as cute as hell. He looked like a little boy.

    I took his cock further into my mouth and began a real blow job. He was shaking with laughter and I had to hold on to him like a bucking bronco.

    Finally he pulled away, gasping and breathing heavy. “Let me do you.” Oh shit, he was a master. I don’t know what happened to my supposed control, but in a minute I was into a fucking motion and holding my hands against his ears. “I can’t hold on. You’re just too hot. You want it in your mouth..” He shook his head yes and hummed in delight and sped up. “Oh, oh, uh, uh.” Like short trigger kid I shot six times into his sucking mouth. Finally I fell back against the bench.

    “That was terrific Jeff. Thanks. That’s the first sex a had in almost a year.”

    “But you didn’t get off. Let me pleasure you.”

    “Jeff, you’re too hot. I’d only get hysterical and the whole locker room will hear me.”

    Each time I tried, he moved away. But he did chuckle when I felt his ass hole. Finally I just gave up.

    About a week later I was back in the sauna after a round of golf. It was dinner hour and the locker rom was deserted, but there was one guy in the sauna. I recognized him from a long time ago and we had messed around. He a stocky, hairy guy with an average cock. Nice face though. About thirty I guess. He’s a kisser. I like kissing but he overdoes it I thought. As soon as I came in he greeted me and began to rub his cock. I got hard right away. I figured that we knew each other and could avoid all the bull shit. I came close and he grabbed my cock. I moaned slightly. I hadn’t realized that I was so up for this. “Suck me hard,” I growled.

    He got on his knees and began a slow suck, very gentle. “I slapped his cheek. “None of that faggy stuff. “Suck hard.”

    Just as he got into it and I was fucking his mouth, the door opened. We jumped apart. It was Casey. “It’s okay. I know him. Casey, meet Bill.

    He’s a terrific cock sucker.”

    “Do you want me to leave you two alone?”

    “Naw,” said Bill. “I’ve seen you around. You are just too cute. Stand next to Jeff and I’ll alternate.”

    “Er,” Casey started. “Did Jeff tell you about my problem?”

    I sketched it out to Bill.

    “Makes no never mind to me, cum and laugh as long as I get your cum.”

    So there we were, side by side and Bill sucking one cock while he jerked the other one. I turned toward Casey just as he was beginning to get his giggle started and I pressed my lips against his. He put his arms around me. Jeez, it was great. He was laughing into my mouth. I loved it.

    Finally he broke away. “Oh, hah, hah, I’m getting close.”

    Bill looked up. “Give it to me.”

    He began gasping and laughing alternately, almost collapsing. “I can’t do this.”

    “Don’t you want to cum?” I asked him.

    “Yeah, but I think it’ll be better if you fuck me.”

    I’m always a cooperative guy. “Sure babe. I’m up for that.”

    Bill heard the whole thing and we placed the smiling and slightly mirthful boy against the bench with his spectacular ass in the air. I leaned in and gave his ass hole a lick. It was pulsing widely. He began to shake with laugher.

    I looked at Bill. “He does make a lot of noise. Tell you what, slip under him and get your cock in his mouth to cork him up.”

    “Great,” says the happy Bill. In a moment he had his hard cock in Casey’s smiling face. He was blubbering and laughing around the cock. “What a sensation,” said Bill. “This is a new one for me.”

    I put a finger in the hot ass hole in front of me. Casey jumped and let out an explosive “Hah” which dislodged poor Bill.

    “Lister Casey, I’m gonna fuck the laughing out of you. Get ready.”

    “Yeah Jeff. Do it.”

    I put the head of my cock against his ass hole. My cock head isn’t the wide part of my cock and as I push in he began to cry out. Not laughing but in pain I thought. I ignored him. Finally I was lodged all the way in. He laughed a few times, I guess he was over the pain. “Okay Jeff, move your cock in and out. Do it hard so it’ll hurt a bit. That might help a bit.”

    Meanwhile the brave boy never stopped sucking Bill whose eyes were rolling up in pleasure. “I’m almost there.” He moaned and shook and I could see that Casey’s mouth was sucking and his Adam’s applle was jerking with swallowing the big load. Finally Bill pulled away. “That was a good one but I just can’t take being laughed at. I almost lost my hard on twice.”

