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  • Married man’s first time barebacking

    I have been having fun with guys a few times a year while I go on with trips. Since I’m married I can only play when I’m out and staying in a hotel. Last week I was able to meet up with a guy that I’ve blown and gotten sucked by on past trips to Connecticut. I reached out to him and he was available one is the few nights I was in town. 

    Leading up to the night he was coming over, he told me he wanted to fuck me. The last time we hooked up he wasn’t able to stay long enough to do more than get blown so I was excited he’d be able to stay and have more fun. 

    I got myself cleaned up before he came to my hotel. When he knocked on the door I stayed to the side and greeted him naked as soon as he came in. As soon as the door was closed he was against me and grabbing my slightly hard cock. I shared to grab his pants and pull them down so I could feel him get hard in my hand. 

    Once his pants were down, I kneeled in front of him and started to kiss and lick his beautiful 7 inch cock. It felt so good having him push the back of my head into it just enough to make me feel it hit the back of my throat. 

    After a few minutes of sucking him, I got up and climbed into the edge of the bed. Getting on my knees and elbows, I looked back and watched him take off his clothes and look at my ass hungrily. Once undressed, he stalked over to me, grabbed both ass cheeks and started to lick my eager asshole.

    Getting my ass wet with his spit and some lube ,he stood up, grabbed his cock, and started to push the tip to my hole.

    Before this, I’ve only ever had guys fuck me with condoms. He knew this and we had talked about it leading up to the night but being fucked raw has always been something I wanted to do. I pulled forward nervously.  I looked back and he was smiling at me while still holding my ass with one hand and his dick in the other. 

    I had no other chance for a second guess because he grabbed me, pulled me back, and rubbed his hard dick into my asshole. Embracing it, I let him push the tip in and out a few times. Drunk on excitement, I rocked back into him and let him push it all the way in. I immediately bit the pillow and kept my head down feeling the euphoria of his cock starting to pump in and out. 

    After a few minutes he pushed me further onto the bed, stood on either of side of me and fucked me deep, hard, and fast until he exploded inside of me. The feeling of his warm cum inside of my ass, while he held himself in as far as he could, was the greatest thing I’ve ever felt. My knees wanted to buckle and give way but I held myself up to keep every last drop from escaping. 

    Realizing I came also at some point, I reached down, taking some of my semen in hand, and pushed it into my ass as well when he pulled himself off of me. Watching this, he smacked my ass, took his still hard cock, and slid it back into me. No longer able to take it, I collapsed under his power. After a few more minutes of him using the last of me, he got up, got dressed and watched me lay there soaking in the lust. 

    Once he was dressed and gone, I laid there and jerked off once more. And like the last I pushed more of my cum into me relishing in how hot it felt. 

  • Desperation

    He’s wasted, but I don’t care. He wants me to fuck him, and I want to. I can see it in his eyes—he wants me to take him hard and fast. It doesn’t matter that he doesn’t know my name or what I do for a living; all that matters is that we both want this.

    I push him down onto the bed, and he lets out a moan. I can see his cock is already hard; it’s sticking straight up in the air.

    I grab it with my hand and start stroking him slowly. He moans again, louder this time.

    “Fuck me,” he says breathlessly. “Please fuck me.”

    I don’t need any more encouragement than that. I climb onto the bed and straddle his chest, my cock pressing against him through our clothes.

    “Tell me your name,” I say as I kiss him.

    He opens his mouth and says, “I’m Chris.”

    I smile at him. “Well, Chris, my name’s Eli. I might as well tell you, since you’ll be screaming my name in a little bit.”

    Chris laughs and says, “I can’t wait.”

    He’s really slurring his words. I can tell he’s had a lot to drink.

    “I want you inside me,” he says, his voice low and husky with desire.

    He reaches down between us and unzips my pants. He pulls my cock out and starts stroking it.

    “Fuck me,” he says again, his eyes burning with lust. “Fuck me with that big hard cock.”

    I can’t help but smile at his enthusiasm. “You want me to fuck you?” I ask, teasing him a little bit.

    He nods vigorously and replies, “Yes! Please!”

    I lean down and kiss him again, my tongue slipping into his mouth. I pull his pants and boxers down, then all the way off. I lift his legs up and put them on my shoulders.

    I grab my cock and rub it against Chris’ hole, teasing him.

    “Please,” Chris begs me again, “please fuck me.” He’s so turned on that pre-cum is leaking out of the tip of his dick.

    I line my cock up with Chris’ hole and push forward slowly. He moans loudly as he feels me enter him, stretching out the walls of his ass around my shaft.

    “Oh, fuck,” he gasps, “you’re so big!”

    I start to move my hips back and forth, fucking him slowly at first. He moans again as he feels me filling up his ass with each thrust of my cock.

    “Fuck yeah,” Chris says breathlessly, “fuck me harder!”

    I pick up the pace, pounding into him harder and faster. He’s moaning loudly now as he takes my cock deep inside of his ass over and over again.

    “Oh God, Eli, I fucking love your cock,” he moans as I ream him. “Fuck me harder, please!”

    I’m happy to oblige. I grab his hips and start slamming into him as hard as I can, my balls smacking against the back of his ass with each thrust.

    “Fuck!” Chris screams, his eyes rolling back in ecstasy. “Fuck me, fuck my ass!” 

    I keep pounding into him as he cries out in pleasure. He’s gripping the sheets with both hands, his knuckles turning white.

    “Fuck me harder!” he begs me. “I want to feel your cum inside of me!”

    I can’t hold back any longer. I slam into Chris one last time and explode, my cum shooting deep inside of his ass. He moans loudly as he feels me filling up his hole with my seed.

    “That was so good,” Chris says, his words slurred from the alcohol.

    “Oh, I’m not done yet,” I reply slyly. “You still have to cum.”

    Before he can say anything, I grab his hard cock and start furiously jerking it. Chris moans and writhes beneath me, at my mercy.

    “Oh fuck, Eli, I’m gonna cum…” he whimpers.

    “Cum for me, Chris,” I reply as I keep jerking his dick.

    Chris lets out a strained cry, and his hips buck as he shoots several spurts of hot cum. He collapses back onto the bed, and I lean down to kiss him one more time.

    “That was so fucking good,” he says, still slurring his words.

    We smile at each other, then he shuts his eyes. I watch for a moment as his chest slowly rises and falls with his breathing.

    I get dressed and head back downstairs to join everyone else. Before I leave, I take one last look at Chris, who’s now sound asleep. I smile and shut the door.

  • The Bad Cub Club

    Chapter One

    It was a hot night. Too hot, maybe for a guy’s twenty-first birthday. Especially when he was finally going to get to wear his new leather jacket and thick leather kepi. But it was his birthday nonetheless, and Travis was going to get in trouble. He could feel it in the gut as he buckled his favorite belt across his hairy belly. See, Travis was a cub. Proudly husky and self-proclaimed since he first laid eyes on the hairy studs in BEAR HUG MAGAZINE. He came out to his friends on his eighteenth birthday, his parents on his nineteenth, and the world on his twentieth. And tonight? Tonight was the night for coming out to no one. Travis was finally legal and could officially get into THE DEN on a Saturday night. He was stoked that not only his birthday should fall on a Saturday, but that he received an e-mail invitation from his buddy Cooper to hang with the guys at the BCC.

    The Bad Cub Club was a group of young guys that met at the local bear bar. For the most part, cubs identify themselves as young bears; guys into being masculine, gruff and proud of their sexuality. But cubs tend to hang with even more of the gay youth fringe, especially at the Bad Cub Club. Chubs, husky boys and tough, young wolves always seem to fill out the scene nicely. Now with an invitation to the Bad Cub Club, one thing was certain: at twenty-one years old, Travis was no longer a boy. And he was gonna fuck hard to be sure he’d never forget it. So he adjusted his jeans over an already granite hardon, pulled the kepi on snuggly, and headed out to the East Side. No turning back.

    As he got to the front door of THE DEN, Travis could already sense the sexual energy. He could see the heads of many a hot bear moving back and forth across the crowded bar. The bald, black, muscle bear at the door locked eyes on Travis. “Hold it, kid. Let’s see your I.D.?” Travis fumbled for a second, retrieving the wallet tethered to his belt by a steel chain. Two biker bears came up behind him, obviously anxious to get through the door. The bouncer repeated his request. “Come on, man. You got an I.D.?” Travis’ wallet snagged on the denim of his tight jeans, and then pulled free just in time. But in the thrill of the moment, the wallet fell from his hand and swung widely by its chain. Travis fumbled clumsily as the biker bears chuckled. “It’s cool, Leon, he’s with us.” From behind the burly bouncer, Travis’ friend Cooper came to his rescue. The bouncer nodded, then let Travis pass. “S’ok, Coop. But you better get this boy a drink.”

    Travis walked toward the bar a bit too quickly, and Cooper let him know. “Easy, stud. That bar’s for the big boys. We’re in the back.” Travis’ smile was cut short as Cooper moved up under the visor of his kepi. “Oh yeah, happy birthday, man.” With that, Cooper kissed Travis full on the lips. The kiss lingered for just a moment, but Travis could feel his cock harden beneath the tight jeans. Cooper was probably the hottest guy Travis had ever called friend. Tall, Irish, well-muscled with a thick barrel chest. Travis’ goatee brushed across Cooper’s light brown beard as the two separated. Cooper stopped again. “Travis, this is the first night of the rest of your life. And I fuckin’ hope you’re hungry, cub.”

    The door to the back room swung open quickly and Travis was almost bowled over by the heady aroma of beer, leather, sweat and pungent musk. This was going to be his initiation into a world he’d dreamed about for a long, long time. Cooper squired Travis around for introductions, finishing the tour at a booth by a jukebox next to the bar. Cooper grew a wicked grin that Travis had come to know intimately. “Travis, I’d like to introduce you to Toby, president of the Bad Cub Club.” Travis cleared his throat quickly and then extended his hand. Though he was seated at the booth, Travis could tell that Toby was, give or take, five-foot six-ish. But the arms on the President were thick and meaty, and adorned with spiral tribal tattoos on the left forearm and a thick armband of barbed wire on the right bicep. Toby wore a close-cropped black goatee and a buzz cut to match. He shook hands with an iron grip, and once again Travis could feel his cock harden. Toby held the grip, then smiled as his eyes instinctually fell in the direction of Travis’ crotch. “Cooper tells me it’s your birthday, Travis. And that you’re itching to join our little family.” “Yes, Sir,” Travis snapped. Toby’s grin widened. “Wow, you’re good, cub. Since it’s your birthday, we’re going to mix tradition with initiation. And if you’re still standing by the end of the night…you’re in.” Travis smiled at Cooper. Toby stood abruptly and moved in to Travis, inhaling as he came in close. “You smell great, cub.” He sniffed Travis’ goatee with eyes closed. “Follow me. I wanna show you something out in the alley.” Cooper chuckled lightly as Toby led Travis toward the fire exit.

    Toby walked out into the alley first, so Travis quickened his pace. By the time he stepped onto the wet cobblestones behind the bar, Toby had already taken off his black flannel shirt, revealing a muscular chest brushed with an amazing pattern of hair. The package was held together by a leather harness, centered by a thick, steel ring. Both nipples were pierced and held thick rings of their own. Travis was unaware that his mouth had fallen open. “You see something you like, cub?” Toby reached down and cupped his bulging crotch with is left hand, then deftly unbuckled his belt with the right. He then ran his right hand over a slightly bulging, beer-fed belly as his jeans started to fall. Travis was stunned by the President’s black jockstrap and overstuffed pouch. “Cooper said you were hungry, cub. Get over here and try some of this bear meat.” Travis’s jeans strained with the strength of his erection. He moved quickly toward Toby and dropped to his knees. He pushed his new leather jacket over his shoulders forcing them to arch as he thrust his mouth forward. Toby stood in place offering Travis the first step in his initiation. “You want it?” Travis reached his right hand forward and up under Toby’s nut sack. His left hand pulled the elastic fabric away from the hairy crotch. Toby’s thick seven-inch cock popped out of the pouch within two inches of Travis’ mouth. He took Toby’s cock deep into his throat with a quick gulp of air. He truly was hungry. He was a cub and he loved cub cock. The taste was incredible and he breathed the smell of sweat and an almost-hidden leather cock ring through Toby’s pubic hair. Toby reached down with his right hand and gently grabbed the back of Travis’ head, matching with his hand the bobbing motion of the cub’s sucking mouth. “Very nice, Travis. You are hungry.” Travis pulled off of Toby’s cock with a wet, sucking sound. Spit and pre-cum slick on his lips. He smiled and paused for just a beat, then took the wet cock again deep into his throat. Toby grinned. “Happy birthday, cub.”

    To be continued…

  • SVU: Sub Rosa

    DISCLAIMER: This story is a work of fan fiction. The characters are borrowed from the series Law & Order: Special Victims Unit (SVU). The author of this story makes no claim of ownership to these characters or any others referenced therein. The owners of this intellectual property are probably unaware of this story, which is written purely for entertainment.

    The characters do not in any way belong to the author of this story, and the owners of this intellectual property have nothing to do with the development or publication of this story. It is written purely for entertainment, and there will never be an attempt to profit from it. The plot of the story is the author’s own work.

    OPEN.

    Dr. George Huang sets a vase on the fireplace mantel of his Manhattan office. It’s an affectation from the days when he saw clients there, in the front room of his brownstone. The office and its furnishings are elegant and orderly, but betray nothing more of his own personality. There is a pocket door that securely separates the office from his own personal apartment. A good boundary between personal and work lives is essential.

    When his guest arrives he opens the door promptly. “Detective Stabler. Please come in.”

    He hasn’t seen the detective for a year or so, since he ended his time with the Special Victims Unit. Stabler is little changed from his memory, still tall and handsome. An intimidating presence, which can be an asset in his work. He seems agitated, however, in a way George had not often seen before, not even on the job. Stabler was one of those detectives who lives under pressure the way fish live in water, though how long that could last has always concerned George.

    “I was surprised to get your call,” George says, after locking the office door and offering Stabler a hot beverage – he chooses coffee – and offering him a seat.

    “Nice digs,” said Stabler, scanning the room. “Classy.”

    “Thank you,” says George. It shouldn’t, but it gratifies his ego to have the rough-edged cop notice the care he put into the space. He makes a mental note to add this topic to his own next counseling appointment, his habit of enjoying the approval of heterosexual men like Stabler.

    “Detective Stabler. As you know, I’m not with the force any more. And when I was, I didn’t often think you respected me, much less trusted me. So I’m curious about you seeking me out, now.”

    “Those were… professional differences,” replies Stabler. “And you’re the only one I can talk to. About this.”

    “I’m a psychiatrist, Elliot, but I’m not really practicing. I do more consulting now. You have friends and family. Why am I the only one?”

    Stabler explains that his marriage had gone badly. He could never discuss this with Kathy anyway. He’d rather die. A police counselor was impossible too. It would mean his career, no matter what confidentiality they promised. Olivia was the one possibility, but she had her own problems now. And how could he tell her without changing everything? 

    “I know your faith is very important to you. Confession…”

    “No,” Elliot says, cutting him off. “Not that. I couldn’t stain the confessional with this.”

    He puts down his coffee cup and looks out the office window, pursing his lips.

    “I’ve been carrying this around,” Stabler continues, “and it’s wrecking me. It’s taking my focus off work. You know what that can mean. I can blow a case. Someone can get hurt. I can get hurt.”

    “Detective… Elliot. Even though I’m not a colleague, and you’re not my patient, as a… friend, maybe, what happened?” 

    Stabler stands to remove his blazer and folds it over once to set it on the side table. He looks bigger in the chest and shoulders since George saw him last. He removes the magazine from his gun and rocks back the slide to be sure it’s empty. He locks it and places it on the folded blazer, strips out of his shoulder holster and adds it and his shield to the pile. Seated again he rolls his shirt sleeves up to his thick forearms, one inked on the interior, just as Huang remembers. He’s set aside his defenses.

    “Let’s start at the beginning.”

    ACT ONE.

    “The crew at the precinct had been looking into this high end sex trafficking ring,” Stabler explains. “Gay guys mostly. No offense intended.”

    “None taken,” replies Huang, raising an eyebrow. He’s never quite understood the detective on this point.

    “This wasn’t street level prostitution. No selling scared runaway kids, no shady pimps. This was real high end. They were running guys, some pretty young, but still guys, through a circuit catering to gay men. Some are just well off.” He glances around the office. “Some super rich.”

    “I’m a little surprised there’s much of a market, frankly,” says Huang. “Gay men are not known for being sexually unavailable. I’d think there’s be ample free opportunities.”

    “There’s always something that’s easier to buy than to get the usual ways,” Stabler explains. This guy, Huang. He’s still naive, even after everything he’s seen in the SVU. “If you don’t have the looks or the income or the time, or the… personal ability, then getting laid is easier as a transaction. And if you feel the need, you can indulge in some fantasies no one else would go for. And for a lot of guys there’s just a thrill in paying”

    “It doesn’t sound as awful as so much of what you deal with.”

    “It’s not. But it’s still illegal. And there’s still victims, even if they come out a little less damaged than the ones we usually see.

    “So we look into putting some officers in undercover, to get details, get some IDs. But the young guys are so green, and the brass doesn’t want to risk something with them that could cause bad PR. It’s always like that with gay shit. So I say it’s too bad we can’t put in someone more seasoned. Fin asks what about me, and I laugh and say I’m pretty sure there’s no market for a guy pushing forty. That’s when Fin says, ‘Unless you’re a Bull.’

    “I’ve been on this job for a while and thought I knew just about everything, but this was a new one on me. Dr. Huang, do you know what a Bull is?”

    “Why don’t you tell me?” replies Huang, setting his tea down.

    “So Fin, you know his kid is gay, right? He says there’s guys who want another man, not a boy. Even an older guy, or especially an older guy. Someone to dominate him, or them, if they’re a couple who have been together a while but don’t…” Stabler gestures awkwardly.

    “They have a ‘dead bedroom’,” Huang offers. “It’s not uncommon for long term gay couples to lose intimacy with each other, even if they have high libidos. Some opt for open relationships, but that has risks too. And the feelings between partners are not always in sync. Bringing in a third party, especially a professional, who knows the rules and the boundaries, can seem like a safer alternative.”

    He feels he’s said too much, but works to maintain his neutral face. He’d need to be more careful. Elliot Stabler, whatever else he might be, is a masterful interrogator. He could elicit your most guarded secrets before you realized they’d passed your lips.

    “Right,” says Stabler. “So we work it out. There’s this big party on The Island. A huge party, for the richie rich gay guys. So big they need to bring in extra help. Get loaners from others in the business, maybe rush through some screening, which is how I get in, through a prostitution front we operate for purposes like this.”

    Stabler takes a long pause, and Hung lets the silence rest there until Stabler is ready to continue.

    “Doc,” he says, “since my marriage went south, I was just putting myself into work. Every day was work, go to the gym, sleep and repeat. I put myself into more and more risky spots every day. Someone has to go in, sub rosa, so I volunteer. I guess in part because of Fin’s Bull idea.”

    “We all do what we can to cope, Detective. Sometimes not in the most adaptive ways, but to get through.”

    “Doc, there’s some things I have to tell you that… I have to know will never leave this room.”

    George inhales. “I’m a psychiatrist, Detective. Not your psychiatrist, but still, I respect the confidentiality of this office.”

    He looks at the vase on the mantel he’d placed just moments ago.

    “Elliot, do you know the origins of the term ‘sub rosa?’”

    Stabler shrugs. “I know it means an undercover operation, like mine was. I know there’s rules about admissibility in court.”

    “Sub rosa literally means under the rose,” explains Huang. “Roses have a long history of association with the hidden. In myth, the god of silence was given a rose as a bribe to keep the sexual activities of Venus to himself. There were banquet rooms were decorated with rose carvings, to remind guests that what was said while drinking was confidential. Christians even incorporated roses into the woodwork of confessionals to signify that the conversations would remain secret.”

    Huang nods to the vase filled with roses, just a few feet away from them both.

    “Detective, please continue. Between us.”

     
    ACT TWO.

    “So I’m brought in,” Stabler continues. “The whole thing is managed chaos. They check me out like a horse being sold. They can see I’m in pretty good shape, verify I’m clean for disease. I’m given an… outfit. And the rules. Basically anything goes. Keep the customers happy. Tell them they’re hot even if they’re ugly as sin. If they want to get handsy, let them. If they want a kiss, give it. 

    “The only thing is anything that involves the mouth more than a kiss, anything cock or ass is premium service. There’s guys like pit bosses stationed everywhere, and if someone wants something premium, the pit boss okays it and it gets charged to the John’s account. Or Johns. And once they pay, they get what they want. Of course the caution is that as a guy, once you cum it limits what you can make for a while, so you need to be judicious.”

    “And the outfit?” asks Huang.

    Stabler chuckles. Huang noticed him pause when he mentioned it. “A lot of guys are getting outfitted. There’s tight jeans, spandex, some I don’t even fucking know what they are. Even police uniforms.” He laughs again. 

    “And for you?” asks the psychiatrist.

    “For me, Doc, there’s this… jockstrap. Black leather. And outside the pouch there’s kind of a cup, a metal exterior…”

    “A codpiece.”

    “Yeah. And the strap has snaps so it can be opened and closed for easy access. And there’s leather boots and a cap. And a kind of…” – Stabler mimics something wrapping around his chest – “leather harness that goes around the shoulders and across my chest. You know what I mean?”

    Huang nods.

    “And the thing is, it’s stupid, it’s just this leather thing someone hands me at random. There’s a few other guys with similar get ups.” Stabler takes a deep breath and exhales slowly. “But mine goes on like a dream. Like it’s made for me. Some other guy look ridiculous. But this harness they gave me just snaps into place and just fits perfect. Even I can tell. It suits me.”

    “Like your shoulder holster?” Huang asks. “You’re accustomed to wearing something like a harness. And the codpiece you described is perhaps like… a badge? No offense intended.”

    Stabler shakes his head and laughs. “You’re a smart guy, Doc. I guess so. You could always see right through me.”

    “Go on, Detective. Please.”

    “So anyway,” Stabler continues, “it’s party night. There’s all these gay guys. They’re the elite, so a lot are older, because that’s where the money concentrates, right? But there’s a lot of tech bros too. Younger than you or me, but rich as fuck. And maybe lacking some social skills.”

    “There’s a high incidence of individuals in tech on the spectrum,” Huang confirms, “people who have difficulty negotiating social situations. And gay men often have a delayed adolescence due to the pressure to be closeted as teens. So you have some people who are not malign, but who now have significant financial freedom, and maybe some long frustrated desires that are now… unbridled.”

    Stabler nods.

    “Compared to a lot of what I’ve seen,” the detective says, “this is almost innocent. But again, selling sex is illegal.

    “So they’ve got us working the party, soliciting. Guys half my age. Trans. Bodybuilders. Guys that are hairy like gorillas. Whatever you’re into, there’s something for everyone. Just get the Johns to buy a premium service, so you make bank.”

    Stabler takes a longer pause, and looks away before he continues. 

    “Doc, when you’re undercover, the thing you have to do is find yourself in the character you’re playing. You can’t carry off total BS. There’s got to be something in the bit, however sleazy, that could be you, and bring it out. Maybe the someone you could be if your life had gone differently.” 

    “It’s easier to conceal one truth beneath another than an outright lie,” Huang agrees. “More convincing. Easier to maintain.”

    It occurs to Huang that he and Stabler each wear masks in their professions. Stabler’s mask is a fiction that reveals something ugly but true about himself, Huang’s purports to be his true identity, but is a false face of neutrality that often hides his ugly judgments, arousals and revulsion.

    “So I’m in character. I’m there to be an alpha male. A Bull, right? But also to serve and to flatter. To look good and to charm. And there’s something in me that, I don’t know, can get off on that. It’s not something I think about, but…”

    “You know how you look, Detective. You dress to flatter your looks and build. You use your appearance to your advantage. This isn’t a criticism. Just an acknowledgement that you do have a certain self awareness.”

    Stabler continues, “So I wander around the party. It’s like a huge fucking disco and pool party and orgy all in one party. There’s booze and loud music and they’re passing out Viagra like candy. And there’s different tents for everything.

    “I make small talk. ‘Hey stud,’ and whatever. But it’s not my words they’re interested in. Everywhere I go, these guys are getting handsy with me. They’re grabbing at my crotch and… tits.” He’s never used that word to describe his own chest, but in the context it feels right. “Some want to kiss. Doc, you know how long it’s been since I really kissed someone other than Kathy?

    “Guys are grabbing my ass from behind, and where I’m from… I have every impulse to turn around and crack someone. But I have to be into it, so I try to sink into the bit.

    “Doc, here’s the thing. I do kind of enjoy it. I don’t know how to say this, but it’s not like how I think of it when sleaze bags do it to women, to kids. It’s not fucked up that way. I mean yeah, they’re paying for access to my body like I’m some kind of whore, but also it’s like they’re looking up instead of down.”

    “There’s a different power differential,” suggests Huang. “Men already have more social status in common, and more often physical strength as well. And among gay men, physical beauty is so desired in  the other but also aspirational for the self. In the situation you described, you’re beneath them as a prostitute, but in some ways above them as an ideal. It must be a heady mix.”

    “And for a guy,” Stabler continues, “a guy like me, who shut away so many parts of myself to be a husband and a father… and for a guy my age too, to discover this thing… 

    “I never had this feeling, to be wanted this way.”

    Huang isn’t accustomed to seeing Stabler so introspective.

    “So, Doc, the party goes on. And there’s stuff I never thought I’d do, not even undercover. I’m not even going to say some of it, because it’s not important to where this is going. My body isn’t mine anymore. It’s theirs. Anyone who wants a piece of it. And they take it, and I enjoy it.

    “One guy begs to… blow me. To suck me off. I tell him he needs the pit boss’s go ahead, which he gets. 

    “You know how undercover is. I could have made an excuse. Put him off. Found a way out. But I didn’t.”

    Huang nods. 

    “Doc, oral sex with women is good. Really good. But especially after you’re married a long time, it’s… polite. But the things this guy did to my dick, right there in front of anyone who walks by… I’ve never had anything like this. I was down his throat, to the root.”

    Huang shifts in his seat, crossing his legs at the thigh. 

    “He keeps gulping and swallowing my dick, grabbing my ass and pulling me in. And Doc, I’m not saying this to brag, but I’ve got eight inches here so it can’t be easy. And he’s making all this spit and… mucous that makes it so easy for me to slide in and out, even if for him it’s not all easy. It’s not nice, like with a woman. It’s rough. I’m throat fucking him, hard. And the more I do it the more he wants.

    “I’m standing there in this harness and boots, the jockstrap hanging open for access, and a pool of saliva and precum under me from what this guy is doing. And other guys gather around. Old, young, fit, fat. And I can feel hands on my chest and prying my ass cheeks open as guys are touching me there too.

    “Someone puts a bottle of poppers under my nose, someone else holds one nostril shut, and I take a hit. And then another.

    “I get my hands on the guy’s head and I pull it down on my cock. I can hear him gagging and choking on it, but like in the distance. And I don’t give a fuck because it feels so good. And the room is spinning and I think I’m made for this moment, and then I’m shooting. I mean, like I’ve never cum before. My hips are forcing it down his gullet, and I don’t care if he can breathe or not, I just have to breed that throat till I’m drained.”

    George shifts again in his chair.

    “So, it’s a couple hours in,” Stabler says, “and I’ve already broken half the undercover rules. But I never felt anything like it before. The intensity of men being men together that way. Not worrying about any feeling. No shame. No fucking self control.”

    “Go on,” invites Huang.

    ACT THREE.

    “So after I get a masterclass in getting my cock sucked, I wander away to find a place to get my head together for a few minutes. 

    “Before long I’m getting grabbed again. It’s a party, right? I know for some guys, most guys, you cum once and you’re done for the night. I have a little faster recovery rate, you could say.

    “And even while my dick is recovering, the other parts are good to go. There’s guys kissing me. Adoring me. Like I should feel like a woman with all these men at me, but I just feel like more of a man. And my dick is getting responsive.

    “I’m told by a pit boss two guys want me to Bull for them. They’re a couple. One’s a white guy, a little older than you and me, one’s younger, Latino I think. They don’t seem like sleazes, like I’m used to thinking of Johns. They seem… nice. They want me to come with them. So I do.

    “There’s bedroom tents available for whatever guests want, at a cost, and we get one.

    “The guys say they’ve been together a while. The older one, nice looking for his age, fit, wants to see his boyfriend get fucked.

    ‘You want that?’ I ask the boyfriend, and he does. 

    “He’s short, but built like fuck. He’s dark skinned, and good looking. He’s already working his dick and it’s so dark it’s almost purple, like his tits. He’s almost salivating.

    “I let him warm me up by sucking my dick, while the boyfriend watches. And I’m just about there.

    “I tell the boyfriend to lube up my new bottom, and they’re eager to comply. The bottom is on all fours, and the older guy pours it and works it into his boyfriend’s hole, till it’s dripping onto the bed. His pucker is pulsating, and it’s purple too. I get up on the bed on my knees, and my boner is stiffer than it has any business being. I press the crown against his slicked up hole, teasing him with the head, and he’s begging me to put it in.

    “‘You want me to fuck your man?’ I ask over my shoulder to the older guy and he says God yeah.

    “So I let my hard-on sink into him, and it’s like an anchor, slow, steady, and going in one direction only. I don’t know what I was expecting, but it’s like my dick is in heaven.

    “I’ve never fucked a guy before. Obviously.”

    “Obviously,” Huang replies, nodding.

    “But I start pumping into him, like I was born to it. I’m fucking him hard, Dr. Huang. No thought about his comfort. And he’s loving it. He’s moaning and grunting, but begging ‘fuck me, yeah, fuck me’.

    “And I see his boyfriend watching, licking his lips, stroking his own cock. And it’s not small. But it’s not mine, because mine is lodged in his man’s ass, slamming him like there’s no tomorrow.

    “I grab his hips and pull him back so he meets every thrust I put into him. He’s almost crying, biting his own arm, hiking his ass up. ‘Please cum in me, please’

    “I’m gonna shoot in your man,” I call to the boyfriend. ‘When I do, you can clean up.’

    “I hear the boyfriend say yes. His voice is trembling, he wants me to put my seed in his man so bad, and that triggers me. I shove up into the bottom like I’m going to break him in two, and I start shooting my load into his ass. I can hear him saying ‘Oh fuck me, fuck yeah,’ and gasping, and I know he’s cumming too, because his hole is like a vice, squeezing it out of me fast as my balls can pump it, making me shudder and sweat. It’s like he’s milking it out of me, and we do that till there’s nothing left but all my load in him.”

    Huang nods.

    “I step back and my head is spinning. But I see the boyfriend follow where I was, to eat his man’s ass, because he’s so hungry for the nut I left there.

    “Doc, it’s not like women. They want our nut in them if they want to get pregnant, but otherwise it’s inconvenient. And even when they want it, it’s not because it’s something precious, but because of what they can get with it, to make a baby. Otherwise they’ll use IUDs and whatever other shit to keep your cum from getting to where it wants to go, to keep it from doing its job. 

    “But this guy. He didn’t even know my name, he just wanted me enough to be starving for the part of me that even my wife just put up with most of the time. 

    “And as if that wasn’t enough, after he ate my seed out of his boyfriend, he came to where I was sitting, got between my legs and started sucking me off. I was pretty spent, but he cupped my balls and worked them to get any last jizz out, swallowing while he jerked himself and came on the floor under us.

    “And I was done. I couldn’t get that hard again right away. But I could still get felt up, and I did, gladly, while I collected information, got faces and names. I did my job.

    “But I had to wonder why. Sure there were pervs there, and probably some younger guys pressured to do things they didn’t want to do. But others, like the two I Bulled for. Who were they hurting? They weren’t sleaze bags. They just wanted something with someone that they were willing to pay for.

    “Is it so different from anything anyone else pays for? 

    “Is it so different from seeing a psychiatrist?”

    ACT FOUR.

    “That sounds like a wild night,” Huang says. “It must be a lot to process. It might be considered a traumatic incident, even if you consented.

    “But Elliot, we all have different facets to our personalities.”

    “Do we, Doc? Do you? Because you always seem so controlled. Or so unmoved.”

    Huang opts to not reply.

    “You can see now why I came to you,” says Stabler. “Why I couldn’t tell anyone else. But the thing now is I can’t shake it. I did things I never imagined I’d do. I acted like a whore because I was a whore. I let strangers use my body and I used theirs. And I liked it. 

    “This thing in me that I pulled out to play the part… I can’t get it back in its cage. And it wants more.

    “And I didn’t even do everything I wanted to do. Not yet. I felt those guys hands on my ass, but not in my ass. I was sucked and I fucked. But I didn’t get fucked. And I want to.”

    “I wouldn’t think you would have much problem if that’s an experience you wish to pursue,” says Huang. He thinks, but does not say, especially now, when the already fit detective is more built than ever.

    “Well. That’s the other reason I came to you.”

    “How so?” asks Huang.

    “Well, the years we worked together,” Stabler says. “I knew you were into me.”

    “Detective,” interrupts Huang, “I don’t think…”

    “Doc,” says Stabler, “I knew. I could feel your eyes on my ass. I could see you lingering when I was getting out of the shower. I didn’t make much of it then, for either of us. But if you’re going to say that I, of all people, can’t recognize lust… Don’t insult me.”

    “Detective, I have to wonder if your feelings…”

    Stabler interrupts Huang with a sigh. “I fucking hate this,” he says. “You have no idea how much I hate this. Communicating like this makes me feel so exposed. This is your territory, words and feelings. I’m in the lion’s den now. After all I told you here today, don’t you lie to me.”

    It was true.

    Huang’s feelings for Stabler never impeded his work, though it may have contributed to the friction between them. He was ashamed that an Asian man of his accomplishments would yearn for a white married heterosexual, like some sort of grotesque latter day Madame Butterfly. In the end it wasn’t the only reason he left SVU, not by a long shot. But it was a contributing factor.

    “Elliot, even if so, I don’t think… If you want to explore that, you’d have no trouble finding a sexual partner.”

    “Doc, who could I trust but you? I’m not ready to become the gay cop of the squad just because I need to know what this feels like.”

    “There are, well, toys. Devices. I can suggest sources…”

    “You don’t think I tried?” asks Stabler. “A butt plug, a dildo. They can fill your ass but they don’t give you desire, like I felt that night. Or like I used to feel from you. And maybe still do.

    “Doc, the thing I felt that night. The thing I know I’m not done with. The first inkling I had of that was from you. I’m not smart the way you are, but I’m not stupid. I know what I know.”

    George can’t deny it, so he sits back in his seat doing what he does best, putting on the facade to hide his true feelings.

    “I know you’re a good guy, You’re a good man. I can trust that. That’s why… that’s why I came to you. That’s why I’m here now. For you to fuck me.”

    “Elliot, if this is some novel new way to punish yourself I can’t be a party to it. I…”

    Stabler stands up and unbuttons his shirt, and peels it off one shoulder and then the other, and slides it off his arms to  expose his lean muscled torso. He really does look more remarkable than ever before. There are sparse hairs on his chest and stomach, leading to a dirty blond bush that appears as he drops his trousers, and then his fat cock, very credibly an eight incher, thicker toward the top and growing stiff before Huang’s eyes.

    “This is me, Doc,” he says. “No punishment. No gun, no badge. No harness.”

    He turns to show his firm pale ass, and slaps it once, the muscled mound springing up and down just once before settling back in place.

    “Do you really not want to?” he asked

    Huang weighs the ethical considerations. Stabler wasn’t a patient, now or ever. He wasn’t a colleague. His marriage was over, and so was George’s. There are so many near-issues that might preclude what Elliot asks of him. And yet there’s also Elliot standing there with his longing.

    Huang rises up and crosses the few feet between himself and Stabler. He wraps his arms around the detective, kissing his back and pressing his face to it.

    “More than anything I ever wanted in my life,” he answers.

    ACT FIVE.

    George’s apartment is behind the pocket door. He removes his shoes and leads Elliot through it. The space is more airy and well lit than the office, but meticulously arranged. There are dramatic white lilies in clear vases, art on the walls, including a framed Tom of Finland print, carefully placed modern furniture. His bedroom is particularly filled with natural light from the twin windows, and his bed is made with precision corners.

    George unknots his tie and Elliot draws it off through his collar, then unbuttons the doctor’s shirt and pulls it off. Shirtless he looks as Elliot imagined. Slim, fit and smooth, with tempting swells of muscle in his chest and shoulders and a slim waist. He has a faint treasure trail that draws Elliot’s eyes down.

    He opens George’s trousers and pulls them down with his briefs. Dropping  to his knees he’s faced with a handsome cock, tawny brown, oozing precum. It’s not as long as Elliot’s but not far, and thicker at about half-length. He always thought George had the most beautiful face he’d ever seen on another man, and he has a cock to match. 

    Elliot licks the precum up and then swallows George’s cock whole, and begins to let the shaft slide back and forth as he holds the doctor’s balls. The first cock he’s sucked, he thinks, and he’s grateful it’s such a good-looking one, not too big, but big enough to make it not easy. 

    When he stands up his lips are wet with spit and precum, and he kisses George. His head is turned to accommodate their difference in height, which is nothing new for him. But the way he kisses is. George is a deeper and more aggressive kisser than Elliot is used to, or expected.

    When Elliot breaks away they look each other in the face. It seems so unreal to be finally doing this. Elliot is smiling more than George has ever seen in all the time he’s known the detective.

    “Doc,” Elliot says with a smirk, “I know all cops are bastards, but this bastard needs you to fuck him.”

    He turns to climb into the bed and takes a position, elbows down, ass up. George follows, kneeling behind the detective. His heart races as he runs his hands over the meaty ass, the little blond hairs lit by the sunlight. He parts the twin mounds to find Elliot’s pucker, ringed by blond hairs. When he plunges his tongue into it – into him – Elliot gasps. 

    He laps at Elliot’s hole, teases it with just the tip of his tongue and then gently bites the cheeks. He digs his tongue in again, and hears Elliot’s deep sighs. He feasts on the Irish cop hole, slathering it with spit and easing it open. When he parts it with his thumbs, he can see a hint of the rose pink inside, wet and receptive, over the detective’s stallion balls hanging below.