    He grabbed his towel and left. I began fucking Casey with all my strength and put my finger in his mouth for him to suck it. He sucked like he was going to get cum out of it, but it did serve to block some of his guffaws.

    Soon my hips began to lose sensation which is a sure sign for me. I reached out for Casey’s long cock to get him off with me, but he swatted my hand away. I figured ‘fuck you, I’ll just go for it.’ I let out a scream as my orgasm surprised me coming at me so fast. My body jerked many times as I howled. I almost blacked out. A moment later Casey was stroking my check. “You make the cutest face when you cum.”

    I opened my eyes. “You poor fucker. I left you high and dry again.”

    “Oh now, not this time.” He pointed to his chest and belly. It was covered with his own cum. “I came without even touching myself. You did that thing inside of me and wow.”

    “Hey good. I notice you hardly laughed.”

    “Yep. I think that if I stick to being a fucked bottom I can get back into sex.”

    “It’s more than good with me.” I leaned in and kissed him. Tomorrow same time, same ass. He chuckled slightly.

    “Do it dry like today. I want that little pain.”

    “If you want I can slap your ass a bit.”

    He closed his eyes and said “O-o-o-o-h.”


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  • Coach Trip To Keswick

    Academics was never a stregth of mine, so my uni years were a major struggle for me. Very often I got to the point of giving up, but my colleagues and professors kept talking me round with strong words of comfort and encouragement. Even so, the pressure was still too much, yet I got through and passed. How? I ‘ll never know. Either Him upstairs was smiling down at me or else I must have trodden in something huge and lucky when and where it mattered. So this chapter in my life is aimed at those who put up with me and my tantrums and got me through it all. They deserved me to pass because of all their kindness and generousity. This chapter is just one example of how just one of them managed to help.

    I felt drained and burnt out by the time the summer holidays before my last year began. All my friends and lecturers were very concerned. I hadn’t slept much at night worrying about dead-lines and keeping up. Lack of sleep made any in-take of lectures as good as impossible. This fuelled my anxieties and caused further sleepless nights. The end of term arrived just in time before I neared the point of total melt-down. One thing that gave me strength to continue, that helped give me hope and something to look forward to, was an offer made by one of the staff. His name was damien (hehe I ‘m lying) and he wasn’t even one of my lecturers. He owned one of those mobile homes on an exclusive caravan site in keswick, a lake district resort in cumbria uk. It was mine for the week if I wanted it. A place to escape and get away from it all. Leave the world behind and recharge my batteries. I was only 19, yet he was trusting me with his holiday home, risking his reputation with the campsite. There would be mountains to climb and lakes to swim in. Work would be several hundred miles behind me. The thought of a break, a holiday alone, all by myself, would have been a taste of paradise. I snatched up his offer with no hesitation.

    I bargained on the weather being good, so I packed the minimum possibly needed in my college back-pack. As a kid I ‘ve always been taught to travel light. I got the train to victoria station and the national express coach to the lakes. It was a long journey, but it gave me time to unwind. There was an awkward moment when a very large fat man in his late fifties came and sat next to me, or almost on top of me, towards the back of the coach. I was squashed between him and the window. It wasn’t going to be good. A plan of action immediately hatched.

    After we had travelled the first few miles I felt enough was enough. My ploy was to pretend to fall asleep and let my head fall and rest against his shoulder. I did this and put on a convincing snore. He tried shifting a bit with obvious discomfort, but his seat gave little room for manouvre for such a big fat arse. I snuggled up to his shoulder even more, as if he were a great big cosy bean bag. The idea was he’d eventually move off to another seat. He didn’t give any indication he was going to do that.

    Certainly no hint came soon enough for me. I turned in my seating and lay a leg across his spongey lap and crossed an arm across his cavenous chest. Still no change of seating. I started to snore all the more and deeper. I even let my mouth dribble down his shoulder. Surely this would work, if not nothing would, except maybe…? I let off wind, a good loud juicey raspberry belch of the bum.