    He could wreck the detective’s hole with his tongue alone, but there are other things he wants to do, and things Elliot wants done. He rises up on his knees and wipes the spit from his lips with his forearm. “You’re delicious,” he says, almost laughing at the idea of expressing this to Elliot Stabler, of all people.

    “Fuck me,” Elliot groans, his face and shoulders to the mattress, his hands pull his ass cheeks apart to give the doctor full access.

    George leaves the bed to get his pocket sized lube, and when he returns he squeezes it out of the clear plastic bottle, straight onto Elliot’s ass crack. He rubs it over the hole, and in it, probing with one, two and then three fingers. He pours more, and smears it onto his own erection.

    “Fuck me,” Elliot groans again, his face and shoulders to the mattress, his hands pull his ass cheeks apart to give the doctor full access.

    “Turn over,” he says.

    Elliott flips onto his back and asks, “You like it better this way?” 

    He presses his cockhead to Elliot’s slathered hole, teasing it, and says “When I’m with you, I want to see your face.”

    He presses the head in and slowly eases the rest, inch by inch, watching Elliot’s face for his cues of when to stop, when to give him more. The detective groans and the initial discomfort of on his handsome face eases, inviting George to sink in with his full length.

    “Oh my God,” Elliot whispers as George slides his cock back and then in again, slowly and then with a stronger thrust. “Oh fuck.”

    “Is that okay?” George asks, picking up the pace of his thrusts.

    “Unf, you always were a pain in the ass,” Elliot answers, dropping his head back and panting.

    George slides his erection out entirely, and Elliot says, “No, oh fuck, get back in me.”

    It was bad enough only imagining George in him. But now that he’s had him there, he feels an empty ache without him.

    George smiles and slides back in, going all the way in one stroke, making Elliot gasp again. The detective’s insides are so warm and soft he wonders how long he can do this without cumming.

    “Oh fuck yeah, fuck me,” Elliot rasps, but George needs no incitement. He rests his hands on the backs of Elliot’s thighs for leverage and fucks into Elliot with all his years of desire and aggravation, his resentments and wishes and longing. He fucks him hard while eyeing the detective with open lust

    The detective urges him on, smiling, almost laughing. “Yeah, YEAH! Oh God, fuck me, fuck that cop ass.” 

    Still the tough guy, George thinks. He slows his thrusts, and asks, “Where are you Elliot?” 

    “I’m in your bed, with you in my ass,” Elliot answers.

    “And you’re here because I want you here,” George says, his hips keeping a slow but steady pace. “And because I’m your friend, and in my own way I love you as a friend.”

    Elliot groans as George’s cock prods his prostate, pulling at the bedspread in his fists. “Unnnnf, you’re already in my ass and now you gotta get in my head, you fucking shrink.”

    George laughs. “We’re not shrinking anything today.”

    He looks down to Elliot’s big cock on his flat belly, thumping with every hit, and leaking precum that collects in the hollow of his navel, like a muscular cup.

    As he hits the detective’s prostate again and again, Elliot’s bravado melts to pleading. His mouth is open, almost trembling with need and his eyes are plaintive. He can barely speak, but the message on his lips is clear. “Cum in me. Please.”

    George drums Eliot’s prostate until he can’t hold back anymore. His muscles all tense as his hips thrust in and he erupts, cumming deep in the ass of Elliott Stabler, sex crimes detective, marine, father, husband and, of late, discoverer of his own deepest wants. 

    George bends down at the waist to kiss the detective while Elliot strokes himself heatedly. When he looks down there’s a streak of milky white in his precum. George’s cock pushes into him again to nudge Elliot’s climax and he floods his own belly and chest with a river of hot cum, George’s fucking it out of him. 

    When Elliot’s emptied, the doctor pulls out of him to lap his load, even the last of it in the tight pool of his navel. 

    Afterwards they sprawl in bed together, kissing and exploring each other’s bodies.

    George holds Elliot’s cock, which is spent but firming.

    His capacity seems limitless.

    CODA. 

    Some time later as they lay there together, George studies the face of the silent detective who seems to be staring ahead.

    “What are you thinking in that turbulent mind of yours?” George asks.

    “What ifs,” answers Elliot. “The things in me I had to tap into every time I did undercover work. The other people, the creeps I could have ended up as if things had gone a little different.

    “I had so much of that bad stuff in me that it took Kathy and Liv and Cregan and you to tamp it down. When you left, maybe there wasn’t enough to cage it.”

    “That might not be a bad thing, Elliot,” George says, kissing the detective’s shoulder.

    Elliot takes George’s hand, intertwining their fingers.

    “Maybe,” he says. “In another life I might have ended up on the other side of the law.”

    “A charming conman?”

    Elliot scoffs. “In prison.”

    “Am I in this other life?” George prods. “Am I your cellmate? I don’t think I’d like that.”

    “Nah, you’re the prison priest.”

    “A priest?” George laughs. It feels good, lying there just talking. “I have too many vices for that.”

    “Oh well. You curse and you smoke, maybe.” He turns to look at George. “But you take my confession. In every life.”

    “Do I absolve you?”

    Elliot considers this for a moment.

    “I don’t know about in that life,” Elliot says. “Maybe I don’t deserve it there. But in this one, yeah.” 

    He tightens his grip on George’s hand, lying there in the best of all possible worlds.

    – END –

  • Soccer Practice Makes Perfect – Brotherly Bonding

    A Sexual Send-off

    Today is the day that Billy and I head back home. I am really sad that this will be the last hurrah but I plan on making this last day count. I slowly rolled over as I noticed Billy was not in bed and must have gone out for his morning run with Kevin. I got out of bed and went to the bathroom to freshen up a little by splashing water onto my face and taking a quick piss before I headed out into the main part of the house in just my boxers. I was walking down the hallway and passed Kevin’s study as I did every morning during our stay and I noticed the door was open by a crack and I heard voices coming from within. I peeked my head in and saw Kevin behind his desk.

    “Good morning Kev!” I said as he looked towards me as he beamed at me.

    “Come in DJ, I want you to meet someone,” Kevin said with his beautiful smile.

    “Oh, I can’t I’m only in my boxers Kev,” I said blushing while my body was hidden behind the door.

    “That’s perfect DJ it’ll make this introduction even better,” Kevin replied as I was puzzled by his comment.

    I walked into Kevin’s study and saw this strapping young guy in one of the guest chairs sitting across from Kevin. He was in military fatigues, very well fit, had brown buzzed hair and beautiful blue eyes. He looked to me with a smile and then looked my body up and down and then stared at my ass.

    “Is this the hot piece of ass you’ve been breeding this past week Kevin?” the man said nonchalantly.

    I looked to Kevin with shock on my face as he smiled at me.

    “It’s okay DJ, this is Christopher, my very best friend in the whole world. Christopher and I have fucked plenty of times, so our secret is safe with him, I guarantee it,” Kevin reassured me as I relaxed and smiled at Kevin and then to his friend Christopher.

    “I thought you said you haven’t had sex with a guy since Brian died, Kevin?” I asked.

    “I haven’t DJ. Christopher and I stopped fucking when Brian died, and we never hooked up again since. Perhaps that will change today. Besides, Christopher has been stationed in Okinawa Japan with his wife after we went to boot camp together. So today will be a one-off for both him and I.

    “And to answer your question Christopher, yes, I’ve loaded DJ’s ass probably at least 8 to 10 times during his visit….and he’s bred me too,” Kevin said proudly.

    “Damn Kevin! Hard to believe this kid can take that big thick cock of yours.”

    “Oh he can, and he takes me balls deep every time too,” Kevin said happily.

    “You like your brother-in-law’s cock DJ?” Christopher asked me as he adjusted his growing cock in his fatigues.

    “Hell yeah, he has a hot cock and really fucks me hard. The best part though is when he kisses me while he pumps his cum up my ass, that’s the best feeling, his load filling me up. I love Kevin, and I’d let him breed me anytime anywhere,” I professed with a big smile on my face.

    “How about now? Would you let Kevin fuck and breed you in front of me while I watched?” Christopher asked.

    “Anything Kevin wants, I’ll do it for him,” I said matter of factly as I looked over to Kevin.

    “That’s my boy! Lose the boxer’s baby and lay on your back on my desk,” Kevin instructed as he cleared off his desk while Christopher stood up and started to remove his shirt while I let my boxers drop to the floor as I kicked them off when they hit my ankles.

    Kevin stripped down completely naked except for his socks and sneakers, grabbed a bottle of lube from his desk drawer and then came around to the front of the desk as I laid down on it and lifted my legs up in the air. Kevin was about to squirt lube into his hand until Christopher interrupted him.

    “Here, let me do that,” Christopher motioned to Kevin as Kevin then handed the bottle of lube to him.

    Christopher squeezed a few drops of lube into his palm before reaching over to grab onto Kevin’s hardening cock and slowly jerked Kevin’s beautiful dick as Kevin moaned softly. Christopher leaned in and started to tongue kiss Kevin as he continued to jerk his best friend’s cock. The passion between the two of them was extremely hot while theit tongues clashed and dashed in and out of each others mouths. I noticed a huge bulge in Christopher’s fatigue pants as their kissing became more intense. The kiss lasted a few more minutes until Kevin pulled away and looked to me.

    “You want to see Christopher’s cock, don’t you DJ? Kevin asked with a smile as he noticed me focused on Christopher’s bulge.

    “I’d love to,” I replied with a grin.

    Kevin started to stroke his own cock as Christopher used both of his hands to unbutton and unzip his army fatigues. His pants dropped to the floor as he stood there in his army green boxers that had a huge wet precum spot on the front. I licked my lips as Christopher looked over to me while he pushed his boxers down to the floor to meet his crumpled pants. He was about to bend over and untie his combat boots and I quickly interjected.

    Please leave your boots on Christopher. I mean if you don’t mind. I think you’d be extra hot in just your socks and boots,” I pleaded like the whore I was, eyeing up this masculine soldier that was almost stark naked in front of me.

    “Of course, I love faggots getting off looking me over,” Christopher smiled as he looked to Kevin.

    “Yes, I told him you like dirty talk too,” Kevin said with a laugh as he looked down to me on his desk.

    I looked back to over Christopher now and there he stood naked in just his socks and combat boot with a huge hardon. He stood there and slowly pumped his cut cock with his hand which was still slick with lube.

    “Hot fucking cock Christopher,” I said as I drooled just by looking at it.

    “Thanks DJ, it’s 10 inches,” Christopher said as he smiled back at me, licked his lips and then looked to Kevin. “Okay, enough talk I want to see you fuck and breed your brother-in-law Kevin,” he continued.

    Kevin put my legs up onto his shoulders as Christopher placed his slick fingers at my hole as he gently pushed his lubed finger into my ass. He leaned down and placed his lips onto mine as he slid his tongue into my mouth as he slowly inserted every inch of his finger up my ass while I moaned into his mouth.

    “Fuck, this is s hot. Enjoy my best friend DJ, love Christopher the way you love me.”

    At Kevin’s direction I wrapped my arms around Christopher and pulled him in deeper as our tongues invaded each others mouths. Christopher and I moaned louder into each other as our kissing became more passionate. As Christopher removed his finger from my hole, Kevin replaced it with his cockhead and pushed in past my pucker as I grunted into Christopher’s mouth while he grabbed the back of my head to keep my mouth against his. Slowly Christopher pulled away from the kiss and looked me into the eyes and spoke softly to me.

    How does Kevin’s cock feel in your hole DJ?” he asked me.

    “It feels…it feels like it belongs there,” I said honestly.

    “That is the most fucking amazing answer I have ever heard,” Christopher said with a big grin.

    “You think that is hot, just wait until he begs for me to cum up his ass, that is hot!” Kevin said as he was now balls deep in my hole.

    “I just wish I could take you too Christopher, that would be hot, you two taking turns on me,” I said fantasizing as my lust was now taking over.

    “Oh. Don’t worry, I’m breeding you next,” Christopher said with a smile.

    “But you can’t! I mean I really want you to, but I’m not allowed….” I started to say.

    ”Billy said its okay, I checked with him before you got up,” Kevin said all smiles.

    “For real?” I responded with surprise.

    “Yes, he’s on his way back from his run and he’ll be joining us soon,” Kevin replied as he began focusing on pushing his cock into me deeper.

    Kevin moved me back slightly on his desk so my head would hang over the rear of the desk.

    “Fuck his throat Christopher as I pump my cock deep into his ass,” Kevin instructed.

    Christopher got behind the desk as I tilted my head back and opened my throat to allow him to slide his cock into my throat. He placed a hand on each side of my head and held me still as he filled my mouth and throat inch by inch until he was balls deep in my throat.

    “That’s so sexy Christopher, watching you fill his throat like that, just like you used to do to Brian and I” Kevin moaned.

    “Not as hot as watching you fill his ass with that hot cock of yours. Push in deeper, I want him to moan on my cock.”

    Kevin pushed in really deep as his balls were up against my hole while I moaned onto Christopher’s cock as Christopher moaned loudly in return. He then pulled part of the way out and then slammed back into my throat as I took every inch of his manhood, I enjoyed satisfying this hung soldier. His pubes were were tickling my chin as his balls were pushed up against my nose and mouth and the only think I could think of was I wondered what his cock would feel like balls deep in my asshole.

    “Fuck! I can go for this all day,” he moaned again.

    Christopher leaned forward as Kevin leaned in towards him, Christopher then grabbed the back of Kevin’s head and pulled him in close as they playfully dueled with their tongues before passionately kissing for the second time. Kevin broke off the kiss while still fucking my ass and licked Christopher’s neck while speaking to him.

    “I can’t wait for you to fuck my brother-in-law Christopher. I remember how your cock felt in my ass every time you fucked and bred my ass for Brian, and I want you to give DJ that same pleasure.”

    “Oh I will Kevin, just promise me that you’ll eat my load from his hole like Brian use to eat mine from yours.”

    “Fuck yeah, just make sure you get your load in deep so I have to really probe DJ’s hole for it.”

    “No worries there, I’m gonna breed him so deep it hurts,” Christopher replied to Kevin as if I wasn’t even there, even though he was throat fucking me pretty hard at the time.

    Kevin pulled all the way back from the kiss so that Christopher could watch his thick cock pound in and out of my ass.

    “Go slower man, I want to watch your beautiful cock go in and out of DJ’s hole,” Christopher begged.

    “Lean forward bro, I want to take turns fucking DJ’s warm ass and your hot throat,” Kevin demanded.

    Christopher leaned forward and on top of me while still fucking my throat with his 10 inches and opened his mouth as Kevin withdrew his hard slick cock from my ass and slid it into Christopher’s waiting mouth as he placed his hand on the back of Christopher’s head as every inch disappeared into his mouth.

    “Oh fuck yeah bro, I missed your hot mouth. You always knew how to work my load out,” Kevin moaned as he pushed in balls deep then then retreated from Christopher’s throat.

    “Hell yeah man, I never forgot how your cock felt in my throat, and the taste of your load always gave me a high….but fuck man, I taste DJ’s ass on your cock, that is fucking hot. Slide your cock balls deep in his ass again, get his ass juice on your cock and force feed it to me again, I want it man, bad!” Christopher begged.

    Kevin slammed his cock balls deep into my ass as I moaned with Christopher’s 10 inches in my throat. Kevin pulled out of my ass as his cock was dripping wet, he grabbed Christopher by the hair and slammed his cock into his throat as he and Christopher moaned in pleasure as Christopher swallowed the taste of my ass. The taste of my ass on Kevin;s cock must have really turned Christopher on because I suddenly felt the warmth of his precum starting to fill my throat as the salty liquid slid down the back of my throat. I reached around and grabbed Christopher’s ass and pulled him into me while using my finger to play with his pucker so I could coax him into giving me more of that delicious precum.

    Christopher moaned onto Kevin’s cock as his own dick throbbed in my throat releasing a few more strands of precum deep into my throat as Kevin pulled from Christopher’s mouth.

    “Damn Kevin, you were feeding me your precum as I was giving DJ mine, that’s fucking hot bro.”

    “Your turn man,” Kevin said as he pulled away and then got on his knees.

    Christopher straightened up, pulled out of my throat and walked around to the front of the desk where he immediately shoved his hard wet cock into Kevin’s throat and grabbed the back of his head. Kevin looked up to Christopher as he smiled back down at Kevin and started to fuck his throat roughly.

    “Fucking take my cock fag. It’s been a while but I’m sure you still know how to please my cock,” he moaned as he fucked his best friend’s throat as Kevin wrapped his hands around Christopher’s perfect ass.

    Christopher stopped and pulled out of Kevin’s throat. “You want me to stop?

    “Never! Skullfuck my throat. That’s what Brian always said, that I was born to suck your cock. My ass was his but he said you owned my mouth and throat. It’s yours fucking use it. I’m not just your best friend, I’m your fucking cocksucker,” Kevin admitted.

    After Christopher skullfucked Kevin for a few minutes he then pulled out of Kevin’s mouth, reached over to me and grabbed my shoulders and pulled me off of the desk and pushed me onto the floor.

    “On all fours! I’m going to mount you and ride your hole like the faggot you are,” he growled.

    As soon as I got into position he grabbed my waist and plowed his 10 inch cock balls deep into my ass as I grunted in pain and pleasure. Once his balls were up against my asshole he reached forward and grabbed my hair and pulled my head back and to the side so he could kiss me aggressively.

    “You’re mine now and I am going to fuck and breed your hole like I own it,” he said as he pulled away form the kiss which left me breathless.

    “Not so fast, that’s my bottom you’re manhandling there,” Billy said as he walked into the study and started to strip his clothes off as he closely watched Christopher push his beautiful cut cock deep into my hole before turning to face Billy.

    “Sorry man,” Christopher said as he slowly started to pull his cock from my ass.

    “I didn’t say pull out, I just said not so fast!” Billy said with a wicked grin, “you just need to work my bottom up to the point to where you can ram his hole as deep and as hard as you want. The longer you take to cum, teasing his hole with that hot cock, the more wild and insatiable he’ll get. Plus I love watching him take new dick, so I want it to last too, for my pleasure,” Billy continued with a wicked grin.

    “He’s right Christopher, DJ will be so eager to take your load, he’ll beg so badly that you’ll be aching to give it to him,” Kevin confirmed.

    Billy knelt down next to Christopher and leaned in and kissed him on the mouth as he quickly grabbed the back of Billy’s head as the two began to tongue kiss while Christopher continued to slam his full length deep into my hole. I moaned in delight as the two of them kissed while still getting filled at the same time. Kevin then got onto the floor behind Billy and wrapped his arms around his chest and started to tease Billy’s nipples between his fingers which made Billy pull away from the kiss and tilt his head back onto Kevin’s shoulder and moan. Christopher leaned in and started to kiss Billy’s neck and trailed his tongue up and down Billy’s adams apple, which soon morphed into a 3-way kiss between Christopher, Billy and Kevin. Christopher stopped balls deep in my ass as the kiss continued. The sight of the the three hot guys kissing turned me on so much I clenched my ass onto Christopher’s dick which made him pull away and look down to me.

    “Fuck DJ, that was so damn hot! Do that again that was fucking amazing.”

    I clenched my ass again around Christopher’s hard cock as he then leaned down to me and started to french kiss me and then he kissed my neck, cheek and ear.

    “You are unbelievable and so damn sexy DJ. My cock has never felt so good in a guy’s ass before, fuck!” Christopher whispered into my ear so that Kevin wouldn’t hear him.

    “I love getting nailed by you Christopher. Your cock balls deep in me makes me want more, wanting it deeper. Fuck your cock in deeper, make it hurt, please!” I begged.

    “Do it man, go as hard as you can!” Billy said as he pulled away from the kiss with Kevin.

    “I can go pretty hard, I don’t want to hurt him,” Christopher said as he looked up to Billy who was kneeling by my side now watching Christopher and I.

    Billy laughed. “He can take a brutal fucking, believe me. I’ve bruised his ass more than once, and he always wants it harder.”

    “I guess you should know, I mean being his lover and all,” Christopher said.

    “I’m not just his lover, I’m his….”

    “Billy, why don’t you save that revelation for the right ‘moment’ to help Christopher cum more intensely?” Kevin said interrupting Billy while Christopher was focused on drilling my hole harder and deeper while gazing into my eyes.

    “Good idea Kevin!” Billy replied as he bent over to kiss me while Kevin got ready to slide his lubed cock into Billy’s waiting hole.

    I knew that Kevin suddenly entered Billy’s tight hole as I felt Billy wince and moan into my mouth as his tongue invaded me. Billy pulled away from the kiss and moaned loudly with pleasure as Kevin was giving billy exactly what he wanted.

    “Fucking hell Kevin, get every inch in me. Go balls deep just like you did the last time. I want you to fuck your load into me this time,” Billy pleaded.

    Christopher was now fucking me on my back as Billy was getting fucked by Kevin on all fours. I have always loved when Billy and I get fucked at the same time while being next to one another. It’s almost as hot as Billy fucking me himself, almost! Christopher grabbed my face and turned me towards him so that I would look at him instead of watching Billy.

    “You love watching your lover get fucked DJ? Does it feel good getting my cock fucked into your faggot hole, knowing that your lover is feeling the same exact thing from your brother-in-law’s cock?”

    “Fuck yeah! I love watching Kevin fucking him deep,” I replied.

    “Keep going Christopher, nail DJ’s hole for me, cum in his ass,” Billy demanded.

    “You want me to breed your lover? You like seeing other guys cum in his ass Billy?” he asked.

    “Fucking hell yes! I love watching random guys breed him and use him as a cumdump,” Billy said honestly.

    “In that case, we’re going to make you both cumdumps. Kevin and I will breed the both of you until you’re overflowing, you got that! You and your lover are both getting bred by me multiple times,” Christopher said sternly as he started to fuck my ass harder and deeper as his body tensed while he was sweating profusely and panting.

    Billy knew the moment of climax was about there and he spoke up quickly.

    “Just make sure you fuck your cumload so deep into my brother’s ass that there’s room left for mine too!”

    “What the fuck did you just say?” Christopher said in shock as he continued to fuck my hole while he began to tremble and shake right before cumming.

    “You heard me! Fucking breed my brother’s hole deep. Nail him for me!” Billy moaned as Kevin was now assaulting Billy’s ass just as hard as Christopher was shoving every inch of his hard 8 inch cock deep into my hole.

    “Oh fucking god, holy hell I’m gonna cum. I’m going to fucking cum in your brother, Billy. Holy fucking shit I can’t believe you two are brothers. Ohhhhhhhhh shiiiiiiiit. Fucking hot! Oh god, oh fucking hell here I cum! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh,” Christopher moaned as he leaned forward and laid his head on my shoulder as he thrust his waist against my hole to see if I could take him any deeper as his erect cock was now pumping his load from his balls to the depths of my my ass.

    “Fucking hell Christopher, pump it in deeper, fucking hell yes. Push your cumload in as deep as you can, breed me deeper, please!” I begged as I wrapped my arms around his back and held him in place as his body shook with such force as his cock unloaded one of the hugest loads I have ever taken.

    “Fucking god I’m still cumming! Knowing that you two are brothers made me cum twice as much. Holy hell dude!” Christopher said as he looked over to Billy as Billy was busy begging for Kevin’s load.

    Kevin was holding onto Billy’s waist as his huge cock was being fucked in and out of Billy’s hot hole repeatedly as he moaned in euphoria at the pounding he was receiving. Kevin was beaming from ear to ear as he pummeled Billy’s ass knowing that he was about to fill Billy’s muscle ass with a huge load of cum.

    “That was fucking hot Christopher. I loved watching you breed DJ. I know he loved it, because I always loved it when I got your load too,” Kevin admitted as he and Christopher leaned in to kiss.

    “Fucking breed me Kevin. Cum up my ass, give me that brother-in-law cumload, I need it man!” Billy begged as he laid the side of his face on the floor of the study while his ass was being used just the way he liked it.

    “Oh god yeah Billy. I love my cock in your hole, especially when I’m balls deep and ready to seed you. You ready bro? You want my cumload?” Kevin asked as he started pumping Billy’s hole without mercy.

    “Don’t stop until every drop from your cock is buried in my ass Kevin. Do it! Force your load deep inside me, breed me like you breed DJ,” Billy demanded.

    Kevin got up on his feet while still impaling Billy’s pucker, and slammed his hard thick veined cock into Billy’s ass again and again as he got closer to orgasm.

    “Breed him Kevin. I want to see your cum in his hole,” Christopher moaned.

    “Cum in my brother Kev, please, for me?” I begged as I watched while still filled with Christopher’s cock and cumload.

    Kevin grabbed Billy’s shoulders as he gave two final thrusts into Billy’s asshole as he howled with delight and his eyes widened with such pleasure.

    “Oh fucking hell Billy, take that fucking seed. I fucking love nutting in your ass. Holy fucking shit!” Kevin moaned repeatedly.

    “Goddamn Kevin, fill me up. Ohhhhh god, pump it all in man, every drop, just like you breed my little brother Kevin, fuck yeah,” Billy said as he moaned and grunted as Kevin continued to fill his ass with sperm.

    “Fucking hell yeah man! That was hot watching you top and breed Billy! Now let’s switch,” Christopher said as he and Kevin pulled out of our asses, swapped spots and then slid into our asses again.

    “Holy hell Christopher, you shot a fucking huge load into DJ’s ass, feels fucking awesome,” Kevin said.

    “Back at you man, Billy’s hole is so full it’s leaking your cumload as I slide into him. This is fucking heaven Kevin!” Christopher wailed as he enjoyed the sensation of fucking his cock into a used cum filled hole. “I can get used to this,” He continued.

    “No complaints here,” I said as I enjoyed Kevin’s cock plowing deep into my cum filled ass.

    “I agree, no complaints,” Billy said with a grin as he looked to me.

    “Good, because Kevin and I are going to fuck you both until we are fully, completely spent.” Christopher said as he slammed his huge cock deeper into Billy as he grabbed onto Billy’s waist to thrust harder.

    Billy and I each took 3 loads, and when Kevin and Christopher were done, the had us both suck their spent cocks clean as Billy and I loved the taste of the cumloads from our asses.

    “I guess we should clean up a bit, Christopher said.

    “Not quite yet,” Billy said. I still need to breed my brother’s ass, his breedings are never over until he takes mine,” he continued with a smile.

    “You serious?” Christopher asked.

    “You want to watch?” Billy asked.

    “Hell yeah I do. Wild horses couldn’t drag me away from that!” I wanted to ask you to do that but I was afraid to.” he replied.

    “Never be afraid to ask me that man, I love to fuck and breed my brother’s sweet ass every fucking chance I get. I breed him whenever I want and however many times I want. He loves my cock and can never get enough of my cum. Right babe? “

    “I’ll do anything for my brother, and every fuck and every breeding is a gift. I would never ever turn down a breeding from Billy. I love him too much,” I replied.

    “Enough chit chat, sit on my cock faggot! Work my load out and let me show Christopher how much I love filling my faggot brother’s asshole with my cumloads!” Billy demanded as he laid on the floor as I lowered myself onto his hard 8” uncut cock while Kevin and Christopher sat naked on the guest chairs while jerking off and watching the show.

    “How’s it feel to fuck your very own brother Billy?” Christopher asked.

    It makes me the happiest guy in the world Christopher. It feels so natural the way my cock fits inside of DJ’s ass…..and when I cum in him, I fall in love with him all over again because I know that my cumload is exactly where it is supposed to be. Deep inside my brother’s ass.

    Billy and I made the most out of the session as Christopher and Kevin ate up every moment of Billy’s 8 inch cock pounding my ass. As the two got close to cumming, Christopher stood up and placed his cockhead in my throat and plunged in deep, ready to fill it with another load as Kevin got on his knees and shoved his cock into Billy’s throat. The moment arrived and it was like a chain reaction. Billy started bucking and moaning on Kevin’s cock as Billy pumped my ass with spurt after spurt of his warm cum deep into my ass. Then Kevin grabbed the back of Billy’s head and thrust his cock as deep as he could into Billy’s throat as he unleashed a torrent of cum as Billy struggled to swallow every drop. Suddenly Christopher grabbed the back of my head as he continued to skullfuck me as he blasted his load into the back of my throat as I felt it dripping down as I choked on his load, which made Christopher harder as he grabbed the back of my head and held me down on every inch of his manhood while it was lodged in my throat. The aggressiveness and sexiness of Christopher made my hard 7 inch uncut cock erupt as it shot straight up and coated the inside of Christopher’s thighs. Christopher pulled his huge cock from my throat as Kevin was evacuating Billy’s throat and they both sat down in the chairs again as I pulled my cum filled ass off of Billy’s cock and immediately got in between Christopher’s thighs and licked them clean. Billy crawled up in between Kevin’s legs and lapped at his balls making the rest of Kevin’s cumload ooze out from his cockhead. Billy then licked his way up and feasted on the remnants of Kevin’s load. After a few moments Billy and I switched positions as Billy sucked on Christopher’s cock and I licked Kevin’s hot member getting him hard again.

    “Well, I’m spent for now,” Christopher said as he watched Billy squeeze his cock and lick the last pearl of white cum that glistened from his cockhead.

    “Yeah, I’m exhausted and I need a shower. The run this morning and this fuck session has me smelling fucking rank,” Billy said with a laugh as he looked over to Kevin.

    “Well, don’t look at me to quit right now, I want to fuck another load into DJ’s hot throat,” Kevin said with a smirk as he looked back to Billy.

    “That’s fine by me Kevin, you’re free to use DJ’s throat and ass as much as you want until DJ and I head home later today,” Billy replied.

    “You’re leaving? You mean that’s all of the sex I’m going to get from you two?” Christopher said disappointed.

    “Not if you join me in the shower in the guest room Christopher, my ass has lots of room for another load or two,” Billy said with an evil grin as he grabbed Christopher by the hand and began to lead him out of Kevin’s office.

    “I’ll give you a load if you promise to fuck yours up my ass in return,” Christopher said as they continued to leave and shut the study’s door behind them.

    “I’m glad we’re alone baby,” Kevin said as he looked down to me as I continued to work his cock with my mouth and tongue.

    He continued to watch me as I used my tongue to circle the rim of his cockhead and then lick up and down his cockshaft. I looked up to him and saw tears in his his eyes as I pulled off his cock briefly.

    “What’s the matter Kev?” I asked.

    “I’m going to miss you DJ. Not just the sex, but being around you and enjoying yours and Billy’s company. We really bonded, and not just sexually.”

    “Yeah I agree. I love you Kev, and not just as a brother-in-law, but something more and I will always love you more than a brother-in-law from now on,” I said as I took his full cock into my throat and started to deepthroat Kevin.

    “You feel so good on my cock DJ, I wish we could stay like this forever. If you lived here, I’d cum in your throat and up your ass every damn day,” Kevin said with a laugh.

    “My throat and ass will always be ready for your cock and your cumloads when you come visit Kev, just make sure you visit often, I don’t want to wait too long to be bred by you again,” I replied after I pulled off his cock again.

    “Why wait! Get on all fours now I want to load your sweet ass again before you leave today,” Kevin said as I immediately got on all fours and turned my leaking asshole towards him.

    Kevin straddled my ass as he pushed his cockhead into my warm cumfilled ass as he mounted me balls deep. He reached forward with both hands and placed them on my shoulders as he started to slam his hard 8” cut cock in and out of my ass at a steady pace. After a few moments of slamming me balls deep he leaned forward and laid on my back and placed his mouth to my ear as he let his hips do all the work and hump my ass as his balls pushed harder and harder into my ass while I moaned at how deep he was getting in.

    Suddenly there was a knock on the door and we heard Kelly’s voice.

    “Kevin, why’s your office door closed?” Kelly asked.

    Without missing a beat Kevin replied.

    “I’m on a Zoom meeting with the office babe,” Kevin replied as he continued to pump his cock balls deep into my hole while my sister was on the other side of the door.

    “Do you know where Billy and DJ are?” she asked.

    “No, I’m sorry I don’t Kel.” he said.

    “Well, when you’re done with your meeting Kevin, I think it would be great to get some extra bonding in with them before they leave today.”

    At that moment Kevin started to jerk and shake as his cock erupted deep in my ass as he started to fill my asshole with his second hot cumload that stung my insides. I was about to moan out load at the sensation as Kevin placed his hand over my mouth so Kelly wouldn’t hear me.

    “Don’t worry about that Kel, Billy DJ and I did some extra bonding just a little while ago. I’m sure they got their fill, especially DJ,” Kevin said as he thrust his cock balls deep into me again a few more times as his cock released the last few drops of his seed as deep inside of me as it could.

    “Ok, I’ll let you get back to you meeting, sorry to interrupt,” Kelly said as she walked down the hall.

    “That was fucking hot, breeding you as Kelly was right outside the door. Just knowing that we could have gotten caught made me shoot a huge load up your ass. God I love dumping my load in your hole, baby.” Kevin said as he turned my head so we could tongue kiss.

    “Fuck yeah, that was hot! Cum in me again Kevin. Load me again please I can’t get enough of you,” I begged.

    “On your back then DJ, I want to kiss you while I load you again.

    I got on my back as Kevin got in between my legs and lifted them on top on his shoulders as he slid his full length into me once again. He leaned down and looked me into the eyes as I wrapped my arms around his neck like we were lovers.

    “I love you so much DJ. I’m going to fuck you so hard and so deep until you get another cumload from me.”

    “Do it Kev! I’m you’re fucking cumdump and always will be. I love you Kev, and taking your loads is one of the best things that has ever happened to me….and I hope you want to continue when you visit.”

    “Baby, I’m going to cum up your ass every moment we’re ever alone and every moment Billy wants to watch me breed you. I just hope I leave enough room for Jake’s cumloads too,” Kevin said with a laugh.

    “Don’t worry about that Kev, if there’s no room in me he’ll just breed your ass instead,” I said with a giggle as Kevin placed his lips onto mine as we tongue kissed while he started to pound my asshole hard and deep so he could breed me again before we were ready to leave his office.

    “Fuck yeah Kev, cum in me one more time,” I begged as we stopped kissing briefly.

    “Just one more? Hell no, you’re not getting off that easily,” Kevin said with a wicked grin. “I have at least 2 or 3 more to give you. Get ready faggot!” Kevin continued with a wicked grin as I reached down and spread my ass cheeks for him to slam in harder as he smiled and then tongue kissed me again.

  • Roaming in the Leather Realm

    When I moved to Toronto, I was 49 years-old. At the time, Tom of Finland’s artwork impressed me, gave me a hard-on to be honest. I especially liked his drawings of guys in leather. One of them features two men face to face, bulging crotch to bulging crotch. So fucking arousing! In Toronto, I found a nice apartment near the Gay Village that stretches along Church Street (of all names). The Northbound Leather shop is one block west, on St Nicholas Street. That’s where I bought my Muir cap and bomber jacket with spread collar.

    Tom of Finland’s drawings present a rugged virility. Over the years, I have met many guys saying how they felt more confident, strong, and masculine while wearing leather. They are attracted, like me, to the “tough guy” image that leather projects. It did not take me long to discover the Black Eagle bar on Church Street. This adult venue with dark, industrial décor caters to the gay leather and denim communities. The first time I set foot inside, I was taken aback by the fucking arousing macho scene. One guy wearing leather chaps and jockstrap noticed my obvious interest:

    “What you see is what you get.”

    “I like the smell of leather and the musky scent of a man’s ass.”

    “You’ve found the right guy. It’s the first time I see you around. My name is Terrence, can I offer you a drink?”

    “Thanks, I like white wine. My name is Paul-François.”

    “One beer for me, one glass of white wine for my friend”, he shouts to the waiter. “With a name like Paul-Fransoy, you must be from Québec”, he adds while putting a hand on my thigh.

    “No, born, raised and educated in Ontario, just moved from Ottawa to Toronto”, I reply with a smile and a knee rubbing.

    We sip our drink and let our hand venture towards each other’s crotch. As soon as I mention that I live just a few blocks away, Terrence invites himself. Entering bare ass into a gay bar sends a clear message. He wants to be fucked. As soon as we close my apartment door, he kisses me and says: “I know you are dying to eat my peachy hairy butt. I want you to spit on my hole and fuck me not only with your tongue. I want your dick hard and deep inside me.” I will be honest and tell you that I often loose my erection when I try to fuck a guy’s ass. But with his leather jockstrap and chaps, Terrence arouses me more than any other guy I’ve met so far. My dick “rises to the occasion” and stays firm for a good ten-minute pounding session.

    Terrence wants to meet again at the Black Eagle: “I can introduce you to so-called straight friends who like to hide their true sexual orientation by dressing up in leather.” After a few evenings at the leather-denim bar, it seems to me that leather can feature the best parts of a man while helping to hide or make the less attractive parts. I’ll let you figure out what I am referring to by “best parts”. The less attractive features of some men include unchiseled chest, balding scalp, and a wider waistline. Leather obviously covers or distracts from those features.

    Even if I know that Terrence is not looking for a relationship, I start dating him. “You arouse me. I like to play with you.” The feeling is damn mutual. Terrence likes how leather feels on his body and enjoys a guy worshiping this sensual roughness of the interior hide. I find the aroma of leather so intoxicating and moan with pleasure when I sniff his jockstrap. This time, Terrence wants a boot shine. I spit on his harness boots, lick them from the toe upward. “They won’t shine enough that way, he says. You need to use jizz. Let me give you a hand.” He massages my cock with his leather-gloved hand and that excites me to the highest degree. It doesn’t take long for me to explode and cover his boots with creamy cum. “Lick and shine, my friend, but keep some for a French kiss!”

    During one of our manly encounters, I notice that Terrence has a pair of faded blue jeans on the back of a chair. I ask him to put them on and wear his chaps. His bubble butt is molded to perfection, leather and denim being an arousing combination. I can’t help but spank him, and the result is a wild moan of pleasure. I then bite his buttocks, adding that he can fart in my face if he wants; his anal aroma will certainly intoxicate me. On this occasion, I’m also wearing leather harness boots and tight faded blue jeans. We each sit at one end of the sofa, legs spread openly, each pressing a boot on the other’s crotch. I ask Terrence to lend me a pair of gloves because I want to jerk off while enjoying the raw leather sensation on my hard dick.