    A response! A definite shift of position! I followed it up by curling into him all the more. Perhaps he’ll use this disturbance to make his excuse-me’s and move on. No such luck. Instead he placed a big fat hand on my lap. Not in a pervy way, but as a father would secure his own sleeping child. Fuck, this wasn’t going to work. My brain clicked into another gear, trying to keep up the initiative. It churned faster than my conscience thought.

    ‘Mmm… stroke me. Stroke my cock,’ I suddenly heard myself mutter!

    Good plan, others would look round and embarrass him into moving fast. I sensed no movement, no shuffling, no turning of heads. Nothing happened.

    Damn!

    I let the hand I had across his shoulder start to stroke him. I let it wander and find an opening between his shirt buttons. It slid between the fabric and started to caress his hairy boob. A result! He shifted and moved! He got up and I dropped my head into his seat. I startled myself awake and looked up with bleary eyes. He cleared his throat and smiled. I faked how daized I was and ask, ‘what?’

    ‘You fell asleep on me’ he said, as I dozily straightened myself up feining a look of shock and disgust.

    ‘Sorry’ I said, ‘did I disturb you?’ acting all innocent.

    ‘No, no worries’ he said, but fuck it, he sat back down again!

    So much for that plan. I sat arms crossed with the hump. To make matters worse he kept looking at me. I could tell from the corner of my eyes. As we travelled on he eventually placed a hand on my thigh. I flitched in surprise, I didn’t expect that, but he didn’t withdraw it. I gingerly looked round at him and he was grinning with a look I didn’t like. But his hand was hot against my thigh and moved closer to my crutch. Next his hand was cupped over my bits.

    ‘Nice bulge!’ he whispered.

    Fuck, he discovered my hard-on before I knew I had one! But I was pinned there in my seat. There was nowhere I could go. But his hand did feel good.

    He began to give it gentle squeazes. I couldn’t help it respond. I got harder and hornier. I shifted my position to give him easier access and began to loosen my belt and buttons. His hand slipped beneath my undies and I felt his fingers wrap around my throbbing shaft. Almost straight away a shot of precum spilled out over his nob-slit caressing thumb. His hot hand and my lube quickly got me to that point I needed him to continue. I couldn’t let him stop now. He had to continue.

    I couldn’t tell him to stop. I couldn’t tell him to keep going. I couldn’t tell him I was about to cum. It was risky enough what he was doing without the added risk of spelling it out to anyone who might hear me. Plus, if I had try to say anything my voice would have sounded too strained. Instead I just looked into his eyes and he seemed to read what I hoped they were trying telling him. He continued his manipulating as my body started to jerk and twitch. I gripped my bottom lip and closed me eyes tight. I shuddered all over as pulse after pulse ejaculated my hot cream over my stomach, lap and his hand. I turned and dug my teeth into his upper arm trying to stifle my gasping. Then I relaxed and sunk into my seat like a rag doll exhausted. The fat man raised his hand to his mouth and sucked off all my juices, licking each finger carefully not to miss a drop. When he finished he passed me a clean handkerchief which I used to wipe myself down. When done I handed it back to him, tucked myself in and fastened my belt and buttons again. He put the handkerchief to his nose and sniff before folding it back into his pocket. Weird!

    Next thing I knew we had arrived. He woke me up with a gentle shaking. I had fallen asleep against his shoulder again and slept like a baby. Had this all been a dream? As he was about to leave the coach he got out his handkerchief and gave it another deep sniff with a sly wink in his eye.

    Plus I had crispy dry stains on my t-shirt. It hadn’t been a dream.


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  • Burnt Up in Ice

    A wonderful thing is being a boy standing half-naked, just jeans and nothing else, your bare feet gripping a narrow ledge and you are stretched, your fingertips keep you upright as they grip the edge of the ledge above you.

    The only thing between you and the night, you and the freezing fog, you and the claustrophobia that darkness brings to mountains and large stretches of land, is your skin.

    It’s freezing cold and your balcony doors are open. Music is pouring out along with the heat in your expensive mountain house. You turn your head and you can see that heat shimmer while it rolls out. The music is the King of Pain, by The Police, and you close your eyes and imagine that blue whale beached by the springtime’s ebb, because that’s how you feel.