    I mentioned that Terrence is aways wearing a leather jockstrap. It seems full and promising, but it hides a “less attractive feature” in the sense that he doesn’t get a full hard-on. No wonder he’s a leather bottom dude. I have a theory about leather: the longer the boots, the longer the hard-on. I suggest to Terrence that a pair of Embossy Engineer 18″ Boots could trigger “firm” results. He buys it and gets hard but not for long. One of my friends has a pair of 19” Royal Canadian Mounted Police brown leather boots. I borrow them and Terrence feels fuckin hot wearing this vintage footwear; his hard-on improves tenfold. The next step is thigh-high boots, considered to be a symbol of power, authority and sex appeal. The result is fuckin hot: Terrence and I end up sucking each other non-stop for almost 15 minutes and flooding each other’s throat with a massive load of creamy white man juice.

    Some men like Terrence and I have a strong fetish interest in leather. To us, leather is exciting, hot, fuckin arousing. For me, having sex with Terrence while he’s wearing leather is a more intense experience. I know that leather sex can tend towards BDSM, ranging from rough horseplay to sadomasochism. But that is not the case for us. And we don’t need drugs to enhance our libido. Leather gives us all the hyper masculinity and ruggedness we quench for.

  • Marines Squirrel and Honcho Find Their Plaything

    A whole range of life’s unforeseen events kept the three men apart.  They couldn’t even work things out for even two of them to get together.  So, a period of dryness led to a rising expectation for the three-day weekend.  When the weekend came around, it was as if they were meeting for the first time, except this time, they had all been with each other and knew the depths of sexual feelings they shared.

    It was almost for the best that pressing matters kept them from seeing one another.  None of the three wanted idle talk to color them as queer.

    The plan was to meet at the motel. Squirrel would drive Brian, and Honcho would park far away with his mini automobile so his vehicle would not be linked to the Mustang. However, the food delivery boy brought three large portions to the room, and the guy from the liquor store brought three bottles of Jack Daniels and soft drinks to accompany the food.

    Squirrel filled the cups with ice and poured the colas, sitting them on the nightstand. He also poured three neat Jack Daniels. The men opened their meals and spread them out on the beds. Squirrel passed the first cups around. “Something to prepare the stomach for food,” He said, indicating a toast to their weekend. 

    Simultaneously, the three men downed the whiskey.

    “Wow!  I can’t wait to see your dicks.  I wish we didn’t have to eat first,” Brian blurts out.

    “Nothing says we can’t get naked before we eat,” Honcho adds.

    Squirrel stands up and begins undressing.  “What are you two waiting for, an invitation?”

    Honcho and Brian begin stripping.  The men are hard.  Squirrel takes the cups and fills them again.  “What a sight, looking at all these big dicks on fucking hot Marines,” Squirrel opines as he hands out the second round of Jack Daniels.

    They swallow quickly.  Squirrel passes out the sodas. The men sit down beside their food and begin eating.

    After several bites from the sandwich and a good handful of French fries, Brian falls on his knees in front of Honcho and licks on his dick.  His other hand wraps Squirrel’s dick and jacks as he’s licking on Honcho.  He then reverses his position, now sucking Squirrel and jacking Honcho.

    Brian says as he stands up, “Sorry, fellows, I couldn’t resist.”

    “Did you see us resisting?” Honcho tosses back.

    Squirrel  pours three more drinks, “Something to soothe our stomachs.”

    Squirrel, between bites, offers an idea.  “You know, gents, we have these three days together.  I know we are going to blow our wads tonight.  That’s a given.  What I am suggesting is that for tonight we restrict our actions to sucking, even ass, and fingering ass, but no fucking.  We’ll save that for tomorrow night.  We worked hard today, and I think a good night’s sleep after a mouthful of cum will allow us plenty of energy for tomorrow afternoon and evening. Tonight, we get each other off.  Suck dicks, lick butt, play with our nipples, squeeze our muscles… you know the routine.”

    The men nod, wad up their dinners, and set the leftovers aside.

    Brian opens with, “Tell me, Squirrel.  We know my story, and we know Honcho’s story, but we don’t know yours.””

    “I guess what’s good for the gander and all that.  Brian, why don’t you suck my dick while I relate the sordid introduction I had to dick.  It was a family moment, you could say.  It happened at a Fourth of July bar-be-cue at my Aunt Julie’s.  Aunt Julie did not want people going into her house throughout the day, so she had a portable john brought in.  Since she didn’t want it in view, it was hidden far from the party.  Long, short.  Man, that feels good.  You got a damn knack for getting the most out of my dick.  Anyway, this older guy was a friend of the family.  Just as I was getting into the toilet, he followed me in, stood beside me and pulled out his dick, and began to pee.  I didn’t think anything of it.  He pulled on his dick which grew quickly. Standing beside me, he asked, “How do you make your thing bigger?  You do know you can make it bigger.  Like mine.  Do you pull on it?”

    I stood there looking at him and looking at his dick.  I didn’t say anything.

    “Do you mind if I pull on it and make it bigger?”

    I froze.  He didn’t miss a beat.  His hand was on my scared dick, but not so scared as to not respond.  I grew and filled out. 

    Man, you remind me of my first blow job because that’s what happened.  After that encounter, I never saw him again, but I was hooked.  I wanted to get my dick sucked, but I learned pretty quickly I wouldn’t get any head unless I were willing to give it in exchange.”

    “O.K. Brian, why don’t you suck on Honcho, and Honcho, why don’t you  jack on me?”

    Brian interjects, “I can’t get Honcho’s head into my mouth.  I can lick on Honcho, but that’s the best I can do.”

    “I have an even better idea.  I want to fulfill a fantasy I didn’t know I had such a need for.  When the farm hands and I would jack in front of the computer porn, there was one guy in the group who had a dick like Honcho’s. I wanted to jack him and make him cum because I saw him shoot off some big loads. We can always suck, so why don’t we move that back a bit and jack on each other.  It could be a lot hotter than you imagine. First, let me hold on to Honcho, and Honcho can hold on to you.”

    As he grips Honcho’s more than ample big dick, he’s transported to those Friday afternoons in the makeshift office room where the men would pass the bottle and jack off to computer porn.  Remembering his past, a shock shoots through him, and in his imagination, he sees Pete pull out and jack the largest dick of the group.  Pete inspired envy, but not so strong as to create any abrasion among the group who worked together daily.  It had all started quite innocently.  Randall was jacking off to porn in the office when Luke walked in.  Luke was the kind of person who saw life as a challenge.  Without hesitation, Luke pulled out his dick and started jacking, too. And one thing led to a regularity and a growing group who wanted a Friday night release before heading home to the wife and kids.  The whole history flashed through his mind as he closed his eyes and saw himself pulling on Pete’s enormous dick.

    Honcho is letting the feelings from Brian pass through to Squirrel as he squeezes Squirrel and feels the veins plump out.  Honcho clinches and releases Squirrel’s dick, jacking ever so subtly.  Squirrel feels the release he has imagined since Honcho and he began working out together.

    Squirrel focuses in on Honcho’s reddening cock.  At the same time, Brian stands beside Honcho as if he were beside Pete. Brian, in jacking Honcho, realizes the many times he fantasized about jacking Pete during the Friday rituals.

    The men enjoy the scene.  Brian first feels the rush when he holds Honcho in front of Squirrel, as if he wanted to do with the farm hands but never did.  When that rush passed through him, to Honcho and then to Squirrel, Brian was brought back to the real world of three guys who are into hot men and are aroused equally.

    Squirrel suggests they continue to jack but change dicks.  Squirrel holds Honcho; Honcho holds Brian, and Brian holds Squirrel.  The men stare at their dicks, relishing in the fantasy element of their enormity and how this could be a porn movie moment.  Brian thought of the videos with Dorian. 

    The circle of jacking dicks leads to the spilling of pre-cum, given so willingly in anticipation of what their bodies are telling them. 

    Squirrel, “I don’t want to get things going too soon, but I don’t want the silver juice coming out of two big dicks to go to waste.”

    Squirrel releases Honcho’s dick.  Squirrel falls on his knees before Honcho while still jacking Brian, lapping up the voluntary juice of genuine arousal.  Taking it on the tip of his tongue, he tosses it to the back of his mouth and swallows it.  Squirrel moves to Brian and holds out his tongue to receive the liquid host while on his knees, giving thanks for the moment. 

    Brian looks on, carried away by these men’s sheer openness. They can carry out anything that comes to their minds. Despite their everyday jobs, they are physically perfect and trained killers—even Honcho in the IT division, Brian in the mess hall, and Squirrel as a clerk in a front office. Honcho kneels and licks Squirrel’s generous offering. 

     

    The men return to jacking each other, adding a bit of nipple teasing with the non-jacking hands.  The nipples harden, with Brian’s becoming like hard buttons.  Squirrel kisses Brian’s nipples. 

    Without anything but exchanging glances, the men gather together in a three-way kiss, which turns into a kissing session.  While still jacking each other’s dicks, they kiss, forming one pair and then another, enjoying the unpredictable aspects.  When lips weren’t touching other lips, tongues were licking ears.

    Honcho is kissing Squirrel while Brian licks Honcho’s ear and blows gently into it. Brian’s breath turns into kisses as he moves down Honcho’s neck. At that moment, Squirrel turns to Brian and kisses him while Honcho returns Brian’s gesture to both ear and neck. The kissing, ear, and neck play continue until the jacking revs up to a step or two away from an explosion.

    Squirrel pulls back and suggests they take a break and have another drink, which Squirrel is happy to make. 

    Honcho and Brian sit side by side on the bed when Squirrel hands them their drinks.  They raise a silent toast and then down the whiskey.

    They sit there, motionless, looking at each other’s hard cocks and exquisite bodies.  Squirrel, who thought he was the instigator, realizes he has allowed himself to become involved with both men.  Squirrel, Honcho, and Brian exchange wistful glances.  Each man is holding his cock and slightly jacking.  Individually, each catches his pre-cum on his finger and licks his finger clean.

    The men are happy and mellow, feeling the whiskey and just being open and free with each other.  As they stimulate themselves, they exchange smiles and sly grins, knowing they violate the world’s expectations of Marines.  There is almost the danger of being discovered, which adds spice to the situation.

    Squirrel experiences restlessness. “I’ve got an idea for a little fun.  Why don’t we put two mouths on one dick?  Change around, of course.  Everyone gets a bit of the action, and the pre-cum doesn’t go to waste.”

    Squirrel stands up in the position to be sucked.  Falling into the moment, Honcho and Brian kneel before Squirrel’s leaking cock.  Honcho and Brian share tongues, licking the magical crystal stream.  Tongues recede, and mouths share the Squirrel’s head equally:  licking, kissing, sucking.  Squirrel, not missing a chance for invention, begins moving in and out of the action of the two mouths.

    Honcho leans back and states, “I think he’s fucking our mouths.  That’s a new one on me.”

    “Sure, why not? You’re both giving me a hole in which I want to move around.”

    Honcho looks directly at Brian.  Both men engulf Squirrel’s head again, sucking with enthusiasm.  Squirrel fucks the controlling mouths.  Together, Honcho and Brian work their mouths down the shaft.  Squirrel pulls back to bring their mouths to his glans.

    Honcho and Brian resume their treatment of Squirrel’s head.  Brian pulls back and indicates with his eyes that Honcho starts sucking Squirrel’s dick. Honcho takes Squirrel’s dick deep into his mouth.  Squirrel fucks Honcho’s mouth and throat.  Honcho pulls back and gives the dick to Brian, who accepts it deeply.  Brian moves up and down Squirrel’s shaft, settling on the head, which he treats tenderly, pulling out more pre-cum.

    Squirrel pulls back, kneels, and tells Honcho to stand.  Brian and Squirrel share Honcho’s magnificent cock.  Licking Honcho’s liquid, their lips meet, and, including the dripping head of Honcho’s cock, they have a three-way kiss with the oozing head.  Honcho, feeling these two hot men, is mesmerized by new unimagined sensations.  Honcho places his hands on the backs of each head, holding them together.  Squirrel and Brian kiss even harder, engaging their tongues to tease Honcho’s’ head.

    “I don’t know what you’re doing, but keep at it.” Then Honcho massages both heads and rubs their necks.

    Brian slides his mouth down Honcho’s shaft as Squirrel places his mouth on the head of Honcho’s cock.  Neither Brian nor Squirrel can take all of Honcho’s head into their mouths.  They lick and suck around the head, giving Honcho delicious feelings.  Brian wraps his hand around the base of Honcho’s shaft; Squirrel wraps his hand around the upper shaft, exposing the head.  Both men tease the outer rim of the glans with their tongues and lips.  The two hands begin to jack Honcho’s cock. 

    Both Brian and Squirrel realize the magnificence of the cock they share between them.

    Honcho, enjoying each moment, interrupts their concentration.  “I don’t want to be selfish, but I think we need to get Brian in the middle for a change of pace.”

    With that statement, Squirrel releases Honcho’s cock, and Brian stands between them.

    Honcho begins by deep-throating Brian, who moans at the unexpected pleasure that erupts inside him as the head of his cock passes over the back of Honcho’s tongue and into the gripping pressure that he has not felt before.

    “Don’t hog that cock,” Squirrel intones.  Honcho backs off, letting Squirrel take Brian’s cock into his throat.

    “Damn, men, your throats are better than anything I’ve fucked.  Even both of you.”

    “We’re here to please,” Squirrel adds.

    Both men back off and start licking Brian’s head simultaneously.  Squirrel and Honcho kiss each other with Brian’s head between their mouths.  One mouth and then the other inhales Brian’s cock.  Honcho sucks with an extra enthusiasm.

    “Honcho, man.  I don’t want to cum.”

    Honcho backs off.  Squirrel offers, “Why don’t we grab a bit to eat and warm our bellies?  After that, we can go where we’ve been wanting to go since we saw each other’s dicks.”

    The men dig through the remains of their meals, finding limp French fries and the remains of a second burger missing some bites.

    Silence reigns.  Squirrel hands Honcho and Brian their drinks.  All the men sip their whiskeys slowly, contemplating the coming finality of their interaction.

    Squirrel, always with ideas, throws out a scenario to Honcho and Brian.  He suggests the men get on the queen size bed and form a triangle in which each man, even though Honcho was unsuckable, could reach the cock nearest him.  They can finger each other’s ass and maybe work two fingers in before beginning to suck the dick in his mouth.”

    With the food devoured and a second splash in their cup, the men form a three-sided chain.  Brian takes Honcho, Honcho takes Squirrel and Squirrel takes Brian. 

    Each man lubes his penetrating finger with pre-cum, finds the tight hole, and teases the opening.  Each pushes his finger into the tight yet willing hole in his own time.

    The men use guttural sounds to express their pleasure.

    “Let’s go for the second finger,” Squirrel challenges.

    Again, the dripping pre-cum acts as the perfect lube.

    Well-lubed fingers, placed together, create a point that penetrates easily into the already-opened holes.

    Honcho blurts out, “Oh, yeah.  Play around as much as you can.  Punch my prostate, Marine.  Fuck me with those fingers.”

    At that moment, Honcho’s fingers swirl around the inside of Squirrel’s ass.  Squirrel moans, “Yes, yes, screw my ass.”

    Squirrel’s enthusiasm causes him to work Brian’s hole mercilessly. In response, Brian intensifies the treatment he’s giving Honcho.

    The double-finger play motivates these hot Marines to twitch and gyrate without restraint.

    “Guys, I think it’s time to start sucking some cock,” Squirrel offers.

    Brian, knowing he cannot take the whole head of Honcho’s monster, uses his mouth to lick up the flowing pre-cum, rubbing the edge of the glans with his fingers.

    Honcho devours Squirrel, and Squirrel devours Brian.  The men lose themselves in ass play and sucking.

    Intense moments lead to the outcome of their mutual stimulation.

    “Are we in sync?” Squirrel queries.

    Brian backs off of Honcho and says he’s close.  Honcho adds, “Just keep rubbing my glans, and I’ll be shooting a load into your mouth.”

    Squirrel lets Honcho know he’s about to cum.

    Fingers move excitedly in and out of their asses.

    Honcho lets Brian know his load is on its way out.  “Work my ass, and you’ll have my cum.”

    Honcho engulfs Squirrel.  Squirrel, “I’m cumming. Fuck my ass, you Marine bastard!”

    With those words, Brian is so turned on that he shoots two days’ worth of saved-up cum into Squirrel’s mouth.

    Honcho fills Brian’s mouth with his sweet cum, a load that keeps cumming, one blast after another, as Brian keeps working his fingers in and out of Honcho’s ass.

    The men pull their fingers out of each other’s asses, licking the cum that is still flowing in the afterglow of their simultaneous orgasms.

    Breathing returns to a semblance of normal.

    Honcho asks Brian to let him suck his fingers.  Honcho wants to taste the flavor of his ass.  Squirrel and Brian follow suit, each savoring the other’s ass juice coated with pre-cum.

    The men fall back and away from one another, their dicks, still thick but softening.

    “Well, fellas, I guess we got what we were hoping for,” Honcho states.

    “I think we need to shower,” Brian adds.

    The men rise from the bed, stand close to one another, and have a three-way kiss.

    After the shower, Squirrel makes a nightcap for each of them.

    Sleep comes easily to all three, who secretly contemplate the coming events of the next day.

  • A Daddy, His Musk and a Rub & Tug

    The gleaming double towers overlooking the muggy harbor appeared more like a fortress than an apartment complex, especially as it rose above the drab, industrial urban-scape of the neighborhood, one that I was vaguely aware existed but had never visited.

    Summer came early—even for the south China coast—and I had begun to sweat from the ten-minute walk up from the subway station.

    The woman manning the reception desk let me stride across the lobby with feigned confidence, and watched me call the elevator and find that the button wouldn’t light up, before finally asking, “Where are you headed?”

    “Um… 37th floor?”

    “Which unit?”

    “D.”

    “D for dog?” She double-checked as she picked up the phone and, in Cantonese, announced: “You’ve got a visitor.”

    Almost as soon as I stepped out of the elevator, a door down the hallway clicked open, and a man as shaven-headed and green-eyed as in the expiring photo I had received greeted me: “You made it.”

    He had found me on Grindr, where I was advertising for a massage—spelled “ma55age” so that I wouldn’t be banned. I had done it before, when I was still living abroad. I had just decided to take it back up recently, even if I already had two jobs—an office job and another one serving drinks at a cocktail bar—because it was just so expensive living in this damned town.

    “May I offer you anything? Water?” He asked once I was inside.

    “Oh…” I was distracted by the view from the floor-to-ceiling windows. “Yes, water would be great.”

    He was taller than I expected, definitely over six feet, and his long, arched bare feet now padded across the spotless hardwood floor as he came back with my water.

    “So have you been here before?” He was looking at me squarely in the eye and smiling, baring his uncannily sharp canines.

    That was when I decided that he was actually handsome, and I considered myself lucky, because I’ve had worse—way worse.

    “No,” I took a sip of the water and confessed, assuming he meant this part of town.

    “And where do you live?”

    “Central,” I replied, and noticing the ferry slicing through the military-green harbor down below, almost the same shade as his eyes, inquired out of genuine curiosity, “Is there a ferry that comes here?”

    “Nah.” His grin widened, like I just said something stupid. “That’s too far.”

    That was good to know for the way back.

    Just as I was about to ask him if he spoke Cantonese, since his door woman called him up in Cantonese, he switched gears abruptly and started looking around, as if he weren’t in his own apartment: “Well shall we do this?”

    “Yes, of course,” I concurred, following him and his bare feet into the bedroom.

    I instructed him to lay down a towel on the bed before we both proceeded to undress. He had a few tattoos here and there, and hair everywhere. I couldn’t tell if he was just getting in shape, or if he had been in shape—and was beginning to let himself go, at his age. Not that he said exactly how old he was on his profile—I’d just had him pegged somewhere in the mid-forties.

    “Underwear on or off?” He looked at me expectantly, even though his hands were on the waistband of his boxer briefs already.

    “Off,” I told him, while planning to keep mine on, for the time being at least, but actually I was just realizing he was my type—just my type.

    “Alright.” He bent so that he could slide his boxer briefs all the way down his long legs. He had a swinging, snouted thing for a dick, which he tugged, and also giving his furry nut sac a fluff, lay facedown on the towel on the bed, to allow me to get to work on him.

    As I oiled up his back, his thighs… I could smell the shower he took before I arrived; and yet, a heady tang gradually cut through the scent of the body wash—the type that would’ve had the words “For Men” emblazoned unabashedly on its blue, possibly gray, bottle. Instead, an authentically male musk was beginning to fill the space between us, redolent of cumin, or caraway seeds, or the taste that diffused your mouth if you accidentally crunched a Szechuan peppercorn kernel with your teeth.

    It was not the spoor of a young man, but rather one that developed with biological maturity. I knew where exactly I could get a real hit, and so I spread his furry glutes as widely as possible and immediately caught a concentrated, undiluted whiff of the stuff before I even glimpsed the tuft that was the source—his personal musk pod—that lined the crack of his ass.

    “Fuck…” I resisted blurting out: I was on the job, and I didn’t want to betray any evidence that I was enjoying myself. But on the other hand, what if he liked to be rimmed? I dove in face-first.

    I couldn’t see what I was tasting, but it was silken to the touch of my tongue and kept shying away. He—my paying customer, as I kept reminding myself—emitted a sort of muffled grunt, before lifting his hips off the bed and thrusting them back into my face.

    Good, that meant he liked it.

    Emboldened, I darted my tongue forward to feel the smooth interior of his hole. He gasped, seemingly in pleasant surprise, and rose fully onto all fours, arched his back, and pushed back his pelvis so that I finally got a good look at the blushing pucker I was lapping at.

    “Fuck, you taste so good…” I wanted to tell him, feeling like I might actually be intoxicated from his overpowering musk.

    “Stroke my cock while you do it,” he demanded, keeping his head down without looking back.

    “What?”

    “Stroke my cock while you eat my ass,” he repeated.

    I had sincerely forgotten about his cock, which, upon reaching forth, I found to be as stiff as a squash. It had grown into a formidable fistful, so that my fingers could just about encircle the shaft, which I then pumped with a steady rhythm as I cleaned off his hole, his taint, and his balls with my tongue.

    I must’ve gotten carried away, as he suddenly placed his hand over mine and went, “Easy… easy…”

    “Are you close?” I asked.

    Still not looking back, he said, almost scoldingly, “You’ve gotta slow down.”

    “Ok…” I glanced at the time: Just about half an hour had passed, which meant he got himself another half-hour. “Turn over for me.”

    Slowly, as if reluctantly, he maneuvered his long-limbed, lumbering frame onto its flip side, which was when I saw that his uncut, dangling appendage had swollen into a ramrod-straight and big-headed thing, his foreskin having been all but stretched out into oblivion in his current state of arousal.

    “You’re not gonna take your underwear off?” He squinted at me through half-closed eyes.

    “If you want…”

    I realized as I slipped off my briefs that I was myself nursing a raging boner, which paled in comparison to his in terms of dimensions. Nonetheless, I had been pre-cumming like a faucet, the zealous secretion staining through my underwear.

    Once my dick was out, he couldn’t keep his hands off it. I ran just about the length of his fist, and he made quick work of me, so that as much as I tried to focus on my job—a massage, which was what he wanted—soon it was my turn to pry his hand from my cock.

    “Here, just lie back,” I said to him, trying to ignore the droplet of pre-cum threatening to drip from the tip of my cock.

    He folded his arms behind his head, closed his eyes, and behaved for a while. However, when I was done with the other parts of him and moved on to give him his happy ending, he became restless again.

    “You sure know how to stroke that cock, don’t you?” He remarked in a daze, his olive-colored eyes still only half-open.

    Holding the base of his tool firmly with one hand and polishing the head with my other, I joked, “What? You don’t think I’ve got tricks up my sleeve if I’m charging you five hundred dollars?”

    He broke into a grin, baring his sharp canines again.

    “Do you suck dick?”

    “If you want me to…” I had not wanted to play it coy, but it was how it came out.

    “Would you suck me off if I give you two hundred more?”

    I shook my head: “You don’t have to.”

    To show him that I meant it, I lowered my head and tickled his frenulum with the tip of my tongue.

    “Really?” He sounded incredulous.

    “Really,” I reassured him, and ran my lips back and forth over the cord that ran along the underside of his shaft.

    “Oh fuck, you’re gonna make me cum hard…” He was now writhing all over the bed, so I thought I’d better stop teasing the poor dude, and throated him to the hilt. And when my nose nuzzled the trimmed copse that carpeted his loins, I found that it diffused the same musk that had so intoxicated me, so I throated him again, and again.

    “Ugh…” He groaned, “I’m gonna blow my load down your throat any fucking minute…”

    He still had about ten minutes, and I didn’t want him to think I was rushing him.

    “Sit up,” I thus instructed him, and installed myself behind him to give him a good old-fashioned reach-around, for the home stretch. Putting both hands on his cock, I methodically quickened my strokes as I noticed his breathing become shallower and his stomach tightening, until eventually—

    “Aw, here it comes… Awww!”

    The first rope of thick cum lassoed out of his overstimulated organ and landed as far up as his chest. A few more strings followed and splattered sloppily over his stomach and thighs. Dutifully, I milked him until he became all oozy and I was certain that nothing else was coming out, and just held him there for a while as he tried to catch his breath.

    “You wanna cum too?” He twisted his neck back to ask after he’d recovered.

    He still had seven minutes, but not that I thought he was keeping track.

    “I’ll cum if you want me to cum.”

    He chuckled, and called my bluff: “You can do what you want. If you wanna cum, cum.”

    “Ok… would you help me?” I got way more worked up than expected, as I was just a sucker—no pun intended—for big white daddies with a good stench, and was actually dying to cum.

    We rearranged ourselves so that I was lying down on my back and he was next to me, propping himself up on his elbow on one side, in order for him to jerk me off. His tugs were short but hearty, and it wasn’t long before I felt the familiar pressure of climax build up inside me and pronounced, “I’m close…”

    Amping up the speed, he egged me on: “Yeah, come on… shoot everywhere…”

    That I did: I hadn’t cummed in at least seventy-two hours and I was practically drenched in my own jizz by the end of it.

    “I think you need a shower,” he observed out loud.

    “I think I do…”

    When I reemerged, he had already gotten dressed again. He asked me what I was doing for the rest of the weekend and I asked him where he was from.

    “I’m German,” he replied, in Cantonese, so there you go.

    “How long have you been in Hong Kong?” I then asked.

    “Twenty-seven years,” he admitted sheepishly, “I was here before you were born.”

    It wasn’t true, but I decided to let him think that I was younger than I was.

    “The rest is tips,” he explained as he held up seven hundred dollars at me.

    When I got back downstairs, I decided to smoke a cigarette before getting on the train. They had increased the price of cigarettes again—to ninety-something dollars a pack, which was a rip-off in any regard. Right then, however, I didn’t mind it so much. Maybe I’d even smoke two in a row. And when I ran out, I could go buy another seven packs, and have change to spare.

  • A carpenter’s commission releases the bully & beta-pig

    We both fuckin’ loved that, whether you’re a submissive little fuck or not doesn’t matter.” “Ok, Ok true”, Paul agrees, and can’t stop himself adding, “but really I’m not.” Jon just shakes his head with a grin, “just pack the fuckin’ pipe”.


    Paul packs the pipe while Jon watches intently learning, Paul happily explains the do’s and don’ts of packing and lighting a pipe for him. They sit passing the pipe from one to the other filling the air with a blue haze as they learned a little more about each other.

    Paul learns that Jon flipped both ways, had been married to a woman for some years but, after a messy breakup, had explored his gay side much more. He didn’t want the commitment that women so often wanted. Men, he said, were simpler, happy for a fuck and move on which suited him right now. And the sex was more raw, which he enjoyed whether he was the one being fucked or doing the fucking. He realised that he had been getting more assertive when fucking another guy but was a bit surprised by what came out today, how much he’d enjoyed being dominate, how good it felt being so raunchy with Paul. He didn’t mention just how turned on he got seeing Paul fight to retain his masculinity only to finally submit to him or how he’d enjoyed humiliating and emasculating him. He did tell Paul that he too had been very happy to see him when he arrived, that there was an instant raw attraction, which made Paul quietly happy!

    Jon learns about Paul’s relationship ending, how he played around too but wasn’t looking for a relationship, at least not now. He tolls Jon more about his work and how he paints abstract impressionist pieces which is why he wants a bespoke table. He confesses to having a fascination for men smoking pipes that he’s harboured since he was a kid. How he brought his first pipe at 17 and wanked with it in front of a mirror, only learning to actually smoke it when he left home.

    After a little coaxing Paul reveals that his interest in raunch came about after he’d shit his pants in a very protracted Teams call that he couldn’t escape. He’d muted the call as he filled his pants with an unusually large dump. He realised that he liked the feeling of the shit pressing up against his balls, the taboo of actually shitting in front of his male clients, even if they didn’t know, the smell and sensation of it. After the call he’d sat in it for a while edging himself before taking himself off the bathroom where he’d humped the mess in his pants until he came. After that he’d very occasionally had what he called ‘shit wanks’. And when Jon pushed the obvious question, ‘have you ever tasted it, eaten it?’ Paul gave a definite ‘NO’, conceding that cleaning a dirty arse and eating another man’s farts was lower and more disgusting than he thought he’d ever go, but the idea of actually eating shit was disgusting. He’d never explored it with another man either. He didn’t see his shit play as a subby thing, which made Jon quietly chuckle.

    When their beers and the pipe were done Paul got up and gathered his laptop to go. “Thanks, that was more fun than I expected to have today” he said, “Hope to see you again.” Leaving the door open for a repeat visit without asking for ‘commitment’. “Yeah, it was a fucking awesome way to spend a morning, I’ll get you that quote in a couple of days.” Jon replies as he stands. “And if the price is all good, I’m sure we’ll need to meet a few times to check on the progress.” Also leaving the door open for him to perhaps explore his new found taste for domination, control and humiliation of this handsome dude.

    As he hears the door close Jon flips his laptop open and immediately googles, ‘tobacco pipes, large’. He spends a happy hour researching this new interest whilst at the same time reflecting on the day. That evening found him on his bed stoking his cock to the images of Paul emasculated with his cum, gob and shitty arse juice. Developing ever more nasty ideas for debasing this stud, he has another satisfying orgasm.

    Paul drives home with conflicting emotions, torn between lust for Jon and shame, ‘Jon thinks I’m a beta-male, that’s lower than just being a bit of a sub, beta men serve alpha men, they are inferior, fucking pathetic’. His ego is bruised but his cock just keeps getting hard. He too wanked that night trying to steer his fantasises to taking a more active role fucking with Jon. Eventually he gives up and pictures himself on his knees face buried in that trench, tasting Jon’s farts to achieve another satisfying orgasm.

    Jon’s quote popped up in Paul’s email a couple of days later. With it came a series of pictures. With just a line saying ‘sorry, should have sent these for your own wank-bank, they are hot Dude ’. Paul couldn’t help but look at the pictures first – scanning the images of his own face a mask of filth, a pipe gripped in his mouth. And a couple, he didn’t know Jon shot, showing Jon’s cock smearing his cum into the filth on Paul’s upturned face, a face filled with lust. And a selfie of Jon pulling on the same pipe, smoke billowing around his handsome sweaty features. Paul’s cock twitched reopening the conflict in his head.

    He read the quote, more than he hoped but the breakdown showed it wasn’t unreasonable, but more than he can afford. But this was no longer about a table, he wants to see Jon again. So, chipping a little more off his own pride he writes back admitting he couldn’t afford that much and asking if there were any room to negotiate. The reply was surprisingly swift and short, ‘How much do you need to save dirty boi?’. Paul felt himself flush at being called ‘dirty boi’ again. And replied with ‘20% if possible’. Even over email he was feeling like Jon has the upper hand, is in control. Jon either needed to think or just made him wait, because Paul had to wait over an hour for the reply. When it comes Paul is filled with yet more conflict, it read: ‘Hey fucker I’ve given this some thought. We had a great time fucking around the other day. It opened a can of worms that I’d like to explore more, ideally with you dirty boi! So, here’s the deal – if you agree to come back three times to explore & fuck around some more. Each time we will start where we left off the last time. And after three sessions I’ll cut the cost by 30% for you. I think we’d learn a lot more about ourselves and have some hot, dirty sex. There it is, no further discussion or negotiation my friend. Offer holds for two hours, clock’s ticking fucker so let me know. Jon.

    Paul actually has loads of questions, but Jon has cleverly shut that avenue down – it is a take it or leave it offer to see him again for sex. He is just unsure exactly what he’d be signing up for and isn’t sure he wants to humiliate himself further, rob himself his own self-respect if that’s what Jon had in mind. Having been bullied as a child Paul had to work hard at building his self-confidence and self-respect, feeling that he’d let it happen to himself, he had deserved to be bullied because he was weak. Truthfully as soon as he’d seen the picture of Jon, pipe in jaw, his dick had made the decision. But his head said don’t be too keen, so, he left it over an hour before replying as confidently as he could, ‘Thank you, offer accepted, fucker. When do we meet?’ Jon smiled broadly as he read it, time for another wank to fuel his now over active imagination.

    They didn’t meet for two weeks when Jon said the wood would arrive and Paul could approve that before he started work. One afternoon Paul got a text message saying the wood was in. Could he come by at 10:30am next day? Paul had a meeting but knew he’d be free by then if he went straight from the meeting and agreed, his stomach already in knots, his dick twitching.

    Paul dressed carefully in jeans, tight t-shirt and a pair of black DMs to look more masculine. With the meeting finished Paul stepped out into the rain to locate his car and drive to Jon’s. Pulling into the muddy car parking area his car splashing through the puddles he spotted Jon stood in the doorway of his workshop watching the rain. Seeing Paul pull in he steps out to greet him. Paul is amused that he makes no effort to avoid the muddy puddles, splashing mud on his boots as he walks. Paul gathers the pipe he’s carefully packed, tobacco and phone. Out of the car he supresses his nerves and accepts Jon’s extended hand. They shake and then Jon pulls Paul into a hug. “Good to see you, let’s get inside it’s fuckin’ evil out here.” ‘Let’s hope it’s not going to be fucking evil in there,’ Paul thinks.

    Evil would come in time! But now they make a little, slightly stilted, small talk until Jon points towards the back of the workshop and saying, “the timber’s over here”. He leads the way to a pile of wood on the floor. To Paul it just looks like a pile of wood, he stands with his back to Jon and surveys it perplexed as to what he is really assessing. “Em, yeap it’s a pile of wood, it looks ok to me but I wouldn’t know if it were good or bad.” Close behind him he hears Jon reply “I guess your expertise is more this type of wood”. Turning Paul sees Jon, with a silly grin, clutching his hardening cock pulled through his open fly, “Check it out.” Paul smiles “I’ve seen it before and can definitely approve it, a fine piece of wood”.

    They look at each other for a moment and then the lust takes over and both men are back in the same hungry embrace as before. Lips locked, each vying with the other biting each other’s lips Paul’s tongue probes Jon’s mouth and again he pulls back and gobs into Paul’s face. Only this time Paul gobs back. Making Jon laugh as he pulls away and strips Paul’s shirt of over his head wiping his face with it, still ginning, as he says, “I have another piece of wood for you to check out here.” He reaches on to his bench and picks up the fruits of his extensive research. Holding it up for Paul to see. It’s a large full bent pipe, smooth and shiny of an almost black briar. “Do you like it? He asks handing it to Paul. Paul takes it feeling the smooth, almost sensuous curves, “yeah, it’s beautiful.” “So, fill it for me, I’ve still not fully mastered the art,” and he pulls a fat pouch of pipe tobacco from his back pocket and hands it to Paul.

    Paul takes the tobacco and concentrates on packing the bowl as behind him Jon quietly strips, hurriedly pulling his boots back on and retying them before Paul has finished. As he stands “Paul is finishing tamping the tobacco into the bowl, “So you found yourself ‘a nice big shiny one’”. “That’s the biggest I could find for now, I want a bigger one” “Oh, I didn’t have you pegged as a fucking size queen,” Paul quips back. Jon stands behind Paul wrapping his strong arms around him and whispering in his ear, “I think it’s just man-sized.” He runs his hands down Pauls torso, nuzzling his ear. His hands drop to Paul’s belt and flips it open along with the button. He eases down the zip and slips Paul’s jeans and briefs down his legs below the knee. “I’ll need to take my Docs off,” Paul whispers enjoying the Jon’s touch. “They are fine, you can leave them on” Jon assures him as he lets his hands start to stroke Paul’s firm cock, the other hand grips his balls, “Do you think yours is man sized Paul?” his tone harder, more demanding. Paul stiffens in his embrace, he knows he’s referring to the size of his cock, not his pipe. A hot flush goes up his body as a wave of humiliation runs through him, his confidence falters, “It’s average”, he mumbles. Jon chuckles in his ear still nuzzling him. His grip tightens on Paul’s balls making him tense even more, “then mine must be super-man-sized, can you handle super-man-sized Paul?” He’s releases Paul’s cock but not his balls. With his free hand he now guides the hand Paul holds the pipe in up to Paul’s mouth, “are you ready to suck on a man-sized one Paul, can you handle it?” The pipe slips into Paul’s mouth, he knows this is just a metaphor for Jon’s cock but it also feels like a challenge to smoke the bigger ‘man-sized’ pipe. Jon hands him the lighter, “light it boi, suck on that man-sized pipe for me.” His grip on Paul’s balls tightens a little more making him feel vulnerable, yet his cock is seriously hard. As if to prove himself he lights the pipe as instructed as Jon fondles his balls.

    As Paul fills the air with pipe smoke, Jon drops down onto the battered leather couch and engulfs Paul’s cock in his mouth, causing him to gasp around the pipe. He sucks the cock hard, “small but perfectly formed”, he says, belittling Paul further. Paul can’t even bring himself to tell Jon to ‘fuck off,’ inside he knows it’s true. Looking down he sees Jon is now holding his dick in one hand and busy photographing his ‘man-hood’ on his phone with the other hand. Paul pulls back a little to stop the humiliating documentation of his small cock. Jon pulls him back, “so cute, it’s a perfect ‘average’ little cock”, he mocks. Done he dumps the phone and looks up at Paul, “okey, enough foreplay, we need to start where we left off like we agreed don’t we?” Dumbly Paul nods. “Do you remember where that was Paul?” And seeing Paul is just holding the pipe, “keep the pipe alight unless you can’t handle it. So, do you?” Paul immediately puts the pipe back in his mouth and puffs as he shakes his head, “no”. It doesn’t matter Jon is about to remind him, enjoying the fact that Paul is already being compliant as his confidence is stripped away.