    You’re up and out of water. Where at one time you were in a place where you were beautiful and you could do the most amazing things, you’ve now come to a place where you no longer belong. The funny thing is it’s the same place. The place is beside your husband and you’ve traded a dry mountain home for a wet one.

    Gravity transforms the beauty and strength of a whale into a helpless beast. The sun which barely reached him before as the weakest blue tendrils now eats him alive.

    That’s how I felt last night. I was freezing standing there on the ledge of my balcony, but not shivering. The forest, the mountains seemed as small as me and as large as my blown up heart and the fog had sound.

    All I wanted in that moment, on the ledge, and when you stand at an edge you feel this pull, and it comes from your stomach, and it starts in the darkness underneath you and it blossoms in your chest, stings your shoulders and arms, and makes you want to cry, because you’re standing at the edge, above a fall which could hurt you very badly at least, and kill you at best all I wanted was him.

    All I wanted in that moment was his arms to wrap around my hips and squeeze me hard. Then that hook in my stomach that falling down feeling, wouldn’t be as strong, wouldn’t be as much, if he were there with me last night, if my husband was home.

    I closed my eyes as the ice air attacked my chest. The piercings in my nipples were small circles of slow fire, they were so cold. The buttons in my fly freezing through the denim became a part of my cock, that was hard despite that falling feeling, hard despite the fear, hard despite the fact that Greg wasn’t there.

    It hurt, but it felt fucking fine, so fine when I did look down, because breathing cold air hurts and I didn’t want to start coughing and lose my hold on the ledge above me and fall a raw smile unfolded inside me when I saw the head of my cock standing up out of my jeans, over the edge, squeezed tight by the fabric red and pink because it was freezing outside, my precum pooled there thick on the inside edges of my foreskin a conduit to the cold and it was the sharpest, most precise needle that pushed in from the frozen outside into the inside of me.

    All I wanted in the moment was my husband’s arms around my hips and his hands undoing the freezing metal buttons on my jeans. All I wanted in that breath was him pulling the cold stiff denim down, him helping me kick them off into the darkness below, him nudging my legs apart, and his face his tongue working a wet trail on the inside of my thighs so his spit is hot, the air that hits it is cold, and my cock and my balls have never been this frozen and on fire at the same time.

    I wanted to feel his nose dragging hard across my ass, so I know that he was pushing his face hard into it, so that when he pulls me apart with that thick lick, when he takes me from behind like that, his twisting muscle undoing me from behind my balls, he’s going to go for that other muscle inside of me.

    He strokes the outside of my hole, with the freezing rain, the softest bullets hitting me. The iced tree branches break, snap, and are gunshots, and he is eating me out while I am half frozen. My cock has never been harder, it reaches out into the freezing fog, pulses through that mist, and I push back grinding myself onto that tongue squirming inside of me. My fingers are breaking off little bits of stucco because I’m gripping the ledge above me so hard. I look down.

    His arms wrapped around my waist jerks me backwards, because I am pulled forwards towards falling, because he’s finger fucking me with two fingers as he’s eating me out and my cock is aching and boiling ice-icicle dripping, melting, in the sun, going to break off the roof going to fall off the roof and smash to bits, smash to pieces

    You can burn up in ice and disappear. You can stand on a ledge forty feet above the earth, the earth at an angle, because you’re on the side of a mountain but your mountain is behind you and inside of you.

    The world is a trip, dance, spin, and you believe you are falling because you’re cumming and moving, your feet are no longer on the ledge. You’re in the air, because your mountain, your husband, has lifted you up and over the ledge and back into him, back into the bedroom, back into the music, back into him and onto him, and you came, it was freezing, you thought you were falling and dying, but you came, and the night has just started, because he your husband has just started.

    He is my mountain and I come to him, pull myself up by my fingertips trying to know him and occasionally I admire a secret, like a view from the top of the mountain, his smile upon me finding the real him is a cold wind bitten with ice and aspen.

    My husband Greg tastes dark and crisp, like some sort of fresh winter snow on a pine bough that you just grabbed a handful of and ate. So does his cum. And I have never fallen before in the harshest darkness as I have in his hands and his eyes. The Colorado mountain, the ledge, and the ice can only imitate my mountain.