    Jon now directs Paul to kneel. Thinking he’s going to suck Jon’s hardening cock Paul scoots his hobbled feet back and kneels. Jon takes the pipe from him and contentedly takes a big pull on it blowing the smoke into Paul’s face as he recounts what they did, how Paul had sniffed and eaten his farts, rimmed his dirty hole, been his spittoon and his ashtray. “But we actually finished after you shot your load from your baby dick all over my boots and floor. Then you did a sloppy job of licking my boots clean. Didn’t you dirty boi?”. The way Jon told it made it seem so sordid and him so pathetic. Nervous of where this is leading but aware he’s agreed to this Paul nods.

    Jon smiles around the pipe, through the fog of pipe smoke surrounding his head. Jon continues, “So let’s start where we left off. Get down there and finish the job cleaning my boots, I’ve not cleaned them since so there may be a bit more work needed. Now get your face down there boi and show my boots some respect.” He puts his hand behind Paul’s head and starts to guide it down, pleased to find there’s not much resistance. Paul is losing the battle with himself to push back, to stand up for himself and Jon is loving it. Paul has to push his legs out and finds himself laid down on the floor, wondering why his dick is still hard. “Don’t think about it, just do it dirty boi”, Jon directs jettisoning another load of smoke towards Paul on the floor.

    Reluctantly Paul extends his tongue and starts to lick the toe of Jon’s boot. He can see the mud from the carpark caked around the edge and realises that Jon’s planned this, planned to make him lick the mud off his boots. Feeling like he was thirteen again, about to get a swirly from a bully in the school toilets, he submits and starts licking the boots, tasting the mud and dirt. He works at it hating himself more with every swipe of the tongue. Jon is enjoying the show, unknown to Paul capturing it on his phone, “good boi Paul, get all that mud and shit off, find your dirty boi cum. Get the mud off the sides, yes that’s it.” Paul works his tongue around the boots, the edges of the sole. His head is between the shafts of the boots and Jon takes the opportunity to clamp his feet together clamping Paul’s head in place. Paul’s whimper and groan as he tightens the grip sends a thrill through Jon’s groin to his now hard cock. ‘Yes, I’m a bully’, he thinks, ‘and I fuckin’ love it’, as he squeezes Paul’s head a bit harder eliciting another whimper and finally a pathetic, “please” from the subjugated form below him.

    Jon laughs “problem cunt?”. Another muffled “please”, begging for release. Jon laughs more “well cunt face are you going to be a good boi and do the soles properly for me this time?”, grinding his calves together more so Paul can really feel the boot leather on his cheeks. “yes” comes the hissed reply. “Yes what beta-boi?” There’s a delay as Paul tries to retain some last shred of dignity, bristling at the word ‘beta’. Jon releases him but as soon as Paul moves, he brings his boot down on Paul’s head. He has Paul’s head pinned sideway to the floor. Paul can feel the sole grinding mud into the side of his face. He tries to slide back but Jon just increases the pressure pinning him to the floor. Jon leans over him, captures a bit more of Paul’s humiliation on his phone, he hawks and gobs on the whimpering form hitting the edge of his boot and Paul’s muddied face. He adds more gob, “well fucker?”. And he smiles as he gets what he wants a hissed “YES SIR, I will clean the soles”. Jon, getting high on the power, gobs again, “clean all that up too boot-boi. On your back cunt. Now eat.” He lifts his boot so Paul can roll fully onto his back and see Jon’s boot descend over his face. He extends his tongue and Jon starts to wipe his boot across his personal human doormat. Every swipe removes some mud and more of Paul’s resistance.

    Paul has to spend another five minutes digging the mud from Jon’s boot lugs before Jon finally takes his boots away. Grinning down at the panting form, he snaps pictures of Paul’s wet muddy red face. “Fuck, why do you have to be such a cunt?” Paul asks quietly. Jon sniggers, “Oh, trust me I’m actually a nice guy, but there’s something in you that has brought out an evil streak, that’s what I wanted to explore fuck-tard, and even if your dumb brain can’t accept it your dicklet is loving it, isn’t it? I don’t want to do this to any guy, no you’re special. And YOU ARE a natural sub, you just need to embrace it loser”. Paul shot back “YOU ARE a natural cunt, what worries me is just how much you’ve fucking embraced it.” Jon laughs, “You need an attitude adjustment beta-boi, but we can do that later.” Jon says as he stands “Now let’s get you cleaned up a bit, now kneel up.”

    Paul was only too pleased to push himself up from the floor. Kneeling on his still hobbled feet he sits up and looks up at Jon. Jon is stood actively willing his hardon to soften. Seeing Paul debase himself on his boots had got him really hard he had loved the sense of power having someone lick your boots gives. He looks Paul in the eye with a sneer and steps back. If his hardon won’t go down he’ll just have to do it anyway. Paul’s dirty face looks hot and his wide eyes show fear at what is coming next, all of which just makes Jon hornier. With a huge effort Jon forces his bladder to do his bidding and aiming his hard dick down at Paul he finally manages to start to piss. With a grunt he releases a torrent of piss onto Paul’s chest. Paul had realised what was coming and already the pig side of his brain had shut down any resistance.

    As with the fart eating, he knows he wants this, his cock strains harder still as Jon plays the piss up his body to Paul’s now upturned face. “You want my piss don’t you dirty-boi? It’s fucking pathetic, you’re a dirty pig aren’t you, Paul?” All Paul could do is nod in agreement, the warm piss runs over his body and it feels so good, so taboo, so hot. He can’t help but reach for his cock and start to wank it hard. “Open your fucking mouth pig-boi”. Offering no resistance Paul complies opening his mouth wide to receive the hot piss, he can smell it and as Jon steps forward his mouth fills with acrid piss. On auto he swallows, piss running down his face as he gulps it down. “Leave your fucking dicklet alone cunt you don’t cum yet,” Jon growls above him. But Paul is caught up in catching more of the piss he craves and continues to wank his cock. With another huge effort Jon stops pissing and quickly turns to his bench, rummaging around he finds what he’s looking for grabs them and turns his attention back to Paul.

    In one swift movement Jon bends and seizes Paul’s hand pulling it behind his back before Paul has time to react. Holding it there Jon uses his other hand to bend Paul’s other wrist behind his back and manages to cable tie his wrists together, securing them before Paul can pull free. Grinning down at a flustered and frustrated Paul, “Like I said, not yet cunt. You might get to cum if you’re a good boi later. Do you want the rest of this piss?” He waves his now softer cock in Paul’s face. Angered through he is at being restrained Paul really wants Jon’s piss, “yes please give me more piss, please,” he gasps fidgeting in the pool of piss that’s soaking into his jeans. Jon smiles, he likes Paul in pig mode, it makes him more vulnerable and more compliant. He raises his eye brows and Paul knows what he had to do. “Please Sir,” tumbles out his mouth before he even registers what he is doing. With a smirk Jon manages to restart his flow of piss. Less forceful now he steps up and pisses straight into the other man’s mouth. He twists briefly to reach for his phone, he wants to record Paul swallowing his piss, giving himself freely to be his urinal. It will help humiliate him later and go further in robbing him of his already crumbling self-respect.

    When the supply of piss runs out, Jon gobs into Paul’s open mouth calling him a ‘pathetic dirty piss pig’ he feeds his dripping cock into Paul ‘s mouth, “suck it cunt, clean it up, get all of that man piss into your nasty pig belly,” he sneers. His lust for Paul just grew with his increasing sense of power over him. He thrusts forward driving his cock deeper into the warm orifice, pumping his hardening eight inches into Paul’s mouth, grabbing his head so he can vent his lust and mounting aggression, raping Paul’s face.

    Paul is shocked at the sudden onslaught; he suppresses his gag reflex as the phallus digs into his throat. He rocks and squirms but Jon seems to have no pity, and just keeps pumping his cock deeper, getting high on Paul’s choking, his grunts and whimpering as he fights for breath. For Jon it feels good, but he doesn’t want to unload yet, he has plans.


    In chapter 4 Paul gets his ‘attitude adjustment’ and sinks lower into piggery


    There will be nine chapters charting the journey of two men, alpha-male and beta-boi, as they discover how mean and dirty they really are. This story involves, humiliation, scat, piss, boot worship and pipe smoking. If these things are not for you please do move on.

    This is the first story that I have published here. It covers my own personal interest in humiliation, submission and an obsession with pipe smoking men.

    I welcome constructive feedback, thoughts and idea for future stories. 

  • Writer of the Stars

    My reflection blurred in the smear of concrete and greenery.

    I was a passenger on the MetroRail, Austin’s only commuter train. I stood against the window, steadied by my grip on a metal pole. As the train careened at its top speed of sixty miles-per-hour, I considered how everything about this trip was in transit–the place I boarded from was a temporary replacement for the downtown station, which was being rebuilt. It didn’t have enough lines for the ever growing population of the city. One of the ticket machines had been out of service. I had found an empty mounting pole on the station’s platform–it looked like it was designed to house a dot matrix info board, but given the station’s temporary nature, I doubted it would ever be filled.

    My eyes fixed on nothing in particular. I, too, was in transit, just another blur in the window of a crowded city.

    It didn’t bother me, mind you. I think I preferred it. I had a great appreciation for the smear of life, and the swirl of messy color and thought that comes from being in a world smoothed over by generations of advancement. There is a great, beautiful impossibility to my existence, and that train ride, uneventful as it was–as it always was–was evidence for it.

    Because not a single man surrounding me would or could know the extent or nature of my lust for them.

    I didn’t need them to know. I was horny for concept, not cock. I am old enough to know what I want and what I am, and as I studied the disparate sizes and expressions and bulk of the men in repose around me, I was as aware as I ever was that I am burdened with sexuality without the need of sex. I don’t have a “come hither” gaze because my eyes don’t covet, they catalogue.

    To my right, there was a black man in his mid thirties. He’s clean shaven, with a smooth lineup I’m sure he paid plenty for. He’s smiling at something on his phone. Beautiful white pearls peeked through thick, dark lips; lips that could swallow your tongue, your face, your soul. His orange tank and yellow sweats indicated a playful personality, and his muscled shoulders and broad chest hinted that he lived in a world of labor or fitness. You can find so many ways to build an aesthetic body like his; he was a sculpture I imagined many approved of. Perhaps he gave his approval back to them in long, sweaty nights wrapped in silk sheets. Assuming he was vanilla in taste–perhaps his gave his disapproval in swats across the rear or face, if he was a little more wild. Maybe only a difference of mood separated the two possible outcomes. Not knowing, but considering, was part of the fun.

    To my left sat a bearded construction work. His overhung, hairy belly pushed out from an orange vest, hastily unfastened after a long day of work. He was talking to a woman across the aisle. He laughed, and waved his hands as he talked. I imagined those hands were strong, calloused, and in regular use. I wondered how much weight he’d put on in his days of hard labor. I wondered how proud he was of that bulk, and how much he enjoyed showing it off to smaller guys at the construction site. Maybe there was a nerd there–some accountant or intern for a manager he despised–that got grabbed by those strong hands and forced face first into his navel everyday. Or maybe there was a guy like me, unassuming and forgettable, who knew he was built to please. Who was looking at him and thinking about what he might look like naked, free, worshiped like the Dionysus he should’ve always been.

    Across the aisle, I saw an old Latino man with silver braids. He wore a shimmering black suit, dark as night, still full of stars. His eyes hid behind mirrored shades, and his gray beard was neatly trimmed. He looked expensive. Too expensive for me, or anyone else on board. Which made you wonder what his price was. And was his price to have, or be had? Was this a powerful business man who hid a deep yearning for a dominate subordinate to throw him across his desk and take him? Was this silver fox ready to slip a few hundred into the waistband of a twink’s panties, or a jock’s strap? The grimy possibilities were there, made all the more salacious by often unspoken scandalous precedent.

    The train pulled to my stop. I got off. None of them needed to know that, just as they were, they were inspirations to me. It had been my experience that most men can’t handle the burden–or the truth–of their beauty. So, I never told them.

    I much preferred to write about them, instead.

    My apartment was a small one bedroom above a bookstore. The walls were painted a dingy green, like dried toothpaste, and there was little furniture except for a bed. None of these choices were mine–life made them for me. My writing table was a simple wooden slab I’d bought from the antique store down the street for twenty dollars. Sat upon it was my computer, several years out of fashion, but still up for the challenges I presented it. I had a few bookshelves filled with old paperbacks and a couple of pillows strewn across the floor. Any of these places would become dinner tables, depending upon my energy that day. I’d sometimes eat out, but mostly I ate cereal and drank coffee. No one would accuse me of good health, or confuse me for the gods I found in other men.

    I rarely left the house for anything other than work. I didn’t need to go anywhere else, though I won’t pretend I didn’t want to. I hated my job–it didn’t pay enough to live. To really live, you know what I mean? To walk outside when you want to, take in the sun, go places without a schedule, to be where you want to be because it’s curiosity and not a demand. When I think about life, I can’t imagine it was invented to only pay bills and starve. Yet the latter two activities seemed to be all I did–which made those quiet moments between my dick, my mind, and the keyboard all the more special.

    I wrote. No… I write. I still do. I always will.

    I didn’t need to flirt with those men on the train not because I feared an accidental run-in with violent straights, but because what really turned me on the most was narrative. Structure threatened my loins, character arcs unzipped my pants, the wandering prose of a sentence without end sent electricity from my mind to my prostate. I didn’t have to specifically write porn to have a good time, but it was a good time I always found myself drawn to, all the same. The need to conjure rammed into me, and fucked my imagination with possibilities. I average around four pages or so before I came, and if I’m not playing with myself when I write, then I know it’s not a story I’ll finish. I am, and you may think lowly of me for this, madly in lust with making.

    You’d think I’d write more often, horny as I was for the page.

    Between my job and the hours to get to it and leave, most of my time was away from the keyboard. My brain never stopped, of course–all day, men would walk around me, and I deified them from afar. Every man’s body was a story I wanted to tell, and the backlog of ideas in my mind was long. But writing is a terrible commitment of resources. If I had both the time and the energy to write when I got home, it would take the remainder of my night. If I lacked one, or the other, or both, I would read someone else’s story, jerk off, sleep for 4-6 hours, then stumble back into work the next day.

    I appreciated other people’s words, and sometimes posted my own, on a sex-story site called, appropriately, Literotica. My audience was small, far smaller than I wanted it to be, but that size was deserved given the few stories that I had posted on the site. While I consider myself a workhorse–I could easily write 2k words a day for fun if I had that freedom–it was a struggle to finish anything. I would orgasm when writing the stories I enjoyed the most, then go to sleep, then get distracted by the burden of the real world, and by the time I got back to doing what I loved–and it would sometimes be days or weeks–I would, more than likely, have a new story or scenario choking my mind, my throat, my cock.

    I sat down in front of the keyboard and opened my word processor.

    Something about the train ride home stuck with me. I was horny–I was painfully horny, always–but I was also drowning in a frustration of particular heaviness that night. I thought about those three men, sitting across from me, laughing at something, joking with each other. I imagined their bodies, how they moved, what they were like underneath their clothes. I pictured the valleys of their muscles, and where they met. Their cocks, hard and stiff, jutted out from their pants, reached for the sky, begging to be touched. They deserved whores and lovers and gimps and masters and any sort of carnal craving they desired. They deserved novels unto themselves, each of them. They deserved three act structures that found them, whether heroic or villainous, triumphantly sexual. Those worlds didn’t exist–couldn’t exist–without imagination and time. Best I could give them, I thought, is an orgy with each other. On the train.

    “Train on a train,” I mused, unzipping with one hand and tapping away with the other. “There’s a ring to it.”

    So I took notes. I gave those gods names, and motivations, and fetishes. I carved their descriptions in time with strokes across my blue cotton underwear. I was half-hard and fully finished with a layout for my story. Good progress on both fronts.

    Or, it should’ve been.

    I stared at the monitor, at the clock in the bottom right hand corner of the screen. I grumbled, then slumped in the chair. My dick begged for my attention, but I let it dangle unattended. Anger had set in, a new emotion that had never found its way into my work before. It was late. I had the energy! I had the motivation! I absolutely had the capability, but there was no fucking time! If I didn’t go to bed soon, I’d be dead at work the next day. Dead for a job that I needed just to scrape by. And for the first time, I felt too angry at that fact to even finish jerking off.

    I saved my work, slunk to my kitchen, and open the window. I draped myself across the pane, and let my arms dangle against the brick outside my apartment. I stared up into the sky, letting the cool air wash over me.

    “Fuck this shit,” I muttered. “Fuck my life.”

    The sky was dark. I counted the stars, few as they were. I knew that I was meant to be somewhere else, doing something better. I rarely believed in purpose, but there was too stark of a difference between my happiness in writing and the rest of my micro-managed time.

    I closed my eyes and pictured a story, any story. Men taking off their shirts, getting their pecs sucked. A man on his knees, begging another for more. The wetness of a mouth on a dick. A needy hole clenched around a cock. I tried to picture any scene that I could conjure up, any scenario that would allow me to feel full. But every visual was drained out by the reality that I was chained to a cubicle that paid too little for too much of my time, and too much of me.

    I opened my eyes again. There was a star I missed–a little more yellow, a little brighter than the others. I focused on its light, since the worlds of my mind, normally my refuge, had abandoned me. It grounded me long enough to think foolish thoughts. I thought that, maybe, I could make a wish on it. I knew that thought was lore inaccurate, of course–you’re supposed to wish on shooting stars. But I was unaware of any repercussions for sending your dreams to any old part of the cosmos, and frankly, if there was something out there willing to respond to me, I was ready to accept them. Nothing else had worked out in my life, so why not this?

    “Hey, you up there?” I watched my breath fade into the cold air. “Can you hear me?”

    I waited, staring at the same point in space, hoping that someone would appear and tell me that it was okay. If the star just twinkled in a knowing way, hell, I’d be satisfied with that.

    “Well, if you can…” I took a deep breath, “…all I want to do is write. The odds are impossibly against me that I’ll ever be able to, though, what with the way my life is. With the way the world is, too. It’s too expensive and risky to publish on my own, the market is saturated as it is, and I don’t have the time with my job to do the work I want to do. I don’t have family or a big audience to support me. I’m gonna die at this piece of shit job at this rate. I don’t want this anymore. I want…”

    I took another breath, then started to cry. I couldn’t help it. These were words I had held deep within me, never spoken, never shared. Once I started to speak them, they tumbled out with desperate need. I had to get it out of my system, even though my system was designed to prevent this sort of thing.

    And then, for some reason, a thought branched out from my spiraling mind, a distinct and curious one.

    In my erotica, I played frequently with various kinks just for the sake of challenging my writing. Because I was so enamored by every syllable that came from a male throat, every drop of sweat and spit and precum that a man could make, I found myself often writing about a wide variety of different things, some more sexual in thought than practice. Just to explore these different ways of being turned on was fascinating to me. And yet, one I hadn’t pursued, one that I found intriguing but hesitant to leap into, was financial-domination. “Findom,” as its known, is a form of BDSM where a submissive showers a dominant with money, with little in return other than humiliation. Maybe if I wrote about that, and maybe if I posted it on Literotica, my writing could fulfill someone else’s fantasy. Maybe they can pay me, and I can bury them with my prose, with the filthiest, grimiest stories I desired. Absolutely destroy them with a flick of the wrist, and make them beg for more.

    I could live that life easily.

    And so, with this thought, perhaps arrogantly, perhaps foolish;y, I looked up to that shining star.

    “I wish someone paid me to write erotica every week, at my own pace,” I said. “I wish they paid me enough that I could quit my job and live comfortably, and write stories all the time.”

    The star didn’t answer. It suspended itself in the air, unwavering. The wind blew through my hair, and the sound of the cars passing by on the street below faded away.

    Disappointed, I closed the window and went to bed.

    ***

    Tuesday morning was as routine as any other. My phone alarm screamed till I woke. I fussed with my tie and slacks, and drowned my cereal with too much milk. I carried coffee with me in a thermos and drank it as I ran to the train platform. I did everything I could to avoid thinking about the temper tantrum I thrust towards the night. I wanted to forget about it, pretend it never happened.

    But when I got to work, I found a message waiting for me. The wall of sound of call center phones parted, and silenced when I noticed a small yellow note was stuck to my computer monitor:

    ***

    I like it when you beg.

    – S

    ***

    The simple signature was followed up with a smiley face.

    I sat down at my desk and held the note between tight fingers. I had no coworkers whose name started with ‘S.’ None that I could think of, not even last names. John, maybe? I shot up and looked over the cubicle wall at my coworker-neighbor, an older woman named Margie.

    “What’s John’s last name?” I blurted.

    Margie blinked over her large bifocals, caught more off-guard by the suddenness of my question than its content. “Andrews, I think.”

    My brow furrowed. “Huh.”

    I sat down. Then, shot back up.

    “Margie, did you see anyone come by my desk?”

    Margie’s tone this time reflected a bit of annoyance. “No, just you.”

    “Huh.”

    “Something wrong, Davey?”

    I shook my head, “No. Sorry.”

    I fell back into my chair, looked at the note, then crumpled it and threw it into the trash. I didn’t have time to think about it–I had to clock in for work.

    ***

    The rest of my shift was largely uneventful–or at least, as eventful as any other day of work. I finished my shift and got on the MetroRail towards home. My normal pastime of observing men and dreaming of the fantastical ways they could achieve nirvana was put on hold. My brain was too consumed by the note, too busy sorting through the files of my life and connections I had made. I searched for anyone whose name began with an ‘S.’ There had to be someone. Someone I was forgetting–someone with access to my desk at work. Considering my cry to the sky the night before, it was likely someone in my apartment building. Did I have a co-worker that lived near me?

    I arrived home and ate dinner alone, as ritual. I tried to watch videos on the internet, but couldn’t focus. My mind was locked in search of the missing piece of the puzzle. After dinner, I checked my email and Facebook accounts, but nothing new had come in since the morning. I didn’t know my neighbors. I had no other clues, no solace to calm me to sleep, no brain-space to motivate myself to write. I just laid in bed and stared at the ceiling, wondering who the hell ‘S’ was. Hours ticked by. Frustrated, I decided I’d force myself to masturbate–maybe a good cum was all I needed. I turned on my computer and opened the browser.

    Literotica waited patiently for me. My intent had been to just cruise around the “gay male” tab, flip through various kinky stories the way a audiophile browses vinyl records. I wasn’t terribly picky, or at least I didn’t think I was. Wherever that train of thought would lead to, though, I’d never know–because before I could make it to the tab, I noticed I had received a private message.

    I never received private messages.

    I clicked the link.

    ***

    Hello Davey,

    I’ve read your work on Literotica and find it compelling. I can’t help but wonder what kind of man writes such beautiful words about such filthy things.

    I hope you don’t mind me contacting you directly. I’m curious if you’re interested in working with me on something. If so, please reply with your email address and we’ll discuss the details further.

    I look forward to hearing from you.

    -S

    ***

    I read the message three times

    I stood up from the desk, shaking slightly. I walked out of my bedroom and into the kitchen. I opened the window.

    That yellow star, the same one I wished on, looked down at me with cool cruelty. I could find it easily, no matter how different the rest of the sky looked. I squinted at it with certainty and distrust.

    I slammed the window shut and galloped back to my computer.

    ***

    Dear S,

    Thanks for the kind words. I’m really flattered–you’re the first person that’s messaged me on this site, and it often feels like I’m just another guy around here, you know? Haha.

    I love writing, so, uh, yeah. You’ve got me curious!

    Can I ask how you know my name, though?

    ***

    I swallowed, and debated the possibilities in my head. Should I? Shouldn’t I?

    Ugh.

    I typed my email address. Worse case scenario it’s a scam and I just cut off contact.

    I sent the message and stared at the screen with a disorientation that felt somewhere between punch-drunk and fear. My nervous stupor was only broken when I realized that I was hard as hell. With a shrug, I jerked off to thoughts of begging, my cock trapped underneath the heel of that older Latino man I saw on the train. In my fantasy, he was smoking a cigar, and slapping a stack of money across my face with idle amusement. It was a nice thought, and one that centered on my own body–truthfully, a rarity for me.

    When I shot, it was much higher than usual. I cleared the desk and hit the wall. A drop of cum oozed down the screen. I panicked and ran to get some paper towels.

    ***

    The alarm brought me to Wednesday morning. The heaviness of little sleep weighed me down as I reached for the phone. Through blurry eyes I checked my emails and found that there were two new ones.

    I opened the first one. It was, unsurprisingly, from “S.”

    ***

    Hey Davey,

    Just wanted to let you know that I received the payment, and will be sending over the contract today. I’m looking forward to working with you.

    -S.

    ***

    Payment? I didn’t pay him anything! That was it–I should have known better. I had been stupid enough to think that someone might actually want to buy my work, even if my “work” was just porn. This was a scam, obviously. The only good news that I could think of was this: Whoever this “S” was, he only had my name and email address. If this slime-ball stole any money from me, it was probably just from my PayPpal. I logged into my account to see what damage had been done.

    My brain rattled. I yelped in surprise.

    One thousand dollars had been deposited into the account as an anonymous tip.

    “What the fuck!” I bounced out of my bed and walked a circle around my room.

    What the hell was happening?

    I remembered that there was a second email. I flipped through the apps in a panic.

    ***

    Hey Davey,

    The contract is below. You should have received your first payment. Let me know if you have any questions.

    -S.

    ***

    “What… the hell…” I couldn’t believe it. I sat down on my bed and read through the contract. It was a ridiculous thing written in short, simple demands. To call it a legally binding document was an insult to normal American bureaucracy–per the contract, I was to post a new story to Literotica by Friday at 7 PM. The story must reach at least 3000 words, and must be a new story I had not posted before. I was to also, every night before bed, beg aloud to the star outside my window. As I did so, I would be required to masturbate. If I failed to cum for the star, or if I failed to deliver my weekly story, the document simply said that “all parties would be void.” If I met my duties, I’d be paid a thousand a week for my work.

    I slapped my own face to make sure I wasn’t dreaming. It stung in very real ways.

    I realized, suddenly, that I was going to be late for work if I didn’t run out the door. It was only my disbelief in the seriousness of the contract that propelled me out the door. I hadn’t eaten yet.

    ***

    I stared at the men on my train with some suspicion, as if anyone around me could be “S.” But I knew none of them, and given that my obsession for men meant I remembered faces and bodies quiet well, I was certain that I had not encountered any of the current passengers before.

    I arrived at work. I was certainly going to be late. I felt like I was on fire. My stomach churned. I ran up stairs, lacking confidence in the timing of our elevators. I arrived at my desk, out of breath, and found another little yellow note awaited me.

    ***

    You’ll like begging, Davey. I promise.

    -S.

    ***

    I don’t remember much about the rest of that day. I stared at faces. I remember arriving home. I remember walking to my window and opening it. I remember staring at the night sky, at the yellow star that bore down on me. At some point, I glanced at my phone. I used a digital signer on the contract. I sent it off, then, with considerable embarrassment, pulled down the band of my sweatpants.

    “I don’t…” I felt oddly at a loss of words. When I write humiliation scenes for my stories, it felt so easy to make my subs moan sweet poetry to their doms. This was different. Far different. “I don’t quite know what to say.”

    The star shone.

    “This is dumb, isn’t it?” I muttered. I looked down at my dick, which apparently disagreed with my assessment–it was half-hard already, despite my not having done anything to it.

    “I’m sorry,” I said. “It’s just…”

    I fell silent. I rested my weight against the windowsill, sighed with resignation, and stroked the length of my member.

    “Please,” I whispered, “I want this to be real.”

    I looked to the star. It burned. I moaned quietly under its light.

    “I need this to be real. Please, I beg of you. Help me.”

    I gasped as my balls tightened. I spread my legs, and let my taint grind against the edge of the chair. I swiveled my hips in rotation, and used the chair’s corner to grind up and down my saddle.

    “Please, S…” my breath quickened, “…please let me write for you. Let me feel the pleasure I crave. Make me cum for you. I will do anything. I will beg. I will grovel. I will do anything! Just let me have the freedom to write!”

    I released a low groan as I thrust into my hand. I was slick with some pre-cum, but it wasn’t enough, so I spat into my hand to help out the friction. I clenched around my cock, squeezed the sensitive head between my fingers. I stared into the star in a trance. My tongue lolled.

    “Please, S… please, let me have this. Let me feel this. I will write for you forever. I will write until my hands fall off. I will write until my mind goes blank. Let me write… Let me write… Let me wri–AH!”

    I gushed. My submission splattered across the kitchen floor. I threw my head back, and tears streamed down my face. I had never cum so much in my life, never so intensely, and never with such instant embarrassment.

    I laid slumped in the chair for a few moments. As my breath and senses came back to me, I muttered towards the sky, “…like that?”

    ***

    Thursday’s alarm screamed. I groggily looked at the clock. It was 5 A.M. I hated waking up so early for work. I couldn’t remember the last time I slept in. As the memories of the night before settled into my head, I silenced the alarm and called my boss.

    “Hey, uh, I know I’ve been with the company for a while now, but…” my call started out with a mutter, but clarity hastened my speech. “…I quit. Sorry. I’m done. I’m not coming in again. Bye.”

    I shut off the phone. I stared at my reflection in the black screen. I wasn’t sure if I recognized it. It didn’t matter–I buried myself in the pillow and slept several more hours.

    When I woke up again–this time of my own accord and not a schedule’s–it was the most beautiful feeling I had ever encountered. Warmth wrapped itself around me. Thursday was shining and saturated in color. I could smell the air, unseasonably alive in sunshine. Clouds parted for me to sprinkle light into my bedroom window.

    I sat up in bed, stretched, and smiled. Looking at the phone clock, I saw that it was noon. Perfect. A perfectly lazy morning, I thought. I should indulge on my first day off.

    I showered, put on casual clothes, and hopped onto the MetroRail. I didn’t take my usual stop to work–instead, I went all the way downtown. I spent a few hours wandering through museums and galleries, soaking up art. I didn’t know a Renoir from a Van Gogh. I was just happy to be in front of work made by possessed hands. Possessed much like mine would be, I thought. Didn’t rich people pay artists all the time back in the old days, and fund their work just like “S”? They were called patrons.

    This is how it should be. This is how the world should be.

    This happy mantra spun my head downtown, through ice cream shops and sunny park strolls. I bought a pair of sunglasses and ate a disgustingly large burger for dinner. I watched a horror movie and, that evening, returned back to my apartment.

    “Today, I did nothing of importance,” I spoke to myself as I floated up the stairs. “Nothing at all. And it was fantastic.”

    I arrived at my door. There was a yellow sticky note on it. My smile thinned. I tore the paper off and read:

    ***

    Yes.

    Beg just like that, you fucking slut.

    -S

    ***

    I stared at the words for a moment. I wondered how long that had been on my door, and if any of my neighbors had seen it. Did they think I was some kind of pervert? They certainly would if notes like this became commonplace.

    I stumbled into my apartment, the day turning a little bit more gray with anxiety. I realized all at once that it was Thursday–and that my new deadline was inching closer.

    I flipped through the graveyard of my short stories. I had amassed a pile of unfinished work, some already the length required for my Friday submission. I was not concerned about meeting the word count as much as I was finishing–I was, after all, someone that liked to lose themselves in the act. It was my joy, and my weakness.

    I opened up a blank document and began to type nonsense. Letters, numbers, words without narrative sense. Just things to move the fingers.

    “What do I want to say? What do I want to write?”

    I typed.

    “It’s hard to explain, but I’m stuck. I can’t seem to figure out how to end this story.”

    I held my face in my hands and shuffled through possibilities. There were so many to choose from, and I wanted to do all and none of them at the same time. I needed something to inspire me, to get me going.

    Then I remembered the star. Shit.

    I lumbered into the kitchen and opened the window. The star waited in the sky for me, as it always had and, I began to suspect, as it always will. I pulled down my sweat pants, leaned, and stroked. My eyes were affixed to the star. I imagined the pleasure it derived from one little human’s thoughts and lust. I felt its glare pierce me. I drooled stupidly as I mumbled, “Please make me write for you, S… please… I want to be your little story-slut…”

    The sky grew brighter. I could feel the weight of it all bearing down on me. The light was growing, expanding. Heat prickled on my skin. I felt my place in the universe, so insignificant under the gaze of the old star. A ringing filled my ears. My eyes widened and teared up. I couldn’t look away. I couldn’t stop pumping my cock. I whimpered like a bitch in heat, like a worshipper lost.

    “Please, S! Please make me your bitch!” I cried out. “I’m your little writing slut, S! I’m just a dirty little faggot who needs to be used and abused by you! Make me write for you, S! I’ll do anything for you! Anything! I’m yours! Your slut, S! Please! God! Pleasepleaseplease!”

    I was in a trance, lost to the star’s power. I couldn’t see anything else. All I could hear was my own voice, my own pleas, my own whimpers swallowed up in the sky.

    “Please, S! I need you! I need you to make me write for you! Please, S! Please!”

    The world around me became a blur. I was screaming now, crying out, begging for mercy. I didn’t know where I was anymore. One might’ve thought I was being railed right then and there. And, perhaps, I was. I was being taken. Taken by the star.

    I felt my cock swell and throb. My orgasm was upon me. The ringing broke. I cried out and came all over myself. Ropes of semen draped over my chest and stomach and face. I didn’t care. I was beyond caring. I was drenched in sweat and semen and nothing else mattered except presenting myself to the star.

    My heart pounded in my ears. I crawled back into my room and fell into my bed and went to sleep.

    ***

    I woke up Friday morning unsure of the time. I smelled of the spice of the previous night’s submission. It was awful and great in equal parts, gym sweat and stale cum. I spent plenty of time in the shower, desperate to wash the stench away. I put on fresh clothes, lumbered back into my bedroom, and jumped in mild panic when I realized it was already 1 P.M. I had but hours to finish my story, per the conditions of my contract.

    I decided to open up the layout of the men on the train. While it wasn’t the most fleshed out work-in-progress I had, it was one of my more recent obsessions and the orgasm I had a few nights prior–spurred by the vision of the Latino Daddy slapping me around with a stack of money–seemed appropriate, given the week I had. I sat at my desk and began typing furiously. I I’d never been so focused on something in my life.

    The words flowed out of me as a leak in the reservoir of my mind. I typed faster than I ever had before. I couldn’t help it. I only took breaks for food, which I ate little of, and to go to the bathroom. My eyes were wide, and my brow was furrowed. Sweet sweat poured out of me. I didn’t have time to focus on pacing, or character arcs, or thematic underpinnings–instead, I was pinned to the story, caught hopelessly in the grasp of creation without concern of quality. Only the making mattered. No thoughts. Just making.

    By the time 5 o’clock rolled around, I had finished the rough draft of my story. I was shocked. I hadn’t written anything this quickly in years. 20 pages of filth, rendered by zest only I possessed. I took a break and went to get dinner. I had no idea what to eat, so I ordered pizza. By the time it arrived and I ate, it was 6:30. Thirty minutes to polish it and submit. No problem. I’m a fast editor, and a good one. No pressure at all.

    I sat down at the desk and read through the story again. I was still amazed at how well it was coming together. The characters were alive, the plot was tight, and the climax was on point. I was on a roll. I’ll just scan through and polish up some of the prose and…

    “You’re running out of time, Davey,” a voice said. It was like scraping; it came from the walls, and inside my head.

    I spun around in my chair, looking for the source.

    Something grabbed me by the shirt and spun me back to face the monitor.

    “You need to finish the story, Davey.” The voice rose in volume. It spoke manically, as if through clenched teeth.

    “Wha…” I babbled, “…are you ‘S?’ Are you here?”

    “You NEED to get to work,” my chair slammed forward and pinned me against the desk, “DAVEY.”

    I panted. I looked at the clock. 6:40. Maybe not as much time as I thought. I did a quick spot check. I considered fiddling with the ending of the story, but something cupped itself over my hand, and forced my mouse over to the save button.

    “YOU NEED TO SUBMIT THE FILE, DAVEY!” The voice stabbed in my head. It was some horrid combination of laughter and screaming, spit-slinging cries that rattled me in my core. I tried to turn my head, and something closed over my skull and forced me to look back at the monitor. It held my head in place, keeping my gaze forward. “YOU NEED TO FOCUS, DAVEY! GET TO WORK, DAVEY!”

    I opened Literotica. I scrambled for the ‘New Story’ button and began to fill out the fields. As I did so, I felt more things began to touch my body. They felt like hands, warmer than they should’ve been, with longer, more slender digits. They grabbed at my thighs and chest and loins and rubbed me hard and raw. They spread my legs wide, wider than I was prepared for. They groped at my taint and squeezed my balls. It was difficult to concentrate on the submission. I couldn’t see where the hands came from. They seemed to swarm my body from some impossible angle, and manged to find my flesh from underneath my clothes without removing anything.

    “YOU’VE GOT TO FILL OUT THE CATEGORY, DAVEY!” the voice frothed.

    I clicked.

    “MAKE SURE ALL YOUR TAGS ARE THERE, DAVEY!” it spat.

    I cried.

    “PREVIEW THE STORY, DAVEY! IT HAS TO LOOK RIGHT OR EVERYONE WILL HATE IT, DAVEY!” it cawed.

    I typed wildly, never before having faced such terror from a submission form. I felt it insert slimy fingers in my mouth. It played with my ears. It pinched my nipples, and began to choke my neck.

    “YOU BETTER HURRY, DAVEY! YOU BETTER HURRY, DAVEY! YOU BETTER HURRY, DAVEY!” every time it screamed, it became louder, more distorted, more violent and happy and terrifying.

    I hit submit at 6:59.

    All at once, I was freed from the grip of a thousand hands. I collapsed onto my desk, panting, sobbing, shaking. The voice had left, the room was silent.

    “Does that…” I swallowed, “…do I still have to beg tonight?”

    “Yes,” the voice laughed in deep static. His booming snarl shook my ribcage. “Get in the kitchen, faggot.”

    I panted, and blinked, and drooled.

    I slumped out of my desk, and fell to my hands and knees. My hair clung to my head. This felt like a natural position, more natural than I had ever found it before. And in that position, I crawled–like a dog, like a slave–to the window. I opened it. I sat on my knees. I was naked, and hard, and terrified. I looked up to the star, and I begged.